why are you here? ~ machine gun kelly
@taijaioโ โCan you do an imagine for Mgk but based on his song why are your here pleaseโ
description: in which colson and his ex have another run in despite their constant desire to call it quits permanently
pairing: machine gun kelly x female!reader
warnings: swearing, mentions of smut, cheating, angst
iโm using sommer ray as colsonโs girlfriend in the imagine even tho i donโt think theyโve confirmed if theyโre together or not
She said she wasnโt going to be here. She said she was going to spend the night home. She said she wasnโt seeing anyone.
And yet there she was, in the arms of a guy, wearing a skin tight dress that showed off her every curve that I loved. She was pressed up against him in a way that made me feel so angry, even though I had a girl pressed up against me in the same way.
โHey, itโs (Y/N)!โ Sommer exclaimed with excitement. I cringed, hoping she wouldnโt have noticed.ย โLetโs go say hi!โ
I would rather chop my dick off, but how was I supposed to tell her that? Sommer didnโt know the extent of mine and (Y/N)โs true relationship.
She took hold of my hand and led me through the crowded bar to (Y/N) and her date. The closer we got, the more I dreaded having to interact with her. Tonight cannot play out like the other nights. I have something good with Sommer, (Y/N) is with someone else. We canโt do this again.
Sommer exclaimed excitedly when she saw (Y/N), and (Y/N) returned the excitement. She hugged Sommer tightly, but I noticed her looking at me with the same fear over Sommerโs shoulder.
โItโs so good to see you!โ (Y/N) said with a fake smile on her face.ย โI didnโt know you guys would be here!โ
โWeโre celebrating Colsonโs new album being finished!โ Sommer responded.
โI didnโt know youโd be here either,โ I said, an equally as fake smile on my face.
โIt took a lot of convincing to get her out,โ her date said, wrapping an arm around (Y/N) and holding her close. He looked at her so fondly, the way she deserved to be looked at. The way I looked at her when we were in private.ย โBut sheโs been cooped up for so long, going only to work and then back home. I thought it was time to get her out for some fun for the night.โ
โThis is Darren, by the way,โ (Y/N) said.ย โWeโve been dating for about a month now. Heโs really looking out for me and my mental health.โ
โItโs so nice to meet you!โ Sommer said with a smile. She turned to me to add,ย โIโm gonna grab us another drink, do you want anything?โ
โIโm good, baby, thank you.โ
She leaned up to kiss me. I caught the look of jealousy on (Y/N)โs face as she did so.
โIโll grab us a refill, too,โ Darren said, taking (Y/N)โs empty glass and walking towards the bar as well, ignoring (Y/N)โs protests.
We were left alone then. She refused to look at me, opting to stare at a spot on the ground. Which was fine by me, I didnโt exactly want to be in this situation either. If only I could tell my boys the truth about the two of us, maybe theyโd stop considering her a part of our friend group for my sake. But I knew I couldnโt do that. If they knew the truth, if anyone but us knew, it wouldnโt be good.
โYou said you werenโt going to be here,โ I finally said, drawing her attention to me. I had to be closer to her than I wanted to in order for her to hear me over the music without having to yell.ย โYou said you were staying home.โ
โThat was my plan,โ she responded.ย โLike Darren said, he convinced me to come out. I didnโt think heโd pick this bar, and then what was I supposed to do? Tell him we couldnโt go to this one cause the guy Iโve been fucking in secret for years was going to be here? Besides, why do yo even text me to ask anymore? If you are so happy with Sommer you shouldnโt have to worry about anything happening between us.โ
โIโm happy with Sommer, but it always seems like we canโt stay away from each other no matter who weโre with. Thatโs why I try to avoid you at all costs.โ
She looked a little hurt by my comment, and I guess I couldnโt blame her. It was a little harsh, but it was the truth. We broke up a little over a year ago, and yet whenever we ended up in the same place things ended the same way; we hooked up, regretted it, said it would never happen again, process repeats. We were both in relationships now. It wasnโt going to happen again.
โIn that case, Iโll tell Darren I want to go home, or to a different bar. Iโll stay out of your way. Have a good life, Colson. I hope youโre happy with Sommer.โ
She turned to walk away. I felt that tug in my heart that I always felt when it seemed as though I was losing her permanently. We had been broken up for so long, we shouldโve been long over one another. But it was hard to get over someone when one look alone dragged you right back in.
I took hold of her hand, stopping her from walking away. She turned back to look at me, that look in her eyes that I had seen so many times before.
Before I knew it, I was pulling back on my clothes as (Y/N) readjusted her dress to make it look as though nothing had happened. I wondered what excuse weโd use this time for disappearing for so long and coming back at the same time. I wondered if Sommer and Darren would actually buy it this time.
โSo much for that being the last time,โ (Y/N) muttered as she started reapplying her lipstick.ย โAnd thank god for waterproof mascara.โ
โWe have to stop this eventually,โ I told her.ย โWe canโt keep doing this to ourselves or to our partners. Itโs not fair to anyone in this situation.โ
โWell, what do you suggest we do?โ (Y/N) asked.ย โThe guys think weโre just friends, that weโre okay with being just friends. We canโt suddenly tell them we donโt want to hang out with each other over a year after we broke up. They wonโt buy that itโs because weโre both in relationships because weโve been in relationships before this.โ
โThe guys love you, too, theyโd be so sad if we didnโt hang out anymore,โ I sighed.
We really were at an impasse. We couldnโt stop hanging out without our friends, and our partners, getting suspicious. We couldnโt be friends without fucking again.
โWhy donโt we try this again between us?โ I asked before I could stop myself. (Y/N) looked up at me with a raised eyebrow.ย โIโm serious, maybe thereโs a reason we canโt keep away from one another like this. Maybe itโs because we should still be together.โ
(Y/N) looked like she was considering it before she shook her head.ย โWe didnโt work, Colson. Weโd never work. The only thing that works is the sex.โ
โThere must be a reason for that, though,โ I insisted.ย โCome on, (Y/N), think about it. If we were both so done with one another, we wouldnโt have to worry about this happening again. We wouldnโt be trying to avoid one another, we wouldnโt be texting each other to make sure there wonโt be any run ins. We wouldnโt be having sex like this. Donโt you think we could give this a second chance.โ
(Y/N) looked up at me through the mirror. She turned around to face me. She wet her finger and wiped at my nose and cheeks.ย โYou had my lipstick on you.โ
โWe wouldnโt work together,โ she told me again.ย โWe tried once and it ended horribly. We constantly fought, we barely spent time together. The only reason we kept being friends was because we were in the same friend group. Darren makes me happy. I mean what I said when I said he helps me with my mental health. Iโm happy with him, I donโt want to give that up for a relationship that I know wonโt work.โ
โYou canโt be that happy if youโre willing to let me fuck you in the bathroom while he gets you drinks.โ
She glared at me. It was a harsh blow, but it was the honest truth.
โI could say the same about you with Sommer.โ
โWhatever, Colson,โ she said, rolling her eyes.ย โIโm done. See you around, maybe.โ
She left the bathroom, leaving me alone with that ending to our conflict. She would see, I knew it. Sheโd realize there was a reason for our constant hook ups. Sheโd realize that we were meant to be together, she just needed time.
I looked at myself in the mirror. God, I looked like a mess. Sommer would know something was up. I fixed myself up before having to go face my girlfriend.
She was standing by the car, taking a sip of her drink. I expected her to glare at me when I walked up to her, question me immediately as to where I had been and why I had been gone for so long. Instead, she smiled when she saw me, immediately putting an arm around me and holding me close.
โWhere did (Y/N) and Darren go?โ I asked, noticing that they werenโt around.
โ(Y/N) said something about not feeling well, so Darren took her home,โ Sommer responded.ย โHe seems really nice. Iโm happy for her.โ
He did seem nice, and Sommer was definitely nice. She had a heart of gold, cared for everyone, including my ex-girlfriend. Why did I do this to her then? Why did (Y/N) do this to Darren? Why did we constantly do this to anyone we were with.
โYeah,โ I sighed, my faithful girlfriend cuddling into my chest.ย โIโm happy for her, too.โ
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