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Yay daily stories of misadventures.

[igxbaddies]

[youngharlemnigga]

Bro. I ain’t even know elephants had titties

[iverbz]

this ruined my life

[laurdlannister-kingslayer]

Ya girl went to the podiatrist for the corns on her feet and you see this hippo frying jeans in a rice cooker she staying at y’all house because they kicked her out the tundra what do you do

[iverbz]

ENOUGH

[justablueumbrella]

[wallywest-bolt]

Just a reminder saying that you can do anything you set your mind to!

[zebraurous]

Mm.

It's been a while since I've posted on here. My boyfriend and I are currently working things out since he admitted to his affair. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression since the news, but it's slowly getting more tolerable. A few nights ago we were talking when he noticed something on my dorm wall that reminded him of the guy. I took it down and was met with something completely unexpected. He started out: "Thank you, thank you for everything. For putting up with me." I replied, "Yeah, I've been and I'm still going through hell." But then... "And for that I thank you. You are so strong. I'm proud of you. I'll never be as strong as you are. You are courageous, and I wasn't courageous enough. I need to learn from you. I love you so much." Not exactly the order since I was bawling at the time, but he said this. I honestly thought I was going through this alone. Of course we talked about it but I never thought of him appreciating me. It's nice to be recognized for the strength hidden behind the tears, nightmares, mood swings, etc. Once he told me this, I felt like I was a warrior queen, whom was just fighting the biggest war of her life...and won. It was an encouraging experience. I've learned from this experience is that: People make mistakes, so don't put all of yourself in them, or you'll be very disappointed. Being trusting can be nice, but hurt as well. Forgiveness is not free. If he were ever to do this again, I will be done. "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." Wounds will shape you. It hurts, but it's for the better. You are important and beautiful. To make it through this decently, you must have self-love, and, unfortunately, I didn't have it until after the fact. Stay strong. It will get better, though it may not be a fast recovery.

[zebraurous]

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My boyfriend cheated on me. With a dude. It wasn't recent, but it still hurts as if it just happened yesterday. I'm trying to keep myself away from alcohol, sharp objects, drugs, etc. but they are all so tempting. Like, I want pain to distract me away from the torture that absolutely tore my heart. I want to fall asleep, forget everything, and possibly never wake up. Ever.

[zebraurous]

Ready for bright sunshine and warmth.

[noworries6108]

I have been watching Portlandia a bit recently and loving this show. Fred Armisen and Carrie Brownstein are a hysterical duo. They take everything to the limit. Keep up the good work👍

[zebraurous]

Snowpocalypse of 2015

So the past week has been filled with YouTube, boredom, and sexual frustration. Snow and ice ravaged the campus and it was glorious for maybe three days. After that, it was so awful. It ruined my bank account by having to buy groceries to stay alive and it totally deprived me of seeing my boyfriend, who works nights. So since tonight is the eve before classes start back up, I would like to make a list of things I should've done instead of sleeping or being on YouTube or something else that involves wi-fi: 1. Study. 2. Clean. 3. Study. 4. Finished my news stories. 5. Study. Here's to staying up til 3 and having to get up at 6!

[zebraurous]

Bring on the Tears

When I first started my journey to womanhood, I never had cramps, felt emotional, or have to take medicine. Blood was just coming out of my vagina and I was casually acknowledging it.

But now as a 19-year-old with many contributing factors that do cause stress, I would be lucky if the cramps toned down a bit. What really gets me to hating this time of the month though is the heightened depression and anxiety.

I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my teenage life. Yeah, I still have fun and enjoy company, but sometimes I feel like I should hide away from the world and never come out, though I yearn for people to find me (not be confused with an attention whore) and to show they actually care for me.

Anyway, this past weekend was such a roller coaster for me, I don't even know how I got off alive. Like everything seemed to piss me off. Now, my boyfriend is notorious for bringing up stuff and making jokes, expecting these to be funny, but I had enough. One of my suite mate added on with her irrational actions. And I just self-hated for the longest time. Now it's coming back to bite me in the butt. Why? Because I might have said a few things that have definitely changed stuff.

All I have for now is that though I can use the excuse of periods to explain my crude moods and interjections, but you still have to own up to it. My aniexty and wants for the future and my depression and longing for both alone time and companionship have possibly screwed up my relationship.

I'm such a fuck-up.

[zebraurous]

With social media, I have tons of friends in varying areas. I have Christian friends, LGBTQ+ friends, atheist/agnostic friends, etc. It pains me that I have a lot I want to share on these social platforms, such as articles on states legalizing gay marriages, how to please your husband, and just overall open-mindedness. 

I know I can't please everyone, but I shouldn't be judged that I take a little bit from each group. I'm more of a home-body Christian that happens to like men AND women. I hope to get my degree in Communications and Sociology, and later maybe get my Master's in sexology, not because I'm a pervert, but the mental and emotional issues that go with sexuality.

I can imagine though if I were to post an article about Tennessee legalizing gay marriage, my Christian family and friends would be disappointed and condemn the sin in me. Most of them would probably disown if they even found out I also liked girls (though I am happily going steady with my boyfriend of almost 3 years ((eek!))).

On the other hand, there was an article I shared about a Christian blogger who decided to not wear leggings/yoga pants in public so she wouldn't entice men, but after reading the article comments, I can imagine my post responses from my non-religious friends saying, "She shouldn't have to do that. Her husband shouldn't be looking anyway!" or "She needs to empower herself." No. She's standing up for her beliefs and taking action by making her own decision. Enough with the forced-feminism crap.

See what I mean? It's hard for me to balance my interests with the way people will judge me. Let's be honest. No matter how open minded you try to be, some will be the opposite and they absolutely will judge you.

Now the question is, when will I stop being a people-pleaser and actually post what I'm passionate about?

[zebraurous]

Haaaaiiiiii.

Wow, these past few days have been busy. And I have reading assignments/homework due for my classes this semester. Yaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy college! 

In the meantime, I'm taking a well deserved nap.

[zebraurous]

Rant-o-polooza

Okay, I understand that I'm still financially dependent on my parents through college tuition, phone bills, etc. However, they shouldn't be allowed to control my feelings.

Earlier this evening, my grandmother's house was broken into and the robber(s) stole her jewelry and a few other items. Being the person that loves justice to be served, I made a Facebook post saying how it was a shame that these people took my grandmother's precious heirlooms and the fact that I hoped that they would get swiftly bitten by karma. No harm done, right? I'm just stating my disappointment of the event.

My parents apparently hate this being drug into the spotlight of social media, though this could help any locals I'm friends with to stay safe and take the precautions in keeping everything protected.

So I'm asking this: Am I necessarily wrong for posting this status? 

[zebraurous]

Magicalness

Have you ever felt inspired? If yes, was a book the cause of said inspiration?

That's how I felt after I finished Grace Helbig's "Grace's Guide: The Art of Pretending to be a Grown-Up."

Though I knew the book would be hilarious, I never thought that it would be so insightful as well. I feel like if I was on the street, maybe I could do a job interview without embarrassing myself, or at a party I could probably hold my liquor. And I can relate to her really well, since we share our own unique experiences with social anxiety. May I also say that her acronyms for every chapter are magical and will dramatically improve your life? 

After reading this, I'm very excited for YouTubers to write their own books, along with Hannah Hart's "My Drunk KItchen" and Mamrie Hart's upcoming release of "You Deserve a Drink." I mean, who wouldn't read a book about Shane Dawson, Rhett&Link, or Tyler Oakley? Now THAT would be magical.

So this is how I've spent my Sunday, and I hope yours was as awesome as mine! 

[zebraurous]

Wasssup.

Hopefully everyone had an awesome New Years! 

Mine was celebrated with sex, dragons, and Cards Against Humanity. Yup.

Now, I would've posted this sooner, but my parents' wi-fi is beyond weird. With my laptop, I have to connect it several times before it actually connects, but it disconnects every time the laptop sleeps or is turned off. As for my iPhone and iPad, I sometimes enter the password several times before it quits recognizing the password as "incorrect." And those disconnect every time I leave the house for a certain period of time.

But yeah, my New Years was great. I finally got my midnight kiss (and my 3 a.m. sexy-time) from my lovely boyfriend of almost three years. It also took me a year to watch How To Train Your Dragon for the first time ever (heheh, dad jokes...), along with the sequel to it. I have to say it was soooooo much better and cuter than Frozen.

Anyway, I'm going to sleep for another week, so I'll talk to ya guys later!

[zebraurous]

Hi!

So, yeah. 

I did a thing on here and I hope this helps me reach to people across the world with common interests. I also hope to think that this will help with my problem with bottling up my emotions, not getting my points across, etc.

I kind of want this to be a daily thing, like a journal except cooler (if that's even possible).

Well, happy holidays and don't get too drunk tonight.