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[wargodstorm]

Some days I feel so full

And I just want to devour

Devour

Devour

Until I choke

Other days it’s just empty

And no matter how many times I tell myself

“Just consume something”

I sit and rot

Rot

Rot

Until I forget I exist

[wargodstorm]

It’s like a ghost haunts these walls

From time to time, you’ll hear them creek

Late in the night when you feel the most silence

Or during the day with the chatter and light

It’s always there, lurking

The dreams

The hopes

The love

It’s just a memory now

Do I forget you?

Or do I cherish what was lost forever?

[waxedthoughts]

Even when it’s all over, I still look at you

[wargodstorm]

I never had anyone longer than a month, see me for me and all of me, and loved me as just that. Besides you. And you did it for over a year. I never had someone take care of me like that, look at me like that, hold me like that. And I miss it. Gods, I fucking miss it. I once said I’d burn the world for you. And I would’ve, if that care didn’t slowly dwindle. If that look in your eyes was still there. If your hold was as tight as it was the first night. I would’ve burnt myself alive for you. My world. My everything. I don’t know where I lost you. I don’t know when. Maybe it is my fault if I can’t even remember when it all changed. But it did, and you stopped seeing me for…. Me. You stopped loving me for me. I said I was hard to love. I never lied. I might be easy to fall for, but it’s not easy to hold on. But you weren’t either. You felt like rope burn. The harder I held on, the worse it hurt. But if I let go….. you’d be gone. I held on so tightly. I still feel the cuts, you took my skin off down to the bone. I had to let go, or you’d rip my hands right off. And now I’m left to sit on the edge and wonder. How’d it happen so fast?

[thoughtkick]

“We all eat lies when our hearts are hungry.”

— Unknown

[wargodstorm]

I just did another reading. Why did it describe all that's been going on in my head for a while now and what I'm doing at this moment. Like bitch. You're a few steps behind. You're supposed to give me heads up. But I guess they're getting to know me.

That was sorta wild to write all out and then piece together what it was saying. And. Yeah, they got it right

[wargodstorm]

I hate that I fucking miss him. I hate it. It feels like my heart is being slowly squeezed until it pops. Why does it physically hurt.