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9/10/22

food diary ~ entry one

ate: 1 almond (7cals), 1 coke zero (0.9cals)

burned: 270cals

net: -262.1

i don't think they're called coke zero anymore.

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my mum told me if i go to my aunties house to do housework she'll buy me some dumplings acting like that's motivation lmfao thats like anti-motivation i'm only having 100cals today 1 pork and chive dumpling has like 80cals 💀

i'm fat and i used to obsses over food so ppl think i REALLY like it, ig i still obsses over food just in a different way. bed to ana pipeline is so real istg.

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me after telling ppl they need to eat to live knowing full well i only had 200cals that day:

feeling so that one photo of sad ben affleck rn ☹️

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OH MY DAYS WAIT. i was so sad at finding out gum has cals but i just realized i could make a 0cal slushie!! all i need to do is blend ice and add zero sugar/diet coke. life is good. life is good.

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ate wayyyyy too much today, i'm disgusting, gonna have 100cals maximum tmwr.

ate: 1800cals

burned: 1000cals

net: 800cals

also ppl keep liking and reblogging (like 12 ppl lmao) my first mealspo and tbh my first was kinda gross 😭 like i had tomato and poorly scooped eggwhites and BANANA all on the same plate. kinda gross.

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1/4 apple - 25cals

1 kiwifruit - 32cals

1 pack of organic blueberry puffs - 54cals

net: 111cals

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GUM HAS CALORIES?!? IM GOMNA KMS WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK 😭😭 5 GUM = 5CALS PER STICK WHYYYYYY

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what i ate today - mealspo + cals

one hard boiled egg white - 17cals

half a tomato - 10cals

four almonds - 28cals

dash of salt - 0cals

lemon water - 0.4cals

net - 55.4 cals

half a cup of rice - 90cals

one soft boiled egg - 75cals

one eight tsp sesame seeds - 6.5cals

one tbsp soy sauce - 9cals

garlic powder - 1cal

white pepper - 0.8cals

net - 182.3cals

half a cup rice + one tbsp soy sauce - 99cals

one third of a banana - 33.3

one quarter of an apple - 25cals

four almonds - 28

lemon water - 0.8cals

net - 184.1

*no photo*

1 small baked potato - 130cals

°.*•☆°.*.°•

~overall~

ate - 553.8cals

burned - 300cals

net - 253.8cals

i regret the rice but mostly the potato, i really didn't need it.

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mealspo + cals

half a tomato - 10cals

half a banana - 50cals

one hard boiled egg white - 17cals

three almonds - 21cals

one chocolate chip - 2cals

a dash of salt - 0cals

lemon water (half a tsp lemon juice + a cup of water) - 0.4cals

overall - 100.4cals

very filling and only 100cals, it's a good breakfast/lunch/dinner. the chocolate chip was only to make it exactly 100 and then i had a lemon water so it was kinda pointless 😭.

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ate: 900cals

burned: 400cals

net: 500cals

i can do better.

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ate: 750cals

burned: 802cals

net: -52

would have been so much better if i didn't eat that stupid cookie 😭

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I WANNA BE EMACIATEEDDDD!!!

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i want to be able to wear rings without being disgusted at how ugly my hands are

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thing i do instead of eating

i had a tendency to eat when i'm bored 😭

- shows/movies/reading (obviously, currently watching criminal minds and there are so many seasons)

- video games (i find myself forgetting about everything, so many 'gamer boys' are probably so skinny cause they straight up skip meals from how time consuming and addictive games can be)

- meeting/talking to family or friends (it can be annoying cause sometimes ppl wanna get lunch but you can always just say i already ate and stuff)

- uquiz (seriously been doing those quizzes for an hour and i barely even noticed)

- WALKINGGG!! (it's the best cause it keeps me from eating AND it's low effort exercise)

- gardening/cleaning

- making jewellery/knitting

- shopping (the walking around is also exercise, once went shopping for 4 hours straight and i was just walking around the whole time so I burned so many cals)

- draw/paint and listen to music

- write (literally anything)

- study (usually bores me)

- gum/ice/water/vitamins/no sugar drinks (obvi)

if you know anything to keep my mind off food pls help!!

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day five ~ goal 600

i did not slay today guys 😕 idek what i ate

i seriously hate my tendency to switch from st4rving to b1nging. i wonder what it would be like to live a completley regular life without all these food issues, idek, my idea of healing is st4rving after a b1nge and b1nging after i st4rve

tommorow is a liquid fast, i might be able to get through it espicially because i feel so guilty about b1nging a few times in this past week.

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day four ~ goal 200

ate: 270cals

burned: 420cals

net: - 150