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Anise was a lesbian magazine that ran from 1996-2003 in Japan. There were 9 issues total and contained articles, manga, essays, short stories, and so on.

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Mamoru Oshii: Angel’s Egg 天使の卵 Music Edition Original Soundtrack CD (1986) album artwork: Yoshitaka Amano

2023-11-07

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This image shows a printed circuit board (PCB) featuring unique trace routing in the shape of a cat.😼 While artistic, it serves as a functional foundation for connecting electronic components.

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(Like, PC-98) [NSFW 18+]

I’m sorry I am like- obviously going off the deep end. Mother’s Day is very hard for me, my mother rejected me as a child due to postpartum and I didn’t have a chance of living with my father who also physically and mentally abused me past the point of no return, if I wasn’t raised by my grandparents I would have died.. who- tried their best but.. I was raised by a computer in my living room growing up. I was heavily abused and autistic so it was hard for anyone to connect with me in that environment.

I was never cuddled, held, tickled.. kissed. Never once.

I wish I could go back and hold myself at least just once.

I am so fundamentally fucked, I don’t think it is curable or fixable rn either. I think I’m going to have to bite the bullet and isolate myself completely which sucks majorly bc I really wanted to like- have community, support, friends..

I so badly want to connect with other people but I can’t, my trauma refuses to let people close to me I am so terrified of those around me, so unable to trust and let other people in. Last three years have been so incredibly hard on me, I stuck it out and I did the best I could. I just don’t know.

I guess this is the end of my try hard era, I am going to be in my hermit phase and I’m not going to try anymore I’m going to just exist in my room and at work and have nothing in-between. I’m tired of feeling scared and feeling like I need to work against myself to have people interested in me because I know that isn’t ever going to stick. People only wanted me because I could be potentially used and discarded again and again.

It’s so obvious I feel stupid for thinking it was ever possible to like something like myself, I’m never going to be loved for what I am because I am fundamentally flawed to the core.