WhyCantIComeToTerms withMyFuckedUpExistence

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People keep saying the world is ending, but the bitch is still here , I’m honestly trying to figure out if humanity’s destruction can go any faster cause I’m just so tired of existing in this shit show called life .

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Is it over yet?

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Why am I me?

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I pretty much think of running away all the time.

Like maybe if I started afresh somewhere else , a new life , a new identity, a new chance to recreate myself. Just leave it all behind, all the baggage everything.

Maybe my family and friends would hurt for a while , but they’d eventually move on and forget and I’d get to have some peace knowing that their lives are pretty much better without me anyway. Yes , that’s what I’d say to ease the guilt of leaving it all behind.

I love my family , but what if they’re not enough ? What if I’ll always want more ? And what if the only way I could get more is by leaving it all behind , letting it go and just becoming something completely new?

I don’t like who I am, I don’t like feeling stuck with this identity, I don’t like feeling trapped by my own existence.

I think of doing drugs all the time , like there’s a magic pill or substance, something that could just fix it , fix the pain , the hurt , stop the thoughts and put me in an illusion where everything is ok , Like even if it isn’t, Atleast I’ll believe it is.

I’m so tired of it all. I just want to feel ...good.

Non of all this mess, I want it gone . Why can’t I just be ok?

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People be out here like “get help”, as if it’s something very affordable.

It’s like , “yeah , you can hate yourself, your entire existence and wish you were dead every day but we’ll only help if you can pay us”

#SucksHowWeNeedMoneyForLiterallyEverything

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Sometimes when I’m mad I want everyone to be mad.

So I seek fights with people on the internet and I get ignored, zero reaction.

That’s how much of an absolute loser I am

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Sometimes I think to myself , “what if I’m just an ungrateful, entitled human? “

“What if things would be better if I just tried a little harder? “

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World please just end!!! You clearly have nothing to offer me.

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Not to be edgy or anything but life is a complete shit show and my life in particular is pretty fucked!!!!

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How the fuck does this app

Work??? Also , I hate everything!!!!

Fuck!!!!!