Writing On Water

[watercolorchild]

21 years. Really? This is half my life ago. But still love it. This was my first trip away from home: to New York: to @radiocitymusichall :seeing savage garden @darrenhayes meeting @claudiaafx I was only 20! #savagegarden #darrenhayes #radiocitymusichall #memories #thisisoldenoughtodrink! https://www.instagram.com/p/CLM-rWdgo2c/?igshid=1r532jv3qyd2m

[watercolorchild]

I always thought I was weird because I didn’t reach milestones set for me by pre-existing media influences. I preferred to play with toys, watch cartoons, and play pretend way past my peers yet never got boy band crushes or had teenage poster boys on my walls like other girls. I preferred movie posters for b movies or cartoons. I only ever started “dating” because I was just turning 17 and hadn’t had an interest and this was “high school” so isn’t that what is supposed to happen? I think that is why I hate shows about “relationships” or get turned off as soon as characters “couple” because it makes me feel inadequate that I don’t feel the same and never have. Don’t get me wrong, I have relationships but not the kind I see in media. I never see people not couple and/or then procreate. I have enough pressure and shame to deal with. Why can’t we be friends? Why do they always have to couple and procreate? Why can’t the story continue. Is it because I am the one who needs to “grow up”? Sorry to tell you this, but growing up does not an adult make. Happiness doesn’t mean those events have to happen because for some of us they don’t and that should still be okay and not presented as pathetic. The above statement is also from the little girl who famously told her father when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up “I don’t want to. I like being a kid. I’ve got it made.” #truth #truefacts #idontwannagrowup #idontwanttogrowup https://www.instagram.com/p/CKDaUVlAh88/?igshid=tqp7u1o9ow6o

[watercolorchild]

I had a painting I did at the arts guild when I was 7. This is me with it. My dad took me to view it. I had another that one 1st prize in an MLKjr contest when I was 10 or 11 at the same arts guild. The painting here was a winter scene with red birds. They used our finger prints to make the birds. #idrewthis #childhoodpainting #fridgepictures #winterpainting https://www.instagram.com/p/CJzFKb3gWbM/?igshid=jozir65hzi2u

[watercolorchild]

One time I sculptured a Mrs Brisby figure from the Secret of NIMH. I hadn’t sculpted before using putty so this was new. #secretofnimh #mrsbrisby #thesecretofnimh #sculpey #scupleyclay https://www.instagram.com/p/CJtczElgV17/?igshid=tuduljcox08q

[watercolorchild]

I was a #titanicmovie drama queen in high school. I drew/sketched these pictures when I was 18. Titanic was my “twilight “ for lack of a better reference. I used to love drawing and wanted to be an artist as a child but when I got older I didn’t practice as much as I could/should have and as others talents surpassed mine I got discouraged and stopped drawing. I also was denied access to Art classes later in school and such due to the “don’t pass, Don’t play” rule originally enforced for athletes to do well in class. Due to my being held back my freshman year (my grandmother died and I started 2 months late in the year, plus I was very sick that year and the year following) I was told I could not participate in competition elective classes. This made it hard as high schools wanted to achieve more in competition so they got better funding, I’m sure. Also, I moved a lot so one school I went to only did pencil sketches and another was digital. I didn’t learn digital so I couldn’t take art in my high school later years. I was also banned from drama competitions, and choral competition. NEVER FAIL IN SCHOOL, KIDS! It can be used against later in your academic career. #sketch #highschoolart #titanicart #leonardodicaprio #katewinslet #pencildrawing #pencilsketch #pencilart https://www.instagram.com/p/CJrWimsg2UN/?igshid=16ny5ofbe54v3

[watercolorchild]

One of my hobbies for a time was making cakes. My boyfriends mother taught me how to bake and fondant cakes. My first cake was a Rubiks cube for his 28th birthday. Next I made a wedding cake for a friend, and my last was my personal birthday cake for my 32. I had experienced a car accident which hurt my neck and back and over the years I have lost the ability to stand for the time it takes to prep and decorate or cook in general. But for a while I baked. #cake #cakedecorating #rubikscube #rubikscubecake #weddingcake https://www.instagram.com/p/CJnXPIOB5l0/?igshid=1kj06x1jk7uzo

[watercolorchild]

My friend @kenythofficial regularly tells me I’m great and cool and creative. I have a memory like a steel trap and am a proud “well of useless information” he encourages me to show more people my creative side as well as my genuine awesomeness so consider that a goal. Not so much a “resolution”, but rather a small step to a happier me. I’m an old dog, learning new tricks like being a social creature when I am often a hermit. This is me and Kenyth 5 years ago when we met in Orlando IRL. We talk on the phone otherwise. Time to “crowd surf” CATCH ME! #beawesome #becreative #bebrave #newyearsresolution https://www.instagram.com/p/CJlP3Vvhrd7/?igshid=11glgkeone647

[watercolorchild]

I used to art, a LOT. Here is some “website” layout designs I did back in the early 2000s for my website/blog that never happened. I didn’t realize they looked like video game art because until I was 18 I didn’t have a computer more or less games. I drew this in MS Paint. #art #digitalart #mspaint #mspaintart https://www.instagram.com/p/CJjRmPzAl5e/?igshid=16on7uqvtvhop