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[wato5144]

it shouldn't be too difficult to turn your brain off if you're held down and made to feel good until it resets <3

Uhm mhm yeah i think that would. turn my brain off really well. mhm,,

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Counting Spoons

This morning,

I open my eyes to find only seven spoons

lying in a small, dented cup by my bed.

The world asks for twenty.

One spoon — just to sit up.

To blink against the ache in my joints,

to gather my breath and convince my heart

that gravity is worth the fight.

Two more — for a shower.

Steam curling over stiff shoulders,

the heat loosening nothing,

my hands heavy as wet towels.

One — to get dressed.

It takes all the grace I have

to pull fabric over skin

that burns at a whisper of touch.

Another — for breakfast.

Lifting the mug,

stirring the spoon,

pretending the taste matters more than the exhaustion in my jaw. 

One — for a phone call.

Because words weigh more than dishes,

and smiling through pain

Keeping up appearances 

is its own kind of heavy labor.

By noon, I am out of spoons.

The day still stretches,

hungry and demanding,

but my hands hold only air.

I borrow from tomorrow.

I always borrow from tomorrow.

And tomorrow will wake me

with fewer spoons in the cup.

Source: Counting Spoons

[wato5144]

think just being thoughtless for an hour would fix me completely

[pomegranatechrysanthemum]

[paper-wounds]

It's Such a Beautiful Day (2012) by Don Hertzfeldt,

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Hello Kenadian community on tumblr dot com. I have something for you.

[wato5144]

cute wolf puppy :]

mrrr

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, from "Late Bloomer", Instructions for Traveling West

[weltenwellen]

Hanif Abdurraqib, The Crown Ain't Worth Much

[weltenwellen]

Hanif Abdurraqib, "Glamor on the West Streets / Silver Over Everything"

[kafk-a]

Jack Gilbert

[admitier]

[ID: A quote by Jack Gilbert.

It reads, “THE ABANDONED VALLEY / / Can you understand being alone so long / you would go out in the middle of the night / and put a bucket into the well / so you could feel something down there / tug at the other end of the rope?” End ID.]

[wato5144]

fruit. guava?

i think more soursop

[wato5144]

mlemlemlemlemlem

mlemlemlem

[wato5144]

leaving you a little kiss ♡

<3 leaving you a kiss back

[vorseternal]

TW blood yeah uh

can you even post this on tumblr??

[151ae]

end barrens video did something sinister to my brain last night so i finally drew a wato