Hi! My name is Sam (she/her) and if you haven't already guessed, I am absolutely obsessed with Bucky! I started one series that is currently ongoing. Requests are open, please don't be shy! I would love to make your vision come to life. I also really like to hear everyone's ideas! Follows, re-blogs, comments, and likes are all appreciated more than you know. Let's all be kind! This is a safe space for everyone!
You're My Home
-Super soft wedding night smut. Imagine fluff x infinity.
Baby Mine
-You & Bucky get some unexpected news. Super fluff.
The Apparition Series
-In 1943, 24 year old Eleanor gets set up on a blind date with Bucky Barnes. The match is so perfect, it was written in the stars. Yes, they're soulmates. Unfortunately, HYDRA gets in the way- taking the perfect life away from the two. But what if fate was so certain, it gave them another chance to be together?
Part One- Why Are You Never Real
What's Your Favorite Scary Movie?
-After revealing a secret fetish of yours to Bucky, he takes it to the next level.
Part One // Part Two **COMPLETE**
Big Bad White Wolf Series (Ongoing)
-After graduating college, you receive an internship working at The Avengers Compound working with Veterans. Your first and biggest assignment will test you in every way possible.
Meeting
Huff & Puff
What Big Eyes You Have- Part One
What Big Eyes You Have-Part Two đźâš
Coffee đźâš
Feeling Bad đźâš
Confessions đźâš
Good Morning đźâš
Sharing A Bed â€ïžâđ„đźâš
Taking Control â€ïžâđ„đźâš
Wake Up Call â€ïžâđ„
Dreaming of a *White* Christmas â€ïžâđ„đźâš
Hello! Someone reposted your work(s) over wattpat, their username is @smileybannana
Just wanted to let you know, have a nice day!
(Btw yours is in the âAvengers tumblr fluffâ book)
Hi!
Thank you so much for letting me know.â„ïž
I have contact Wattpad and the user. Itâs really disheartening because writers really put their all into their writing and just to blatantly ignore disclaimers is not cool.
Hello! Someone reposted your work(s) over wattpat, their username is @smileybannana
Just wanted to let you know, have a nice day!
Hey! Thank you for letting me know!
I went through all their marvel fics they stole from Tumblr and there are a lot. They said they give credit but they definitely donât asked permission. There are so many others that I picked out a few authors I know â because Iâm sure they didnât give their permission for it.
First of all thatâs their account!!!! And the stories they stole from me. PLEASE REPORT THEM BECAUSE THEY DIDNT ASK FOR PERMISSION!!!! And even though they give âcreditâ they havenât asked if itâs oke, so itâs still kind of stolen!!!!
Some friend of mine or just enjoy their work and know that they probably havenât given their permission either!
Some people whose work is between those works: @holylulusworld @heytheredelulu @sergeantbarnessdoll @lives-in-midgard @imtryingbuck @whitexwolfxx310 @myfictionaldreams @espinosaurusrexex @buckyalpine @hansensgirl @dungeonpuppykai @evansbby @witchywithwhiskey @violentdelightsandviolentends @mrsbarnesblog @multiversefanfics (hope itâs oke that I mentioned you)
This is the type of shit that really bothers me. Writers, like myself, specifically have disclaimers on each & every post stating that we DO NOT consent to have this happen to our work.
Pairing: Bucky x female reader (Eleanor//Elena)) || Bucky x Loki
Summary: In 1943, 24 year old Eleanor gets set up on a blind date with Bucky Barnes. The match is so perfect, it was written in the stars. Yes, they're soulmates. Unfortunately, HYDRA gets in the way- taking the perfect life away from the two. But what if fate was so certain, it gave them another chance to be together?
Warnings: Fluff and angst off the charts (I'm so sorry!). Some cursing- but very little.
Word Count: 5.8k
A/Ns: So a few things inspired this fic; First, someone requested something similar to this about a year ago. The idea stuck with me (although it was originally about the love interest being on ice also). I can't find the message of the person who requested, so if you come across this & it was you, please let me know so I can give you credit! Second, I saw a TikTok of Bucky & Loki and I've been obsessed with bringing the two together. Last but not least, I'm one of those that is constantly blasting Sleep Token- so in combination with all of these things, the song: The Apparition was also inspiring. Let me know what you think!
1943
It was Labor Day weekend, and anybody who's anybody knows that's when the carnival came to town. Not only was it the official end to the hot New York summers, but it was an escape from everything having to do with the ongoing War. It was a reprieve for the children, to go out and experience some lighthearted fun. But mostly, the carnival lured the young adult crowd like a gullible captain to a siren in the sea.
Eleanor was twenty-four, still living comfortably at home with her parents and four younger siblings. While she helped take care of her siblings, the passive comments about how she was unmarried and reaching her prime age to start a family never failed to be brought up in daily conversations in their household.
It wasn't for a lack of suitors. Plenty of men had asked her on dates, a few even so bold enough to offer marriage without so much as going for a stroll in the park. But for Eleanor, it wasn't just about picking a random man to build a life with. She dreamed of a true romance, just like the ones she would get so lost in while reading her books- and eventually starting a family out of love and not necessity or by society's regards.
While she had already made plans to meet up with her girlfriends on Saturday night at the carnival, her mother had a different idea- A blind date.
Eleanor had intriguingly spent the afternoon with her hair in curlers and ironing her favorite yellow summer dress, the one with white polka dots and matching heels. It would perfectly accent the slight tan she obtained from the few times she snuck to the beach on the outskirts of the city to dig her toes in the sand and lay in the scorching sun.
As her typical primping time took a little longer than usual in anticipation for the blind date, Eleanorâs mind kept getting swept up in who the possible mystery man could be. Was it someone she knew? A family friend? What did he look like? Was he short or tall? Does he have a sense of humor?
Sure, she of course curious if he was handsome. But that was never her main focus. Eleanor wanted someone who could make her laugh- someone that was playful and knew how to have fun. But a pretty face was definitely a bonus.
Opening the front door and stepping out into the Summerâs relentless humidity, she was met with none other than Bucky Barnes- Brooklyn's most notorious flirt and former high school crush. He leaned casually against the railing of the front steps, dressed in an olive-green Class A's uniform wearing a smug smile.
"Ready for our date, Doll?"
After initially closing the door in his face in a panic, Eleanor's mother pleaded with her to try and give him a chance. Rumor amongst the women on the block was that he was looking for a wife. She rambled off the typical list of how handsome he was, how he came from a good family, and the cherry on top of the guilt pie: he had just enlisted in the Army and was leaving in just a few short weeks for basic training. Who knows when he will come back home, if at all?
Could one date really be so bad?
Eleanor felt nervous walking the few blocks with Bucky, exchanging formal pleasantries about how beautiful the night was and so on. But she was shy- at least, by her standards. She had always worn a big smile and never felt self-conscious about how loud she laughed, regardless of how many times people stated that it was âunladylikeâ.
Because of her unapologetic mentality in refusing to conform to make herself small, it labeled her as difficult. Eleanor didnât have many friends, but she always said: âIâd rather have four quarters than a hundred pennies,â and felt fulfilled. The people in her life that truly knew her, knew of her dreams and ambitions- and that she truly had a heart of gold.
Not many others noticed, but Bucky did.
He had always noticed how Eleanor could light up a room. She was the sun incarnate. So, when her mother âaccidentallyâ bumped into him on the street that morning and suggested he take her out tonight, he couldnât refuse the idea.
âSo aside from enlisting,â Eleanor gestured towards his uniform with her free hand, since her other was interlocked around Buckyâs arm, âwhat else have you been up to since we graduated, Barnes?â She unconsciously gripped his forearm just a bit tighter, using physical touch to ground her from the unfamiliar nervousness she felt.
âSergeant Barnes,â he corrected with a grin.
The pair moved from their sedentary spot in the carnival ticket line, only a few away from the booth.
âOkay, Sergeant,â Eleanor reiterates, laughing to herself. âSo?â she asks again, tilting her head to the side curiously and looking up at him through her lashes.
âBoxed my way through art school. Then with all the boys gettinâ drafted, I just figured Iâd sign up before Uncle Sam had the chance to come knockinâ on my door,â he recalled casually, but didnât seem interested in talking about himself.
Buckyâs arm disentangled with Eleanorâs, pressing his palm to the small of her lower back to coax her forward gently as the ticket line moved again. Her breath hitched slightly when he didnât remove it right away, she eyed him up and down modestly.
His head tilted to the side, âWhat about you, Ellie?â his sapphire blue eyes holding her gaze, âWhat keeps you busy these days?â
Ellie. The nickname he uses makes her stomach drop, and they havenât even gone on any rides yet. Itâs a name heâs used off and on through school and over the years in passing.
Her cheeks brighten with a new shade of light pink, breaking their fixed look at one another. Bucky takes notice and smiles fondly to himself.
âUm,â Eleanor forces herself to look back up at him, feeling at a loss for words as she tries not to focus so much on his beautiful smile- On how his slightly parted lips show the smallest hint of his white teeth.
She didnât think sheâd be on a date tonight, let alone with someone that sheâd been smitten with since grade school.
âI um,â her words were failing her for the first time ever, âI teach at the elementary school.â She hesitates a moment, before taking a breath and says, âto be honest, Iâve been waiting to get pulled into one of the factories.â Her voice now has a hint of sadness. Ellie quickly tries to deflect the subject, âPlus my brothers and sisters keep me pretty busy.â
âAh,â Buckyâs smile grows wider as his head tilts back at the recollection, also taking the hint, âand how are the little scoundrels?â
Ellie laughs, thankful to have the relief of talking about herself put off. She shakes her head, âStill terrorizing anyone and everyone.â
âNext!â
Bucky reluctantly pulls his attention away from Ellie to step up to the ticket booth. âTwo please,â he answers politely.
As the worker counts his change, Buckyâs eyes couldnât help but admire Ellie from head to toe. How she pointed one foot inward and fiddled with her fingers as she waited patiently with an imminent smile- admiring the sights and sounds of the fair around her. She was truly breathtaking.
There was no short supply of local attractive women. Bucky had dated plenty of them, and even more had shared his bed. They had always flocked to him, like a moth to a flame. It was a great stroke to his ego, but he was never taken with any of them. And none of them would have slammed a door in his face at the mere sight of him.
Ellie though? She was something else entirely. He was always interested in what she had to say. The stories she told always captivated him and made him laugh. Being around her was easy and never forced. Even when they were kids, he found himself stealing glances and daydreaming about her.
He had to make tonight mean something.
As Bucky had promised himself, he pulled out all the stops to impress Ellie. It wasnât long before she eased back into her normal self, although she couldnât ignore the butterflies constantly flittering along the lining of her belly.
The two spent hours walking around the carnival, sharing treats like cotton candy and the biggest, most delicious cannoli they had ever had. Bucky learned fast, and kept suggesting riding the bigger rides, because he selfishly loved it when Ellie clung onto him when she got scared. And Ellie, never being one to back down, always said yes.
Ellie eventually convinced Bucky to take a break from riding the tilt-a-whirl back-to-back after threatening him with seeing the pink cotton candy to make an appearance again. He reluctantly conceded, knowing that he would be missing her reaching out and holding onto him.
He suggested they play some carnival games until she felt better. And from the way Ellieâs eyes lit up with excitement, Bucky knew it was a promising idea.
In the meantime, they threw darts to pop balloons, a few several types of ball toss, and a horse racing game. Bucky even got to show off his marksmanship at a rifle target booth, winning Ellie a brown teddy bear that she proudly carried around with her for the entirety of the evening.
But the best part was the way they cheered each other on with every game. Buckyâs heart swelled each time he won, and Ellie would jump up and down in excitement for him. Even with the playful competitive banter back and forth, neither of them felt a bitter loss.
It was starting to get late, and the fair would be shutting down soon. The only ride the two hadnât ridden yet was the Ferris wheel. Saving the best for last.
Standing in a decently extensive line, the pair continued on with the tradition of the night: sharing belly laugh filled stories about dates gone horribly wrong and glances that lingered just a little too long.
Bucky felt something being with Ellie that was completely unfamiliar. In a world that was currently plagued with such darkness, this was the first time in he didnât know how long he didnât feel it weigh on him. She rejuvenated his very soul. Bucky silently wished out into the universe that she felt the same about him.
âYâknow Ellie, I have to admit,â Bucky tucked his hands into his pockets as he stared down at the dirt his shoe kicked up. âtonightâs beenâŠEllie?â
As he looked up from the ground to meet those golden eyes, there was nothing. She was gone. âEllie?â Bucky repeated, louder this time as he frantically scanned the large crowd.
âEllie!â He shouted through his funneled hands while standing on his toes. Buckyâs head was starting to spin with worst case scenarios when he suddenly caught a glimpse of her bright yellow dress.
Off in a quiet corner next to the circus tent, Ellie was crouched down talking to a young boy. The boy wasnât looking at her, but instead his head hung low as he stared at the ground, and he seemed⊠upset.
Although he was too far away to hear, Bucky watched the encounter intently. Ellie nodded gently as she spoke to him, gesturing with her free hand- but the boy still seemed unresponsive. A moment of silence passes between them, and then with a bright smile, Ellie holds up the brown teddy bear that Bucky had won her earlier. She makes the stuffed animal dance, wave its arms, and boop the boy on his nose- finally getting his attention and smile.
Then she holds the bear out to him. Without hesitation, he snatches it into his arms and pulls it tight against his chest. The boy is now beaming and looks like he was swapped with a completely different child. He hugs Ellie before running off to another group of children, holding up and showing off the bear while they all exclaimed how lucky he was.
Ellie smiled and waved as the boy ran off, remaining crouched down on the ground for a moment even after being alone. Standing up as she brushed off her dress and watched the boy, her expression changed to one with a sorrowful undertone as the boy and his friends ran off.
Turning to walk back to the Ferris wheel line, her honey brown eyes locked with Buckyâs. Just the sight of him waiting on her, standing online looking tall, broad, and handsome in that uniform watching her made her cheeks blush and a small smile tug on her lips.
From Buckyâs point of view, time seemed to move in slow motion. The bottom of Ellieâs dress flowed out with each sway of her hips. Her curls gently bounced with each graceful step, despite the uneven fairgrounds. He forgot how to breathe the closer she approached.
âSorry âbout that, Sarge.â Ellie says apologetically, joining Bucky back in the line.
âItâs alright,â Buckyâs voice is soft from his throat being dry. The feeling is suddenly overwhelming, his hand has laid dormant for too long. Taking the risk of not being on a ride, he wraps his arm around her shoulders. âEverything okay?â
Leaning her body into his, Ellie sighs, âthat was one of my students. He got the news earlier this week that his father died in the war. Left behind a wife and three kids⊠I just-â taking in a deep breath to try and calm herself, she shakes her head, âI know weâve heard this story a hundred times before, Buck. It just never gets any easier. And Iâm so sorry about the bear. I just got caught up in wanting to make him feel better that I just, I-â it was obvious that her heart hurt for the boy as her voice started to crack as she rambled.
She was right, it never got easier to hear these stories. And it always hit that much closer to home when it was someone you knew that was affected.
Bucky was unsure if it was the story of the boy, or seeing Ellieâs act of compassion, but there was an undeniable gnawing in his chest as well.
âHeyâŠâ he cooed gently, cupping her chin between his thumb and pointer finger, coaxing her to look at him. Ellie tilted her head, though reluctant to look into Buckyâs eyes. But when she did, she found those cerulean irises filled with an unfeigned understanding as he leaned in close, âjust means I get to take you out again for a chance to win another one, doll.â
Her breath hitched again, at both the close proximity and the idea of another date with Bucky. Her eyes drifted down to his lips briefly before she met his gaze once again. Instinctively, Ellie started to lean in closer- not caring who was around to witness her kiss Bucky Barnes in public.
Bucky mirrored Ellieâs motions, his tongue gently flicking against his lips as he leaned in also when-
âNext!â The carnival worker called.
The disappointment was evident on Buckyâs face as his lips clenched into a thin line and his eyes closed tightly. Ellie though, was the opposite.
She grabbed Buckyâs hand, âCâmon, Sergeant!â she giggled, dragging him onto the ride. Yet again, her smile was contagious, and he immediately gave in.
Settling into their car on the Ferris wheel, it quickly jerked and rocked as it started to spin. Ellie threw her arms straight up into the air, squealing in pure excitement.
And Bucky watched- Watched as the wonder sparkled in Ellieâs eyes, how the glow of the fairâs lights accentuated her already mesmerizing features, but mainly, he was dying to know if those lips tasted like the most perfect red delicious apple since they were painted exactly like one.
âAnybody ever tell you that you have a staring problem, Sarge?â
Bucky had to blink a couple of times to focus. The Ferris wheel car had stopped at the very top, Ellie had her chin propped on her fist, smiling up at him through her lashes.
He shook his head, âI was just thinking,â Bucky moved in a little closer, reaching his arm around Ellieâs shoulders, âthat you are the most fascinating woman I have ever met.â
âHeâs lost in a memoryâŠâ
Ellieâs cheeks blushed, but she rolled her eyes, âoh stop. I bet thatâs something you say to all the girls.â Fireworks started firing off into the sky, mirroring the evident spark between the two.
âI donât care what the hell has to be done! Get him out of it! Scramble him again if you have to!â
Buckyâs nose scrunches as he smiles, his head tilted up slightly to look down at her, âno, no. My pickup lines are usually waaay cheesier.â He and Ellie both laugh in unison, muffled by the occasional loud pops of the fireworks. But the pair refused to look away from one another.
âBut sir-â
Leaning in, Bucky breathes in both the mixed carnival aromas and the beautiful floral scent that is Ellieâs perfume. Her eyes flutter close as her lips purse towards his-
âI. Donât. CARE! Do it! NOW!â
[2013]
Bucky is met with a swift, vigorous slap to the face. Blinking rapidly, his eyes painfully adjust to the fluorescent lights in the room.
Once focused, he finds numerous pairs of hard eyes staring down at him. Bucky sheepishly looks down at his bare chest, flexing painfully against the tight restraints of his chair.
The realization that it was in fact not 1943 and not his first date with Ellie was quickly confirmed by the surrounding HYDRA agents, all staring at him like he was some wild animal waiting to snap and tear through a village.
Although in retrospect, he may have done that once or twice. And secretly, he never minded having HYDRA blood on his hands.
If that wasnât confirmation enough, the skin on his left shoulder was taut- the built-up scar tissue irritated from the roughened edges of his metal arm.
God, how he hated that fucking thing.
Sure, getting used to any kind of prosthetic takes time to accept- if at all. But this was used with the sole purpose of turning Bucky into a weapon, and for that reason, he hated it and everything it stood for.
At least, when he could remember. Which is why he was always restrained. Which is why he was brainwashed over and over again until he forgot his name. Which is why he was thrown on ice when he wasnât of use, so they didnât have to hear his endless screaming as he tore and ripped at the skin, praying it would be tarnished enough that they couldnât make him a new arm.
But they always made him a new arm.
Alexander Pierce stepped out from between a few of the agents, clad in an expensive gray suit that stood out against the sea of all black military grade HYDRA uniforms.
âWhereâd you go?â he asked nonchalantly, shoving his hands into his pockets. Itâs not like he was genuinely curious about anything that didnât pertain to his own interests.
Buckyâs brow furrowed, his eyes glancing briefly in Pierceâs direction before looking down again, ân-nowhereâŠâ he replied apprehensively, always cautious about giving personal details when he remembered them.
Pierce huffed sarcastically under his breath. A smirk tugged on his lips as his eyes narrowed on Bucky, âwipe him,â he said with a dismissive wave of his hand, âweâll start fresh again tomorrow.â He wasnât even fully done speaking before he spun on the heels of his dress shoes and was out the door.
The mechanical whirring from the machines surrounding Buckyâs now reclined chair grew antagonizingly loud. He could feel his lips uncontrollably twitch- and it took everything within his remaining willpower not to snarl as he reluctantly accepted the mouth guard the agent forced onto his teeth.
Buckyâs chest already glistened with sweat as it heaved deeply, anxious for what was to come. His eyes widened at the sight of the all too familiar chrome halo that soon clasped securely around his head.
He braced himself for the pain of his mind feeling like it was on literal fire by breathing around the mouthpiece and digging his heels.
At least today, he remembered Ellie. Bucky just focused on the pure, rare beauty that she was sitting on top of the Ferris wheel that night- smiling at him like he was the only man in the world.
Until it all went black.
[Present Day]
He wasnât sure if it was the sounds of his own screams or flailing around in his sleep that woke him from his nightmare. Or rather, memory.
Bucky sat upright from the living room floor, tangled up in his blanket. His eyes traced the room, taking in the primarily dark apartment aside from the faint glow of the television.
He felt hot, despite only sleeping in his boxers and his skin shining with a thick layer of sweat. He felt like he couldnât breathe, even though he desperately took in quick, ragged breaths.
Bucky felt so lost, even though he had been found. Even with being free of HYDRA and breaking from the control that anyone could have over him after spending time in Wakanda, he didnât feel as though anyone truly knew him. Hell, he wasnât even sure who he was after it all was stripped away. The only people who understood Bucky were Steve and Ellie, and theyâre both gone.
A small âmeowâ came from Buckyâs side, making her presence known before gently rubbing her head against his thigh.
Well, maybe there was one who understood him.
Letting out the pent-up air in his lungs, Bucky picked up the petite white cat and cradled her against his chest, âSorry, pretty girl,â he actively softened his voice, âdid I wake you?â He gently ran his hand over her head and down her neck, immediately pulling purrs from Alpine.
He sighed to himself but continued to concentrate on petting her as his accelerated heart rate started to come back down. Alpineâs purrs grew louder as she started making biscuits against his thighs, making herself nice and comfy before drifting to sleep in his lap.
At least one of us will be able to sleep tonight.
As expected, he didnât fall back asleep. Instead, Bucky replayed the distant clashing memories over and over in his head until the sun started peeking through the windows.
At the break of dawn, he jumped into the shower in hopes of washing the night away. As Bucky stood in the shower, letting the tiny streams of water encase around him, he realized just how much he missed his old life. That version of him and how often his mind drifted to a time where he used to belong. In that moment, he decided he was going to use today to go to his old stomping grounds, reminisce and allow himself to truly grieve that part of his life.
Throwing on a pair of dark wash jeans, a grey T-shirt and a black leather jacket, Bucky locked the door to his apartment and made his way through The Compound.
Leaning against the wall near the entrance was Loki, seemingly keeping to himself. He noticed Bucky though as soon as he stalked into view. His skin looked pale, his blue eyes dull and lifeless above the prominent dark circles underneath.
Buckyâs nightmares and lack of sleep were something that the team was all too familiar with. They each collectively had their own demons that haunted dark rooms and spoke through the walls in the lonely hours late at night.
âIsnât it just a tad early,â Loki stood to his full height, âto seem this aloof already, James?â
Bucky regarded Loki as he kept walking. âYeah,â his earnest tone matching his gloomy mood as the door automatically opened.
The bright, warm sun was a stark contrast to the cold, dark night that Bucky just had.
Standing at the edge of a small, curved road in the park that overlooked the Brooklyn Bridge, Bucky took in all the sights and sounds. It was strange to him how much the city had evolved and yet, some things were still the same.
People passed, not paying him any mind. Friends gossiped over their morning coffee on a nearby bench, the runners attempted to get that last mile in before the day got too hot, couples walked by holding hands, and families pushed large strollers with smiley babies.
It all sounded the same, but nothing was as it used to be.
The intrusive thoughts felt heavier today as he continued to watch and take it all in, reminiscing about the times he and Steve used to drink beers at the bottom of that very bridge.
Or rather, Bucky would try and convince Steve to drink. But he never did.
Bucky and his sister used to play in this very park- though it looks different now. It sometimes was still difficult to differentiate what was a memory or a daydream he had conjured up to disassociate.
"Vader!"
If he squinted his eyes just enough, he could see where his family's old town home used to stand in the distance before it was bulldozed down.
"No! Don't- You're going to make me-"
The sound of a heavy thud made Bucky look over his shoulder. On the ground a few feet behind him was a small cardboard box with the top cut off, lying on its side. Scattered all around and halfway in the box, was an assortment of wildflowers.
"Damn it, Vader!" An annoyed voice grumbled before sighing heavily.
Giving the apparent mess a once over, Bucky breathed deeply through his nostrils before turning around and taking a knee- putting the box right side up before starting to subtly pick up the flowers.
"Sit!"
The sound of nails scratching against the asphalt came to a stop, only to be replaced with heavy panting. Bucky glanced over briefly to see a rather large German Shepherd watching proudly as he picked up the flowers.
"God, thank you so much for your help! I'm just having one of those days. No thanks to this one here either." The woman's voice sounded slightly exasperated.
"No problem," Bucky replied, trying to look up but the sun blared straight into his eyes, momentarily blocking the person with whom he was speaking.
After picking up the last few flowers, he tossed them into the box as he stood up. His height gave him the advantage of no longer having the sun in his face and he finally was able to see the person he's been interacting with.
Bucky stops breathing- eyes widening in disbelief.
Eleanor.
It was her, and yet it wasn't. Her skin was evenly tanned, her golden hair long with a slight wave to it framing her face, dressed in matching yoga pants and sports tank as she clung tightly to the dogâs leash to keep him in place.
"I spent my whole morning picking those," she gestured towards the box, "and this lunatic has been dragging me everywhere in between," she explains, embarrassed.
Bucky is still staring, just blinking occasionally, skeptical that this is real.
Clearing her throat softly at what she perceived to be awkwardness, she picks up the box. "Thanks again!" she remarked politely, starting to turn away to leave.
"W-what-" Bucky started, causing her to hesitate. He took a small step forward, "are those for?" he pointed to the box. It was the first thing that came to his mind, he had to keep her there for just a little while longer. He needed to know more.
Smiling as she turned back to face him, Bucky's stomach twisted. It's the same smile.
"I'm a teacher and anytime I'm here I grab some for my students," she shrugged nonchalantly. "I can usually come up with some kind of craft or whatever to make use of them."
"You're a teacher?"
"Mhm! Elementary."
Down to the same damned occupation.
"You... come here often? With your dog?" Bucky awkwardly motioned towards the German Shepherd.
"Oh, um... Well," She laughed.
Oh no. He feared that his question made her uncomfortable.
"This is Vader," she runs her hand over the dog's head a few times, "but he's not mine. Just watching him for some friends while they're away."
Bucky looks over Vader, the corner of his lips tugging into a small smile before fixating on the woman again.
"I'm sorry, " she starts, her eyes narrowing slightly as her head tilts in inquisition, "but do I know you? You just look so familiar..."
He swallowed the large lump in his throat, "Uh, no? Nope, I don't think so."
"Huh," she muttered to herself, continually examining his blue eyes. Clearing her throat, she holds out her hand "I'm Elena, but my friends call me Ellie."
Taking her petite hand in his gloved one, he carefully shakes her hand. "Ellie," Bucky repeats, incredulously. "James, but my friends call me Bucky."
"Bucky." Elena mirrors his tone. Her eyes drift down to his chest momentarily, spotting his dog tags. "And you're military?"
A small snort escapes as he grins, "former Sergeant in the 107th."
"Interesting," Ellie responded, continuing to search his crystal blue eyes as if it would magically reveal as to why she felt magnetized by this man's presence.
Looking down, Bucky realized they were still holding onto one another's hand. His eyebrows raised, an amused smile eclipsing his former expression. The pair chuckled once, letting go.
"Well," Ellie said, fidgeting with the dog leash in her hands, "It was nice meeting you. Thanks again," her voice sheepish as she shifted the cardboard box under her arm.
"Nice meeting you too, Ellie," Bucky agreed.
There was something about the way he said her name, how smoothly it rolled off his tongue that just felt so... intimate. Like he did in fact know her. That there was a secret between them that she was dying to know.
Giving him a hopeful smile, she turned to walk away- Vader following at her side, "Hope to see you around, Sergeant!" Ellie called over her shoulder, giving a small wave.
Bucky watched Elena walking away, left utterly astounded by the interaction that had just occurred. Two images from two separate times seemed to overlap- Ellie from today, and Ellie with the tight curls and red lips in the yellow polka dot dress. A form of Deja vu.
But one thing was for sure, he made it his mission to see her again.
Later that evening at The Compound, Bucky stood at the counter in the kitchen holding a small drinking glass filled with ice and whiskey. The recent encounter from this morning consumed him and all of his thoughts.
Which is why he didnât notice Loki casually walk into the kitchen as well. Loki found this to be peculiar, since Bucky was the type to at least give an acknowledging scowl.
âPenny for your thoughts?â Loki inquired, his voice low.
Bucky swirled the ice in the glass before peeking up at him, âI had something⊠strange happen to me today.â
âOh?â
âI uh-â Bucky sighed, putting the glass down a little harder than intended. âI swear I bumped into someone from my past. But it makes no sense. She would have to be, what? Over a hundred years old? It was her but it wasnât her.â His hands expressed the bafflement he felt through their motions.
âYouâre over a hundred, James.â Loki reminded.
Buckyâs eyes narrowed, âyeah, I know.â He asserted. âBut this was different. I donât know how to explain it.â
âHmm.â Loki hummed to himself, looking over Bucky. Taking a step forward, extending out his hand out, âshow me.â
âShow you?â Bucky retorted, disgruntled by the question. âAnd just how would I do that?â
Loki grinned, âI was raised by Witches, boy. There are many things I can see that people donât understand.â Without waiting for an answer, Loki took Buckyâs flesh hand and pressed it flat between his.
âWhat are you-â
âShh!â Loki planted his feet firmly, looking into Buckyâs eyes- which widened with concern.
What would Loki see looking into his mind? His memories? Would he recount the same faces and what heâd done to them that haunt Bucky every single night? He suddenly felt overwhelmed with anxiety.
Bucky stared back at Loki- his normal cobalt blue eyes started to glow a bright green.
âAh,â Loki breathed, âfound it.â
Flashbacks of today as well as the carnival shared between the two as a birds-eye view, like watching Buckyâs memories as if they were a movie.
âTell me, James,â Loki smirked while watching the images, âdo you know what reincarnation is?â
âWhat? Like being born again?â Bucky spat, feeling ridiculous.
Loki laughed, âIâm afraid itâs much more in depth than people think.â
Bucky raised an eyebrow, waiting for him to explain further.
âRare is it that one is given such an opportunity.â Loki breathed, astounded.
Rolling his eyes, Bucky sighs, âWhat the fuck are you even trying to say here, Loki?â
âIâm saying,â he kept his voice low, trying to maintain patience, âthat this universe somehow deemed you worthy of a second chance⊠with your soulmate.â
âSoulmate?!â Buckyâs voice was loud, incredulous.
âI havenât seen this before,â Loki answered, fascinated at the scenes playing before them, âA soul brought back in the same lifetime to make up for time lost. Destiny can be a finicky thing.â
âYouâre saying that we were meant to be together all those years ago?â Bucky swallowed hard, his stomach twisting inward on itself.
âYes. And decisions made that werenât your own affected that outcome. Youâve been given the opportunity to actually live out your true fate.â
The eerie green glow faded from Buckyâs eyes as Loki pulled his hands away.
He saw many things but decided to only show Bucky what pertained to this conversation. The screams already a sound he knew he wouldnât forget anytime soon.
The two always had a mutual understanding of each other. They typically got along, more so than the rest of the team. Their history often left preconceived tension with people, but they never judged one another. Just themselves.
âSo,â Bucky scratched the back of his head, âwhat do I do now?â
âYou, my friend,â Loki gripped Buckyâs shoulder, âgo get a happy ending.â
If you enjoyed this, please check out my Masterlist. Requests are open!
But seriously! I read the whole fucking thing within a few hours! (Made time to play cards with my ma, cuddle with my cats, make dinner, it was omelettes) but seriously I'm gonna be frothing at the mouth til the next installment, like I swear luke is gonna break, "who was the man on the bridge?" Vibe with the reader!!!
Oooo an omelette sounds soo good right about now!
I have two cats also, sisters. One is all black and her name is Penny (short for Pennywise) and Sydney- sheâs black & white (from Scream). I love scary movies haha.
That was definitely the vibe I was going for! I think that series is getting close to the end, Iâve been having some writers block as to what else I could put in that storyline.
On another note, I started a new series. It involves Bucky and Loki đ. Iâve been working on that for a bit and plan on alternating that with the BBWWS. The first part is just about done and Iâm hoping to post it by tonight â„ïž
Soo⊠I have something exciting to share with you guysâŠ
If you remember earlier in the Summer, Seb linked up with personal trainer Don Saladino (( see below for pic reminder đ€€ ))
Iâm sure youâve seen this video once, or a thousand times.
Well, Seb signed some merch & they were raffled off for the proceeds to go to The Ronald McDonald House Foundation. I bought a ticket, not thinking much of it.
I won đ«Ł
And today I received the shirt in the mail. I have been screaming, crying, borderline throwing up in excitement and wanted to share with everyone (and I thought this community would appreciate it đ„Č)
Summary: After Bucky discovers that your once thought to be dead older brother is HYDRA's new super soldier, you're chosen to go on a mission with the team.
Warnings: **PLEASE READ** This fic contains death. If the idea of unaliving someone can possibly trigger you, please do NOT read this. Anxiety attack, cursing, angst, random sprinkles of fluff, use of y/n.
Word Count: 4.7
A/Ns: It has been way too long, but I finally got to write for my BBWWS again. I have a feeling there won't be too many chapters left for Bucky and his Sunshine. But I have been working on other ideas and another series is in the process. I hope you enjoy reading. I love you all! The messages, comments, reblogs, likes, etc. literally give me life and inspired me to come back and get into writing all over again. Enjoy your weekend, besties!!
Previous Part // Masterlist
Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months. Any shred of hope that life would be returning back to normalcy remotely anytime soon got washed away by the tidal wave that was the news of your brother being the new super soldier for Hydra.
Tony and Steve called for intel meetings that basically became a fulltime job. At first it felt like an interrogation. They questioned you, curious as to why you would apply for an internship at The Compound. While the circumstances did seem suspicious, they eventually were able to rule out any foul play on your part.
The gatherings soon turned into wanting to know every intricate detail that they wouldn't be able to look up or hack out of any system. From dawn to dusk, the two men asked about your childhood together- trying to connect the pieces as to who Luke is, or was. Bucky stayed silently by your side the entire time and offered a stabilizing hand when things got overwhelming to discuss. But it also didn't slip by you that he focused on each and every detail, noting the intel for this mission.
After being able to specify things so minute; such as your brothers favorite books, favorite teacher from grade school, or the fact that he likes the color green- but not just any green, Sacramento green, because it reminded him of the vines that grew around the windows of your grandparents cottage that you would spend the majority of your summer's at as kids, you also got chosen to go on this mission. There was some minor pushback from the team, but ultimately Bucky took responsibility for you. You knew that he would keep you safe, even if it meant putting the part of his very soul that he felt remained on the line for you.
To say that the training was brutal would be an understatement. While the others had an entire lifetime to perfect their craft and years working alongside one another in unity, you had only a matter of weeks. You were thrown into a constant rotation of being educated on the newest technologies developed by Tony, boxing and going over endless tactical strategies with Steve, knowledge of weaponry with a hint of ballet to stay light on your feet with Nat... pure exhaustion wouldn't begin to describe it.
The day came when intel showed the Swiss Alps would be first on the mission log. Everyone was treating it like just any other, but the dreaded encounter was weighing down heavily deep within your stomach. The thought of using yourself as bait to lure out your brother spiraled into the millions of anxious outcomes that kept you up at night. Finally giving you just the smallest glimpse into Bucky's world. The doorway was creaked open to his nightmares.
"Wooow. You look like a Bad. Ass." Sam annunciates amusingly, as his eyes land on you walking up the small rear cargo ramp of the jet.
Your cheeks instantly blush, having already been self-conscious about the skintight, black Kevlar suit Nat gave you to wear. As more footsteps approach, you sink more into your seat and try to avoid any more eye contact.
"Just so you know, I heard that." Bucky's voice rebounds off of the metal walls before he even makes his way completely into the jet. "Don't try and make passes at my girl when I'm not aro-"
You don't need to look up to know that those steel blue eyes have frozen you into place, but you dare a glance. He's dressed in all black; Black boots, black tactical pants, a black leather jacket with the left sleeve torn off- showing his gunmetal and gold Vibranium arm, and a black glove on his right hand. The sight of him is intimidating, ready for combat and anything to be thrown his way. But those eyes. They hold a tenderness meant only for you. His magnetizing stare mixed with the wonderment expression on his face confirms his friends words and more. Okay, so maybe the suit isn't so bad.
"You're gawking." Sam is now at Bucky's side, smirking with his arms tightly crossed over his chest.
Bucky's face slides back into its usual consternation state before giving him a side glare. "Shut up." Sam shakes his head, laughing to himself lightly before making his way to the front of the jet.
You move to sit upright as he approaches, and Bucky's face finally softens. It always does when it's just the two of you. He reaches above where you're sitting to an overhead rack, casually leaning. Hovering like one of those seductive book boyfriends you'd swoon over, but for him it just comes naturally. Swallowing hard, you angle your head up to look at him. You find a slightly playful grin tugging at his lips and you crack a faint smile.
"You doing okay, Sunshine?" His voice is soft but concerned. A gloved thumb caresses down your cheek. The doting gesture entrances you to gently nuzzle into his palm.
"I don't know." You answer honestly.
He reflects on this a moment, his eyes searching yours. But he looks slightly blurry. The background noise is starting to become overwhelming. Numerous voices all start to overlap, the jet engines growing louder as they're warming up, the loud bang with each shipment container with weapons being loaded on board- weapons intended for my brother. It all combines into one long dragged-out, high-pitched ringing sound and your throat closing in on itself. Bucky senses this, notices and quickly acts. Wide eyed, he drops to his knees.
"Hey... Hey, y/n. It's okay." He quickly unfastens the harness from your seat. "Deep breaths." You can't help but notice how calm he sounds. "Hey...look at me." Bucky gently cups each side of your face, the intense coolness on the one side being a welcomed shock. Your eyes meet his, and when they do, all you see is his devotion. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm right here with you."
"I know you are." You mutter, pressing your forehead to his as you try to manage your breathing to match his.
"We'll find him." He breathes. "I made it out, he can too. I won't let anything happen to you while weâre out there, y/n." The urgency that his tone is trying to convey is heart wrenching.
"I know, Bucky."
"Here-" He pulls away for a moment to take a bag off his back. Unzipping it, he pulls out a water bottle. "Drink some water."
You smile internally at the gesture. As he's unscrewing the cap, you notice a novel in the bag. It's one he borrowed from you when you first met. There's a familiar stinging behind your eyes. What did I do to deserve this man? One who is willing to walk back into his version of hell to pull out someone that I love?
Sipping on the water of course helped, but Bucky tucking you securely into his side for takeoff is what kept the overwhelming anxiety at bay.
âI love you, so much.â You say against his chest, in appreciation. He snorts slightly, pressing a delicate kiss into your hair.
âAnd I love you, Sunshine.â Bucky adjusts his hips slightly. âGet some rest, we have a long flight.â Intricate fingers brush through your hair, eventually lulling you to sleep in the safe space that is your boyfriendâs lap.
Distant muttering started reeling you back from a dreamless sleep. Instinctively, you reach for Bucky whom you thought you were still sleeping on- only to find he had replaced it with his bag. The disappointment was starting to settle in when you hear his voice:
âI know how this can come across, but sheâs strong enough. Sheâll be able to handle it, Tony. Iâm here, I can-â
âAll Iâm hearing is I, I, I, me, me, me, Barnes. You, my friend, were an exception. I donât know if we can go in there and get this guy out alive, and even if we can, who knows what the aftermath is going to look like! For either of them! Weâre taking a regular, a nobody off the street and putting a lot of pressure on her to do this. Sheâs already starting to feel it, that much is obvious. Iâve said from the beginning that this is a huge mistake. I understand your feelings here, from both sides. You want to make sure HYDRA doesnât continue to pop up like daises and be there for the love of your life. I GET it. But this is a mistake.â
Itâs apparent that Stark has walked away with the clinking of his heavy metal footsteps.
âYou picked a good one, Buck. I have faith in her too.â Thereâs a small reassuring pat to coincide with Steveâs voice. âY/nâs one of us now.â
âThanks, Steve. I just⊠I have to save him. For her.â You can hear the exasperation in Buckyâs voice.
While tears sting from multiple emotions behind closed eyes still pretending to sleep, you feel overcome with something you havenât experienced in this situation yet; determination. A sudden tenacity to prove the doubters that you can do this, that you can help your brother just how Bucky had, and that you wouldnât bail and have a breakdown⊠again. No. From this point on, you refuse to let anyone see you as weak.
The bag underneath your head gently shifts and is quickly replaced with warm body heat that you quickly snuggle into. That warmth spreads as Bucky wraps his right arm around your body, pulling you in a little closer. His heart rate starts to slow, and his breathing becomes more regular. You just soak in the last moments before the unknown.
âHeâs really going to just jump out the back of the jet like that?!â You try to yell, over the loud wind rumbling and your hair whipping around.
With Samâs back facing towards you, he takes one absentminded step off of the opened ramp and is just gone. Your stomach drops along with him at the sight.
Bucky rolls his eyes as he hands you an earpiece, âYep,â A second later, Sam comes back into view, now soaring with his Falcon wings. He gives Bucky a little sarcastic two finger salute and flies out of view. âHeâs flashy like that.â
Putting the impossibly small earpiece into your ear, you canât help but shake your head and laugh. It must be an almost forgotten sound with the weight of everything going on because now Bucky is smiling too.
âWell, I hope youâre not expecting me to jump out of a plane,â you say only half joking. Because if thatâs the case, heâs going to have to literally throw you out.
âWhat did you think the parachutes were for?â Bucky asks deadpan, with a raised eyebrow and pointing to the packs behind him.
All of the color starts to drain from your face, when suddenly you saw the slightest twitch in Buckyâs lip.
âOh my god. You asshole!â Bucky grabs his stomach and starts to hunch over laughing as you hit him in the arm. His metal arm. âOW!â You start shaking your hand out to wave away the initial sting.
Glancing at him, Bucky is doubled over, nose scrunched, laughing so hard that barely any noise is coming out and tears are welling up in his eyes. Itâs contagious, especially as the throb in your hand turns into a dull ache.
Iâve missed this. Things being simple with us and not so draining. Moments that resemble a drop of normalcy in a typical âwould beâ relationship. But I still wouldnât trade it. Because heâs perfect. And heâs mine.
Once your lungs donât feel like theyâre on fire any longer, you let you a deep sigh, resting your hands on your hips. âGod, I needed that.â
âDid you really think I would toss you out of a Quinjet?â
âSeemed like it in the moment-â
âAlright, love birds,â Tony interrupts, the heavy metal footsteps of his Iron Man armor catching both of your attention, "don't be late to the party," he says knowingly, palms glowing before he too disappears out of the jet.
âDonât worry, Sunshine,â Bucky says, now standing next to you, âI have my own flashy transport,â he side eyes you with a playful grin.
Arms wrapped tightly around Buckyâs stomach; you canât help but snuggle your cheek into his leather covered shoulder.
Of course, Buckyâs idea of flashy would be a motorcycle.
Your eyes flutter open to see Steve on his own come into view through whips of your hair. The boys. Two best friends riding like they donât have the weight of the world constantly on their shoulders.
Steveâs bike has a bulky, all chrome classic look while Buckyâs is a modern, all black crotch rocket. Both have been modified to drive relatively quietly, and itâs such a weird dichotomy to still be able to feel the rumbling of the bike between your legs without all the noise.
One of your hands releases the clasp they had on one another, pressing your palm against Buckyâs chest- smoothing itself along his abdomen. Bucky sits more upright in his seat to press back into you more, using only his left hand to steer as his right encloses around yours, giving you a reassuring squeeze. The gesture is so minor, and yet you can just feel how he puts his heart into everything when it comes to you.
"We're going to pull off to the side up on the left. We'll have to go the rest of the way on foot," Steve's voice is solemn in your earpiece.
Bucky gives him a nod in acknowledgement, leaning back down to better control the motorcycle. This time, his hand doesn't leave yours.
The trek through the Switzerland forest was less than a mile, but with each step your feet grew heavier and that sour stomach of yours returned with the dread of seeing your brother again. If he could even be considered your brother anymore. Who knows what actually remained. As much as you have begged and pleaded with the universe to make yet another exception for Lucas just as it had for Bucky, you were terrified of the man that you would soon encounter.
Just shy of coming out of the tree line to the supposed to be abandoned old military base, you hear a series of echoing pops- stopping all three of you dead in your tracks.
Gunshots.
Bucky and Steve exchange a quick, wide-eyed glance at one another, âGo, weâll catch up.â Bucky says, and within the blink of an eye, Steve takes off running at super soldier speed.
You didnât realize you were holding your breath until Bucky turned to face you, his shoulders squared, lips in a tight thin line. But looking between your eyes, he loosens a breath, gripping your shoulders, âListen to me, Sunshine,â he makes every attempt to soften his voice, but a few more pops and yelling sound off in the distance making you wince. His hands grip you tighter, âI need you to focus. What Iâm about to say goes against everything I normally believe, but in this circumstance itâs criticalâŠâ he sighs, looking down before back into your eyes- trying to convey the seriousness of what heâs saying, âyou have to push the fear down. And I know how that sounds, but you canât walk in there with that look on your face. Because honey, these people will not hesitate to kill you.â
You gasp lightly at the graveness of his words. Itâs not like you didnât know this walking into the mission, but itâs different once youâre actually here.
Bucky sighs again, his expression softening as his hands cup each side of your face especially gentle, âI know, baby. I know. I wonât leave your side,â he presses his forehead to yours, closing his eyes, âI just⊠I canât lose you.â His voice cracks slightly, even at just the thought.
Even with your eyes teetering with the threat of tears, you nod in understanding. Placing each of your hands over his, you press your lips to Buckyâs- holding them there, accepting that the moment they pull apart itâs no longer about the two of you, but about the mission. Luke is your mission.
âI love you,â you murmur, before opening your eyes to see deep consternation in his.
Disassociation is a powerful coping mechanism for human beings. It can feel like an outer body experience or even a dream. More like a nightmare. But as you follow into the bunker where the screaming leads, closely behind Bucky with your gun drawn watching for any sudden movements and stepping over the trail of bloodied bodies in the hallway, you're thankful for the part of your brain trying to convince you that this isn't real.
"Still no sign of Castle," Sam's voice was pragmatic in your earpiece.
Bucky looked back over his shoulder at you while still walking, "Maybe he's not here after-" and that's when you see the slightest shift of a shadow in an inverted doorway.
It was so small that in any other instance you would just assume your eyes were just playing a trick on you. But not here. Your body reacted before your mind could even fully register- taking a sudden step to the side, you fired off two prompt shots. A heavy thud followed.
Practically giving himself whiplash, Bucky looks at where you shot and back to you. His eyes widen, mouth open slightly at the realization of what just happened. What you just did- for him. Your eyes haven't moved from that doorway, and your grip is tighter on the gun than it probably should be. Pain surges through your jaw with how tightly your teeth are clenched and yet, you wait to see if anyone else is there. Is there another shadow lurking just waiting for the opportunity to harm one of you?
"Y/n..." Bucky's voice is delicate as his eyes dart around, also looking for shadows, "we have to keep moving," he says in a coaxing manner.
I canât. The words blare in your mind like a doomsday siren and yet you canât speak. All you can do is focus on that that dark corner where the pool of crimson continues to grow.
Bucky steps in line of your gun with somber eyes meeting yours, causing you to simultaneously point it towards the ground and break your trance. You didnât realize just how high and how tight your shoulders had been as you loosened your breath. A new version of you being transformed as you exhale.
âI-â You try catching your breath, completely slack jaw and shaking your head just trying to comprehend what you did. âIâŠI just-â and the tears are flowing. No crying, no uncontrollable sobbing, but a small steady line of tears as the overwhelming awareness of taking control and trading a life for someone that you love comes to light⊠just flows.
âYou did what you had to,â he answers for you, nodding sympathetically. You donât deserve kindness right now, do you? But that is why he is good. And that is why he deserves to live.
âWe have to go, y/n.â Bucky says, looking over your shoulders and behind himself again. âIt looks like no one else has been down here yet.â He grabs your hand, not waiting for a response before heâs treading down the hallway again.
Your feet shuffle instinctively at first to follow him, but the brightness of the flickering fluorescent lights quickly grounded you to where you actually are. There are lives at stake and you need to keep your head.
The distant noise of constant struggle seemed to almost completely stop. Every few minutes you would hear a familiar voice say 'clear' in your ear and relief would wash over you, just thankful for knowing that they were alive.
It got cold the further you went, meaning you probably had gradually descended underground. Finally, at the end of what seemed like a never-ending tunnel, was a large set of metal double doors with multiple large chains and padlocks.
You and Bucky exchanged a quick glance with one another before he fists the chain with his Vibranium hand, pulling effortlessly as they break into pieces. He pushes open the doors to reveal a large, primarily empty room aside from a bunch of dusty, bulky outdated computers. Most of the overhead lights donât work, so it seems darker in here than it did in the corridor.
Bucky steps into the room and starts looking around, his boots crunching noisily on worn rubble and glass. You hold your breath, watching as his fingers skim along the keyboards, his eyes squinting at the monitors as he passes each one as though looking for something.
And then he stops at one in particular. He eyes it carefully before looking up at the ceiling to the lights again.
âWhat is it?â You canât hide your curiosity.
âThereâs still power to this base,â he says observantly, turning his attention back towards the computer. âMaybeâŠâ he mumbles to himself, leaning over the monitor a bit, his fingers blindly searching before pressing the power button. Bucky stands back as the screen comes to life, but his eyes widen, alarmed as to what he sees.
âBucky?â You ask apprehensively, moving to stand next to him and also look at the screen. It's mostly black, but there's a green contour of... a face?
"Hello Sergeant Barnes," the computer says with a German accent.
"Oh, what the fuck?" Bucky steps back, his hands fisting into his hair.
The voice chuckles, "Come now, is that any way to greet an old friend?"
âIs⊠the computer talking? To you?â
âWhy, yes, Ms. Castle. I am,â your stomach turns over at the sound of the voice addressing you as well.
âWhat the fu-â you go to repeat Buckyâs words but get cut off.
âDoes the facility seem⊠familiar, Barnes?â Zola asks, condescendingly. âOr, at the very least, the machinery?â
Bucky's eyes start to dart around the room, taking in the different equipment before muttering to himself in dismay, "these control the cyro chambers..."
The computer laughs menacingly, "Ah, so you do remember. Good! Good..."
Rolling his arm once while taking a large step forward, Bucky brings it down, crushing the computer completely. Exposed wires spark briefly from the powerful impact, otherwise leaving the room in silence.
âWhat- who was that?â
âArnim Zola. A scientist for HYDRA. The one who, wellâŠâ Bucky passively gestures to himself, âexperimented and is responsible for me.â
Suddenly, another one of the numerous screens comes to life- the digitized green face grinning, âtsk, tsk. Oh, SoldatâŠâ
âI wonât answer to that anymore,â Bucky maintained through gritted teeth, raising his arm to disintegrate this talking monitor as well just as it says:
âWho said I was talking about you?â
Just then, you hear quick, trudged steps. The only warning you had before been picked up, as easily as a pillow and aggressively, carelessly thrown aside into a metal desk, knocking some of the computers that sat on top along with you.
You tried gasping for the air that was stolen from your lungs on impact with the floor, but it didnât come. Instead, it burned, more than the pain creeping around the left side of your ribs as you sluggishly moved to sit on your knees. Looking up, you meet the threatening gaze of the one who attacked you.
He was exceptionally tall, especially from your view on the floor. Lean, but had an athletic build and strong. Super strong. He was dressed in all black tactical gear, the only color being a large red Soviet star in the center of his chest. A black mask covered all but his eyes, keeping him faceless. He was pale, as if he hadn't seen actual sunlight in years and had shoulder length dirty blonde hair.
But those eyes. They cemented you to the floor- glaring, daring you to move or even breathe. Just the look that he conveyed felt like you were in the presence of death itself. As you were able to take your first small breath, your lips parted, and eyes narrowed as they locked into his deadly gaze. There was such a darkness glazed over the emerald irises, but you'd recognize them anywhere.
"Luke..." you exhale, painfully. Both physically and emotionally.
His brow twitches slightly at you saying his name, like his mind is trying to recollect it from a long-forgotten dream. As his body turns to face you, he suddenly gets shoved back a few feet, "Back off, Castle." Bucky warns sternly, stepping between you and your brother.
Gripping the desk, you use it to hoist yourself up, whining slightly and grabbing at your left side realizing that you most likely have some broken ribs. The sound of your pain distracted Bucky for one second, and Luke took that opportunity to lunge forward and kick him high in the chest. With a breathless grunt, Bucky barrels backwards into you, knocking your back flush against the wall.
Luke was there in the blink of an eye, grabbing Bucky by the collar of his jacket. The two of them quickly became a tangle of throwing fists and kicks, breaking apart to find anything around to throw at one another. Overturning desks, throwing chairs, Bucky even chucked a still laughing Zola computer at Luke.
While you never thought the two most important men in your life would ever have the chance to meet, this is not the way you would have ever imagined it.
With your back still flat against the wall, you slide down to sit on the floor, starting to feel dizzy. Maybe it was the overwhelmingness of the situation, but instinctively you bring your hand to the back of your head, and it feels... wet. Looking at your fingers, they're now coated with fresh, warm crimson blood. It's getting harder to think straight with the tunneling vision, but you realize that you hit your head against the wall from the collision of bodies.
"Please..." you choke out a sob, "please, stop," you beg. But they can't hear you over their own heated screams and grunts as they continue to fight one another. Your narrowing vision focuses on Bucky, seeing that he is fighting more defensively- actively trying to avoid hurting Luke, pulling his punches where he can. Tears burn behind your eyes at the sight, knowing that if this were anyone else, it would already be over.
"Luke!" Bucky yells and quickly dodges to the side, avoiding the knife now sticking out of the wall that Luke threw at him. "Your sister came here to get you back! She's here for you. We're here for you!" Bucky maintained his distance, mirroring Luke's movement's trying to rely on his words rather than fists. They're pacing, waiting for the other to make a move.
The ringing in your ears was becoming too hard to ignore and as much as you tried to fight it, sweat started to bead up on your skin. You were losing consciousness, and fast.
"Bucky," you breathe out. His body tenses as he looks over at you, eyes wide. He jumps over one of the only remaining desks in the room and kneels down, hands hovering over body briefly, afraid to touch you.
"Okay... okay," he mutters to himself, scanning you over, his eyes linger on your hand with the now drying blood on them. Bucky gently cups your cheek, his thumb grazing over it as he forces a smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes. "You're gonna be okay, Sunshine. I-I'm going to get you outta here and get some help, okay?" His voice sounds shaky as his chest heaves, "Sam? I need a med evac for y/n,"
You nod once, or at least you think you do, as you continue to focus on Bucky. Everything around him starts to fade into a deeper black void. The last thing you see is Luke step into view over Bucky's shoulder to look down at you. At some point during their altercation, his mask had been ripped off. His lips were pressed into a thin line as his teeth clenched and remained expressionless while Bucky continued to stroke your hair and try to speak calm, reassuring words of how he would make sure you would be okay as you slipped under the surface of complete darkness.
summary: Heaven is not what they tell you. The celestials donât live in harmony and the devil is not as far as you might think. Heâs vicious in his ways to seduce every being - makes even the mighty fall from grace. And one of them happens to be your guardian angel. When James is banished from the heavens, he is forced to amend his sins on earth. What did he do wrong, you might ask? Well, he fell for the one he watched over.
a/n: I thought Iâve read a FallenAngel!Bucky fic on here before. But I couldnât find it. So please, if you know it, tag me. Anyway, this is my take on the au.
word count: 20.3k (good lord, someone take my computer away)
warnings: this might offend some people (remember this is my fantasy world - I donât know much about angels and the whole shebang), soulmate trope, the devil, also God?, jealousy/envy, mentions of killing and abuse, banishment and punishments, he falls first (literally lmao), fluff and wholesomeness, agony, angst (of course, with happy end!), smut (wingplay, Buckyâs got heavenly dick, Virgin!Bucky, size kink, cum play) !MINORS DNI!
all image credit goes to @animarvelita on TikTok (there's more at the end)
James.
Wake up, James.
Wake up!
The wind hits his lashes before he opens his eyes. Heâs falling. Heâs falling and thereâs nothing he can do.Â
â â â
Itâs eerie outside, you note as your towel glides over the countertop. The entire window of the diner displays dark clouds. Dark clouds that will soon bring the heavy rain Old Lee has been mumbling about for days now.Â
Not too many people believe what the crazy farmer says but you canât help but notice how much he really understands of the world.Â
Nick hits the little golden bell by the serving hatch and you take the fresh sandwiches to a table by the door.Â
âAnything else I can get you?â
âWeâre good, honey.â
You just nod as your eyes stay focused on the small parking lot outside. You wipe your hands on your apron and return to the counter when the first drop of rain hits the window pane.
â â â
Branches are aching beneath his weight when he crashes through the trees. A deep thud echoes in the woods as his body hits the ground. Itâs raining.Â
Every tragedy needs rain.
â â â
"Are you alright, dear?" Peggy, one of the regulars, a wise old lady, asks and points to your hand that's settled above your chest.Â
You clear your throat. "I'm fine. Just a frog in my throat." You nod with a tight smile. Something seems to have knocked the air out of your lungs. But you've been feeling like you are coming down with something for a few days now.Â
"Must be the weather," Howard comment's next to Peggy, and his newspaper crumbles beneath his touch.Â
You turn and refill their coffee mugs. "Yeah... must be." But you can't shake the feeling it has brought to you.Â
"It's always the weather." Peggy nods before the door to the diner opens and Old Lee enters, his muddy boots dirtying the checkered floors. You scrunch your nose. You'd be the one cleaning that up later, Scott surely won't do it.Â
"This ain't a normal April storm, folks." His hat tips before he sits at the counter in front of you. "You look like youâve been trampled by a cow.â
"It's just the weather," you say and place a cup of hot tea in front of him. That's just Stan: brutally honest and strangely right about everything.Â
â â â
Pain is strange. His feet get caught in the thorned bushes. Golden blood is the only evidence of his path.
And itâs slowly turning black.
â â â
The storm outside intensifies, the rain hammering against the diner's windows with an unrelenting force. Old Lee's words linger in the air, stirring a sense of unease among the patrons. You glance outside, noticing the darkness creeping in as if it's swallowing everything in its path.
A shiver runs down your back as you remember how much Pietro would have loved this storm. Your mind drifts back to the memory of him. He always found solace in the chaos of nature, seeing beauty even in the fiercest storms.
But he's is gone now, lost to you in a way that is irreversible. The ache in your chest intensifies as you try to push away the memories, focusing instead on your tasks at hand.
Stanâs voice is low and gravelly when he murmurs again. "You can't outrun the storm, kid. It's coming for all of us, whether we're ready or not."
His words are chilling, but you shake it off, forcing a smile as you refill his tea.Â
"We'll weather this storm just like we always do." Peggy chimes in as her hand lands on yours with her calming touch. But your heart is hammering in your chest, still. Something feels off. As if a piece fell out of place, waiting to be discovered, and raving to make a mess.Â
â â â
Itâs cold and muddy here, no comfort in sight. But heâll venture on until he reaches you. His soul is pulled to your very presence.Â
He needs to find you. Needs to amend his wrongs. Though is it really wrong to love?
â â â
Itâs dark out when you hang your apron in your locker and wave a short goodbye to Nick. Pulling your coat tightly around you in an attempt to brace yourself for the wind, you step outside into the deluge. The rain lashes against your skin, soaking you to the bone on your walk through deserted streets and cold concrete.Â
You sigh thinking about everyone that made it home dry, probably sitting in their beds right now, watching the rain roll down their window pane with a hot cup of cocoa in hand.Â
But that seems to postpone itself, you realize as you abruptly halt. You look around. This isnât your usual route home. But something pulled you off your intended path and toward an unfamiliar alleyway. Confusion mingles with a strange sense of anticipation as you find yourself drawn deeper into the darkness.Â
Your head is screaming at you. This is dangerous. You shouldnât be doing this. Why are your feet moving anyway?
And then you see it. Or rather... him?
A figure stands at the end of the alley, obscured by shadows and rain, but there's something about him that sets your heart racing.
"Hello?" you call out tentatively, your voice barely audible over the storm. You hate how weak you sound.Â
He steps forward into the dim light, his features illuminated by a flickering streetlamp. Dark hair and a strong yaw, wide muscular shoulders, his arms are adorned by silver cuffs. His whole being is well over six feet. But he seems even taller as something wide reaches from behind him, almost hugging his shoulders and prodding up towards the sky. He steps forward again and your breath hitches in your throat when you can finally make out the grey feathery wings standing from behind his back.
But you donât run. You donât even stumble back. Your feet are frozen to the ground. Then his eyes meet yours, and for a moment, time seems to stand still as youâre caught in the intensity of his gaze.Â
âIâve been searching for you,â he says, his voice almost like a whisper to the wind. Calling and marvelous.Â
Everything inside you tells your how absurd this situation is. How fast you should be running anywhere but here right now. But the way your heart races doesnât feel like fear. In fact, youâre not even scared. More fascinated, awestruck, intrigued. You know he wont hurt you.Â
âI donât know you.â You manage to stammer, your eyes still locked with his. The tension overwhelming and electrifying all at once.
âWell, obviously.â He points to his wings smiling amused, a smile that you know holds a universe of secrets and promises. You want to learn them all, you catch yourself thinking as your eyes slip to his lips.Â
âI donât understand.â
âYou donât need to understand,â he replies and itâs the first time his wings move behind him. âJust trust that we are connected in ways you cannot even begin to imagine.â
âWell?â You clear your throat and cross your arms in front of your chest, relieved your body is able to move again, though the pose feels rather awkward. âWhy are you here?â
He seems shocked for a moment, as if he hadnât expected you to play along so fast. And, to be honest, neither did you... at least a little.Â
âI need to...â His mouth falls shut again and he turns his head down to the side, shoulders heaving. âI guess I need a place to stay.â
âWith me?â Thatâs insane. You know it is. But why does it not surprise you?Â
He nods, you shake your head. âI cant just accommodate a...â You gesture to him and he clears his throat awkwardly.Â
âAngel.â
âRight, of course.â You chuckle as you scan his body again. Only now do you see the torn clothes and bloody feet. Drenched through and through.Â
You sigh. âI donât even know your name...âÂ
His eyes are sparkling, the smallest of twitches making him look a little softer, tangible even. Youâre not afraid of him. And it messes with your head. You should be scared, right? But all there is in your body is the steady tingle pinging from your heart back to your stomach.Â
âItâs James.â His smile is handsome when he reaches out his hands, offering you a better look to his toned arms.
Whywhywhy? âAlright.âÂ
â â â
James looks out of place in your rather small living room. His size dwarves every piece of furniture carefully picked out to make your house a home. He makes it look like a doll house just by standing in it.Â
But he doesnât seem to care. James ducks when he passes through the door and you watch his feathers ruffle as they press themselves to his back in order to fit through.Â
Youâre not sure what to do. Never in your life did you think you would end up in a situation like this. There is no protocol for hosting celestial beings. Though a how to angel dinner party guide would come in handy now. Did he even eat?
Something must be wrong with you. You let a total stranger into your house, even though your track record of people skills is not exactly the best. One that is borderline freakishly tall and has wings. Wings that look soft and beautiful. But strong and kind of intimidating as well. But why does he feel so safe?
âYouâre staring.â James notes and a handsome grin spreads across his face.Â
âIâm not really used to having angels in my house to be honest.â The sarcasm is dripping from your tone in subtle undertones. But James seems to enjoy it. âWhy are you here? On earth... I mean.â
He stares at the ceiling and his wings sag a little. âI have a mission, dearest.â He tells and his eyes meet yours. Theyâre deep blue and stormy - just like the sky. You can see yourself falling lost in them. His presence is all-consuming, making you shiver. It reminds you that the both of you are drenched from the rain. A puddle has formed around your feet and Jamesâs wings guide the water droplets to your hardwood floor in two perfect circles. His hair is curling at the ends, in the nape of his neck and the water is also running down his throat, pooling in the remains of his shirt.Â
âWhat mission?â
âI cannot tell you yet.âÂ
You nod, even though you donât understand. But you donât want to pressure him. âDo you need a shower? Or... clean clothes?â The second you ask you feel stupid. Itâs silly right? Why shouldnât angels shower?Â
Then again, the way he looks at you is one of surprise. âYes, that would be good.âÂ
âGood. Yes.â With a sigh you flee through the hallway to your room in search for some clothes.Â
â â â
A shower. James is giddy. Human things have always excited him. He has been watching from the heavens for eons, never truly experienced them quite like this. But heâs intrigued. Especially when you offer them to him like heâs not an intruder in your life.Â
If things were different, you would never know he even existed. But James is guilty of happiness that he gets to meet you in person.Â
Up close, youâre even more perfect. You smell nice, your home feels cozier than anything heâs ever experienced, and your voice sounds just a sliver more comforting when its directed at him.Â
He is smiling like a fool, standing in your living room - the one he knows by heart but so much more personal now. And when you return to him with a pile of grey cloth, his heart skips a beat. You bring him the familiar warmth that made him fall in the first place. But having you within an armâs length makes all of it feel worth it.Â
There is not an ounce of regret in him for being here.
Electricity shoots up his arm when you touch his hand. Itâs cold and wet - he immediately vows to always keep you warm from now on - makes it his purpose to have you be comfortable for the rest of your life.Â
You lead him to the bathroom, grinning sheepishly when you gesture toward your shower.Â
âIt might be a tight squeeze.â You point at the glass surrounding your bathtub. âBut itâs all I can offer.â
âIt will do just fine.â He reassures you.Â
âI will leave you to it then.â James is confused.
âAre you not staying?â
âSorry?â
âTo help me.â
âHelp you... shower?â There is hesitance in your tone, but James truly doesnât know how to turn the thing on.
âWell, yes.â
âI...â Your eyes are big, staring up at him through surprise and nervousness. âI donât want to intrude. Give you some privacy to- oh.â
His clothes are already on the floor. He knows this much. Shower is something one does naked. But you seem to be shocked when his whole body is revealed to you. Do you like it? James is sure he looks as close to a human as a person with wings can. So why are you still staring at his stomach?
His eyes catch yours as they move a little lower, your eyebrows raising just that much higher and a smirk places itself on his face. So, you do like what you see. He confirms silently. Not that he particularly knows why. He never noticed people by their bodies - only their soul, because that is the important thing - the one that never changes.Â
And yours is the most enchanting of them all.Â
â â â
You watch as James sitâs down on the opposite end of the sofa. Heâs declined every offer you have made for him to feel a little more welcome. But he seems content. His smile hasnât left his lips ever since you led him to the bathroom.
You couldnât help but notice his body when he revealed it all to you. Itâs like every inch of him is carved by the gods. He looks soft in the right parts, strong enough not to be skinny with his height. And his male parts. Well, they look more than satisfactory.Â
You felt like a pervert staring him up and down while he stood there with this kind of proud innocence to him, wondering if he understood how proud he could be of his looks. There is so much you donât know about him. Itâs not like you havenât talked.Â
You have. But he speaks in riddles.Â
âYou are staring again.â James notes and you immediately snap your head elsewhere.Â
âIâm just figuring this situation out, I guess.â
He smiles encouragingly. âYou can ask questions. I imagine youâve been eager to know more.â
You exhale long, taking courage to look him in the eyes. âAnd you will answer all of them honestly?â
âHonestly, yes.â His teeth find his bottom lip and you squeeze your thighs together. âI cannot promise to answer them all.â
âOkay.â
âGood.â
A comfortable silence settles between you as you think of the first thing you could ask him. Maybe you should get the most obvious one out of the way. Maybe you should ask him more about himself, though youâre not sure how personal he can get if he spent his entire life in heaven. You just assume there is too much to do to pursue actual hobbies and such.Â
âIs there a God?â
âStarting with the light questions, I see.â You just look at him with intrigue. Already lining up all the other questions no-one else in this world has the opportunity to have answered. James sighs and then nods. âYes, God exists.â
âDo you know God?â
He hesitates, his eyes fleeting to the end of the room and then back to you. âYes.â
âWhy did that answer take you so long?â
His jaw tenses and his eyes find the floor as if he was cursing himself for offering this situation. But then again, you havenât heard him cuss once. Maybe youâre wrong. âIt was under rather... unfortunate circumstances.âÂ
You nod as if you understand. But you can only imagine. âSo, heâs like the big boss, only getting involved when things escalate?â
James looks caught, his wings draw in closer. After a moment, he clears his throat and his feathers ruffle with a small shake. âFirst of all, itâs she/they. And second, ... I guess you could say that, yes.â
âI knew it.â You grin as the pride washes over you at this information. âWhy did she never correct us?â
âLetâs just say mankind doesnât have a great track record of enforcing things that go against their believe... Not that it would be believable if someone told the story of meeting an angel who told them God is a woman.â
âFair point. That person would have probably been burnt alive.â You nod again, crossing your legs and turning to him on the sofa. James takes a moment to rake his eyes over your body, making you feel tingles all over. You clear your throat. âSpeaking of torture... Why do we have war and world hunger?â
âPlease do not take this the wrong way. Those are issues that very much concern God or anyone that wantâs the best for her people, but sheâs busy. She manages everything else that has gone south since.â
âSince what?â You partly enjoy the way James talks to you as if you are an insider, but you only understand half of what heâs saying.Â
âSince she and Lucifer had a big fallout.â He shrugs, but it just adds to your confusion.
âIâm not following.â
He rolls his eyes as if it were your fault you donât know about this supernatural fight. âThey had a disagreement. Luciferâs response to Godâs proposal was an ill-conceived frivolity which ended up becoming the patriarchy.âÂ
To say youâre stunned is a serious understatement. âYouâre telling me the devil threw a tamper tantrum and thatâs why we have inequality? How did he even do that?â
James shakes his head. â...Yes. The trial is still in progress. But it may be calming to know that we have not figured out exactly how he convinced an entire species of males being the stronger part of it.â
âNo, James. It is not calming to know.â You sigh and watch as he clasps his hands in his lap, his cuffs glistening in the lamplight. God, theyâre big. You immediately scold yourself for thinking this, feeling weirds as the words of your mother echo in your head âDonât you dare use Godâs name in vainâ. âWhat exactly has God done since then?â
The smile returns to his face and you readjust yourself on the sofa. âOh, you wouldnât want to know how this world would look if she hadnât kept busy with sorting it.â
Your nose wrinkles in a frown, as you check the points off in your head. âI really donât think it can get that much worse. Climate change, mass genocides, what else could there be?â You not at each one just as James lifts up his fingers and opens his mouth as if he is starting to count.Â
But you stop him. âPease donât.â
âYes that is probably for the best.â
It is silent for a moment as you try to process all the information you have just attained. It is a rather weird feeling. Knowing you know what no-one else on earth does and not being able to tell. Knowing there will be no-one believing you.Â
You sigh when your head starts spinning from how crazy this day has been. James seems to be rather relaxed considering he barely knows you. His dark hair falls around his face perfectly, the back of it forming a cute curl in the nape of his neck and your fingers itch to touch it.
But you refrain, reminding yourself that he is a stranger - and an angel. Beside the fact that he has not once reached out to you, just randomly touching his hair would probably be the weirdest thing to do right now.Â
âCan I ask you something?â He suddenly breaks the silence and you shoot a thank you to the sky for saving yourself from going down the mental rabbit hole of how soft his hair looks.Â
âYes.â
âWhy did you take me in?â Jamesâs eyes are boring into yours so innocently. If it werenât for the giant wings on his back, he would almost look like a normal clueless and incredibly cute guy. And yet he just revealed outerworldly gossip as if you were discussing the latest celebrity TMZ.Â
âI-â you trail off, thinking about it for a while. You arenât sure how much you can tell him. But James has been genuine from the start. It wold only be fair to do the same. âI felt like you needed me.â
A weird feeling takes over your body suddenly. Like a warm flush rushing through you. James fidgets in your peripheral and nods in understanding. âI did. I do.â
Itâs like the reality of it all hits you like brick when a noise sounds from outside and his wings twitch, pushing over a pile of books on the cupboard behind the sofa. This is not normal, something tells you, and yet your stomach flutters in a way that feels a lot like butterflies. Everything about James is fascinating to you. You constantly fight the urge to reach out and brush your fingertips over every part of him. And for some reason, your mind tries to tell you that he would let you.Â
âWhy are you really here, James?â You voice is only a whisper when the rattling outside subsides. Itâs probably a raccoon or something. But James looks a little nervous all of a sudden.Â
âIâm afraid that is one thing I cannot tell you, love.â
You sigh. âI guess... I just want to help. Having you stay here doesnât feel like itâs enough. There has got to be something you need to do.â
âThat is very kind of you. I admire your bravery and openness.â His lips spread into a smile, his hand lifting from his lap as if he is about to place it on yours, but his fingers only strech and land back on the sofa between you. âBut to be truthful, even if I knew what I had to do, I am not sure wether I would do it or notâ
So he is a little deviant. You smile at the small observation. Maybe itâs the reason he is here in the first place. But you feel like you have asked James enough for tonight. Just on cue, a yawn escapes your lips.Â
âYou should rest. It has been a long day.âÂ
You nod, rubbing your eyes and rising from the soft cushions. âI have a spare bedroom. You can sleep there.â
âThat is fine. I do not sleep.â James shakes his head as he rises with you out of curtesy. With his hands clasped in front of him he looks like a goth painting.Â
âWhat? Never?â
âI am not human, dearest. My body attains energy in different ways.â You shudder again, blaming it on your sleepiness as you rub your arms when another yawn escapes you.Â
âMaybe you can tell me about it tomorrow. I am really tired.â
âI will be watching over you.â Your name passes his lips like a song, sending another shiver through you. What the hell is the matter with you. You huff as you catch yourself again. It really never occurred to you how often you referenced to the supernatural... âTake all the rest you can get.â
âGood night, James.â You nod and wave awkwardly.
âGood night.â
You know Jamesâs eyes are only you until you disappear into the hallway. But you cant help but feel safely watched over with him around.Â
â â â
They will find him, and they will send him further from you than he ever was.
â â â
James hates the days you have to leave for work. He watches you with a sense of longing and resignation, knowing that he must find a way to navigate this separation once again. Though it is necessary he find a way to dodge the inevitable.
Itâs the vexing thing about the celestial kingdom. They always leave one to find the laws on their journey. There is no book he could read on earth that could help him here. But he has seen the repercussions of disobedience, felt the weight of his transgressions bearing down on him like a heavy chain.
And yet, as he watches you prepare to leave for work, a sense of desperation gnaws at him from within. He wants to reach out, to beg you to stay, to keep you safe from whatever dangers may lurk beyond the safety of your home.
But he knows he can't. He's bound by duty, by the laws of God that dictate his every move. And so, with a heavy heart, he watches silently as you gather your things and head out the door, leaving him alone once more.
As the door closes behind you, James is left with nothing but the echoes of your footsteps fading into the distance. He knows he should use this time wisely, to prepare for whatever trials may lie ahead, but his thoughts are consumed by you, by the overwhelming need to protect you at all costs.
â â â
Thereâs and angel in your home. And heâs so freaking attractive, itâs unfair.Â
It has been a week since you found James. And despite the incredibly irrational decisions of yours to invite him into your home, nothing bad has happened to you. Sure, the first night you might have dreamt about him. Heâs everything your fantasy books described an more. And you couldnât help but let that tiny romantic sliver of you hope for the more.Â
But James is more pious than any catholic boarding school kid youâve ever met.Â
He seems to enjoy a good joke and heâs quite confident. But he never once touched you. And while that should not be one of your first concerns, considering heâs a stranger and an angel, something inside you tells you heâs holding back.Â
He never even flinches when you reach out to him. And the longing stares he sends your way make you shiver with anticipation. Yet there is no attempt to ever pull you in - even though you are so sure you were sending signals.Â
Maybe there are no signals in heaven. What are you even saying? Of course there are no signals in heaven. You donât even believe dating exists up there.Â
âYo, whaddup with ya today? Iâve been calling your name for a solid minute.â
âSorry. Feeling a little off today,â you mumble to Nick and retrieve the food waiting in the serving hatch.Â
âYou canât go home. I donât wanna serve alone today.â
âScott, thereâs literally no-one here.â You gesture toward the few people sitting in their booths and sigh. âBesides, I never said I was going home.âÂ
âDonât get mad. You barely texted me back this week. Whatâs so awesome about your home when Iâm not there with you?â You feel the heat rising to your head at Scottâs comment. âYouâd think sheâd call me if she ever needed to hide something.â He mumbles to Nick who just laughs and flips a pancake.Â
You turn to him with your fists by your side. âThe weather is weird and cold, canât I need a little down time?â
âNot from me!â Scott looks baffled. Heâs your friend, and yes, you had other things to worry about than be on your phone this week. But you also knew he wouldnât understand.
âYouâre being a real pain in my ass today, Scotty.â
âGood, so everythingâs back to normal then.â
You throw a towel in his face. âShut up.â
âCut it out, you two, thereâs customers.â
Scott resumes to the back, effectively dodging his work and leaving you to serve the new customer. But your breath hitches in your throat when you look up from the counter.
James is standing in the door, already drawing looks of attention from a few people. Heâs smiling back at them, even waving at a child before his eyes meet yours and your heart sets off again. It seems to always do that when heâs close.Â
You rush toward him, wrapping your fingers around his cuffed wrist and he audibly exhales.Â
âYou canât be here.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause-â you lean in closer and James bows down to get his face to your level. âYouâre and angel.â You mutter under your breath and the sexy smile returns to his perfect lips.Â
âAnd how would they know that?â His eyebrow raises.Â
âYou-â you lean back, examining his shoulders - only then noticing that his wings are not there anymore. âHow?â
âI only show myself to truly important people.â He winks and you stumble back a little, his sudden boldness making your legs feel like jello.Â
âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
James looks around the diner as though he has not planned this far. His eyes swerve to the counter and then back to you. âI want to watch you work. I enjoy spending time with you.â
âBut you canât be here without ordering.â
âThen I will oder.â
âYou donât eat, James. Do you even have money?â
That seems to surprise him. âNo.â You shake your head and look at the tiled floor. Jamesâs wrist is still wrapped in your hand but there is no attempt to hold you. So you drop it. Why did he even come here when he wonât touch you?
âPlease, beautiful. Let me stay.â His eyes are genuine, his lips purse in a plea. All you can think about is how weirdly lucky you are that this Adonis of a being chose you for his quest.Â
You bite your lip and watch him shudder. âAlright. Just sit by the counter and try to be inconspicuous.â
His smile spreads wide. âIâll be as invisible as the air you breathe.â
You exhale and get back to work but unfortunately, his promise doesnât last long. Before you know it, Peggy has chosen the seat right beside James. Sheâs leaning over to him at the counter and Howard just sits beside them with his newspaper in hand - as always. James seems just as invested in the conversation as Peggy and as you steal glances over to the pair of them, insistently hoping he wonât spill about his identity, you catch Jamesâs eyes lingering on you.Â
âYou are a fine young man, James.â Peggy's hand lands on his, tapping it in a grandmotherly manor, though her eyes are glinting with something akin to longing. She whispers something into his ear you cant make out and Jamesâs eyes shoot to yours, his face tinting rouge from one ear to the other.Â
âAnd you are a remarkable lady, Peggy,â he clears his throat, his mind seemingly wandering elsewhere. âYou remind me of a girl a friend of mine was in love with once.â
âThen he must have been the happiest man to ever live.â
Peggyâs hands tremble when she reaches for her cup of tea, her red lipstick taint the white porcelain as James watches her movements with a soft stare. He looks so protective of her, it makes your insides tingle. âHe truly is, though he seems like he has forgotten about it lately. Is this your husband?â He gestures to Howard, who just slams the newspaper down in front of him, blank eyes staring at James while Peggy laughs and waves her hand dismissively.Â
âThis rascal?â She presses her hand to her chest as she tries to calm down. âNo, dear. My husband died a long tome ago.â She smiles warmly, floating in melancholy when she continues, âI never loved another man since. He was a heaven sent. Strong, kind, always worked towards the greater good... and his looks were to die for, too.â She winks and James chuckles.Â
âOh I wish a love like that to everyone. Promise me something, James.âÂ
âAnything.â
âIf your find it, never let it go.â Her hand clasps around his biceps, her tone a motherly sternness laced with affection.Â
James eyes you again and it feels as if the air is shifting with tension. âMy word is in Godâs name, Peggy.â
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James feels the repercussions of his being on earth stronger every day. In heaven, he was miserable because he had to watch you live your life without him. On earth, heâs in agony because he knows, if he ever were to touch you, he would cease to exist.
Itâs slanted. He gave up everything coming here and despite the fact that his wings stopped working the second he fell from the sky, he categorizes the uncertainty eating away at him as even worse. Hanging in limbo is more troubling than actually going to hell, he is sure of it.Â
He watches you move about your house with the same longing look torturing his features since he realized how much he needed you. Itâs laughable how dependent on you he has become. While you go about your life with the minor change of having a roommate, James despises the unforgeable distance heaven has created between you.Â
You are friendly with him - you are friendly with everyone. James would even go as far as to say that you two are friends by now. But he wants so much more. So much more he cant tell you because even if you did know about his feelings, there is nothing either of you could do about it.Â
James sighs standing from the sofa, ducking his head when he passes through the doorway to you. You never questions when he just follows you around. The soul bond probably keeping the curiosity at bay if it feels anything like his experience. It feels good for no explicit reason.Â
You sort some bowls in your cabinet as he stands behind you, offering to place the ones higher up so you donât have to struggle too much. âWhatâs heaven like, James?â You ask innocently through your movements. âAre there pearly gates and fluffy clouds?â
James loves when you say his name. It makes him feel closer to you than ever before. In a way, he equates it with your touch. Just as his saying your name is his way of reaching out to you.Â
âMore like endless paperwork and celestial coffee breaks.â Coffee breaks. He learned about those a while ago and he loves the concept. âBut hey, the views are to die for.â He gets lost in your eyes, remembering how much more distant they felt when he was watching from above and he is thankful to be this close to you now.
You smile smugly, and thats when the heart race sets in again. Heâs sure you feel it too. Because your eyes avert and your hand places itself atop your chest.Â
You think something is wrong with you, he just knows it. Itâs like the time you watched hours on hours of Grayâs Anatomy and then proceeded to research yourself into a frenzy about the sicknesses you might suffer. But James made sure then that there was not even a paper cut compromising you and he will do the same now, too.
He is desperate to tell you what it is you feel, that there is not much you can do and that he feels it ten times worse because he hates to see you suffer. But he needs to be careful about how much he reveals to you.Â
âOh my god, Iâm getting paranoid,â you mutter to yourself and James smirks at your small slip up. He has noticed how you try to minimize your references in curses. Itâs cute, really, because he knows how much you used to do it. Itâs a little bit amusing, the small deviant trait of yours making him feel like he has found something in common with you and heâs almost proud of it.
You collect yourself, quickly, breathing in deeply and then turning around to him. âI have to run some errands today.âÂ
âGreat, where are we going?â James asks with eagerness. Car rides excite him. He has always found them fascinating, but actually being in one is a whole new experience.Â
You bite your lip and for once, James does not feel the familiar tingle in his stomach when you do so. There is sadness sitting in your eyes when you answer him. âActually...â Your tongue darts out to wet your lip just for your teeth to dig into it again and an unfamiliar tightness travels through Jamesâs body. âIt is something I need to do by myself today. I hope that is okay.â
The angel nods vigorously, trying to ignore the pang in his chest. âYes of course. I will leave you to it alone.â He steadies himself on the door frame and then heads to the living room where he grabs a book and settles on your window sill to look occupied.Â
âIt is nothing personal, James.â Your head dips from the doorway and he looks up. âIt's just... it would be weird for you to be there.â
âI understand.â The way he adds your name to his answer makes him sick. But his body is feeling weird, not showing him the familiar signs of jealousy or anger he knows. It feels... warm and uncomfortable.Â
âI will be back soon.â Your voice travels through the hallway and your footsteps along with it. James stares at the empty doorway for a while, his eyes shooting down to the book when you suddenly reappear. âDo you want anything from the store?â
âNo, thank you.â
âOkay.â
And then the door falls shut. But before James can get consumed by his loneliness, he puts the books down - something about an ice breaker - and heads outside to follow you.Â
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But earth can be a lonely place. At least hell will welcome you with warmth.
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You didnât lie. You were at the store. But now that youâre treading on the small path towards the grey cemetery walls, James feels the fear spread through his body like a slow and painful death.Â
Heâs hiding behind the trees closing around the park, watching you as you halt before a simple headstone. He can feel your mourning deep within his heart, tugging, yanking, pulling on the tiny strings that sting so effectively. His temple leans against the rough bark as his eyes trace your slow movements. You place a small bouquet of flowers on the soil before the engraved letters, resting your forehead on the gold stone.Â
He canât see it completely, but he knows youâre crying. You always do. Everything within him screams to reach out to you, to hold you and sway you until the world feels less taunting, but he knows how difficult it could make things.Â
So, instead, he remains hidden, a silent sentinel in the shadows bearing witness to your sorrow from afar. He feels the weight of your tears as if they were his own, each drop a dagger to his soul and a reminder of the distance that separates him from you.Â
And yet, even in the midst of your pain, there is a flicker of something else - resilience, determination, a quiet strength that refuses to be extinguished. Itâs a testament to your spirit, a beacon of hope in the darkness that threatens to consume you both.Â
As you linger before the headstone, lost in your memories and your grief, James feels a surge of admiration swell within him. Despite the pain you carry, you continue to preserve.Â
âItâs really a shame you never have the balls to comfort her.â A voice whispers in his ear and James shoots around to be met with a redhead whose eyes stare daringly up at him. âThen again... I guess it would be kind of ironic, donât you think?âÂ
âWhat are you doing here, Wanda?â All angels are made weary of Luciferâs spawn. They are vicious and manipulating, carrying the pits of hell to places that least expect them and watch it all go up in flames as they stand laughing on the sidelines.Â
James knows the demon standing before him. More than once have their paths crossed throughout time, but he is surprised to see her every time anew. He refuses to show any sign of weakness in her presence, knowing that to do so would only invite further manipulation.
Wanda chuckles darkly, her laughter echoing through the trees. âOh, nothing much,â she muses with a wicked grin, pacing around James to take a closer look at him. âJust though Iâd remind you of what youâre missing out on by playing the good little guardian angel. But who knows... maybe one of these days, youâll finally grow a spine and take what you want.â
James clenches his jaw, struggling to maintain his composure in the face of Wandaâs relentless provocation. He knows better than to let her under his skin, but the demonâs words cut deep, striking at the heart of his insecurities. He feels the surge of frustration rising within him as his fists clench by his sides, the weight of his silver cuffs pressing against his wrists like chains. âI canât,â he whispers, his voice barely above a whisper. âYou know I canâtâ
Wandaâs gaze narrows as her arms cross in front of her chest. âCanât or wonât?â She counters, her voice tingling with an unspoken dare.Â
James hesitates, his mind racing with conflicting thoughts and emotions. "I... I don't know," he admits finally. "But it doesn't matter. My duty lies with heaven, with protecting her. I canât do that when Iâm lost in the in-between.â
Wanda's eyes glitter with amusement as she takes a step closer, closing the distance between them with an unnerving grace. "And what if heaven isn't where you belong?" she whispers in a seductive purr as her fingers flick against his cuffs. The sound travels through the trees, making you turn and look around you. "What if your heart longs for something more, something... forbidden?"
A shiver runs down his spine, a sudden realization dawning within James. For so long, he has clung to the safety of his celestial duties, fearing the consequences of straying from the path laid out before him. But now, as he stands face to face with the embodiment of temptation itself again, he can't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe, heaven is not the place where he can truly flourish.Â
âI donât trust you, Wanda.â He admits genuinely, though the possibility of her words holding truth gnaws on his very soul.
âYou shouldnât.â She smirks devilishly, eyes flashing in a short glimmer of red and evil. âThere will be consequences to disobeying celestial rules. But you will never find out if a life free of them would be more fulfilling to you if you donât try.â She winks, setting uncertainty free within him. âFind me when you have made the right choice.â
As he watches Wanda disappear into the shadows, leaving him alone with his thoughts, James knows that he is standing at a crossroadsâone that would determine the course of his destiny for eternity. And though the path ahead is uncertain and fraught with peril, he can't help but feel a glimmer of hope stir within him, a whisper of possibility that promises a future filled with love, and happiness, and the chance to finally be as close to you as he has always wished for.
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The night has broken over your small town by now. James has made it back with a conflicted heart before you came home from your errands. He knows you notice his silence as he normally enjoys to talk a lot to you. But you donât say anything.Â
He is just sitting quietly in the kitchen as he watches you make a cup of tea, wondering what it tastes like right before frowning at how scared he is to try a cup of hot water just because he doesnât know what it would do to him.Â
Wandaâs words come back to the forefront of his mind and the unease she instilled within his heart right alongside it. He has been longing to reach out to you for so long, has wanted to touch and comfort you in so many ways his mind began to spin. Especially after days like this, when you went to visit your brotherâs grave. You would be crying yourself to sleep tonight. And you would get up tomorrow, wipe the sorrow from your eyes and continue to live your life as if nothing happened. Because you are strong and resilient.Â
And James, even though he is finally present, is not able to offer you the solace you so desperately deserve.Â
At least he thought so.
His eyes wander to the silver cuffs around his arms, feeling the weight and letting the subtle clink of them seep into his skull. He has never questioned why or how the rules of heaven applied to him. He never even thought about the consequences of breaking them until he felt the need to protect you. He never really cared until you became the most important thing in his life.Â
Now, seeing the pain in your gaze, and feeling the guilt for being here, not soothing you gnaws on him, sending him back to a state in which he would kill to see you smile again. Free of fear and sorrow.Â
You bite your lip when you settle on the chair across from his. Your eyes look dull, but James canât help but think there is a question posed within them. Something desperate and restricted. Oh, how he would love to know what youâre trying to say. He is just too inexperienced with human interaction that he can get a read on everything just yet.Â
James feels his heart picking up, knowing it beats in the same rhythm as yours, but he doesnât dare speak, knowing his voice will betray him. Your tea cup is empty, your eyes tired, and he knows that this evening with you will end within seconds.Â
âGood night, James.â You finally say, following the small ritual you have established with him as you wave at him weakly.Â
Normally, he says it back. Normally, he guides you to the bedroom and closes your door promising to watch over you in silence. Normally, he doesnât have a demonâs words ringing in his ears.Â
But today, something feels different. As you gather your things and head towards your bedroom, a sudden surge of determination courses through him. He can't bear the thought of being separated from you, even for a moment longer.
With a sense of reckless abandon, and the words of Wanda hanging in his mind James makes a daring decision. Ignoring the warnings echoing in his every being, he reaches out to you, his touch barely grazing your shoulder as you turn to leave.
In that fleeting moment of contact, something shifts. A spark ignites between you, a connection so powerful and undeniable that it defies explanation. Time seems to slow as you both freeze, caught in the throes of a bond that transcends the boundaries of heaven and earth.
For a heartbeat, everything hangs in the balance, the air crackling with electricity. And then ...nothing happens.Â
There is no rush of wind and light that makes him disappear, leaving behind only the echo of his presence lingering in the empty space between. There is nothing else welcoming him in wrath or absolute nothingness or whatever is supposed to happen if a celestial ever dared to touch a mortal.
He opens his eyes that he had shut tight without noticing. And youâre still here. In front of him, staring at his hand that is softly wrapped around your wrist. His mind is struggling to make sense of what just happened - or rather what didnât. It was all a hoax.Â
James feels rage bubble within him. And as you stand there, alone in the quiet stillness of the room, touching. He counts yet another reason why heaven was never where he belonged.
A single tear rolls down his cheek when he pulls you into his body and wraps his arm around you tightly. His heart beats violently, pumping the anger of knowing how much time he wasted not being close to you through his body. His wings follow close behind, sealing you into his warmth and creating a space just for you and him. Itâs as if you are made for him. Your body tugs perfectly beneath his feathery white wings and he knows heâll hold you like this for eternity.Â
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Heâs touching you.Â
James is touching you. No, actually, heâs consuming you with his whole being, pulling you into the best hug you have ever received. His wings wrap around you protectively, engulfing you into his scent entirely. Itâs earthy, and clean, and... heavenly.Â
You chuckle slightly as your cheek presses to his chest, your head barely reaching his collar bone, but it just makes you feel enclosed by his presence from all around. You heart beats just as rapidly as his and you exhale in content as you realize that youâre not the only one feeling this connection.Â
You donât know what changed. Maybe you are not as good as hiding your sadness as you think you are. Or maybe there is a whole other reason behind this angel guarding you into the most loving hug you have ever experienced. But fact is, you needed it today more than ever.Â
And James knew ...because he strangely knows so much about you. He feels familiar without trying and it is a weirdly comforting thing to experience. Especially after all you have been through.Â
Hesitantly, and almost sorrowfully, you pull away from his warm chest. His wings loosen around you, his arms leaving just enough space for you to lean back and stare into those azure blue eyes of his. Heâs beautiful up close. Long lashes frame his loving stare as his mouth tugs into a smile, taking yours right with it.Â
âYou touched me.â You say in awe as Jamesâs eyebrows slightly raise. âYou thought I didnât notice, but I did.âÂ
There is a steak silence as his gaze travels over your face then roams his arms that are still holding you tightly close to him. âShould I not be touching you?â He asks carefully.
You can feel his hands retreating but you pull him right in before theyâre gone. âI was just wondering when you would.â You snuggle back into his shirt and his hands cradle your head to him. âIs it embarrassing to say Iâve wanted you to do it for a while now?â
âNot embarrassing at all.â His chest rumbles with a chuckle. âIâve wanted to do it even before then. I just didnât know if I could.â The last part is a mere whisper that dissipates in your hair when his mouth presses to it in a feather light brush.Â
A rush of warmth floods through you, filling every corner of your being with a sense of belonging you've never known before. Time seems to stand still, the world falling away until there is nothing left but the two of you, entwined in each other's arms.
"You've wanted to touch me?" you murmur, the words slipping out before you can stop them, a confession born of the unspoken longing that has lingered between you for far too long.
James's gaze softens, his fingers trailing gently along the curve of your cheek as he meets your eyes with a look of quiet intensity. "More than you could ever know," he replies. "But I feared the consequences.â
âWhat consequences?â James shakes his head as his thumb still lingers on your skin.Â
âI donât know.â You reach up to cup his face in your hands, your thumbs brushing against his cheekbones as you search his eyes again. It was stupid of you to assume he didnât touch you because he didnât like you. He was probably scared of what would happen if angels ever dared. The look in his deep blues tells you how worried he was. How long he withheld for the sake of dodging the unknown.Â
âItâs not bad, is it?â You hand travels across his chest, feeling the muscles tense in its wake. âTouching.âÂ
James's breath catches in his throat, his heart pounding against his chest as he gazes down at you with a mixture of awe and reverence. And once again, you would love to know what is happening inside his brain.Â
With a trembling hand, James cups your face in his palm, his touch gentle yet possessive as he leans in to press his forehead to yours. You cant help but feel that there is something keeping him from you, still.Â
âLet me stay with you tonight, my beloved.â His fingers tighten around your face ever so slightly. âLet me hold you and keep you safe.â
âSafe from what?â You ask in a trance as your fingers bury in his hair and you play with the thought of pressing your lips to his. But he has taken so long to hug you. You donât want him to be overwhelmed.Â
âAnything.â He whispers back and closes his eyes. A whole new warmth consumes you when his words seep in, blanketing you in cherish and admiration. If this is what being appreciated feels like, you will fight to keep the feeling forever.Â
âOkay.â
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Oh how much the celestials have lied. Flying is nothing compared to this.Â
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As you bustle about the diner, taking orders and refilling coffee mugs with practiced ease, Peggy sits at her usual spot at the counter, her eyes twinkling with mischief as she watches you work.
"Something on your mind, Peggy?" you ask with a smile, setting down a plate of pancakes in front of a hungry customer.
Peggy leans in closer, her voice low and conspiratorial. "I couldn't help but notice that smile of yours, dear," she says with a knowing wink. "It's positively radiant today. Dare I say, it's almost as if you've got a secret?"
You chuckle, feeling a flush of warmth spread across your cheeks at her observation. âHmm, I donât know,â you reply coyly, unable to suppress the grin that tugs at the corners of your lips as you tab your finger against them. âWhat makes you think Iâd share it with you?â
âWell, I am a loyal customer for one...â She pauses as she thinks of another point. âAnd I am old enough to think the secret dies with me." Peggy presses, her eyes sparkling with curiosity.
âPlease, you know the entire town.â You laugh and Peggy waves her hand dismissively, though there is a proud smirk on her red lips.Â
Before she can respond, a voice cuts through the air like a knife, sharp and tinged with bitterness. "What's all this about smiles and secrets?â
You turn to see Old Lee leaning against the counter with a grim expression. His worn-down straw hat flops over his eyes, making him look even more grumpy than usual.
"It's nothing, Stan," you reply, trying to defuse the tension with a forced smile. "Just some friendly banter."
Old Leeâs eyes narrow slightly. "Friendly banter, huh? You're squawking like a bunch of chickens in a henhouse."
Peggy rolls her eyes, clearly unimpressed by Stan's attitude. "Oh, hush up, Stan," she scolds, waving a dismissive hand in his direction. "Can't you see we're having a moment here? This is girl talk. Go and drink your tea like the grumpy old man you are.â
Old Lee shakes his head in response but wisely chooses to turn back to his drink. âWe all know how the last time she came in here with a smile that big turned out.â Old Lee grumbles searching your eyes once more. âThe frogs're telling me weâll have another rain cominâ soon. You better be careful, sweetheart.â
You share a conspiratorial look with Peggy, either of you not sure wether to believe him or not. Stan is not one for sappy love stories, but he certainly hits the nail on the head with his predictions every time. His bold hint towards the last big death this town suffered glides off his tongue like a Sunday prayer and it ripples down your spine in ice-cold peaks.Â
âThat is in the past. Right now, I really am hoping we are talking about the charming gentleman I talked to the other week. He certainly is a sight for sore eyes.â Peggyâs eyes sparkle as Old Lee huffs into his cup.
She winks back at you and the smile returns to your lips, along with the giddy feeling you get when James is called into your mind. But before you can respond, the diner door swings open, signaling the arrival of another customer and putting an end to your conversationâfor now, at least.
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A noise calls from the back of your house right before the sun starts its journey in the sky. You donât wake as James tries to stir carefully with his arms still holding you tightly. He was not sleeping - he doesnât need sleep, but he still feels groggy from the warm and comforting night being ripped away with the sound.Â
It piques another time and now, James is sure, someone is trying to get inside. Within minutes he is out of bed, checking the window and then closing the door to your bedroom on his way to the back.Â
He is ready to protect you at all costs, eager to show you how much you mean to him, but when he sees a touch of white beyond the window and hears the familiar rustling of feathers that accompany it, it only takes him a second to realize who has come to intrude your peace.Â
Two men - angels - just as tall has James litter the kitchen once he opens the door and pulls them inside with both hands. Samuel, the one standing a little to the side, brushes his clothes off once he comes to a stand again, watching James with amusement and curiosity. âI see you havenât changed much, James. A simple âhelloâ would have been just fine.â He crosses his arms before his chest, his wings shaking the dowry rain from their feathers and right onto your kitchen floor.Â
âWhy are you here?â His eyes search those of Steven - a friend of his but also an angel ranking higher than James ever will.
âYou know why weâre here.â He steps closer once he has composed himself again. âYou are testing the heavens.âÂ
James huffs, feeling the anger rise inside him. If anything, heaven was testing him. So he goes on to ignore the blonde angel before him, willing his heart to calm at all the frustration accumulating at once. âDid you know it was a lie?â James starts instead. His voice is strained when he thinks of all the times he refrained from touching you just to keep you safe. âJust a way to keep us from initiating contact?âÂ
Steven doesnât say anything and Samuelâs stare meets that of James again. Steven shows little remorse, the pride on display now more than usual. The supposed betrayal James has caused is nothing to the sting boring into his soul by the very man standing in font of him. Steven is cold, distant - when he should be a friend.
âI should have known.â James shakes his head. âYour duties have always placed higher than your friendships.â
âThat is because duties are the most valuable virtue God can give.â Steven finally says and his jaw ticks angrily.Â
James could never imagine being more loyal to a system placing as many restrains as heaven does. Not when he knows how good the real world can feel. How precious it is to smell flowers and hold the one you love in your arms well into the night.Â
âYou came here with a mission, James. And since your fall, you have done nothing but frolic throughout this place with your very own human.â Samuel is eerily still behind the broad blonde spitting one accusation after the other. But James decides not to comment on it just yet.Â
âIt is far more than that,â he rasps feeling the protectiveness flood his body.Â
âWe know. That is why you are here in the first place.âÂ
âWhat am I supposed to do, Steven?â James tries to keep his voice low, but his frustration is too great. Steven should be the one to understand better than anyone else. But he seems to have locked that part of him far away right now. âHow can I amend a sin that is irreversible?!â
âEvery sin can be amen-â Steveâs eyebrows raise and Samuelâs eyes flickers from James and focuse behind him. That is when his heart beat picks up again. And as much as he loves you, he wishes with all his being that you are not standing behind him right now.
âPlease, no.â He mutters and turns just to have you approach from the hallway with tired eyes.Â
âWhat is happening? Who are you?â Your voice sounds sleepy, a hand rubbing over your face before you find yourself by Jamesâs side.
âAngels.â He bites his lips, contemplating for a moment but deciding that you deserve to hear what is happening in your own home. A home he hopes to be part of forever. Besides, with Steven here, there is no ending this conversation without confusing you more. âThey want me to abandon you.â The bitterness is evident in his tone. But he regrets it as soon as he catches the stutter in your heart.
âWhat?â Itâs all you say, but the way you do breaks his collected facade.Â
âJames-â
âWhat do I have to loose, Steven?â his arms open wide. "They already cast me out. They took my freedom, they took it all.â His wings barely shake, just emphasizing his statement.Â
Steve steps closer, causing you to slightly shove yourself behind James, his arm reaching around you, just not touching yet. âBut there is still a chance to redeem yourself.â
âWhat if I donât want it?â James bites back.Â
âDonât act rash, James. Think about this.â
âI have.â Long and hard. Every night he holds you, he has enough time to do so. And he has come to the conclusion that nothing compares to having you this close to him... and only him.
âYou know of the punishment placed for sinners who do not attempt to right their wrongs.â Steven is seething beneath the surface, James can tell. But he tries to stay professional. He can try all he wants. James has already made a decision.Â
âWhat is he talking about?â Your voice takes him back to your presence. Your hands sneak around his forearm and hand, to which his body responds like a reflex. His fingers squeeze yours, his body seeks the heat of yours. Samuel looks at the interaction curiously, Steven settles for a disapproving taunt.
âI lose my wings. I lose heaven.â James explains to you, watching as your eyes open wider in shock.Â
âWhat?â There is so much more behind your astound answer. What does this mean for us?
âJames is banished from the heavens temporarily already.â Stevenâs voice drips with authority, making you stiffen beside him. James hates it. And he doesnât hate much.Â
âWhy?â Youâre too soft for this, too fragile to take another betrayal so soon. He has just gotten started and he already feels you drifting away. Your eyes are glassy when you turn to Steven. âWhat could have possibly been so bad that you ended up here?âÂ
âYou didnât tell her?â Sam breaks his silence. The surprise is written all over his face just to be replaced by confusion when James utters his name in warning.Â
âTell me.â It seems as though his eyes switch between everyone in the room, trying to warn them all of what will happen if they take his opportunity of telling you himself.
âJames is not just any angel.â
âSteve, stop it.âÂ
âHe is your guardian angel.â
It all happens too fast. A look to Samuel tells him there is no ending this. Steven wonât stop until he has tried his all to have you turn from James.Â
âAnd he committed the worst sin of them all.â You look shocked and expectant. The grip on Jamesâs hands grows tighter with every syllable leaving Stevenâs mouth. And James is silently cursing the angel in front of him âHe killed a man... for you.âÂ
You stumble back and James catches you only to earn a warning glare from Steven and Samuel.Â
âBrock,â you whisper and it sounds like the single word has taken the entire air out of your system.
Lighting brightens your house over the stifled morning gleam and thunder sounds dangerously in the distance. Youâre flinching, though searching Jamesâs eyes as he steadies you back on your feet.Â
âYou cant do this forever, James.â
âAnd what if I try?â He turns fully. âWhat if I would rather get myself killed than come back to heaven?â
âHe wouldnâtâ Steve is heaving, but Sam steps forward, Laying a hand on the blondeâs shoulder in an attempt to soothe his rage. âThe soul bond affects her just as it does him.â
âWhat does that mean?â Itâs barely a screech when you interrupt them again. Turning to James and tugging at his shirt, you convey the frustration of being kept in the dark through your features. âWhat does it mean, James?â
He sighs, shaking his head and then closing his eyes - hoping to escape this conversation. But it is happening. âIt means, if I die... you will die, too. A soul need replace that of a guardian one.â
At this point, James questions his sanity. How could he have not realized the twisted ways of the celestial realm sooner? In an attempt to soothe both his aching head and your tired soul, he reaches out to pull you into a hug, but your hands swat his arms away.
James recoils as if struck, the sting of rejection shattering his heart into thousands of pieces
âYou might think it wise to revisit what we offered you, James.â
The words hang in the air like a dark omen when Steven and Samuel disappear. With a heavy heart, James turns away from you, unable to bear the weight of your disappointment any longer.
As you walk away, James is torn between the desire to comfort you and the fear of causing you further pain. But when he reaches out to touch you, once more, your tears are a silent testament to the rift that now lies between you.Â
"I... I'm sorry," he stammers, his voice choked with emotion. Itâs a desperate attempt to fix this, even if he does not know how.
âGo, James. Please. I need time to understand all this-â
âI can help you.â
â-alone. I want to be alone.â You swallow hard. âLeave, please.â Your tears finally spill and James despises that he is at fault of them.
âGo.â
Feeling more abandoned than ever, James leaves you to your grief, the weight of his actions weighing heavily on his soul. In that moment, he realizes that the price of his newfound freedom may be greater than he ever imagined, leaving him trapped in a prison of his own making, forever haunted by the memory of the one he could never save.
He knows there are not many ways to fix this. But he is determined to find the one that will.
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He doesnât remember earth to be quite this cold.Â
Find me when you have made the right choice. The words keep ringing in his head.Â
A little warmth would feel nice now.
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You were angry when you told James to leave. Angry, and hurt, and confused, and shocked, and fucking tired of it all.Â
But now that he is gone, an unfamiliar emptiness has taken its place where your tingles used to be. Everything makes so much sense now. The weirdly familiar feeling. The sense of security around him - a total stranger at the time, who obviously possessed more strength than you could ever imagine. The instant pull from his heart to yours.Â
The quiet of your house seems to close in on you. The walls feel tighter, the rooms emptier. Every corner holds a memory of James, a reminder of the presence that had once filled your life with warmth and mystery. His laugh echoing in the hallway, his silhouette framed in the morning light through the kitchen window, the way he seemed to know when you needed comfort before you even realized it yourself.
You sit at the table, staring at your untouched cup of coffee, replaying moments in your mind. The time he effortlessly carried your groceries when you insisted you could manage alone. The nights he stayed up with you, talking about everything and nothing, his voice soothing and familiar. The way he looked at you, as if you were the center of his universe.
The days seem endless without him. Simple tasks feel monumental in the absence of his reassuring presence. You find yourself hesitating before making decisions, second-guessing your choices, yearning for the silent support he always provided. The realization hits you: you had built your life around him, around the safety and stability he brought, even without knowing the full truth of who he was.
You cannot deny that a big part of you misses him despite all the lies he told you. Well, not lies entirely. You know he has always been truthful to you ...he just never told the whole truth until he was forced to.
And even though the other two angels who visited made him reveal his secrets to you, you feel like there is so much more to discover still.Â
Your hand settles over your heart, trying to pull the constant racing around James back into existence. But it beats in profound silence, acting as though nothing has happened, when - in fact - everything has changed. James came into your life and unapologetically took your heart away. You donât want it back. You want him back. Heart or not, your souls are connected. And now that he is gone, you know what you have truly been missing all this time.Â
With a sigh, you rise form your chair and grab your keys, determined to find a way to help James out of the trouble he has caused because of you. A shiver runs down your spine at the memories of it all. Jamesâs sin had good intentions, you know this much. But two people died at the time of it - though only one deserves your mourning.Â
You pull your door closed and make your way to town hall. The entire left wing of the building is dedicated to the library and you are destined to find out more about the man who crashed into your life and took your heart away... and then disappeared.Â
The library is quiet, the soft rustling of pages and the occasional whisper the only sounds that break the stillness. You approach the counter, where a librarian is meticulously organizing a stack of book. She looks up as you approach, her kind eyes lighting up with curiosity.Â
âHello, dear,â she says warmly. How can I help you today?â
You hesitate for a moment but then you decide to just start at the beginning. âIâm looking for some texts about angels,â you finally say, your voice barely above a whisper. âMore specifically fallen angels... and the consequences of disobeying.â
The librarian raises an eyebrow and a look close to amusement and happiness reaches over her face. âThatâs a rather specific topic,â she muses and your brow begins to sweat. Maybe this was a stupid idea. The woman is still eyeing you with a smolder, but then, as if you pushed a button, she shrugges and begins to type away on her computer. âGood thing itâs my job to get you exactly what you need.â
She nods slowly after a little while. âWe do have some old texts and legends about angels. Let me show you.â With that, she lifts her body out of the office chair behind the desk and leads you to the far end of the library. Itâs a quiet corner where the oldest books are kept. She pulls an ancient-looking leather-bound volume from a high shelf. For the place it has been kept, it is surprisingly dust-free.Â
With a smile, she hands it to you and then wishes you âhappy huntingâ.
The book is heavy in your hands. The front is embossed in golden letters. Your fingers trace over it, feeling every ridge and dip. âLegends of the Divine and Fallenâ, the title reads.Â
When you flip through the pages, the bookâs well-worn smell engulfs you and something inside you shifts. You brother loved old books. The one in your hand brings you right back to when you were kids. Pietro had a whole wall of shelves filled with his favorite stories. And more so than often, you snuck inside when he was out with his friends, grabbing one whose cover intrigued you the most and then getting lost in the pages until he came back and read it to you.Â
He sparked your interest in reading - made you the bookworm you are today. And finally, probably caused you to jump into this adventure with James in hopes of finally living inside on of your fantasy worlds.Â
You eyes get caught by a story in the book, your thumbs halting and fully opening the page as intrigue tingles in your entire body with every word you read.Â
The Tale of Buchariel: The Curious Angel
In the celestial realms, where light and harmony prevail, there existed an angel named Buchariel. Renowned for his loyalty and dedication, Buchariel was also marked by an insatiable curiosity. His yearning to understand the world beyond the heavenly gates set him apart from his brethren, who were content to serve without question.
One fateful day, driven by an unquenchable thirst for knowledge, Buchariel descended to the mortal realm without divine permission. His eyes beheld the beauty and chaos of humanity, the joys and sorrows that defined their existence. It was in this realm, teeming with life and temptation, that Buchariel's fate took a dark turn.
As Buchariel wandered the earth, a demon of cunning and allure took notice of the angel's presence. This demon, skilled in the art of seduction, approached Buchariel with promises of forbidden knowledge and experiences that no celestial being had ever known. Blinded by his curiosity, Buchariel succumbed to the demon's temptations, engaging in acts that defied the sacred laws of the heavens.
Word of Buchariel's fall reached the celestial realm, and the angels were dispatched to retrieve their wayward brother. They arrived in time to save Buchariel from complete corruption, pulling him from the demon's grasp and returning him to the realm of light. However, the consequences of his actions could not be undone.
The celestial court declared Buchariel's punishment. He was stripped of his rank and given an ultimatum: he could return to heaven only if he vowed never to betray the divine will again. God, in His infinite mercy, offered Buchariel a chance at redemption. He was to serve as a guardian angel, watching over humanity and guiding them towards righteousness. In this duty, he could be close to the world, yet stay obedient to heaven.Â
Buchariel accepted his fate, grateful for the opportunity to make amends. Yet, the legend speaks of the angel's perpetual struggle. Constantly exposed to the allure of the mortal world, Buchariel walked a fine line between duty and desire. His heart, once pure and untainted, now carried the scars of his past transgressions.
Eons passed, and Buchariel's vigilance never wavered, but neither did the temptations. His soul remained in perpetual conflict, torn between his heavenly duty and the memories of earthly sensations. The legend warns that Buchariel's fall could occur once more, for the battle within him is eternal. He is an angel forever on the edge of sin, a guardian who knows the weight of temptation, and a being who understands the cost of free will.
Thus, the tale of Buchariel serves as both a caution and a beacon. It reminds all who hear it of the delicate balance between obedience and desire, and the endless journey towards redemption that even the most divine must undertake.
A chill runs down your spine as you realize the parallels between the legend and James. The delicate balance between obedience and desire - serving and sinning. James did sin again. When he killed the man who ended your brotherâs life.Â
You sit in silence, the weight of your realization settling over you like a shroud. Itâs clear that Jameâs story resembles that of Buchariel in too many ways to be a coincidence. He was weirdly comfortable on earth, now that you think about it. For Christ's sake he even told you he had met God âunder rather unfortunate circumstancesâ. If what the legend says is true, unfortunate is the understatement of the century. Now you cant help but wonder what price he might pay for his defiance.
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The diner hums with its usual activity, the clatter of dishes and the murmur of conversations fill the air. You move mechanically from table to table, refilling coffee cups and taking orders, but your mind is elsewhere, clouded with thoughts of James and the emptiness his absence has left behind.
Peggy, sitting at her usual spot at the counter, watches you with concern etched on her face. She waits until you pass by her with the coffee pot before speaking up.
"What's happened to that smile of yours, dear?" Peggy asks, her voice soft and maternal. "You used to light up this place."
You force a smile, but it doesn't reach your eyes. "Just tired, Peggy. You know how it is."
Peggy's eyes narrow, not buying your excuse for a second. "Tired, my foot. Something's bothering you. You can talk to me, you know."
Before you can respond, Scott chimes in with a smirk. "At least now I know youâre back to normal," he says, his tone dripping with sarcasm. "Thought you were gonna float away with all that grinning you were doing."
You shoot Scott a glare, feeling a mix of irritation and sadness. "Thanks, Scott. Really helpful."
âAlways at your serviceâ He tips his nonexistent hat, almost bringing a chuckle up within you. In his own way, he never faisl to cheer you up a little.
Peggy waves a dismissive hand at Scott and turns her full attention back to you. "Don't mind him, honey.â She leans in closer, her expression softening. "But seriously, what's going on? I haven't seen you this down in a while."
You sigh, the weight of your emotions pressing down on you. "It's complicated, Peggy. Someone important to me... well, they're not around anymore. And it's just... hard."
Peggy reaches out and pats your hand gently. âWe all miss Pietro, dear. Losing someone is never easy... especially after all youâve been through.â
You nod, grateful for her kindness, but the ache in your chest remains. You can't bring yourself to tell her itâs not your brother you are mourning at this time. "I appreciate that."
The hustle and bustle of the diner continues around you, but for a brief moment, you feel a small measure of comfort in Peggy's concern.
As you turn to refill another customer's coffee, Peggy's words linger in your mind. Maybe opening up a bit more wouldn't be such a bad idea. Maybe, just maybe, sharing the burden could help ease the pain of James's absence, even if only a little. But who should you talk to? The only person you were every really close with is gone...
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Yet another day passes in which you worry yourself tired. The house feels emptier than ever, the silence pressing in on you as you move through the rooms like a ghost. You try to distract yourself with chores and routines, but your thoughts always circle back to James. Wondering if heâs safe or thinking about you.
You sink into the worn armchair by the window, your favorite spot to watch the world outside. But tonight, the familiar view brings no comfort. The sky is a dark canvas, the stars hidden behind thick clouds. You hug your knees to your chest, feeling the loneliness wrap around you like a suffocating blanket as Old Leeâs words echo in your mind once again.Â
A quiet sob calls into the empty room - barely audible. And then the tears start falling down your face in constant streams. The memory of his touch, his warmth, his presence, feels like a distant dream. You close your eyes, trying to recall the feeling of James's arms around you, the sound of his heartbeat against yours. It's a comfort and a torment all at once.
You havenât cried like this since Pietro died... No, actually, you did when the message of Brockâs death reached you. But those were tears of relief rather than pain.Â
A sudden chill sweeps through the room, at the memory of the man who tormented your life in more ways than one. You open your eyes, frowning as you notice that itâs not only the thought of Brock making you feel this way. The air seems to crackle with an otherworldly energy. The hairs on the back of your neck stand on end, and you feel a strange pull, a familiar yet eerie sensation that makes your heart race.
You stand up slowly, your breath hitching in your throat. The room feels alive with a palpable tension, as if the very fabric of reality is shifting. You turn around, your eyes scanning the dimly lit space.
And then you see him.
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James stands before you, his presence both startling and comforting, he notes as your herts sync again. His eyes meet yours, filled with a mix of relief and sorrow. You look as if you've been through a storm, yet there is a resolute strength in your gaze that anchors him. He probably doesnât look much better, considering he in fact has been in said storm. But heâd do anything to come back to you.Â
"James," you breathe, your voice trembling with emotion. "You're here.â
He steps forward, closing the distance between you. "Iâm here," he says softly, his voice carrying the weight of all the unspoken words and unshared moments.
You reach out, your hand trembling as it touches his cheek, as if verifying that he is real and not another figment of your imagination. Your skin is cold and the sensation sends a flood of emotions through him.
"Where have you been?" you ask, your voice cracking with the weight of your worry.
âIt is a long story," he replies, his hand covering yours. "But right now, all that matters is that I'm here. With you.â
In that moment, the world outside fades away, and all that exists is the space between you and James. The silence is filled with unspoken promises and the electric charge of a reunion long overdue.Â
When you fall into his arms crying, his knees feel like giving out. He has had a long journey behind him, but he would die before showing you weakness when you need him the most. âI thought I would never see you again!â You cry even harder and James wraps his arms around you with loving pressure.
âIâm here,â he tries to soothe you. His wings come around you once again in search for the calmness that washes over him when he realizes you feel safe.Â
âI donât think I can do without you anymore.â Your voice is muffled against his chest but his heart leaps at your confession. Warmth spreads throughout his body as the realization hits that you finally feel close to the emotions he has harbored for you for so long.Â
James wants to promise you that heâll never leave again. He wants to tell you that there is nothing worth losing you. Not the most tempting offer to ever exist. He wants to hold you forever, in fact, do more than just hold you and give into the feeling he has only ever heard about from demons and sinners.Â
But he canât. Because he knows it would not be true.Â
His feud with heaven is far from over. And the journey he plans to venture holds great unknown. So, he settles for the one thing he can tell you with certainty.Â
âI cannot be without you, either, my beloved. There is so much I want to experience with you but the most important of them all is love. I love you, with my entire soul and heart. I cannot deny you this truth any longer. I have done the unspeakable because of it and you deserve to know.â
You eyes look up at him widely, a question in them that has waited long enough to be asked. âBrockâs death wasnât an accident,â you whisper, but your posture remains steady. There is no pain or sorrow in your face. Just pure, plain curiosity.
âThey told me he was mugged and thrown in the river. But it never made sense to me.â You pull a little out of his touch and James lets you even though his entire body screams to keep you close. âThis town is too small to be mugged in. He was killed with a single stab to his heart. A mugger would never be so efficient.â
You gleam at him, seemingly waiting for him to confirm. But James stands in your presence with a sense of pride. He does not regret is transgression, not when it meant keeping you safe - which was and still is his greatest aim.Â
âThe way he was found was too peaceful to be from a robbery, either.â You tell him shaking your head. âHow can you make a murder look so respectful and honest?âÂ
âI am sorry if I have upset you, dearest-â
âYou havenât. Brock Rumlow was a bad man. It took me a long time to notice, but he was abusing and ill-driven. If anything, I am upset I couldnât thank you sooner that he is gone.â
âI had played with the though of removing him from the face of the earth for quite some time,â James confesses, feeling all the secretâs weight rolling off him like avalanches. âFrom the moment he first screamed at you... to the time he laid his hands on you. But I knew you were strong. I was so proud of you for getting up each day and moving on. I would have never acted had he not hurt you in a way even i could feel throught the very bond that ties our souls together. I knew you could handle the hurtful words, even the hurtful touches - that no-one, and especially not you, deserves. Your brother is of similar cunning as myself. But he was brave enough to act while I was fearing the consequences of testing celestial rule once more.âÂ
James catches the new tears rushing down your cheeks. But he wont stop telling you. He knows you need to hear it. It hurts him to revisit the memory of watching Pietro die in his quest to secure your freedom. âI was trying to honor you brother as much as ensure your safety when I... killed Brock.â He clears his throat and takes your hands in his. âHe would have continued to hurt every person he encountered. I do not regret what I did.â
âOh, James.â Your hands reach up to his face. James bows down to follow the tug you apply to his jaw. âThank you for telling me. I am not angry. And despite what the other angels said, I know you are a good person. I love you, too.âÂ
You smile as Jamesâs hands cover yours on his face. Your foreheads are touching and the room around you fades into nothingness. In this moment in time, there are just you and him, and all the new feeling bubbling inside him that he his eager to explore.Â
Heâs known it for long, but now he is certain than going back to heaven was never an option. Not when you are still here.Â
âI would love to kiss you right now,â you whisper in the space between you, igniting a heat within James he has never felt before.
âI would like that very much,â he confesses and as soon as the words leave his lips, yours are firmly pressed against his.Â
The sensation is overwhelming. Your lips are soft and warm, moving against his in a way that sends shivers down his spine. His hands still press yours to his skin, unsure what to do and overwhelmed with the experience opened to him. You gently take them and move then to your waist, then a little lower, making him trace the curve of your body as your tongue slowly slips between his lips. The contact sends a surge of electricity through him, making his heart race.
The kiss is tentative at first, each of you exploring this new and wondrous connection. Your fingers weave into his hair, anchoring yourself to him as if afraid he might vanish with this daring protest against heaven. He can feel the gentle tremor in your touch, the same mixture of awe and desire that he feels within himself.
You pull back slightly, just enough to look into his eyes. Your breath mingles with his, cheeks heated and lips swollen. âMove your hands, James,â you whisper, guiding his hands to slide even lower on your body, teaching him how to hold you close, even though he thought he has always done so right. This is different. This is more.
He follows your lead, fingers trembling with the intensity of the moment as they squeeze flesh, eliciting a soft whimper from you that makes Jamesâs insides stir. Or maybe it is not his insides after all, he notices when his pants feel tighter all of a sudden.Â
Each brush of your lips against his, each caress, speaks of the longing and love that has been building between you for so long. James deepens the kiss, more confident now, feeling the warmth of your body against his, and itâs as if the world outside has ceased to exist.
Your thumb brushes over his cheek, and you smile, voice breathless. âYouâre doing great.â
The kiss becomes more fervent, your guidance helping James navigate this new territory. He feels like heâs pouring all his love and devotion into this one act, wanting to convey everything heâs never been able to say. His wings reach round you tentatively, leaving enough air for you to breathe. He wantâs to be wrapped up in you more - he cannot explain it.
James pulls back slightly, his breath coming in shallow gasps. âThis... this is incredible,â he murmurs in a voice husky with wonder. âIâve never felt anything like this before.â
You smile, eyes sparkling. âNeither have I.â
Your lips find each other again, more urgent this time, as if youâre making up for lost time - at least James is. The demon who lured him down the first time failed to mention this part of humanity to him.
âI want to show you more,â you finally whisper against his skin and at this point, James is willing to walk the sun if you asked him to.Â
âEverything,â he rasps, his lips touching you with every syllable. He cannot get enough of your taste. âShow it all to me, my love.â
âI want to start with taking off our clothes.â You kiss him again, making Jameâs pants feel even tighter. He knows about sex and he knows it is what you are hinting at. But he has never experienced it. It is no use to angels, since they cannot impregnate another. In heaven, it is rarely talked about - and if it is, one is warned about it.Â
Right now, James does not care why. He is eager to experience as much as there is on earth with you and then some. So, he lets you guide his hands over your shoulders, shrugging your cardigan off your body and letting his fingers glide beneath the thin straps adorning your shoulders now.Â
His hands are so big compared to yours. He marvels in the fact of how much stronger he is, making him able to protect you that much better.Â
James has no difficulty guiding the clothes from your body. Nakedness is something barely acknowledged where he comes from. But today... something about it feels different. This situation feels so much more intimate than it usually does. And he notices, when you kneel down to pull his pants down, his cock stands proud from his body, bigger than usual, and hard and- âOh!â sensitive, he notes when your lips kiss his hip, your face slightly grazing his member in the action.Â
With your head next to it, it looks disproportionately huge, but you donât seem to mind.Â
âThis... I have never done this before.â Jamesâs hands guide you back up to him. He is certain his cheeks are glowing red by now. He feels hot and bothered, yet so yearning for more of the teasing your face provided for mere seconds before.Â
âAre you okay with continuing?â Your eyes find his again.Â
âYes.â
âOkay, good.â And when he nods, you take his hand and lead him down the hall to your bedroom.Â
He has missed this place, missed holding you for the time he went away, but he can't tell you where he has been just yet. Not now, anyway. Right now, he wants to experience whatever you are willing to show him.Â
You walk around him, touching him all over, watching him react and making him lean down only to pull back before his lips can get a taste of yours again. Itâs beautiful agony and James is torn between pulling you into his strong grip and letting you wind him up until his balls feel like they are the ones squeezed tightly. They already are...
Eventually, you come to a stop behind him. He jolts when you fingers drive over the top of his wings, only for you to mumble a quick âsorryâ and coming back around in front of him.Â
âDonât be sorry. I was just not expecting it.â
You stare past him and at the white feathers protruding from his back. âThey are so soft... and pretty.â You find his eyes. âAll of you is pretty.â
He reaches for your face, finding pride in the way you nestle into his palm with a smile. âAnd dear, you are the most beautiful being the world has ever seen.â
âCan I touch them again?â You whisper only for James to now stare in awe.Â
He watches as your hands pass his body in slow-motion. They travel past his ribs and reach carefully towards his wings again. This time, he is prepared, though his stomach feels tight with something opposite of worry. More of a physical feeling he can't begin to explain. He closes his eyes and lets your touch travel over them like a prayer. Your path leaves shivers in its wake and James lets his head hang, reveling in the feeling. He opens his eyes and watches his cock twitch whenever the tingles get too much.Â
He gasps breathlessly when you graze the underside of his wings, making his whole body jump slightly.Â
âOh, are those sensitive?â You smile in awe, though your expression turns to excitement when he wheezes out his answer.Â
âVery.â
âDo you like it?âÂ
Your fingers glide over the same spot again, making his cock leak, feeling like heâs about to explode. âYes!â He grabs the sideboard next to him.
âI want to make you feel good, Jamesâ your voice is damp agains this ear and he bites his tongue before bursting.Â
âYou already do.âÂ
âI want to make it even better.â
James is not sure he can handle better. Heâs already floating miles above the ground when you touch him in the ways you do. Maybe he has to distract himself to enjoy this some more.Â
He could think about why heaven would withhold education of how amazing sex can be. That will make him calm a little, posting yet another reason why it was never the place to be for him.Â
Your hands wrap around his silver wrists as you guide him to the bed, pushing down on his shoulders until he is sat on the mattress, looking up at you with intrigue and awe.Â
âWhat are you doing?â
âIâm going to ride you, James.â You straddle his lap and his arms immediately reach around you.Â
âRide ...me? Iâm not a horse.â He states and watches as your smile lights up. But it settles a weary feeling in his stomach. There is a hint of mischief in your glint, and James is not sure he can handle it right now.Â
âDo you trust me?â
âWith my entire soul.â
You kiss him and push at his chest. âThe lie back for me.â
And so he does, realizing - once again - that anything heaven could offer him pales in comparison to the love he feels for you, a love that knows no bounds or logic and that is reciprocated in your every touch.Â
James watches as you scoot up his body until you are sat right behind his cock, which has not ceased to soften one bit since you kissed. It reaches all the way to your navel. But before he can take in the sight and calculate the size difference between you, you press him against your stomach, pulling another moan from his lunges.Â
His tip is leaking more and more with every touch you gift him and James starts to worry his body will give out before he can make you feel good.Â
âYouâre so big, so pretty.â You stroke him from base to top, letting your thumb press into the underside of his cock and send shiver after shiver through Jamesâs body. âI need you inside me.â
âI need that to.â His voice is strangled when you lift up and grind his tip through your wet folds, moaning with the friction he can only assume is the same for you as it is for him.Â
In a swift motion, the head of his cock sinks inside you, breaching tight muscle and making him feel dizzy with the new sensation. Your head falls back with a loud breath that makes his abs tighten. This whole time, he feels as though a gust of wind could make him unravel, but something inside him tells James he should hold out - or at least try to.Â
The raspy sounds escaping his throat cant seem to stop when you slowly work yourself all the way down his shaft. And the high-pitched scream you set free when his tip reaches another barrier within you makes him twitch and leak even more.Â
âAre you alright?â He asks through sweaty brows.Â
âIâm amazing.â You smile and lift yourself up only to sink back down into his lap. Your movements become steady, and when he finally gets over the way your mouth hangs slack, the rhythm you set builds even more pressure inside him.Â
The room is filled with messy sounds of skin and sweat and moans and heavy breaths. You sink down on him again and again until James feels like he is on fire. But you donât relent. Your pace never falters when you fall back and your hands grip his thighs, digging into his muscles until his toes curl.Â
Itâs too much at once and not enough at the same time. James feels as though there is a cliff he could fall over every second now, but heâs too scared to loose the sensations he is experiencing right now to let his body do so.Â
âTouch me,â you suddenly say, taking his hands which have fisted inside your duvet until now and placing them on the soft flesh of your breasts. Only now, your nipples are hardened when you guide his fingers over them. âLike this.â Youâre somehow fare gone and right there with him. But he does as he his told again, flicking his thumb over the pebbled flesh until your moans grow higher and higher. âAh, Yes!â
Itâs doing something to him, he his twitching every time your pussy squeezes him in tandem with his thumb on your nipples. His body is moving without the permission of his mind when he suddenly thrusts up. And then again. And again. Until you are mewling and crying on top of him, your fingernails digging into his legs painfully hard.Â
James immediately drops his hands only to watch you stare at him with wide eyes.Â
âWhatâs the matter. Why did you stop?â
He bites his lips in shame when he realizes he misses your constant movement on his cock. âAm I hurting you?â
You eyes possibly widen further. Leaning forward and capturing his cheeks with both lips and hands, you shake your head after you pull away. âNo! No, its a good thing, love. You feel so good. You...â Your expression changes to a rather shy one. âYouâre just very big. You should be proud.â
Something inside James clicks as you confess with another kiss to his lips. A smirk spreads beneath them when he curiously thrusts up inside you and experiences your hot breath gains his face.Â
In a second, his hands grab onto your hips, his body turns and flips the pair of you until your back hits the mattress as gently as he can offer in his compromised position.Â
A last look of reassurance when your eyes lock with his set off the urges he has suppressed so far. His hips snap forward over and over again, your pussy tightening more around him with every push. Your hands are fist into the covers, head thrown back and mouth open. There is no more sound coming from you at this point. And James understands why. He is as overwhelmed with the feeling as you look. When you grow even tighter, gripping this cock until he cannot move anymore, white pleasure as hot as hellfire rushes through his body, kissing his nerves from head to toe. He feels his balls empty as he paints your inside with his spent, only being able to lazily rut into you after a minute to seize every last drop of pleasure this moment has to offer.Â
Then he falls forward as if a higher force has taken all the strength from his body, though careful not to hurt you when his weight settles on top of you.Â
âWhat-â he needs to catch his breath first. âWhat was that?â
âThat,â you open your eyes, chest having with every deep breath, âwas an orgasm.â Your hands brush through his hair and James finds himself purring at the touch. âAnd it was the best one Iâve ever had.âÂ
You kiss him and chuckle when he looks at you questioningly. âI guess you could say it was outer-worldly... or even heavenly.âÂ
James rolls his eyes but canât stop the laugh from slipping his lunges. He pulls back and watches as his softened cock leaves your pussy, only to be followed by your mixed arousal dripping out of you.Â
Trance-like, his hand moves to collect the fluid and begins to smear it over your petals, up into the soft tuft above it. He knows angels cannot impregnate other beings, but he is fascinated by the scene in front of him. Itâs like a little testimony when he marks you all around the best place he has ever experienced, wordlessly rubbing and enjoying the whimpering sounds you make when he flicks over a particular spot.Â
âIs this sensitive?â He teases with a smirk only to be met with a playful smack on his arm.Â
âVery.â you say. âBut I am entirely satisfied as of right now.â
James sighs and falls into the sheets beside you. âMe too.â He nuzzles into your neck and pulls you closer to his body. He does not care that you are sticky with sweat or that neither of you are cleaned up. He just needs to hold you now that reality has taken its place back around him again.Â
âSo, you have been watching over me for - what? All my life?â
James hides the chuckle bubbling up his throat at your sudden question. He still has his eyes closed, taking in the feeling of your nails lightly scratching up and down his forearms. It makes him tingly.Â
âAll your life, yes.â
âAnd have you ever meddled with other things that were supposed to happen to me?â
âDo you remember the year in which you kept finding pineapples in arbitrary places?â
Itâs silent for a moment, but your movements donât falter. âI always thought that was a weird coincidence.â
James smiles into the crook of your neck. âConsider it my way of adding a little excitement to your life. And maybe a small attempt to make you notice me.â
You push yourself up slightly and rest on your elbows as you look at James. âI like you like this.â You smile.
âLike what?â Heâs smiling as well.â
âLess angel, more...â Your hand comes up to gesture at nothing in particular. â...deviant.â
The smile on Jamesâs face turns into a proud grin before he leans up to kiss you tenderly, savoring the moment and pushing away the thought that has been gnawing on him ever since he came back.Â
He holds you until you fall asleep, purposefully missing the opportunity to tell you what he has gotten himself into while he was away.
â â â
James stands in the garden, the sky overcast and heavy with the promise of rain. Heâs out here to retrieve a bouquet of your favorite flowers, smiling like a fool because he finally has what he always wished for. All his mishaps and seem worth it when he holds you in his arms at night.Â
The flowers are vibrant and alive, and he bends to pick them with a sense of purpose, each blossom a token of his affection. Even as the first raindrops start to fall, his joy is undiminished. The rain doesnât bother him; itâs a minor inconvenience compared to the happiness heâs found with you.Â
As he moves through the garden, he thinks of the moments youâve sharedâthe way your eyes light up when you see him, the warmth of your touch, the sound of your laughter, the way you writhe beneath him in she sheets. For the first time in his existence, he feels complete.Â
James clutches the bouquet and heads back toward the house, eager to see the surprise on your face when he presents you with the flowers.
But before he can pass the threshold, an eery feeling spreads though is soul, a shadow falls over him but vanishes just as soon. He scans the yard, his sight nestling through the trees at the very edge of it and then suddenly halting when he sees Wanda leaning against one at the very far corner of your property. Her presence is like a dark cloud on the horizon, a stark contrast to the bright joy he feels. Her red eyes glint with a knowing look, and her lips curl into a smirk that sends a chill down his spine.
âAre you not coming inside, James? The weather will only get worse.â You shout through the house only to appear behind him to inspect what is keeping him outside.Â
But Jamesâs stare is fixated on the demon in your yard, his protective instincts setting in immediately, scanning his surroundings while keeping a close eye on Wanda.Â
âWhat is going on?â You ask and reach your arms around him from the side. He can sense youâre eyeing him but he knows you see what he is seeing when your entire body grows rigid beside him.Â
âWho is that?â you whisper into Jamesâs shoulder as you step even closer to him, your voice barely audible over the increasing patter of rain. He squeezes you a little tighter, trying to shield you from the inevitable storm brewing. A quick look at your state tells him he should have send you inside. But It is too late for that now.Â
When his head turns back into the direction of the demon, it is no longer in its prior place. Instead, Wanda has moved across the garden with impeccable speed, looking up at the pair of you a few feet alway from the step leading to your porch.Â
âYou promised me time to explore the likes of this life.â His voice is low and intimidating, though he knows its futile in the face of a demon. They are scared of very little.Â
âAnd explored you have,â her red hair falls over her shoulder when her head ticks to the side. âTell me, Bucharius, is it worth the cost?â
The demon knows of the leverage it has on him. James was sure he would follow through with his request from the start. But he forgot, or maybe just hoped, the devilâs spawn would gift him more time until he had to go and seal the contract.Â
âYou know it is,â he pushes though clenched teeth, hating how your fingers clamp around his arm already.Â
âActually, I donât. But I would be an idiot to refuse an offer such as yours.â Wanda clasps her long fingers together and grins with evil. âOh, I will have so much fun with your soul once the time comes.â
The angel closes his eyes tightly, hating the way the demon pressures him to leave so soon. But it is for the greater good, for him at least. He needâs to be selfish for once - to be able to spend a lifetime providing whatever you desire.Â
âJust give me a moment, Wanda,â James says, his voice steady despite the chaos inside his head. He knows his flicker of happiness is about to be shattered, but he wants to hold onto it for just a little longer.
âWhat is happening? What does she want?â There are tears brimming in your eyes and James decides he has seen them far too many times to be a good guardian to you. It just secures his decision to do what Wanda came to collect him for.Â
James presses his lips to the crown of your head before gently tilting it upward with his fingers. His gaze is steady, exuding a confidence while you desperately cling to him in your confusion.
âIâm not sure I can handle all this newfound angelic drama,â you mutter with unease, and James kisses youâshort and sweet, a fleeting moment of peace.
Then he whispers against your lips, âPlease, you handle drama like a queen. Remember that time you dealt with Valentina from accounting?â His attempt at humor brings a small smile to your face, and he momentarily loses himself in the warmth and security it provides.
But the feeling doesnât last long.
âJames has made a deal with the devil,â Wanda grins, her red eyes flashing with malevolent glee.
Her words send shivers over your body, James feels the ripples pass beneath his fingertips. You pull away from your guardian angel, whose troubles have now escalated to an unthinkable level.Â
âWhat does she mean, James?â
â â â
Jamesâs silence is deafening. You pray, you beg, for this to be a terrible joke, but deep down, you know itâs not.
âJames.â Your words are strained, desperate for answers, desperate for reassurance. âWhat is she talking about?â
âIt is true,â James finally admits, his eyes free of sorrow but filled with determination. âI have made a deal with Lucifer. My wings for a mortal life. My soul when it leaves my deceased body after spending a lifetime with you.â
âWhat?â The word is a whisper, your mind struggling to process the gravity of his confession. Because your cheeks feel salty and stained before you realize what James has just told you. âWhy are you doing this?â you ask through your tears.
âBecause Iâd give up heaven if it meant being with you.â Jamesâs eyes burn into yours, the rain dripping off his wet face deceivingly. His voice is steady, unwavering. âIâd go to hell a thousand times over until my soul burns to ashes if it meant I get to hold you one more time. Youâre everything to me. Everything.â
Another wave of shivers slip over your skin with the way he presses the last word. His eyes are fiery, almost desperate. He is trying to make you understand how much better this decision is, but you fail to see how it can. âYou canât do this. You are destined for more. There are many more to come after me that need protecting and watching over.â
âAnd there have been plenty before you, yet none of them have or will ever compare, my love.â He touches your cheek, but you push his hand away. Your heart is already aching when you watch his face fall at the gesture. But you are not made for these types of dilemmas. You are human for fuckâs sake. âI would spend eternity regretting not experiencing life with you. I am tired of watching; I am over feeling the distance between us. Going back to heaven means finding you someone else to love. And I cannot do that. It would destroy me, burn me alive, rip my heart out of my chest.â
âJames, think about this.â Now the first angry tear slips from his face and mixes with he rain which has grown heavier. Dark clouds cast over the scene, matching the mood perfectly. Dreary and sad - how poetic.Â
âI have. For far too long. I will never feel truly fulfilled until I can be what you need me to be: a real, tangible person that grows old with you.â
You shake your head, your hair sticking to your skin. âYou have to believe me when I tell you that I exist only for you. My life was dull before you entered it, and it will feel like a black hole when you leave. There is nothingânothingâI wouldnât do to be with you.â
Never before have words felt more genuine than this. James is hunched forward, his eyes pleading at you from above. A sneaky hand has captured yours and presses it to his chest, where his heart is beating vigorously against your skin.Â
Resignation laces your voice when you finally answer him. âSo youâre just going to leave now? For how long? What if he tricked you?â
You donât know much about all the rules but one thing is for sure, the devil likes to play and deceive. Just the thought of James walking into a trap makes your stomach churn.Â
âThen it was worth it.â There is something akin to content and fulfillment in Jameâs stare when his hand squeezes yours and his heartbeat slows. Though yourâs seems to do the opposite.Â
âNo.â You say breathlessly.Â
âIâm sorry," he answers, and wraps your fingers around the bouquet in his hands.
âJames.â
âI love you.â
âJames.â
The rain intensifies, pounding the earth as if mirroring the turmoil in your heart. James turns and lets Wanda put him in chains, leading him away. You fall to your knees, crying, the three words you have yet to say hanging on your lips for nobody to hear. Heâs gone. Heâs gone without the knowledge of ever seeing you again.
â â â
And just like that it ends like it began: in tragedy⊠and rain.
â â â
Maybe you are just not cut out for happiness, you think as you wipe down the counter with a frown. The sun is shining today, almost mocking your bad mood with every chirping of birds outside. Earlier today, you were so angry about the reflection blinding you inside that you shut the blinds completely.Â
James has been gone for a week now and you already feel like breaking down over what youâve lost whenever something is mentioned that reminds you of him.Â
A few days ago, after a really rough night, you swore youâd never let anyone this close to you. Itâs the perfect start for you villain origin story, really. Losing your brother to an abusive ex. Losing said abusive ex thanks to a protective angel. Then falling in love with the angel only for him to go to hell for loving you back.Â
You heart cannot take another hit. Itâs constantly breaking as you think about the torture and pain James is probably suffering in the pits of hell. There is just no more room for another person, another worry, or anything else, really.Â
You will just die an old and groggy lady, likely still cleaning this very counter until you cant anymore. The whole town is going to know you as the weird woman with seventy two cats.
You shake at the thought of it, disposing of your towel and grabbings some plates from the counter to clean up some more.
âNew customer is yours, freaking weirdo has been standing outside the window and looking inside like some kind of stalker,â Scott mumbles as he paces by you with his head buried in his phone screen.Â
You just sigh and throw a used napkin into the trash before loading the dirty plates onto a kitchen tray.Â
âIâd like a sandwich, please.â A voice sounds from behind you and your entire body goes rigid.
It canât be. It cant. For days you have been wishing for James to come back, now you are finally becoming crazy.Â
But your heart picks up its familiar sprint and your entire body tingles with hope. Still, you donât dare to turn around.Â
âAre you not going to look at me, dearest?â
Your hands tremble as you grip the edge of the counter. What if itâs real? What if itâs not? The uncertainty gnaws at you, each second stretching into an eternity. Youâve dreamed of this moment, but dreams are fickle things, easily shattered by the harsh light of reality.
âJames...â The name slips out in a whisper, a plea, a hope. Tears sting your eyes, and you squeeze them shut, bracing yourself for the worst.
You take a deep breath and finally turn around. Truly, there he stands in front of you, with a bright and gleaming grin on his lips. There is one thing you notice immediately: the silver cuffs on his arms are gone. And he looks oddly free without them.
Almost trance-like, you round the counter, your had reaches out to him, touching his jaw, gliding down the length of his neck until your fingertips disappear into the soft curls in the back of it.Â
âIs it really you?â You whisper in awe as you start to drown in the familiar blue of his eyes. And when James covers your hand with his, squeezing his reassuring sequence to your bones, you know. Itâs real.Â
âIn the ...flesh.â he frowns but then smiles widely.Â
âWhat happened when you were gone?â Your curiosity gets the better of you, but James just shakes his head and then turns his face to kiss the inside of your wrist.Â
âNot here, love. Take me home... if youâll have me. Take me back. I promise no more secrets from now on.â
You just nod vigorously, finally pulling James into your embrace. The worry raging inside you fades into insignificance, eclipsed by the certainty that in this moment, youâve regained something intently more powerful - a bond that defies explanation, but feels undeniably perfect.Â
âI will always choose you over anything else, James.â You nuzzle into his chest as you ravel in the warmth of his body and the security of his touch. His heart is singing the same song as yours and his head hangs low atop yours, pressing meaningful kisses to your hairline between every stroke of his hand on your back.Â
The diner around you might as well not exist. All that matters is this connection between you - the bond that defies the boundaries of heaven and earth.Â
âBut tell me one thing,â you whisper into his shirt and James moves to better hear your low voice.Â
âI will tell you anything,â he presses into another kiss on your face, still holding you close.Â
âAre you... did the-â youâre not sure how to assemble the questions inside your mind without being bold. But James seems to know exactly what it is you want to say.Â
He takes both his hands from around you and guides your face to his until his warm lips press a meaningful kiss to yours. âYes,â he murmurs softly, yet steadily, conveying just enough seriousness to let you know how important and truthful his answer is. âI did what I promised. I am yours until the end of my life, and even beyond, my soul will be seeking yours for eternity. But until then, we will grow old together and finally be what we were meant to.â
His lips latch onto yours a second time and as the kiss deepens, a sense of completeness washes over you. In Jamesâs arms, you find the solace and passion you have been yearning for, a promise of love that transcends all else.Â
âI canât begin to tell you how much it means to me.â You smile back between kisses.
James pulls you even closer, his voice a gentle murmur against your lips. âWe have a lifetime to show each other.â
And in that moment, surrounded by the echoes of a bustling diner and the warmth of his embrace, you know that no matter the trials ahead, this love will endure, defying all boundaries and transcending every limit.Â
â â â
Because at last, thereâs noting more freeing than falling itself.
Lord, can we take a second and appreciate these images???!! Got me on my knees - and not for praying, I'll tell you this much...
Hello, loves. As always, thank you so much for taking the time to read my work. I hope you had fun! Maybe... juuuust maybe if you want to, you could leave a comment or reblog on this post. New fics will be on hiatus until August, I have some real life work to finish. But please feel free to interact and talk to me. I love hearing from you! Take care, and ill talk to you as soon as I can. ~Meg đ
summary: reuniting with one of your uncle's friends creates a new dynamic you were not expecting to have during the summer before your last semester of college.
warnings: this entire series is strictly 18+. minors dni. age gap romance (~15 years). those who dislike this topic dni. bucky gets handsy and there's some tension, but nothing explicit in this part.
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The air feels different in your hometown. Fresher. Warmer. Heavy with humidity. And memories.Â
Spending one last summer at home before going back to finish your final year of college, you couldnât be more excited to meet up with some of your childhood best friends, back in the place where it all started.Â
Back to that same block, full of friendsâ houses that you could swear you were at more than your own. Back to the dozens of backyards of said houses that you would spend hours on end climbing trees and hanging upside down from their branches. Back to the smell of fresh cut grass and sunscreen, millions of pesky mosquito bites, and an endless supply of popsicles. Back to precious childhood memories that mark every street corner.Â
Today, youâre helping Marilyn, a grandmotherly figure of the neighbourhood, with some garden work. Just a block down from your Aunt and Uncleâs house, where you grew up, she always welcomed you and all the other neighbourhood kids over. Now that youâre grown, it means a lot to her that youâve come back to visit. Itâs always fun for you to catch up with her from time to time, all the while knowing that youâre helping her, and not some overpriced lawn service company.Â
Laser focused on the marigolds youâre planting while telling her all about your previous semester at school, youâre both startled by the sound of a deep yet friendly voice call from behind you.
âGood morning, Miss Marilyn!â you vaguely hear the voice greet, but youâre too focused on setting the flower bud just right that you let Marilyn stand up to reply while you remain working.
âOh, good morning, Honey!â she replies sweetly.Â
âThose storms hit us pretty hard last week! I see you got a branch down over here. Want me to take care of that for you?â the voice inquires, and you donât think to look over at the source of the voice first, but instead to the good-sized tree branch across Marilynâs yard that looks like itâs about to crush the fence.
âOh, that would be awesome, James!â Marilyn exclaims happily.
James, you think to yourself, and the name rings a bell. James Barnes? Or, Juicy James, as Marilyn tells you, some of the bolder elderly ladies have deemed him.
James âBuckyâ Barnes? Of course, you hadnât seen him since you were about ten years old. When you wore the same overalls and torn up sneakers every day, and when you were convinced boys had cooties.Â
You turn around in anticipation to meet the so-called heartthrob amongst the elderly ladies - and plenty others - of the neighbourhood. And god, you arenât let down.
Your eyes meet a tall, brawny man, shoulders looking as solid as rocks beneath his flannel shirt, open and displaying not only his white tank top underneath, but also the sheer muscular mass of his chest, glistening with sweat under the early June sun.Â
His skin is fair, but his cheeks are rosy from being outside. His dark brown curls have a subtle shimmer of gold under the midday sun as he runs his fingers through the strands, and his electric blue eyes seem to stare right into your soul. His face dons a full, thick beard that, paired with the flannel, makes him look like the hottest mountain man you've ever seen.Â
Embarrassingly eager to meet this stranger, you stand up from your spot in the grass and slowly tread over. The name is certainly familiar, like something youâd grown up hearing but never really took note of. But thereâs something about his smile that finally causes the synapses in your brain to fire with the vague memories of a younger, James Barnes.Â
âYouâre Juicyâ uh, James?â you blurt out, then clear your throat to try to hide your shock.
Youâre stunned that the scrawny, young adult James Barnes that was always at your Aunt and Uncle's barbecues, holiday parties, and birthdays - and never paid you any attention - ingrained in your childhood brain turned out to be such a hunk.
âI donât normally introduce myself in that manner, but apparently some seem to think so,â he jokes as a charming smile plays across his perfectly pink, plush lips, and itâs perfectly clear heâs well aware of the nickname.
âSorry,â you chuckle nervously. âIâm (Y/n). Tony and Pepper's niece,â you reintroduce yourself, in case he doesnât remember you.Â
 âI remember you,â he nods in confirmation, as a smile drags across his face. âOh my god! Youâre⊠well youâre all grown up!â he exclaims, the joyous sound of his laughter blessing your ears as he leans back a tad and throws his arms out to his sides, palms open and splayed to the sky, exposing his biceps to you.Â
âSheâs back from school for the summer before she goes back to finish her final year!â Marilyn proudly boasts.Â
âGood for you, kid. Iâm honestly surprised you even remember me. Iâm pretty sure the only time youâd see me was upside down when you were hanging from that tree over there, or whirring past me on your bike down the hill by my house.â
âWell, I barely remember that,â you admit with a shy chuckle. âBut you and Uncle Tony were friends, right?â
âStill are,â he nods with a grin. âLove that guy to death.â
His smile is super contagious. You canât help but smile back at those pearly whites. A laugh escapes your throat as you look him up and down. If you were being completely honest, you wouldnât have recognized him if you were given a million dollars to. Heâs nothing like you remember; his face is fuller, his physical form is bigger - much more muscular. He has a deeper and more mature voice, and is definitely just more handsome all around.Â
âOh, I am so glad you two remember each other,â Marilyn speaks up, causing you to be aware of her presence again.Â
âLet me grab some stuff and Iâll be right back to take care of that branch,â James announces.Â
Itâs not long before heâs halfway up a step ladder thatâs just tall enough so the branch is in his reach, and you and Marilyn are back in the garden.Â
James is already making headway at the branch with the hand-held electric saw in his firm grasp. You try not to stare too much, but you only have so much self control. The way he rolls up the sleeves of his flannel, only to then take the whole thing off and drape it over the ladder, revealing his rippling arm and back muscles, the perfect curve of his butt when he leans over, his little huffs of exertion, it all has you speechless.
At some point during his work, heâs gotten the branch down on the ground safely. He comes off the ladder and over to where you and Marilyn are situated in the garden.
âMarilyn, how big do you want the pieces?âÂ
âOh, about a foot would be perfect, honey. Just so it fits in our fireplace.âÂ
âGot any tape on you?â he then follows up.
âShould be in the garage. (Y/n), would you take James to get a measuring tape?â
You nod, standing up from your spot, and heading for the garage with James following. But youâre quickly caught off guard by a huge dog running past you and into the garage before you and James, practically leaving a cloud of white fur in her wake.
âKlondike!â James shouts, followed by a sharp whistle.
âSheâs yours?â you ask with a smile.
âNo, my roommate, Samâs. Heâs travelling for work, in and out of here during the summer and I agreed to watch her. Sheâs super friendly, though, donât worry,â he says, placing a hand on your back before kneeling down to get on the dogâs level.Â
And at the subtle touch, you swear you can feel a little shock of electricity zip through you as his palm presses flat on your back, However, so as to not give yourself away, you shake it off as your attention is brought back to the adorable white dog in sight.
âKlondike! Câmere girl!â James calls and whistles again, and Klondike comes barrelling into James, licking his face with her long, white tail wagging ferociously.Â
âGood girl,â James laughs uncontrollably as the dog continues showing her love. After a few more moments, heâs able to get the dog to ease up. âSay hi to (Y/n), girl.â
âHey Klondike,â you gush, kneeling down as James was, and Klondike responds happily by jumping up on you, paws on your knees as she bestows plenty of kisses to you, too.
âAlright, alright, Klondike, enough,â James chuckles as you struggle to breathe because youâre laughing too hard. James gently pulls the dog back by the collar, allowing you to finally catch your breath.Â
James stands up and brushes off the dirt that had collected on his knees from crouching down, then offers out a hand to help you stand up, too.
âMeasuring tape,â he restates with another laugh, getting the both of you back on focus as he pulls you to stand.Â
And yet again, you feel the jolt of electricity from just the simple touch of his giant hand wrapping around yours.Â
Despite growing up down the street from him, you can barely recognize the man he grew into, and yet something about him is so captivating, so intriguing, and you canât understand it.
After you retrieve the tape from the workbench for him, heâs headed back to cut up the branch into smaller logs. Klondike follows him happily, running in circles around James and the pile of wood.Â
âGood girl, Klondike. Now go lie down,â you hear the man say gently, yet commanding, and the dog obeys.Â
Klondike makes her way over to the grass of the front yard close by where you and Marilyn are now watering her freshly planted flowers, plopping down in the shade with a huff, and panting with her long, pink tongue hanging out of the side of her mouth.Â
It takes James hardly five more minutes before he calls out, letting you both know that the job is complete. You turn to see him coming down the ladder, when Klondike leaps up from her spot and books it over to James. Itâs obvious she just wants to play, but her excitement of weaving between the legs of the ladder causes it to topple over, and with James still on it.Â
You watch as the scene plays out in slow motion; the man falls from the ladder with an amused yell and the snowy white, wild animal immediately jumps on top of him, tail up in the air waving back and forth with great intensity and tongue swiping across his face leaving drool on his cheeks.Â
âOh my god,â you and Marilyn both let out a gasp upon seeing him hit the ground.Â
You quickly run over to see if heâs hurt. However, thatâs far from the case: heâs just about laughing his ass off.
âAre you okay?â you say, breaking into a smile of your own as you kneel down beside him and the sound of his laughter fills your ears.
âYeah, yeah,â he struggles to respond, both Klondikeâs kisses and his own laughter making it hard for him to breathe. âI wasnât that far up,â he assures you.
He finally gets Klondike to pause so he can prop himself up on his forearms and get reoriented.Â
âDid you hit your head?âÂ
âNah, Iâm alright,â he insists, beginning to sit up all the way before he inhales sharply, obviously in pain. âOr, maybe not.â
He wraps his hand around him to the side he fell on, feeling around the area delicately, then taking in a sharp breath when he touches a certain spot. âOh, shit,â he hisses, pulling his hand away to reveal blood on his fingers.
âOh, shit,â you echo, seeing the red stain on his fingers. âShould I get someone? 911?â you ask him.
âYou definitely do not have to call 911,â he chuckles. âIâll be fine once I clean this up.â
âAre you sure?â you ask, turning your head to get a better look at the scrape; the blood already soaking his white tank top.
âIâm positive, (Y/n),â he says with a smile, amused at your persistence.Â
âAt least let me help you, then. Thereâs no way youâll be able to reach around and clean back here,â you bargain, knowing he canât deny your statement.Â
âAlright,â he finally nods in confirmation.
You help him to his feet, grabbing him by the underside of his right bicep and a hand on his back, and you have to stop yourself from feeling up his arm when you feel the rock hardness of those muscles. He steadies himself, you call for Marilyn, and make your way into the house.Â
Marilyn grabs his flannel shirt from the ladder and helps the two of you inside. She sets his flannel on the bathroom counter and then provides you with some first-aid supplies. Then, James sits down on the side of the bath, feet in the tub and facing the wall as you check out his scrapes.Â
You gently lift his tank top up off his back, trying your best not to pull too quickly on the material that stuck to his skin.
âGood thing I had a mandatory first aid training course for work,â you point out, talking more to yourself than to James as you get a better look at the wound. âI never really thought I would use it, though. I mean, I was kinda hoping Iâd never have to use it.â
âWell just let me know if youâre feeling grossed out at all,â he offers. âCanât have you fainting on me.â
Considering the sight of a god before my eyes, it wouldnât be the sight of the wound that would make me faint, you think.Â
âItâs not that bad, actually,â you reply instead with a small shrug.
âNo? Then why the hell does it sting so bad?â he chuckles, taking in a sharp inhale when you press a warm cloth to the largest scrape.Â
âSorry,â you murmur with a wince as you start cleaning.
Silence fills the 90s-styled ocean-themed bathroom, save for the quiet hum of the automatic fan coming from above your head, as you work gently to clean and bandage his wound.
However, you spot a cut further up his back that you canât quite get to from just the bottom of his shirt being pulled up.Â
âI donât think I can get to this last one. Can you take your shirt off?â you ask awkwardly, hoping it doesnât come across as thirsty as it sounds.
âOh, sure thing,â he lets out a huff of a laugh before cautiously pulling the material off his back and sliding his arms out of the sleeves.Â
And holy shit you donât think youâve ever seen anyone so beautiful. Itâs very clear he works out, but he also has a layer of softness to him that makes you wonder how it would feel if you cuddled up right next to him, right after he was done tossing you around the bedrooâ
âSo how old are you now, anyways? Nineteen, twenty?â He asks, looking over his shoulder in an attempt to make eye contact with you.Â
âTwenty three,â you answer, and you donât know if you should be offended or complimented that he assumed you were younger than you actually are. You continue cleaning him up, trying to shake the thoughts beginning to swarm your brain.
âAlready? Damn, that makes me feel so old,â he says with a huff and a small shake of his head.Â
âI bet youâre not that old. I mean, you were only a few years older than me, right?â
âNot exactly, Kiddo. I turned thirty nine in the spring,â he reveals, his eyebrows jumping up with a laughable expression plastered across his perfect features, and you feel your heart drop in your chest.Â
No fucking way was this man pushing forty and still looked this good. No fucking way were you insanely attracted to someone just over fifteen years older than you, someone who would have been learning to drive while you were still in diapers and legal to drink when you were learning your ABCs. And no fucking way did he just call you kiddo!
James takes notice of your lack of a response, so he gently spins around, his long legs thrown over the side of the bathtub, to face you.
âYâalright? Youâre not getting nauseous on me, hm?â he asks, and you can tell thereâs a hint of genuine concern buried in his little tease. âShould I try? You need a break?â
âIâm fine. Just thinking,â you murmur an excuse.Â
â âBout what?â he follows up, voice low and eyes looking up at you, staring so intently, you could swear he could see right through you.Â
âJust⊠just how fast time goes,â you lie through a small smile.
There is another moment of silence; itâs not awkward, per say, but thereâs a tangible tension. And yet somehow, you feel simultaneously worked up, and calm being in his presence. He smiles at you, which sends butterflies to your stomach, and you can just swear thereâs some kind of connection.
He stands up and looks at himself and the bandaged scrapes in the mirror, telling you thanks and that you did a great job. Then, much to your disappointment, he slips his flannel back on.Â
âAlright, Doctor,â he jokes, leaning against the bathroom counter, âWhatâre my post-visit instructions?â
You chuckle at his playfulness, and answer in the same manner.
âKeep them clean and change the bandages regularly until it closes up. Do you have anyone else around the house? Donât you have a sister? She might need to help you out if you canât reach back there.â
âShe visits for the summers, but sheâs on vacation with her girlfriends,â James laughs.Â
âAnd your roommateâs gone, too. Gosh, youâre just left out, then?â you state playfully.
âSomeone had to stay here and help cut up wood,â he teases back, sending you a playful wink that makes your heart flutter, then turn on your heels as you head for the door.
âWhat about a significant other? You have a wife⊠or kids?â you suspiciously ask, heading out of the bathroom and flipping the light switch off.
âUh, no. Though, I probably could work on that, considering how old I am,â he chuckles as he follows you out and the two of you make your way back outside.
âYouâre not old,â you roll your eyes.Â
âOlder than you,â comes his rebuttal.Â
âDonât remind me,â you mumble under your breath, barely louder than a whisper, but loud enough that Jamesâ attention is caught.
âSorry?â he asks, politely wondering if he missed something.
âNothing!âÂ
You are met back outside with Marilyn, who is more than pleased to see James still in good spirits despite the little accident. She asks him a series of questions, clearly just as concerned as you had been, if not more. James promises her that heâs fine, and reassures her that you had taken great care in tending to his cuts, not without sending you a playful smile and a wink that you can only try your best to ignore.
The rest of the day is laid back, at best. James sticks around for a little longer to help put the wood into boxes and into Marilynâs shed for storage. After that, Marilyn offers for the three of you to relax on her back patio with some iced tea and snacks.Â
Time flies by, and before you know it, the midday sun sinks lower into the sky, finally prompting you to check the time. You had plans with some friends, otherwise you could have, and would have, without a doubt, stayed with Marilyn and James for many more hours.Â
Marilyn was in and out of the house, but you and James had started talking and never really stopped. It was a continuous conversation, catching up and telling stories and reminiscing. And with every smile, every laugh, and every word he spoke to you, you felt yourself drawn even more to him. Soon, you find yourself attracted to this total stranger, although you once knew another version of him at one time.
âWell, I should be heading out, Marilyn,â you announce with a disappointed sigh, standing up from your chair.
âAlright, Dear! Thank you so much for your help today! When will I get to see you again?â she asks, also standing up. You notice James also getting onto his feet as if to bid you goodbye, too.
âOh many more times to come, and very soon, Iâm sure of it,â you promise, leaning in to give her a hug. Your eyes find James, standing behind Marilyn, hands in the pockets of his khaki shorts as he smiles at you. You smile back at him before pulling away from Marilynâs hug.Â
âGood to see you again, kid,â James says warmly, and opens his arms up, inviting you into them. You gladly accept, and the second youâre in his embrace, you decide, in that moment, that thereâs certainly no better feeling in the entire world that you could ever experience.
Itâs barely a second long, and youâre cautious not to squeeze too tight - so as to not hurt his back and to conceal your newfound feelings for him - but itâs enough.Â
This is it. This is the brief, fleeting feeling youâd soon start to miss on your walk home. The feeling youâd want to experience in the last moments of your life. The feeling youâd long for through the days and nights where you didnât see him. The feeling you think you could be trapped in forever and be perfectly content.
âSee you guys!â you bid goodbye before starting your trek back home.Â
And surprise surprise, the only thought on your mind is James fucking Barnes. Distant memories of James Barnes from your childhood. James Barnes, total fucking heartthrob with eyes of steel blue and perfect fucking teeth and a golden glowing complexion. James Barnes hanging out and having beers with your uncle and your friendsâ uncles and fathers. Try as you might, you couldnât think of anything but James Barnes.
You like being around him. You like the way he makes you feel, other than when heâs calling you Kid. You can have conversations with him and you donât feel like heâs talking down to you or insulting you like other older adults would.Â
He seems to like you.Â
You definitely like him.Â
Maybe a little too much.Â
Alright, definitely a little too much. Especially considering heâs good friends with your uncle.
But does that deter you from already planning to spend more time with him? Absolutely not.Â
About a week passes since youâve first seen Bucky again, and though youâve been meeting up with old friends and helping out Marilyn, you cannot seem to get him off your mind. Heâs over at Marilynâs just as frequently as you are, and you start to realize just how much he does for her and all the other elderly people on the block. It only makes you want him more.Â
By a weekâs time, you found that youâd already become more familiar with Bucky; through long conversations while both of you helped out Marilyn, youâd exchanged some pretty fun banter that only led you deeper into the hole of attraction to him. Though, youâd think there would have to be something wrong with anyone who didnât find him attractive.
When you stop by today, heâs washing Marilynâs car. Shirtless, misted, and glowing, simply ethereal under the hot, end-of-June sun. In all his impossibly flawless beauty. Despite spending copious amounts of time with him throughout the week, this was the first time his bare back has been visible to you since his little ladder mishap, and you can see itâs healing quite well. Not to mention the ripples of his back and shoulder muscles that flex with every motion, every reach and swipe of washing the car.Â
He looks too good.Â
âYour back looks a lot better,â you speak up, making yourself known to him as you walk into the driveway, stopping a few feet away from him as he sprays soap suds off the hood of the silver Subaru with his back towards you.
â(Y/n), hey!â he greets, quickly spinning around at the sound of your voice, revealing his toned, yet soft tummy and broad chest and shoulders. âDidnât know you were still hanging around,â he sighs, draping a towel over his shoulder, crossing his arms and leaning up against the car, like an image straight from a vintage film.Â
âGot nowhere better to be,â you reply as you start walking down the sidewalk.Â
âI find that hard to believe,â he teases, pulling the towel off his shoulder and beginning to dry off the car, âCollege kid like youâs probably got bunches of places to be.â
You simply shake your head and give him a smile as you pace towards the front door.Â
âWill I see you later?â he calls, and you spin around to give him a playful shrug while walking backwards before turning back around and giggling to yourself.Â
If he was just fifteen years younger, or if you were just fifteen years older... either way, heâd be more attainable⊠more acceptable to be lusting over...
Today, you stop by to help Marilyn with moving some unorganized stuff to and from her basement. There are boxes of holiday decorations and old photo albums that need sorted through. Some of the boxes are seriously so heavy, you wonder how a delicate little lady such as herself even managed to bring them all down there in the first place.Â
As you set down another box, you hear someone else coming down the creaky stairs to the basement.Â
âHey Marilyn, anything else I can help with or should I head out?â Buckyâs voice fills your ears, but you try to remain focused on the box youâre sorting through.Â
âActually, if you wouldnât mind, there are some boxes hereâŠâ you hear Marilyn and Bucky fade to the background as you pull out an old photo album with a year written in marker on the front thatâs too smudged to make out.Â
You open it up eagerly, flipping to a random page with black and white photos of what you can only assume are Marilynâs family. You smile, then set the book aside and dive back into the box, grabbing another album.Â
Again, your finger slides to a random page and you open the book only to find a photo of two guys that looks vaguely comparable to someone from a memory. Itâs your father standing with another young man. The young manâs smile is so familiar; his eyes radiate a light youâve seen before.Â
Could this be James?
You turn page after page to get some kind of confirmation, but it was so long ago that you cannot for the life of you remember what he looked like. Besides, the image of the grown up Bucky is here in your mind now, in the present, and you donât want to miss out on that.
âFind anything good?â Buckyâs voice calls, making himself known to you.Â
âJames, is this you?â you suddenly say, still kneeling down on the basement floor.Â
âWhat, Honey?â is his response.Â
And if you werenât so determined to confirm that this beanpole of a boy was Bucky, youâre certain your knees would have given out on you as you tried to stand up at the sound of the nickname, âHoneyâ. That had a totally different, way better, ring to it than âkiddoâ.
âThis photo. Itâs you next to Uncle Tony, isnât it?â you show him the page in the book.
âWell arenât you a nosy little thing?â he taunts.Â
âNot nosy,â you defend. âJust curious. And wondering if this was the James I grew up with?â
âThatâll be him, yeah,â Bucky tears his eyes from the book and to you, instead, shooting you a small smile. âAnd quit calling me James, wouldâja?â he jokes as he nudges your side with his elbow. âYouâve been hanging around the old ladies too much. Buckyâs just fine.â
âAlright. Bucky,â you chuckle silently, then return your attention to the book.Â
âJeez, what a terrible photo. Of all the pictures in this book, you had to see this one?â he complains, clearly embarrassed, as his cheeks flush a light shade of pink.Â
âThis is the version of you I saw in person anyways,â you reason.
âYou remember this guy? Oh man, how unfortunate for you,â he scoffs.
âHey, I donât remember a ton, but I do remember quite liking this guy. I always thought he was kinda cool.â
âYeah? Well, it must have been for reasons other than the clothes that he picked out. God, what was I wearing?â he asks to himself, pulling the book up closer to his face to get a better look.Â
âOh James,â Marilynâs voice echoes through the basement, and you and Bucky both turn around to see her walking cautiously down the stairs. âYou were adorable! Both you and your sister were!â
âMarilyn, this is past the point of adorable. This is awkward, skinny, young adult Bucky who doesnât have his life together yet,â Bucky explains, which earns a laugh from both you and the older woman.
âI still think you kids were the cutest things ever. And (Y/n), too, of course,â she smiles.Â
âYeah, are there any photos of her in these things?â Bucky wonders, wandering over to the box you were previously stationed at.Â
âIâm sure there are,â Marilyn answers, âAll the neighbourhood kids would come over and weâd have cookies and lemonade. I just loved looking after you all. I got every holiday card and school photo⊠They mean so much to me!â
âThen youâre definitely in here, (Y/n),â Bucky laughs, crouching down to the boxes.
âOh god, no!â you almost squeal. Youâve always been terribly embarrassed by some of your baby photos, and the fact that you now know there are multiple sources to obtain them makes you extremely nervous.
âSheâs twenty-three⊠Too old, too old, too old,â you hear Bucky murmur while sifting through the binders to find a year that you may appear in, then finally pulling one out. âThis one should have her in it, right?âÂ
He pulls out an album and immediately starts flipping through the pages in search of finding a little you.
âOh my god!â you hear him cackle, almost doubling over in laughter.
âOh my god,â you whine, hesitantly making your way over to where Bucky and Marilyn stand peering at the photos. You tentatively look over Buckyâs arm at the photo that has captured both his and Marilynâs gazes and immediately let out a groan of embarrassment.
âLook at how cute little (Y/n) was!â Bucky exclaims, nudging you with his elbow.Â
âShe was such a sweetheart,â Marilyn adds, and you feel your cheeks heat up as you begin to shy away, âAlways a joy to have over.â
âHereâs another one,â Bucky says before turning the page to reveal a photo of you in overalls and worn out sneakers, with messy hair and dirt on your face, and holding a watering can as you tend to the plants in Marilynâs garden.Â
âI remember that day! Always helping me with my garden, even now.,â Marilyn says, and you can almost see her going back in time to all those years ago. âYou two hungry?â she then asks. âIâll head upstairs to make some lunch.â
âThank you Marilyn,â you and Bucky both say, one after the other, and Marilyn returns the thanks, saying lunch is the least she can do to repay you and James for all the work youâve helped her with.Â
âWhat about this one?â Bucky inquires, pointing to the photo on the other side of the page - a baby picture of you, with a note from your aunt specifically to Marilyn, stark naked in the kitchen sink.Â
âAlright! I think we should put these away!â you say, exasperated. You pull the book out of his hands and quickly close it.Â
âHey! I wasnât done with that!â Bucky calls, barely able to breathe from how hard heâs laughing as you walk away.Â
âYes, you are,â you breathe, sliding the book back in the box.
âOh, come on, Honey!â he teases, following you, âThose are hilarious! Thereâs gotta be some more good ones!â
He bends over to reach for the stack of books in boxes but you step in front of him defensively.Â
âOh, really? You wanna play that game?â he says, resting two large hands, one on each hip, his voice low and gravelly, and it sends chills down your spine and a certain heat to your stomach.Â
You simply shake your head as you feel your fingers go numb and you canât help but smile timidly at him, almost as a way to beg.Â
âNo more photos, please? Memory lane has come to an end,â you plead.Â
âCâmon, (Y/n),â he laughs, clearly taunting you before heâs taking a step closer to you and attempting to reach for the albums again.Â
You grab his arm to stop him, but his other arm counters, gripping you by the waist and tickling you. Normally, you absolutely despise being tickled, but something about it being by Bucky makes it just a tad more tolerable.Â
âBucky!â you shriek, giggling profusely as he continues ruthlessly tickling you, the photo albums now seemingly long forgotten.
âThis was all you,â he drawls, pulling you closer to him as you double over in laughter.
âI didnât--â you attempt to speak but all that comes out of your mouth is more giggles.Â
âShouldnât have started something you didnât plan on finishing, Honey,â he taunts.
Youâre now curled up into his chest, kneeling down on the ground as his fingers feather over the most ticklish spots along your sides as laughter, both your own and the low rumbles from Bucky, fills the space between the basement walls.
A few more moments of laughing so hard you feel as if you could cry pass before you finally find the strength to stand up. However, Buckyâs body stays glued right against yours. Your chest is pressed to his as his strong, yet soft hands have a powerful grip on your waist. Your hands are placed on his upper chest, palms accidentally pressed flat against the toned muscles there.Â
The temptation to lean up and kiss him furiously is only kept at bay when Bucky speaks up again.Â
âWe finished here?â he asks with a cocky tilt of his head, letting go of your waist and stepping back a few feet from you to grab a box from the ground.
With an annoyed huff, you stand in place, rolling your eyes at his behavior. And although youâre putting on the front that heâs bothered you,, youâd be lying if you said the whole situation that just played out hasnât left you all hot and bothered.Â
Being touched so unintentionally intimately by Bucky having his body snug right up against yours was something you had only dreamt about for the past week of seeing him again. But, you knew it had to come to an end; if that was even a start. You didnât know what it was or what it meant. For all you know, it could have just been innocent horseplay. Heâs just a playful guy. A grown man but still a silly boy at heart.
But the more you let yourself think about it, the more obvious itâs becoming to yourself that you do have feelings for Bucky. Mind-whirling, stomach-twisting, absolutely lustful feelings.Â
Youâre in way over your head.
âMarilyn wants these upstairs?â he asks, pulling you from the sea of your thoughts. You look up at him and realize heâs referring to the boxes, and now has two stacked in his arms as if theyâre as light as air.Â
You nod, folding one arm over your chest as the other elbow rests on it and your hand goes up to your mouth to cover your lips. You could have kissed him. You probably shouldnât have, and itâs a good thing that you didnât, but the opportunity was there. He was so damn close.Â
You wait until he returns back down the stairs, hoping youâd have collected yourself by the time he comes back down, but youâre still flustered and unable to speak without mumbles or stutters. Bucky makes his way back down the stairs and announces Marilynâs finished preparing lunch for the three of you. You nod and grab a box before following him back up the stairs.Â
âDid you find any more pictures? I heard some ruckus going on down there, so I figured you two must have been getting up to no good,â Marilyn says with a light chuckle.
âI found some more of (Y/n),â Bucky tells, and you shake your head, blushing as you bite your sandwich.
âYou did, did you? Any good ones?â
âYeah, before she stole the album away,â Bucky nudges you, his right hand brushing against your left one while doing so. âSheâs a feisty thing.â
Once sandwiches have been gobbled and your thirst has been quenched by Marilynâs signature iced tea, you leave Marilyn and Bucky at the table and make your way downstairs to the laundry room to finish cleaning up the boxes.Â
Try as you might, your mind is still whirring with thoughts about what had just happened between you and Bucky, and you canât seem to get the heat in the pit of your stomach to go away.
Youâre torn from your thoughts as you hear someone enter the room from behind you, so you busy yourself with shuffling around with some things on top of the washing machine. You turn around quickly to see Bucky leaning against the doorway, arms folded across his chest.Â
âYou wanna tell me what happened between us earlier?â comes his question, and his assertive stance has your knees week and heart racing.Â
âWhat are you talking about?â you shake your head, feigning confidence when, in reality, youâre nearly quaking.Â
Your heart begins to race at the thoughts reeling through your head. What does he mean? What is he going to do? Is he going to do anything at all?Â
âYou canât be goofing around like that, Kiddo. People might get the wrong idea.â
And as much as you hate that nickname, and the fact that he's literally gaslighting you into thinking you started the tickling, the growl in his voice makes you think that you could maybe let it fly. But itâs only then that you realize how close he has gotten to you.Â
Heâs making his way closer and closer to you until youâre backed up all the way to the other side of the room, your rear side hitting the washing machine.
Itâs not a threatening action at all. Youâre not scared; youâre actually seriously turned on. Bucky takes one final step towards you and his front is, for the second time this day, pressed up against yours, and you can feel the sturdiness of his body as he breathes lightly, but you feel as if you canât breathe.Â
You think heâs finally seizing the moment and your mind is swirling wildly with inappropriate thoughts. You forget that youâre in an old womanâs basement, assigned with the task of cleaning out old boxes, but you canât stop thinking about the situation of Bucky taking you right then and there on the washing machine.Â
Though much to your substantial disappointment, he reaches just above your head to grab a basket off of the shelf.
âMarilyn wanted these,â he says lowly, and you look down into the basket heâs holding: dust rags and furniture polish.
He backs away a step from you, a cocky smirk on his lips, before turning on his heels and heading back upstairs. You watch his ass as he walks out, which is hugged perfectly by the pair of shorts heâs sporting.
âCanât believe you, Barnes,â you mutter under your breath, positive he canât hear you.Â
âWhat was that, Darlinâ?â he says, proving you wrong. He stops in his tracks and turns around to face you with a hand on his hip, just radiating cockiness.
All you can do is scoff and shake your head as he begins to walk out again.Â
âThatâs what I thought,â he smirks.Â
He already knows he has you wrapped around his finger.Â
Looks like youâll be in for a long summer.Â
a/n: thank you so much for reading, and don't forget to like, comment, and reblog if you liked this! more parts should be out very soon, since this is an old fic that i am just working on rewriting. i cannot begin to express how much i debated rewriting this story, but i am so glad to get the first part is out! i don't anticipate this to get as much attention as the original, but it is a story that i originally put so much hard work and attention into that it just felt like a waste to delete it forever. i guess this is my slow return to writing, at least for the time being. thank you again for reading! âĄ
Summary: After accidentally revealing that you have a masked man kink, Bucky starts taking it to the next level. The reveal!
Warnings: Smut- MDNI please!, unprotected sexual intercourse (p in v), don't forget no glove no love, edging, asphyxiation, fingering, mild dirty talk, language, praise kink, masked man kink, stalking, harassment, implied harm, breaking in.
Word Count: 5.4
A/Ns: Hi babes! Sorry this took an extra day than intended. Tumblr is being super finicky tonight, Iâve edited and re-edited this so many times. If thereâs mistakes just ignore. I hope you like the conclusion!
In case you missed it, Part 1
You didnât sleep much the next couple of nights, and decided to take some time off of work. Bucky finally reached out, and you updated him as to what was going on. He immediately offered to come home, which you refused and started to downplay the situation.
Hailee has been great with letting you borrow some clothes and little things, since you only grabbed a small bag in a rush before heading to her place to stay a few days ago. Youâve been dreading going back to the apartment, scared to find someone in there waiting for you. But itâs at the point where you need to grab some of your stuff.
Walking into the apartment, it was eerily quiet and uncomfortable. But nothing looked out of place, and was exactly how you left it. Deciding not to spend any longer there than you had to, you promptly tossed a large duffle bag onto your bed and started stuffing it with clothes and any other necessities.
Zipping the duffle closed, you felt a light gust of cool air. Scanning your bedroom window assuming it was the source, you realize itâs open. You never open this window. In fact, itâs always locked. All of the hair on the top layer of your skin stands up to the extent it almost feels like tiny pinpricks. Flight mode is instantly activated; before you can even think, you grab the bag and run, practically tripping over your own feet out of the room.
Grappling with the door knob, the pure panic starts to set in. Just as youâre twisting the knob open, you hear a distant bang coming from another room in the apartment. You freeze at the realization:
Iâm not alone.
You know when youâre watching a scary movie and yell at the tv, wondering why the one of the characters was so fucking stupid to do something?
Well, you did exactly that. What possessed you in that moment, you havenât the faintest idea. But, with your heartbeat pounding in your ears so loudly that you thought your eardrums might rupture, you started to turn around to look.
What primitively catches your attention isnât what you expected, but quickly makes your chest tighten. The fruit bowl on the kitchen counter that is normally overflowing with lucious, red delicious apples, now just has all apple cores.
The flashback of one being on left on the countertop after Bucky had left blazes in your mind. It suddenly makes sense. Bucky would never leave a mess and it wasn't long after that you saw someone outside your window.
Attempting to swallow the growing dryness in your throat, you continue to turn around. And that's when you see him for the first time. About fifteen feet away, stood an obviously immensely tall man. He wore thick, black shiny leather boots that gleamed lightly in the natural daylight within the apartment. Fitted black jeans with a loose, black hooded sweatshirt that failed to hide how muscular and broad his chest and shoulders were with the hood pulled up.
But two things stuck out the most about his appearance. First, was the tight, black leather gloves he wore on his hands that were currently clenched into rigid fists. The second, was the fact that you couldn't make out his face. All you could see was an elongated paleness, caverned by the blackness of the hood, and it seemed... sinister. He didn't move or make a sound. It was as if you would blink and he would be gone, like a cloud of smoke.
But if anyone was going to disappear, it was going to be you. So taking a chance, you ran. And you didn't stop running. Even with the faint vibration in your pocket alerting you to the new text notification on your phone, you kept going.
It wasn't until you got back to Hailee's place and frantically, out of breath explained to her, that you even remembered about the text message.
"Here," You toss the phone in pure detestation onto her bed, "I don't even want to fucking know what it says." You lean against the opposite wall of her bedroom, crossing your arms across your chest in an attempt to control the body shakes as you come down from the adrenaline.
Hailee watches you for a brief moment, still not having said much aside from asking if you were okay. Her expression was soft and sympathetic and yet had an dissenting undertone. You couldn't blame her, this all sounded absolutely insane.
Letting out a small, exasperated breath, Hailee sits on her knees from her previous crossed legged position and grabs your cell. As the screen comes to life, her teeth clench down reading whatever is on the screen.
âWhat?â The concern is evident in your voice as you pry away from the wall, though still holding onto yourself.
Hailee inhales deeply through her nostrils, faking a tightlipped smile, âitâs nothing,â her tone is flat. Sheâs lying. Clicking the sleep button on the side of the phone to make the screen go black, she makes her way off the bed, âhey, how about we head down to the cellphone store and get you a new phone and number?â She asks, trying to sound like her usual carefree self as she grabbed her crossbody bag.
âHailee,â you uncross your arms and step in front of her, forcing her to make eye contact, âwhat is it?â
Searching your eyes, you can see that she is torn. She wants so badly to do the right thing, but isnât sure what exactly that is in this situation. On one hand, she could just keep it to herself. Let the unknown and curiosity eat you alive from the inside out like it inevitably will. But only because she wants to protect you, shield you from anything that brings you the opposite of joy. Or, she can show you what youâre actually dealing with, and the two of you can come up with a plan and handle it together. Hailee decides on the latter.
Hesitating, her hand shakes slightly as she holds out the phone to you. It appears that now both of you will take this predicament more critically now. Grabbing the phone a tad more aggressively then you meant to, you unlock it and open the messages. But it's not often Hailee gets rendered quiet. Scrolling through the back to back texts, you understand why.
Taking your best friends advice, you immediately went to the cell phone store. She tagged along as you got a completely new phone and number, not transferring anything over, not wanting to take the risk. You didn't download any social media, deciding to take a much needed mental break for a bit. The only thing you did do, was take a few phone numbers that you needed out of your old phone, and even then you wrote them down on a piece of paper to manually add them into your contacts later.
Walking out of the store, you felt as if a weight had been lifted. Hailee locked arms with you, leading you around the corner to the nearest cafe to get iced coffee. It was her answer for everything. Bad day? Iced coffee. Need a pick me up? Iced coffee. Need to clear your head and just ramble about random shit for a bit? Iced coffee. Your best friend has an apparent stalker and we're hoping that changing phone numbers is the end all solution?! Obviously, iced coffee.
Sitting at a small table outside the cafe, enjoying the slight crispness in the fall air, you let out a huge, relieving sigh that makes your shoulders sink. You take the opportunity to add Bucky to your contacts and text him your new number. Although, you decide not to go into detail about your most recent encounter while he's still away on a mission.
Putting the phone down on the table and not have it incessantly go off with calls and texts, let's you feel as though you can finally breathe. "Thank you for coming with me, Hales, I really appreciate you."
Hailee is sucking the remnants of her drink through the straw as she looks up at you. She gives you a small, genuine side smile, "you're welcome," before smirking, "so I'm supposed to have a date tonight, with that guy Noah I've been seeing..." she leaves it open ended. "But, I should totally cancel after everythi-"
"No, please. Go out and have fun. You've been dealing with my shit enough," trying to make your words sound affirming, even with the lingering dread that you still felt.
That's one thing about Hailee. You never quite really have to twist her arm to do anything.
After showering and changing into your comfy jeans and oversized cropped sweater, it was hard not to feel the slightest tinge of jealousy watching Hailee do her finishing touches for date night in the mirror. Jealousy in the sense of missing Bucky and going out and having a carefree night, not in comparing yourself physically.
She swipes yet another layer of clear lip gloss on before fluffing her beach wave blonde hair. Turning to face you, her thick heels clack on the wooden floor as she starts adjusting her boobs in her sleek, dusty rose colored dress.
"What do you think?" Her hands glide down over her curves, "Dress is okay?"
"That dress is fire," and it is, she looks amazing. By the smile she's wearing, she's feeling it too, "too bad it's going to end up on Noah's floor ten minutes into your date." Hailee dramatically gasps, as if that's not true. It totally is.
You're both laughing until she abruptly stops, "I have to go!" She gives you a quick hug and starts scurrying towards the door, a bit awkwardly in the heels, "Bye! Love you! Lock the door!" As she goes to close the door behind her she yells back in, "don't read too much smut on your kindle while I'm gone!" and the door slams.
Shaking your head with a small laugh, you lock the door. Hailee just gave you the perfect idea of how to spend your night.
About an hour had gone by, you comfortably laid in Hailee's spare bed, a few chapters deep into your latest book. It was quiet, so when your phone vibrated on the bed next to you- you jumped slightly. Assuming it was Bucky finally having the chance to text you back, you pick it up fairly quickly. But the message you received isn't what you expected at all.
Before even unlocking the phone, you had a text alert from Unknown. There was nothing written, but all the way to the right of the alert, you could see a picture was included.
Promptly, you sat up in the bed and stared at the notification. That familiar wave of unease dispersed throughout your body as if a bucket of ice water had been dumped over your head.
This phone number is only a few hours old, how the fuck did he get it already?
The notification banner and you were in a staredown. You had to know what the message was, but you were absolutely terrified at the same time. Your thumbs hover, occasionally twitching over the screen, until you pull the trigger and swipe up.
Us. Hailee...
Driving to your apartment, you broke nearly every single traffic law that there is. The entire time you tried calling Haileeâs phone back to back, just repeating the same mantra; please pick up. Please, please pick up. She never did.
âHailee!!â You run through your apartment door, not having to mess with it for long as it was already unlocked. You had a feeling it would be. âAnswer me!â You yell, breathlessly. The apartment is eerily dark and quiet.
Coming to a halt in the main living space, you whipped your head around looking for clues and try to listen for any signs of distress. But it was so difficult to hear anything over your own breathing and pulse drumming in your ears.
You knew where you had to go, the last picture of your friends dress laid out on your bedspread was the roadmap. The bedroom door was just barely closed over, a creepy orange glow lining it and trying to escape from underneath. Each step closer that you took, felt as if a large spider made entirely of ice was crawling down your spine.
Pushing the door open slightly with just a fingernail, you peered into the room. You knew this is exactly where this person wanted you. For what? Thereâs only one way to find out.
There didnât seem to be anyone in the room, so you took a few small steps in. The glow was more prominent now, giving the room an uncanny romantic ambiance with numerous amount of white candles lit all along the dressers, night tables, and bookshelves.
Taking a broad step forward, your attention is now focused on the bed. Hailee's dress is no longer laid out like it had been in the picture. Instead, there are flower petals sprinkled across your comforter. The intriguing curiosity drew you even more into the room without you even realizing. Picking up one of the petals, you rub it between your fingers, feeling it's supple and delicate smoothness as you examine it more closely. In that moment you recognize it- the familiarity of it's dark appeal. They're black dahlia petals.
Some of the petals congregated in one particular area on the bed, revealing an elegant, black gift box about the size of a large book. Your lips part slightly as you pick up the box, captivated by it's alluring magnetism. Taking off the lid, your brows furrow slightly in confusion. It's a chain. A long, thick slip chain that looks like a necklace but almost long enough to be a leash.
As your finger smoothes over the cold indentations of the chain, you hear a creak come from the floor behind you. In a startled jump, you drop the box- a slight ringing sound deafens the scene even more from the chain hitting the floor. But that's not your concern. Because as you turn around, you see him.
Within arms reach, you are confronted with the person that's been behind all of this. He's even taller up close, broader. Dressed in all black attire, this time swapping the black hoodie for a black t-shirt and black leather jacket. And without the hood, you're able to see the elongated white face from earlier.
It's a Ghostface mask.
He stands as still as a statue, watching you intently, waiting. Your eyes persist in looking him over as your chest rises and falls deeply. When your gaze meets his face once again, his head creepily tilts ever so slightly to one side.
"What's the matter?" He speaks, his voice deep and low, "you look like you've seen a ghost," the tone almost mocking.
Squinting your eyes, you look at him again. And this time you really look at him. His body frame, the clothes, the familiarity of his voice. Your eyes widen at the realization.
"Bucky?" you gape, completely stupefied. Taking the first fearless step in what feels like months, you wrap your arms around him. He returns the sentiment and you feel safe, for the first time in what feels like forever. It suddenly dawns on you that he's not actually on a mission. And probably never was.
"What- What is this?" You ask, looking up at him, slightly pushing the mask up to reveal his stubbled chin and promiscuous grin.
"Thereâs just something so dark and exhilarating about an unknown man behind a mask that stalks and is obsessed with you. The anonymity of it..." He repeats back the words you said to him a few months ago watching the Scream movie.
The memory of you how you told him about this kink of yours curls around your mind. That this entire time, you were never in any kind of serious danger, he just brought it to life. Weeks and months of preparation went into this, here, tonight. You should have known all along that Bucky would never have been so nonchalant about you in any type of significant situation. You're safe. You always were and always will be.
The tiny icy footprints that had trailed up your spine were long gone, now replaced with a burning and tantalizing desire. You've missed him, thinking he was away while you were dealing with this on your own. But now he's here, fulfilling your deepest desires.
Looking up, Bucky's Pacific blue eyes are already gazing down into yours, a built up and unsatisfied hunger prominent. Moving up onto your tiptoes and grabbing him behind the neck, you bring down his head and capture his lips.
Your mouth parted his, gliding and massaging his tongue with your own. A low growl reverberated from within his throat with approval, and promise to make everything up to you tenfold. Bucky's intoxicating cypress scent fills your nostrils as your inhaled deeply, pressing your breasts up into his chest. Taking off the leather gloves and shrugging his jacket onto the floor, his hands started to wildly wander around your body, giving light squeezes on your hips before settling and interlacing gingerly in your hair.
That didn't last long, though. There was a sudden and hard tug from where Bucky held your hair, enough to pull the two of you apart. The aggressiveness of the gesture was unexpected, but you'd be lying if you said you didn't fucking love it. His eyes linger on your already swollen lips, now wearing a pursed, provocative grin. His hand releases the tight grip he had on your loose curls, watching the relief from the sting flash across your eyes. Bucky has always been tender, gentle and using your body as a place of worship-but tonight is different.
Grabbing the hem of your sweater, he maneuvers it up and off to join his growing pile of discarded clothes. Dropping to his knees with a loud thud, he undoes the button and zipper of your jeans, pulling them down and weaving his tongue along the freshly exposed skin. Hissing through your teeth, your hips instinctively press forward. He lets out a dark laugh, before grabbing the chain you dropped before. Standing back up, he takes your hand, "Come," he says, leading you towards the cornered edge of the mattress.
Sitting down on the edge of the bed, his muscular body causes it to sink slightly. His free hand, still holding the chain, grips his own thigh before giving it a light pat, "Sit," he commanded, again keeping that firm edge in his voice that you weren't used to. You enthusiastically follow his orders, sitting delicately facing outward in just your matching ivory lace bra and panties. It's hard not to notice how you just fit. And how much you secretly love his significantly large frame pressed against your much more petite body in comparison to his.
The soft tip of his nose runs along the outside of your neck, his large hands coasting along your shoulders, down your arms, sides, before settling on your thighs. The calluses on his hands leaving a sensational trail of tingles and heat to disperse under your skin.
"Look," his head nods forward once to get your attention, and now you see the reason why he sat you here. In the corner of the bedroom, just a few feet away, is a full length standing mirror angled perfectly to reflect everything.
You see yourself, already flushed with arousal and breathing heavily as you make eye contact with Bucky in the mirror. His devious smile pins you in place as you watch his hands pry open your legs, entrancingly over his. They willingly spread open wide for him, your restless hips now squirming, aching for more. His fingertips trace small circles on your inner thigh.
"I want you to see your face as you fall apart, " he taunted, his voice sultry in your ear, still holding your gaze in the mirror. His middle finger skims across your already embarrassingly dampened panties, causing your back to press against his rigid chest.
There was a vague rattling sound, followed by Bucky placing the large opening of the looped chain over your head and around your neck, âBucky, what are you doing-â you watch curiously in the mirror. Part of the chain dangles between your breasts, which he wraps around his hand once and slowly starts to pull, causing the loop around your neck to compress.
Itâs a choker.
Your eyes go wide, nervousness rippling through you as you grasp his intentions, âBucky, I donât know-â
âDo you really think you have a choice?â he barked, pulling the Ghostface mask down back onto his face. Talking to you through the mirror, âI wonât hurt you. Trust me,â he whispers, breaking character for a moment to assure youâre safe.
You nod in response, your reflection visibly eases in the mirror as the necklace slackens around your throat. He lets the chain lax too, for now.
Large hands are back to kneading your thighs, a lone finger brushing between your legs when gravitating along the inside. Itâs not long until the sensation has you starting to wriggle once again.
Cupping your sex, his hand gently moves up and down, keeping a firm, yet delicate and delicious pressure. Your greedy hips tilt forward, wanting more from his right hand, while the coolness of his left continues to lazily stroke over your skin. But when that icy touch quickly grabs and tears your underwear off in one jolt, you gasp at the tiny bite the ripping cloth left behind.
Now youâre left wide and exposed- to yourself, to Bucky, to the reflections of yourselves staring intensely, watching every movement. The warmth of his hand is back, leisurely gliding two fingers between your already achingly wet pussy. Swallowing hard, your breath hitches as you can not only feel, but see, yourself start to lose composure.
Bucky pulls the two fingers away, holding them up just to your mouth, "wet them for me," he instructs, his voice silk like satin. Taking the two fingers into your mouth, your tongue swirled rapidly around the digits, savoring the salty-sweetness of your arousal. Slowly pulling them back out, you see them shine with your saliva.
Something comes over you in that moment, call it gluttonous, but you pool some extra moisture into your mouth and spit onto the fingers. Just for good measure.
There's a murmured hum of approval in your ear as he spreads your folds, teasing your increasingly sensitive clit between his two fingers. And getting Bucky's praise will only enhance the entire night. Your legs quiver at the deliberate sluggish pace, letting out shaky breaths as the overwhelming throbbing demands more attention.
Finally, the pads of those fingers start to rub your bundle of nerves in unhurried circles. Gripping onto his thigh to steady yourself, your nails clutching his jeans, a whine escapes as your hips try to buck against his hand.
That dark laugh is in your ear again, "good girls don't come until I tell them too," Bucky breathes, overly indulging in how you respond to his touch. It feels like torture, in the best possible way. The combination of his words and caress... you have never felt this good. This wanted.
Your head falls back slightly against his shoulder in small disappointment, whimpering, knowing that he's going to make you beg. And you're getting desperate enough to do so.
The leisurely pace of his fingers picks up, causing your back to arch away from his chest as you start panting. Each swipe building pleasure, layer on top of agonizing layer. Finding yourself in the mirror again, you unapologetically watch as your body vigorously writhes against his hand, your moans spilling from your mouth more and more.
"How badly do you want to come, princess?" The Ghost breathed, his chest rising and falling heavily now, trying to fight off his own desire, evident from the hard protrusion you keep rolling your hips against.
"S-so bad... Please! Please," you pleaded, not caring how desperate it sounds. Adding some additional pressure, your hips stutter. Your breathing practically stops as your moans transform into one long, drawn out strangled whine as you come apart, "O-ooh...oh my god. Oh god!"
Not even fully coming down from the repeated waves, you hear, "God's not here," growled into your ear. In one sudden movement, Bucky stands up with you in his arms before tossing you onto the bed, "just me.â the low rumble emits from his chest. Ripping off the mask, he kneels on the bed and uses his left arm to support his weight. Using those same damned two fingers, he plunges them into your drenched pussy, siphoning a sound from your throat thatâs unrecognizable.
âAgain,â Bucky breathes, his eyes glazed over with a new kind of wickedness as they lock into yours, âCome for me again. I fucking love all the sounds you make,â With his palm face up, his fingers start pumping you from the inside, running over your g-spot in a come here motion.
Since there was no remission from your last orgasm, the tightness in your belly never fully went away. Watching Bucky, seeing him in the tight black t-shirt while his bicep flexes from working you, his slightly furrowed brow and his lips slightly parted in determination, you could feel it building up once again.
Feeling your walls contract around him, he grinned. He changes his hand motions to going in a frantic up and down movement, and if you know, you know. Your rasped whimpers became silent as you forgot how to breathe and your vision blurred. The build up came on so fast and so strong, the only sound in the room was your ever increasing wetness.
Your mouth dropped open into a silent O, not able to think not a single coherent thought, "Thaaat's it..." Bucky coaxed, "I want you to gush all over my fucking hand," and with his words, your body quivers as you completely shatter with a loud cry. "Goood girl. God, what a good fucking girl," he soothes. You winced slightly as he pulled out his fingers, collapsing back more into the bed as you try to rein in remembering how to breathe. Bucky sits back on his knees, and almost entirely up to his elbow is glistening with how hard you just came.
With a flat tongue, he presses it to his palm, and licks all the way up to the tip of his middle finger, "Perfect," Bucky hums in satisfaction to himself. Your throat goes dry at the sight, being the cherry on top of all the mouth breathing you've been doing. Am I fucking dreaming?
Pushing his jeans down to his knees, his thick, flushed cock rebounds out of his boxers. Bucky grabs you by the hips, pulling you down the bed before flipping you over onto all fours. Each of his hands grabs a fistfull of your ass, before slapping one side. You moan at the bite of the smack, feeling delusional from needing him inside you so badly. He rubs the reddened cheek before dropping a teeth grazed kiss on the sensitive skin.
There's a coolness between your legs, and you realize that it's your juices sliding down your thighs. Not needing any preparation, you feel the tip of Bucky's fat cock lining up to slide into your tight little slit. He rubs the head up and down, lubricating just enough to push himself in. As he started to sink into you, it took every bit of will you had not to collapse as you felt his slight struggle to get in.
"Fuck, you're tight," he sighs. But truth be told, he's just that big. As if he had a direct roadmap, he slides in effortlessly right to the hilt, poking the sweetest spot of all making you choke out a sob, "You can take it, can't you angel?" He breathes huskily, amusement draped around the words as he dragged his cock back maliciously slow, letting you feel the ridge of each vein, every delectable centimeter of his length.
You feel your eyes roll closed, enjoying the all consuming sensation. With one quick thrust all at once, Bucky simultaneously yanks on the chain of the forgotten choker forcing your eyes open with a loud cry to find him glaring at you in the mirror, "Look at me when I'm fucking you," he reprimanded, in a subdued yet stern voice.
He started to move in a merciless rhythm, keeping the chain taut in one of the hands that clenched your hips. Each thrust delivered not only a delectable deep nudge against your cervix, but a small slap of his balls to your achingly sensitive clit. The combination of internal and external stimulation has you singing your own personal explicit cry, almost on the verge of tears with the intensity.
It's almost cruel the way that he fucks you, like he's dismantling you piece by piece, mentally, physically, emotionally. Never have you been treated like such a prize possession and a cheap whore at the same time. Your walls flutter around his cock, swallowing him needing moremoremore. You're body's accepted that this pussy is Bucky's. It's meant for him. It was made for him.
In the reflection you can see Bucky wet his lips, his eyes darting between yours and your ass bouncing off of his snapping hips. He continues to murmur soft, filthy praises as he fucks another orgasm from you. The choker tensed as you came, making the edges of your vision blurry- your walls clenching so tightly, causing each stroke to become more intense than the next. After you completely shattered, the chain went slack once again.
Manhandling you one last time, Bucky lays back flat on the bed and positions you to straddle him. You shake your head in an almost delirious state, "I-I can't. Buck, I-" you whisper, thoroughly cock drunk, "I can't," you pleaded.
"Yes you can, angel," his hands glide over your sweat coated thighs, a lecherous expression on his face. You nod ever so slightly, because even as spent and exhausted as you feel, you want to see him come apart. You want to look down into his eyes as joins you in the fucked out bliss.
You grab the base of his cock, using it to align yourself before sliding back down on top of him. Bucky's eyes widen, watching intensely as your bodies joined one another. All the air releases out of his lungs at the sight of your greedy pussy sucking him all the way in- deeper, your thighs already trembling. His hands clench your hips as your they start to grind back and forth.
His ab muscles flex under your nail piercing grasp- that pressure once again starting to build. He's just so deep, you're still just so wet from coming 3 times in a row, and now his wide tip is nestled so perfectly against your cervix that each motion of your body feels like you're going to spontaneously combust and die. But there's no way that heaven could be better than this. Those painfully beautiful sapphire blue eyes filled with an rapacious hunger that only you can fulfill.
You're mouth opens in attempt to say his name like a prayer, or something as equally dirty, but all that comes out is a sputter of shuddered gasps. Bucky's unapologetically loud moans grow more frequent, turning into their own long, drawn out beautiful melody, "fuck," he whispers, "that's so good."
Leaning down, chest to chest, you capture his lips in yours- swallowing those gorgeous sounds. Bucky takes this opportunity to thrust his hips up, massaging your inner walls as you push back against him. The loud smacking of flesh borderline drown out the sounds of both your orgasms, but you could feel the vibration from deep within Bucky's throat through the kiss. Rope after rope, you could feel his warmth emptying inside of you.
The strokes became laguid as he maintained the kiss- Bucky's hands cupping your face gently, which was such a dichotomy compared to the way he fucked you tonight. You finally pull your lips apart, collapsing fully on top of his body. Laying in silence, all you can hear is each other's ragged breathing and the drumming of his heart in your ear against his chest.
"I am... never getting rid of that fucking mask," Bucky chuckles lightly.
"Just so you know," you prop your chin up on your palm, "there's 5 other movies in the franchise."
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Summary: After accidentally revealing that you have a masked man kink, Bucky starts taking it to the next level.
Warnings: Smut- MDNI please!, oral sex (both ways!!), edging?, masturbation (F), praise kink, cursing, light stalking, breaking in, harassing texts/calls, and lots of angst.
Word Count: 4.3
A/Ns: Hi babes! This was going to be a short story but she came out kinda long, so I'm going to make it a 2 parter. Don't judge me đ I looove masked men. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it. This is also my first time getting more explicit with smut so don't judge me too harshly! xoxo
Snuggled up to Bucky under a comfy blanket with a bowl of extra buttery and salty popcorn, lights turned all the way down, you finally convinced him to watch the movie Scream. While youâve seen it many times before and are aware of all the jump scares, you still cling onto him a little extra tight in preparation while he is completely unphased. About halfway through the movie, you hear Bucky snort.
âWhat?â You ask, looking up at him slightly. His face is illuminated by the glow of the tv.
âSomething you want to tell me, Doll?â One side of his mouth is tugged up in amusement.
âBucky, what the fuck are you talking about?â Confused, you sit up to look at him.
He just shakes his head, grinning, âIâm talking about how every time a masked man comes on that screen,â he points to the tv, âyou press those pretty little thighs of yours together.â
Your cheeks instantly flush, âYou noticed that?â
âI pay attention to everything when it comes to my girl.â Bucky leans back more, resting his arm on top of the couch still grinning, âTell me about it.â His eyes narrow slightly, something a bit darker lurking, intrigued by this knowledge.
âI donât know⊠itâs just like,â you brush your hair behind your ears suddenly feeling embarrassed, âkind of like a kink? A fantasy maybe? Thereâs just something so dark and exhilarating about an unknown man behind a mask that stalks and is obsessed with you. The anonymity of it I guess?â
By the time youâre done explaining, your hands unknowingly gripped and crossed your chest. Blinking rapidly, you let go and focus back on Bucky who is just watching you intensely.
He nods and purses his lips lightly, âMaybe if I keep watching this movie, Iâll want a masked man for myself,â He teases.
âOh, shut the fuck up!â You grab a fistful of popcorn and throw it at him, sending you both into a laughing frenzy.
"You're cleaning that up, not me." Bucky laughs.
Him and his messes.
He scoops you in close to his body to finish the movie, and later that night he showed you that no masked man from a movie could ever compare to him.
Three weeks later.
While trying to grab your phone and keys out of your bag, you accidentally drop the stack of mail you had just picked up from the landlordâs office on the doormat.
âShit!â You mutter to yourself. Bending down to pick it up, something catches your eye. Your apartment door is cracked open.
You stand up, discarding the mail and push open the door, âHello?â You call out, âBucky?â Thereâs no response.
Taking a few steps in, nothing looks out of place or any evidence that someone seems to have broken in. You start going through each room, keeping your phone firmly in your hand just in case. But thereâs nothing. Walking out of the bedroom you decide youâre going to call Bucky to see how far away he is since he was on his way over, when you find him standing in the kitchen.
âOH! Fuck me-â You jump at the sight of him and grab your chest.
âHey, Doll!â Bucky says, like the perfect golden retriever boyfriend that he is.
âDid you just get here?â You ask, your heart still pounding.
âYeah, why?â he asks curiously, absentmindedly grabbing an apple from the fruit bowl off the kitchen counter and taking a bite.
âUm, yeah me too. Itâs just-â
âJust⊠what?â He takes another bite.
âItâs just that... my door was open when I got here?â
âWhat?â Buckyâs face instantly changes, his eyes wide and anxious, âGo wait in the hallway until I look around.â
âI already did that-â
âPlease?â He pleads as he throws out his barely eaten apple, already coaxing you towards the door.
Crossing your arms, you go and wait in the hallway while he looks around. After a few minutes he brings you back in.
âEverything looks to be fine, but Iâm going to stay the night just in case.â You breathe a sigh of relief at Buckyâs words.
âMaybe maintenance came in and forgot to lock back up. I was having all those issues with my heater a few months ago,â You try justifying.
âYeah maybe,â he says, with a small shrug of his shoulders.
About a week later is when the phone calls started.
Initially it was just 1 or 2 a day from a restricted number that you never picked up, assuming it was some kind of solicitation about your carâs extended warranty. But no voicemail was ever left.
As a few weeks went by though, it started to feel like borderline harassment. The number of phone calls jumped to an average of twenty times a day.
Sitting at your work desk your phone continued to violently vibrate, the words Unknown Caller lit up on the screen. You ran your hands through your hair, letting them linger on your scalp, starting to feel stressed every time your phone rang.
"Hey babes!" Hailee, your coworker/bff storms unannounced into your office, "You ready to grab some lu- oh my god. Are they calling you right now?" Obviously aware of the situation, she scurries around your desk in her too high heels and answers your phone. Clearing her throat, "Hi, thank you for calling Tammy's Whorehouse where we suck and fuck. How can I help you?" She taps an inpatient finger on her hip, waiting for a response and then the line goes dead.
Your hands fall down into your lap with an exacerbated breath, "No one ever answers."
"Have you tried tracking the number?" She puts the phone down and sits on top of your desk.
"I've tried calling my cell service, they can't do anything about it. If it keeps up, I just might change my number." You shake your head, "This is going to sound so dumb, but it has me so distracted. Apparently, I've been forgetting to charge my phone at night too? I swear I put it on the charger but then it dies in the night and that's why I've been late to work a few times."
Hailee tilts her head to the side, giving a sympathetic frown. "Sorry, girl. Hey!" She tries perking up, "Why don't we go get lunch and iced coffees? My treat?!" Her bright smile and shimmying shoulders get you to crack a smile. Jumping off your desk she claps her hands, "Yay!"
Suddenly there's a knock at your office door. Both of you stop the mini-iced coffee celebration and snap your attention to the nervous, uniformed teenager standing in the doorway.
"Delivery." he says shyly, looking between the two of you.
Hailee raises an eyebrow and smirks, looking you up and down, "Well, it wasn't delivered to my office."
You roll your eyes as you get up, smoothing your skirt down. Walking up to the boy, he quickly hands you a rather large bouquet of flowers. The intoxicating floral aroma hits you almost immediately, you cannot help but be astounded by the arrangement. Each individual flower is rather large, some darker than others; Ombres of red and burgundy into black.
"They're beautiful," You admire, inhaling deeply. "I don't think I've ever seen these before. Do you know what kind of flowers they are?" You ask the teen curiously.
"Black dahlia's," he recalled, and your stomach felt like it dropped with the mention of the name. "I don't think we've ever gotten a request for those at my family's shop before. That's the only reason I remember," he shrugged.
"Does Bucky have a brother? Because like, are you kidding me right now?" You glanced at Hailee who was making an over-the-top pouty face.
Asking the teen if he had CashApp to tip him, you quickly ushered him off. Searching through the flowers to see if there was a card or any indication that they were in fact from Bucky, but there wasn't.
That night, Bucky came over for dinner. He brought take out from a local Greek place that he really liked, but you were distracted. Just pushing the food around on your plate.
"You okay, doll?" His forehead puckered slightly in question.
"Yeah, um," You shake your head to try and focus, "Hey, thanks for the flowers today. That was super sweet and unexpected," considering you've been kinda stressed.
"Flowers? What flowers?" Bucky's posture stiffens.
"I got flowers delivered to me at work today, I just assumed it... was from you? Maybe it was a mistake then." There were suddenly mixed emotions being stirred around in a frenzy. If Bucky wasn't the one who sent the flowers, then who did? You tried saying they were dropped in your office by accident, but it just didn't feel right. It felt intentional.
"Well, honey, I don't know who it was, but it wasn't me." Bucky stands up from the kitchen table, grabbing his dinner plate. "Are you done?" He asks gesturing to your plate. You nod and he takes it as well, "But it's something I should do, and I'll be more conscious of it. I'm sorry,"
"No, Buck I wasn't-"
His lips press to the top of your head, "No, you're right. If anyone should be doing it, it should be me. Let me take the garbage out for you and we'll have the night to ourselves, yeah? Anything you want."
"Anything?" You repeat, in singsong with a grin.
He shakes his head, scraping the scraps from the plates into the garbage returning the grin, "I like where this is going," Tying off the bag, he holds up two fingers, "give me two minutes," he opens the door to the apartment and starts jogging down the hallway, "two minutes!!" you hear him call out.
The door to the apartment doesn't even fully shut before you hear the familiar buzz coming from your bag. Letting out an annoyed sigh, you angrily push away from the table and stomp over to the counter, dumping out your purse just to see Unknown Caller lit up on your phone.
You hit the green button so hard it doesn't register, so you do it again until it answers, "Hello?! What the FUCK do you want?!" No answer. But this time, you can hear someone breathing heavily. "You need some help. Seriously, leave me the fuck alone!" Hanging up, you slam the phone down onto the counter.
"Doll?" Bucky asks from the doorway, he sighs, "Was it that number bothering you again?"
"Yes!" You answer, flustered. "The next step is to just- change my number! I don't know what else to do."
Bucky steps in, closing in the door behind him with the back of his boot. His lips are pressed in tight line, "C'mere, darlin'," he holds his arms wide open, eyes soft. Dragging your feet, you meet him halfway and lay your head on his chest, "It's gonna be okay," he coos in your ear. "It's just some asshole with nothing better to do. They'll get bored soon enough. Worst case, we'll change your number. We can even go down to the store tomorrow and get you a new phone?" Bucky offers, trying to be optimistic as he caresses your arms up and down.
"I was just really hoping it wouldn't get to that point." You admit, pulling away from his chest just enough to look up at him.
"We'll do what we have to." Bucky smiles, cupping your chin between his thumb and pointer finger before pressing his lips to yours.
Letting your lips linger a moment as your eyes close, you inhale deeply, taking in the cypress scented soap still lingering on his skin from a shower he took earlier. It's your favorite. Hence why you keep buying it every time he runs out. Bucky's lips separate yours, and when just the tips of your tongues connect, a barely audible whimper escapes your mouth.
Like a gun starting a marathon, it was all Bucky needed to hear. Reaching down and gripping behind your thighs, he hoists you up. With a delighted squeak, you wrap your legs around his torso, laughing but keeping your lips on his as your hands run through his short hair. Using one hand flat against your lower back to keep you pressed into his chest, Bucky's other hand firmly grasped your ass. His fingers purposefully grazing the inseam of your jeans between your legs as he walked towards the bedroom.
Bucky sits on the edge of the bed, keeping you both upright. You break the mashing of tongues to re-adjust your position and straddle him. Leaning in, you suck his bottom lip into your mouth, letting your teeth graze just a tiny bit before letting go. Bucky exhales a drawn out, low groan before licking his lips. The look in his eyes is absolutely carnal as he tugs your shirt over your head and throws it across the room. Not even bothering with your bra, he just pulls the black lace cups down beneath your breasts, propping them up in exposure as he dips down to flick his tongue across your nipple.
Initially it makes you shudder, but as he continues to suck, nibble, lick, repeat, you find reprieve in grinding your hips down into the ever-growing bulge in his pants. Bucky lets out a stifled groan before switching his mouth to your other nipple. You smirk to yourself; you just love to tease this man. Although, if we're being honest, this isn't so easy on you right now either.
Roughly gripping both sides of his face, you bring his lips back to yours. Youâre starting to feel needy for more of his touch. Becoming desperate to relieve this fuel lit fire. Buckyâs hands were firmly placed on each of your ass cheeks, assisting your already rolling hips forward and back. He snakes one hand between your bodies, slipping it down the front of your pants, his finger sliding once between your slit. You both moan loudly in unison into the kiss.
"Fuuuck..." Bucky breathed, tilting his head back just slightly that your lips pull apart. "You're already so fucking wet for me," his lascivious eyes lock onto yours, his breathing already becoming rather ragged.
Hearing his debauched voice, knowing just that single glide of his finger has him aching so badly, has ignited a new spark in you. "It's all yours, baby," you purred. Biting the bottom corner of your lip, you slowly get off his lap. Hooking each of your pointer fingers into the front pockets of Bucky's jeans, you encourage him to stand up as you drop to your knees before him.
As he's fumbling with the button and zipper, you stare up at him with tantalizing eyes, your hands firmly grazing along his muscular thighs. Once he's able to get it open, you help start to shimmy down his jeans and boxer briefs passed his hips until they pool on the floor. Bucky's thick, long cock springs up at almost eye level in enthusiasm, instantly making your mouth water. Sticking your tongue out as far as you possibly can, you lock eyes with Bucky and press the tip to your tongue, dragging it to a flick.
Sucking in a breath through his teeth, his body quivered at the first contact. You smile as you taste the initial saltiness on your tongue, licking your lips before hollowing out your cheeks and taking him into your mouth. Bucky exhales deeply, his head starting to tilt back but he stops, making sure he maintains eye contact with you. You draw back, pressing your tongue upward firmly, go forward, and go back again. After a moment, a rhythm gets going, you now move your tongue side to side as you bob front to back, sucking harder.
"That's it," Bucky coaxes, "That's my good fucking girl," a small whimper escapes your throat at his words of praise. You clamp your legs together a little tighter as it's getting harder to ignore the incessant throbbing and growing wet spot between your legs.
The next thing you know, his hands are in your hair, gathering it up into a makeshift ponytail. Grasping his shaft with your hand steadily, you use that to guide your mouth, twisting and gliding easily. You know it's his weakness. Bucky's hips start to buck up into your mouth as he pulls your head down further onto his throbbing cock. Through now teary eyes youâre determined to watch as his face starts to contort with pleasure, his moans music to your ears just as your gagging is to him.
"You look...Ahh...so...fucking...pretty," Each word comes out with a drive of his hips into your mouth. In the dim lighting of the room, completely blissed out on pleasure, he looks like a fucking god. And he's mine. The thought alone is enough to make you explode. "Ugh!" Bucky growls, "I can't take it anymore! C'mere!" With a small 'pop', he pulls out and grabs underneath your arms and tosses you onto the bed.
Giggling, you wipe the excess saliva off your swollen, red lips as you push back further onto the bed. Bucky pulls your jeans and panties down and off in one swift motion before kneeling onto the bed. His eyes are glazed over, solely focused on between your legs. He crawls upward, and it's purely feline as he dips down, his mouth creating a seal and sucking once.
The combination of a loud moan and gasp get ripped straight from your lungs as you practically convulsed off the bed from being so aroused. Bucky quickly and securely locks your thighs in place to keep them open and from you going anywhere. He grinned, watching every single movement.
"Eyes on me, princess," he ordered. Pressing down on your lips, you nodded in anticipation. Leaning in, Bucky skimmed his lips on your very inner thigh, placing a feather light kiss that made your entire abdomen tense.
Buzz. Buzz. Buzz.
"Fuck," Bucky sits back up on his knees, taking his phone out of the pocket of his jeans that was still around his ankles. "Hello?" You stare up at him in complete disbelief, "What, now?" He looks down at you on the bed, giving a sympathetic look and mouths 'sorry'. Letting out an annoyed sigh, he drags a hand down his face. "Yeah... yeah. No- I understand... Okay. Yep. I'll be there. Bye." He hangs up the phone.
"Don't say it," you bite out, crossing your arms over your chest and closing your legs.
Bucky takes a deep breath, "I have to go back, a mission came up."
"Annnd, you said it," you look up at the ceiling, refusing to keep that eye contact that you were so adamant on not even a minute ago.
"It sounded pretty important, Doll." Bucky is off the bed, pulling up his pants and re-adjusting himself in them.
"It always is," you mutter under your breath. Sighing, you just accepted the fact that your night is completely ruined. "So, what you're telling me is, that I'm getting cock blocked by The Avengers?"
Bucky sits on the bed, placing a delicate hand on your cheek, "I'm really sorry. I'll make this up to you tenfold, promise." He kisses you softly, "I have to go. I'll contact you as soon as I can. I love you," He offers a small smile.
You sigh, knowing you can never let him leave on bad terms, "I love you too, Buck." Sitting up you give him a hug and a few extra kisses that probably made him late.
Still sitting in bed after Bucky had gone, you felt irrationally irritated by how he left. Tapping on your thighs, a headache was already brewing from the pent-up sexual tension that you were unable to get out. That's when you suddenly remembered a little something on your phone that might just help you out in this situation. There was this one particular time you and Bucky decided to record yourselves having sex, and you've never went back and watched it. If there was ever a time to go back and do so...
Excitedly, you go over to the dresser. You pull open your underwear drawer and dig through all the way to the back, where you stash your favorite vibrator. You click the silicone button a few times to make sure it's charged, and all the intensity settings worked before laughing menacingly to yourself and closing the drawer. Tossing the toy onto the bed, you walk out to the kitchen.
Your phone was where you had left it earlier, still slammed face down on the counter. Sashaying over, you notice that there's an applecore sitting next to it. This is odd, because you didn't have one and Bucky is normally very meticulous when it comes to cleaning and picking up after himself. Going to throw it out, you realize there is no garbage bag in the trash can and suddenly it makes sense. Bucky was in a rush to leave; he probably didn't have the time to replace the bag. So, you do it yourself, and throw out the eaten fruit.
Getting back to your room with your phone, you notice that your underwear drawer is open. Pursing your lips and narrowing your eyes, you look from the bed, to the dresser, back to the bed. I could have sworn I closed that. Then again, maybe it's just the headache coming on. You close the dresser drawer, and all too eagerly jump under the covers.
The ambiance for a little 'self-love' right now is almost too perfect. Your bedroom is dimly lit with only a mood lamp and the fog covered streetlamps from down below your apartment. The light patter of rain hit against your bedroom window and fire escape underneath it, while some light thunder rolled some distance away.
Scrolling through your phone, it wasn't hard to find exactly what you were looking for. Pressing 'play', you're watching a side view of you taking Bucky from the back. Your mouth drops open slightly, seeing it from a third person view. Bucky has his Vibranium hand on the side of your face, pushing you down further into the mattress and he is just relentless. And the sounds, God the sounds. You grab the vibrator, turning it on and quickly placing it onto your already sensitive and swollen clit and start rubbing it and soft circles.
"Look at how good you take it,"
"Oh, God!"
"Are you gonna come for me?"
"Mhm,"
"I can't hear you, princess,"
"Can I come Bucky? Please, please let me..."
"Of course, my good girl can come. Here... lean down more...open those legs wider...touch yourself...yeah...fuck, yeah...just like that baby,"
The bed is practically shattering underneath you as Bucky, who isn't even there, coaxes you into having an orgasm with yourself. You rub the vibrator more intensely, knowing youâre about to come hard from the pent-up tension this evening. The lights surge briefly in the apartment from the passing storm, just as your head presses down further against the pillows and the ripples of pleasure aggressively take over your body.
The lights go out momentarily, and that's when you see the silhouette of a tall, dark hooded figure standing on your fire escape looking into your window.
The lights come back on a second later and youâre panting. Both from the release and from what you saw. The cognizance hits you that you just came in front of a total stranger. Oh, and maybe that I might have a stalker.
The cops came, looked around, made you feel like an idiot, took a report, and left. Not feeling comfortable staying in the apartment for the night, you called Hailee, who offered up her spare bedroom.
Sitting across from you with her legs crossed on the couch, her hair in a bonnet, a glass of wine, and blue raspberry vape, she leaned in, listening intently to the details leading up to this moment.
âSoo⊠you know Iâm gonna ask,â she starts.
You sigh, âI donât know when Iâm going to tell Bucky. I always feel so guilty when heâs away and something happens.â
Haileeâs face scrunches as she waves her hand in dismissal, âNo, no not that,â You raise an eyebrow at her in confusion. âCan I see it?â She lowers her voice, but itâs oozing with hope.
âBitch,â both your eyebrows raise in aghast, realizing what sheâs actually asking.
âWhat?! Come onnnn,â She whines, pressing her hands together in plead and pouts her lip.
âOh my god, Hailee! No! Just⊠no.â
Rolling her eyes she composes herself again, âOkay, so like, you ever just⊠look at a man, and you just know?â Her hands wave around as sheâs trying to explain, âLike, that man can fuck? I feel like thatâs Bucky. And soâŠâ Hailee looks so determined right now, âs-shame on you!â She points directly at you, this is comical, âfor not sharing the video evidence! Because now Iâm convinced you have a boring, vanilla sex life!â
Leaning back against the kitchen counter sipping your glass of water, you hear yourself coming down from the highs of ecstasy through your phone. Haileeâs wide eyes are glued, mouth dropped open, speechless, for once. The sound finally cuts off.
âAre you sure he doesnât have a brother because-â
You quickly snatch the phone out of her hand, âOkay, you got what you wanted. Can we be serious now?!â
âYeah,â Hailee shakes her head, âyeah, of courseâŠâ she takes a deep breath, âIâm just saying, you seriously have some career options if your current job doesnât work out though.â
âHailee!!â
âOkay! Iâm sorry!â Her hands go up in a surrender, âbut you put in a police report, and I mean, of course you can stay here. What else are you going to do?â
*Ding*
âHang on, I just got a text.â
âWho the fuck would be texting you this late?â Hailee asks, getting off the couch to read the text with you over your shoulder.
Together you read the message:
Part 2
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