Nov 19, 2018
know what I hate? When you try really hard with a person and they just don’t fucking see it. Whether it’s a friend, significant other, parent, etc…. like u could literally rip ur heart out of your chest, give them ur last breath, AND cut a limb off for them, but it goes unnoticed. it’s the fact that I care about people that do not give a shit about me. My heart is too big and that shit’s the worst.
#feel this in my soul#nothing I do will ever be enough#oh yeah lets totally ignore attempts at being honest about my struggles and twist it to mean Im lying and a shit friend#because of course my struggles will never compare#and Im not doing the 'proper' things to deal with it#lets totally skip over the fact I opened up the life I made for myself and constantly push my boundaries to try and meet expectations#and lets brush over the fact that I tried to set up a situation where I could be there whenever but they decided to live where it would be#lets just keep making shaming posts that are too vague to confront without potential gaslighting#and lets just constantly make someone we claim is a friend feel shitty for having mental health struggles and exerting boundaries#naw we arent gonna worry when a friend is isolating themselves and not feeling up to normal social activities#we are just gonna repeat the same kind of nonsense our mother does and assume that because someone isnt dealing with things in the way we p#and lets not forget to guilt trip said friend if they try to feel better in steps like by hanging out with people who arent emotionally exh#because by god that must be a personal attack#I mean only shitty people do that right#theres no way these constant emotional attacks are taking a toll and making said 'friend' isolate themselves more right?#only shitty people dont immediately toss aside all of their own issues to cater to a friends emotional needs right?#funny how that doesn't work in reverse tho#Im done with social media rn#queuing this then I'm fucking out for a while#deuces
