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Oh to be someone’s favorite girl

Parang kelangan ko na maging mabuting tao. Kasi ngayon pa lang, di ko na kinakaya yung init pano pa sa hell?

Not really a question, but I saw your recent post and just wanted to say that the mystery of life isn't a problem to solve, but a reality to experience.

To more wins in life! So happy to see where you are now ;)

Thank you 🥹 I hope life’s being kind to you too 🤍

Justin Bieber’s Coachella performance??? My Bieber heart is so alive right now!!! 💜 It really took me back to the days when my only goal in life was getting a follow or notice from him on Twitter. My “Justin pls follow me” flood tweet era. Imagine yun lang problema ko dati. I used to do song covers, memorize his songs, and daydream about being the one less lonely girl in his concert! And now watching him again just brings all of that back. Hayyy! People calling it a “lazy performance” and getting pressed over him playing his older tracks thru Youtube. like hello?? that’s literally where he started. The Justin Bieber Youtube era. And let’s be real, he is Justin freaking Bieber. At this point, he doesn’t need to prove anything anymore. He doesn’t need a hundred backup dancers or a flashy stage. Just him, his voice, his music, and a stage. That's enough. Let’s just be happy for him that he finally looks genuinely happy and at peace. Sana talaga masaya siya. After everything he’s been through, he deserves nothing but that. Jusq, I had a mini overthinking moment din with the “Halo” thing 😭 like bruh, please wag ka muna ma-deads okay? We need you forever. Grabe imagine if my fangirl side never slept hahahaha, for sure nakikipagaway na ako sa X ngayon hahahahahhaa. But like they say, once a Belieber, always a Belieber. 💜

#justin bieber

Traveling has always been a dream of mine. But now, it scares me. The thing that used to make me happiest doesn’t feel the same anymore. Islands start to feel the same. Some places aren’t as exciting anymore. It’s not just about money pero it takes time and energy too.

Akala mo naman kung maka sabi ng ganito eh nalibot ko na ang buong mundo hahahaha, pero hindi ko alam. Kahit ako, nagtataka sa sarili ko. I feel lost and confused. Traveling used to make me feel alive, and now it just… feels empty. I still have so many places I want to go, but I’m afraid that even when I reach them, it won’t feel like enough.

ahhh basta! hindi ko na talaga alam. All I know is that I feel unsure of what will make me happy now and that scares that shit out of me more than anything.

Life uncertainty really scares me. People keep saying not to overthink the things you can’t control, but honestly, how do you even do that? Lately, I’ve been feeling lost, like everyone else is moving forward while I’m still stuck. I’m 27 and I still haven’t figured things out. Some people say ganon talaga na you never really figure life out pero what if kahit konti lang? I’m not asking for everything to be clear, just a small sense of direction, something to hold on to so I know I’m not wasting my time.

I have a version of the life I want, but my life right now doesn’t seem to know how to reach it. I want more, and deep down I know I can do more, but my mind keeps doubting me. I start wondering if I’m actually capable of anything, or if I’m just average at everything I try. Ang hirap kasi wala naman akong isang bagay na masasabi kong magaling talaga ako. When I look around, it feels like everyone else is building something with their life, while I’m still here unsure of where I’m going.

I don’t want to sound ungrateful. I know I’m still blessed na somehow I’m living the life I once prayed for. I see that, I really do. But maybe it’s possible to be grateful and still feel empty. Maybe it’s okay to want more even when what you have isn’t bad. I’m living a life I once asked for and I still don’t know if it’s the life meant for me.

I’ve been thinking about my reaction, how a single photo can make me spiral into my own thoughts for days, just trying to figure out how I felt. Ang OA picture lang naman, yet it pulled me back into memories and familiar feelings I hadn’t thought about in years.

A part of me knows I moved on easily, because he wasn’t sharing his life online. When I found out he had someone else, I quietly unfollowed him on everything not out of bitterness but for my own peace of mind. And honestly, it worked. Also, let’s be real, life after graduation gets so busy and stressful that you barely have time to think about the past.

Maybe that’s why this unexpected glimpse of him brought back feelings I had already left behind. After six years, I guess it’s normal to feel something. He reminded me of my past regrets, the version of myself I left behind, and my what-ifs. I was hurt, but I know I hurt him too. At the same time, I blamed myself for being the one who ended things and feeling like the bad person in our story. All of these thoughts came rushing back. Maybe it was the buried regret waking up the moment I saw his photo.

But I’m happy now. Truly. I just didn’t expect a memory or a face to sneak back in and remind me of my past. Maybe this is a reminder that healing isn’t about forgetting or pretending it never mattered. It’s about being able to look back without breaking down. Maybe that’s what this really is. Not longing, not regret. Just remembering.

#j

After six years of not hearing anything about him since graduation, I saw his face on my LinkedIn feed while scrolling randomly. He looks different now, but still familiar, and for a moment, I just stared, surprised, but at the same time, I didn't even know what to feel. For days, I kept thinking about it, trying to put the feeling into words, hence this random post, but I couldn't. Maybe it's the quiet ache of remembering someone who once meant so much to you but is now just a stranger living his own life. And then came a sudden flashback of what-ifs and regrets I already buried. Still, I just found myself silently rooting for him. Not because I still want him, but because he was once someone I truly cared for. I just hope he's happy now, the same way I finally am.

#j