Who You Never Were, Never Will Be

You thought a human being could not post or write about it? I will.

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#NoNutNovember

Me: *aroused after glancing at a log*

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Romantic Partner

Anything is one if you are brave and creative enough.

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Pikachu, I Choose You!

I choose you, we have been through it through and through, but one day, after all this battling, I know you will be through, old, only aging, and unable to move, cradled in my arms, I  see you, Pikachu, I am old, too, grey-haired and wrinkly, smiling, thinking of all the times we saved the world, sometimes as the only two to stand tall in the face of death, breathing in its breath before we succumbed it to its final breaths, on its knees, thinking about how it has nothing left as you hit it with all the strength you have left, Team Rocket blasting off again, and now, never again, they are six feet under, dead seventy years ago, no chance to repent, but I can feel their souls over my shoulder when I close my eyes, begging for me to forgive them, they were lost souls, two lost people picked up by hostiles in the middle of nowhere with nowhere to go other than somewhere, I suppose, but with my thoughts, I whisk them away coldly, leaving us two, only us two, your last battle nearly left you in two, we have to quit, I grimace, we can no longer do this, Pikachu! you’ll die if you ever again cross Mewtwo! But you shake and toss and turn like a shaken baby, what’s wrong with you? Pika? You want to fight Mew? No way am I letting you! So I place  you on the hospital bed, pull the blanket over and a chair up beside you, pet your warm forehead, because the truth is,

I always choose you to live, Pikachu

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Dying Inside

I tell them I am okay while I am dying inside, I tell them I am relaxed before I reach for the Xanax, that with my hand on my chest and  myself reeling, I can feel a heart attack com- ing on, I squint and squeeze, not wanting to carry on anymore, any longer, my touch with reality gone, when people are gone, I wave them goodbye before I fall to the ground, kicking and screaming for God’s help, that I want to die, that I don’t, that I truly do, I  just won’t, the symphony of my life’s music fading on, reaching my hand out for some- one, small tears falling from my eyes down my face, you all truly are distancing yourself from me and everything I have done wrong,

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As long as I breathe, I will fight, as long as I step with my right foot forward, I will see the light, as long as days are blue so kites can fly, my mood will remain sky-high through the  night, through the darkest shadows, your nerves feel so tight, but by my calming words, your mind feels at ease, so nice, so euphoric, your life is finally alright, but then he or she shows up, the one who torments you through day and night, you want to ball up your fists to fuck up this bitch, right? So you glare at them as they walk by, saying nothing, as though everything is fine, but nothing is fine, your veins nearly pop, you turn around, time to bring this motherfucker to their creator, permanently good night, you walk behind them, them unknowing, your anger growing, fire showing and reflecting in your eyes, their fate you are sewing, thinking about disposing of their  body afterwards in the  river, so quietly floating away to where no one will see them before you are gloating to yourself about what you got away with, no loathing him or yourself anymore for never reloading that gun the first time he  showed you he was unloading so many of his insecurities on to you, no more decoding what he meant by that insult, no more feeling lonely

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Bronies

I never met a bitch like you before, I never breathed in the air of the  hair of such a beautiful and luscious mare before, What? Yeah, that’s right, that’s what you heard, I’ll say it again, you never heard a mind as perverted as mine before, a four-legged whore is exactly what’s in store for your dick, whether there’s consent or this makes your attitude click, thought you’d get a chick, but this is even better, Mr. Hit-It and Ditch-It, never stuck around for your kids, so you get a literal trick, Pinkie Pie, perform one for this piece of shit! It’s your kind that looks at and gives us a bad name, I suppose that’s the name of the game when you’re on Tumblr, eh? Say, why don’t you look in the mirror and repeatedly say your name, let it sink in who you are, James, you go on the internet to make fun of others and justify your existence, never acknowledging how real your life’s shittiness is, or you are, that’s why you curse others out online and say names, name one of those names that was helpless against your internet fame  based on dissing others and making some lame dame want to kill herself, it’s all the  same, you look for purpose without it, so deep down, you start doubtin’ and fuelin’ your behind-the-keyboard rage, gritting your teeth and fuming, sweating as your insecurities within and behind you start looming, you can’t contain it, you hate it, as much as your ass won’t say it, you may just combust under your own self- created lust for revenge against nothing that harmed you, That’s right, Nothing.

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I will see you when I see you, I do believe you, I wish I did not, I wish I would see through you, your beautiful lies, your beautiful face, your beautiful smile, your beautiful gaze, you are violent and vile, oh, how I wish I knew that today as I lay in the hospital bed, feeling  my life fade

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Skies Are Blue

I once thought skies are blue until they turn grey, full of rain, doubts settling in, they never fade,  hands clasped behind my head, eyes closed, they will prevail if I only wane, so I say to myself today will not be another day in which evil lays waste to me, I will never die fake to my faith, so I stand up, mind plenty gay as I walk to the lake, look down in the mirror, see in my eyes all my personal ways, it’s now personal, Jake, I say to myself, passivity belongs in yesterday’s date with near-death, overdosing on drugs till my near-last breath, I felt it coming on, come on, I said, we will make it long, long enough to see another woman in a thong, God ain’t striking the last bong for me, so  Here I am, long done with wrong, but still wondering if I am strong, put my hands in  the water, cup it till I raise it to my face,  drink it, my sins are finally gone

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No Trust Anymore

No trust anymore, you fucking whore, I am worn, my heart no longer warm, I am reborn, I warned you to stay away from me, sharp as a thorn, agg- ressive as a boar, you bore me now, your beauti- ful presence beside me once made me proud, now your demonic nature makes me doubt ev- erything I held dear, knowing it could be violent like an antlered-deer, so Dear, run away, or else I will chase you to the bay, gun and knife in hand, nothing as evil as I in the land, I see it in your eyes: your memory of me as a loving man, what did you do to me? You make me so mad! So die, you villainous catch!

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Favorite Eminem Lyrics

So young, so full of life and vibrant, side-by-side, wherever you was ridin’, I went, so close, almost on some Bonnie and Clyde shit, when Ronnie  died, you was right by my side with a shoulder to cry on, a tissue to wipe my eyes with, and a bucket to catch every tear, I cried inside it, you even had the same type of childhood I did, sometimes I just wanna know why is it that you succumbed to your’s and mine, I survived it, you ran the streets, I nine-to-five’d it, we grew up, grew apart as time went by us, then I blew up to both your’s and mine’s surprises, now I feel a vibe, I just can’t describe it, as much as your pride tries to hide it, you’re cold, your touch is just like ice, and in your eyes is a look of resentment, I can sense it, and I don’t like it

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Fucked Me Over

People have screwed me over more times than they have been screwed, they old, do the math, they know they make me want to watch them suffer, I brandish this knife, my mind high like a kite, they go away as far as the wind will go, they hold themselves accountable for all the pain I endured, the fucking Rudolph, the red-nosed human after all the beatings, I glow now, I see hoes, wow, hold on now, is that Melissa, the bitch who bitched that I snitched when I reported her for nearly killing me? I will make sure the doctors serve her a stitch or two, far more than two, I only see two ways this ends: two ways to hell, or two ways she runs and yells, I run for her, my dagger forward, I abhor her, all these years, I ignored her, but now I only know horror as the blade’s tip pierces her skin and she screams,  I love this shit

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Adult Content Ban Question

Does the adult content ban include violence, or is it just regulated to porn?

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Porn

You want to take away my porn, within a single day, we will take away your lore, December seventeenth, the lack of us will destroy your rapport, if only you  were fond of your now days of yore, fucking Apple is the only fucking you allow, FOSTA AND SESTA is the only relationship you are well-endowed in, curbsiding us, throwing us in the fryer, frying us, your revenue is our pull, we will do you over like a tool, force you to submit, accept you are a fool, you will learn the mistake of a purge, you will feel the wrath of our surge of anger, we will hang ya until you choke, and we will arrange a new home, so thank ya

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Mother

Mother, I love you, always been by my side, even when I shied away as a little kid from others, Mother, I love you, never doubted me once, only faith, this is fate, make no mistake, I’ll make no mistakes from this day forward in your name, you said I could when I said I could not, now I can, your belief in me made me a man, now you are dying of old age, I have to be your right-hand man, man, this is tough, but we do it for love, Mother, I love you, I will never say it once, Mother, I love you, because I fear, as your final seconds pass, I will only get to say it once more, Mother, I love you, and I know you do  too as your precious hand in my hand goes limp, like the rest of your body, your eyes look up for holy light, they stale, your skin pale, and my heart beats as fast as a male’s can as I fill with anxiety, I do not know what to do, the doctors rush, my feelings crushed, they tell me to shush so they can push things along, But deep down, I know,  Mother, I love you, and I know you do, too

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War and Back

I have been to war and back with you, only back here in these dark alleys to meet you after thirt- een years, these thirteen years I have spent thinking of all my tears you made me shed, now tears, as I hoist this knife, are all you will find dear as I blindingly close the gap at the speed of light, thinking of all my careers you ruined by your haunting image plaguing my mind, now this blade finds your skin cuts so clean, your whole throat bleeds, innards beg- inning to dangle, oh, how I now feel so extreme and powerful at the sight and sound of you gargling on your own blood, breathing your final breaths as I raise my foot above your  head for the final end, say goodbye, my friend

CRUSH!

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Deathly Result

I will tell you this once, these drugs, every one of them will fuck you up, pleasurably and sickly, permanently ly- ing on your deathbed, closed eyes, slowly breathing,  dreaming of a life spared of debauchery, hauntingly recalling all your family members who said you should not do this, seeing them happy with your positive health, knowing you are not going to hell when you really are, this is a dream, things can mean things they should  not mean, on the other end, they cry, on this end, they are spry, so are you, you do not want to leave, but you do as the men in white pull the plug and tubes

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Fucked Life

I wish I could go back in time, fuck the drugs, I wish I could live a whole new life, something  was amiss every time I kissed a girl: no love, just sex, no talking about it later, in retrospect, it makes no sense, that was the beauty of it: the littlest of us finding no sense and pure fun in downing shots till you felt you had a sixth  sense, the sick test of life is finding life within no life, only to find no life until the end of your  life, that is life, a life with no wife, pure strife, no reason to fight, it is darkness without even the faintest of light, nothing to see, nothing ever was, you see, no flying kites under the bluest skies, before you fucked yourself over, the limit was sky-high, and now, after smoking some weed, your mind is sky-high