Got To Keep Running!

Don't ever look back on life!

[zebraurous]

Mm.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here.

My boyfriend and I are currently working things out since he admitted to his affair. I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression since the news, but it’s slowly getting more tolerable.

A few nights ago we were talking when he noticed something on my dorm wall that reminded him of the guy. I took it down and was met with something completely unexpected. He started out: “Thank you, thank you for everything. For putting up with me.” I replied, “Yeah, I’ve been and I’m still going through hell.” But then… “And for that I thank you. You are so strong. I’m proud of you. I’ll never be as strong as you are. You are courageous, and I wasn’t courageous enough. I need to learn from you. I love you so much.” Not exactly the order since I was bawling at the time, but he said this.

I honestly thought I was going through this alone. Of course we talked about it but I never thought of him appreciating me. It’s nice to be recognized for the strength hidden behind the tears, nightmares, mood swings, etc. Once he told me this, I felt like I was a warrior queen, whom was just fighting the biggest war of her life…and won. It was an encouraging experience.

I’ve learned from this experience is that:

People make mistakes, so don’t put all of yourself in them, or you’ll be very disappointed. Being trusting can be nice, but hurt as well. Forgiveness is not free. If he were ever to do this again, I will be done. “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.” Wounds will shape you. It hurts, but it’s for the better. You are important and beautiful. To make it through this decently, you must have self-love, and, unfortunately, I didn’t have it until after the fact. Stay strong. It will get better, though it may not be a fast recovery.

[wallywest-bolt]

My girlfriend and I, of 3 1/2 years have been working on this for a couple of months. This past Saturday we started to talk things out. I'm not perfect, and neither is she. We understand that and I am proud of the she is the woman she is. Thank you.

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[wallywest-bolt]

Just a reminder saying that you can do anything you set your mind to!

[wallywest-bolt]

Adventure

Remember don't be afraid to try something new!

[wallywest-bolt]

First real blog

      We all live our lives as normal everyday human beings, but most of the world only knows people by what they read on the internet. The current generation, of mankind, were born into a world full of cellphones, Facebook, twitter, and topix. They were not taught how to spell, thanks to autocorrect. Parents give their toddlers their phones or iPad to “keep them busy,” but i am here to say this is a terrible way to be raised. Kids today have so many ways of gwtting to stuff that they DO NOT need to be seeing or to mess with.

       I may sound “Old Fashioned” while typing this, but come on I’m only 20, get over it. I’m saying this all because I’ve seen peoples lives RUINED because of social media and technology. I’m not saying It’s all the technologies fault, don’t get me wrong i love social media but it depends on how you use it. People don’t understand that there is a right way to use social media, and also a wrong way. For example let’s say you get on facebook and start scrolling through your news feed and you scroll past a person you don’t like’s photo, what do you do? do you keep scrolling? Or do you write a profane phrase in the comments? Which one do you choose? If you chose the first one, then you might of done the right thing, how do I know you chose to do it the first time.

        Also the T.V. shows of today are also garbage, who cares what the Kardashians are up to, they are everyday normal people, thats stretching it, just like us who makes money just for “living their lives” on camera. Where is a show that is about real life experiences or will show teenagres how to live life with out partying it up. We live in a world where it’s okay to be “16 and pregnant”. I understand “it’s their life” well yeah and guess what is also going to be that new human being’s life now, and now comes the fun part. Going back to what I said about the new human beings LIFE, by that I mean yes it is a life you decide you don’t want it fine put it up for adoption, give that person a chance in this world. there are people in this world who have the unfortunate gift of not being able to give birth a child and you are too selfish enough to be grateful that you can actually give birth. I don’t want to be remembered as “ the person who did so and so”, or “The did you see that on his/her facebook” guy. I want to be remembered as Wally, the real me.

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this very lengthy blog post, and sorry for going off subject I’m bad at writing.

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