My personal blog

where I come to complain about life.

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Iron Man sex dream

So I had a sex dream where the whole time I was trying to hook up with Robert Downey Jr. Who was also iron Man. Now it was not Tony Stark nor was it Robert Downey Jr the actor it was simply Robert Downey jr the iron Man. So any way I did the deed and as it turns out I was also Robert Downey jr. So in conclusion I was in a dream where I ultimately had sex with my self but my self happened to be Robert Downey Jr.

What the hell do I do with this?

He’s an attractive fellow but I’ve never really been that much into him.

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Nine year old teenager

So my nine year old niece started her period a few months ago. ( I got mine at 14) and is a lot more developed then I was at 15. She was caught watching porn on her phone today by her father. Shes a lot more curious than she should be at nine. I don't think anyone that age should be looking at that.

How would you respond to something like that? Idek

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This one is about a ginger

So one of my best guy friends has been one of my best friends since senior year of high school and we both ended up moving to two different states but remained close just disappeared on me. So about a month ago he just stopped responding to me, On Snapchat, insta, fb messenger, and text message. Now this happened before while he was dating his ex but he's not dating anyone right now. He will still view my Snapchat story but not respond back to me. I just found out yesterday that he follows one of my friend on Instagram and send her streaks on Snapchat, now this friend is a work friend that he's never met who lives in a different state than him all together. So I was definitely pissed. Honestly I feel abandoned and replaced and a lil heart broken.

Not to mention when I was in high school one of my other friends was visiting me from a state I used to live in and they were talking on my Snapchat before she arrived and they hit it off (he really wanted to sleep with her maybe date her) . She went back home and they continued to talk and became Best friends to the point that when he came to visit me I thought he was really just visiting her and I was just in the area so he might as well see me too. I didn't even do anything to him one day we are fine and then poof he just ignores me.

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I need a boyfriend.

I am a 21 year old female living vicariously through a Disney channel show titled ‘Liv and Maddie’.

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Now I'm 22 turning 23 and I still like Liv and Maddie but so does my boyfriend

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All alone.

Everyone got somebody but me, my sister is taking to this guy like everyday. My roommate has a live in boyfriend and of course I'm all alone. Nobody wants me. At least my sister was kinda alone like me (she had a friend w/ benefits ) but now she's pretty much in a relationship with this guy from the past. My sister only ever dates guys she grew up with. I've never had a real boyfriend or a real kiss before and I'm fucking 21 years old. What kind of fucked up shit is that. Plus one of my best friends is engaged. ENGAGED!! I'm so alone it sucks but I'm so happy for her.

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I'm visiting.

So I'm visiting my mom and little brothers, I don't know if you can call it visiting I'm only here for less than two days. The point is I miss them. They are getting older and soon they will grown up. I want to stay here but I have a job and the only reason I live where I do is because of my sister. I can't leave her and she wants to stay there cause that's where her daughters father lives. I've told he repeatedly that if she decides to move to where my mom lives I will gladly put in a transfer at work. I have nothing else going on in my life. I miss my mom and brothers really bad.

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So I finished Liv and Maddie.

It took me about a week and a half and I finished Liv and Maddie. I feel incomplete, I miss my twins. I’ve become attached to this show. I live vicariously through them. This is a sad day in my single 21 year old life. Plus I found out that Maddie and diggie we’re dating in real life they were even engaged but that ended last year. And Holden and Liv never really got a chance. But I am glad they brought dump truck back for one more episode, however I wish we would’ve saw the dad one more time. I’m also very glad on how they explained the cameras.

Plus I’m very glad Willow got her chance with Joey.

What show am I ganna obsess over now?

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I need a boyfriend.

I am a 21 year old female living vicariously through a Disney channel show titled 'Liv and Maddie'.

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Why I'm single.

I've figured it out. Why I'm single. I have the personality of a stoner but I don't smoke. So it's kinda like a tease right?

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I want to punch everything and everyone.

I'm so incredibly lonely.

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The movie lol

The movie 'lol' just reminds me how alone I am. I'm sorta talking to this guy but idk he's really busy with work all the time and I feel like maybe I'm bothering him and he doesn't wanna talk to me. Should I just give up? Not to mention before watching 'lol' I watched 'crazy stupid love'.

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I hope this doesn't bite me in the ass

I'm trying not to do what I would normally do in my situation. Push you away but it's hard for me. Im trying to let you breathe but it feels like your avoiding me. In the past I would of already written you off. But I am trying.

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Something good in my life perhaps?

I feel almost giddy.

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Are we still friends

Can a best friend be a best friend if every time I see her I wanna punch her in the face?

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Why don't you get it?

It’s not your story to tell. I don’t tell people the things that happened to you. Why do you think that that’s OK.

In eighth grade; you told all of MY friends. I forgave you because it was hard for YOU. The thing that affected me so much was hard for you. So you had to tell all my friends to make you feel better.

In ninth grade; I felt an awkward pause, after a stupid joke, around YOUR friends because they knew something so personal about me when they barely knew my name. I asked you if you told them and you said no but I knew you were lying.

Then now so many years later, I find out your boyfriend knows. Why don’t you understand that telling people is the only control that I have of the situation?

The people who know my dirty little secret are people that I trust. There are friends that I’ve known for years that haven’t got a clue. Why should I have to tell them if I don’t want too. It’s my life. I’m trying my best.

I’m sorry that the things that have happened to ME are such a burden to you.

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I'll settle for sleep.

Kinda wanna cry. Kinda wanna punch stuff. I’ll settle for sleep. At least while I’m sleeping I can pretend every things okay.

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My dilemma.

I wanna go back to school (I went for a semester) but to do that I need to take my SATs/acts I’ve never taken SATs. Plus I’m rubbish in math. I’m so dumb I don’t understand basic math. I was in remedial math in highschool. When I first went to college, I was in a premath class (a math to get me ready for college math). I slept through it every day. I stopped going. I felt stupid. But now I wanna give it another shot but I don’t know where to start. I used to understand math so well. It wasn't​ until I moved to a new school (in a new state) in 10th grade where I couldn’t keep up with it.

I WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH MY​ LIFE BUT WHERE DO I START!