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26 years old & trying my best

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m. 26 years old. been here since i was 13 and my weight’s been all over the place. on my third full relapse

stats ⤵︎

height: 5’1 / 156 cm

HW: 178 lbs / 81 kg

LW: 97 lbs / 44 kg

SW: 165 lbs / 75 kg

CW: 110 lbs / 50 kg

UGW: 105-110 lbs / 47-50 kg

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i’m feeling really 👎🏽 today

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i’m making sundays my rest day from the gym and now i’m pacing across my apartment for steps lol

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my hair has been falling out like crazy, the constipation has been genuinely debilitating, and i haven’t gotten my period for the last two months. i know it’s bad, i know i’ve been overexercising, but i can’t stop because the thought of gaining weight back and not fitting my clothes again drives fear into me like nothing else

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i’m kinda sorta back

got really fed up with my relapse, tried to go the healthy route, gained muscle (good) but scale went up because of it. and as much as i know i look healthy and more toned i freaked out and now i’m here 🫠

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i ate a shit ton of watermelon it was awesome

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just got back from walking to and from the grocery store 😎 1 hour walk total let’s goooo

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breakfast :)

plain keto bread toast & a serving of fat-free cottage cheese w/ black pepper

120 cals, 10 grams fiber, 19 grams protein

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threw away the leftover donuts because i kept thinking about them

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5/7/26

106.7 this morning

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i’m down an inch off my waist since last month yet the scale hasn’t even gone down that much

i measured my waist at 27 inches on 4/9 and it measured 26 inches today, 5/6

i weighed 111.1 on 4/9 and 108.5 today, 5/6

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5/6/26

930 cals in today

21.5k steps — 1.5 hour incline walk on the treadmill + 30 minute outdoor walk. apple watch says i burned 790 cals

i did pretty good today. i honestly could have skipped dinner, but with my cravings lately and how much i moved today, i want to play it safe and eat enough that i won’t go binge-crazy again 😅

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i know i go to the gym but i really want a walking pad at home. it’s too hot to go out for walks 80% of the time. and then i could just be in our room walkin away

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i need to see the scale dip below 105. i’m freaking out. and also sad that my goalpost keeps moving the more i lose

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5/6/26

108.5 this morning 🫠

i know i couldn’t have gained 3 pounds in the last two days. i do i do i do. so WHY does this always DESTROY ME

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5/5/26

about 1900 cals in today

15.3k steps, just a light outdoor walk. apple watch says i burned 420 cals

i was doing great all day, but i’ve been in a depressive episode and my husband wanted to take me to dinner. had to estimate cals. the dessert is what killed it. i’m sad and donuts seemed nice. i hate that i feel that way with food

i’m not gonna bother putting my individual cal counts here because it’s just for me and i can’t be bothered to paste them in lol

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i was able to go for a 25 minute walk at the park before work tho 👍🏽