Zizi

Marcy/Two/Zi multi-fandom!!!| 19! They/them + it/its!! GoldenBows CEO

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Silly intro cause yeahh!!!

Hi i'm Zi, i also go by Marcy, Zero and Two!! I am a multi-fandom artist, my main interests being murder drones, AvA/M / Alan becker, project hail mary, CRK and the Backrooms!!!

My strawpage below has a list of all my interests and my DNI list (i am not typing all that out LOL)

Shop Detail

link to my ACGGOODS shop where i sell fan merch of my interests!, feel free to send suggestions or ideas!!!

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my pronouns are they/it which is also in my bio

I am a huge Goldenbows/Nessa (N x Tessa) shipper, they bring me a lot of comfort, they're basically canon in two of my aus. i am also a multi-shipper! i love Nuzi too :3 (They are not mother and son before you mention that, that's just a very popular HEADCANON) <- referring to Nessa btw

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Drawing requests and any questions are currently [ OPEN!! ]

Here's a list of things i WILL draw;

I will draw most ships like: Nuzi, Envy, Tholl, Vizzy, Thadzi, N x Uzi x V, Nessa and Nhad

also non murder drones ships too and stuff that isnt ships!!! :3

A list of things i WILL NOT draw;

NSFW, Suggestive stuff, any SD-J ships (i personally don't ship her with anyone, i don't mind possibly drawing oilrose or Joll but the chances are low)

other stuff is obvious in my dni list

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end of intro tehe

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"yellow jumps up into greens arms" okay man i fucking knew it, yellow you yearned for him so bad oh my god

also the panel before saying "both look at each other. yellow looks at green for the first time" BROOOOOO

ALSO THE GUIDE LINES SHOWING THAT GREEN BURIES HIS FACE INTO THE HUG TOO

I NEED THEM DEAD OH MY GOD /j

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the difference between the storyboard hug and finalised hug oh my god the colour gang is literally a do not separate ever man

you two we're only split up for a day or two, losers with separation anxiety on god

i love these losers oh my god

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"yellow jumps up into greens arms" okay man i fucking knew it, yellow you yearned for him so bad oh my god

also the panel before saying "both look at each other. yellow looks at green for the first time" BROOOOOO

ALSO THE GUIDE LINES SHOWING THAT GREEN BURIES HIS FACE INTO THE HUG TOO

I NEED THEM DEAD OH MY GOD /j

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Green and Yellow in my au if you even care

imagine being paid to be the rocket corps kid's friend because you performed at one of their birthdays once and their family noticed how much they liked you but you don't care for the money and just want to make someone feel happy + safe, but you lowkey also want that money for new equipment for your band, couldn't be Green LOL /vsilly

btw yellow in this AU hasn't had friends since TSC had to move away so they lowkey lonely and don't have the right concept of what a friend should be or what the connections should feel like, they also self isolated a lot growing up due to struggling to fit in and how stick figures their age perceived them

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Creature - TSC PMV

HAPPY 20TH ANNIVERSARY AvA!!!

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i know the interest is strong when i start making aus for it, this is my third AvA/M au now but it started all because of a stuoid concept i wanted to turn into a head canon

also yes poly rocket is canon in this au along with implied secyellow, secgreen and green x yellow (me when i put my favs into a poly)

if you cant tell yellow is my fav and i like making them suffer /vsilly

this au is obviously a work in progress still and i want poly rocket to live happily together, btw i will find a way to make TDL relevant in this au some how

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god I wonder how exhausted TSC is going to be after he's gets out the machine, there's no way he wont collapse into his friends arms or the arms of whoever saves him

he'll definitely let out a sigh of relief as soon as he's free too, I like to imagine his friends will watch over him as he recovers due to his power being super over used and the fact he can't even handle his other powers yet either

the colour gangs separation anxiety is going to get 10x worse man LOL

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i need to finish the design for my rocky keychain that matches with my grace one but on god i will be making backrooms movie fan merch and more avm fan merch afterwards defo

then it'll hopefully be more MD stuff

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Backrooms movie spoilers!!! (also please correct me if any of this is wrong!!!!)

I love how the huge meaning behind the movie is mental health and how you perceive things can turn on you Even if it’s remembered wrong consistently it’ll still circle back and get you, the whole thing of letting go which can help save you temporarily is so interesting cause regardless if you escape or not the backrooms will remember a part of you, it’ll constantly remember till it no longer looks like you the way it acts will just be a shell of who you were

For the example Clark had a victim complex he blamed everything, everyone but himself He was basically angry at the world Captain Clark, the backrooms version of him is very aggressive and can/will cause harm to anything around it. It’s like this cause of what the backrooms knows about Clark, he’s trying to keep his business up, he’s angry at everyone but himself so the fact he dies from the backrooms version of himself is really telling on how everything he’s done would come back to get him

Also Mary being a contrast to Clark is so interesting too She learned to let go move on from her past and also finally learned get rid of her mother Mary saviour complex The still lifes represent you mentally, the backrooms remembers everything it sees but at the same time it doesn’t. It remembers but mere pieces, Mary’s still life is calm stuck in one area but this area is the backrooms poor replication of where she was at the end of movie, in an Async room answering questions, which really makes you think how much does the backrooms know without you even being there because that scene happened after she escaped after she let go. It could possibly represent that there’s a fear of going back there that there’s a part of you forever trapped unable to escape while the rest of you is able to move on or it’s based off Mary’s fear believing that Async put her back there as a tool of experimentation.

The backrooms hold onto memories, but it’s like y’know people with dementia or whatever the right disorder is again, for example you get an artist with it to draw over and over again you’ll see the art degrade over time looking like nothing more that just wires, that’s how the backrooms work, it holds memories but after time it remembers everything incorrectly causes it all to still exist just not in the way it should be remembered. Also the way captain Clark killed Clark’s co-workers is just proof that he’s causing harm to those around him just for him to die to the same thing cause it all comes full circle

Also I love how the Async worker Phil, practically had to lie to Mary because she's just a citizen but at same time he knows she saw things she shouldn't have. also I love how he's the same guy who saw Clark in the camera and made a connection through seeing his add then Async finding Mary who was running from still life Clark. I love how everything is connected

also all the VHS parts were so cool not only does it help blend into Kane pixels work but it also represents the time period. also Clark and Mary being contrasts to each other is so cool but cooler when you realise they share a similarity which is being lonely, both coped differently too but it created unhealthy habits.

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just got back from watching the backrooms movie and holy shit man it was a fucking masterpiece, i love how its technically a continuation of Kane pixels backrooms series already, i love that we got to see at least one or two different biomes too

but oh my god i finally understand why people where so disturbed by the dinner scene

but bro i will be watching this movie on repeat when it comes out on streaming services holy shit man

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I'm going to see the backrooms movie tomorrow and I keep seeing this one clip of Clark taking a stool out of the backrooms with him, he's obviously making sure he's not going insane or dreaming but like why did he do that

the stool is NOT that important /silly

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ngl i lowkey wanna draw this scene from yellows perspective (i'd also love to see someone else draw it too)

you cant tell me he didnt start tearing up when he saw green, like the concept of the first thing he processes being either greens worried face or awkward relieved smile and then he immediately hugs him

yellow and green give the best hugs trust, i just know yellow was yearning to have a hug from one of his friends again, i love how one of the colour gangs shared love languages is hugging

the way green is hugging yellow reminds me of those kinds of hugs that say "hey its okay i got you now"/"you're safe with me" oh green to think the fandom nearly made me hate you, green is the sweetest guy ever

i will cry if anything happens to these two and the others

i dont think bro was ready to end that hug yet, why is your arm still wrapped around green bro /silly

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i got this stupid joke in my head after ithe thumbnail dropped LOL

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AvA 13 spoilers!!

please quickly scroll past this if you havent watched the episode yet!!!11

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green and yellow getting held like cats is so funny to me

i also love how after yellow recognised who saved him bro did not hesitate at all to hug green (as a green x yellow shipper too this made me so happy too, tbh i love how their colours clash well together too)

i will not be surprised if all the colour gang has separation anxiety, green defo does tho its so obvious

im very fond of Victims reaction to finding out it was really dark who killed Mitsi and Chosen tried to stop him, bro was rightfully pissed

also Mitsi slowing backing away in this scene made me giggle, girl did NOT want to be involved in any of darks crazy shit, like imagine being brought back to life and the first thing you process is watching your partner die then get revived and then you watch it happen again with a worker like yeah i would not want to be involved in that either

just gonna say i fucking love this part, i love when shows or movies do this in animation, its like their way of telling you how fucked up and evil dark is and how he shows no mercy towards anyone, hes so fucking cool man

also the way Victim (i know this is him basically mind controlled by Dark as he snuck his virabot into the machine) can just make TSCs power inactive and active is fucking crazy

this episode was fucking sick and the fact we're gonna get more stuff centring mitsi is so awesome

LIKE OMG

AVA 14 IS GONNA BE PEAK WHENEVER IT COMES OUT

Alan please dont fumble Mitsi's writing i beg

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if TSC was a villian we would NEED bro gone holy shit

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one thing i can say tho is that it made me giggle finding out TSC has the ability to communicate with animals, okay fluttershy /silly

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AvA 13 was something holy shit, never change TDL never change

but still you can also see why it took so long the huge use of 3D assets and mix that with everything else its crazy

its only just came out so i will save fellow AvA fans from spoilers but oh my god prepare yourself for it if you havent watched it yet