WaRpEdLiFe

Riley, 28, she/her, This is my transition blog. I try to keep things on here related to my life as a transgender woman. I post some politic and humor stuff I find related here, but mostly just me.

[thekeithmeister]

Nuff said. 

[warpedriley]

Had a memory from four years ago pop up. Here’s exactly four years later. #transition #beforeandafter #transisbeautiful #transgender #personal #me

[mayticks-art]

“I think about kissing you all the time  ❤”

[warpedriley]

Failure

I feel like I failed everybody but mostly myself. I couldn’t handle 5 classes this semester. I’m going to fail my first class at 29 years old. I was supposed to be done in April but now I wont be done until next fall semester, but I suppose my other options didn’t look much better. I’ve always been the strong backbone in the family, trying to push hard to ensure my wife and amazing children can have a good life. Then I wasn’t making enough, so my wife started working more , and we’ve been on opposite schedules for almost 3 years and still massively in debt from medical costs. And school was supposed to be our best shot at a financially secure future. Instead, I’m in student debt of $60,000 And having suicidal thoughts because of the stress of working 40 hours a week and doing school every night from dinner until bed and still having to take care of my children because my wife is working at night. But I can’t even enjoy their company. I have to watch to ensure they are taking care of themselves but not enough to be with them because school. I can’t do it and I didn’t decide I couldn’t do it until after the class drop deadline. So I’m going to fail. Similarly to the way I’ve failed most everything and everyone in my life.

I’m trying really hard right now to look at the bright side. My work load will be lighter going forward and I’ll regain some of that crucial family time I need. For the moment though, I just hurt and I’m trying not to have a total breakdown at work.

I just want to be able to support my family in the best way I can and enjoy a healthy work-life balance with them. Is it too much to ask? It seems that way.

[april]

if youre a trans lesbean youre already doomed to either be a goth, a furry, or a programmer

[batbitequeen-deactivated2018021]

you forgot over-the-top visual artist and either incredibly maximalist or lo-fi music producer

[warpedlifestyle]

Omg this is so true. I'm about to get my bachelor's in Software Engineering. Although I've sworn it off a bit in favor of writing

[warpedlifestyle]

So this is a thing we put together while purging old documents today.

[lesbianb]

anyone else excited to get gay married to a gay girl one fine gay day?

[queeranne]

[geekasaur]

You used to be funny before you became a lesbian supremacist

this is my favorite ask

[warpedlifestyle]

I feel this so much.

[warpedriley]

What, me !? Pasties? Never. #braless #transisbeautiful

[warpedlifestyle]

Got a couple of good photos hanging out between rounds at FNM. Everything is getting better in my life again. I'm happy to look at myself in the mirror and life is fantastic.

[warpedlifestyle]

Book update

Well, I finished reading my own novel finally, along with a large amount of edits. I'm going to go over these with my beautiful and amazing wife and then I will have a complete second draft. Also, I don't hate it. It was digestible from my perspective.

[warpedlifestyle]

Life Update

Uh oh. Looks like I haven't actually been posting anything of relevance recently; just pictures. Pictures are easy though. Talking about what's going on in my life is a bit harder.

Here's the summary of what's going on:

- I have started my senior year of college. I am doing 13 credit hours followed by 15 credit hours next semester in order to graduate in May.

- Still working full time in the mortgage industry which is a drain because banks are the worst villain of corporate bureaucracy.

- Finished the first draft of my novel. Now I am reading and I'm about 4/5ths through the first read through and edits.

- Worked through some serious issues with my wife and feel much better as we come up on our 8th wedding anniversary on November 6th.

- Realized that I've spent my whole adult life trying to achieve what my parents thought was acceptable and realized only recently that I've always been the broke artist type of person, so I think I am going to commit to that once I finish school.

- So then what's the point of school? I don't really know, but I will finish because it's only 8 months away and maybe I think I wouldn't have gotten where I am, with having a first draft of a full length novel done, had I not gone back to school in the first place. Just a thought.

- Dating is hard.

- Loving myself is becoming easier.

- My hair is amazing and my new hair style kicks much ass.

- I have been working on trimming the fat from my life, which in this case is our biological families. Having two trans children has made it a necessity to ensure the people in their life support them fully.

I think that's it for now. Thank you all.

[warpedriley]

This is what it looks like to feel good about yourself. #transisbeautiful

[warpedriley]

Natural light for the picture without having to brave the outside is my newly found balance. Looks good though. #transisbeautiful #naturallight #alltheselfies

[warpedlifestyle]

Yep. New profile picture incoming.

[upandoutcomic]

September 4th, 2016. Hasn’t stopped being amazing tbh.

If you enjoy my work, maybe consider supporting me via Patreon? Link on my front page. :)

[warpedlifestyle]

So much this.

[warpedriley]

New hair. Yay me! #transisbeautiful