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@wmatsuifanfic
Shout out to all my straight sisters I’m so sorry 😞
Jesus, leave his ass.
We learn fast to be very kind and attentive, tho.
My mom, who got her degree in Marriage and Family Counseling when she was 60, says studies show that women will sometimes sometimes leave a long term relationship to live on their own for a while before seeking a new relationship, but men will almost never leave a long term relationship without having a new relationship either in progress or just beginning. They don’t want to give up the caretaker they have without another one on deck or in the wings.
This is so sad
This isnt cute or quirky. This means hes a fucking hopeless user
Please date a man who actually acts like an adult.
Ok I lived with my ex for 2 years and he literally wouldn’t be able to get his own food if I wasn’t at home, I’d get home from work and he’d be angry at me for “making him starve”
My current partner has lived on his own for 8 years and the absolute most I have to help him with is maybe sending him $20 so he can make a bill payment on time
It made me realise for 2-4 years I wasn’t a girlfriend I was a fucking mother
Men who have been independent are capable of reverting if given the slightest excuse. When we married, my ex husband was 10 years older than me and had lived on his own for 8ish years. Yet (and I allowed this until I finally got fed up and took us to counseling) I did 80% of the cooking, because I was better at it. Same with the cleaning, shopping, social planning, etc.
After I left, in the first six months I got texts or calls asking me to please tell him:
The online banking password (dude, I left you, you should really change that)
Where I ordered his special-wecial organic underwear
Where the good cutting board was (my dad gave it to us at our wedding, genius, I took it with me along with the rest of the stuff from my family)
What brand butter we bought
What brand of local kielbasa we bought
Who his doctor was
What RMV office had the shortest lines
Where the old tax returns were (in the fucking box labeled tax returns)
The phone number for his best friend
I shit you not.
Then he had a heart attack (mild) and none of his family or friends were around to take him to the hospital. But instead of calling 911, he called me, who by then lived 45 minutes away. He lived 5 minutes from an EMS dispatch location. He called me, despite the fact that he didn’t believe me 8 months prior when I was feeling suicidal and I had to call a cab to go alone to check myself into the hospital for a 72-hour hold. I told him to call 911, hung up on him when he whined about “making a fuss”, called 911, called his siblings and then texted them “your brother is having a heart attack, I called 911 for him, come home,” and washed my hands of it.
Emotionally vacant men who won’t do household labor or emotional labor are not Nazis, but they aren’t good people, either, and you don’t have to put up with their shit.
Jurina in Tofu Pro Wrestling ep 2
Wah…. Ju is sure strong
Please, don't leave your story whic you finish it yet. It's already a new year its been very long time to Waiting.
Oh my God. It’s been years!!! I don’t know what to do anymore. I think my writing skill has gone. lol.
Lol yeah it's been years, but still few fans of your still waiting for the update.
[Translation]AKB48 group news Aug’15 - The last of Wmatsui
Never too late for this ship…
I saw R teased J many times in this interview.(don’t you believe that?) and I saw how J loves being R’s slave recently. HAHAHAHA
It’s fun to read as always.
Wmatsui never dies!!! ENJOY!!
Rena graduates, the last of Wmatsui
Finally, SKE48’s Matsui Rena is going to graduate from being an idol soon.
As one of SKE48 founder member since 2008, she’s been in the front line, pushing the group along these 7 years.
Rena left a message in “Mae no Meri” single which is on sale right now and take the first step towards acting path.
Before her graduation, she agreed to have an interview with us AKB group news for the last time.
Of course, the other one is Matsui Jurina. This is really the last interview with both of them, including interview with each of them, there will be 6 parts. Please look forward to it.
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“Completely in chorus”
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- You two being on AKB group newspaper cover, this is actually the first time.
J,R: That’s right!!
J: Same words at the same time!! *laugh*
- Since Rena-san will graduate soon, it wouldn’t be good if we don’t interview both of you. Also, there are many requests from fans that wanted us to do it.
J: Um! Because Wmatsui is best!
R: well, we can response to those requests…*laugh*
- When we look back to the time of first debut, you were just two kids. That made us feel sentimental.
R: Eh? Why?
J: We are still kids! Still young!
R: Geez…we are not kids anymore…
J: That’s true and we don’t argue anymore.
- Does this mean you ever had a fight?
J,R: It’s not quite a fight… *laugh in chorus*
R: Eh? We said the same words again.
J: Hahahahaha
R: In the past, Jurina can be angry over a little thing.
- Do you remember what’s it about?
R: Standing position
J: Eh?
R: I think it was “Banzai Venus”, maybe? We had to shoot a scene together. Jurina said “I will stand here only!” I was like “…Ha?” replied her like that. Then, Jurina said “I would look better if I’m standing on this side. So, I will stand here! Just let me!” said with harsh tone. Since she insisted to stand there, I said like “I can stand anywhere, I’m not choosy…” *laugh*
J: Because my hair parted that way so I think standing there would look better.
R: Then just when I thought it was only once, in other scenes, we always argued about standing position. Jurina said “I already told you, right?” and I couldn’t help thinking “No way, you want it to be like this all the time?”
J: I don’t remember that at all *laugh*
R: Though a long time has passed, she’s still like that.
- Rena-san didn’t fight back?
R: I only thought “Eh?” like that.
J: But for Rena-chan, if it’s something she likes, she would never back down.
R: That’s right.
J: You can call it crazy or something but at that time, I don’t understand a thing. When I ask her “what’s this? What’s that?” she would easily be annoyed. At the Kouhaku, there was a Disney character. I asked “is it a boy or a girl inside?” Rena-chan was angry and said “No way it can be a girl!!”
R: You couldn’t say like this. Micky is a boy! There’s no way a girl can be inside!
J: Then, I asked “What would Disneyland do now? There are two of them?” (two separate Micky(s)) Rena-chan was angry “two is not possible!!!” *laugh*
R: Because he’s the “only” one!!
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“Pretending is not a good thing”
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- Please describe your relationship.
J: Ummm…”Close friend” that has “friendship from the heart” is not bad.
R: fr..friend, maybe?
- As for Rena-san who has only a few friends, do you resist?
R: It’s rather like a family member. People often told me “Jurina Is special one, right?” Of course, we have matched opinion, and went through times together. Just like a moment ago that we said the same words at the same time. *laugh* but for me, I feel like I have a sister. Basically, I feel the same with other members but if I say like this, Jurina might be very angry.
J: Yeah! Because for me, Rena-chan is special. But Rena-chan likes Churi, right?
R: Because Churi is my friend *laugh*
- The balance of you two is so incredible.
R: Although we don’t look at things with the same perspective and though the directions we head are different, but we both have participated in activities with the same thought of how we can achieve our ideal.
J: That’s right. At first, I never thought we would be called “JuriRena” or “WMatsui” for this long. But the ones who think that we are rivals are the fans.
R: *laugh*
J: We see each other a lot at work and people surrounding kept telling “you guys don’t get along well, do you?” That made me think “We really need to be rivals, right?”
R: Why so? *laugh* But our encounter like this is great. I really think like this from the bottom of my heart.
- As far as you can realize, how did it change compared to the beginning?
J: Our rivalry decreased as the time passed by, except at general election which made me recall the feelings from the beginning. So, as she didn’t nominate this year, I felt so lonely.
R: On the contrary, I think rather than our rivalry decreased, I would say just leave the election be. Nevertheless, SKE48 would never change. When I realized this point, I can tell “This is this and that is that”
- Team shuffle took effect enormously, right?
R: Yeah. When I was in Team S, I always feel the pressure spread out from Jurina. But when I moved to Team E, the feeling’s gone away.
J: I understand.
R: In Team S, the photographers always wanted us pairing up. But when we got separated, all surroundings had changed. I became gentler. That’s what I had changed the most.
- At the election backstage, the picture of smiling Rena-san held crying Jurina-san closely got published on Nikkan Sports, too.
J: I didn’t know it got captured.
R: Me,too.
J: Masana, standing beside, also got cropped out. It looked so pathetic, Masana was sad *laugh*
R: At first, I never thought of being there. I would watch it at the hotel. I just told Jurina “Tomorrow, I will say ‘congrats!!’ to you. So, fighting”
J: So, I thought Rena-chan wouldn’t be there when the time comes. After the election ended, I talked to Masana. But during our conversation, my tears rolled down, that’s when Rena-chan appeared. ..
R: “Thanks for hard work” like this
*both of them laugh*
J: I asked “Why are you here?”
R: I never thought Jurina would become like that. When I saw Jurina and Masana walking, I went to talk with them comfortably. Then, Jurina just “Uwaaaaa“ cried out. I never thought I would make her cry, what should I do? Something like that.
J: Rena-chan was like my mom. Because my rank dropped to fifth place, so I was not pleased. I still kept thinking “For the sake of Rena-chan and SKE48, I must seize the first place” So I said “so frustrating” then, Rena-chan replied “It’s alright. This is the place I got last year, see and think from the view I saw and try your best” really…saying to me like that…*sob*
- Jurina-san, please don’t cry.
J: Till now, I can barely hold my tears.
- But Rena-san was full with smile.
R: Since she met me, she just “Uwaaaaa” cried out like that. It was funny “she cried hard” *laugh* I think it was very cute. It was like “Prank success!!” But crying non-stop was troubling.
J: In the end, Sae-chan helped me. Also Churi, Kaotan and juniors came to comfort me “Jurina-san, it’s alright” while taking me to press conference.
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“Hearing about graduation, it’s hard to breath”
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- What do you think about Rena-san graduation announcement?
J: Rena-chan might not intend to tell anyone?
R: I intended to tell 1st gen. But seeing Jurina’s condition after the election, I thought “It’s not the time to tell this” When I was worried about it, Nikkan already got the news.
J: *laugh*
R: So, I think not telling them is not OK. After hearing the news, that night before it got published, I talked to Jurina on the phone.
J: It’s still OK that she told me before. If she didn’t, I might be very angry. So, I called her immediately
- What did you talk?
R: Cried hard….
J: It’s like I was gonna out of breath.
R: More sentimental than me.
J: Even though I know she didn’t tell because she was worried about me, I could feel her kindness, but actually, I already have clues about this. Because I am always watching her so I know it from her actions and words. I talked to Masana “Isn’t it(graduation) coming close?” Masana replied “there’s nothing like that for now” *laugh*
R: Not long before then, Masana asked me “When will you graduate?” I felt that “so, they can feel it, huh?” Although the date was already set, but because “no one said OK” so I just answered her lightly.
J: Then, Masana came and talked to me happily “Rena said she will not graduate soon” but I felt “it might be soon…”
R: And Masana got angry “you lied to me, you are the worst!” *laugh*
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“Not being together is not OK”
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- How do you want the last concert to be?
R: How do you want?
J: There’re many things.
R: But I have nothing…
J: “Sekai ga naiteru nara” has never been performed live once. I want to perform this song. There’s also dialogue between me and Rena-chan. And also “1234 Yoroshiku”…
R: We already have performed this song.
J: And “Gomen ne SUMMER”
R: This also got performed
J: It’s not like that! Just the two of us, we both have not performed together recently. If it’s not with Rena-chan, it’s not quite compatible with me. Because I don’t have to be worried about her (dancing)
R: “Yoroshiku” holding hands like that.
J: Like when “clap clap, whoa!”
R: That routine got missed sometimes.
J: But if it’s with Rena-chan, I have never missed even once. Every song that we dance together, I want to perform it all.
- Unit song like “TWO ROSES”
J: Do you want to get painted in red and blue like in the MV?
R: No way! *laugh*
- Rena-san has caused some troubles to Jurina-san because of this song.
R: Looking back right now, I feel that why I couldn’t do it even these easy routines?
J: Though we argued about this once but after that we went back to practice, danced and smiled in front of the mirror.
R: We do argue. Wasn’t it because you were too strict? You were too much!
J: Because there are only two of us. If we miss, it will be obvious.
- The concert at Toyota stadium will be held for 2 days, right?
J: That’s great! That’s great! We can do whatever we want. Wanna perform every song?
R: It would be OK to do whatever we want. For me to be able to sing “Kareha no Station” and graduation solo song is enough. Overall, just to be able to have fun with members and fans is enough.
- Lastly…If there were not the other one, what would it be? (T/L note: If there were not the other when entering SKE48, what would it be?)
J: …I would have graduated since the beginning.
R: Eh? Since the beginning?
- There will be no one to encourage you to fight, right?
J: That’s right.
R: Ah…That’s true.
J: I would want to be an ordinary girl. Most of members who are at my age chose to continue their education so they graduated.
R: I think without Jurina, there would be no one to encourage me to improve. But not as rivals because no matter what Jurina’s entity would never be shaken. So, I always think of how I can express myself to step forward.
- What about Rena-san, if there were no Jurina…
R: Ummm…*silence*
J: *laugh*
R: Being silent, please don’t be mistaken that I “have no idea at all” *laugh* But, I just don’t understand why people around me always look for “JuriRena” or “WMatsui” Maybe, because it’s easy to remember, it draws people’s attention…because everyone attaches to this point, I think “What should I do, being by myself?” because I always think Jurina is Jurina, me is me. It just that Jurina is always beside me…but now, attachment to this point is kinda fading away
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“Please don’t call it the last”
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- It’s an honor having you both interviewed for the last time.
J: Mou! Please don’t say the last! *sob*
R: It’s the last *grin*
J: Mou! It make me sad! This is too bad. Right now, if someone is being kind to me just a bit, I will love them.
- Rena-san is really wicked
R: Maa…but Jurina will still love me.
J: I feel that most of SKE48 songs mention about me and Rena-chan. Even though it’s a love song, but I feel “Isn’t it about me and Rena-chan?”
R: It couldn’t be~!
J: For a graduating member, this is the first time I feel like this.
R: First time, right.
J: And you said you will go for a meal privately together with me, right? I still believe that.
R: I will. Recently, I unexpectedly became able to eat with other people.
J: That’s great! Definitely have to go!! Even if Rena-chan graduated, “JuriRena” will live forever
R: But I may push you out a bit.
J: Eh! I hate that!
*laugh together*
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“Then, dream is the most important”
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This Rena’s part was already translated by sakaeandfrog
- MV “Mae no Meri” was shot in Okinawa.
J: It was when we were waiting for Rena-chan and held a party. We prepared and decorated by ourselves. Although after shooting, there were people helping on decoration, but I wanted to finish it myself. When I was decorating alone, thinking of many memories brought me tears. I murmured while crying “This is SKE orange…” *laugh* both happy and sad at the same time.
- What about memories with Rena-san in Okinawa?
J: During MV shooting, she said something that made me very happy “I know you tried so hard for me” I cried like I was the one who are going to graduate.
- Memories with other members?
J: Because it was Okinawa, so everyone was like “the seaaaaa!!” Only me, secluded myself lonelily *laugh* Kept thinking “I want to meet Rena-chan” and decorated this and that. Yuasa-san came to me “let me do it, too” and helped. I couldn’t help crying and thought “This shot is really weird” *laugh*
- Having Yuasa-san back in SKE now might be destiny?
J: That’s right. Because we both know Rena-chan since the beginning. But while we were decorating quietly, a member suddenly held me from behind.
- Who’s that?
J: Nao-chan. She said “Jurina-san, it’s alright! Please don’t endure it alone” We both had been in AKB48 together. We also told each other “let’s try our best for SKE”
- Talking about this, on “Ongaku no Hi” in July, Furuhata-san was also substitute at the front (substitute for Rara) I was impressed.
J: Though we are at the same age but she is so mature. She understands everyone’s feeling. When I realized this, she was already by my side. She tries hard, really has SKE style.
- Juniors could gain this kind of awareness. They may bring the change to the group.
J: Everyone is worth the trust, Churi and Aya-chan,too. When I was upset because I got 5th place at the election, Aya-chan said to me “For SKE, Jurina-san is always number 1”
- With Rena-san’s graduation, it could be for Jurina-san to step forward.
J: Just being SKE is relieving. Whenever I come back, everyone will always be kind, no rivalry. The only senior is Sae-chan. When I was in AKB, I always “show them SKE strength!” demonstrate the power like that. Up till now, SKE never felt this crisis before. So, when Rena-chan’s not here anymore, it’d feel like another layer of skin got peeled off.
- How do you want Rena-san and SKE relationship happens to be?
J: I want her to look at us from audience perspective. Like someone who can understand the inside just by looking from the outside. I want her to be Theatre Manager *laugh* and come to see our live often.
- How about SKE48 from now on?
J: I think SKE now is strongest. I’m so optimistic. I can proudly say that. In the past, I got concurrency, so I couldn’t say it out loud. But now, I’m really confident. I want everyone to look at SKE and hope that you will come to Toyota Stadium.
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“Responsible for each other, the two of us forever”
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[Translation] Jurina’s confession (from Rena grad con pamphlet)
Jurina’s confession
For me, Rena-chan is lover. Jurina cried…as Wmatsui that leads SKE until today, 7 years of being close to Rena…if we look back to their relationship that was full of emotions, our hearts would get warm. The history of the strongest pair- the pride of Nagoya- that no one has ever known and how SKE’s future will be once Rena left the group…”For me, Rena-chan is lover” Super Ace who is still here has revealed it all.
But it’s unrequited love…because of love, I couldn’t honestly say it. True relationship of the two who have been leading SKE48 for 7 years
Jurina has just arrived at shooting location. When she saw purple flowers in the vase, she blurted out pleasantly “These flowers are so like Rena-chan”. Then, she asked staff who comes with her to pick a flower for selfie “This photo, I will send it to Rena-chan” she said with smile.
“What a creep I am right now. No matter what I see, I would say it is like Rena-chan. These flowers, also. In our unit song (TWO ROSES), Rena-chan’s dress was red and mine was blue. Red and blue combined will be purple. Two of us are purple. So, I am happy that Rena-chan love purple…”
As Wmatsui, they do their best to lead SKE48 along these 7 years. Especially, the beginning that two of them mostly worked together “Whether we went to Tokyo or stayed at a hotel, we were always together. I spent even more time with Rena-chan than with my family” To make SKE48 be the strongest group, for that reason, they have been fighting alongside of each other. However, Rena announced that she will graduate in August. There is not much time left to see “Wmatsui of SKE48”
“I only knew that she will graduate just a moment before she announced on the radio. She mailed to 1st gen ‘sorry that I didn’t tell you guys in advance’ but I was already aware of it. So fast…before General Election, I got a work with Rena-chan and she said something that she had never said. It seemed like she was thinking if she should say it. I knew it just by looking at her. I also talked to Masana ‘Rena-chan said like this, she must be thinking about graduation. What should I do?’ but Masana said ‘It is not like that. It will be alright. I talked to Rena before, she said she will not graduate soon’ then, on the day of General Election, Masana also went to Rena’s room to make sure again. The day after, Masana reported to me cheerily ‘no way she will graduate’ (laugh) but since I was always with Rena-chan, I knew it”
Sisters, friends, comrades, rivals…in these 7 years, it is difficult to describe relationship of Wmatsui that had walked along together with only one word. Break out in tears of joy together, feel the frustration together, quarrel with each other sometimes…for Jurina, Rena is special.
“Rena-chan, for me, is lover. I once thought she is family but that is not it. She is my lover. Not admiration but love. Not sisters, also. I realized how depressed it is to be separated from the one you love. Because of love, I couldn’t honestly say it. Anyways, Rena-chan always sees me as little sister, she loves me in that way. So, we are unrequited love to each other. We are opposite to each other because our way of thinking is different. But because of that, there are various kind of thoughts came out. It brought us together. I think it is a very good relationship”
Very good relationship…but also similar to Maeda Atsuko and Oshima Yuko of AKB48. They could not avoid being compared - position, ranking in election, length of waiting line in handshake event- not knowing when people started seeing them through ‘rival’ filter, though they are in the same group, comrades in the same team. “Although we are close, I once felt that I couldn’t show it because everyone said that we are rivals. Everyone enjoyed as it became like that…fans got fired up, so I thought we also need to be the same. It felt strange when we need to let people think that we are rivals. But, I was taken by it. I took it for granted that our rivalry is real…”
Looking forward to seeing you again at 10th anniversary… 3 years from now, when it is 10th anniversary, it would be great if I could make her think “let’s go see SKE48 live”
In “idol no namida: Documentary of SKE48” that was released in February this year, there was a scene that shows complicated relationship between Jurina and Rena. In 2011, the 3rd General Election was held, Jurina got 14th and Rena got 10th. It was the first time that ranking sequence of the two switched. After the event ended, in the waiting room backstage, Jurina who was crying surrounded by members trying to comfort her. While Rena was alone in the corner with tight-lipped, her expression showed mixed feeling. When we asked about this scene, Jurina lowered her head sadly. Her eyes brimmed with tears shortly afterwards…
“Back then, I didn’t know that Rena-chan was around because I just kept looking at the floor. Then, when I was about to go home, I accidentally met Rena-chan. It seemed we only said ‘thanks for hard work’, bowed to each other. But at that times, I really hated myself for thinking like…’ah, did she just look down on me?’ I supposed that Rena-chan and I think the same, there was no superiority or inferiority. Since we had walked here together, I felt lonely when I saw her walked ahead. But to think about it now, it is not like that anymore. Rena-chan was older than me. She was mature. When she saw me crying, she did not come in to comfort me because she was thoughtful. At that time, I was really young. I only thought ‘it is good that she does not mess with me’ but I understand now that was her kindness. Even so…I still want to say sorry for what I have done”
Surrounded by fans’ thought, fighting intensely in General Election every year, for members in 48 group who always aim higher, this is unavoidable. That is why there are times when these two did not talk to each other, to the point that it became awkward. However, there was something that melted away Jurina’s hostile feeling toward Rena.
“Now, I do not feel any rivalry anymore. What changed it was team shuffle (in April 2013). When Rena-chan moved from Team S to Team E, that was the first time I felt so lonely. We had always been together, but then it was gone. We were just in the different team, so I thought that ‘we just cannot stand together on the same theater stage’ but never thought that it was not only that…as our individual work increased, we could not go to Tokyo or somewhere, only the two of us, anymore. It felt lonely. If I were with Rena-chan, I would not have to eat anything. If only I had Rena-chan, I would be okay with everything. Once we talk, I would forget everything else, even eating. And when we talk about SKE48, I would put everything else away”
For SKE48, Matsui Rena’s graduation is the end of an episode in history. When a half of Wmatsui is gone, it would cause a huge effect to popularity. Will SKE48 without a pillar like Rena decline?…this pessimism started to float around, but Jurina said with confidence “It will be alright. Surely be alright! 7th gen and draft 2nd gen kids are all earnest. They are trying with all their might. When I look at them, I think of us 1st gen because the passion they have toward SKE48 is the same as us. They made me feel that ‘we will beat AKB48’ For members from 2nd gen below…Rena-chan’s graduation could be their most important turning point. Nakanishi Yuka-chan’s and Sato Mieko-san’s graduation before could also be encouragement for them. So, it will be alright!”
As 1st gen member and unshakeable ace, Jurina who has been the center of SKE48 until now will bring the new SKE48 after Rena graduated forward. Of course, everyone would think like this. But in Jurina’s mind, there is something unexpectedly different.
“I do not expect SKE to be like this or that. Everyone doing what they want with the feeling like they have right now is enough. I would not be happy if I said that we need to be like this and everyone is just too cautious to do anything. It is not necessary. About me leading everyone, I do not think that I have to lead anymore. This might be from when I listened to ‘Mae no Meri’ In ‘Mae no Meri’, there is a verse ‘Youth is a winding road. Even we fell, we will get up again. Hope is strength. We are still alright’ I think this is what Rena-chan wants to tell us. My youth is SKE48, so the feeling like ‘I want to hurry up and do something for SKE48’ or ‘I want SKE48 to be number 1’ these feelings are strong. We want to leap forward. I realized that being too strict or preaching others just because I am good at it is terrible. SKE48 members have a good attitude to learn enthusiastically by observing, I do not even have to say a thing. So, I am not worried”
AKB48 that was established in 2005 will reach its 10th anniversary this December. In another 3 years, in October 2018, SKE48 that was established in 2008 will also reach its 10th anniversary. When SKE48 mark 10-year anniversary, how will they be?…the only thing we can tell is that when the day comes, Jurina will still be working wholeheartedly as SKE48 member.
“Of course, I will still be here when 10th anniversary comes. 3 more years, I will be 21 by then. It still does not reach the age as Rena-chan is now. It is alright. Even though Masana said she will be here until 30, she might not be here by the time of 10th anniversary anyway. So, when it comes, I will make Rena-chan who is strict as an idol think ‘let’s go see SKE48 live’ To make her think that, I need to try hard in these 3 years. I want her to come and speak to me ‘I like SKE48 the most, after all. Jurina, thanks for your hard work. You did well’”
When I look at the kids, I think of us in the past
Long live to Wmatsui
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Center & Black (Ep4) 🐟
Vampire kidnapper
PART 1 It been three days since Jurina were kidnapped by a beautiful lady, who captured her in her bedroom, Jurina had no idea who is that lady and what does she wants. As the night come, Jurina bedroom door open and the beautiful lady come inside, while holding some cloth and towel for her. “Wake up young lady, time for a shower.” The lady said flashing her beautiful smile. “Just leave me alone!!” Jurina groaned and flipped the blanket over her head. The lady put the cloth and towel on the table and forcefully pulled the blanket off the girl. “Up! Shower! Now!”The lady said in her scary voice. “No!” The lady growled and gave Jurina an intimidating glare. “If you don’t wake up now, I’ll bite you.” “what are you vampire!!” Jurina glared back at her.Shaking her head The lady pick Jurina in bride style and took her to the bathroom. Jurina yelled and start punching her chest. “Put me down, I SAID PUT ME DOWN!!” “OK.” Saying this, the lady throw Jurina into the hot water. “Argh!” Jurina yelped! “Hold on! I’m still clothed! What the hell?!” “It was your fault for not waking up and getting ready yourself.” “Get ready? For what?It's not like I have to go somewhere, you had kept me inside your damn room since three days. I don't understand what you want from me!!” Jurina yelled at her not caring the glare she were receiving from the Lady. Ignoring her, the lady start undressing Jurina. “Don't touch me!! I'm not a baby, I can shower myself.” Jurina said slapping her hands. “OK, I give you 30 minutes, if you didn't come out I will come in.” saying this she walk away. Quickly Jurina takes her clothes off and take the bath before annoying lady come inside and disturb her. After wearing the cloth and drying her hair, she walk out the bathroom and sit on the love chair waiting for Lady to bring her breakfast. She sighed as she leaned back. “Why did this all happen..?” Jurina remembered that day like it was just yesterday. She was walking home drunk in the streets. Lately, that was normal for Jurina. Regular doses on mind numbing drugs, hot love-making with women in love hotels, nightly hours spent in a bar drowned in alcohol… Sometimes she’d even wake up in a dumpster or on the ground in her own vomit. One night, she was all beat up and bruised, like she had gotten into a fight, but she couldn’t remember a damn thing. This was all to forget about some dumbass jerk that broke her heart and she fell into depression. Since then, she’s been taking drugs and doing all sorts of immoral, even illegal things, just to forget her pain. Even her therapist is starting to give up on her, believing she could never be cured. Jurina’s life took a complete turn one night, however… “Hic… you’re.. cute~ hic… come ‘ere.. lemme giv you a kiss~ hic…” Jurina slurred out as she dragged a girl by the wrist. “Let me go,” she said, trying to release her wrist from Jurina’s grip. “Mou~ why ye gotta, hic, play hard to get..? hic.. I can show you a real good time~ hahaha…” Then all of sudden a beautiful lady jumped front her causing Jurina froze in her spot her jaw dropped as her eyes meet with beautiful lady’s eyes, her grip from another girl loosened and she was able to run away. Jurina gave a drunk smile again, laughing as she stared at the beautiful lady. “Ooh~ today must be my lucky day~ hic… Hey, pretty lady, will you keep my company for the night?” The lady glared at Jurina and pushed her against the brick wall of the dark alley. The lady stared at Jurina eyes deeply and dangerously inched closer causing Jurina blush. She leaned closer until their lips touched, the spark shot through her body. Breaking the kiss the lady moved her lips closer to Jurina’s ear and whispered in a sweet tone. “Sleep my love, from now I will take care of you.” As if cast under a spell, Jurina felt her body go weak and she collapsed, asleep in the woman’s arms. After that, she woke up in that room in an unfamiliar bed. From then on, the woman kept her inside the large mansion, always feeding her and bringing her change of clothes, but she was never allowed to go outside or leave the mansion. She became sort of like a prisoner. “I wish If she just left me to die, I don't understand why she kidnapped me, but I don't want anyone helps,” Jurina said to no one. The door knob lowered and the lady comes inside while holding the food tray. “Here is your breakfast.” The lady said putting the tray on the table. Jurina chuckled. “You know breakfast for morning not for the night, sometimes I wonder if you are a vampire,” Jurina said. “Well, you’ll have to get used to the new schedule. And again, what makes you think I am a vampire?” “You threatening to bite me and the fact you always asleep during the day and awake during the night. Seriously, are you a vampire?” Jurina stretches her head. “And what if I was?” The lady said flashing her white fangs. Causing Jurina falls down off the loveseat and hit her head on the cold floor. “WOAH!! ARE THOSE REAL??” Jurina said amused. “What you think?” The lady said licking her fangs. Jurina stands up and stepped slowly toward the lady and touch her fangs with her index finger. “T-They are real!!” Jurina gulped. “Now be a good girl, and eat your breakfast, also don't forget to eat your medicine.” “What is your name??” Jurina asked as the lady about to close the door behind. “Rena.” Saying this, she closed the door. Sighing, Jurina runs her hand through her hair in frustration. “Unbelievable, Vampires are real.” ____ As usual, Jurina took her medicine after the breakfast, the medicine helps her to control her body from taking any kind of drugs and alcohol. As she felt bored, she switch the TV on and watched some Disney cartoon and played some games. “I want my freedom back.” Jurina murmured throwing the remote away. “I can't take this anymore, why does the fate always playing games with me. What have I done to deserve this kind of life.” Jurina looked around the room searching for any kind of weapons. “I have to get out of this hell.” Suddenly Jurina heard footsteps coming toward her room. She quickly rushed toward the nightstand and hold the light tightly in her hand. She saw Rena come in and look around, sniffing the air. “I smell you here, Jurina,” she spoke. “Don’t hide. Come on out, also put the light on it's place.” Rena said entered the room in a flash she grabbed the light with Jurina about to hit her and throw the light on the bed. “What you want from me??” Jurina yelled angrily. “if you want your freedom you have to listen to me and do as I said, or else rot in this room for the rest of your life. Now it's time for you to take medicine.” Rena said giving her medicine, “You better take it or else I will tie you to the bed.” giving her last glare Rena flashed out smacking the door behind her. “As if I care I'm not taking it.” Jurina throws the medicine on the floor, Smashing it with her foot. After an hour later Rena heard screaming and banging voice come toward the Jurina room, she quickly rushed into the room and found Jurina screaming in pain while holding her head. “Are you Okay??” Asked Rena as she holds Jurina arm. “Give me drugs!!” Jurina pleaded. “I want the drug.” Jurina holds Rena's shoulder and looked into her eyes. “please!!” “Why you didn't take the medicine?” Rena picked Jurina and put her on the bed, she tied her hands and leg. “You will be fine.”Rena patted her head. “Just close your eyes, the pain will leave you.” But Jurina kept struggling to break the restraints. “Let me go! Let me...” She suddenly felt her mind failing her however as she stared in Rena’s eyes. “Don’t fight. The pain will only get worse if you let it get to you. Shut it out. Resist the urge and let that pain go.” Jurina’s mind became numb again and her struggling ceased. She stared deep into Rena’s eyes, captivated by her mesmerizing beauty. “Don't leave me!!” She whispered and try to reach her hand toward Rena’s face and touch her cheeks. “I…..love you…. Mayu.” Rena’s eyes widened. Jurina’s eyes weakly closed and she passed out, her hand dropping to her side. “I love you too Jurina,” Rena replied kissing Jurina forehead and wiping her tears away. ______ Next day Rena entered Jurina room while holding cloth and towel for her. She put them, as usual, place and shake Jurina waking her up. “Wake up sleeping head, before I sink my teeth into your neck.” Groaning Jurina threw the blanket and sat up on the bed while yawning and stretching. She glanced at Rena then at the sky through the window. “Goodnight!!” She said and hide inside the blanket. Raising her eyebrow Rena kicked the bed “Wake up!” “No~” Rena pouted. “OK, if you don't want to wake up, then don't.” Saying this Rena pick Jurina in a flash and walked towards the bathroom and walk outside throwing Jurina in the cold bathtub. “WHAT THE HELL.” Quickly Jurina jumps out the bathtub. “Why the water is cold??” “Your punishment for taking medicine yesterday, you have to take the bath with cold water.” Rena yelled from the outside, Jurina can feel her smirking. “Mouh~” Jurina angrily glared at Rena from outside and forcefully started taking her bath, shivering. “So cold~...” When she came out, she saw Rena was sitting on the bed, as if waiting for her. “What do you want?” Rena then handed Jurina a clean white gown. “Change.” “I'm not your slave.” Jurina said but changed anyway. “If you said that, then why were you changing?” “Because, it’s cold.” Rena then gestured for Jurina to sit on the bed with her. “Come here.” “Why?” “Because I wanna tell you a story.” Jurina scoffed. “I’m not a kid, I don’t need bedtime stories.” “It’s not a bedtime story,” Rena said bluntly as she rolled her eyes, “It’s a tragic love story.” Jurina then sighed and sat on the bed, covering herself with the blankets as she was still cold. Rena started, “A Hundred Years ago there was a king who ruled the kingdom called Romaine, however, he was ruling with a dictatorship, which allowed him to rule with an iron fist. With strict laws, it made the civilians unhappy. But as he realized that his body getting weaker and he has no more strength to fight, he decided to find someone powerful who would stay loyal to him like a dog. So one day he killed the family of one girl named Manatsu and trained her to become… Essentially his Assistant. Manatsu stayed loyal to him and did all kinds of jobs that he offered her without hesitating. The civilians started to get more scared and obeyed everything he had said, as they were afraid that they were going to get killed by Manatsu. Furukawa Airi was one of the best knights the king has, who reinforced the rules if need be. She hated the king most, more than anything, but was forced to do what been told to her, on purpose to save civilians, she had to listen to his orders. Airi would not let any enemy attack the kingdom, nor let any of the civilians revolts against the king. Airi had feelings for Manatsu, she loved the girl more than anything, however, something was wrong, yet Airi was clouded by the dark emotion, known as love. Manatsu used Airi and obtained all sorts of useful information that can help her get out of this kingdom and find her freedom, once she got enough information and gathered some useful soldier and run away leaving Airi behind and broken. Due to her broken heart, Airi found it difficult to regain any form of trust and passion for what she does. She became empty. Until when the King’s new assistant, Takayanagi ‘Churi’ Akane came, Airi couldn't stop herself from falling deeply in love with her, but deep down she was afraid to make the same mistake again. However, though her fright was still within her, Akane’s beauty overwhelmed her, to the point where she was unsure of what to do. As the days pass by, Churi became stronger just like Manatsu, until the day come when Churi killed the devil King and take his place as the new Queen and ruled the kingdom better than him. Although a knight, Airi continued to fall deeper in love with her new Queen. But since she had hurt a lot of civilians and so many bad things had happened because of her, no one was willing to accept her as a new person, so then everyone hated her. Until that day come when Queen Churi ordered Airin to leave their Kingdom for a while. Without any thought, Airin accepts it and went far away where she can forget about her feeling for Queen Churi and start a new life, but Airi kept persisting in staying by her Queen. It became difficult for her to stay away from the Queen, due to the fact that she was so hungover in love. Now in a new kingdom, she explored the outskirts, then bumping into the girl she had once loved. Both were surprised to see each other, however, Airi’s visit was short lived. For Akane was now in grave danger. It was either life or death as she ran back to the kingdom, as fast as she could. But it didn't happen as some rogue attacked Churi, stating that he was from a kingdom ruled by Manatsu. Angered, Churi attacked the rouge back, killing him from a fatal slash from her sword. But soon hundred of rogues surrounded her all around the place ready to take her Head with them as a gift for Queen Manatsu. Without hesitating Airin helped Churi to get out of there but, it wasn’t without any injury. Her words to the Queen were ‘Who am I to be a knight without protecting my Queen?’ which struck Churi. Without warning, Churi slashed at the knight. Her hatred for the knights of the old king was still there, she couldn’t accept the protection from one of them. ‘If you really cared about me, then you wouldn’t have hurt all of those innocent people!’ ‘But I didn’t! I tried to protect them, I tried! If I didn’t do what I did, their lives would’ve been in danger!’ Airi was always guilty of what she had done to the civilians of the kingdom. However, Churi wasn’t going to buy the excuse. They ran, with flesh wounds on their arms, legs, and torsos, somewhere where people couldn’t get them. ‘A knight always protects her people, with her life. Not to rule like the king,’ Churi was fuming with anger. Airi on the other hand, grabbed the Queen by the wrist and tried to calm her down, ‘I’m sorry, alright? I know I’ve done wrong, but right now I have to get you out of here .’ Churi pushed Airi away roughly causing her fall hard on the ground. “Death is better than being helped by someone like you.” Before Churi can react, a rouge appeared behind her causing Airin to jump on Churi and shielded her with her body. Airin yelped and hissed in scorching pain as the rogue’s sword pierced deeper into her body. “W-What are you doing?!” Churi was dumbfounded by the knight’s foolish actions. “T-Takayanagi-s-sama… Run.” “You fool! Why?! Why would you do this?!” “You….. have to… leave this place.” Airin coughed the crimson red blood out, “I-It’s too dangerous... for someone like you to be here…” “You idiot!” Before Churi can decide anything she heard more rogue's getting close to them, quickly she held Airin in bridal style and ran into the forest. She keeps walking until she found a large cave and get inside it, placing Airin on the ground, sighing, “You’re such an idiot, you know that?” Churi said as she tore her dress and wrap the cloth around Airin’s bad wound. “I-It’s what you said: ‘A knight always protects her people, not to rule like the king’. Now, I’m giving up… my life… for you… T-Takayanagi-sama…” Churi’s eyes widened as she heard what Airi had told her. “Hold on, don't give up yet, I will get back with help, wait for me okay??” Churi stood up and glanced at Airin one last time before rushing outside. “I…...love…. You…. My q-queen.” A smile was plastered on her lips as she took her last breath. “Then what happened next??” Jurina asked emotionally. “I’m getting to it.” “After that Churi came back to her kingdom and found that some rogue kidnapped her sister, she got very angry and ordered to start the war, she was too focused on the war and her sister that she forget about Airin and never came to go get her. While the other side Airin’s spirit was still roaming around Churi’s kingdom thinking that she still alive. After the war ended, Churi remembered about Airin and had realized that it was very unlikely that she was going to live. Her heart suddenly fell apart and rushed back to the cave to find her lifeless body on the ground. She had mourned over the loss of one of her best knights. She felt like someone tore her heart apart, she blamed herself for not saving the only person she ever had feelings for. At that time Airin realized that she is dead, regretting ever even trying to pull a sword at Churi. Before going back to Heaven, she decided to meet Churi for the last time in her dream and stop her from blaming herself. “Takayanagi-sama.” Churi turned around, in disbelief. “A-Airi??” Her eyes widened as she took a step closer and reached her hand out to touch Airin’s cheeks with her warm hands, “I-I thought…!” “Yes, I know, Takayanagi-sama… I just wanted to have a talk with you.” “About what?” “Us.” “U-Us?” “Yes, us. I… I have something to say…” Churi became confused, a whirlwind of emotions struck her. “I love you, Takayanagi-sama. I always have and always will. Even as I watch over you in the Heavens, I will continue loving you. Even if we both die and reincarnate, I will still believe I’ll meet you and fall in love with you all over again.” “A-Airi…” Churi’s tears slowly fell as Airi continued. “As long as you’re happy, I will have no regrets with sacrificing myself for you. Rule your kingdom like I’m beside you.” Airi wiped away her tears. “I will never forget that day when I met you, even though I hated you thinking you are no different than others, but I was wrong, you proved me wrong, even though you hate me, you are different from others who want power, money and want to hurt other innocent people’s feelings. My queen, arigatou for shining my life with your light.” Airin smiles and wipe Churi’s tear with her thumb. “I have to go now.” she said glancing at the sky. “Wait!” Akane held the girl’s hand. “D-don’t go yet… stay a little longer…” The knight smiled and knelt down to hug her Queen. Akane cried into the girl’s shoulder as Airin rubbed her back. “I’ll always be beside you, Takayanagi-sama.” “E-Eh…?” “I love you!” “Airi… I…” Smiling Airin started to vanish into light, “Just know, I’ll always be in your heart.” “Why is it so sad??” Jurina wiped her tears. Rena smiled and walk outside to cook breakfast.
I found these gifs I made a while back for a site that’s not running anymore, so I thought I’d post them here. It’s a description of psychiatric symptoms and states of mind using a pink box and some other stuff.
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Onshot: Wmatsui+ yukirena
Hello everyone I'm back with another one shot hope you like it . Sorry for mistake and bad grammar.
Hope you enjoy
"Rena-chan! I love you please be my girlfriend!!" I bowed my head, my heart were beating madly. Finally I said it, I told you my feelings, I told you that I love you, I can't believe that I did it. But you didn't answer.Why??
I'm still bowing, please Rena give me the answer, say that you love me, say that you accept it.
"I'm sorry!!"
Everything becomes dark, I moved my head up, and looked at your back ,you were running, the tears were falling on my cheeks. I see, you didn't love me, it's OK, because I love you and always going to do.
••••••••••••••••••••
It's been two years since you disappeared from the Japan, after that day I heard that you leave the school and went to the US, after that day I didn't see your face anymore, I wonder if you hate me.
"Jurina are you still thinking about her?? " My best friend Mayu appear and sit beside me. I replied her with force smile. "Jurina please I beg you forgot about her, you are going to kill yourself like this, she didn't love you,she never loved you."
Mayu is right, I should forget about her, she never loved me, I'm always like a little sister to her. "I'm trying Mayu and I hope that I can forget her."
The bell ring and everyone sit at their place, the teacher come in the classroom, we all greeted her.
"Mina-San we have a new student. Please come in Rena-San."
As shocked as I heard familiar name, I looked up and our eyes meet.
"Nice to meet my name is Matsui Rena." She bowed.
I can feel my friend gives her an angry look. You are back! Two years later after you come back.Why? What is your reason behind it?
The bell ring and everyone run outside.Mayu come toward me, she holds my hand and drag me out, I know she doesn't want me to sit with Rena, she doesn't want me to get hurt again.
••••••••••••••• Only three weeks still for us to graduate, Rena and I didn't talk much then hi and hello, I want to ask her if she loves me, I want to hear the answer, no matter what happen I want to hear the truth.
With all my power I stand up from my chair and went out looking for her, I didn't find her anywhere as I was walking on the ground I looked at Rena who were talking with Airin, I wonder what are they talking about. Then suddenly Airin kissed her, they shared a passionate kiss, I can't believe what I'm seeing now, I felt pain in my heart, look like I found my answer, Rena didn't love me.
I run and continue running the tears were falling like rain, it's hurt, damn, it's hurt so much, I fell on the ground I looked up at the sky, I breathed heavily. "Jurina! Why can't you forget her??" Mayu asked me with a sad tone. I looked at her and smiled not forced or fake but real smile. "I didn't love her anymore." I said with energy voice.Yeah, I didn't love her anymore, why should I waste my life on someone who doesn't love me.
Time passed fast and our graduation come, we all graduate happily and also crying, Mayu and I become couples, we are most beautiful couples in all the school we love and care about each other, I totally forgot about Rena, I don't think about her anymore, I start my life with a smile and with a beautiful wife.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's been three years or four! Well, I don't care I came back to Japan, yeah, I miss everyone, especially about her, my crush. I take my phone and called Mayu and told her that I'm back and I want to meet them.
At evening I enter at the coffee shop and looked around, I saw Mayu were waving at me. Woah she become so beautiful.
"Hi Mayu it's been a long time!!" I hugged her.
"Yukirin, I miss you." She hugged me back.
"Hi Yuki-San!! " Jurina greeted me.
"Hi Jurina." Two of them grown up as beautiful lady.
"So what's up, what bring you in Japan??" Mayu asked.
"I miss my country and I miss my friends.So how is two of you doing??"
"We are married and living our life happily." Mayu giggle.
Yes Mayu and Jurina are married now, sadly I missed their marriage party. They even have one year old girl. They look happy together. "By the way do you hear any news about Rena??" They shake their heads. "She disappeared after graduation, no one knows about her or saw her." Jurina.
"She probably lives happily with her girlfriend Airin or maybe they are married." Mayu said.
Airin!! I knew Rena never loved Airin. I want to know what happened to Rena, where is she, I want to meet her. I called Yuko to ask about her.
"Yuko-san did you have any news about Rena??"
•••••••••••••••••• I knocked the door and enter inside the room, slowly I moved my feet and walk toward the bed, I come close to it and looked at the sleeping girl, her face look so pale, I take the chair and sit beside her and continue staring at her with fear. After a few minutes later, sitting like this I looked around my gaze moved at blue dairy, I took the diary and start reading it.
******2010******
Today I did mistake, it was the biggest mistake of my life, not one, but twice, I can't forgive myself, Never.
Yesterday night Jurina told me her feelings, first I was so happy that my love is not onside, but suddenly I become afraid, I start shaking with fear, no word can come out of my mouth, and in the end all I can say to her is I'm sorry, I broke her heart, not only this I run away from the Japan I travelled to US, I can't show her my face after this, I'm so afraid, I can't tell her that I love her, I can't, Jurina I'm sorry please forgive me.
******2012******
After two years later I decide to go back to Japan and graduate from my old high school, I begged to my parents,I told them I will do anything that they will going to tell me, just please let me go back, they accepted, and I come back. As I entered in the class my heart were beating so fast, I introduced myself, I can feel everyone glaring at me, all of them hate me.
I looked at Jurina she changed too much she become weak, I wonder if it's because of me. I wanted to talk with Jurina I want to tell her that I love her, but whenever I try to get close to her her best friend Mayu always try to take her away from me, I know why she does this she didn't want to see her hurt.
The graduation ceremony is coming close and until now I didn't talk with Jurina. Suddenly I got MSG from Airin that she wanted to see me, I wonder what she wants.
I went to the park and looked at her, she was waiting me.
"What you want??" I asked her in a cold voice.
"Nothing really, I just wanted to meet my future wife got any problem?" she said playfully. I glared at her.
"What's with the glare, you should be thankful that I didn't tell your parents about Jurina, you know what will happen if I tell them, they are going to kill her." She laughed I really wanted to punch her face, but I hold myself. She looked at me with a serious face.
"Rena I need kiss as my payment or other else I will going to tell your parents." She smirk, without giving me any warning, she kiss me passionately, I tried to push her, but she was so strong, as she broke the kiss she start laughing.
"I feel sorry for Jurina who just saw us kissing." Airin smirk and went away while leaving me shocked. No, it's not true, I didn't believe it, she didn't see me, Airin just playing with me, yes she just plays nothing other.
After a few days later I heard that Mayu and Jurina is dating, I can't believe what I heard, it's not true all of this is lie, I don't want to believe it.
In the end that day come when everyone graduate happily beside me, I didn't wanted to go I didn't want to leave Jurina I want to tell her that I love her, but look like I'm late, everything is over, I should say her goodbye now, maybe this is best for us, I walked toward her and congratulations to her and hug her tight I miss her scent and hug. It was my final hug, I smiled at her and walk to my car while hoping she will call me. But she didn't, I wished if she did, I wished if she said Rena I love you, after all it was my mistake, I was scared I don't want to hurt her I didn't want to lose her, that's why I run away, I wished if I never come back, I wished if I died.
*******2013********
I'm a slave of my parents, who only do what they tell me, and if I refused what they said they will going to destroy my life, today is my marriage party, I'm going to marry with Airin, I didn't want it, I don't love her, I hate her, Jurina please help me, Jurina please come and save me.
No, I can't do it anymore, I can't, I run away from home and meet Yuko, gladly she was in the US for some business, I told her everything and asked for help, she is a very nice person she helped me and destroyed my parent company because she was rich also, after that I come back from Japan.
When I come back I find out that Mayu and Jurina were married and even Mayu is pregnant, look like I'm very late now, there isn't any way to go back.
*******2014*******
Now when I'm writing this diary, I'm standing in the building roof, yes, I'm going to kill myself, I want time to die and born again, there isn't any meaning for me to live anymore, I should be punished for what I did.
I didn't know if someone will going to read this dairy or not, but I want to say sorry to everyone whom I caused problems." IAs i finished reading the diary I can feel tears on my cheeks. Suddenly I felt a warm hand come and wipe my tears, I looked up and didn't even realize that Rena wake up and staring at me. l " Why are you crying?? "She asked in a weak voice.
"You wake up." she replied with a smile. I put the diary on the table.
"It's a very sad story." She said. I looked at her with shock. "I wonder how she looks like, the owner of the dairy." She smiles.
"What happened to you?? " I Asked.
"Yuko-san told me that I accidentally hit by a car and lose my memory."
"Did you remember me ??"She looked at me for a while."I do, you are Yuki right." I nodded. So she can remember me, but she didn't remember Mayu and Jurina, somehow I well happy, I want her to forget about her.
Week and months pass by, I spend my most of time with Rena, we talk and have our lunch together, slowly she start to recover, so I take her out of the hospital.
We come to the beach and sit on the bench while watching the waves. Rena looked at me and smiled. "You are nice person Yuki-chan."
"Thanks." I smiled. I wonder what is going on her mind.
"Yuki-chan Arigatou, for being with me."
"It's nothing much, we are friends so it's my job to take care of my friend."
"You are more than friends." I stared at her beautiful face.
"Yukirin!!!" I heard familiar voice I quickly moved my face behind, and looked at Mayu and Jurina.
"Ah Mayu-chan and Jurina -Chan, what are you doing here??" Rena asked. I moved my gaze and looked at Rena with shock, she said she didn't remember them.
"We are shopping here." Mayu giggled.
"What are you shopping in the sea." I asked.
"Maybe they are buying some water and fish." Rena joked.
"It's been long time Rena, how are you doing??" Jurina asked. Rena smiled and looked at me. "I'm fine and enjoying my life with my friend."
••••••••••••••• After enjoying the beautiful day we come back to the hospital Rena change her clothes and sit on the bed and looked at me.
"Look like you have something to say!!"
"You said you didn't remember!!"
"I lied!!"
"Why?? "
"....." She stayed silent while I was waiting for her answer, maybe she is afraid that's why she didn't want to tell me. Thinking this I sit on the bed and hugged her."It's OK, tell me why did you lie!!"
She looked at me me with lonely eyes."You are different from her, two of you loves me, but your love is different, you know everything about me, even though I didn't tell you anything, Jurina she just loved me, but she didn't know anything about me, I wonder if her love is true." she put her index finger on my lips and moved it slowly."They are sweet."
My body shivered I can't believe what is happening now.
"Rena!!" I said in a weak voice.
"When I jumped I killed everything that were inside me, and when I wake up I was a new person, and then I find out from Yuko that you had feelings for me, so I start falling for you, I'm happy that you find me." The tears fall from her eyes."Can I become yours??"
I wiped her tears with my thumb and looked straight into her eyes,slowly I moved close to her and capture her lips into mine. As I broke the kiss and looked at her eyes again she smiles. "As I said before, your lips are sweet." She giggles.
"It's because I eat ice-cream." I hugged her."I love you Rena."
"I love you too Yuki."
#Taro
The real betrayed : (Atsumina : Mayuki : wmatsui: Kikuyu)
Hello everyone ҉٩(*´︶`*)۶҉ Thank you for reading my fic . I'm so happy. Here I come with another chapter hope you like it. Sorry for bad grammar.
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Here you go.
Chapter : 2
I woke up from sunlight hitting my face and the sound of birds outside. ‘What a nice dream’ I thought. Wait, where I'm? I looked around, and it was not my room, why am I in stranger’s home? Ah yes, I remember staying in Yukirin’s home last night, and she is not stranger, She is the person I love. I got up from the bed. Took a shower, and walked to the kitchen. I saw Yukirin sitting near the dining table, and drinking coffee.
"Good morning Yukirin." I greeted.
"Good morning Mayuyu." She greeted back
“Ehh mayuyu!” I blushed. I saw Yuki smirk and give me cup of coffee.
"Arigatou." I said, grabbing the cup that she offered I take the cup and take a sip that makes my eyes open widely. Damn this is not coffee, it's BLOOD. I was shocked and looked at Yuki, how she find out?
" I read your mind!" She exclaimed.
“You read my mind??” I asked obviously shocked. "Yes.” She said matter of factly.
“How??” I asked.
"I have an ability to read a person’s mind." The raven haired girl said.
“Ehh, shit don't you hate me??” I asked a little bewildered.
"Why should I?” She asked pouring herself a cup of coffee.
"Uh? Is it because I'm vampire?" I shrugged.
"So? What if you are a vampire? You’re not a bad person." she smiled.
I grin to myself her smile is so cute I want to kiss her lips so bad.
"Thank you. But you can't." She said letting out a small giggle . Oh shit! I totally forgot that she can read my thoughts. "It's okay." She said as she gave me a small smile.
"Can you please stop reading my mind?" I said.
"Hmmm? Why not? I happen to like your thoughts. Last night you were dreaming of alpacas.” Yuki giggled.
I didn’t have any answer. “Just don't read my mind,” I sigh
“Some of my thoughts aren’t that great.” I saw her grin. I can't sit here anymore, I fidgeted in my seat. I quickly drink all blood in one gulp. I shot her a look and bolted for the door and out of the house, why is all of this suddenly happening to me? Why did she have that kind of power?
~~~~~ As usual, I wait for her outside the market, and we walked home together. Now I don't have to stalk her. Because she found out about me.
There was an awkward silence between us. I looked around. What a boring life. I sighed.
"You are right." She said nudging me.
"You’re reading my mind Again I might add."
I say to her as we walked back to our home. She gave me an evil smile "Did you know reading a person’s mind without their permission is not good." I said.
"What about stalking people without their permission is that good?" She said raising a perfectly shaped eyebrow at me.
Damn, she is a genius. I thought
"Yes, I'm." Yuki replied smugly I sighed again, looks like I can't even think in peace with her.
"You are right." she smiles. I glared at her. An idea came into mind, I looked at her chest. I quickly touched her chest and ran away while laughing. I stopped running and looked around. She was nowhere to be found, didn't she follow me? That’s strange. I felt someone standing beside me. As I move my head slowly, I fell down. "Y-yukirin…” I stammered I can't believe how she could’ve caught me so fast, she leaned close to my face, and poked my cheeks.
" I forgot to tell I also can run faster than normal humans." She shrugged. Wait how can I forgot that I'm vampire, stupid right? I can fly Instead of running like human which is way cooler than running on ground, and then she can't catch me that easily.
But from now it seems like my great day is coming to an end. .
"You are right Mayu." she winked and grab my ear and dragged me with her. Kami-sama please help me. ~~~~~
As we were walking to home. We saw someone lying on the road, we got nearer to her it was a beautiful girl, it seems someone beat her so badly, and she was groaning in pain.
"We should help her Mayu." Yuki urged me.
"What? But why, we don't even know her, what if she’s someone dangerous?" I asked pausing to look at her. Yuki glared at me.
"Okay, okay as you wish." I complied She smiled and help me to place her body on my back, and I carried the unconscious girl home. I felt something strange about this girl. ~~~~~
Strange, something feels very strange indeed. Who is this stranger? She isn’t human, not a vampire nor werewolf either. I get close to her body and took a whiff of her scent
“Who are you?” I whispered to the sleeping girl. How about I taste her blood, then maybe I can know her! I thought as I dipped my face closer to her, I was about to stink my fangs in her neck.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING??" Yuki yelled and started hitting me with a tray.
"If you’re that hungry, go drink animal blood you moron!” She said as she shoved me off the sleeping girl who was now on the couch.
"Yukirin it's not what it looks like, I just wanted to taste her blood, because I feel something strange about her!" I exclaim from behind the door.
"......." but there was only silence, I kicked the door down cause she won’t open it, what the hell am I supposed to do? Leave her alone with that dangerous lady? No way in hell, Yuki glared at me, she about to say something to me.
when the stranger started to stir in her sleep groaning. Her eyes fluttered open as she looked at Yuki and tries to get up, to get closer to Yuki When she was close enough she started to caress Yuki’s cheek like what lovers would do, except well they aren’t lovers. What the hell is she doing? I thought.
" B-black you co-me ba-ck??" the mysterious girl croaked, cupping Yuki’s cheek She leaned her face closer to Yuki and kiss her lips.
My eyes wide in shock, How dare you kiss my Yukirin! I shout in my head But I’m rooted in my place too shocked to move.
Did She just stole Yuki’s FIRST KISS. ~~~~~~ I couldn't sleep at all with the image of that stranger kissing Yuki lips running through my mind. All night I was just rolling in the bed. Damn that stranger just came in the night and she already kissed Yuki. And me, I've been stalking Yuki for 3 years, but I've never even got the chance to lean my head on her shoulder. Argggghhhhg.
*knock* *knock* "MAYUUU!!!!!! MAYUUUU!!!!!!!"
Who the hell is disrupting me at this time? I get up and open the door. A tall, handsome girl came inside and grabbed my shoulders tightly. She looked very scared and scary at the same time.
"We are in trouble." She said in a weak voice.
"What happened??" I asked.
"MAYU, THE CHILD IS GONE!" She yelled while shaking my whole body with her hands.
~~~~~~~ "Hey Acchan wake up, I have good news for you!!" Boyish looking style girl, trying to wake up the sleepy girl.
"Hmm...... What is it Sae?? Leave me alone." Acchan said while pulling the blanket over her face.
"I have very big news for you. The child is GONE." Sae said the last word loudly.
"Child??? What child, I don't have any child." Acchan replied in a lazy voice.
"Argghh.... you leave me no choice, don't blame me later," Sae murmured, then she threw cold water at Acchans face, "Here you go, you lazy ass."
"Kyaaaaaaaaa!! How dare you throw cold water at my face!" Acchan yelled while wiping her face with a blanket.
"I have good news for you. The child is gone."
"Ehhh, when?? And how?? "Acchan asked Shocked.
"I don't have all the information about it. All I know is that the child has been missing for two weeks." Sae replied.
Acchan raised her eyebrows, and started laughing like a crazy person.
"Hehehehehehe....You know what this means??" Acchan asked. Sae nodded, "Yes, the beginning of The War." she whispered in an evil voice.
~~~~To be continue ~~~~~~~
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The real betrayed ( Atsumina :Kojiyuu :mayuki :wmatsui
Hello everyone hope all of you are fine. Here I come with new supernatural fic hope you like it. Sorry for bad grammar. *nervous *sweat drop*
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Name : oshima yuko
Species : werewolf
Type : former ace
Relationship : Married
Children : one daughter.
Blood color : Dark violet
Name :kojima haruna
Species : vampire
Type : normal
Relationship : married
Children : one daughter
Blood color : black
Name : meada Atsuko
Species : werewolf
Type : Alpha
Relationship : single
Blood color : dark green
Name : Takahashi minami
Species : vampire
Type : queen
Relationship : single
Blood color : midnight blue
Name : yuki
Species : human
Type : normal
Power : mindreader: fast speed
Relationship : single
Name : watanabe mayu
Species : vampire
Type : genius
Relationship : single
Blood color : blue
Name : Matsui rena
Species : unknown
Type : unknown
Relationship : single
Blood color : unknown
Name : Matsui jurina
Species : vampire
Type : Ace
Relationship : single
Blood color : Green ~~~~
It was cold, night, the snow was falling, all over the city, I'm standing in front of a supermarket, waiting for you.
As the light of supermarket closed, and you came out, you lock the door and start to walk away, I started following you, every days , I follow you like this, You went your home safely, without any trouble, You open the door,with your cold and shivering hand.As the door open, you Went inside and close the door.
Its been three Year since I have been following you like this, I hope that you never notice me,its been three years when I saw you first time.
At Christmas eve. It's was a happy day for everyone, so I can't take any one life, Let them enjoy today, Everyone were so happy, children were laughing and playing with snow, As I was walking in silence street...suddenly I saw someone sitting In the dark place, I get closer, my eyes open widely as I saw beautiful girl sitting alone in the cold,
It was you.... first time I saw a very beautiful girl like angel, my heart felt very strange, Suddenly I hear your crying sound.... I get shocked. How came beautiful girl crying in beautiful day, I wanted to ask you and help you, seeing you crying like this, it's broke my heart,
But I can't enter in human life....but also I can't sit here seeing you crying like this I can't stop myself....I started to walk closer you, but I stopped as I saw you standing up and start walking .....I follow you secretly.... Until we reach the old building, you enter and start to climping the stairs.
I also followed you, I don't know why?! I stopped!! as I saw you standing end of the building top.
what the hell are you doing??! I thought, don't tell me you want to jump!!No! you can't, As I saw You closing your eyes ,and getting ready to jump, I can't stop myself seeing you die like this.
"What the hell are you doing" I shouted...you shocked because this is the oldest building nobody can come here... You looked at me for a moment and then you speak ."Not of your business" saying this you walk away,I walked behind you."why you wanted to die??! "I asked. But you don't give any answer and continue walking....I grab your hand "hey answer me why you want to die?" "who are you and what you want from me ?" You shouted.... Who I am that's right, I am nobody "I just want to know why beautiful girl like you want to die.??!" "none of your business." Saying this you walk away.
And I also followed you you stopped and looked at me with angry eyes.and come closer to me then you kicked my right leg, its hurt I fall down.
damn it!! what a girl,I give up anyway, i don't want to enter in human life,
do what you want!! but somehow my heart field Strang. Why you wanted to die??! Thinking This i start following you again. until I reached your home. you looked little secred.you opened the door and went inside.to find out what's going on inside, I climb the building. I'm not human so its easy for me. there was some kind of sound coming out from house.I entered your house from window, and get close to hear the voice....I get shocked when I saw your parents is Beating you. "You bicth!! Didn't I warned you, from coming home late at night, where were you huh??."
They were beating you badly. The blood were falling from your mouth and nose. Damn!! what kind of parents are they??! So that's why you wanted to die?? you wanted to end this damn life?? I went out of your house because I can't see you like this. I started to think, shall I help you or not?? my heart says yes ,but my mind says no. Then I decided to help you, and it was not a big deal for me.I killed your parent by drinking their blood it was tasty. ~~~~
"Are you going to stand there in snow like this??" I shocked with suddenly voice. I looked at the front, I saw you, standing there, I wanted to run away, but I can't. Did you find out about me. I thought, what should I do?? No its maybe not true, I looked left and right, maybe someone else be there. But There was no one, that's mean you are talking to me.
"come in"
Ohh shit !! what should I do?? "A-re you talk-ing to me?" I asked.
You nodded.
I slowly entered in your house, you showed me the way to your living room, I sit on the sofa.. You give me warm cup of tea "here you go" "Thank you." I take the sip. The taste was not bad. I always drink a blood ,its my first time drinking tea. We just sit salience. Until you broke the salience "My name is kashwagi Yuki.. What is your name. I don't give her any answer.... After some time sitting salience, I stand up and begin to go outside, but my feet stopped, I looked at you,You give me beautiful smile. "M-Mayu.. My name is Watanabe Mayu."
~~~~To be continue ~~~~~