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[thenestsystem]

hello fellow systems 👋

have any of you guys been on ssris (particularly zoloft) and if so, how did it affect your plurality / dissociation?

we’ve been a lot switchier than normal and our dissociative/memory barriers have gone up, and we’re trying to figure out if it’s a new medication thing or a system reorganization thing. hopefully it’s something temporary!

[whim-sys]

I hope you don't mind the long reblog-reply.

The short answer is "Yes and we hated it".

We were put on fluoxetine and seroquel to start, well before the majority of us were aware that we were a system. Fluoxetine is Prozac for the uninitiated and seroquel is an antipsychotic. This was our psychiatrist's attempt to "cure the underlying cause" of our dissociation (the host thought we had DPDR because of the consistent dissociation). He thought it was caused by our high depression and anxiety. Our time being on both was incredibly disorienting. I don't know how to properly explain what it did to us, but friends who observed us during this time said that we were "essentially a carousel of people switching in and out". It made the amnesia between us even worse. Several of us split off to try to keep us functional, including me.

We ended up forgetting the entire year we were on it and discovering that we were a system because of the upheaval. It got so bad that several of our friends admitted to us that they considered calling wellness checks on us often. It caused more emotional amnesia, greyouts, and full blackouts that we have not recovered from. We eventually quit both cold turkey and stabilized somewhat, and now we are on a super low Lexapro dose and our psychiatrist is considering moving us to an SNRI.

Skip to here if you don't want to read all that

SSRIs can seriously fuck up a system and we are just one example. Several of our system friends had similar experiences. I'm not telling you to not take your medication if it helps you, just providing our story because the first hand account might benefit you and others.

~ 🐚

[whim-sys]

Hmmmm I forgot that I agreed to be here. I don't think I actually agreed, I think I was voluntold, lol.

Whatever.

My name is Cleo, my sign-off is 🐚. I have been debating switching my name because of the constant "Aur Naur Cleaur, the condensaaation" jokes that have been happening. We collectively have never even watched that show or movie or whatever it is. It's all good though. Sort of funny. I chose my name because 1. It's so pretty, and 2. Cleo is the name of the Greek muse of History. It kind of fits me.

I use a lot of blue to indicate when part of a post is me writing it (or it's Carter making a house of leaves joke).

I love the water, I love oceans and rivers and lakes. I haven't been swimming in a long time and I miss it. I take some enjoyment from Barbie still (my favorite being a tie between Island Princess and Mermaidia - go figure). I love to write and be creative with fantasy being my favorite genre. I am not the biggest fan of YA fantasy though. The idea of fae courts charming and kidnapping a barely legal human girl for their old prince doesn't do anything for me but make me annoyed.

I'm not around front a lot, but when I am I don't mind chatting.

🐚.txt is how I will tag my posts if you, for some reason, want to read what I write.

[whim-sys]

So excited to play the Pixie Hollow rewrite after therapy today. Hope they have my name! I am going to MASTER the bakery again.

- 💐

[whim-sys]

I'm finally fronting so I can do my little intro post :P (lying actually, I have been up and about I just didn't wanna for a bit lol)

My name is Thalia! I use she/her but there's no problems if I get other pronouns. I am an adult (but some people may think I'm not cause I have some sort of "childish" interests, I promise I am). I like star wars, old barbie movies, pixie hollow, and cute media in general. I really really like life sim games (which is a common theme with us!). I'm very much a glass half full type of girl and I try to see the best in everyone, and that's my favorite quality about myself! I believe, fully and truly, in the restorative power of assuming the best and making room for grace. I love people! We're all so squishy and complicated and doing our best.

I really like pink so I will absolutely be using this color often. My sign off will be a 💐

I think that's it! If you made it this far, take this post as a reminder to take any meds, drink water, stretch, eat, and tell someone you love that you care about them if you have not already today. Have a lovely day filled with what you need in it!

[whim-sys]

I am taking your hands (with consent) and holding them as I tell you& this:

It's okay if your system experiences don't match other people's. I can understand how isolating and sometimes invalidating it feels to not feel like you fit in in system spaces. It can make denial so much worse. It can make you feel like you have to present yourselves in a way that's more "acceptable" at the sake of authenticity. You& don't have to do this, in fact, please don't.

The wide variety of ways external and internal factors influence how a system presents means that there isn't a set default. There isn't a system Everyman (an Everymans? Is that funny?). There isn't a prescribed way that we have to look or perform. You are not "less of a system" than someone else you may come across in these spaces.

Forcing yourselves to conform to the standards set by sysblr or systok or systagram or whatever will do more damage than not. Being a system/in a system is already so hard without feeling like you need to fit unnecessary expectations.

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[whim-sys]

I totally forgot some of us started this blog! How silly. But I'm finally up enough to post on it.

I won't be fixing the introduction. I think it's funny. But I figure I would introduce myself properly.

My name is Rhea! I am an adult. I use she/her pronouns, but don't really mind if others are used. I am some flavor of queer. My favorite color is purple. I don't have a favorite shade or hue of purple. I love all of it. I am a huge MCR fan. I like the slenderverse and creepypasta (but I am a much bigger creepypasta person, lol). I like weird and spooky things and I'm also kind of a nerd. We collectively are into psychology and I am no exception lol. I like to find beauty and meaning in places where people don't often look.

I like to chat when I'm around. You'll probably find me in comments sections and reblogs mainly because we can't actually like or follow people on any of our system blogs because of the collective decision to keep our systemhood on the down-low. If I'm being honest, this embarrases a lot of us and makes some of us anxious or scared for various reasons, which is understandable. Please don't be offended if we cannot follow you.

I like to be helpful. Pretty much all of us do. This blog's inbox and DMs are open to all. I use 🪻as a sign-off.

That should be it, I think. Have a great day!

~ 🪻

[whim-sys]

I'm an imposter typing this introduction shhhh

This is sideblog for a few members of a larger system to be all positive n shit. I don't actually know what they're gonna do here.

CDD system

dni if you're t.r.a.s.h., a deplorable dickhead, etc etc etc don't be a piece of shit. This place is syscourse free and CDD focused like our main blog unless they suddenly have a massive change of heart or whatever. If you wanna bitch about it, don't do it here. Direct your ire at our main system blog so someone who's actually down to deal with your bullshit is likely to see it.

The folks in charge of the blog are:

Thalia (she/her/they) - 💐

Cleo (she/her) - 🐚

Rhea (she/her) - 🪻

Asphodel (Del) (they/it) - 🌫️

Agnes (she/they/it) - 🔥

Carter - (he/they) - 📌

They'll probably take this down to make a better one when they're around.

I can't think of anything else to add other than like. Idk.

- 🪴