i'll be posting about whatever i feel like. might range from ninjago, malevolent, the magnus archives, omori, to whatever other nonsense tries to strangle me
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#ninjago fic / fanfic -- used primarially for an arin fic i'm writing, which you can read here! though it might be for some other fic, any other fic i might mention can be viewed on my ao3 account!
#ninjago walking moons -- for rambles about an overly complicated dragons rising AU i have
#vy rambles -- just general nonsense. either rants about something, or an update, or just other random stuff i feel like posting about
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UM i got an ask but for some reason it isn't letting me post from it, but here!!!
the ask was from @/lemmy-koopa-rocks i believe and it was "In your AU, with all her trauma, what remains of Sora’s humanity? What doesn’t remain?"
heerre is a sora animation i was messing around with
here are all other parts
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andd heres a big ramble under the cut!!
this is actually a really fantastic question that makes me very excited to delve into… everything that sora has got going on.
both her and arin are obviously extremely changed bc of what they went through, and they both have trauma from lloyd's death, their fights, and the universe ending. but there's just a sliight difference in how they reacted after.
in some ways, they feel the exact same. in other ways, they feel the exact opposite. both don't want ras's plans to succeed, don't want lloyd to die, ect. but sora's way about going about stopping these things is way more… personal. the best way to describe it is that arin watched the universe end, but sora watched arin end it. arin's goal is to stop the universe from being destroyed. sora's goal is to stop arin from destroying it.
with that in mind, sora will do anything to stop arin and get what she feels is justice. in the show, we see how passionate she is about liberating imperium -- imagine that but amped up to 100, riddled with guilt and morally grey actions, but instead of for a city it's for the entire universe and aimed at one person, arin.
she lost a lot of herself in her attempts to kill him and in her time spent alone. she was grieving her entire timeline, lloyd, jordana, and her best friend. unlike arin, she didn't have the shattering to lean on to numb her. she feels things so deeply and is so distraught with pain and rage and deep, deep love that everything people do, everything that she does, is like a hand squeezing her heart. she's just waiting for the day that it pops.
to get closer to your question, sora's humanity is both what makes her so merciful and what makes her do horrific things. she wants to save everyone she has ever loved and she will twist the knife into arin's heart and wash off his blood over and over again until she can. she wants arin dead for killing her father and she keeps pictures of all 3 of them beside her bed and doesn't want anything bad to happen to the photos. she misses the love of her life (jordana) so badly so sora recreates a photac version of her so that sora can still see her face and she will spend hours crafting a version of her to have and yet never check in on the real one. she can stab arin while he cries and not have her hands shake anymore and also quietly daydream about them being 12 and accidentally falling asleep on the couch again.
sora is so disconnected from those that she loves that she doesn't even always realize that she's even hurting them anymore -- when the ninja finally find her, when sora's perception of Z gets rattled and she realizes that maybe it's not actually arin who messed everything up ... she's so overcome with relief and anger that it makes her sick.
um. i think this was a long ramble that maybe didn't even answer your question, but sora's humanity and morals are a finicky thing. she cares so deeply for those she loves and never wavers in it despite everything that's happened to her.... but also, she is grieving everyone in horrific ways and will throw anything moral out the window if arin is in front of her. it isn't until she's back with the others that she has more of a reality check lol. but yeah.
sora's the type of girl to forget to wash the blood off her hands when she sits down to eat dinner. to try and kill arin mercilessly and then cry when lloyd places a hand on her shoulder. she wants arin dead so badly and then he'll also be the first person she instinctively looks towards to make sure he's okay after something happens. she is constantly contradicting herself and oh boy is it a doozy when she has to confront it. (m-maybe arin ISN'T the cause of every horrific thing ever??? maybe he's a victim too?!??? crazy out of the world concepts like those)
thank you so much for the ask!! sorry this is a bit nonsensical haha :)
hi guys do any of you have writing motivation techniques that aren't just "open the doc and write some dialogue you'll make it better later" or do I just have to push through that
i think that "make it exist first" is helpful advice but it can be hard to actually like. get into the zone of writing nonsense. for me at least, it's helpful to have sort of a bullshit area where you write genuine dogshit nonsense that you can work with, because then you'll eventually end up in a flow and you can start doing things. for me, i have a discord server (that only im in lol) where i'll just. start explaining what it is i'm trying to say and i'll end up with something i can work with, at least vibe-wise.
(examples here from my arin fic lol)
it's less of actually being able to write things down and fix it up later, it's more actually starting to write in the first place. these are some of the smaller / more comprehensible examples i have, but there are lots of times that i've just rewritten word for word whatever nonsense i put in that server because it'll randomly get really dramatic. other times, i have an outline that works in "my language" (silly) that helps me process the other things im supposed to write. this works in lots of different ways as well! a separate google doc that has a different font, writing in all lowercase, using notes app, ect. anything that allows you to begin writing without all the strain of eww... im writing....
sometimes for writing motivation, i'll actually write small scenes or even poems that do NOT fit even the slightest bit that i'm actually writing. getting into the flow of things and establishing a Vibe is an awesome way to nail down what you're going for and motivate you a little bit more. sometimes all it takes is a quote or a line that defines what the rest of your writing will be. the trick is to just get into the creative headspace. writing small things like this (or long poems... but im not sharing those lol) is helpful for me to get vibes across. sorry for cringe </3
dialog is esp tricky, but for me if i know the character well(ish) enough, then i'll just sort of establish a Thought that they're currently having, and let it develop as they talk. (like... what do they want from what they're saying. they want to convince someone of something? okay, frame it in that way. but then if something is said that leans the other way, they may have a whole backslide of justifying their previous thought or trying to dispute it.) its simpler yet also more complicated than this but it helps to start dialog knowing what each character think will come of it, INCLUDING if they think "i dont know what will come of this" lol.
so many times that i write dialog, the finished thing is like... super far off from what i was imagining, but feels more like them / more natural. also going back to the casual nonsense writing, sometimes it's helpful to just write the dialog. get the thoughts down with no speaking tags or descriptive words, and then you'll understand what they want to communicate, and go from there. (technically, you could try to do the opposite as well, but i think that would be... harder. usually what my poem things are for lol)
here are. just dialog things
anyways. yeah TLDR there are a lot of ways and i could probably say more but the trick is to just do ANYTHING you can to Start Writing. write in all lowercase OR IN ALL CAPS!!!! SOMETIMES YOU'VE GOTTA JUST WRITE LIKE THIS!!! TO GET A POINT ACROSS!!!! use a different font or notes app or discord or some other app or website. write on your phone!! im not a cop!! i literally once used mspaint!!!!
i write poems and stuff but anything that gets you into the creative zone helps!! (though i'd suggest trying to keep it writing related. often i will be like.. "hmm i want to visualize this scene" and then i'll draw for 4 hours and not solve anything lol). mess around with it!!! experiment!!!
idk if any of this is helpful lol but good luck in your writings!!!
