I Hope This Hurts [Mouthwashing]
Warnings : Spoilers for mouthwashing , mention of abuse, gore, SA, ECT. just preocced with the knowalge of the game.
Actions have consequences...
Jimmy steps in to the show the water giving a slight stinging sensation, not to much to hurt a person but enough to feel he's alive. He stands there for a few moment feeling the water trickle down his body washing everything away.
As he reaches down and grabs the shampoo, applys it to his scalp and closes his eyes before massaging it in to his head the thoughts start to replay, everything dose, what he did to Anya, the crash, daisuke, swansea, the things he saw. seeing on of his best friends burnt, lying on the floor bleeding out, the entire ship in mayhem. someone needs to take responsibility right? he helps Anya get him up in to med bay and patch him. nothing will ever compare to the gut reaching sounds that he made, the visuals. the feeling of his burnt warm wet muscle as they bandaged him, the way curly looked up at him almost in fear and shock of what Jimmy caused. The sights were almost burned in to his eyes.
The water was getting hotter, almost making his skin red.
Daisuke climbing In to the vent was his idea. but it wasn't his fault right? he was the only one taking responsibility he had to make rash decisions. But the state of him afterwards? the electrical burns and scrapes. daisuke could hardly talk afterwards. it was only right to have swansea put him down. its not like he would have lasted long anyways. but the quick breaths in anticipation.. the sound the axe made cracking down in to his skull, the sound of daisuke rattle will never leave his mind. the view afterwards? it was terrible. the indent in his face that was seeping with blood and the lifeless eyes staring up in to the celling, void of what was the happy go lucky intern..
He could feel every searing drop of water, felt like he was being pelted with tiny rocks.
The things between him and Anya? the feelings were lacking but it didn't matter to him, she felt so nice how could she not like it? its not necessarily like she said no, hell her door was even unlocked. he was so thankful for her not having that kid. his life would have been over if she had that kid, especially after they landed.
His skins a bright red by now the water almost making welts
And Swansea, god did he grind Jimmy's gears, he's kinda happy that he put him down, he tried to attack him after all. its not his problem he's crazy. But every snid comment that was thrown at him cant help but be burned in to his head, every. single. comment.
The soap is trickling down his body, he can feel it burning in to his eyes, mouth, nose, everything.
but everything? the sight of curly, what used to be his best friend; Anya, hell she didn't deserve it and he knows that; daisuke, he was just a kid - barely an adult, he didn't deserve that, his parents were waiting for him at home; swansea, he had a wife and kids waiting for him at home.
The waters boiling his skin, he comes back out of his thoughts to welts, red hot lines, burning eyes, the whole nine yards. the water that was supposed to clean him. cleanse him of what he's done. but he isn't. he can feel every ounce of what he's done lay on him. he feels disgusting.
All he can remember are the words
Thank you guys so much for all the support !! this is just kinda a shit post ig? idk I'm not to confident in it but I hope you guys enjoyed !
[I'm sorry if its written / spelled wrong I'm dyslexic and working on it]