Amalgamatrite

[whim-without-gumption]

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[insomniac-arrest]

going out for a smoke even when you don't smoke girl summer. just go outside like you need a smoke and pretend to be your own father

[fluff-e-boy]

Need to be taken apart and reassembled like a broken watch . Not in a sex way I just think they should put my joints together right this time

[honeydewdrops333]

what doesn’t kill you makes your nervous system more sensitive for the rest of your life

[formlessformless]

You Could Go Anywhere but You Won’t, 2023 Photographed by Brooke DiDonato.

[redstonedust]

love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

[tlbodine]

This trait is much more endearing in fiction than in my mother.

[54625]

flicking back through my procreate library what the fuck was this

[54625]

authors notes: there is absolutely no one true meaning intended for this piece, but I guess my thoughts while making it were the plain, boring and literal way you talk about the world after seeing something traumatic , or the way things seem to lose all meaning and significance . and also the way you minimise an event to make it sound like it's not so bad , the way you remove detail from the memory.

like .. there is something over the river . there is something unspeakable over the river . when you recount it , you have to make it seem so small . it's just a body. the state the body is in can't be made out like this . you hide the details from yourself to forget how bad it really looked . you hide it in general - so insignificant you could miss it entirely ! it was just a body and The Something that killed it looming , and birds flying away .

and the world could be full of colour , but you can't see it that way any more . the grass is just grass . the trees are just trees . the fish in the river that's just a river are just fish , and that's just a body .

Also SPOILERS for anyone who wants the solution to the eye-spy:

[othellho]

Temporary Vows, Caroline Bird

[freakoutgirl]

Lots of people think they're doomed but they're not doomed the way I am doomed

[sleeping-jo]

I can’t sleep, I have to torture myself psychologically

[thehotelchelsea]

my wound salt that I keep beside my bed

[traversety]

the spirit is willing but the flesh is so fucking out of it rn. actually the flesh would like to pack it up and leave. it's done with the horrors.

[anarqueeen]

yeah the doctor said they found the source of my guilt and quiet agony deep within my core. Yeah turns out there really is something physically and fundamentally wrong with me that I've been carrying my entire life. No they said they're not gonna remove it. Said its an "elective surgery" so insurance won't cover it. Anyway how are you

[ofiscariot]

XII. THE HANGED MAN.

the hanged man, pamela colman smith // judas hanged, nardo di cione // preparatory sketches for pitturi infamanti, andrea del sarto // “speculum imperfectionis: the image of judas in late medieval italy,” janet robson // “l’appeso/le pendu/the hanged man,” sherryl e. smith // the death of judas iscariot, julius schnorr von carolsfeld // the sacrifice of odin, lorenz frølich // “yggdrasil: the sacred ash tree of norse mythology,” the public domain review // anonymous verse, recorded by óláfr þórðarson // judas, gabriel von max // seventy-eight degrees of wisdom, rachel pollack // the gospel of judas

[swamp-spirit]

The real horror of a Stepford Wives situation isn't 'the suburbs are creepy' or even 'conformity is creepy' or 'I don't wanna be replaced by a robot'

The horror is the idea that you might choose to spend your life with somebody only to realize they don't actually want a partner and friend, somebody with ambitions and thoughts and joy. They want somebody productive, compliant, and sexually available, and all your internal life is nothing but a barrier to that. That the person you love only loves what you do for them, and the less of the an actual person you are, the happier they are.

[fairycosmos]

did you know that apparently if you try to act normal the normalness doesn't come through but the acting does. and did you know apparently everyone can smell this on you like a bloodhound

[fairycosmos]

and did you know that apparently even if you get really really good at acting normal the outcome will be the same. but did you also know that apparently if you don't try to act normal then they can see that on you like a hawk as much as they can smell the acting like a bloodhound. and the outcome will be the same

[the-tenth-arcanum]

ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to be into shit no one cares about