The Galaxy I’ve been lost in Part 2:
Fall of 2017 was finally here, I had an amazing community built around my Twitch streaming, including making an amazing best friend. Shannon has been my life line for so many ups and down in my life, I don’t know how I did it before without her there to ground me all the time. There is a reason I call her my sister, even though we are not even blood related. The funny thing is also at this time I had sustained a nerve injury in my right wrist, so I was out of commission for streaming games on Twitch, and started expanding my horizons with what I wanted to do in my life.
October 14th 2017, Yes I remember the day this happened. I had gone out to dinner with my parents as they had come to visit and check on my health due to my wrist. I guess the perks of being an only child. We went to Texas Road House by my apartment, I of course was on grindr, I mean I was a single gay man trying to find love, or something. I saw this really cute guy that was 162 something miles from me. Up until this point every date, every guy I had talked to did not peak my interest, nor I felt was worth pursuing anyone at this time. I was 30 at the time, I had a new lease on life, I wanted something real, someone I could see a future with, and shared the same common values, morality, and hobbies I did, or close to them.
I bit the bullet and sent him a message, think the odds are he wouldn’t respond to me I mean he's 21 and 100 something miles away from me. I was thinking he lived in Memphis or Missouri, since I seen in his bio that he went to MSU. So, here’s how funny life can be, come to find out, he went to university in the same town I was born, and lived in for several years of my younger life. I also had almost all my family in or around this town, and huge supporter of this university and its athletics. I know a gay man that likes sports, hahaha I’ve heard that quip so many times.
Well, this cute guy did message me back, and here begins the fairy tale as I like to call it. I remember telling Shannon everything, gushing for like hours about this guy, as he and I had not stopped messaging after the initial icebreaker of which school he went to. Our story is almost like a romantic movie, there are a little details I will leave out in respect to him, but he comes from a very similar background I do, and he was also in a very emotionally and mentally abusive relationship. Again, this is all I will tell you as this is my story and not his!
After talking for a week or so, I finally got the guts to drive the 5 hour trip back to my hometown to go out on a first date. I booked me hotel room, got some courage and went. I didn’t know what to expect as this a guy of grindr, I mean half the time the guys don’t match their profiles, sometimes it’s better and sometimes it’s much worse kinda even creepy. I’m so excited by this point that as I was checking into my room I was actually shaking.
I get checked into my room, and boom I’m immediately asking Shannon what should I wear, almost like teenager going on their first date ever. I mean who can blame me, there was already something different about him, I wanted to be as best looking as I could. I mean first impressions do matter. Well, we decided on a place to meet and I was several minutes ahead of him. I was so excited and nervous, I was pacing, messaging Shannon non stop, almost to the point of freaking out because of my nerves. Now this part may sound cheesy as hell, but you know what I don’t care. This is the moment @brockiebrock came into my life. I remember him pulling up in his mini cooper, and the first moment he turned and looked at me it was like there was this eerie calm in the world. My nerves stopped, only thing I remember I could feel at this moment was my heart racing. You know that cliche moment in every romantic movie, when the couple first meets and it's like the world stops. This was that moment for me. Then he smiled for the first of many times.
We went on with our date, we ate and went back to my hotel room. Trust me this is not going where you think it’s going. Well, we get to my room and we sit and talk for what seemed like 5 mins but was several hours. That’s how entranced I was by him, of course we did make out, I mean who wouldn’t we you have this amazing beautiful guy right in front of you. However, when things got heated, he asked to wait. This was the first guy ever in my life that asked me to wait. I was taken back, I thought something was wrong, did I do something wrong? Nope I did not, he wanted our first time to be memorable, he wanted it to be special, again I know cliche, but I had never had anyone do this or say this to me ever. We parted ways, the next day we set in the park and talked for hours, he had some major events that happened late the previous night. I won’t divulge the information, but it was bad. I spend that Sunday, sitting and talking and listening to him, holding him while he cried. I knew at this point he was different, he was special, and was someone amazing.
Fast forwarding a few weeks, I came back down to visit @brockiebrock for Halloween, we had plans to go one of his friends parties. We freshen up and get ready to head out, I still remember how he looked at me that night, the look in his eyes were that of true happiness, I don’t know how my eyes looked, because I spent so much time blushing, and smiling to the point my eyes had to close as my smile couldn’t get any bigger. That night was the first time in my life that I ever truly made love to anyone. I won’t go into gushy details, to me it was the most romantic, beautiful amazing thing that has ever happened in my life. I didn’t want it to end. The following day October 29th 2017 , and I had to get ready to head back home. We set in the parking lot and he asked me to be his boyfriend. I was I don’t know how to describe the amount of happiness, calm, and excitement I felt at that very moment, nor did I have any idea this is how every day after this would be a moment like this. I remember, I got home and went up to my parents how the next day. Now, keep in mind my mom and I have been close, but we were never as close as I always wanted to be. I remember asking her, “how did it feel when you first met dad?” she described almost every feeling I felt when I met Brock. Dare I almost say what her and I both talked about feeling be that of fate? Whether you believe in that or not fate had a hand in this.
Now skipping a few details of moving in together, and starting a life together, Brock and I find ourselves a year later today October 29th celebrating our 1 year anniversary. I couldn’t be happier then I am now, and I know everything is right in the world being with @brockiebrock
Well there you go everyone, this has been an update on my world since 2014.
P.S.
I love you very much @brockiebrock Happy 1 Year Anniversary
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