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honey

500 days ago you made room in your lived-in heart for me You rearranged boxes, bought shelves to hold your favorite memories,cleared out clutter,donated old heartbreak,so that I could move in closer. I came with boxes that hung heavy in my armsfilled with the weight of history,with thoughts that stick like honey,swirling andtangling themselves into doubt. Somehow,you found your way into the…

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soft place

A slow unraveling of parts Tangles of tension freed one by one I feel fear deep in my bonesheavy in my heartSeeking a soft place to landwhen things fall apart  But there is no way to avoid the falland the pain that settles soon after  Like cold in the dead of night,clinging to your body, whispering you small  My heart,guarding the fires of a thousand sunsand all of them yoursYou are worthy of…

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Homebody / Homecoming

journey to centereverywhere, nowhere,at once existing beyondtendencies toward idleness dull acquiescencescarce quests for wholeonce existed,God withincloser momentsrummaging through lifeless monotonyFruitless visitsturning inwardreckoning with displacementsustaining solitude blissful abyss,consuming frustrations without rescue beyond desperationhome in the heavyno losses to gainushering the…

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wake state

sweet intoxicationa hazy night of collarbone kisses and soft caresses wilted petalsgraze the cold groundsending my core into shock pleading to the skiesI waketake in the daymalnourishedand with anticipation of meeting your warm rays once again turn my bodytoward the vacancy in front of mea hallow crater of your shapeleft behind so tiredof being left behind stuck in an illusionwhere I rise…

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dream state

the tip of your touchorbiting my backbonewarm on my wingswaves of ultraviolet euphoria meet my skindimples snug in my cheeksfluttering for your feeling every celestial momentwith you magneticeternally drifting intoblackholessurrounded by yourcyan eyeslost in space have I ever been? perspiring palmsreach for your life linesseeking a match for mineonly to be met witha stillness of the deep…

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for your lover

Shades of cerulean blue and cyanin the distanceI melt into your gazeto your ocean eyes I surrender allshallow breathswave after waveI’m submergedand now I breathe you underwater I gotta let it goI know

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Journal: June 8, 2021

Journal: June 8, 2021

After a long day of diving head first into the start of a rollercoaster summer semester, my emotions finally caught up to me. I have been feeling so heavy the last few months, but have struggled to find the emotional bandwidth to hold space for everything I’m feeling.  There are too many transitions coming up and I haven’t even come up for air to breathe in and process the last year. It’s been a…

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the elements of freedom

the elements of freedom

For years, I told the story of how I came to be how I carefully mastered all of the elements of our collective freedom

I became fire a fast-moving fire that bounded your heart giver of warmth and light melting the tension, relaxing the edges a glowing reminder that you are not alone that the pain does not define you but my shapes did not tire, your heart did not quiver I should have known when you’re held…

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closure

Chisme #4 w/ Steph. This one is about finding resolve on your own.

I arrived hopeful and guarded anticipating I’d be received with an eager embrace, welcomed by a host with a common desire for harmonious clarity.

bringing tips of fingers towards palm, I ready my first knock. standing parallel to the barrier, I pause. defeated by intrusive angst.

I’d been here before, as kin familiar friend, loving companion trustworthy servant comforted by a resting place, I…

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the nature of time Broad-leaved and reaching out from my center I welcome the crisp air that rustles through my branches…

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Statue

Selfless servitude has mounted me here Many have carved away seeking to define my figure for themselves Building me from the inside out This skeleton created from a need to demonstrate love To eradicate pain your pain

Trapped within lies sacrifice after sacrifice Tending to you, as I diminish myself Learning my needs, only to destroy them for your adoration Soft, I was once Hardened by the greed of…

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7: the elements of pain

7: the elements of pain

Me ahogo en tus aguas Se me aclara la mente Las palpitaciones de mi corazon Crecen mas fuerte por Aire que no llega Completamente consumida Perdió mi consciencia De la guerra en tus olas

Mis pies no tocan la tierra Pero abajo Se siente el calor de tus fuegos Y no me muevo A pesar del dolor, A pesar del sufrimiento

En mis sueños Yo te veo Traes la luz contigo Y veo El sol en tus ojos Miro hacia el cielo y con…

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Misguided Ghost

The other night after a couple beers and an unwarranted amount of pub food, it happened. I pulled into my friend’s driveway and watched as her eyes swelled. Darkness filled my car and her name had come up once or twice back at the bar. There was silence.

She told me rambled stories about their love. She cried through the words that confirmed her heartache and smiled when those same words…

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Flower in A Desert Granules of sand slip into the soil that grounds me Layer after layer compounds my isolation…

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The Garden

When the sky is grey day after day I am brought back to this place

I’ve come back to this place eleven times Eager to find somewhere to plant the seeds of my chaos and pain Imagine a place I could return to often honor the roots, nurture what grows A place that brings life to my troubles And eleven times I’ve left both the water and the sun at home

Eleven times I have neglected my truth Afraid of the…

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