Sketch of THAT scene. because Lilah casually building her little tower whilst Wesley tries to will her out of existance will never not be funny to me 😭
This is a work in progress. I still have to color it.
though i will say that i think it also has a lot to do with the character of lilah herself. because queer people do tend to love a badass evil woman, or even just a woman who's unapologetically herself and super confident. i think that if the gender roles were reversed and wesley was the evil the lawyer, it probably wouldn't have reeled so many of us in. like I remember seeing a post on here saying that 'weslah is spuffy but for lesbians' and. . . i do think there's some truth to that 😂 like I'm not a fan of spuffy at all but I LOVE weslah and I do think it's a lot because of how instead of the typical good girl falling for a bad boy take, you've got a good boy falling for a bad girl.
but also you've got two characters who essentially have no-one else, you know, they're alone. but somehow, against all rationality, they find each other and are able to develop a real connection. and also find some semblance of happiness and solace with each other. and THAT i think really appeals to a demographic that can often feel really isolated. either just internally because you're surrounded by people who don't understand you or literally in the sense that you've been cut off from all your friends and family. but wesley and lilah come into each other's lives and they get each other. they feel understood by each other. and suddenly they're no longer completely isolated. which i think is really relatable as a queer person (or other minorities as well, like I've noticed that they also seem to appeal to a lot of autistic people)
i think also for queer people to be drawn to a het relationship, it has to be really well-written and both it and the characters have to be complex. you know, it has to have a LOT going for it in order to make it interesting for us. because if it's bland or just you're everyday ship then there's nothing really to make it appeal to us over non-het ships. and I think that weslah is unique. there aren't a lot of ships out there like it, that follow the exact same formula
i loved hearing your thoughts on this and especially the part about isolation. this unexpected connection happens in isolation for both of them really and i think that's particularly resonant with the queer experience (i mean how many of us have had relationships that felt too fragile to take out of the vacuum and into our wider lives?). enemy lover ships often do it for me tbqh (reluctant spuffy enjoyer) but this one is easily the most compelling example from the buffyverse.
the power dynamics too man. there's such a power struggle between lilah and wesley that runs parallel to and gets in the way of their feelings - that's maybe not specific to queerness per se but it does feel relevant in terms of what makes it all so interesting!
hard agree that it wouldn't be as effective if the genders were swapped. it's important to me that lilah is unrepentantly the bad guy whilst also being in love and that she's able to be honest with herself about it. it's important that wesley's being one of the good guys doesn't preclude him at all from cruelty (and especially cruelty that comes from him not being able to adapt a version of himself that's fallen in love with the enemy into his wider self-perception - i live for that shit).
I'm asexual, so my INSANE hyperfixation healthy affection for Weslah is amusing given the common claim that their connection consists of nothing but sex :) There are so many great insights here - I love the original post and the comments!
@whatadangerousdream lol I feel you. I’m demisexual though have pretty much zero interest in sex at this point. There is so much going on in that relationship, sex is only the tip of the iceberg 😂
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idk how to address this but i've been diagnosed with something and i'm struggling to deal with it
due to money trouble and my untreated ADHD, i've neglected many of my needs/wants/problems over the past decade or so and now with my diagnosis and treatment ahead i'm terrified and idk what the next year of my life will look like.
i have a very long to-do list and not much time left in which to do them in (by the 18th this month which obviously isn't possible to get everything done by then) and like 99% of my problems would be solved by money (as most peoples' problems would)
i'm fortunate enough that healthcare where i live is "free" but that still doesn't take into account: not having enough money to get things i need and to survive and live off and transportation issues and a million other things. plus the system is understaffed, underfunded, and therefore they'll be constant delays with my healthcare/treatment.
my mental health has also suffered a lot in the past few months since finding out, hence why i've been absent from tumblr (only liking posts from the shadows, hoping i'll have time and energy to reblog/queue them eventually)
my laptop and phone have also both given me "your battery has failed, you need to replace it asap" messages in the last couple months, as if i didn't have enough to worry about.
so if you can donate any money and/or signal boost this post, you have no idea how much you'll be helping me <3
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(medical cw: medical condition under read-more)
so i had a crappy 2025 for many months, only to cap the year off right around the holidays that i have cancer. so i now i have an even crappier year to look forward to.
i have to have chemotherapy every 2-3 weeks, i still don't know all the language well enough because i've been having anxiety/panic attacks while still going to appointments for ultrasounds/biopsies/PET-CT/MRI (some of these multiple times cause something went wrong the first time or whatever)
anyway so chemo two cycles of 4 treatments each of different chemo drugs so like 8 chemo sessions of like 2 hours each spaced out 2-3 weeks apart while taking blood 2 days before each chemo appointment.
then i have to have surgery sometime after chemo.
and i will also be losing all my hair so that's fun! i would have to have like 4 hour long chemo sessions to even try and preserve my hair and it seems like it doesn't tend to be worth it. also makes it harder to book me in as well and i don't really wanna spend 4 hours instead of 2 hours getting treatment.
so i'm like going through like my top 3-5 worse fears in life all at once under the age of 30!
