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[girlmostlikely]

#real

[l0rdefan67]

being fat and struggling w/ eating is so embarrassing….like i really i am the size of a ford f-150 for no reason

[sugar-crystal-tears]

why do I insists in eating maintenance? I feel too gross to be doing this. I should be eating less. at least 200 cal less than maintenance. I remembered that my BMI is in the 20s & it makes me feel sick. How could I allow this to happen? why am I not doing more? why didn’t I push myself down to 95 lbs…

[boneybeauty]

I wish that calories didn’t exist

[ang3lkiss3d]

disordered mind but not a disordered body will be the end of me

[hypocrite222]

I think I do miss it sometimes

[rott1ngt33thpile]

I just saw someone say that having an ed is cosplaying poorness, I am going to go outside . yeah it’s 20 degrees but that pushed me to the EDGE I can’t touch grass cuz it’s covered but I don’t care I’ll touch SNOW bro get me out of here . I need to eat a vegetable. I need to touch a leaf. I need to read a book.

[sokab]

seeing a girl taller than me who weighs less than me ruins my whole week

[anabearthoughts]

[alonalyblog]

How to feel scrolling tumblr after binge

[stupidbrownnana]

binged 3000+ cals but its okay the diet coke canceled it out

[angel-amiss]

a liquid diet would heal me

[lixielexielife]

I cant stand how much I hate my body, I feel so disgusting I could kms

[fromfeywithlove]

I worry a lot that I’ll never reach my ugw and that I’ll never have that much self control and discipline. I’m afraid I’ll get fatter, not because it means that I’ll be ugly or that it’s disgusting to be fat. But it’s a fear because it shows me that I’ve never actually had control over anything, most things you can’t control and I couldn’t even take over one of the smallest part of my life. I have failed if I get fatter

[wormsforbirdie]

My own motivation is no longer enough; I need to either be bullied or paid to lose weight. I'm not losing fast enough, and I want to die because of it.

[julesvaughnsecretalt-deactivate]

wait I need to lose ten pounds like yesterday

[skinnyvenom]

Getting closer to the weight goal but the weight goal keeps getting further away