Fake Smiles

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I just feel so empty

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I hate when persons ignore me.

You speak Everyone else keeps on talking At first, you think Oh, they didn’t hear me So you say it louder But they still continue In Their own little 🌍 That your not allowed into

When they need help Your the first they go to With plastered smiles They alowy you into their Friend group And like a fool you enter Because your desperate Lonely And feel a consent need to Slit your wrist You enter Like a 👶 to known danger To be used Torn apart And mind fucked Over and over again

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I’ve been depressed as long as I’ve been alive crazy isn’t it

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I’ve been gone for over a year

Most of you have probably forgotten me and my post. My life filled with ups and I’m back to being down so I’ve returned to my roots older wiser-kinda and I guess more to share…….. my heart hurts and I need to express myself so I found myself here. I don’t know where to start or if anyone will listen but my blog will always have my whole heartedly

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After everyone leaves the saddest part is getting used to being all alone again

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Just another day of me regretting being born

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Half of this world is sad but most of us are just really good at pretending we’re not.

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“I’m exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel.”

— Unknown

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I’ll never be loved

I’ll never be special

I’ll never be worth it

I’ll never be enough

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Alone

Dead to the world

Numb

Why do I feel this way

Why dose it hurt

Why I’m I in pain

I thought I was over this

But I was getting better at masking my feelings

My heart it burns

It hurts

I hate you

And I hate me too

I want to be alone

But I also want someone comfort

I’m confused sad alone all over again

And this time I can’t even let anyone in

I’m dying by myself

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Feeling lost confused, lonely and numb to the world

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Just feeling completely alone and unmotivated

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I'm sorry you're going through so much stress right now. Please keep your head up, it's gonna be okay ❤️

Thank you. I’m going to try and get some donations on go fund me or something else to help I really don’t want to take a drop out I only have a another semester and a year to go

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It’s the last week the semester and I feel like I’m at my breaking point. My laptop that I’ve been trying to work with ohad broken down and now is beyond repair. I feel so useless as the I spent all the money I had saved up on fixing it the 1st time. Even though exams are less than a week away my lectures are still giving assignments. I was struggling before and now i feel like there’s no hope. I’ve been asking and begging for help but no one seems to care or understand the depth of this situation. I really need help more than before. I have no idea how I’m to manage to finish the assignments and exams. I really need help and advice.

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Why do I never feel like I belong

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Everything hurts all the time