imagine this is your life:
-> really need positive human interaction and genuine connection and bonds
-> tries to talk to people who are supposed to be closest friends who used to talk to/hang out with a lot
-> gets little to no response from them and doesn't get needs met
-> feels bad but can't wait for them to have time/energy so need to give up on them for now and try elsewhere
-> tries to make new friends by interacting with strangers and perform socializing to best of ability
-> struggles and doesn't form bond or feel connection with any new people at all
-> most new people don't put in any effort, it's one sided effort, and usually have bad interaction with at least one of them
-> uses up energy almost immediately and burns out and feel bad from trying so hard but failing
-> takes socializing break and doesn't talk to anyone for a while
-> feels lonely and isolated the whole time and wants someone to talk to or do an activity with to distract from bad feeling
-> reaches out to people already know but haven't talked to in a while to see how they are then ask to chat or hang out
-> no one responds or barely responds or rejects, so social needs don't get met
-> feels bad and even more alone and isolated
-> go back to top of this list and repeat over and over and over and over and over and try not to let it effect you
is this a normal experience everyone has and need to just "get over it" or whatever. or not normal and is valid that I feel like i'm going insane? 🥲
