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23| a log of ephiphanies, horniness, desires, yearning, love and growing pains. ☆°▪︎♧

[winkingluna]

meet cute

i just had a meet cute...at a library. Girl. this is the first time i have had an intellectual conversation with someone outside of my mother and brother. he was interested in my ideas? haha, yes he was. and he was listening too and having input of his own. i learnt about his passion to learn in pursuit of teaching back.

i believe that we were both equally pleased and surprised at the entire encounter, and all it required was his bravery and my openess.

once i realized that this was not an approach for ego or desire on his part but for genuine curiosity, is when my veil dropped. he asked me why i wanted to read a text book on anthropology. esther perel you have done it again.

[winkingluna]

This is a log of the sign that i may one day fall stupidly, wonderfully and completely in love with my lover one day. The man I still think about a year later is a mark of the last time I had felt my attention be completely zoned in due to my attraction to this man. His paired and obvious attraction to me was consuming. Mutual attraction is an amazing feeling, truly. I find it rare. It gives me the feeling of a healthy fever. And I miss it, I want it again. Desire come over me in the form of a good looking man. It helped that he was British.

[winkingluna]

The rapture and its lessons

i had a dream last night where i was not aware that i had been living my life in such a still manner, all in faith that it would be good enough to be accepted by as good. So, then the rapture happend, there was no chaos or distress. My family had stayed behind and had the same confusion as I did. How did i not get chosen when i have done no wrong?

That is when God spoke. Doing nothing is not equivalent to being good. Moving and experiencing, being wrong and not knowing what the next step is and still choosing to have faith that all that you do with a spirit of wonder and obedience is what goodness is. Moving and holding His hand is the best thing you can do.

So move, be seen at your worst and at your most confused, have a still and confident heart by holding His hand through it all. Then you will come to know who God always knew you were. "You will be full and ready, in time you will join. Stay below and learn, you have time, do not fear"

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[paleoakgifs]

Hamish Linklater as Cipher Gen V S2 Ep 4: Bags

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New fictional crush to dream about at my work desk !!

[nafeathers]

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My first laugh in Big Swiss, one, if not the first fun book I have read as an adult. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[winkingluna]

I have a job, I'm almost an official undergraduate. I'm 22. The world, according to the world, is going through the shitter. In contrast I have a lot going for me in comparison. So this brings forth guilt - guilt about feeling like I'm at the bottom of my barrel. I want intimacy, "but what if it gets in the way of building a pathway for myself where I hadn't depended on a man to achieve all I've wanted?" "Oh god, there's so much to 'achieve', I need to get a car and move out, but where am I moving to?!?! I need a friend...But that's impossible to do, I can't make a friend here in this place I live in, so why would I even think of renting an apartment here! But it's cheaper here, the city is going to swallow me whole. I want to have sex, I feel like a wolf when the moon is full, every single ovulation cycle. I'm spinning in my own body. I don't want a man to look at me. I hate it when they look at me. All you want to do is have sex with me you freak, disgusting, but this guy on Bumble from the city better swipe right on me. I don't want to scroll on my phone anymore, can you just hold me please, so I can finally sleep.

[winkingluna]

my first mindset life change i have found is being hedonistic. i have lied down in my life. let it happen to me. i have decided that i have control over the theme of my life. i want to think of myself more. i want to fill my desires and not be fearful but brace for the impact of my decisions, because i can say that I made them. i can have ownership over my life. even the bad. and especially the good.

[winkingluna]

doing what i think is right just because I want to feel for the first time, happy 22nd birhrday

#balletflats #2014

[winkingluna]

I need to see my mother and I need a boyfriend like yesterday

[winkingluna]

god, live through me

learning to be slow and kind in a world that is quick and evil is the nutshell of the internal war of a human i believe. i hope at the end that i can say i was slow and kind, even if i just tried.

[soracities]

Hồ Xuân Hương, "Jackfruit" (tr. Natalie Linh Bolderston), pub. Modern Poetry Review [iD'd]

[weltenwellen]

Ada Limón, “To Be Made Whole”, On Being with Krista Tippett

[weltenwellen]

Rebecca Solnit, Hope In The Dark

[flowerytale]

Nick Cave, The Sick Bag Song

[bumbumtugboat]

strange evenings

[winkingluna]

I love you summer

[11thsense]

I don’t understand hating or not listening to rap when ur fav genre is rock like they’re holding hands to me they r two sides of a coin….its so dark in here

[28121997-deactivated20250923]

kavica za tebe i mene <3

[winkingluna]

I believe I was will always love minimal pictures of coffee