Hello, everyone calls me 'Gardenia'. I'm a 15 year-old girl who lives somewhere in Southeast Asia.
And I have told a huge lie for quite a long time now. Which I'm pretty sure most of you all will be pissed as you continue reading this. But hey, I can't exactly keep this up any longer and maintain the blog and my facade.
Truth is, in the beginning, I created this little persona and blog because I was dragged along by a friend of mine. She wanted to make the lie seemed more real, so she asked me to make this account.
I agreed to her because, I honestly find it hard to say "no". And also, because, back then when I first made this account, let's just say my mind was in a really terrible condition, I was heartbroken back then. And I felt like everything in my life was falling apart. So I wanted to escape, by being someone else. And this is how 'Gardenia' came to be.
Now, why 'Gardenia'? There's something behind the name that I made up. What's the meaning behind the flower? One of them was 'secret love'. I fell for someone who I never thought I could ever have. So this was a secret. My secret.
But as time passes by, I actually made friends here. I love Sound Horizon a lot, so I followed some Laurants, and I did not expect that I would actually be followed back! And as the time goes on, I made new friends here.
I appreciate everyone's kindness, you all welcomed me so warmly. And you all dragged me more and more into the dark pit (if you know what I mean), but still. I had fun. I had a great time being 'Gardenia'.
But now, it's over.
I apologize to everyone. I truly am sorry for lying to everyone. I'm pretty sure you all hate me now-- Or you don't give a shit at all in the first place. Either way, it's okay. I truly have learned my lesson over these months of disappearance. I'm done running away. So this account won't be used anymore. I'll be deleting it one of these days.
Who am I exactly, you may ask?
Well, this is the real me.
