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"Power beyond reckoning...and they use it as a crutch."
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Send me "I'd totally fuck you" to see my character's reaction
❤ ━━━━━ azure tempestuousness, wherein ocean contends with earth and firmament, is mirrored within his glance. inoue comprehends the magnitude of what is requested of him, as well as the repercussions that would ensue. heresy, treason, abnegation of a doctrine administered by ultima through the vessel of his own mother. repugnance coils in her abdomen at the false god's stratagems, the manner he persuades and bends mortal minds to his will. she cannot remain passive. inoue must refocus, dismantle, push back against the tide of obscurantism that threatens to swallow all. save what can be saved, beshield him, and those others who have been confined to mere pawns within ultima's grand design. is this not her raison d'être? what conceivable purpose could her power serve, if not to stand in opposition to ultima himself? he intends to propagate despair, annihilate, whilst she wants to impart hope, reconstruct, disown his devastation. aloneness renders her efforts futile; she is but a deficiency within ultima's macrocosm, a fragment he disowned, sentiments condemned as weakness. should she succeed in assembling allies, perhaps, just perhaps, lives may be preserved, and the world itself protected from collapse.
gentle hands caress the king’s countenance, as if he is something precious, irreplaceable. timbre mellows, barely audible. ❝ my lord, i’m sorry... ultima took advantage of your mother to attain you. he perverted her, twisted you, all your people, for one purpose only: obliteration. ❞ thumb traces his cheek line. ❝ do you truly believe your mother would want to see you sacrifice yourself for a deity who is no god at all ? A mother would never wish that for her child. Every mother wants her child to live, conquer, thrive... not be led to death. ❞ orihime's knowledge of his mother is fragmentary, but sufficient to recognize the permanent mark she has left upon him, perhaps the sole ember of warmth tethering him to humanity.
slender arms encircle barnaba’s neck, pulling him closer, as if she can armor him from the world’s cataclysm. ❝ you’re no fool. don’t say such a thing. ❞ words palpitate, urgent, as if repetition alone could make him believe. ❝ please, you are not a fool. merely led astray, that is all.❞ assistance is within her ability, and she is firm in her refusal to witness the world delapidate under ultima's machiavellianism, nor to abandon him amidst the concomitant ruin. he deserves more than this. a monarch free, who lives for himself, not for another's will. ❝ odin chose you because ultima thinks you’re the appropriate vessel to end it all. but i won’t let you destroy yourself! i won’t allow it! this world needs you....i need you. ❞ embrace accentuates, a silent battle waged against tears that imperil to fall from those beamful caramel irises.
❝ enough of death, suffering. my pure wish is for you, for all, to be free to exist. ultima is not the answer. the so-called new world he extols is nothing but a figment. ❞ once more, hands ascend to hold his physiognomy, caramel-hued eyes shimmering with unshed tears as she gazes into his blue depths. ❝ i’m what he tossed aside. what he means by fragility. love, and hope. if, if you side with me, he’ll swallow his own venom. ❞ odin’s power alone will not be enough. she will need more allies, those willing to oppose him. there is still time. judgment has not come. ❝ i’ll sacrifice everything. for humanity, for you. hubris is a common affliction. perfection is merely an illusion, my beloved. imperfections shall persist. Yet, loving, despite those flaws, is a precious privilege. ❞ a gentle smile graces lips amid the moisture intruding upon her gaze. ❝ flaws make us unique. if we love them, everything can improve. ❞ that is what she can do, what ultima cannot. see beauty in inadequacy, accept others as they are, not as they should be. ❝ to the deity you so ardently defend, you are but odin. yet to me, you are barnabas, a king, imperfect yet worthy of love and embrace. ❞
silence, punctuated by a measured exhalation, precedes her next utterance. it's impossible for her to know if her words reach him, if even the miniscule sliver of light penetrates his heart. ❝ why save you, you question ? ❞ enquiry is echoed, posture unchanged save for a slight pullback, remaining on her knees to meet his look, caramel irises encompassed with a variety of sentiments that propel her forward. ❝ corruption will always exist, in this life and in the next. it’s a flaw of humanity. laws and order help, but they cannot obliterate it. ❞ orihime's focus descends to her upturned palms, poised before them as if in supplication. ❝ if these hands can save you, if this heart can love you, anything is possible. i will fight for hope with my own hands. ❞ beautiful countenance is tilted to meet his. ❝ if one such as i can extend love to a man such as you, hope endures for this world. the adversary who threatens hope is ultima, and it's he whom i must oppose. ❞ a hand tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. ❝ your power alone is not enough....but there are others. if i can gather them, if the dominants stand with me, i can help to save this world. i can save you. your mother will see a true king, leading his people, liberated. ❞ palms enclose his with a firmness that belies delicate appearance. ❝ i know i ask a lot. perhaps i'm foolish, a girl enamoured with a man who deems himself too far gone. but my heart commands me. so i ask, as a humble soul, lend me your strength, my lord. let me preserve what remains of you. let me embrace your darkness, love you as you are. ❞ head inclines in a gesture of profound respect. despite the divine presence that suffuses her, humility prevails, and she bows. love and hope converge, enveloping a man whom many have condemned to ultima's design.
It is almost pathetic how Barnabas hangs on her every word as she speaks, knowing in his mind what she says to be the truth yet not quite able to bring himself to believe it. Memories flash of his mother, ones from when he was merely a boy yet they have begun to fade with the passage of time. He remembers her warmth and encouragement as she propelled him forward. When she died - murdered simply because of her beliefs - a part of him died with her, and thus triggered the power of Odin to awaken within along with his hatred of humanity.
He often dreams of the day he would reunite with her in Paradise. So why is he suddenly having second thoughts?
Stormy hues glance down at his hands, feeling the aether surge through him. He had truly believed that by being blessed with the power of an Eikon, his purpose was to serve his Lord and await the day that Mythos would arrive, thus would Barnabas prepare him and sacrifice himself so that Ultima would have his perfect vessel. He was promised paradise, yet Orihime claims it was all for naught, that he is merely a pawn in the grand plan to wipe everything from this plane of existence.
Echos of Ultima rattle in his mind, and for the first time in a very long time, he is compelled to ignore them. He lifts his gaze once more, his hands grasping hers as though she is the only lifeline, the last connection to something real in this forsaken place.
"Your heart is too pure for this world." The king states this as a fact. "Should he catch you in his claws, he will see your kindness as a weakness to exploit. I would not let that happen. I cannot..." A soft sigh escapes, expression softening as he places a finger underneath her chin and lifts her gaze.
"If what you say is true, then I will be forced to admit that everything I had ever known was a lie. You must understand that it will not be easy to turn from the path I have tread for so long. My heart has long since withered, and everyone I thought I could trust has turned from me and abandoned me. This world is wretched, yet you truly believe that I am worth saving. That humanity is worth saving."
Holding her hands in his, he presses them to his chest. "Could you bring warmth to this cold heart? Could you chase away the demons that plague me night after night? Could you love this poor, misguided monster?"
❛ i think i'm in trouble because i want this again. ❜ // look... I cackled. I had to do a thing.
𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. @fairfallcn
The corner of the king's lips turn upward, slightly raising an eyebrow in response to the newest occupant of his bed. It was merely a spur of the moment indulgence, the kind that one usually has after too much wine. However, Barnabas is very much entertained, and so is his guest, apparently.
"Careful, lest you start to crave too much," he teases. "I would not want to become bored of you all too soon..."
“I don’t need your forgiveness. I did nothing wrong.” (from Vincent Nightray~)
random dialogue prompts … sentence starters @silverwoodcursed || Vincent Nightray
"Then why do you grovel at my feet like a kicked pup?"
Barnabas' eyes narrow as he looks the boy over. Something seems different about this one, but he can't quite put his finger on it. He gestures to his guards to take a step back before rising from his own seat.
"Do you know not whom you speak to, boy?"
“Considering the stories I’ve heard, I was expecting someone scarier.” (from Qifrey~)
random dialogue prompts … sentence starters @silverwoodcursed || Qifrey
There is a gleam of amusement in the king's eyes, slightly raising an eyebrow as he regards the newcomer. Stories of the Warden of Darkness have no doubt spread far across the realms, some of it truth, others surely embellished.
"What are stories if not merely extensions of the truth?" A small laugh escapes him. "You have naught to fear from me, unless you intend on making an enemy of me."
❛ you looked peaceful, so i didn't want to wake you just yet. ❜ (from Sleipnir~)
𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. @silverwoodcursed || Sleipnir
A hint of a smirk crosses his features as Barnabas shifts his gaze to his lord commander, raising a hand to brush calloused fingers over the smooth skin of Sleipnir's face.
"It was a peaceful sleep indeed. I suppose I should offer my thanks... Perhaps we can stay like this for a little longer."
❛ please tell me you don't regret it. ❜ [ hime]
𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. @rosaquiem || Orihime
Stormy blue eyes soften as Barnabas gazes upon Orihime, calloused fingers reaching up to caress her face.
"My lady...very rarely do I feel remorse. Had I felt even a twinge of regret, rest assured I would not still be laying here beside you. My only hope is that you feel the same..."
❛ i should probably go now ... unless you want me to stay. ❜ [ hime]
𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. @rosaquiem || Orihime
Typically, the king isn't one to care if a lover decides to stay or go. All of them are merely a means to an end, a way to ensure that they remain loyal. Yet, he is surprisingly warm and comfortable, thus he is hesitant to let her leave, a rare surge of emotion from Barnabas. He reaches out to gently take her hand.
"You may stay for as long as you wish," he replies softly, bringing her hand to his lips to kiss her knuckles. "There is no need to rush..."
❛ i got worried when i woke up, and you weren't there anymore. ❜ [ hime :3]
𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. @rosaquiem || Orihime
"Ah, mine apologies. I did not intend to cause you any distress. I was...merely tending to some business."
Barnabas hardly sleeps much these days, but rather than disturb Orihime's much needed rest, he quietly slips away into the night. He stands before her now with a tray of freshly-made food, insisting that he deliver it himself before the maids could counter.
"Besides, you seemed so peaceful. I did not wish to disturb you..."
🐝 * ― 𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑭𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺. ( some might be a bit suggestive. )
❛ careful, or we're never getting out of this bed. ❜
❛ you're making it very hard to leave. ❜
❛ who said i wanted this to just be a casual one-time thing? ❜
❛ you looked peaceful, so i didn't want to wake you just yet. ❜
❛ don't get up yet. ❜
❛ sorry, i didn't mean to fall asleep on you after. ❜
❛ we should probably talk about what happened. ❜
❛ can we not ruin this by talking yet? ❜
❛ i could get used to waking up like this. ❜
❛ i thought you'd be gone before i woke up. ❜
❛ don't look at me like that unless you want a round two. ❜
❛ you're trouble first thing in the morning. ❜
❛ no need to act shy now, I saw more than that last night. ❜
❛ you're blushing again. ❜
❛ i think the neighbors may have heard us. ❜
❛ it's only awkward if you make it awkward. ❜
❛ i don't know what's gotten into me last night; i don't usually do this. ❜
❛ i should probably go now ... unless you want me to stay. ❜
❛ please don't say this was a mistake. ❜
❛ we crossed a line last night. ❜
❛ well, i guess this does complicate things. ❜
❛ i don't want to pretend this didn't happen. ❜
❛ are you sore? ❜
❛ i think my shirt is still somewhere in the hallway. ❜
❛ how did your clothes end up over there? ❜
❛ i remember you were very eager to get them off. ❜
❛ i think i have some scratches on my back. ❜
❛ i got worried when i woke up, and you weren't there anymore. ❜
❛ i don't want this to be just one night. ❜
❛ please tell me you don't regret it. ❜
❛ last night meant something to me. ❜
❛ this changes everything, doesn't it? ❜
❛ were you trying to leave without saying goodbye? ❜
❛ like you even remember what happened last night ... ❜
❛ you might want to cover that before anyone sees. ❜
❛ i didn't hear you complaining last night. ❜
❛ i liked seeing that side of you. ❜
❛ you took care of me last night. let me return the favor. ❜
❛ i think i'm in trouble because i want this again. ❜
❛ i wanted you last night, and i still want you today. ❜
I was born of the ice and snow With the winter wolves, in the dark alone The wildest night, I became the one And you'll know you're mine when the silence comes
Heavy is the crown, only for the weak
A knife in my heart couldn't slow me down 'Cause power is power, my fire never goes out I rise from my scars, nothing hurts me now 'Cause power is power
Now watch me burn it down
No one told me I was going to find you Unexpected what you did to my heart When I lost hope, you were there to remind me This is the start...
@rosaquiem
//how did i not notice the bits of blue in Barney's armor??? g o d he's so cool
Even if I'm frozen, Timeless as a ghost in my nightmares of the ocean. The precipice I'm approaching, Well, you will empty the darkness. You will keep me in motion, I know now...
Infinite baths Washing over me at last...
Teeth of God, Blood of Man, I will be What I am
@wardenofdarkness sent a missive: “ when you look at me, i feel seen. i feel like you see past everything i’ve always surrounded myself with to try and protect my heart. no one has ever looked that deeply at me. ”
❤ ━━━━━ his voice, calm and constant, pierces the silence, cadence brushing against her senses in a way that belies the situation's significance. is this, perchance, a confession? has she, through perseverance, succeeded in breaching the formidable bastions encasing his heart? Inoue refrains from forming unrealistic expectations as she ponders the prospect of revealing her own heart, free of defenses. king’s utterances conjure a faint flicker below the shadows engulfing him; a fragile ember of hope. ❝ my king… ❞ the utterance, delayed by protracted silence, escapes her lips. orihime, in a display of reverence devoid of obeisance, falls on her knees, hands enveloping his with humbleness. caramel hues ascends to meet his blue ones, revealing a burden of unarticulated truths. ❝ then ... allow me to guide your heart. don't let him corrupt what remains of it. please, i implore you. ❞ is it possible for her to express the reality without appearing insane? how can she express the schemes of a false god without reducing them to the delirium of an anxious soul? ❝ ultima is committed to destroy every remnant of goodness in you. ❞ ultima, being barnabas the sovereign of darkness, finds corruption a far easier than outright conquest. there is no need to destroy the king in a singular blow; rather, the incremental shrinkage of influence suffices, ethereal fingers coiling around his existence until the demarcation between obedience and devotion is no longer relevant. as such, eikons are but pawns on an expansive board, living weapons obliged to fight until nothing remains but ruin. orihime rejects the notion of such a finale.
❝ you must renounce this faith before it devours you, ❞ she insists imbued with a firmness that obscures the tremor threatening its cadence. ❝ i need odin's strength to defeat him. without it... ❞ utterance falters, words dissipate. ❝ everything will be in vain. ❞ composure fractures; vulnerability manifests itself in subtle breath quiver, tension enveloping her gaze. she is aware that he will demand clarification and that honesty may hurt the fragile trust that binds them together. nevertheless, she is prepared to answer any questions he may pose. ❝ your heart is one of the most precious things to me, ❞ avows, her grasp upon his hands tightening. ❝ i will protect it at any cost, including my own life. ❞ her gaze remains fixed on him. ❝ ultima's allegiance must end. ❞
It has been so long since the king of Waloed had made himself so vulnerable, his emotions long since banished for it is a weakness in his eyes. He knows not what pulls his heartstrings, be it the revitalization of hope that the girl so hopes to achieve, or rather a quiet thought said aloud to garner a reaction from her. Either way, he does not expect Orihime to fall to her knees in such reverence. She should not be kneeling to anyone, let alone him. Yet, her words make him silent a moment, a lump forming in his throat as he processes her pleas.
"You know not what you ask of me, my lady." His voice is barely a whisper, stormy blue eyes barely hiding the torment of his thoughts. "You demand that I renounce my faith, to commit heresy...yet my faith is what propels me forward. My mother shepherded me to these lands in the belief that I would lead my people back to our rightful homeland. I am blessed with the power of the darkness, and thus my Lord had come to me with the revelation to create a new world, that I will have a seat at his right hand should I follow him."
His gaze softens, hands in Orihime's as he also gets down on his knees for in this moment, they are equals. With a power as might and divine as hers, he should not be above her.
"You remind me of her..." He lifts a hand to gently brush back stray bits of auburn hair from her face, calloused fingers barely brushing her cheek. "For one so young and full of life, you are quick to commit your heart to an old fool. To destroy Ultima would be to court death. I alone am not powerful enough..."
Even if there is a way to undo everything, there will no doubt be consequences. Does he dare to risk it all solely based on the fancy of one girl? One girl with the power of a god.
"Are you so willing, then, to risk yourself for humanity and its hubris? This world is corrupted inside and out. Why save them? Why save me?"
“ why are you so afraid of trusting this— trusting us. what’s making you hold back? ” [ one last one before i go home lol]
some angst idk y’all i like crying @rosaquiem || Orihime
Barnabas looks upon the girl with furrowed brows, gaze shifting as though he can't quite concentrate on caramel eyes filled with so much emotion. Such a weakness that can be easily exploited.
"My lady, 'tis not so much that your efforts are fruitless... More so, I quite admire your tenacity." He raises a hand to brush over the visible scar curving just below his collarbone. "You must understand, my heart withered long ago. You deserve to spend your energy on someone who is more capable of giving that which you seek."