Observations on placements in my birth chart
I crave intellectual intimacy with people. Friends, family, partners. If I don’t think I can talk to you about ANYTHING, I won’t be able to be close with you.
A guy I was talking to wanted to do NOTHING but talk about our future together and we’d only been talking for a WEEK. I remember every time we talked I tried to get to know him and he just brushed me off. I got the ick so fast. I will say a part of that is my Aquarius venus. But I just wanted nothing to do with him after that.
Another thing is, I NEED to talk about things that give me anxiety or I will explode. Things like politics, trauma, anything that makes me have that pit in my stomach I need to talk about with someone immediately. And to add onto that, I have to talk about my emotions very precisely. And I cannot let things go until I have talked them to DEATH. Also, CHRONIC OVERTHINKER.
I feel like having this placement in my chart allows me to speak freely, and added with my heavy Aquarius placements I feel like I’m pretty unintentionally funny. I can’t try to be funny, I just like say outrageous things and get a laugh.
I’m rarely ever embarrassed about what I say. But when I am I can’t let it go lol. The way I speak and tell stories is very detailed and thought out. But I can be incredibly scatterbrained about where I place details and the order in which I say things.
Leo Mars, and Leo Rising:
I am a show off. Badly. There’s literally videos of me in a pink little top with jeans, dancing for my family at thanksgiving. Although, most people think I have a BIG ego on my head, I really don’t. My insecurities and inability to fully accept compliments keep me humble.
My mars sign gives my the drive to do what I want, but it’s debilitated by being in the 12th house <\3. I often fantasize about what I want to do without making actual moves to do it (any Astro girlies that know how to help me get over that?).When I do make moves they’re very slow. I easily manifest though and can make things go well for me if I just ~know~ I can do it.
My rising sign gives people the impression that I’m intimidating. I don’t know why if I’m honest, but I’d just have to assume it’s because it’s in a late degree. Many of my current friends said they thought I was “too cool”, or would “be mean” to them. Which wasn’t the case. I think I just have a Regina George thing going on. And my favorite thing about me is my hair, even if it’s a little all over the place.
Aquarius Neptune in the 7th House:
I have always had people make up fantasies about me that aren’t true. ESPECIALLY when I’m talking to them with the intention of being romantic. Take for example the guy I mentioned earlier. He had a VERY WRONG idea of who I was. He didn’t know me, didn’t try to know me, and still proclaimed that he did. Blocked, immediately. Although, I fantasized about the person I thought he was too, so it was slightly mutual, but it was broken for me immediately.
Whenever I’ve talked to someone I feel like they get the wrong idea of me romantically, and it’s honestly annoying. They always have gotten clingy with me before I know them and it gives me the ick horribly. I’m not a very cuddly person, I like being friends with a person before being in a relationship with them. It just already gives the vibe that you know who the other person is already.
This is like the placement that I hate the most in my chart. I like the idea of being with someone, but I’ve never found a guy mature enough or willing to go at a slow pace enough for me. And it’s also in the 6th house which makes me very perfectionistic about the way I look and how I take care of myself. Which helps me but my family lowkey makes fun of me for it. And I also naturally get the ick when I like someone very easily. My flight or fight gets triggered heavily 😭.
Though, I feel like I wouldn’t get the ick as much if THEY TRIED TO GET TO KNOW ME FIRST. Yes I’m still salty about it. He literally traumatized me, I have the eternal ick from that asshole. But what I like about this placement combined with my mars placement is that I’m a chick magnet, like cmon now.
Okay that’s all, thank you!