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Torii at Itsukushima Shrine by banzainetsurfer on Flickr.

My girlfriend and I went to the Rain Room at MoMA yesterday after waiting four hours in the blistering sun. I think it was worth it.

#i miss this

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proper way to eat pizza

Literally my favorite MV

#rameses b #transcend

sydneying

Dried roses - swatched

sydneying

Untermyer Park, Yonkers, NY

sydneying

OOTB(ae) | Sydney Ng

We’ve driven by this beautifully vined wall so many times over the past year and finally decided to just do an impromptu shoot. It’s a pretty nice area despite the occasional roadside litter.

#its a pictures of me #:>

sydneying

Smoked salmon | Sydney Ng

First attempt at making a cinemagraph! (◕‿◕✿)

pilsuks

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My idol

i only check tumblr when i'm depressed

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上海同济

Shanghai (credits)

#i miss ecnu....

i used to leave cryptic tags on my dream journal posts so i could keep a public log of who the dream was about without letting other people know. so cryptic, in fact, that i'm unable to decipher these tags now.....

#welp

checking in

#do people still use tumblr

Really missing Powerspace right now

#can you save me #someone #somehow #right on right now

i've been dealing with really bad anxiety these past two months up until monday when i finally had a full blown anxiety attack on the way home on the subway. it was my actual first attack since the trigger all of this, but it felt as dreadful as i anticipated. can you imagine all your walls crumbling down, unable to stop yourself from having all these thoughts of hopelessness despite knowing how irrational all these ideas are? all those negative thoughts you suppress suddenly become the only thing you can think about, and that sinking feeling in your stomach attacks you with every breath you take. it feels like death, like it physically feels like death. this was as bad if not worse than the first time.

and then all of a sudden, i'm able to recompose myself. my body stops shaking and my breathing slows down, and it feels like i finally have control over my own body. i felt really cathartic after this, ironically. kind of like a new appreciation for life and what i have. i don't feel like it'll happen again, though i cant help stop those thoughts from spilling into my head. i feel like i'm entering a part of my life where i'm struggling with my own mind rather than anything external. my biggest fear right now is becoming crazy.