I don't know what normal is anymore

**TRIGGER WARNING** I do not promote selfharm of any kind. Cadence/Aden, 20, Iowa. Always here for anyone who needs it. Feel free to pm me.

[love-a-little-affection]

Sit with me.

Under the too hot water in the shower. In our bed surrounded by silence. On the kitchen floor at 3am. In the car outside the grocery store.

Sit with me because sometimes that’s all I need.

Wash my back, I won’t want to move but help me do it. Rock me in the dark, let me cry into your shirt. Cup my cheek and tell me I’m gonna be okay, even if I feel like I’m not. Hold my hand as we walk through the aisles, squeeze my hand when people pass.

Sit with me, because sometimes I need help, I’ll never admit it, but I do.

[what-tf-am-i-doing]

I'm tired.

I'm tired of trying for things I don't even know if I want anymore.

I'm tired of pretending I care about things I lost interest in forever ago.

I'm tired of acting like I'm okay all the time.

I'm tired of living.

[extramadness]

“Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It only hurts.”

— Kate Jacobs (via quotemadness)

[bee-poetic]

How to tell that it's getting bad again:

- I sleep to much or not at all -I eat too much or too little -I sound disinterested in everything -Be spaced out a lot - I will ramble a lot or not talk at all -I lose track of time - I make cynical comments, usually about myself -I push people away -I tend to rub my eyes and head a lot -I avoid eye contact -I am always shakey -I will avoid certain conversations

[sad-eyes--happy-face]

[stilinskivoids-end]

.......

[adisorderedpersonality-blog]

Does anyone else forget that mental illness symptoms aren’t normal? Like, most people don’t want to kill themselves constantly??? That’s so weird.

[i-need-to-be-fixed]

[i-need-to-be-fixed]

[imjustascaredlilgirl]

[wordsbymymind]

I’ll be ok for a few days, but then….. 😒

[poeticjunkie]

[vodkakilledtheteen]

I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me at 2pm in the middle of a parking lot. I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me when we wake up one morning. I’m scared of you one day telling me you’ve stopped loving me after I tell you how much I love you. My mind is full of uninvited scenarios of you flatlining my heart with “I don’t love you anymore.” So please try to understand me when I randomly ask you if you still love me.

- Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing

[lit-book-quotes]

“Is that why you play the music so loud? A beat to drown out the thoughts, sound so high you cannot think, lyrics so close to home you don’t even blink.”

- ‘Pillow Thoughts’

Courtney Peppernell

[myheartismyink-deactivated20200]

It will take time, but flowers will eventually bloom in the places you believed would remain bare. Your soul will find peace again.

— scrapnotes | unwavering

[marluna98]

I feel like I‘m wasting my life

[s-e-c-r-e-t-t-s]

Until you can’t breathe, until you can’t move, until it ends you…