𝕝𝕚𝕒𝕓𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪 !

so i guess i'll go home, into the arms of the girl that i love, the only love i haven't screwed up. she's so hard to please, but she's a forest fire. i do my best to meet her demands, play at romance, we slow dance in the living room, but all that a stranger would see is one girl, swaying a l o n e, stroking her cheek.

[winslvw]

PENELOPE  /  JENSEN  !

“isn’t that what makes it fun?” the boy questioned with a grin, kicking his shoes off and moving towards the lake. surely the alcohol in his veins would keep him warm in the cold water. 

     ❛   no,   ❜    penelope  says  in  a  small  voice,  her  brow  creased  in  its  usual  serious  expression.  she  can  think  of  dozens  of  things  that  could  go  wrong  which  would  not  make  it  fun.   ❛   i  don’t  know  any  resuscitation  spells  !   ❜   she  calls  after  him,  trying  to  get  him  to  understand  the  danger  he’s  in.

[winslvw]

❛   isn’t  that  against  the  RULES  ?   ❜

[winslvw]

slurred words

❛   oh,  he’s  …  he’s  LOUD.   ❜

[winslvw]

⌁ josefine frida pettersen ⌁ i always see PENELOPE WINSLOW hanging out in the RAVENCLAW common room. people say the FEMALE PUREBLOOD is PRACTICAL & PERFECTIONISTIC. rumor has it that amortentia smells like OCEAN AIR to her. i always seem to wind up humming LIABILITY by LORDE after i see them. they remind me of COLOUR CODED NOTES, BURNT SUGAR COOKIES, TIRED EYES AFTER ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT.

already posted a lil bit about her in the chat but i thought i’d do an intro neway bc im Professional and also love my daughter

so penelope ( her friends call her penny -- so basically everyone calls her penelope cause she has like no friends sjdfdsk ) is part of a pretty prominent pureblood family. they’re super influential and famous in the us cause they were one of the first settlers and so there they’re basically like the black family of the usa, but here they’re a bit more chill. penelope still has a bunch of family in high places tho. not super obviously into blood purity but like .. they still hold more respect for purebloods and muggleborns, and it’s still kind of expected their kids marry purebloods. as a result penny’s super sheltered and really does not know much about muggles

anyways so that means there’s a ton of expectations on her, especially since her older sister eugenia thought it was all bullshit and was like fuck this! and was super rebellious and wild and got drunk and did drugs and is off being a muggle tattoo artist right now and is living her best life. so that means there’s lots of pressure on penelope to be the Good Kid, and she tries her best to fill that she really does

her parents are the sort who do love their kids but like they don’t usually express it. penelope can count the number of times her parents have said they love her or they’re proud of her on one hand. it’s not rly their fault, that’s just what they were used to when they were growing up. and now penelope doesn’t know how to express affection. we luv a vicious cycle!!

her to do list for being a Good Kid is basically: get good grades, stay out of trouble, be perfect. the first two are easy enough, last one not so. so her to do list is never done and penelope is stressed like 24/7 cause she never thinks she’s good enough or doing enough

really she should’ve been in hufflepuff -- the sorting hat wanted to put her in hufflepuff, but penelope knew her parents would disapprove -- her whole family had been gryffindor (her sister, her father) and ravenclaw (her mother) for ages. even slytherin would’ve been preferable to hufflepuff. so she begged the hat not to put her in hufflepuff and lo and behold she got ravenclaw!

i don’t think her parents really realize how stressed they’re making her. like, they aren’t bad people and don’t want their kid to be unhappy

uhhh anyway so she likes sticking to the rules, having a plan, knowing where things go, knowing what’s happening and all that. it’s safer and being in control of things makes her feel like she’s actually doing something. she always always always thinks before acting -- she hates taking risks and she hates change. she’s a bit of a stick in the mud honestly

she is very kind and just really wants everyone to be happy and safe tbh but most people don’t realize that because she can be a bit short tempered when she’s stressed which is always. she also is an Awkward Introvert and has trouble making conversation because she overthinks & overanalyzes everything she’s about to say before she says it which makes her sound kind of stilted

loyal to a fucking Fault though like, if you’re one of the few people who actually manages to be friends with her and can put up with her then she’ll stick by you through hell or high water

gets really good grades but beats herself up over them still. you know that kid who’s like “oh i did so badly on this test :/ i got an 89 :/” thats her

gets jealous easily, not really like relationship wise (only cause she’s not in a relationship -- if she was she’d also totally get jealous easily. not mad jealous, more like insecure jealous. u know those posts where it’s like “me on my wedding night: but do you like me like me?” that’d be her. but she hasn’t ever been in a relationship sO not really like that now haha)

but anyway, gets jealous easily. this quote is the best way i could describe it -- because she never thinks she’s good enough she gets jealous of people who are doing better than her or who seem happier than her or who find it easier to talk to people than her

definitely a Lawful Good (as opposed to june who is chaotic neutral)

idk just a kinda sad gal who worries a lot and is trying her Best

[wordsnquotes]

I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.

Sylvia Plath (via wordsnquotes)

[deerhippie-blog]

Send “slurred words” to hear my muse describe yours whilst ridiculously drunk.

[winslvw]

                                 i just want to hear you say it.

               i need you to say it out loud - —                                 tell me I make you PROUD.

                                          i just want to hear you say it - —                               say it a little louder, please.

                         TELL ME YOU'RE PROUD OF ME.

[thelovejournals]

I’m a coward when it comes to matters of the heart. That is my fatal flaw.

Haruki Murakami, 1Q84  (via thelovejournals)

[wnq-music]

I’m a bit awkward, and I’m a bit neurotic, and I’m a bit scared of people who are cleverer than me, and I’m scared of being judged and scared of getting it wrong, you know? But I just make it as if I never get it wrong, and people kind of believe me.

Matty Healy (via wnq-music)

[adorkablelena]

[lukemagnus-deactivated20180125]

[musingisms]

1x10 / 1x13

[racheldotgov-deactivated2016123]

i personally love to over analyze everything and suffer

[jorahmormont]

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