winter

[winterzone]

a poem to saturn

i was a very anxious child growing up

but my mom liked to make me the center of attention

she would hire someone to do my makeup and hair

just for me to end up not wanting to attend

as all the time money and effort goes to waste

a candle's hot wax drips to my feet from my waist

i still grew up with the center of attention

taking more leadership roles in school didnt stop me from being anxious

it shows on the skin of my lips, the skin around my nails

in adulthood where i was in an environment that asked me how i am

telling me that i should get it checked

telling me stories how they have been there

their smiles all bare

a few more moments with them

a pill taken every morning

i stopped trembling

crumbling at every little thing

i learned that i was free

writing this

i just have one question in mind

if its more genuine to heal something with warmth and care

was the disease ever worth all the pain?

this isnt about my mother.

[heavensenthale]

you know what? fuck it *reads the fanfic I spent hours writing for my own enjoyment*

[wynnyfryd]

if you’re not rereading your own 3yo one-shots every once in a while so you can shake your head at the ao3 tab and mutter god i’m fucking funny then what are we even doing all this work for?

[winterzone]

as my finger glides the bright screen on hand i've always wanted to see that same smile

when i'm outside i always hoped that you're there when i pass by the same skylines

i still hold on with the idea that we'll be having more conversations than we did that one thursday night

and when im alone at dawn i always dream of every possible chances that we'll someday do love right

i only ever saw you once, but why did i keep searching for you a thousand more times?

[winterzone]

it was just me, my ashes, flying around a city that was too polluted to even get noticed.

[imastoryteller]

How to Craft a Compelling Morally Grey Character: A Step-by-Step Guide

Step 1: Define the Character’s Core Traits

Identify Strengths and Virtues: List positive traits that make the character likable or admirable. These could include bravery, intelligence, loyalty, or compassion.

Identify Flaws and Vices: List negative traits that add complexity and realism. These could include arrogance, selfishness, impatience, or a propensity for violence.

Step 2: Establish Motivations and Backstory

Create a Detailed Backstory: Develop a background that explains why the character has their particular mix of virtues and flaws. Consider their upbringing, significant life events, and personal experiences.

Determine Core Motivations: Identify what drives the character. Is it revenge, love, ambition, survival, or something else? Motivations should be realistic and relatable.

Step 3: Develop Moral Ambiguity

Set Up Moral Dilemmas: Place your character in situations where they must make difficult choices with no clear right or wrong answer. These dilemmas should challenge their morals and reveal their complexity.

Showcase Contradictions: Allow the character to make decisions that might seem contradictory. For example, they might commit a crime to protect someone they love, revealing both a moral and an immoral side.

Step 4: Create Dynamic Relationships

Construct Meaningful Relationships: Develop relationships with other characters that highlight different aspects of your morally grey character. These relationships can help explore their multifaceted personality.

Use Relationships to Drive Conflict: Relationships can be a source of moral conflict and development. Conflicts with friends, family, or rivals can push your character to reveal their grey areas.

Step 5: Show Consequences and Growth

Illustrate the Impact of Actions: Show the real-world consequences of the character’s morally ambiguous decisions. This adds realism and stakes to the story.

Allow for Character Growth: Let your character evolve. They might become more virtuous or more corrupt over time. This evolution keeps the character dynamic and interesting.

Step 6: Balance Sympathetic and Unsympathetic Traits

Make Them Relatable: Ensure the character has traits or experiences that the audience can relate to or sympathize with, even if they do questionable things.

Maintain Complexity: Avoid making the character too sympathetic or too unsympathetic. The balance between good and bad traits should make the audience feel conflicted about the character.

Step 7: Use Subtlety and Nuance

Avoid Clear Labels: Do not overtly label the character as good or evil. Allow their actions and motivations to speak for themselves.

Employ Subtlety: Use nuanced behavior and dialogue to reveal the character’s moral complexity. Avoid heavy-handed exposition.

Step 8: Test and Refine

Seek Feedback: Share your character with others and seek feedback on their complexity and believability. Adjust based on constructive criticism.

Refine Motivations and Actions: Continuously refine the character’s motivations and actions to ensure they remain compelling and consistent throughout the story.

Example: Crafting a Morally Grey Character

Core Traits:

Strengths: Intelligent, determined, loyal.

Flaws: Arrogant, manipulative, vengeful.

Backstory:

Grew up in a tough neighborhood, witnessing crime and corruption.

Lost a loved one to a gang, fueling a desire for revenge.

Motivations:

Driven by a need to protect their remaining family and seek revenge.

Moral Dilemmas:

Joins a criminal organization to infiltrate it and bring it down from within.

Struggles with the ethical implications of committing crimes for a greater good.

Relationships:

Has a strained relationship with a sibling who disapproves of their methods.

Forms a complicated friendship with a morally upright police officer.

Consequences and Growth:

Faces the legal and emotional consequences of their actions.

Gradually questions their own morality and seeks redemption.

Balance:

Helps the community but uses unethical means.

Shows moments of kindness and ruthlessness.

Subtlety:

Reveals their inner conflict through small actions and dialogue.

Avoids overt explanations of their morality, letting the audience interpret.

By following these steps, you can create a compelling morally grey character that adds depth and intrigue to your story.

[sassycolortheorist101-blog]

some fucking resources for all ur writing fuckin needs

* body language masterlist

* a translator that doesn’t eat ass like google translate does

* a reverse dictionary for when ur brain freezes

* 550 words to say instead of fuckin said

* 638 character traits for when ur brain freezes again

* some more body language help

(hope this helps some ppl)

[ariachaos]

OP, pls give me your hand in marriage 💍

[winterzone]

what does it mean to actually love?

is it close to listening to feel good love songs in the morning? or like during the rush hour commute & still being able to think about how warm it is to go home? or maybe even just going to bed smelling like lavenders tucked in a cool sheet?

love is an ocean i never swam into.

and being in the shore countless times, this is the first time i'm thinking— will the waves be good at me this time? what if the waves wouldn't actually drown me like how i think it would? or even if they do, why do i still yearn to feel it now?

maybe wondering is the first step.

[winterzone]

serendipity

he did not exactly become the my hero nor my savior.

but rather a moment of spark that unbelievably showed up in what i thought was the darkest night of my life.

to him, it was just random twenty minute with a cold cream cone in hand and a complete stranger.

to me, it was the light i saw that abled me to swim back to the surface from the deepest trench i was forcibly drowning in.

and all of this is unbeknownst to him.

[winterzone]

more than having the strong urge to confront him & tell everything what i've gone through the past few days because of what he did, there was happiness.

i got to be with him, yes, we didn't talk much like we did before, but his presence alone was there to calm me down, to make me forget.

and at that moment, he gave me tranquility, after all the furor that was also caused by him.

the disease & the cure. that's what he is to me.

[winterzone]

never depend on the fake colors of spring.

the colorful flowers that bloom are just as harmful as the piercing snow you felt. it tricks you as it seems different because it's new. as the summer comes you will slowly feel the heat that you missed but then after a few moments it becomes cold again. the leaves will fall once again. you will try your best to save the warmth you once felt, you will try to convince yourself that the dead leaves you pass by on the sidewalk are nothing but a part of the small gloomy moments that make up your year but then you'd give it a few days and the trees are left with nothing but trunks. the painful cold hits your skin once again. the blizzards are coming back and you're locked inside your house, not knowing what's happening outside as your windows are once again covered with those fine white crumbs.

once the winter comes, whether the sun rose or not, at the end of the day, you will be alone again. dazed, cold, and miserable.