* LUX IN TENEBRIS

i keep the wolf from the door, but he calls me up, calls me on the phone, tells me all the ways that he's gonna mess me up

[andhungry]

richard siken sentence starters.

quotes are all taken from various poems out of richard siken’s poetry book crush.  feel free to change pronouns/etc if needed.

❝  tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us.  ❞

❝  tell me we’ll never get used to it.  ❞

❝  there are so many things i’m not allowed to tell you.  ❞

❝  i swallow your heart and it crawls right out of my mouth.  ❞

❝  i want it back now, baby. i want it back.  ❞

❝  i’m sorry. we know how it works. the world is no longer mysterious.  ❞

❝  that’s a nice touch.  ❞

❝  i like him and i want to be like him.  ❞

❝  i’m sure you remember, i was on the phone with you, sweetheart.  ❞

❝  history repeats itself.  ❞

❝  there are many names in history, but none of them are ours.  ❞

❝  you could drown in those eyes.  ❞

❝  but damn if there isn’t anything sexier than a slender boy with a handgun, a fast car, a bottle of pills.  ❞

❝  sorry about the blood in your mouth. i wish it was mine.  ❞

❝  i couldn’t get the boy to kill me, but i wore his jacket for the longest time.  ❞

❝  you wanted happiness, i can’t blame you for that, and maybe a mouth sounds idiotic when it blathers on about joy but tell me you love this, tell me you’re not miserable.  ❞

❝  there is no way to make this story interesting.  ❞

❝  i want to tell you this story without having to confess anything, without having to say that i ran out into the street to prove something.  ❞

❝  tell me we’re dead and i’ll love you even more.  ❞

❝  you will be alone always and then you will die.  ❞

❝  i’m sorry i came to your party and seduced you and left you bruised and ruined, you poor sad thing.  ❞

❝  who am i? i’m just a writer. i write things down.  ❞

❝  i take it back.  ❞

❝  here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.  ❞

❝  you still get to be the hero.  ❞

❝  what more do you want?  ❞

❝  love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love. it’s like a religion. it’s terrifying.  ❞

❝  no one will ever want to sleep with you.  ❞

❝  you know that recently we have had our difficulties and there are many things i want to ask you.  ❞

❝  you had not expected this.  ❞

❝  walk a mile in my shoes.  ❞

❝  a man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then he’s still left with the river.  ❞

❝  you are weak and hollow and it doesn’t matter anymore.  ❞

❝  hush, my sweet. these tornadoes are for you.  ❞

❝  that sounds overly valorous.  ❞

❝  do you love yourself?  ❞

❝  i don’t have to answer that.  ❞

❝  you wanted more.  ❞

❝  i had a dream about you.  ❞

❝  there’s nowhere to go. there’s nowhere to go.  ❞

❝  in these dreams it’s always you: the boy in the sweatshirt, the boy on the bridge, the boy who always keeps me from jumping off the bridge.  ❞

❝  will you love me even more when i’m dead?  ❞

❝  you didn’t show up. i kept waiting.  ❞

❝  i swallowed crushed ice pretending it was glass and you’re dead.  ❞

❝  i don’t really blame you for being dead but you can’t have your sweater back.  ❞

❝  you can sleep now, you said. you can sleep now. you said that. i had a dream where you said that. thanks for saying that. you weren’t supposed to.  ❞

❝  hello darling, welcome home.  ❞

❝  please keep him safe.  ❞

❝  i just don’t want to die anymore.  ❞

❝  you want to die for love, you always have.  ❞

❝  you didn’t think you’d feel this way.  ❞

❝  you saved my life. i owe you, i owe you everything.  ❞

❝  please, just for one night, will you lie down next to me, we can leave our clothes on, we can stay all buttoned up.  ❞

❝  you’re all i ever wanted and worth dying for, too.  ❞

❝  drive into that tree, drive off the embankment. ______, make something happen.  ❞

❝  we are not dirty.  ❞

❝  you keep singing along to that song i hate. stop singing.  ❞

❝  here is the sink to wash away the blood.  ❞

❝  this is not harmless. you are not breathing.  ❞

❝  i will come back from the dead for you.  ❞

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remus sketch request for @mxnyards over on my twitter

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give me topics to write meta on i thrive on being pretentious

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Maximum Henry’s Lookbook FW 2016

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Matthew Hitt in an interview

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‘GIVE THE FIVE SIGNS THAT IDENTIFY THE WEREWOLF.’ excellent question. independent remus lupin from the harry potter series. penned by ian. established july 2017

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subtlesciences:

THIS TIME,  THE GRIN FADES AWAY   —-   slowly, like a single cloud drifting in a blue sky until it’s off-sight.  he knows he is risking a great deal there.   lupin might not be vicious like his friends, but allowing himself to be in the right place at the right time on the next full moon shouldn’t be too difficult for someone like him.   still, that conversation is an important one.   the sweating, the harsh speech & fist clenching, snape doesn’t have to be a mannerisms specialist to understand he’s getting somewhere   —-  somewhere dangerously close to where he wants to go.

                      ‘ do you ? ’    severus tilts his head slightly to the side, eyebrows knit together in a mask of bewilderment.   all is put together carelessly in purpose & the result is plastic, completely artificial.   ‘ then, enlighten me.  i’m unsure what is making you so…  uneasy.  i’m only curious as to why, if you’re the sick one, your…  friends also take medical leaves. ’

‘ I DON’T KNOW what you’re talking about. ‘ remus’s response is quick and plainly spoken. he feels as if the walls of the room are closing in him; everything is spinning and he’s not sure what he’s meant to do. he turns to face severus dead-on, eyes alight with a quiet kind of fury.

‘ no one goes on medical leave with me. you’re letting your stupid grudge against james and sirius cloud your judgement and now you’re making things up so you can feel like you have something to blackmail them with. i don’t know HOW you get these ideas, i don’t know WHAT you hope stalking me will accomplish, and frankly, i don’t WANT to know, ‘ he snaps -- practically barks. 

‘ and do you know what? you're jealous. i think you’re jealous. i think you’re jealous that i, poor loony lupin, have friends, and you, for all your arrogance, don’t. ‘ 

he would certainly come to regret those words, but for the time being, it felt almost pleasurable to say them.

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13. 16. 19. 38.

13. how do they greet the world — what is their typical attitude towards life? how does it differ in different circumstances, or towards different subjects? why do they take these attitudes, and why do they change? how do these tend to be expressed?

remus has a cynical worldview, but it wouldn’t be quite accurate to call him a pessimist. he would probably describe himself as a realist, if anything. he wants desperately to believe that people are inherently good, that the world is fundamentally not as bad as it seems, but time and time again, he’s proven otherwise. life hasn’t really been kind to him. he certainly does carry a good amount of resentment and bitterness within him, though he rarely allows that to come to the surface.

still, his own misfortune has made him a deeply empathetic person. he can’t stand to watch others suffer. he has a lot of warmth in his heart in spite of it all and does his very best to see the good in all people.

16. do they dream? what are those dreams like?

remus doesn’t dream most nights. or at least, he rarely remembers what he dreams, with the exception of nightmares, which he’s prone to. his nightmares are more tend to be reoccurring; he dreams of the same scenarios each time. losing control, transforming and killing someone, the deaths of lily, james, peter, and later sirius - all of these are things that haunt him. 

19. how do they behave within a group? what role(s) do they take? does this differ if they know and trust the group, versus finding themselves in a group of strangers? why?

remus is very much a follower rather than a leader in most situations, though this comes from a deep-seated sense of inadequacy rather than cowardice. he’s passive out of a fear of being disliked. he does what he’s told and doesn’t question it, unless it seriously clashes with his sense of morals. 

for example -- within the marauders, though he disapproved of the way his friends treated snape, he kept quiet for fear that they would dismiss him as too uptight. he’s terrified of being abandoned and his actions in a group setting reflect this.

38. is there anything they wish they could change about their worldview or thought processes? what, and why?

he does wish he was less pessimistic, less world-weary and skeptical, but unfortunately for him his life experiences have molded his pattern of thought. other than that, not particularly. 

MEME: 42 character development questionsSTATUS: not accepting

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finally got around to drawing remus :’)

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metamorphamagic replied to your post: you will pry northern remus out of my cold dead...

on the opposite end of the spectrum i got ted growing up in wales

i hc remus as being half welsh (well i guess this is kind of canon? anyways) on his mother’s side but having grown up mostly around sheffield with a lot of regular trips down to hope’s family in cardiff 

i love any hc involving characters being not from london, please, god

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you will pry northern remus out of my cold dead hands

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River of grass. Marsden moor.

[pagewoman]

Nun’s Cross Farm, Dartmoor, Devon, England

by Michael Kirste

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subtlesciences:

ONE WOULD HAVE EXPECTED    the amount of satisfaction felt in such an arrangement to be diminished by guilt.   after all, if his very much educated guess is correct, remus is sick & would deserve nothing but pity.   however, on the merciless scale of morality, what would weight more ?   the sadistic pleasure of exposing someone for something they have absolutely no control over or lupin’s omission ?   severus has decided he hardly cares.  he raises his hands, shielded from the cold by black wool, palms facing the sky.

                                 ‘ i never said anything about your illness, did i, lupin ? ’   he asks, voice smooth as velvet, caressing each word slowly, savoring them.  the disgusting smile remains as a shadow over snape’s visage.    ‘ i only thought it to be a regular cold, but you wouldn’t get so defensive over something as ordinary, would you ? ’

a man with less self-restraint would have struck severus down where he stood. remus, however, possessed perhaps too much self-restraint. he clenches his fist, then releases it, over and over again, a ritual of sorts to keep himself in check. he can feel sweat beading on his on forehead. the other boy -- no, they were hardly boys anymore, the other man’s smile makes him sick to look at.

‘ NO, you didn’t but it was implied, was it not? ‘ he asks hoarsely, through clenched teeth. his voice is uncharacteristically harsh, more bite to it than usual. the coming of the full moon always made him less patient, though he was ashamed to admit it to himself.  

‘ i have no idea why you take so much interest in my heath. forgive me, but somehow, i have doubts it comes from a place of concern for my well-being. it’s not any of your business. i think that you would be every bit as DEFENSIVE if you were in this situation. don't think i don't know what you're getting at, severus, i'm not a fool. ‘

[bloodyhellharry]

I tried out different haircuts on young Remus Lupin

The mop, the mod, the bedhead, the eric foreman, the prefect, the weirdo, the werewolf skinhead, the wes anderson and the thom yorke

[bloodyhellharry]

professor lupin is this lonely and troubled man, also a teacher, with them grey hairs, sort of dangerous, with a “slightly hoarse voice”, lots of wolf metaphors, i’m just saying that jk rowling can’t have made him the sexiest character in hp unintentionally

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