where is that timepetals spyxfamily au where doctorrose are loyd and yor, amy is anya, rory is damian, melody is becky, and roryās parents (adopted) are lucy and saxon š
timeline where rose saves everyone but the doctor doesn't save her. where the doctor takes the energy out of rose and it still kills her anyway, where she was dead before he ever had a hope to save her, and bad wolf was just her last acts, what was left over. and he stills regenerates because he didn't know.
and then the doctor's reborn, regenerated, shaped for rose. he's everything he wanted to be, hoped to be, for rose. he's for rose. and rose's cooling corpse is laid on the ground, face still stained with golden tear tracks, bright and beautiful and otherworldly, almost resembling the glow of a regeneration that's never to work, because rose isn't like him, her body not built like his, not for any single piece of what's just happened. but the doctor's made himself for her. who would he become without her, how could he even be without her?
so he scoops her body and just clings to her tight. not a goodbye, because he missed his chance when he took her life without even realizing what he was doing, when he sent her away with a trick, but still a finality. but then... but then, still reeling from the excess energy between the regeneration and bad wolf, thoughts a scrambled mess like radio signals interrupting each other or cars crashing into each other one after another, the doctor has an idea.
what would he be, without rose? nothing. not him. not this him. he can't part from her. he can't... what's he to do with her body, anyway? leave her? like. jack. and with the ashes. well, that's not happening, obviously.
so clinging turns to holding turns to carrying her body deeper into his ship, ignoring the sparkings in his head and the wary tolls of the tardis, keeping himself grounded and focused with the weight of her in his new arms. first door he comes across, he pulls her room forward, though the tardis whines even as she does what he asks of her, and there rose's room is. loud and pink and just an utter mess. so wonderfully her. he doesn't touch anything. couldn't, really, with her taking up both his hands now. all he does is gently begin to lower the-body-left-behind-of rose onto her bed, like he's simply found her asleep out and about around the tardis, and is trying not to wake her up, lest she start whinging at him about letting her rest once in a while, would he.
his body spasms in pain, and he cringes when automatically he lets go of her. she crashes down, bouncing once like she'd purposefully fallen back into her bed, before her head lolls to the side, limp. she doesn't wake up like he was irrationally expecting her to. he wonders how much of his sudden nausea is from rose and how much is just the poor regeneration.
forcing tremoring hands to work, he fixes her. not like it matters, but. oh, rose would be so annoyed if he'd left her like that, wouldn't she? so he arranges her more carefully, more comfortably. more rose-like.
she still looks dead. but in the moment, in his burning brain, she's still just his precious companion.
there's lots of things a tardis can do, both inside and out. powerful, they are. putting a room in stasis, holding it, like in a memory, a roster of everything that's ever been, but still there if he wishes for them, is a personal favourite of his.
he doesn't visit earth, powell estate, 2006, christmas eve. he doesn't even think about jackie and mickey and the rest of it all. he doesn't think of rose. he just goes. and he forgets what he's done, because. well. it's hard to focus on much of anything when his body sort of feels like it's dying even when he knows he's still healing. it's even harder when he topples to the floor of the tardis on a random planet in a galaxy he's not even sure of, and doesn't get back up again for a while.
time passes. and he continues to forget, because there's some strange part of him that's soothed even when he feels the void of her missing beside him, and he doesn't bother to look closely enough as to why he feels that way.
it's in the middle of an adventure, because of course it is, when he suddenly remembers rose, who's still on the tardis. when he remembers what his immediate post-regeneration self did with her. he blanches and trips and doesn't get himself captured or killed, but it's a very near thing.
when he's back and safe on his ship, he doesn't visit her. he doesn't. not so directly. but he does stand outside her door, deep into the winding halls of the tardis, and stares at it. because... it's not right, what he did. he knows that, now. rose shouldn't be with. him. here. like that. but. at the same time, where else would rose possibly wish to be? she chose him. she came back to him, to the tardis, to his life. and it killed her. but she...
he doesn't think he could stand the sight of her dead. a body. his memory during his regeneration is fuzzy and confusing in a way time lords are not typically like, and he rather likes his last clear picture of her. golden. and lovingly human, in her power.
so he doesn't open the door. but he doesn't stop the way his head leans down to bump against it, either, and he doesn't stop himself from curling his voice around her name, a whisper and a whine. lets himself indulge for the first, and probably the last, time in this body, while he's still here, and there, with her.
and then he leaves her. in the tardis, right between his hearts, shielded and hidden away from everyone, even himself. because the doctor is selfish, in love. and this doctor was made for rose. who is he even without her?
āWas ninerose romantic?ā āWould Rose stay with Twelve?ā āWould Rose stay with 13?ā āWould Rose have liked any of the classic incarnations?ā
You guys really underestimate the power of love and daddy issues
LAST SONG: fireproof by 1d... mitski's beautiful cover of course made me relapse on the insanity of my youth. (i had a zayn and louis pin on one of my bags but louis fell off and i've been mourning his death.)
CURRENTLY WATCHING: criminal minds for the millionth time... (almost done s9! kate callahan here i come), ER mid season 10 i think, and six feet under which i honestly haven't watched in a while but i miss my lovely three apples tall david fisher so i need to go back...
CURRENT OBSESSION(S): sleeep sleepsleep being sleepy sleeping all the time, mixed media pieces (whats better than using multiple mediums?), yellows and pinks and just pretty flowery pallets in general, and subway cookies (at a very low point rn. i find myself at subway multiple times a week...)
CURRENTLY READING: i have not read for pleasure in ridiculously long!! i was reading some of slaughterhouse five by kurt vonnegut when i was on vacation and have been meaning to pick it up again,,, other than that i've been trying to read anything i can find in french... which is honestly a desperate attempt to not lose the language but i have been very lazy with it!
CURRENTLY WORKING ON: wayyy too much... a few neighbour!reader fics, a miniseries which is a continuation of this kinktober work (also inspired by super stars by yves tumor... my god i cannot get enough of enemy fuck buddies give me 14 of them rn) anddd some drafts for (one of those) crazy girls ... i always have a lot of fics the go tbh which is interesting because i rarely post any... hmmm...
CURRENTLY WEARING: black leggings and a nyan cat top! (peak fashion)
LAST GOOGLE SEARCH: cezanne, i was doing some post impressionism refresh for a piece i've been working on.. i know practically nothing about modern art history, but its still extremely interesting!
FAVOURITE FLOWER: hydrangeas! specifically the pink ones! as well as lilacs. i loveeee lilacs sm and their season is coming to an end where i live... so depressing i don't like summer:(
thanks for the tag :ā) iāll tag @fan-enby-anonymous, @bluebirdflynn7, @reverie-de-la-rose, @alexmey-does-an-arts and anyone else whoās interested <3
last song: my way by olivia rodrigo! love her new album so much
currently watching: criminal minds (iām on s6 of my second watch), occasionally some doctor who (always) and smallville
current obsessions: criminal minds, PJO/riordanverse, etc etc
currently reading: i just finished a reread of the chalice of the gods by rick riordan and am planning on starting beach read by emily henry!
currently working on: umm i donāt write or draw fanfic/fanart these days lol. but today i finished packing for my trip to barcelona, i leave tomorrow!!
currently wearing: old hogwarts pajama t-shirt and sweatpants from the gap š
Currently watching: hopefully about to restart Doctor Who again
Current obsessions: Doctor Who, the Orville, Michael Jackson
Currently Reading: Moonwalk by Michael Jackson
Currently working on: how on earth to participate in online fandoms and have good mental health at the same time
Currently wearing: a long Cafton
Last google search: Mary Jane spiderman
Favorite flower: carnations, roses, hibiscus
(Please donāt hate me for the Michael Jackson stuff. I believe in his innocence and have a lot of personal reasons why I do. If you donāt hopefully we can still be friends)
Currently watching: City Council of Darkness (Dimension 20)
Currently reading: Political Fictions: From the Middle Ages to the "Post-Truth" Present by Patrick Boucheron
Current obsession: Doctor Who (always), Dimension 20
Currently working on: god so many WIPs, but also doing some edits on an already posted fic just to be productive during a bad writers block. I have a medieval fantasy NineRose AU, a ādegenerationā fic (where 10 changes back to 9 instead of becoming 11), and still trying to finish up Keeping Our Forever, to name a couple. (Oh, and applying for PhD programs)
Currently wearing: black jeans, blue t shirt, blue menās dress shirt over the top, converse
Last google search: the name of the book iām reading to make sure i got the whole title right š
Favorite flower: pink peonies, sunflowers.
@ghostlingxdoodles @silence37 (I know Reverie already tagged you, but I have 3 internet friends and yall are it lmao)
Thanks @reverie-de-la-rose and @doctor-autumn-123 for the tags! I feel so popular lol.
Last Song: Frank Sinatra by CAKE
Currently Watching: Spider Noir (last two episodes I'm so close to getting through spoiler free) & Doctor Who (always)
Currently Reading: This is How You Lose The Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone
Currently Working On: ...oh dear, so many things. My artfight profile, an 8/Rose illustration for my 8/Rose fic: It Must've Been Love, the next chapter of that fic as well as my mer!tenth Doctor fic: A Fish, A Human, And Something In-Between, and finally a 4/Rose sickfic ONESHOT (because I can't take any more long term WIPS).
Currently Wearing: An off-shoulder shirt with celestial/tarot themed graphics (that I DIYed myself, v proud) and star print pants
Last Google Search: Gears of War E-Day release (I'm a huge gears fan and I've played every game, can't wait for this one)
Favorite Flower: Bellflowers, especially Cornish bellflowers & Forget-me-nots
@starryknight63 @vvvvvvvvvvv17 @misspepperpottss @five-babygurl @strange0-0storm @vampirelliee no pressure tag!
currently watching: eeeeeh havent watched any series in so long š youtube if weāre gonna be honest š mostly documentaries on hurricanes and storms or historical building/infrstracture/etc disasters
currently reading: the cyberiad by stanislaw lem
current obsession: call me the doctor because rose tyler is haunting me everywhere lmao. but also wuwa (lahai-roi is so peak bro. the way they utilised time travel? the indomitable human spirit? lucillaās speech when she confronted the rabbit???? GOD. still catching up but augh so so good)
currently working on: rushing to finish an irl art project with the deadline being next week mainly. some ocverse things and art practices and studies. also started working on art concepts and drafts for my what if (redacted) au but still just some little things
currently wearing: a cami top and some shorts, trying to survive this bloody heat
last google search: necktie cotton 100% (s for a gift)
favourite flower: sunflowers š» (altho not really a flower person, in which i mean i love specific flowers but i dont really learn their names. i call them via their colour up until i need to actually learn their names for fanfic research purposes or if i wanna gift it to someone and i have to make sure theyre not allergicš)
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
CHAPTER TWO OUT ā¼ļø
Chapters: 2/4
Fandom: Doctor Who, Doctor Who (2005), Doctor Who & Related Fandoms
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: The Doctor (Doctor Who)/Rose Tyler, Twelfth Doctor/Rose Tyler, The Doctor & Mia (Doctor Who: Empire of the Wolf), Past Metacrisis Tenth Doctor/Rose Tyler (mentioned)
Characters: The Doctor (Doctor Who), Twelfth Doctor (Doctor Who), Rose Tyler | Bad Wolf, Metacrisis Tenth Doctor (Doctor Who) (mentioned), Mia (Doctor Who: Empire of the Wolf), Bill Potts, Original Minor Characters
Additional Tags: Not Beta Read, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Memory Loss, Memory Issues, Bad Wolf as Disability (Doctor Who), Reunions, Parallels, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Hopeful Ending, Angst with a Bittersweet Ending, I Wrote This While Listening to Mitski's Music, Title from a Mitski Song, Inspired by a Mitski Song, Song: Two Slow Dancers (Mitski)
Summary:
ādoctor ā¦ who?ā
āisnāt that the million dollar question, rose tyler?ā
or: a man, a woman, and a daughter all attend a wedding. a husband, a wife and a stranger leave the reception
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