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The days of bed rotting, I call these. The algorithm knows, and feeds me really polarizing information and rage bait and I become a dumb desensitized trash can into which all of it goes. I need something that is vitalizing, freeing. I long to feel like myself again, not like a muddled messy brain on legs, in a body working to its metabolic limits — I’m hanging on by a thread. Physically, I can deal with that. Mentally, I cannot.

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I’ve given up coffee entirely. No chai either. I tried out chai again (cautiously) today and couldn’t tolerate it.

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If I was in an MFA fiction program I’d focus on writing dark satire in the vein of yesteryear about a political man in the public eye who wants to become a film star, is deeply patriarchal and feels entitled to an affair. He resents his second wife, and the first wife has been so traumatized that she’s left to go become a hippie, grow cabbages and live in a cave in goa with lesbian Russian women. Then the daughter enters the arena as a political star in her own right and this results in a highly publicized tiff between father-daughter, the clashing of egos etc. The book must end in utter denouement and a bitter downfall of the dude. I have the rough outline but to make a compelling novel out of the topic requires considerable skill — both in language and in pacing, which I severely lack. But it is definitely the sort of book I’d want to read. Racy, sour, South Indian political horror-lit.

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I actually sat down and did research for this by mining into the life of the yogeshwara family and the politics of small-town MLAs.

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Oooohoho it’s about to get WILD. Yogheshwar just announced his return to the cinemas by launching his hulk of a second son into the limelight in sainika 2. And nisha showed up outside his house with a broken foot, talking to a camera in front of a locked gate, demanding justice.

And comments section is unsparing. Best comment? “MLA WEST BODY”

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A MONTH. A MONTH since I ordered my vitamins!!! It’s still not here and I’m so fucking done. I emailed the company and they are like I’m not gonna give you a refund and send you a replacement and guess what? Even the replacement is lost in the mail. I’m losing my bloody mind.

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Got a refund. I’m still pissed off about this though.

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There was a table read for a South Asian mythological story, and it was over zoom and the actors weren’t going to be paid but I still was like you know, I wanna do it! So I shot an email and within a day they were like ‘sorry we aren’t considering people’ — you aren’t? Then why advertise? These days I’m not even able to land unpaid table reads, forget paid gigs.

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I didn’t even try for another table read with cloud playhouse. I literally don’t have the bandwidth.

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I sold my oil paints and primed canvas. I never used them, it was better to just let them go

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A productive day of sorting through stuff. I’ve been in a terrible, terrible slump this past month, easily the worst in years. I could feel my body and spirit just give up. Nothing interested me — I was not reading books or doing anything fun with my time. I’m still mostly like that but there are days like these when I emerge into some mental clarity and I can get things done. I sold some of my coffee table books today. Cleaned up a lot. Felt good after.

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EXTREMELY delayed commentary but the fact that it took Peddi for everyone to realise how much Tollywood fucks up female characters is concerning

-Chaos

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THEY ARE COMING BACK TO ME 🥹🤍

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Did anyone else feel the latest Enola Holmes movie felt very incohesive and messy. Compared to the other two this wasn't great, it had it's cute moments with Enola and Tewksbury and Enola with Dr Watson. Also the one story told by Dr Watson about his relationship with Sherlock which was very sweet.

But Eudoria felt like a caricature of herself, like no mention was made of her being a suffragette, only that she likes to make expositions and is on the run because of that.

And how the whole story played out, it was just messy.

Did anyone else feel that?