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29 ♡ mentally ill alcoholic fangirl ♡ venting blog ♡

[gleecontext]

GLEE S04E14 I Do

[girlwiththemostcakee-deactivate]

I feel so stupid, it's like, there are so many things I'll never be able to know or understand

[slipng]

[mityenka]

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

[noodles-07]

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

[hitmyvape-deactivated20251006]

i feel like getting shot would feel so interesting for two seconds and then it would probably feel bad

[leofwines-deactivated20250831]

imagine how good it must feel to press a gun to your temple after a bad day and just hold it there with your eyes closed for a few minutes before sighing and putting it away

[winecals]

i'm always gonna be an unemployed, worthless, disgusting, ugly, fat, freak of a nobody. i disappoint everyone around me and they're getting fed up af and honestly who could blame them. if i was still that 16/17 year old girl in high school maybe it would be excusable but that was so long ago. i'm pushing 29 and i'm still just Like This. i should've just killed myself then and got it over with bc adulthood is so much worse. we're struggling to pay the bills and it's my fault bc my selfish, lazy ass just stays in bed or on the computer most of the time instead of actually trying to get a job. and all i care abt besides my fandoms and distractions is alcohol and drinking. maybe i should've just forced myself to go to rehab and get sober like my therapist wanted and then came out and forced myself to get back into the stupid workforce bc capitalism am i right?. "well everything costs money that's just how it is, baby 🤪🤪" why does everything have to be so expensive? why are we born and just forced to work until we die? all of this is pointless and i'm so fucking tired of myself and my own existence. NONE of this was worth it. i should've never stayed alive this long i'm wasting everybody's time. i'm a pathetic, lazy, selfish loser and everybody hates me. why can't i just disappear into a forest so i can overdose or bleed out already? fuck ALL of this. all of it. i hate myself and i always will. it literally never gets better idgaf. i just wasn't meant for this life or any life. at all. my existence is completely worthless.

[pixiecaps]

they need to invent a being alone with ur thoughts that doesnt end with u wanting to kill urself

[brianstowell]

[inside-her--mind]

someone should do me a favor and run me over with a car. k thanks.

[boys-and-suicide-deactivated201]

It’s been a bad life.

[petalbrina]

“Just another night, filled with thoughts about suicide.”

— (via devotedtothedemonsinside)

[petalbrina]

“It feels as if I’m wanted one day and then the next I’m not.”

— or basically everyday (cutting-our-way-til-suicide)

[petalbrina]

“Everyone thinks we’re mad Surely we’re too young to be this sad We’re thinking about suicide and dying Surely we’re too young to be this sad All these problems we have Surely we’re too young to be this sad Anxiety, Depression, Anorexia, Bulimia, Bipolar Surely we’re too young to be this sad Too many kids need to self-harm Too many kids have cuts on their arms Too many kids are alone We shouldn’t feel this alone Teenage years should be full with good times Not bad They should be full of tears that fell because we laughed too hard Not because we’re finding life too hard We need our smiles to be upright Not upside down I’d rather be scared of a clown Than myself Because surely we’re too young to be this sad”

— (a.j.b)

[boys-and-suicide-deactivated201]

Love is so painful but I want it so badly

[boys-and-suicide-deactivated201]

Things People Say To Depressed People

lol I was depressed once just get over it it’s not that hard stop overreacting people have it worse you’re making me sad it’s a special day and you should cheer up i’m annoyed with you you’re wasting your life

feel free to add on

[sadness-1-0-1]

You’re being selfish You’re hurting the people around you

[ayusaurus]

You laugh and smile so easily You don’t look depressed

[majorarabu-deactivated20161103]

You’re lying. Why don’t you try to look happy? You’re boring. Why are you being so rude? What about ____? Quit thinking about yourself for once. You’re making it worse. Were you diagnosed with it? You don’t have the right to be selfish. You’re not the person I used to know. Depression doesn’t exist. You do this to yourself.

[a-gay-mess-tbh]

I want the old (insert name) back. Are you on your period? It’s your music that’s making you sad. No one wants to be around you when you’re sad all the time. You just want attention.

[redeyes-thinthighs]

You should eat something Why won’t you talk to me? You’re overreacting Get over it Its part of your age it’s just hormones It will go away Why do you never go out? You’re so funny It’s because of your sleeping habits Get a therapist, you’ll be fine Why can’t you get up in the morning? You’re lazy Why did you text me so many times Why are you still awake? Why do you sleep so much? You have everything you need

[ana-please-save-me]

Quit being so negative.

Why are you so negative all the time.

Clearly you’re just doing this for attention.

I totally understand how you’re feeling, I’m sad sometimes too.

Are you PMSing?

Nobody likes being around somebody who’s grumpy all the time.

At least try and act nice and happy.

[username-okay]

Just cheer up Aww, it’s okay, you’ll get over it Yeah, I get sad too. I was sad when I had a lock of hair out of place. Oh well have a good happy day! Just get over it You’re just tired or hungry, you can’t be depressed Smile Think about something else, something happier Be better Get better Lol you must be joking *someone makes a suicide joke* You’re fine Stop exaggerating

[petalbrina]

“Its all in your head” “all you do is focus on the negatives” “you’re wasting your whole life” - i got these thrown at me thru personal experience