Unfiltered Thoughts

La vie est belle ❤️

[wendsgarcia]

Wishing for this pandemic to end na. Lahat naman di handa, mapa gobyerno, negosyo, at pati mga taong gusto lang naman mabuhay sa araw araw.

Praying for everyone's safety.

Lord, heal our planet. 🙏

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Lights out, tulog na si mama at kami na lang dalawa gising and nagwawatch GGV. Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya, syempre di nya nakikita kasi madilim saka dko pinapahalata pero take note magkatabi kami ha tas katabi ko si mama. Dbale sya, ako then si mama tabi kami 3 matulog.

Then yung balahura kong bibig biglang bumukas tapos sabi ko "Dear question"

Sagot sya "Yes Dear?"

Hesitant ako if sasabihin ko ba o ano kasi ayokong nagmumukang kawawa sa harap nya, ayokong magmukang mahina, ayokong magmukang walang confidence sa sarili..

Then sabi ko "Ay wag na lang pala.. Hehe"

Syempre curiousity kills the cat si koya mo edi kinulit ako, ending sinabi ko na.

Hingang malamim sabay tanong "Dear, do you still find me beautiful? Do you still attracted to me?"

Tangina talaga di ko alam kung saan galing yun. Nabuhay na naman insecurities ko sa katawang lupa ko. Kasi umalis kami nung araw na yun mismo to celebrate Mother's Day then dun sya nag stay sa bahay over night then umuwi kanina kasi may work din sya. Edi pinagmamasdan ko lang sya. Observant kong tao no? Haha. And I know if something is not right. And If I feel something na kumukurot sa dibdib ko. Wala lang, jelling na naman si ate gurl mo sa mga magagandang babae sa paligid na nakakakuha ng paningin at attention nya. Hahahaha. OA nu. Di ko alam bakit ganito ako pero hinayaan ko lang.

Kaya nung nakauwi na at kami na lang dalawa dun ko sya tinanong pero nakakahiya yung tanong ko nu? Hahaha. Pero ang sagot nya...

"Dear you are always beautiful, inside and out. You are always attractive, I'm always attracted to you. Number one fan mo ako. We know we have imperfections but who cares, as long as we have and love each other, we are perfect." (with matching hawak sa cheeks ko then he kiss my forehead)

Muntik na ko magpasugod sa UST, english besh. Tapos ayun naiyak na lang ako. Hehe. I know OA. OA talaga. But if it's something serious, if it's true. You will always feel afraid everything will fall off. Afraid that one day you're not the apple of his eye anymore.

I just can't. What did I do something so good to deserved a whole hearted person like you? 😭

My heart will busrt from love and happiness every time I see your smile. Baliw na ko. Huhuhuhu. Baliw na sayo. 😭

Mahal na mahal na mahal kita. Yung tipong hindi ko alam gagawin ko kapag nawala ka...

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Yes, I'm the great Pretender..

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Just close your eyes, the sun is going down..

You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now..

Gone too soon Vio? Yung farmon natin!! Papatunayan ko pa sayo na hindi sya scam. ☹️

Thanks for the friendship. May we meet again..

[wendsgarcia]

Ikaw na tumayong pangalawang tatay ko. 

Ikaw na nagparamdam sakin na may magtatanggol sakin pag may nambastos sakin na mga gago sa kanto.

Ikaw na nagaalala kapag hindi pa kami kumakain. 

Ikaw na nagagalit pag nasasagot ko ng pabalang si mama.

Ikaw na kumupkop samin nung panahong gumagapang kami sa kahirapan.

Bakit ang aga tito? Hindi pa ko nakakabawi sayo. Hindi pa kita nabibilhan ng sarili mong taxi, yung videoke player mo na libangan pag wala kang pasada at pati na rin yung toolbox na pangarap mo.

Ang daya mo, sabi mo magiging matatag ka. Sabi mo kakayanin mo para sa anak mo. 

Naintindihan ko naman na pagod ka na dyan sa loob, siguro nangyari yun para di ka na mahirapan. 

Sorbrang ikli ng buhay ng tao, kung pwede lang na bigyan kita kahit 1/8 ng akin para lang ma extend yung sayo. Kaso hindi..

Maraming salamat sa lahat Tito. Utang na loob ko habang buhay ang pagpapalaki at pagpapa aral mo sakin. 

Wala ako ngayon dito kung hindi mo ko sinuportahan nuon.

Ako ng bahala kay Edison at Mama.

Pahinga ka na dyan.. 

[wendsgarcia]

Time flies so fast.. who would have thought that today is our 18th month on 18th of the month. Looking forward to years of being together. ♥️ I Love you so much my Dear 😘

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I'm happy with my life right now, with what I have and who's with me. But why do I have this feeling that there's still missing..

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I really don't mind how do I look like for him or how beautiful I am for him because you're always flattering me with the words that "I am the most beautiful girl whatever.." not just until last night. It feels like all my insecurities hits me hard. It feels like the world is shouting to me that I'm not enough. It feels like I want to walk-out and never look back.

But at the end of the day, those self insecurities are just reminders that you should not stop to where you are right now. Seek for opportunities to improve yourself not for the benefit of the others but for your own soul so you'll not end up like me writing this rants and self pityness.

Btw, this is just not about physical appearance. I mean it's the total package.

[wendsgarcia]

Nakikita ko na yung mangyayari sakin in the future but I won't let that happen. Try me.

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Nakakalungkot lang bakit may mga taong hindi makuntento kung anong binibigay sa kanila. Ni-salamat wala akong nadinig.

Nakakapagod..

[wendsgarcia]

Title?

May mga araw na ayokong bumangon ng higaan kasi gusto ko lang lumipas. But sometimes may araw na gusto kong huminto yung oras at ayokong magtapos. Napaka unpredicatable ng buhay. Sadness kahapon tapos happiness ngayon. Ano kayang mangyayari few years from now?

Eme lang. Dpa ko makatulog. Kakayod pa ang ate gurl nyo mamaya. Haha. Nyters. 🤗

[wendsgarcia]

Goals

Check na ko sa boyfriend, sure na ako na I want to spend my entire life with 2jay. Embracing each others imperfection. Career man, family oriented and loved me unconditionally. Buhay na buhay na ko tapos prinsesa pa kasi takoy sya sakin pero dko naman sya ina under. Hahahahaha. 😂 kelan kaya sya magpropose? Char!

Sa bahay naman sana ma approved na para makapag start na ko mag ipon pangpagawa. Yeeey. May sarili na kaming bahay na matatawag kong sarili. For my mama and kapatid. ❤️

Sa work, thank God na promote po ako! I'm so happy kasi worth it yung mga pagod and pabida ko. Hehe! Planning to stay sa Shell until 2019. Sana umabot. Lol.

Ano pa ba. For now wala na muna kong hihilingin kasi I know in the right time ibibigay naman nya yan. Syempre thankful din kasi healthy si mama and nagaaral mabuti kapatid ko, sino ba namang di ma iinspire mag work dba. Hihi. 😁

It's been a while Tumblr! Will be back again for any updates ❤️

[wendsgarcia]

You know what I am grateful for despite of hardship and struggles? Because I have that one person who can I rely on. My boyfriend. Actually I don't really have a real bestfriend that will be there in ups and downs of my life. That's why I'm so thankful for having 2jay here with me. Thank you Lord. For always blessing me specially for giving this kind hearted and loving man like him. I may not have those that I'm always dreaming about like own house, car, business and stable job but atleast I have him. As long as I have him my life will be so happy and more eager for achieving my dreams because that's what he taught me. Long way to go my Dear. Hope we can make it till the vows. I Love you so much. 😘

[wendsgarcia]

Grateful for all the blessings. Keep coming! 🙏

[wendsgarcia]

Magkasama lang kami kahapon pero namimiss ko agad sya. Ang lungkot kasi weekends lang kami capable na magkita. Though if gusto naman nya magkita kami he'll make an effort to see me, pero ang hassle kasi and I don't want that for him. I want to hug him. Hug him so tight buong araw. Siguro okay na ko dun. Miss na miss ko sya. 😥☹️️

[wendsgarcia]

Gusto kong mag travel. Out of town. If possible, out of the country. Pero pag naiisip ko yung mga necessary things na dapat unahin naglalaho yung gusto ko. Always. Ni hindi nga ako makaipon ng pang tuition ko. Most of the time nashoshort pa ko sa budget. Huhu. Ang hirap mag adult at humarap ng responsibilidad. Ang hirap maging bread winner. Yung tipong kapag hindi ka nagwork hindi makakakain yung pamilya mo. Sana makaya ko. Sana hindi ako mapagod. Lord, please guide me. 🙏

[wendsgarcia]

Ironic

Gusto kong mag turo ng basic acctg for part time para may pang tuition for MBA, pag may MBA na pde na magturo ng college. Haha. 😅