Adrian was right; Adi was starting to notice he was becoming overbearing, that he was suffocating his poor love, but hearing it made his mistakes all the more real to the tiny dhampir. It was certainly a good thing they were finally communicating with each other on the matter, that’s for sure. Adi furiously rubbed at his eyes, trying to stop the tears before he answered.
“I’m…I’m sorry, I’ll try harder to control it… I’m sorry I’ve been suffocating you so much. You’re right, and I’m so sorry I keep ruining this for you…” he spoke, still trying to staunch his tears, and not think about how much blood this particular wound spilt. “Sometimes I admittedly forget what we are…that you’re much stronger than I am… but…thank you for reminding me of how overbearing I can get, I don’t mean to be… I’ll try harder, I’ll try harder not to fuss so much next time so you can really enjoy this.”
And Adi meant it, he would try harder to reign himself in. For Adrian, he’d do anything he had to so he could be as happy as he made his tiny partner. He’d take this reminder that no, Adrian wouldn’t let Trevor get them killed, that Adrian knew how much he meant to him, to heart. That the stunts were small, that this is Adrian’s only source of fun and normalcy… he just wished he could make Adrian nearly as happy as he is when he did those few dumb things.
“Can…can I ask for one thing, though? After you do these things…hold me? Please?I…it’ll be easier for me, if I can feel you’re still there, that you’re mostly in one piece. I’ll reign it in, I promise I will…just… it’s all I ask, Adrian. Just this one thing, I promise I’ll work on controlling how I react when you get hurt. I’m so sorry I’ve been causing problems for you…”
How nice it must be to be able to forget what one was. To not have it shoved in your face and down your throat every day of one’s life, something Adrian could only ever want for. Of course it wasn’t something he could blame the other for, but that reminder, that extra ‘you’ll never get to experience life like the rest of us’ just added to what he was already feeling. He shouldn’t be cross with him just for that, but he was a bit. He could deal with the constant fussing from the dumb thrills he got doing idiotic things with Trevor, he already heard it at home so what was one more person chiming in? But to this extent and the comment about forgetting, it was too much.
He could only stand there, hurt and irritation in his eyes as he looked at Adi. To make a request of him after all that? To not even consider Adrian’s feelings on the matter and all but demand comfort cause he felt sad about Adrian’s actions? It was almost appalling. Adrian shook his head and scoffed.
❝And what? Get my blood on you?❞