pain, love, being forgotten thats life

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[hellish-daddi]

[imafraidoftomorrow]

Uggghhh why are all these new seasons of shows coming out right when I'm at the peak of depression and have no joy or excitement for anything

[what-iz-life]

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

[pain-neverends-blog]

It made me allow things I know I shouldn’t.

It made me unable to express my emotions.

It made me accept people into my life I should have ran from.

It made me think that I’ve always been the problem.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I’m not worth the amount of work that I am

[treo]

black and white

[theunrequitedlover]

[perfectfeelings]

“Everyone you meet always asks if you have a career, are married or own a house; as if life was some kind of grocery list. But nobody ever asks if you are happy.”

— Heath Ledger

[thighsofacutter]

s i n g l e

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[silently-screaming-insidee]

I try so hard and its never enough.

[walrustrain]

Do you ever feel like you’re just convenient?

You’re the convenient friend, convenient time pass, convenient relationship, convenient option for everyone.

You’re the person people hang out with because you’re easy, and always eager because you’re always just so desperate to feel wanted and not alone, but really you’re just convenient.

You know you’re not special, and that your spot in their life will be easily replaced and that they’d much rather someone else in their company- but again you’re just convenient. You’re the convenient option. The always available option.

I’m the friend who has best friends but isn’t the best friend. I’m the convenient friend. I’m the lover who falls in love but never the one being loved. I’m just the convenient route.

Im the ‘never says no’ friend. The ‘easy to take advantage of’ friend. The ‘can you do me a favour?’ friend. I’m the ‘useful until no longer of use’ friend. I’m the ‘I want to do something but everyone else is busy’ friend.

I’m the butt of the joke friend. I’m the punching bag friend. The forgotten friend. The one who’s feelings aren’t considered because I’m the ‘she’ll get over it’ friend.

I’m just the easy and convenient friend.

And that’s my own fault, thinking always being available, always being easy and giving more of myself will finally one day deem me worthy in someone’s eyes. Spoiler alert - it doesn’t. I’m still never enough.

I’m the ‘smile through the pain’ friend because being this friend hurts.

[treedecor]

I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. How am I supposed to be happy in a place I so clearly don't belong

[brokenfrombirth]

🎵 Maybe if I hurt myself you could be the bandage. I don’t wanna ask for help, you’d call it baggage 🎵

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

I am mentally exhausted and I want to burn everything. ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

[aidoneusfirstborn-deactivated20]

something wicked this way comes, ray bradbury