Hello friends. You’re probably wondering how WarriorOrc’s holiday is going, or more so why this text post is not bold and in uppercase.
The truth is WarriorORC started out as a joke blog to make a dear friend ( @swampgallows ) and the lovely @sithisis laugh. It mutated into the positive mess of kind orc shouting. I’m sorry to lie to those who asked if it was me (looking at you, Warcraft Hell on Discord). I didn’t mean to actively deceive anyone.
Truth is, my name is Lyci and I actually main a tauren druid. I’m a moonkin one-trick. I’m also not a big or gay orc man. I’m sorry to disappoint. But all the advice, all the love I’ve given has been genuine.
I am truly touched by the messages, tags and replies to what was a silly (but genuine homage) to a well known tumblr blog. However I want to finish up this blog on a high note.
Today is the 26th of May. It is my 23rd birthday. There is nothing particularly exciting about this age or date. However it has been 5 years since I tried to commit suicide on my 18th birthday. A lot has happened in that time, for sure.
WarriorOrc is, or was my way to spread positivity and give back in a way I couldn’t normally. It enabled me to help and adore people I would have never even thought I would ever interact with. I hope WarriorORC has been entertaining or even touching. I doubt I could have interacted with over a 1000 followers in the same way as just my regular self.
The truth is I’m just some autistic, non-binary asexual Australian who’s been in the pits of hell that is depression, anxiety and bouts of schizophrenia. I wanted to use my experience to help others. When the opportunity arose to be able to do so - I took it.
Because in those five years, I’m recovering. I’m growing stronger in my own way. I hope I would do WarriorORC proud in my own actions. It has been kindness and love that has saved my own life. It took me a long time to learn to love myself, accept myself. But even on the darkest of days I press on, and I love being alive.
Learning new things, meeting new people, fighting against the injustice of the world? I wouldn’t ever give that up.
I do want to apologise to the asks and chat messages I didn’t answer before today. Helping and seeing my fellow LGBT+ folk, other content creators and like minded people has been one of the most touching things of my life (so far), and definitely a highlight of this year.
I hope you loved WarriorORC as much as I did. WarriorORC has Azeroth to save once more, but my actual mailbox is open to all still.
The warmest of zugs and love from your friend,
(oh PS. my WoW lovelies on NA/OCE can add me: Lyci#6667)
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