but it's my will

independent & selective clary fairchild. sideblog to starsdusted.

[willedivine]

independent & private CLARY FAIRCHILD from freeform’s shadowhunters, based in seasons one - three ( divergent after season three ). SIDEBLOG to starsdusted.

GUIDELINES | CANON DIVERGENCE ( under construction ) | PLOTTING CALL

where else to find me:

CARELESSGRACES — astoria grimani, modern witch / inquisitor ( crossover-based ). medium activity. HOLYLIGHTS — horror / scifi / fantasy multifandom multimuse. canon & oc. low activity. STARSDUSTED — central blog for several rp sideblogs, including daimon helstrom, elena gilbert, and queen guinevere. DEATHTURNED — saskia falkenrath. the old guard oc. medium activity

[willedivine]

plotting call !! please like this post if you’d be interested in plotting with clary, whether in her canon verses or any of her AUs and crossover verses. open to all mutuals.

[willedivine]

BLOG CREDIT

RP Icons: All Kat McNamara icons made by me. Jaime Ray Newman icons found here.

Blog icon: By ahickeyfromsawicki on Tumblr.

Theme: Code by octomoosey on Tumblr. Background by villainsrph on Tumblr.

Mobile header: Made by me. 

Promos: Made by me.

Navigation bar: Background image by the-time-turner on DeviantArt. Code by agirlingrey on Tumblr.

Tag quotes: taken from various songs, poems, and pieces of literature. Sources available on request.

DISCLAIMER

I am not, nor do I claim to be, the character presented on this blog, or any of the face claims used here. I do not own the Vampire Diaries universe, nor am I affiliated with it; all credit for the universes utilized on this blog goes to their respective creators. I do not own any of the graphics or images used on this blog unless otherwise stated, and I own nothing but my own writing. Nothing on this blog is used for financial gain or profit in any way.

The Stuff that IS Mine

Everything I draw from for Clary can be found in canon; I just expand upon my favorite parts. The only thing that is wholly mine is my specific divergence from canon, and that is built alongside createdivine.

[willedivine]

GUIDELINES

BEFORE INTERACTING

About the writer: Marianne, she/her, 27, EST. I’ll answer to Ani or Mari, as well. Full-time grad student, working two jobs. My time is limited and this is for fun!

This is a private and selective blog for CLARISSA FAIRCHILD of Shadowhunters. This blog will feature triggering material, including plot-appropriate violence, sex, drug/alcohol use, discussion of abuse, and other potentially triggering content. I will tag all common triggers, and anything I am asked to tag. Please take care if you follow!

Please tag sexual violence of any kind (including ‘dubious consent’ and somnophilia), and images of spiders.

ON INTERACTING & FOLLOWING

This blog is mutuals only. This is a sideblog to starsdusted, and I will follow back from that blog only. The only exception to this is for members of group verses. If I follow you, I want to write with you! OCs, multimuses, and crossovers are always, always welcome!

I reserve the right to not follow, unfollow, or block users as I see fit, including for the following reasons:

You are under 18, or have no mention of your age/age range on your blog. All minors who follow this blog will be softblocked.

You are inactive for more than six weeks. (If you come back to your blog, please message me so I can refollow!)

You repeatedly ignore my rules.

You don’t seem interested in writing with me, and have a pattern of not responding to my attempts to interact (repeatedly ignoring starters, memes, etc.)

You romanticize Nazis in any way, shape, or form.

You write “dark themes” such as abuse in a disrespectful manner. It’s possible to write on a “dark theme” without romanticizing or fetishizing it.

You engage in racist, sexist, cissexist, homophobic, ableist, or otherwise harmful behavior.

You guilt and/or manipulate me or any of your followers.

I feel distress or unease writing with you, engaging with you, or seeing you on my dashboard.

Regarding cisswapped characters: I will not follow or interact with cisswapped characters written by cis writers. (I’m cis; it’s not my place to tell anyone who isn’t how to approach gender.)

Regarding “overpowered” characters: I don’t enjoy writing with characters that are completely devoid of flaws, vulnerabilities, or weaknesses – it’s just not fun for me when there aren’t any real stakes, and the rules of whichever universe we’re playing in don’t apply to one of the characters involved.

Feel free to write greeters, send memes, turn memes into threads, and message me to plot! Please don’t write me unsolicited starters otherwise.

I don’t require reblog karma, though I don’t like being used as a meme source if we never interact.

Regarding duplicates: please come write with me! I don’t experience duplicate (character or face claim) anxiety or insecurity and would love to bond over a character we both clearly adore.

ON CANON & FANDOMS

My Clary is EXCLUSIVELY SHOW BASED. I am critical of the show, but I very much enjoy it. I do not like the books, and will not be incorporating elements found exclusively in the books into my portrayal of Clary, nor will I write book-based plots. For this reason, I’m unlikely to follow or write with blogs that are exclusively book-based, or excessively anti-show. Any negative posts will be appropriately tagged as #( anti cc ) and/or #( anti tmi ).

I am perfectly happy to have conversations or answer questions on the subject, but I’m not interested in getting into the book vs show drama. Excessive negativity is boring, and one can be critical of the media one consumes without it taking over one’s entire blog. I’m not interested in non-stop show or character hate, especially untagged.

Any worldbuilding outside of the show will be drawn from Sherrilyn Kenyon’s Darkhunters series.

There are only a handful of fandoms I will not interact with, due to my own comfort. I may interact with the characters in AUs if I am comfortable with the writer. Find the list here.

ON RELATIONSHIPS

I love playing with established relationships of any nature. Come and plot with me if you want to jump right into a dynamic of any kind! If our characters have a canonical relationship, I’d love to discuss that further and see where we can go!

I love shipping, and am always interested in exploring new dynamics. With that said, I reserve the right to limit or refuse any plot that makes me uncomfortable. I won’t write incest (relationships between third or greater cousins is fine, but nothing closer than that), and while I am very comfortable writing complicated relationships, I won’t romanticize abuse or toxicity, or write explicit abuse scenes.

It’s important to me that whatever our ship is, we as writers can appreciate one another’s characters as individuals as well. Ships need to involve give-and-take, and effort on all sides. Please only approach me to discuss a ship if you’re comfortable with making that effort, and are interested in Clary as a character on her own and not merely as an accessory for someone else’s development.

PLEASE NOTE — I know that statements like “stop saying your muse is bisexual when they’re straight and you just want ally cred” are meant well, but the suggestion that you, especially if you’re not bi yourself, are the arbiter of legitimate or illegitimate bisexuality based on the gender identity of someone’s past or present partner(s), is itself pretty biphobic, even when well-intended. I’m very bi and very tired. Please stop making me read that in your rules.

ON CONTENT

Please understand that the source material I draw from deals with potentially triggering material, including (but not limited to) violence, sex, drug/alcohol use, and abuse. All of these topics will be dealt with on this blog. With that said, I do reserve the right to refuse to write anything for any reason, especially my own comfort.

I am a legal adult and am comfortable writing legal adults having consensual sex. I will not write smut with or about anyone under the age of eighteen. I am perfectly comfortable with and willing to write scenes fading to black or time jumps. I will not use visual aids of any kind in replies involving graphic sex and ask that you do the same. All NSFW images and text will be tagged as #nsfw;

My formatting is minimal – typically small text and 100x100 icons. English is weird, in spelling and grammar. I don’t super care if you get it right all the time. If I need clarification, I’ll ask!

The dash updates were great for me, as a person with limited visibility. I won’t follow anyone sacrificing accessibility for aesthetics, including with photoshop replies, impossible-to-see icons, and purple prose excessive to the point of being incomprehensible.

If you are uncomfortable with anything you see here, please let me know. I am not perfect and I am sure I’ll make mistakes; if that happens, and you’re comfortable, tell me, and I’ll make every effort to fix it and to be better in the future, in the case of me doing something harmful.

CREDIT

Found here.

EXCLUSIVITY

Notes – If I am exclusive with a particular portrayal, please do not approach me to write with other versions of these characters on this blog. Please also know that I’m unlikely to drop exclusivity for any reason besides extensive (two or more months) inactivity, or breaking mutuals. Threads which ignore or disrespect my exclusivity will be dropped.

Exclusives:

Draco Malfoy – potterstillstinks

Ginny Weasley – gxtenoughnxrve

Jace Herondale – createdivine

Hope Mikaelson – sacrificeal

Ron Weasley – thegreaterfool

Sabrina Spellman – risenwtch

Vanya Hargreeves – violeblanch

[masterofallevils]

I used the wish to bring you back.

[willedivine]

loreborne‌:

@willedivine​  gets  a  thing  bc  i  love  her 

     “  you  really  shouldn’t  be  touching  that. ”   fresh  off  the  portal  from  idris,  and  paris  before  that,  she’s  barely  been  back  in  brooklyn  a  day  when  she’s  met  with  the  institute’s  newest  presence  —  a  fire-haired  girl  with  a  penchant  for  sticking  her  nose  into  places  it  doesn’t  belong  (  at  least,  that’s  how  alec  had  described  her  —  isabelle  seemed  far  more  entertained.  and  jace?  he  didn’t  say  much  at  all,  but  then  again,  he  never  does ).  “ you  don’t  know  how  to  wield  these  yet.  without  training,  you’re  more  of a  danger  to  yourself  by  holding  this  than  to  any  demon. ” 

"Well,” Clary says, and she doesn’t put the bow down but she does handle it with more visible care than she had considered before, “best way to learn is to try, isn’t it? And I figure it’s the same principle as anything else. The pointy end goes into the demon.”

     But even with her joking, Clary takes it seriously. It would be impossible not to take all of this seriously. Her mother is missing; her father is, apparently, a literal evil mastermind; and she is, apparently, the only person who can find a magic goblet that will control demons, make new Shadowhunters, and generally either save or ruin the day, depending on who has it. She’s tired. She’s irritable. She’d like very much to be at home, safe and secure and comfortable, and not here, but home has burned down and this is, apparently, all she has.

     She does put the bow away now, and she extends a hand to the stranger. Seems polite enough, and if she can get along with Alec ( no guarantee yet that she can, but that’s not going to stop her from trying ) she can get along with anyone. “I’m Clary. Which you probably already know.”

[willedivine]

@sacrificeal​:

   "𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔.“ It’s less tactful than she’d like — a blunt thought slipping out from between her lips before her brain has a chance to catch it — but it’s true nonetheless. She is Valentine’s daughter — & he killed her parents without so much as a thought. Or rather, there was plenty of thought put into it — for killing a hybrid & the werewolf that birthed the tribrid would bode well among his followers. But she can tell Clary is not her biological father. She was raised with kindness & values & so much love. It’s how she too was raised ( even though many would tell her otherwise … they did not see the Mikaelsons through the eyes of their only progeny ). “I don’t, though — for the record. You’re not bad, for a SHADOWHUNTER.”  

@willedivine​

Well. There are certainly more pleasant greetings, and Clary is about to say as much — but she bites her tongue, certain that this is harder for Hope to admit to than she might think. ( And Clary knows, even if she hates it, that there’s plenty of reason for people to be uncomfortable around her, all things considered. ) Her lips curl up as Hope continues, and after a beat she nods. “That’s good to know. We’ll work a lot better together if we can get along.” You’re not so bad, she thinks, for a Mikaelson — but more and more she wonders if perhaps the things she hears aren’t skewed, if perhaps the Mikaelsons deserved a chance to rewrite their legacy. It seems Hope is doing just that. 

     Shoulders raised against the biting cold of a New York autumn, Clary shoves her hands into the pockets of her jacket and comes to a stop, turning to face Hope. Better, she thinks, that they get used to being honest with each other sooner than later. “Are you sure you want to be here for all of this?” she asks finally, and her voice is soft, and gentle, and kind. “Valentine will be coming after you, too. Not that I think you can’t defend yourself, just — nobody could blame you if you wanted to protect yourself.”

[willedivine]

@createdivine​ HAPPY BIRTHDAY

She’d considered a lot of options. There had been a leather jacket that she had come back to about a dozen times, and that’s in there, too – but it hadn’t been enough. Nothing she’d looked at had been enough, considering what they’ve been through in the past year alone. ( There’s no go-to gift, she’s learned, that says Happy birthday, I love you and I’m sorry we thought we were siblings for a little while and I’m glad we’re not. Nor is there a card that says that, and she couldn’t quite bring herself to say it to him out loud. )

     When she knocks on his door, Clary is practically buzzing with excitement, and the moment it opens she sweeps into the room. She reaches out with her free hand to grab the front of his shirt, fingers curling in the fabric, and tug him closer to her – and then she’s simply smiling as widely as she can, almost too much to kiss him properly. Reluctantly, she pulls away from him, only far enough to speak.

     “Happy birthday.”

     And then she’s stepping back for real, shoving his gift into his hands – the jacket, a flattering style more for form than function ( even Shadowhunters deserve to look good on a day off ), and, in the bag beneath the jacket, a leather-bound journal of staff paper. ( She loves to listen to him play, loves watching him furrow his brow and scratch something idly on whatever paper he has nearby before returning his attention to the piano. ) 

     “How busy are you today?”

[willedivine]

━━━   CHARACTER   DETAIL.

GENERAL .

NAME.     clarissa adele fray fairchild. NICKNAME(S).     clary. AGE.     18 ( mainverse ). SPECIES.     shadowhunter.

PERSONAL .

MORALITY.     lawful  /  neutral  /  CHAOTIC.     ━━━   GOOD  /  neutral  / evil. RELIGIOUS BELIEF.     jewish ( converted, reform ). SINS.     envy  /  greed  /  lust  /  gluttony  /  sloth  /  pride  /  wrath. VIRTUES.     chastity  /  humility  /  charity /  diligence  /  kindness  /  patience  /  temperance. PRIMARY GOALS IN LIFE.     to do as little harm, and as much good, as possible. LANGUAGES KNOWN.     fluent in english, conversational spanish, basic hebrew. SECRETS.     this is rough in part bc clary – doesn’t get a lot of privacy. she’s terrified of having her memory and / or mind manipulated again, and while she trusts magnus absolutely, she’s less comfortable around other downworlders who could alter her perception of reality. she’s had nightmares about lake lyn, but she has nightmares about the demon from 2.05, too, and she refuses to talk about it – her fears don’t stem only from the shadow world. her greatest fear, we know, is isolation, but she won’t talk about the unhealthy extents she’ll go to in order to avoid that fear. she’s terrified that she did irreparable harm in bringing simon and jace back, but she also knows that she’s selfish enough that she’d do it again anyway. and she will always, always blame herself for jonathan’s death, and she holds herself responsible for the damage jonathan’s done. SAVVIES.     clary is an extremely talented artist. she has a lot of kind of useless skills – she can tie a cherry stem in a knot with her tongue, she can do very basic sleight-of-hand magic tricks, and she’s really skilled at card tricks. she does impressions of people that are usually very, very good. she can also recite the first episode of star trek: the next generation word-for-word. she refers to this smattering of useless skills as “collecting hobbies.”

PHYSICAL .

BUILD.     scrawny  /  bony  /  slender  /  fit  /  athletic /  curvy  /  herculean  /  pudgy  /  average  /  muscled ( she’s getting there !! ). HEIGHT.     5′5″. HAIR.    medium length, naturally wavy, reddish orange, thick.   SCARS / BIRTHMARKS.     no birthmarks. clary has several small scars on her arms and hands from training and battle mishaps, but no big ones yet. ABILITIES / POWERS.     general shadowhunter strength and endurance, emphasized through her runes. ability to create runes. extremely charismatic. RESTRICTIONS.     standard human restrictions, i suppose? though she’s allergic to mushrooms.

FAVOURITES .

FOOD.   almond biscotti. DRINK.     vanilla lattes. PIZZA TOPPING.     depending on her mood – either fresh mozzarella and basil and tomatoes, or mac and cheese. COLOR(S).     it changes by the day. for clothes, she tends to favor darker tones, and neutrals. her favorite, favorite, favorite color, though, is bright blue. MUSIC GENRE.     pop / rock. BOOK GENRE.     sci-fi / fantasy. MOVIE GENRE.     sci-fi, but only if the aliens are the good guys. SEASONS.     late spring / early summer. SCENT(S).     fresh coffee, pancakes, pomegranate, blueberry.

FUN STUFF .

SINGS IN THE SHOWER.     absolutely. LIKES BAD PUNS.     honestly, the worse the pun, the more she likes it. CURSE WORDS.     frequently and with great relish.