WARNINGS: recs may contain nsfw, 18+ content, mdni!
Long fics
âą Unscripted (duhh) @minkieater ( 18+ mdni, ongoing series, such a good binge, someone cooked really damn hard)
âą The Man who canât be moved by @minkieater (18+ mdni, ex!husband to reconciliation arc, 3 parts. will change your life, no cap)
âą Faking it by @belongjoong (18+ mdni, fake dating, ohh my god?? amazing piece iâve reread nearly thrice)
âą Sports car by @wooyoungiewritings (18+ mdni, the angst is angsting so hard, love me a good angst yes pls)
âą A spoonful of trouble by @wooyoungiewritings (18+ mdni, fake dating, jealous woo we love it, i love him. i loveddd reading it)
âą Speed dial by @ateezlibrary (18+ mdni, no words needed?? omg omg omg just absolute perfection. exactly how i like my men).
âą Heartbreak Anniversary by @w00yngie (18+ mdni, angst. love this so much + makeup sex? iâm sold)
âą Sour cherry love by @hwaelysian (18+ mdni, mentions of sh and abuse. the writing is just amazing. i love love love the storyline and the way it was carried. wooyo is perfect.)
âą Through his lens by @mingi-buffering-24-7 (godd i love the slowburn, the push and pull hello?? this was written so beautifully)
âą Passed around by @geoyahalgeoya (18+ mdni, drug use, woosanmin. gasp gasp gasp, soo good)
Smaller fics
âą Freak like me by @ashlinxloves (18+ mdni, need him now!)
âą Thinking about it by @httpslan4 (mafia!wooyoung, will eat every mafia fic up so hardd)
âą Table manners by @belongjoong (đ”âđ«đ”âđ«đ”âđ« #needthat)
âą Cherry flavoured by @joongnoodle (yes. yes. yes. such a cute challenge at first đ loved it)
âą Wooyoung headcannon by @kisssan (18+ mdni, every fic eats so hard omg)
âą Wooyoung smau by @teaxtease (ughh i miss him. makes me wanna yearn)
âą A touch that rots by @maho6any (hope the writerâs pillow is cold. so so good)
âą Birthday breeding by @ateezscupid (đ”âđ« absolutely banging. loved itt
âą Change of heart by @hotteoki my baby (đ amazingg read! love the art and the author)
âą Wanna be yours by @milfgyuu (jealousy jealousy yess yess. favv trope, love the drama)
âą Good lil boy by @sorryimananti-romantic (18+ mdni, royal au pleaseeee i need that so bad. wooyo in this was delish, so beautifully written)
âą Sagittarius by @lcvejjoong (this was so so so so cutee omg. love all the works tbh. amazing re-read every damn time)
Note: all of these fics Iâve read but iâll always be editing and adding more here! love binging and giving out recs to others â€ïž
this took me nearly 2 months to make lmaooo iâll be adding more members soon!
-- jo hates whenever jealousy consumes him, but you love it.
18+ | jo x fem!reader | wc: 1.2k | masterlist | smut + comfort
warnings: language, kissing, piv, vvvv small spanking, kinda mean!jo, overstim, squirting, mentions of euijoo, no protectionnn but he doesn't cum inside
you never questioned itâalways assuming that he wasn't a fan of the position. thinking he preferred the gentle closeness, the way he could cup your jaw with a featherlight grip to have you face himâbrows furrowing when be leaned into the kiss, his mind on overdrive.
he always handled you with such care when the two you had sex. his breathing shaky as he was constantly whimpering out an, "are you alright? what do you need from me?" his warm palms tracing your hips and stomach and waist.
but everything he's doing tonight is completely out of character, and you're doing your best to take advantage of it.
his hands are pressing down on your lower back, practically forcing an arch out of you as your cheek pressed against the freshly cleaned sheets of his.
"fuck, jo," you moan out, your voice rough as your breathed heavy through your mouth. your eyes rolling back as his hips never slowed, slamming into your wet cunt over and over and over.
his grip on your hips vicious, you feel the addicting sting of his fingernails digging into your skin, sure to leave marks. but the way it all felt, you didn't care.
your body twitches involuntarily, your body jerking foward.
he groans, "get back here." he gruffs out, tugging you back to him. he doesn't even sound like your jo anymore.
you feel more juices gush out of you as he roughens. your shaky fingers are digging into the sheets, having nothing else to grip onto.
you feel him pull out, his tip barely kissing the entrance of your cunt. you churn your head around, watching as he stared directly into your pussy. he was regaining himself. he had to, if he didn't, he knows he would've came in seconds.
you laugh, "whats wrong, baby. don't tell me your close already." your voice echoes in his head, he mutters out a curse as he leaned over your body, his chest right against your back.
you groan at the motion, feeling his sweaty, hot chest and rapid heartbeat thumping against your back.
his hand snaked around your body, resting right on your collarbone. "you don't know how hard I'm holding myself back right now." his eyes dark as he stares back at you.
your body slumps, "mmm... i don't know if i believe that." your push your ass flush against his cock, grinding your hips as your hand lowers itself in between your thighs.
drawing your moans as you toy with your clit, your head falling forward and your voice becoming pitchy as you held eye
you could feel the anger bubbling inside him, his eyes darting between your face and your body.
his jaw clenched, "you think this is funny?" his body lifts off of your back. "you're such a fucking brat." he shakes his head, his palm slides down your spine, over the curve of your ass. you're waiting to feel his grip on you there, your hole clenching around nothing.
his hand raises up, hovering right above the skin for half a moment before coming down sharp. the sound cracks im the room as you moan out, the sound erupting from within your chest.
the sting fluttering under your skin, your hips jerking forward as you felt his hand again.
he was thanking all that was holy that you couldn't see him right now, his mind was running wild as his eyes and heartbeat grew frantic.
he never did this to you, always too afraid to mark and dent your delicate skin. he never smushed your face against the sheets or spank you. but he couldn't deny that his cock jumped everytime he did, watching as your eyes rolled back and you gripped on the cotton sheets beneath you.
he knew if you told him to stop, he'd do it in a second.
but not a word as escaped your mouth. he bit his lip hard, poor cock aching for some attention. the head red and leaking, he needed to be back inside of you.
he lines himself up with his other hand, the one on your ass kneading the skin, almost apologetic.
his stills for a beat, rubbing the head in your gushing juices as he listened to the way your squelched, speaking to him. practically begging him.
his cock pushed in, slamming all the way into your tight cunt as it sucked him in. gripping him in a way that made him never want to pull out.
the thick stretch causing a burn between your legs, the most delicipus burn as he never let up. his cock bullying into your gummy pussy, not pausing to check on you.
because he knows. he knows your body so, so well.
and you can tell from the way his thighs slap against your ass, his hands holding onto your hips as he pulled it back against him.
heavy breaths, groans, and moans escaped him. you tried your best to focus on him, but the moment he brought a hand down to rub your clit roughly, so suddenly, you screamed out a moan.
"jo!" your mind completely blanked as your body grew hot. you fell limp against the matress, too weak to hold your body up anymore as sounds escaped you. sounds that don't even sound like youâthey're broken, glutteral, desperate.
your walls clamp down on him, spasming around him as you heard him whimper. whimper?
he's holding off his own orgasm, still fucking into you as your body shook beneath him. he groans like it hurts, his hips stuttering as he heard you whine.
"too much, 's too much... i can't jo, fuck." your voice wobbly as tears welled up in your eyes.
fuck. he hates how beautiful you look.
"yes, you can," his long fingers didn't stop even when he slowed his thrusts. your clit throbbing as your hands came up to push his wrist weakly, clearly not working.
you shook your head, head turned as your pleading eyes met him. "yâyou're so mean, jo." you pouted, legs shaking as his cock picked up their pace again.
he laughed, laced with amusement. "me? i don't think i was being mean when you pressed your all up against euijoo."
you whine at the memory. "c'mon, IâI wasn't serious!" you pushed out the words, hiccuping as your letters slurred together.
he scoffs, "euijoo thought you were. his face was fucking red and his hand covering his cock when you sat next to him. he's probably jerking off right now," his chest burns as he speaks, a dry chuckle escaping him. "thinking about you, about your body. you like that don't you?" was this really jealousy? he needed this feeling out of him. his mind trying to push the image of his bandmate touching himself to you out of his mind.
you did it all on purpose, of course.
you just wanted to tease your boyfriend, rile him up. and you got that. but you got a completely different jo now, too.
"you made me wait the whole night. and I couldn't even say anything, not to you, orâshit, to him." his pace quickened, his words breaking as he spoke.
your breath catches as the second wave builds quickly, more intense than the first. thighs clamping shut pathetically as your back arches. "jâjo it feels weird." your brows furrowing as whimpers escaped you, a heavy feeling settling within your lower belly.
"it's okay, pretty, cum for me. c'mon I know you can."
jo's hips stutter against yours, his cock buried deep inside you as he feels your walls beginning to flutter. his dark eyes lock onto yours, watching the desperate pleasure build on your face. "that's it," he groans, his voice strained with his own approaching release. "let go for me, baby."
the pressure in your belly becomes unbearable, like a dam about to burst. "I can'tâ 's too much," you cry out. his thumb finds your clit again, rubbing tight circles as his thrusts become sloppy.
"fuck, you're so tight," he grunts, feeling your pussy clamp down on him. "gonna make me cum too."
the dam breaks. your orgasm tears through you as a gush of liquid sprays from your pussy, soaking his thighs and the sheets. your vision whites out as your body convulses, a strangled scream tearing from your throat.
"fuck, baby, that's it," he drawls out the words, groaning as his hips still, feeling your pussy gush out its release around him. his eyes widen at the sight of you squirting, his cock throbbing deep inside you. for a moment, he hesitates, clearly torn between filling you with his cum and pulling out.
"god, I want to stay inside," he growls through gritted teeth, the words barely comprehensible as he reluctantly pulls his throbbing cock from your still-spasming pussy. he wraps his hand around his shaft, stroking rapidly as he watches your body trembling through the aftershocks.
with a guttural moan, Jo spills across your back, thick ropes of cum painting your skin as your pussy clenches around nothing. he watches the cum pool in the arch of your lower back before he collapses beside you, breathing heavily as he watches you shudder through the last waves of pleasure.
"fuck," he whispers, trailing his fingers through the mess on your back before leaning down to press a kiss against your shoulder.
he grabs a tissue from the nightstand, gently wiping the release off your body.
he turns you over, pulling your body into his arms, the shift from rough to immediate tenderness making your already hazy mind spin. the aggressive man from moments ago is gone, replaced by the jo you know, his eyes soft and full of concern as he brushes the sweat-dampened hair from your forehead.
"hey," he whispers, his voice raspy but gentle. "you okay? did I hurt you?" his thumbs stroke your cheeks, his gaze searching yours for any sign of distress.
you can only shake your head, your body still tremblingk with aftershocks. "no," you manage to say, your voice hoarse. "just⊠a bit sore." you say, stretching your shoulders, the ache between them bearable but present.
a flicker of relief crosses his face before guilt sets in. "i'm sorry," he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your temple. "I got⊠carried away. seeing you with euijoo, I justâŠ" He trails off, his hold on you tightening slightly. "I never thought I would feel this way. I hate the way I felt." He shakes his head.
"It was my fault," you admit, snuggling closer to him. "I wanted to see what would happen. I wanted to see if I could get you like this."
jo chuckles softly, the sound warm against your ear. "brat," he says affectionately, nuzzling your neck. "but you're my brat." his hands begin their familiar gentle exploration of your body, tracing the curves he knows so well, the touch a stark contrast to the rough handling from before.
"let me take care of you," he murmurs, reaching for the water on his nightstand. He helps you sit up slightly, holding the glass to your lips as you drink, his eyes never leaving yours. When you're done, he sets the glass aside and pulls you back against his chest.
"better?" he asks, his fingers combing through your hair.
you nod, feeling the tension drain from your body as you relax into his embrace. "better," you echo, your eyes growing heavy as sleep begins to claim you.
"rest now," he whispers, pressing a final kiss to your forehead. "we'll shower later, pretty.
a/n - as soon as he sent this photo i haaad to write something.. its pretty short but i hope u all enjoy! will be posting some more within the next few days! (hopefully..)
you were standing in the kitchen making dinner waiting on maki to get home. you glanced up as soon as you heard the door click, your jaw nearly hitting the floor when you caught sight of him.
his toned arms glistened, his thin black tank clung to his abs perfectly. his shorts ended mid thigh, exposing his muscular thighs. sweat dripped from his defined jaw. your body immediately felt hot, warmth pooling in your lower abdomen. you squeezed your thighs together, craving relief.
you watched as he slipped off his shoes and walked over to the couch, going on about his workout and not noticing you following right behind him.
he leaned back on the sofa, his legs spread. your head was spinning. you needed him.
âyou wanna sit?â maki looked up at you with knowing eyes. you nodded, raising your skirt. you moved your soaked panties to the side, hovering on top of his thigh. his hand ghosting your waist, guiding you down. your palms lay flat on his chest, keeping yourself steady as you lowered.
you whimpered as soon as your pussy hit his sweaty thigh. maki watched you with a mean smirk, as his hands firmly grasped your hips as you began to grind.
âfuckk you look so pretty like this,â he let out a low laugh, forcing you to go faster. the grip on your body tightened, almost bruising. the room was filled with your needy moans, as your slick cunt grinded against his thigh.
you were humping him like a needy puppy, your face buried in his chest as embarrassment hit. maki stayed silent, his mind fixated on how you became so dumb so quick for him.
you felt your orgasm building, your mind felt fuzzy. the coil tightening low in your belly, drool spilled from your lips, covering his tank, as you rutted against his defined muscles faster. your body kept grinding into him, wet noises barely audible.
the coil finally snapped, your body twitched, tears formed in your eyes from the intense pleasure. maki held your shaking body, slowing you as you came down from your high, a mixture of cum and sweat coating his leg.
â HOW TO BA(N)G A NERD IN 10 DAYS â .á â ćȘèĄć»»æŠ .
ăâ nerd ! satoru gojo is your best friendâs older brother.
# NERDJO AU â 14k words â 3 years younger!reader â not your typical nerdjo â toru has nipple piercings â smut, p in v the whole shtick â reader is a HORNDOG â side character: lia, gojoâs sister & readerâs best friend â uni setting â skip to day 9 if ur just here for the smut you perv â 18+ MDNI NSFW . art by zeilorene0
HOW TO BA(N)G A NERD IN 10 DAYS
(or: your completely unhinged, totally foolproof plan to make Satoru Gojo fall in love with you and hopefully rail you into next semester)
DAY ONE
Youâre not proud of yourself.
Okay, thatâs a filthy lie. Youâre extremely proud of yourself. The kind of proud that has you smirking at your own reflection in the spoon like a gremlin who just discovered the cheat code to the hottest man alive.
Because youâve just cooked up the single greatest idea of your horny little life.
It started with a text from Liaâyour roommate, your ride-or-die (who youâve known for less than a year), and the biological sister of the man who has been living rent-free in your ovaries for three straight months.
Lia: do you want to come over this weekend? my brotherâs gonna be home and heâs making his famous carbonara. i swear to god itâll change your life
Your thumbs betrayed you instantly.
You: iâll be there with bells on
Lia: please donât actually wear bells i live in an apartment
You: no promises
You sat there, chopsticks frozen halfway to your mouth, and the realization hit you like a freight train made of pure, throbbing lust.
Satoru Gojo.
Fourth-year genetics god. Certified nerd. Unholy levels of hot.
The man who wears wire-rimmed glasses while buried in textbooks but also has fucking nipple piercings. You know this because youâd accidentally walked in on him shirtless that one time and your brain blue-screened so hard you saw the pearly gates. Silver bars through both pink nipples, perfect lean muscle, that stupidly narrow waist, and a happy trail that made your mouth water like a Pavlovian whore.
Heâd just looked at you with those glowing blue eyes, raised one eyebrow, and said, âWrong room, kid.â
Kid.
He called you kid while you were having a religious experience over his pierced tits. Rude. And devastatingly⊠attractive.
Youâd immediately fled, texted Lia YOUR BROTHER IS JACKED AND HAS HIS NIPPLES PIERCED WHY DIDNâT YOU TELL ME?!?!?!? and sheâd replied lol yeah he works out. itâs the autism.
To which youâd replied ??? and sheâd elaborated with: heâs not actually autistic heâs just psychotic about his routines. anyway donât be weird about it
Too late. You were very weird about it. Youâd spent the rest of the night with your hand between your thighs imagining what those pierced nipples would feel like against your tongue.
So here you are at 2 AM, eating sad instant ramen, and youâve finally accepted the truth: Satoru Gojo is not a normal man. Heâs a nerd. And normal flirting bounces right off his beautiful, dense skull.
You need a plan. A filthy, calculated, 10-day siege on that manâs self-control.
You snatch your phone and start hammering into your notes app like a woman possessed (a very horny possession.)
HOW TO BA(n)G A NERD IN 10 DAYS
Step 1: Research
âą Find out every single one of his nerdy interests
âą Learn what makes his brain (and hopefully his dick) tick
âą Memorize his schedule so i can âaccidentallyâ keep appearing in his line of sight
Step 2: Infiltrate
âą Become a permanent fixture at Liaâs apartment
âą Force him to notice me in increasingly slutty outfits
âą Make it impossible for him to ignore the horny roommate-shaped problem in his house
Step 3: Engage
âą Talk to him about genetics like i give a fuck (i donât, i just want to watch his mouth move)
âą Drop strategic nerdy compliments that slowly transition into âI want you to bend me over your genetics textbookâ
âą Deploy feminine wiles at maximum power (respectfully. kinda?)
Step 4: Execute
âą Confess (horribly so. who the fuckâs good at confessions??)
âą Kiss him
âą Let him destroy you in every position known to man (and maybe a few new ones he can genetically engineer)
âą ???
âą Profit (multiple orgasms)
You lean back, cackling quietly to yourself in the dark kitchen like a madwoman. This was an inexplicably terrible plan.
Ten days. Thatâs all you need. Ten days to turn Satoru Gojo from âLiaâs hot jacked nerd brother with nipple piercingsâ to âthe man who folds you in half and calls you a good girl while those pierced nipples drag across your skin.â
You swipe out of notes and into messages, fingers already typing out a message to Lia.
You: what time should i come over on saturday
Lia: are you okay ?? since when do you need a timeframe
You: i've never been better. i need one today. now. what time
Lia: idk like 6?? he usually starts cooking around then
You: i'll be there at 5
Lia: why?
You: no reason
Lia: you're going to be weird around my brother again aren't you
You: i'm never weird around your brother
Lia: you literally stood in our kitchen staring at him for 10 minutes last week while he was making a sandwich
You: i was admiring his sandwich making technique
Lia: i donât think you blinked once
You: that's just how i show respect
Lia: you're going to marry my brother aren't you
You: i'm going to do a lot more than marry him
Lia: ew shut up, i'm telling mom.
You: don't you dare
Lia: iâm afraid sheâd love you actually
You: i know. itâs perfect for when sheâs watching us walk down the aisle
Lia: youâre insane. like actually crazy
You throw your phone on the bed and grin at the ceiling.
Saturday can't come soon enough.
DAY TWO
Youâre not stalking him.
Youâre conducting reconnaissance. Big difference. Stalking is creepy. Reconnaissance is strategic, horny, and completely justified when the target has arms like that.
So when you âcasuallyâ plant yourself at the library on Thursday afternoonâperfectly positioned with a direct line of sight to the returns deskâitâs not because you memorized his genetics lab schedule (2-4 PM) and know he always swings by here afterward. No, youâre simply a dedicated scholar who loves knowledge.
And penguins. Apparently.
Youâve been pretending to read an article on penguin mating habits for thirty minutes when he finally shows up. Gray henley stretched across that stupidly broad chest, white hair looking like it was styled by sex itself, wire-rimmed glasses perched on his nose while he carries a textbook that probably weighs more than you do.
Your cunt clenches so hard you nearly drop your phone.
Get it together, you thirsty gremlin.
He returns his books, flashes that devastating smile at the elderly librarian (who actually blushesâsame, grandma), and starts to leave. Then he pauses like heâs trying to look for somewhere to sit.
His eyes find you. Mission successful.
And he walks straight over.
âYouâre Liaâs friend, right?â His voice is low and smooth, like warm sin sliding down your spine. You want it whispering filthy things against your neck while heâsâjesus, stop.
âYep⊠thatâs me,â you manage.
âLia talks about you constantly.â He nods at the empty chair across from you. âMind if I sit? Got a break before my next class. Need to review some stuff.â
Your brain short-circuits. Your ovaries throw a full-on rave. The logical part of you that still exists is screaming say yes, you idiot.
âSure,â you squeak. That was not cool. That was the opposite of cool. âGo ahead.â
He doesnât seem to notice (thank fuck) as he drops into the seat and you catch a hit of his cologneâclean, masculine, expensive. It makes you want to crawl across the table and bury your face in his neck.
âYouâre reading about penguins?â he asks, glancing at your book. The one you forgot you even had opened. Penguins pale terribly in comparison to the specimen who just sat across you.
âUh, yeah. Just⊠curious.â Youâre not even pretending to be normal anymore.
He nods seriously, completely unaware heâs two seconds away from being mentally undressed. Two seconds passed. âEmperor penguins are fascinating. The males can hold their breath for up to twenty minutes underwater. Females lay one egg, then the males incubate it for two months while the females hunt. They huddle together for warmth, rotating positions so no one freezes. Itâs actually pretty efficient.â
Youâre nodding like you give a damn about penguins when all you can think about is how those long fingers would feel stretching you open, how that deep voice would sound groaning your name while he fucks you slow and deep.
âThatâs really sweet,â you say.
He shrugs. âItâs evolutionary. Not about being sweetâitâs mostly just survival.â
âCanât it be both?â
He looks at you then, like heâs studying you, and something flickers behind those ridiculous blue eyes. You wonder if he can tell youâre soaking through your panties just from listening to him talk about bird foreplay. Ugh, youâre pathetically horny.
The conversation shifts easily after that. You tell him your major is undeclared (true) but youâre leaning toward psychology (also true, specifically the psychology of why you want this man to ruin you). He talks about genetics like itâs the hottest thing on earth, and honestly? The passion in his voice is doing more for you than most guysâ entire bodies.
By the time he checks the clock and sighs, youâve collected vital intelligence:
Favorite color is a very specific sky blue (youâre already planning outfits).
Morning person (disgusting, but youâd wake up at 5 AM if it meant getting him to screw you eventually).
Thinks The Expanse is the best show ever (youâre downloading it tonight).
Has a rigid morning routine and gets genuinely cranky if itâs disrupted (notedâdo not fuck with his routine until heâs addicted to waking up next to you).
Looks even better up close. Unfairly so. The kind of hot that makes you want to climb him in public.
âI should head out,â he says, gathering his stuff. âBut it was nice talking to you. Youâre not nearly as annoying as Lia described.â
Heâs grinning. Teasing. That smile should be illegal.
âIâm telling her you said that,â you shoot back.
âPlease donât. Iâll never hear the end of it.â
âToo late. Phoneâs already out.â
âDamn.â He laughs, low and warm, and your brain immediately files it under sounds to masturbate to later.
He stands up and you let yourself stare as he walks awayâthose long legs, that perfect ass, the way his shoulders fill out the henley. You want to sink your teeth into his back while he fucks you from behind. You want to watch those pierced nipples tighten when you ride him. You want him to lose that calm, nerdy composure and absolutely wreck you.
Youâre in deep.
So fucking deep itâs embarrassing.
DAY THREE
Youâre lying on Liaâs floor in her childhood bedroom, staring at the ceiling and trying (and failing) not to think about the fact that Satoru Gojo is sleeping just down the hall.
Itâs Friday night. Youâd texted Lia Iâm bored, come over and sheâd hit you with Iâm at my parentsâ house? so youâd immediately replied cool Iâll come there like a completely normal, non-desperate person. Now here you are, in the Gojo family home, wearing tiny sleep shorts and a thin tank top thatâs doing absolutely nothing to hide how your nipples are already perked up just from knowing heâs nearby.
Lia is sprawled on her bed, scrolling on her phone. âSo,â she says without looking up, âyou gonna tell me what the hell is going on with you?â
âNothingâs going on.â
âBullshit. Youâve been extra unhinged all week.â
âIâm always unhinged.â
âWeirder than usual. You got all slutted up to go to the library yesterday. You hate the library.â
âI was expanding my horizons.â
âYou were stalking my brother.â
You sit up so fast you almost concuss yourself on her bed frame. âI was not stalking him.â
âUh-huh.â She gives you a flat look. âSo you just happened to be at the exact table with the perfect view of the returns desk where he always goes?â
âItâs a public library. Lots of people study there.â
âAnd you just happened to be wearing lip gloss and a low-cut top?â
You deflate. âFine. Maybe I was strategically positioning myself. Itâs not stalking, itâs⊠tactical thirst.â
âTactical thirst,â Lia repeats, deadpan. âJesus Christ.â
You shrug. âI want him to notice me, okay?â
Lia puts her phone down. âWhy? Because you want to bang him?â
âI donât just want to bang him,â you protest.
âOh? So you want to date him? Marry him? Have his kids?â
Your brain immediately supplies a vivid image of Satoru behind you, big hands gripping your hips, those long fingers digging in while he fucks you deep and growls about breeding you. You squeeze your thighs together.
ââŠMaybe eventually,â you mutter.
Lia starts laughing so hard she nearly rolls off the bed. âOh my god. Youâre actually down bad. You want to date my brother.â
âIs that so weird?â
âYes! Heâs the biggest nerd on planet Earth. He has a beaker collection. He watches hour-long documentaries for fun. He once spent an entire dinner arguing with Dad about the ethics of gene editing.â
âThat sounds hot, actually.â
âYou have issues.â
âI have a crush. Big difference.â
Lia sits up, suddenly serious. âLook, I love him, but heâs⊠a lot. He hyperfixates. He forgets to eat when heâs in research mode. Heâs obsessive about his routines. Heâs not exactly easy boyfriend material.â
âMaybe not for most people.â You grin. âBut I like the weird. I like how passionate he gets when he talks. I like that heâs smart as hell. And I really like that heâs jacked.â
âOkay, that part is fair,â Lia admits. âHeâs got an insane body. I hate saying it because heâs my brother, but yeah⊠he works out like a maniac.â
âI know. Iâve seen it.â
Liaâs eyes widen. âHave you seen him shirtless?â
Your face burns. âLiaââ
âThatâs a yes. When?!â
âIt was an accident! I opened the wrong door in the dorms when i was trying to get to yours and he was changing. Shirt off. Just⊠standing there.â
âAnd?â
You bite your lip. âI saw them⊠the piercings.â
Lia loses it again, cackling like a hyena. âYou saw his nip piercings and now youâre feral. That explains everything. No wonder youâre trying to move in.â
âIâm not obsessedââ you start, but she cuts you off.
âName three reasons you want him that arenât the piercings.â
You pause. âHeâs smart. Heâs really tall. And he has huge hands. Like⊠long fingers. You know what those could doââ
âOKAY STOP!â Lia slaps her hands over her ears. âI get it. You want to bang my brother. Congratulations, youâre the first girl whoâs ever shown genuine interest after realizing how weird he is.â
âWait, seriously?â
âSeriously. A couple girls have tried, but they bail when they realize heâd rather talk DNA than make out.â
âTheir loss,â you say, already imagining pushing him against a wall and shutting him up with your mouth on his.
Lia sighs. âIf youâre really doing this, youâre gonna need my help. Heâs dense as hell when it comes to flirting. Youâre going to have to be obvious. Like, âI like you please marry me â obvious.â
âI can do obvious.â
âYouâre going to be so weird about this, arenât you?â
âProbably.â
She groans but smiles. âFine. Iâm in. Letâs make a plan before you embarrass both of us.â
You launch yourself onto her bed and tackle her in a hug. âYouâre the best.â
âI know. Now stop fantasizing about my brother while youâre in my room, you whore.â
Too late. You already are.
Hours pass and you canât sleep.
Lia passed out an hour ago, snoring softly with her phone still glowing on her chest. But youâre wide awake, mind racing with dirty strategies and the knowledge that Satoru is sleeping just down the hall. Shirtless, probably. Maybe in nothing but those ridiculous novelty boxers he seems to own.
Your throat is dry. Your brain is horny. So you slip out of Liaâs room in nothing but an oversized t-shirt and sleep shorts that could double as underwear because of how little they hide anything, tiptoeing toward the kitchen like a woman on a mission for water⊠and maybe a glimpse of the nerd whoâs been ruining your sleep.
The house is dark except for the soft glow of the fridge light when you round the corner.
And there he is.
Satoru Gojo, standing in front of the open refrigerator in low-slung gray sweatpants and no shirt, the silver bars through his nipples catching the light like a fucking invitation to grope him. His hair is messy from sleep, glasses nowhere in sight, and the way those sweatpants hang on his hips shouldnât even be allowed.
Heâs reaching for something on the top shelf, back muscles flexing, that narrow waist tapering into the most biteable ass youâve ever seen.
Your brain short-circuits so violently you make a small, embarrassing noise that was supposed to be you clearing your throat.
He turns, blue eyes landing on you instantly.
âOh. Hey,â he says, voice rough with sleep. It goes straight between your legs. âCouldnât sleep either?â
You try to play it cool. You really do. But your eyes keep dropping to his pierced nipples, then lower, following the faint happy trail disappearing into those sweatpants. You can see the outline of his dick through the fabric and your mouth actually waters.
âWater,â you croak. âJust⊠needed water.â
He steps aside, gesturing lazily at the fridge. âHelp yourself.â
You move past him, hyper-aware of how close he is. His body heat. That clean, masculine scent. The way his arm brushes yours when you reach for a bottle.
You turn around too fast and suddenly youâre chest-to-chest with him. Well, chest-to-stomach. Heâs so fucking tall.
âSorryââ you start, but the word dies when you look up and realize heâs staring down at you.
âYouâre wearing my shirt,â he says quietly.
You glance down. The oversized tee has some faded genetics pun on it. You stole it from Liaâs laundry pile earlier without realizing.
âShit. I didnâtâ I can changeââ
âLooks better on you,â he murmurs, and the low timbre of his voice makes your nipples tighten against the fabric.
Your brain supplies a very vivid image of him bending you over the kitchen island, yanking your shorts down, and fucking you until you canât remember your own name. Those big hands gripping your hips. Those pierced nipples dragging against your back while he rails you from behind.
You swallow hard.
âThanks,â you whisper.
He leans in just a fraction, eyes dark. For one electric second you think he might kiss you.
Then he straightens up, smirking like he knows exactly what heâs doing to you.
âNight, Liaâs friend.â
No no no no donât go⊠you were having such a good time just staring at him.
âI have a name, you know,â you blurt out and youâre not sure where that came from.
He pauses, turns to face you with that subtle smile on his faceâthe one that does terrible things to you.
âI know.â
He walks out, sweatpants riding low enough that you get a perfect view of the dimples at the base of his spine.
You stand there clutching your water bottle like a lifeline, thighs pressed together, heart hammering.
Yeah.
This sleepover is definitely a sleepover. And you are so screwed.
DAY FOUR
You wake up stupidly earlyâbarely past 6 AMâbecause your bladder has no respect for your sleepover plans. The house is dead quiet. Lia is still snoring softly on the bed. You slip out from under the blanket in your shorts and his shirt, hair messy, eyes half-closed, and shuffle down the hall toward the bathroom.
You push the door open without knocking (big mistake) and freeze.
Satoru is already in there.
Fresh out of the shower.
A towel slung dangerously low around his hips, water still dripping down his bare chest. Those silver nipple piercings catch the light like fucking bait. His white hair is wet and pushed back, glasses off, and the steam in the air makes everything feel way too intimate.
Your brain short-circuits so hard you can hear the dial-up tone.
He turns his head, blue eyes meeting yours in the mirror. For a second he looks surprised, then that lazy, amused smirk slides onto his face.
âMorning,â he says, voice still rough with sleep. âDidnât know I had company this early.â
Youâre standing there like an idiot, thighs pressed together, suddenly very aware that your nipples are visible through your thin shirt and your shorts are barely covering anything. Your gaze keeps betraying youâdropping to the defined lines of his abs, the sharp V disappearing under the towel, the way the fabric clings to his hips.
You want to drop to your knees right here on the bathroom tile and see whatâs under that towel. You want to tug on those pierced nipples with your teeth while he fucks your throat. You want him to bend you over the sink and make you watch in the mirror while he ruins you.
Instead you squeak out, âSorryâ I didnâtâ Iâll justââ
You start backing up but he chuckles, low and warm, and reaches for his toothbrush like this is completely normal.
âYouâre fine. Iâm almost done.â He glances at you again, eyes flicking down your body for half a second before returning to the mirror. âSleep well?â
Your face is burning. Your down there is throbbing. âYeah. Great. Perfect. You?â
âSame.â He starts brushing his teeth, completely unbothered by the fact that heâs mostly naked and youâre two feet away looking like you want to devour him. âYou sticking around today?â
âUh-huh.â You canât stop staring at the water droplet sliding down his chest, right toward one of those fucking piercings. âDinner. Carbonara.â
He rinses his mouth, turns around fully, and now youâre getting the full frontal viewâbroad shoulders, lean muscle, happy trail, and that towel that looks like itâs one deep breath away from falling.
âGood,â he says simply. âSee you then.â
He steps past you in the doorway, close enough that his bare arm brushes yours and you catch the clean scent of his body wash. Your knees nearly give out.
He disappears down the hall toward his room, leaving you standing there like a horny statue.
You close the bathroom door behind you, lock it, and immediately lean against it, pressing your thighs together.
Holy fuck.
Youâre never going to survive ten days if every morning starts like this.
Later that morning, after youâve (barely) recovered and Lia has woken up, the two of you are sprawled across her bed with snacks, turning this into full war council mode.
You and Lia spend most of Saturday morning working on what youâre calling âOperation Bag and Bang the Nerd.â
âWell, first we need to figure out what he likes,â Lia says, scrolling through her phone. âHeâs got a lot of interests.â
âI already know some of them. Genetics, The Expanse, the gymâŠâ
âOkay, but you need specifics. What kind of genetics? Favorite episode? Gym routine?â
You shrug helplessly.
âExactly. Research time.â She pulls up a document titled Satoru Intel like the unhinged best friend she is. âIâve been collecting this for years. Itâs a little creepy but extremely useful. I do it for my parents too.â
âYouâre a good sister.â
âIâm the best. Okayâpopulation genetics, especially the genetics of blue eyes for his thesis. Favorite Heâs a big fan of those self help books, has a bunch. Gym at 6 AM sharp every day.â
â6 AM? Gross.â
âRight? But it means he crashes early. Evenings are prime territory for you.â
âCan I just⊠come over whenever?â
âObviously. But you need to make him want you around. Heâs not exactly Mr. Social.â
âSo I make him want to spend time with me.â
âBingo.â
âHow?â
âPretend to be interested in his research.â
âI am interested. I want him to explain it while I sit on his lap.â
Lia snorts. âThen ask him about his thesis. Let him nerd out. Thatâs the fastest way to his heart.â
You grin. âAnd his dick?â
She smacks your shoulder and you giggle shamelessly, âgross, woman!â
âAlso, get physically close. Heâs oblivious as hell. Touch his arm. Sit right next to him. Brush against him. Wear something slutty.â
âRevealing clothing?â
âObviously. Heâs dense but heâs not blind. Weaponize the tits.â
âAlready planning on it.â
âAnd be patient,â she warns. âHeâs not going to fold overnight.â
âTen days,â you say, dead serious. âIâm getting him in ten days.â
Lia raises an eyebrow. âAmbitious.â
âIâm an ambitious slut.â
She laughs and holds out her hand. âTen days. Starting now.â
You shake it. âOh, Iâm on day four already.â
âWhat?!ââ she blurts out, confused as hell. âYou think you can do this in six days?â
âJust trust me, okay. I have my ways.â
Lia shrugs and lets out a chuckle, âalright then. If it doesnât work you owe me coffee every day for a whole month.â
âThatâs not fair!â
âYou were so confident a second ago?â
âFine... youâll see.â
âOne day youâre gonna get that ego checked.â
âNot today.â
Youâre already mentally picking out your outfit for dinnerâsomething tight, low-cut, and guaranteed to make those blue eyes linger.
After this morningâs bathroom encounter, you have a feeling heâs at the very least noticed your sexual appeal. You just need to keep pushing.
DAY FIVE
You spend an embarrassing amount of time getting ready.
Four outfit changes, two complete hair redos, and so much makeup reapplication that youâre starting to look like a different person which you start to hate and then remove entirely and settle on mascara and lipgloss. You settle on pants that make your ass look great and a tight black top with a plunging neckline (per Liaâs very helpful suggestion).
Your phone buzzes as youâre leaving the dorm.
Lia: are you coming or what
You: omw
Lia: good bc satoru is already cooking and if you miss his carbonara i will personally end you
You: youâd fight me for missing pasta??
Lia: itâs that good
You: fair
The second you step into the Gojo house the smell of carbonara hits you like heaven. Creamy, garlicky, sinful. Lia lets you in with a wicked little grin.
âHeâs in a good mood,â she whispers. âThesis breakthrough. Heâs feeling generous.â
âPerfect timing.â
âJust⊠donât be too obvious. He gets weird about it.â
âIâll be subtle.â
âYouâve never been subtle in your life.â
âIâll be my version of subtle.â
âThatâs what terrifies me.â
You walk into the kitchen and there he isâSatoru Gojo in a âKiss the Cookâ apron, looking unfairly domestic and hot as hell. The apron strings are tied around that stupidly narrow waist, and you immediately picture untying them with your teeth.
âHey, Liaâs friend,â he says.
âHey, Liaâs brother,â you fire back.
He glances up with a smirk. âSatoru. You can call me Satoru.â
âYou know my name and you still call me Liaâs friend.â
âGood point.â He stirs the pasta, muscles flexing under the apron. âStaying for dinner?â
âWouldnât miss it.â
âGood. I made enough for a small army. Lia always invites strays.â
âI do not,â Lia protests.
âYou literally just did.â
The carbonara is obsceneârich, silky, perfectly cheesy. You moan around your first bite and donât even care how it sounds. Satoruâs eyes flick to your mouth for a second.
âHoly shit,â you say. âThis is better than sex.â
He raises an eyebrow, amused. âHigh praise.â
You spend the rest of dinner complimenting him shamelessly and then steering the conversation to his thesis. The second you ask about the genetics of blue eyes, his whole face lights up. He launches into a passionate ramble about OCA2, HERC2, melanin production, and ancient mutations while his hands gesture wildly.
You donât understand half of it, but youâre riveted anywayâmostly because watching him get excited makes you want to climb him like a tree and ride him while he keeps talking nerd shit in your ear.
âMost people zone out when I talk about this,â he admits at the end, looking almost shy.
âNope. I could listen to you talk about genetics all night.â
He blinks, then gives you a real, soft smile. âYouâre weird.â
âGood weird, I hope.â
âVery good weird.â
Lia watches the whole exchange like a proud mother.
After dinner she claps her hands. âMovie time. The Expanse. Season one, episode one. No skipping.â
Satoru perks up immediately. âYou havenât seen it?â he asks you.
âNope.â
âWeâre fixing that right now.â
The carbonara plates are cleared and dropped into the sink, compliments thoroughly given, and the three of you migrate to the living room. Satoru takes his usual spot on the big sectional couch while Lia claims the armchair so you two can sit together. You deliberately sit right next to him instead of leaving a polite gapâclose enough that your thigh almost brushes his.
He doesnât comment on it. Just queues up The Expanse and starts explaining the premise, talking with his hands the way he always does when heâs excited. You watch him more than the screen.
Lia lasts about twenty minutes before she fakes the worldâs most obvious yawn.
âGod, Iâm wiped. All that science talk drained me. You two keep goingâIâm tapping out early.â She shoots you a quick little smirk behind Satoruâs back and vanishes down the hallway before either of you can protest.
Now itâs just the two of you.
The episode plays on, but youâre barely paying attention to the plot. Youâre too busy watching Satoruâs face light up every time something interesting happens on screen. He keeps pausing to explain detailsâBelter culture, the physics of space travel, the political tensionsâand you find yourself actually leaning in, not just because you want his hands on you, but because the way he gets lost in it is weirdly endearing. Cute, even. This giant, jacked nerd with nip piercings rambling about fictional solar system politics like itâs the most fascinating thing in the world.
Itâs hot. And sort of adorable.
You shift closer under the pretense of getting comfortable, letting your shoulder press against his. He doesnât move away. If anything, he relaxes a little, arm stretching along the back of the couch behind you.
âSo the Belters,â you say, genuinely curious, âtheyâre basically space miners who got screwed by Earth and Mars, right? That whole âwe were born in space, you were born with gravityâ thing?â
His eyes flick to you, surprised you actually seem into this. âYeah. Exactly. Itâs this whole class and resource struggle layered on top of incredible sci-fi worldbuilding. Most shows would make it black and white, but this one actually shows how everyoneâs kind of right and kind of wrong at the same time.â
You nod, letting your knee rest against his thigh nowâbody slightly tilted towards his on the couch. âThatâs cool. I like when stories donât treat the audience like idiots.â
He turns his head to look at you properly. Those ridiculous blue eyes are softer in the dim TV light. âMost people just nod and wait for me to shut up when I start explaining stuff like this.â
âIâd like to think Iâm not most people.â You tilt your head, letting your shoulder settle more firmly against his chestâhe stiffens for a second before relaxing, letting out a soft breath he thought you wouldnât notice. âKeep going. What happens after that scene?â
He launches back into it, voice dropping into that low, enthusiastic register that does terrible things to your insides. You listen, asking real questions, but your mind keeps wandering to filthier placesâimagining that mouth against your neck while he explains genetics, those long fingers sliding under your top, pinning you down while he rambles about melanin between thrusts.
At one point he laughs at something on screen and the sound vibrates through his chest into your shoulder. You have to press your thighs together.
âYouâre actually paying attention,â he says after a while, sounding almost impressed. Thereâs a flirty little edge to his voice now, playful. Itâs so hot and so distracting. âMost girls pretend to be interested for about five minutes before they start checking their phones.â
âI am interested,â you say honestly. âItâs well-written. And I like how passionate you get about it. Itâs⊠cute.â
The second the word leaves your mouth his eyebrows shoot up. âCute?â
âShut up. You heard me.â You nudge his side with your elbow, but you donât pull away. If anything you sink in closer, letting your head tilt toward his shoulder. âDonât let it go to your head, nerd.â
He chuckles, low and warm. âIâll think about it.â His arm shifts slightly behind youânot quite around you, but close enough that his fingers could brush your arm if he wanted. âYouâre weird, you know that?â
You look up at him through your lashes. âYouâve mentioned, but weird how?â
âYou listen. Ask surprisingly good questions. Wear tops like that.â His gaze drops to your cleavage for half a second before flicking back to your face, a little guilty, a little heated. SCORE!! He noticed your tits this is going beautifully. âAnd you smell really good. Itâs distracting.â
Your pulse spikes. Heat pools low in your stomach. You want to straddle him right here on the couch and see how fast that nerdy composure cracks. Instead you smirk.
âGood. I like distracting you.â
He doesnât answer right away. Just looks at you for a long moment, something unreadable flickering behind those eyes. Then he turns back to the TV, but his arm settles more deliberately along the back of the couch, fingers lightly grazing your shoulder.
The episode keeps playing. You keep leaning into him. And for the first time, it feels like heâs actually seeing youânot just as Liaâs friend, but as something a lot more interesting.
Youâre still going to fuck his brains out the second you get the chance.
But damn if the nerdy rambling isnât growing on you too.
DAY SIX
You wake up at 5:30 in the morning like a masochist.
Your phone alarm is blaring. Your body is begging for mercy. But you drag yourself out of bed anyway because the mission demands it.
Satoru Gojo works out at 6 AM sharp every single day. And today, youâre going to âcoincidentallyâ be there too.
You spend way too long picking an outfit: black leggings that hug your ass, a matching padded sports bra that gives excellent lift and cleavage, and a loose tank top that keeps slipping off one shoulder. Your ponytail is artfully messy. You look like the kind of girl who lives at the gym.
In reality, the last time you ran was to catch the bus in high-school.
You walk into the gym at 5:55 AM and immediately spot him.
Shirtless.
On the bench press.
Holy fuck. You might be here every day from now on if it means getting front row seats to him in all of his glory.
Sweat is already glistening across his broad chest and down those ridiculous abs. His arms flex with every rep, veins popping out, and those silver nipple piercings catch the harsh lights like theyâre kindly asking you to stare. You nearly walk straight into a weight rack.
He racks the bar and sits up, towel around his neck, catching sight of you.
âYou?â He blinks, surprised. âWhat are you doing here?â
You try to sound casual. âWorking out. New fitness journey and all that.â
âSince when?â He wipes sweat from his forehead, muscles shifting in a way that should be illegal before breakfast.
âUh⊠since recently. Iâm turning over a new leaf. Becoming a morning person.â
He raises an eyebrow, amused by your new goal. âYou told me two days ago you hate mornings.â
âIâm evolving,â you deadpan. âItâs a process but hey, I managed to get out of bed and come here. Good progress.â
He nods, studying you for a second, eyes drifting down your bodyâleggings, sports bra, the way your tank top clings to your skinâbefore flicking back to your face. âAlright. Treadmills are over there if youâre running. Good view of the TVs.â
âThanks.â
You climb onto a treadmill and start at a light jog, trying not to look like a complete and utter fraud. Your heart is already racing and it has nothing to do with the speedâokay it has some to do with the speed.
A couple minutes later he appears beside your machine, still beautifully shirtless, towel slung over one shoulder.
âYour formâs off,â he says without preamble.
âMy what?â
âYouâre heel-striking. Itâs gonna wreck your knees long-term.â He steps onto the side rail of the treadmill. âCan I fix it?â
âPlease.â You slow the treadmill to a stop and stand there with your heart beating against your chest as he reaches down and taps your ankle, guiding your foot placement. His fingers are warm and firm against your skin through the thin legging material. You clench involuntarily.
âLand on the ball of your foot,â he instructs, voice low. âLike this.â
Then his hands move to your hips, adjusting your posture with gentle pressure. Heâs so close you can smell his sweat mixed with that clean cologne, feel the heat radiating off his bare chest. Your brain floods with vivid images: those big hands gripping your hips harder while he fucks you from behind, sweat-slick skin sliding against yours. Maybe those biceps putting you in a chokehold. You have to snap yourself out of it before you forget where you are.
âLean forward just a little,â he murmurs, right next to your ear. âNot too much. There⊠yeah. Thatâs it.â
Fuck, youâre pretty sure youâre soaking through your leggings.
âBetter?â he asks, stepping back but not far.
âMuch better,â you manage, voice a little breathless. âThanks, Satoru.â
âNo problem.â He gives you that crooked, flirty smirk. âAlways happy to help pretty girls with their form.â
Your eyebrows shoot up. âPretty girls?â
He shrugs, casual, but thereâs a spark in those blue eyes. âWhat? You look good. The outfit works. Just⊠donât push too hard if youâre new to this. I donât want you sore tomorrow.â
Too late, pretty boy. Iâm already sore in all the right places.
âI can handle it,â you say, turning up the speed a notch. âBut if I die, youâre carrying me home.â
He laughsâlow, warm, genuineâand the sound shoots straight down in between your legs. âDeal. Iâll spot you on the weights after if you want.â
You spend the rest of your (very short) workout stealing glances at him. Watching him load plates onto the bar, muscles bulging, sweat dripping down that perfect V-line into his shorts. You want to lick the sweat off his chest. You want to see how sensitive those nips are. You want him to pin you against the mirror and fuck the âmorning personâ energy right out of you. Or into you. Whatever, potato potahto.
But underneath all the raging lust, youâre also weirdly into how focused and disciplined he is. The way he tracks his reps, the quiet intensity on his faceâitâs hot. And impressive.
When you finally step off the treadmill on shaky legs, he wanders over again, handing you a spare towel.
âNot bad for a new morning person,â he teases.
âYou watching? High praise from the 6 AM regular.â
He lingers for a second, eyes flicking over you again. âMaking sure you donât fall over and hurt yourself. You coming back tomorrow?â
âMaybe. If my legs donât fall off.â
âIâll be here.â He gives you one last slow smile. âDonât be a stranger.â
âHard to when Iâm basically a resident at Liaâs.â
You watch him chuckle and walk back to the weights, that glorious back and shoulders on full display, and feel a rush of triumph mixed with pure, aching want.
Day six is a huge success. Youâre sweaty, exhausted, and hornier than ever. But he noticed you. He touched you. God youâll be thinking about that all day.
DAY SEVEN
Youâre at the Gojo family home again. At this point you basically live here. Lia has started making jokes about charging you rent, and youâre starting to worry sheâs only half-kidding.
Youâre sprawled on the couch with her, pretending to watch some trashy reality show while mostly scrolling on your phone, when Satoru walks in from the hallway looking annoyingly good in just a plain black t-shirt and gray sweats.
âIâm making coffee,â he announces casually. âAnyone want some?â
âIâll take one,â Lia says lazily.
âIâm good, thanks,â you reply.
He nods and disappears into the kitchen. A few minutes later he returns with two mugs. He hands one to Lia, then turns to you and holds out the second.
âI made you one anyway.â
You blink. âI said I was good.â
âI know.â He shrugs like itâs nothing. âBut itâs got hazelnut creamer. You mentioned you like it that one time.â
You freeze mid-reach.
He remembered. Not just that you drink coffee, but the specific creamer you like. From a passing comment days ago.
You take the mug, fingers brushing his, and feel a stupid little flutter in your chest. âThanks. Thatâs⊠pretty thoughtful.â
âItâs just coffee,â he says, but thereâs a small, pleased smirk playing on his lips.
âItâs not just coffee. Itâs thoughtful coffee.â
He leans against the doorway, studying you with those oh so pretty blue eyes. âI pay attention to things. Especially people. I like figuring out what makes them tick.â
Your pulse kicks up. You take a sip to hide how much that affects you. The hazelnut is perfect.
âAnd what makes me tick?â you ask, trying to sound casual.
He holds your gaze for a long moment. âStill working on that one. But Iâm getting there.â
Then he pushes off the doorframe and heads back toward his room, leaving you staring after him like an idiot.
The second heâs out of earshot, Lia whips around on the couch, eyes wide.
âOh my god.â
âShut up.â
âHeâs so into you.â
âHeâs not. He was just⊠being nice.â
Lia snorts so hard she nearly chokes on her coffee. âNice? My brother doesnât do âniceâ like that. He forgot my birthday three years in a row. He barely remembers to make himself coffee most days. But he made you one with your favorite creamer? Unprompted?â
You look down at the mug in your hands, the steam still curling up sweetly. âMaybe heâs just trying to be a good host.â
âPlease. He doesnât give a shit about being a good host. Half the time he ignores people who come over. But he remembered your creamer preference and brought it to you anyway?â She pokes your arm. âThatâs practically a confession for him.â
You laugh, but your face feels hot. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âIâm right. And the way he looked at you when he said heâs âfiguring you outâ? That was flirty as hell.â
You shift on the couch, thighs pressing together as your mind immediately goes to images of him figuring you out in much more hands-on waysâthose long fingers between your legs while he murmurs nerdy observations about what makes you tick.
âHe does have a habit of paying attention to details,â you admit.
âExactly. And right now all his attention is on you.â Lia grins excitedly. âOperation Bag and Bang is working. My brother wants you.â
You take another sip of the perfect hazelnut coffee, warmth spreading through your chest that has nothing to do with the drink.
Maybe sheâs right.
Maybe he really is starting to like you back.
And maybe, just maybe, youâre not only in this for the filthy fantasies anymore. The way he listens when you talk, the way he remembers little things, the look he gets in his eyes when he looks at you⊠itâs doing something stupid to you. Makes your heart flutter, makes you blush like a lovesick girl.
Doesnât mean you arenât going to still absolutely fuck him senseless the second you get the chance, though.
DAY EIGHT
Youâre in Satoruâs room.
His room.
Youâre sitting cross-legged on his bed, physics notes, textbooks, and crumpled practice problems scattered everywhere. Heâs leaning against the headboard looking unfairly hot in a loose black t-shirt and gray sweatpants, glasses perched on his nose as he flips through your messy notes.
Youâd asked him yesterday to help you study because youâre genuinely shit at physics and the test is in two days and youâre sure youâre going to flunk. Heâd agreed immediately, telling you to bring everything over. You told Lia and she encouraged you and said sheâll leave the house so you two can be alone (best wingwoman and best friend ever btw) Now here you areâsurrounded by his nerd clutter of books, beakers, and postersâtrying (and horribly failing) to focus while the sexual tension threatens to burn the room down.
âAlright, pay attention,â he says, voice casual but firm as he taps your paper. âThis free body diagram is still fucked. You keep forgetting the normal force direction. If you do this on the test youâre gonna lose a ton of points.â
You nod, but your eyes keep drifting to the way his t-shirt stretches across his chest, the faint outline of those nipple piercings visible through the fabric. You want to push him back on this bed and ride him until he forgets every equation heâs ever learned. Maybe youâll make him solve some while heâs buried inside you just to see him struggle. God youâre getting horny just thinking about it. Thatâs until he rudely interrupts your fantasies.
âHey.â He snaps his fingers lightly in front of your face, smirking. âFocus. This test actually matters. Iâm not letting you bomb it because youâre too busy staring at me.â
âSorry,â you say, not sorry at all. âYouâre distracting.â
âYeah, well, get used to it. Weâre staying here until you can do these problems without thinking.â He scoots closer, large muscular thigh pressing firmly against yours as he leans in to redraw the diagram. His arm brushes your chest and you have to bite your lip. âSee? The force arrow goes this way. Not that way. Mess this up on the real test and youâre pretty much screwed.â
You try again. He checks your work, nodding when itâs better but immediately pointing out the next mistake.
âBetter, but still not perfect. Come on, youâre smarter than this. I know you are.â His tone is light, but thereâs real concern underneath it. And fuck if that doesnât turn you on because what the hellâs hotter than a dude actually caring? âI donât want you stressing out the night before because you half-assed it. Letâs do the next one.â
The tension is unbearable. Every time he leans in to correct something, his knee stays glued to yours. Every explanation comes with casual touchesâhis fingers brushing your hand when he passes the pen, his shoulder pressed against yours, his breath warm against your ear as he talks through equilibrium problems. You swear heâs doing it on purpose just to torture you.
You keep getting distracted by your uncontrollable filthy thoughtsâhis hands gripping your hips, that deep voice in your ear explaining exactly how he wants you to move while he fucks you.
âFocus,â he says again, gently flicking your forehead. âIâm serious. This shit builds on itself. If you donât get the fundamentals now youâre gonna be fucked for the rest of the semester.â
âYouâre really invested in my grade, huh?â you tease, shifting so your thigh slides more firmly against his.
âYeah, I am.â He looks at you directly. âI like when people actually learn stuff. Especially you. So stop looking at my tits and solve the damn problem.â
You laugh but actually try this time. When you get it right he gives you a pleased little smirk and ruffles your hair.
âThere we go. See? Youâve got this. Just need to stop getting distracted by how hot your tutor is.â
âImpossible,â you mutter.
He chuckles, low and warm, but immediately dives back into the next concept. âTorque next. This one trips a lot of people up. Pay attentionâ Iâm not explaining it three times.â
You spend the next couple hours like that: bodies pressed close on his bed, heavy tension crackling between every word, while he stays surprisingly focused on making sure you actually understand the material. Heâs casual and flirty, throwing in teasing comments and lingering touches, but he never lets you derail the session for too long.
âLast set,â he says eventually, handing you more practice problems. âNail these and Iâll be impressed. And maybe⊠reward you somehow.â His eyes drag slowly down your body before flicking back up, heated. Holy shit. Is he implying what you think heâs implying? âBut only if you actually get a decent grade. Deal?â
You swallow, already thinking about everything. âDeal.â
He leans back against the headboard, arm stretched behind you, fingers idly playing with the hem of your shirt while you work. The concern for your success is weirdly attractiveâmixed with all that casual confidence and the constant undercurrent of want.
Youâre definitely passing this test.
And youâre definitely going to fuck your tutor senseless the second itâs over.
DAY NINE
(except itâs actually day eleven because the last two days were just non-stop tutoring and you finally crushed that physics test)
You donât mean to confess.
It just slips out.
Itâs late. The house is quiet. Lia passed out on the couch an hour ago, and Satoru suggested the two of you keep watching The Expanse in the living room. Now youâre alone with him on the big sectional, sitting so close your thighs are pressed together and your shoulders keep brushing.
The show is on, but neither of you is really watching anymore.
Your heart is hammering. His hand rests on the cushion between you, fingers twitching like they want to close the last inch of space between yours and his. The tension has been building for daysâthose long study sessions where heâd scold you to focus while his eyes lingered on your mouth and legs.
âSo,â you say, breaking the charged silence. âI got my physics grade back today.â
He turns his head, blue eyes sparkling with interest. âAnd?â
You smirk. âA solid B+. Wouldâve been an A if someone hadnât kept distracting me with his hands and voice the whole time.â
Satoru lets out a low laugh, but thereâs heat in it. âTold you to focus. I take my tutoring duties seriously.â
âYou also promised me a reward if I did well.â You shift closer, letting your hand rest on his thigh. âI did well, Satoru.â
His breath catches. The tension snaps tighter. He looks down at your hand, then back up at your face, eyes darker now.
âI did say that, didnât I?â His voice is rougher. âWhat kind of reward were you thinking?â
You lean in until your lips are inches from his. âI think you know exactly what kind I want. I think youâve known for a while now. Unless youâre just⊠super dense. Which Lia told me you are, but I think youâre smarter than that.â
He swallows hard. The air between you feels electric. âYouâre really not subtle anymore, huh?â
âNope. Iâve been trying to be subtle for a while now.â Your fingers trace slow circles on his thigh, teasingly high. âSo⊠about that reward.â
He exhales sharply, hand finally moving to cover yours, squeezing. âYouâre killing me here.â
âGood.â You tilt your head, lips brushing his jaw. âBecause Iâve been dying for days. Sitting in your room, letting you play teacher while all I could think about was climbing onto your lap and shutting you up with my mouth.â
His grip on your hand tightens. âFuck.â
âYeah. Thatâs the idea.â
He turns fully toward you, free hand coming up to cup the back of your neck. The show is completely forgotten. âYou really want this?â
âIâve wanted this since I walked in on you shirtless that first time.â Your voice drops and you bite your lip. âSince I saw those piercings. Youâre gonna need to tell me the story behind those someday. Preferably after Iâve had them in my mouth.â
His eyes flare and he chuckles nervouslyâbreathlessly. The tension is so thick itâs suffocating in the best way. Heâs breathing harder now, thumb stroking your neck.
âIâve been trying to be good,â he mutters. âTrying to make sure you actually passed that test instead of just thinking about bending you over my desk every time you leaned over your notes.â
You grin against his mouth. âAnd now?â
âNow?â He leans in, lips hovering just above yours. âNow Iâm thinking about collecting on that reward too.â
You close the distance first.
The kiss starts hungryâthree months of built-up tension exploding all at once. His mouth is hot and demanding, tongue sliding against yours as he pulls you closer. You moan into it, and he swallows the sound greedily, hand sliding into your hair.
When you finally break apart, both of you are breathing hard.
âWell,â he says, voice hoarse, âthat was a long time coming.â
âToo long.â You nip at his bottom lip. âAnd weâre nowhere near done. I still want my full reward, tutor.â
He laughs, low and filthy, forehead resting against yours. âGreedy.â
âYou have no idea.â
He kisses you again, slower this time but no less intense, hands roaming your sides like heâs been dying to touch you. The living room feels too small, too public, but neither of you cares enough to stop.
Satoru pulls back from the kiss just enough to rest his forehead against yours, breathing ragged. âWe canât do this here,â he mutters, voice low and rough. âParents are upstairs. Liaâs literally passed out on the couch. If anyone hearsââ
âThen take me to your room,â you whisper against his mouth, nipping his bottom lip. âNow, please.â
He doesnât need to be told twice. He stands up, grabs your hand, and practically drags you down the hallway, both of you moving as quietly as possible. The second his bedroom door clicks shut behind you, he pushes you up against it, kissing you hard again. This time thereâs no hesitationâhis hands roam down your sides, gripping your ass as he grinds against you.
âFuck, Iâve wanted this for so long,â he groans quietly against your neck. âYou have no idea how many times I had to stop myself from bending you over my desk during those study sessions.â
You laugh breathlessly, hands already sliding under his shirt like youâve imagined a thousand times over the course of the past ten days. âThen stop stalling and show me, nerd.â
He tugs your shirt off first, then his own, and there they areâthose perfect, lean pecs with the silver bars through both pink nipples, already hard from the cool air and the tension. You stare like a woman starved.
âGod, Iâve been so fucking obsessed with these,â you admit, running your palms over his chest, thumbs brushing right over the piercings.
Satoru hisses sharply, hips jerking against you while his abs clench abruptly. âSensitiveâ fuckâ theyâve been extra sensitive since I got them done.â
âThatâs to my advantage.â You push him back toward the bed, watching him sit on the edge as you climb onto his lap. âIâve honestly wanted to play with them for months.â
You lean down and drag your tongue over one pierced nipple, flicking the bar lightly. Satoruâs head falls back with a choked groan, one hand flying up to cover his mouth, teeth digging into his fingers.
âShitâ easy,â he hisses, voice strained. âParents are right upstairs. Youâre gonna get us caught.â
You smirk and suck the other nipple into your mouth, tugging gently on the piercing with your teeth. His cock twitches hard against your thigh through his sweatpants.
âFuck, youâre so evil,â he pants, trying to sound cocky but sounding wrecked instead. âIâm trying to be all cool and collected here and youâreâ ahâ sucking on my tits like youâre trying to milk me.â
âI wish i could,â you murmur, switching sides and rolling the other bar between your fingers while you lick and suck. His chest is flushed, nipples puffy and oversensitive from the attention. Every tug and flick makes him shudder underneath you. âTheyâre so pretty. Look at how they get all hard for me.â
âYouâre gonna fucking kill me,â he groans, chest heaving, biting his fist to stay quiet. His face is so red heâs hard to recognize. Youâve never seen him lose his composure this hard but damn if youâre not getting off on it. âIâm supposed to be the one ruining you, not the other way around.â
You grind down on the very obvious bulge in his sweatpants, still lavishing attention on his chest. âWho says we canât do both?â
He finally snaps, flipping you onto your back on the bed with surprising strength. He hovers over you, sweat dripping down his chest, hair messy. âMy turn. Shorts off, baby⊠please.â
You obey, shimmying out of your shorts and panties while he kicks off his sweatpants. His cock springs freeâlong, thick, and already leaking. You gaspâaudibly soâat the sheer size of him. You knew he was big because youâd seen him in those sinful grey sweats but you never could picture it in your head. But now itâs right here⊠fuck, youâre soaking. You reach for it but he catches your wrist.
âNot yet,â he says, voice cocky but with that nervous edge underneath. âIâve spent too many nights jerking off thinking about this. Iâm not rushing it.â
He kisses down your body, mouth hot and eager, but you pull him back up by his hair. âYouâve jerked off to me?â You ask breathlessly, a little cocky smile on your lips. âIâm flattered.â
He chuckles and rolls his eyes right at you, licking his lips. âDonât act like you havenât done the same, pervert.â
âNever acted like anything.â
âGood.â Heâs about to go down on you, his lips finding your neck and then gradually moving lower but you canât help but want to toy with his nips again. Your fingers gently coax him up to your face again by his hair and he groans. âCâmonâŠgimmeâ a chance to make you feel good.â
âNo. I want these again.â You cup his chest, thumbs circling his swollen nipples. âTheyâre so fucking sensitive. Look at youâshaking just from me playing with them.â
Satoru buries his face in your neck to muffle a moan as you pinch and tug on the bars. âYouâreâ fuckâ such a brat. Iâm trying to be a good tutor-turned-lover here and youâre using my piercings against me.â
You laugh softly and lick over one again, sucking harder while your hand strokes his cock slowly. âTheyâre pretty much mine now. Iâve earned them after all that studying.â
He shudders, hips bucking into your fist. âYeah? Then keep earning them. Justâ quiet, baby. I swear if my mom hears us Iâm so dead.â
You keep teasing his chest relentlesslyâlicking, sucking, tugging on the piercings while your hand works his cock in long, slow strokes. Heâs panting into your shoulder, trying so hard to stay quiet, occasionally letting out these choked little whimpers whenever you twist the bars just right or squeeze him a little tighter on the upstroke.
âGod, youâre so hard,â you whisper. âAll this from me playing with your tits?â
âShut up,â he groans, embarrassed but clearly loving it. âTheyâve always been sensitive but youâre making it so much worse. Or better. Fuck, I donât know anymore.â
You push him onto his back again and straddle him, rubbing your soaked pussy along his length while you continue lavishing attention on his chest. He grips your hips hard, biting his lip bloody trying to stay silent.
âYou gonna fuck me now, sir?â you tease, grinding down. âOr do I need to keep playing with these until you beg?â
He lets out a shaky laugh. âDonâtâdonât call me that, it does things to me,â he groans, cock twitching against you. âCome hereâ I need to be inside you before I lose my mind.â
He reaches over to his nightstand, grabs a condom with trembling hands (still nerdy enough to be prepared), and rolls it on. Then he pulls you down onto him in one slow, deep thrust.
Both of you moanâhis muffled against your shoulder, yours against his neck.
âFuck, you feel good,â he whispers, voice wrecked. âSo tight. Been thinking about this for days.â
âTry three months,â you groaned into his neck, breathing heavily. You start riding him slowly, still playing with his oversensitive nipples, tugging and rolling the bars while you bounce on his cock. Every time you pinch them he thrusts up harder, trying desperately to stay quiet.
âQuiet, Satoru,â you tease breathlessly, echoing his earlier words. âWouldnât want your parents knowing their genius son is getting his pierced nips played with while he fucks his sisterâs best friend.â
He groans, hips snapping up. âYouâre evil. Absolutely evil. Iâm neverâ shitâ gonna recover from this.â
You donât let him recover. You keep the pace torturously slow and deep, spoiling his chest with attention while the pleasure builds and builds for both of you. His cock fills you perfectly, stretching you with every downward grind. The room is thick with the sound of skin on skin and muffled breathing and held back moans.
Satoruâs hands slide up your waist and cup your tits, thumbs brushing over your nipples with deliberate pressure. Heâs not gentle about itâpinching and rolling them between his fingers while he thrusts up to meet you.
âFuck, these are perfect,â he mutters, voice low and rough. His eyes are dark, needy, but thereâs that cocky edge as he watches your face. âBeen wanting to get my hands on them since you kept leaning over my notes in that tank top.â
You moan softly and he immediately covers your mouth with one hand, the other still tugging on your nipple.
âShh,â he whispers, a little smirk playing on his lips even as his hips snap up harder. âParents are literally right upstairs. You want to get caught, hmm?â
You shake your head, but the way heâs playing with your tits makes it hard to stay quiet. You lean down and take one of his pierced nipples into your mouth again, sucking hard while you roll your hips.
He groans into your hair, the sound needy and broken. âGodâ youâre like an addict.â
You pull off with a wet pop, still riding him slow and deep. âWhyâd you get them pierced?â you ask breathlessly, fingers tracing the silver bars. âTheyâre so sensitive. Was it for pleasure purposes?â
Satoruâs hands tighten on your hips, guiding you faster for a few strokes before he forces himself to slow down again. Dominant and needy all at once. âGot them after I lost a bet in second year. Didnât realize how fucking sensitive theyâd make me.â He thrusts up sharply, making you gasp. âNow every time you touch them itâs like theyâre wired to my dick. Itâs torture. I fucking love it.â
You clench around him at that, riding him a little harder. âWhat about your cock?â you tease, voice low. âEver think about getting that pierced too?â
He laughs, the sound shaky and turned on. One hand leaves your hip to slap your ass lightlyâplayful, teasingâbefore gripping it again and pulling you down with a soft whine. âThought about it. A lot, actually. Prince Albert maybe. But I chickened out. Figured Iâd rather have someone else decide if they want to decorate it.â His eyes lock on yours, needy but cocky. âYou offering to help pick one out?â
You moan at the image, grinding down harder. âMaybe.â
His hands are back on your tits, squeezing and playing while he fucks up into you with controlled, deep thrusts. Heâs the perfect switchâletting you ride and tease him one second, then taking over the pace the next, pulling you down onto his cock like he owns your pussy.
âWhat about you?â he asks, voice husky as he pinches both your nipples at once causing you to moan. âYou ever think about getting these pierced?â
You arch into his touch, riding him faster now. âThought about it. Especially after I saw yours. Thought itâd be hot to have you play with them the way I play with yours.â
Satoru groans, the sound muffled against your shoulder as he buries his face there. âFuck, donât say shit like that while Iâm inside you. Iâm trying not to lose it.â He flips you suddenlyâsmooth, easyâputting you on your back without pulling out. He hooks your legs over his arms and starts fucking you deep and steady, eyes locked on yours.
âIâd love it,â he admits, voice rough and needy again as he leans down to suck one of your nipples into his mouth. âLove watching you get all sensitive and shaky for me. Love marking you up.â He bites gently, then soothes it with his tongue. âWe could match.â
Youâre closeâboth of you areâbut he keeps the pace deliberate, drawing it out. His mouth moves between your tits while he fucks you, occasionally lifting his head to kiss you hard, swallowing your moans.
âYou feel so good,â he pants against your lips. âThis is insane⊠Iâm so into you.â
You tug on his nipple piercings again and he shudders, stomach clenching and hips stuttering. âKeep doing that and Iâm gonna come,â he warns, but he doesnât stop you. He just fucks you harder, switching between needy groans and cocky little comments.
âYeah? Gonna come from me playing with your tits while I ride your cock?â you whisper.
âShut up, you brat,â he laughs breathlessly as he pins your wrists above your head with one hand and keeps pounding into you. âYouâre gonna come first. Thatâs an order from your tutor.â
He keeps you right on the edgeâslowing down when you get too close, speeding up when you beg, all while his mouth and hands stay on your tits and his cock stays buried deep inside you. Every thrust drags his cock against that perfect spot inside you, but heâs not letting you race to the finish. Heâs controlling the paceâslow and grinding one moment, sharp and punishing the next.
His mouth is on your tits again, sucking one nipple while his fingers pinch and tug the other. Youâre arching up into him, one hand fisted in his white hair, the other still toying with his nipples.
âFuckâ pull harder,â he groans against your chest, voice muffled but needy. âYeah, like that. God, youâre gonna make me lose it.â
You yank on his hair and he moans, hips stuttering. At the same time you scratch your nails down his backâhard enough to leave marks. He shudders violently, a full-body reaction that makes his cock twitch inside you.
âOh my god,â you breathe, doing it again. âYou like that? You little masochist.â
He lifts his head, eyes glassy but still cocky. âYeah. I like it when you mark me up. Pull my hair, scratch me, bite meâ fuck, Iâm into all of it.â
You laugh softly and bite his shoulder, then suck a mark right next to it. âSo the nerdâs a little pain slut, huh?â
âShut up,â he laughs breathlessly, thrusting harder to shut you up. âYouâre the one obsessed with my chest. Iâve been edging you for ten minutes and youâre still playing with my nips.â
He suddenly pulls out completely. You whine at the loss and he smirks, kneeling between your spread thighs. He takes his cock in one hand and slaps it against your soaked pussyâwet, obscene sounds filling the room as the head smacks your clit, your folds, dragging through your slick.
âLook at this mess,â he murmurs, voice low and dominant again. âDripping all over my cock. You were so cocky earlier about your reward. Whereâs that energy now?â
You reach down and spread yourself open for him. âStill cocky. Just desperate. Put it back in.â
He slaps his cock against your clit again, harder this time, then rubs the head up and down your slit without pushing inside. âAsk nicely.â
âSatoruââ
He pushes just the tip in, then pulls out again, teasing. âNuh-uh. Use your words, baby. Tell me what you want.â
You glare up at him, pouting. âI want you to stop being a tease and fuck me properly. Or Iâm gonna flip us and ride you with my hands on your tits until youâre the one begging.â
He chuckles, low and filthy, and finally sinks back into you in one smooth thrust. âThere she is, atta-girl.â
He fucks you harder now, one hand braced by your head, the other sliding between your bodies to rub your clit in tight circles.
âBeen thinking about this every night after tutoring,â he admits between thrusts, voice rough. âYou leaning over my desk in those shorts, asking me about torque while I was imagining bending you over it. You have no idea how many times I had to adjust myself because you kept playing with your hair and biting your lip.â
You moan and pull his hair again, making him curse. âI knew. Why do you think I kept doing it?â
âSo mean,â he pants, but heâs grinning. He pulls out again, flips you onto your stomach, and yanks your hips up. Doggy this timeâdeeper, rougher, nastier and so fucking hot. One hand grips your hip while the other reaches around to play with your pussy, two fingers rubbing your clit while his cock slides back in. He lifts one arm and pulls you upward so his chestâs pressing right up against your back. He puts you in a chokehold, bicep against your jaw as he leans in to nibble on your ears.
âTouch your tits for me,â he orders, voice strained. âPlay with them while I fuck you. I wanna hear you.â
You do as he says, pinching your own nipples while he pounds into you from behind. Every time you clench around him he groans and fucks harder. When you start getting too closeâthighs shaking, moans getting louderâhe slows down dramatically, almost stopping, just grinding deep and circling your clit lazily.
âNot yet,â he whispers against your ear, chest pressed to your back. âIâm not done with you. I edged myself for hours thinking about you. Turnaboutâs fair play.â
You whimper into his arm, hands coming up to grab onto it for support while he fucks you so torturously slow from behind. âSatoru, pleaseââ
He bites the back of your shoulder, then soothes it with his tongue. âPlease what? Use your words, pretty.â
âPlease let me come. Iâll be good. Iâll stop teasing your nipplesâ for five minutes.â
He laughs, the sound warm and wrecked, and starts fucking you properly again. âFive whole minutes? Thatâs generous of you.â
He keeps you right on the edge for what feels like foreverâchanging angles, pulling out to slap his cock against your cunt again, fingering you open while youâre empty, then slamming back in. Every time you get close he eases off, kissing your spine, murmuring filthy praise.
âYouâre so fucking pretty like this,â he says, voice husky. âAll desperate and dripping. My smart girl who aced her test and now canât even form sentences because my cockâs inside her.â
You reach back and scratch down his thigh, then up to his ass. âAnd youâre the one who gets hard from having your hair pulled and your back scratched.â
âThat makes us a perfect match,â he agrees, flipping you onto your back again so he can see your face. He hooks your legs over his shoulders and folds you in half, fucking you deep and slow while his thumb circles your clit.
âCome for me,â he finally says, voice cracking with need. âIâve got you, baby. Come for this nerd.â
You doâhard. so hard itâs life changingâclenching around him with a muffled cry into his shoulder, arms wrapped around his neck and fingers tightening in his hair. He follows right after, burying his face in your neck, hips stuttering as he comes with a low, broken groan followed by a few shorter ones. Your insides grow warm with the weight of his load-filled condom.
For a long moment neither of you moves, just breathing hard, sweat-slick and tangled.
Satoru lifts his head, hair messy, lips swollen, looking thoroughly fucked out but still smug.
âSo,â he chuckles breathlessly, voice hoarse. âSame time tomorrow for round two? I still have more physics notes to go over.â
You laugh weakly and tug his hair one more time. âOnly if you let me play with your tits again.â
âDeal,â he murmurs, kissing you slow and sweet. âBrat.â
âPain whore.â
He grins against your mouth. âSure, but Iâm your pain whore.â
DAY TEN
You wake up tangled around Satoru like youâre trying to fuse with him.
Legs hooked around his waist. One arm slung across his chest. Face buried in the warm curve of his neck, breathing him inâskin, faint sweat, that clean scent that still makes your brain lag. Your other hand rests on his narrow waist, thumb brushing the sharp cut of his hip bone, resisting the urge to slip underneath his pants and squeeze that gorgeous ass.
Holy fuck. You actually fucked Satoru.
And it was filthy. Perfect. The kind of night that ruins you for anyone else. The way heâd switched between pinning you down and letting you play with his oversensitive nips until he was shaking. The way heâd edged you for what felt like hours, cocky and needy at the same time. Youâre sore in all the right places and already thinking about round⊠whatever number youâre on now.
You squeeze your thighs around him tighter, pressing your body closer. God, youâre obsessed with how he feels. All that lean muscle, the way his skin is stupidly soft over hard lines, the little shivers he gives when you accidentally brush his piercings.
Satoru stirs, letting out a low, sleepy groan. His arm tightens around your back, hand sliding down to palm your ass possessively.
âMorning, clingy,â he mumbles, voice rough from sleep. âYou gonna let me breathe anytime soon?â
âNo,â you answer without hesitation, lips brushing his neck. âI earned this. Ten days of plotting and I finally got the nerd in bed. Iâm collecting my trophy.â
He chuckles, the sound vibrating through his chest. One hand comes up to scratch lazily at your scalp. âTrophy, huh? That what I am now?â
âYep. Property of me.â You drag your nails lightly down his back, right over the very obvious scratches you left last night. âThese marks are cute, by the way. Very âI got bangedâ esque.â
Satoru hisses softly but presses into your touch. âYouâre such a shit. I told you my back was sensitive and you still went crazy on it.â
âEhh.. you liked it.â You nip at his neck, then soothe it with your tongue. âYou liked it so much you almost came just from me tugging your hair and playing with your piercings.â
âShut up,â he says, but thereâs a grin in his voice. He shifts his hips, letting you feel that heâs already half-hard against your thigh. âYouâre the one who couldnât stop sucking on them. Thought you were gonna give me a hickey on my fucking nipple.â
You laugh quietly and flick one of the bars with your thumb, making him twitch. âTheyâre too pretty not to. Iâve been obsessed with these things since the first time I saw them. Still canât believe you let some random person stab metal through them.â
âRegret nothing,â he says casually. His hand slides between your bodies, cupping one of your tits and lazily playing with your nipple. âEspecially not after last night. You were real into it.â
You hum happily and press closer, face still tucked into his neck. âBest decision of my life. The sex was insane. Youâre surprisingly flexible for a nerd.â
âSurprisingly?â He squeezes your ass. âRude. Iâll have you know Iâm very coordinated.â
âYeah, yeah. Big talk from the guy who almost dropped me when we switched positions.â
He snorts. âThat was your fault. You started playing with the piercings again and my brain shorted out.â
You smile against his skin, inhaling him again. The realization hits you somewhere deep in your chest when his fingers card through your hairâthis isnât just about how hot he is or how good the sex was. You actually like him. Him. The rambling, the routines, the way he remembers stupid little things, the way he looks at you like youâre entertaining as hell even when youâre being annoying.
Youâre catching real feelings. Youâre definitely going to marry this guy.
âTen days,â you murmur. âTook me ten days to get you here.â
Satoruâs hand strokes down your spine. âTook me about three to realize I was screwed. You kept showing up everywhere looking like that and asking me questions about my thesis. You sure knew the way to my heart.â
You lift your head just enough to look at him. His hair is a mess, eyes half-lidded, that lazy smirk on his face. He looks stupidly good in the morning light.
âYouâre not mad I basically stalked you into liking me?â you ask, half-teasing.
âNah.â He leans in and kisses you, slow and easy. âWorked out pretty well for me.â
You settle back against his neck, legs still locked around him, arms holding him close. âGood. Because Iâm not moving for at least another hour.â
âFine by me,â he says, voice already drifting back toward sleep. His hand keeps stroking your back in lazy circles. âJust donât fall asleep with your hand on my nipple again. Last night you almost twisted it off when you came.â
You giggle softly. âNo promises.â
He squeezes your ass in warning, but heâs smiling.
You stay wrapped around him for a while longer, trading lazy kisses and occasional teasing touches, until your stomach starts growling loud enough for both of you to hear it.
Satoru huffs a laugh against your hair. âHungry?â
âStarving,â you admit, finally untangling your legs from around his waist. âWe did burn a lot of calories last night.â
He smirks, sitting up and stretching. The morning light hits the scratches you left down his back and the faint hickeys on his neck and chest. You didnât exactly do a great job hiding them. Neither did heâthereâs a very obvious bite mark on your shoulder and bruises on your hips that ache in a weirdly pleasuring way.
You both throw on clothes quicklyâhim in fresh sweatpants and a t-shirt, you in one of his hoodies that swallows you and a pair of his huge sweats you had to tie really tightly because they kept falling.
As youâre about to head out the door, you pause.
âSoâŠâ you say casually, leaning against his doorframe. âWhat are we doing here? Like, are we actually a thing now? Or do we just keep doing⊠whatever this is and see where it goes?â
Satoru turns, one eyebrow raised. He looks a little rumpled and stupidly hot. âI mean, Iâm down to make it official. If you want. Iâm not really into the casual thing if itâs with you.â
You nod, keeping it light. âYeah. Same. Boyfriend, then?â
He grins, walking over to pull you in for a quick kiss. âBoyfriend. Sounds good.â
âCool.â
âCool.â
The conversation ends as easily as it started. Wow. It really is that easy huh.
You head downstairs together.
The second you step into the kitchen, itâs immediate. His mom is at the counter cutting fruit. His dad is scrolling on his phone at the table. Lia is already stuffing her face with toast.
All three of them look up at the exact same time.
The silence is deafening. Terribly so. You want to sink into the ground.
Youâre pretty sure the bite mark on your neck is visible even with the hoodie. Satoru has fresh scratches peeking out from under his collar and his hair is doing that freshly-fucked thing. You both tried to look normal. You failed miserably.
Liaâs eyes flick between the two of you, then she smirks around her toast like she just won the lottery. She doesnât say anythingâjust goes back to chewing with this shit-eating grin.
His mom raises an eyebrow. His dad just stares for a second before clearing his throat.
Satoru, cool as ever, walks straight to the coffee machine like nothingâs weird.
âMorning,â he says casually, grabbing two mugs. âOh yeah, weâre dating now, by the way.â
He says it like heâs announcing the weather. Like heâs making small talk. Like he didnât just announce a relationship.
You freeze mid-step, eyes wide. Waitâright now? Just like that? You were still processing the conversation upstairs and now heâs dropping it on his entire family like itâs no big deal. Your face heats up but⊠you donât really mind though. Itâs very⊠him.
Lia snorts so hard she has to set her toast down. His mom pauses mid-slice, then just nods slowly like sheâs processing. His dad blinks twice.
ââŠSince when?â his mom finally asks, fighting a smile.
âSince last night,â Satoru answers, pouring coffee like this is the most normal conversation in the world. âPass the hazelnut creamer?â
You stand there awkwardly for a second, still a little stunned he just launched it like that, before grabbing a piece of toast and sitting down quickly. You take a big bite to give yourself something to do.
His dad clears his throat again. âCongrats. Try to keep it down next time. The walls arenât that thick.â
You nearly choke on your toast. You start coughing hard, face flushing bright red as you reach for water. The memories of last nightâmoaning into Satoruâs shoulder, him telling you to stay quiet, the headboardâflash through your head at full volume.
Satoru just smirks like that didnât even fucking faze him at all, sliding the creamer your way like nothing happened. âNoted.â
Lia is openly grinning at you now, kicking your foot under the table. His mom is pretending to be very focused on the fruit again, but her shoulders are shaking with silent laughter.
Youâre mortified. His dad heard you?! THE WHOLEâ
âRelax,â Satoru chuckles like itâs no biggie as he slides in next to you, arm resting on the back of your chair as he hands you your coffee.
âI told you be quiet,â he teases, whispering against your ear like he was sharing some sort of secret. Which technically he isâbut now they all know so is it really a fucking secret????He lets out a low groan followed by a laugh when you jab at his side with your elbow, your mouth stuffed with said toast because youâve been trying not to choke it down.
But despite it all, sitting here in his oversized hoodie, with your crush whoâs now your boyfriend and having dinner with his family like he didnât just fuck your brains out for hours last night, you canât help but grin through the embarrassment.
This family is never going to let either of you live this down.
But⊠thatâs not too bad, is it?
Because the plan worked and in the span of ten days (technically eleven but thatâs not the point), youâve managed to bang and bag the nerd youâve been pining after for three months.
well that was fun and took ridiculously long to write this is my longest fic yet but yk what hell yeah. consider this a 1k special because i canât get anything else out on time LMFAO. i will be continuing this as a mini series that isnât really a series itâs just oneshots of this gojo x reader and some drabbles and shit idk anyway yeah i hope u guys enjoyed this !!! took me pretty much two days to write and i was writing like nonstop LOL <3 !! side note i had to do so much stupid ass research abt blue eyes and fucking genetics for this shit i am SICK
with your love life in ruins, the last thing you want to do is think about romance. unfortunately, between passive-aggressive notes and an infuriating neighbour named 4B who wonât leave you alone, love might not be done with you just yet
pairing: frat!jo x reader
content: mdni idiots in love, satoru as a faceless voice for a while, larping abt frats again, one (1) frat party scene, voyeurism, p in v, slightly intoxicated but consensual sex, cunnilingus, slight public sex/hidden sex 30k+
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When you eventually gained the courage to break up with your shitty boyfriend, you knew it would be a public spectacle considering heâs the vice president of Tau Delta Phi. What you didnât expect, however, was to find yourself spotlighted in the living room of some random houseparty, an empty red plastic cup in your hand and whatever had been inside now poured over your ex-boyfriendâs head.
It was almost funny watching humiliation and rage surge across Naoyaâs face, marked by that red-hot blush youâve seen far too many times, spit flying from his mouth when he yells that youâll regret this, heâll make sure you do. To no surprise he had you kicked out, leaving you stranded on the side of the road at 2am, alone, slightly intoxicated, and with a massive hole punctured through your concept of love.
Whatever Etsy witch he paid to ruin your life would have been hunted during the Salem witch trials because you never find peace following the breakup. You find out heâd been cheating on you with a plethora of girls, you find out the lady living in the apartment next to yours is moving out, and worst of all, you find out the free elective course you enrolled in specifically to take it easy gives you an assignment on love.
ARTS505: Screen Media Practice
Assessment 1: Observational Short Film â âLoveâ
Weighting: 30%
Due: Friday, 11:59 p.m.
Length: 3â5 minutes
For this assessment, students are required to produce a short observational film responding to the theme of love.
Go fuck yourself.
The day your neighbour next door moves out, you tear up at the news and let her believe itâs because youâll miss her and not because youâre terrified her replacement wonât be nearly as forgiving.
Because she smiles when you run into her at the bottom of the staircase and gives you small containers of food, nagging you in the way old women do about eating healthy and sleeping early. To her sweet, unassuming face, you tell her you will though you wonât, and sheâll nod like she believes you and tells you sheâll try to keep it down, kindly avoiding the fact that she can hear you wail at atrocious hours in the night when youâve assumed everyone has already fallen asleep.
She understood the highs and lows of being a newly single woman in this current social environment. But whoever moves in next? Youâre not so sure will.
Okay, so maybe you do miss her.
Because you find out someone new has moved in from the heavy thumping of feet crossing the floor, the thuds of boxes dropped onto the floorboards, the vibrations seeping into your own floors. It seems Naoyaâs Etsy witch still has their grip on you because your new neighbour is horrible. They play loud music in the morning, the afternoon, late at night, usually right when you have convinced yourself that this night you will finally get eight uninterrupted hours of blissful sleep. Thuds, banging, thumping, any onomatopoeia, your neighbour has done it.
Sometimes, they leave a pair of sneakers outside their door for two whole days, directly in your path to the stairs, so you have to step around them every morning. Their moving boxes sit in the hallway for so long they might as well be furniture, and youâve started dumping your tote on the tower of them whenever you dig around for your keys. Packages get delivered to your door instead of theirs. They seem to always be ordering DoorDash, too, the scent of something sugary-sweet seeping under your door until you start craving DoorDash yourself.Â
Itâs even worse today. Youâd come home with groceries instead of takeout, washed your bedsheets for the first time in a long while, lit a candle called Midnight Sunset, and sat down at your desk with the firm intention of brainstorming your film assignment. Then, from the other side of your bedroom wall, your neighbour starts assembling what can only be a large, flat-packed piece of furniture. For forty minutes, there is nothing but the intermittent scrape of wood, the clattering of metal parts, occasional low murmured curses, and one very loud crash that caused the floorboards to tremble, along with all the tiny screws that rattled in an echo. By the time the banging finally stops, your candle has burned unevenly, your tea has long gone cold, and the only thing written under love film ideas is: âkill himâ.
shoko: utahime and i are heading to the library to lock in
weâre inviting you so you canât say shit like thereâs always a duo in a trio
but donât actually come weâre probably gonna js make out
you: ?
utahime: sheâs joking weâre going to study
shoko: booo u whore
youâre a cockblock y/n
you: i literally didnât do anything
if anything utahime is cockblocking you
but iâll come if ygs are actually studying i need a fucking break
shoko: we arenât
utahime: we are
shut the fuck up shoko oh my god
shoko: whats with u y/n u sound grouchy
you: im going to kill my new neighbour
hes playing shit music through the wall like i miss the old lady so bad
shoko: you really gotta complain to the landlord or smth
you: hell no im not a snitch
utahime: ure weirdly compassionate abt the wrong things
hows the assignment going?
shoko: teacher teacher! im snitching!
you: ? do u want me to snitch or not
and its not going good at all how can i think about love when theres someone playing phonk in my ear at 6pm on a random tuesday afternoon?
shoko: have u even seen this person?? go up and give them a piece of ur mind or smth
also come lib
you: give me a sec
i might ive never seen them though theyre usually out at weird times and doesnt really sleep in their own room ?? but what if its a 40 yo gymrat and i get bodied
utahime: yeah thats actually scary
write a note or something
shoko: and then come library
you: give me fifteen minutes
Perhaps Shokoâs insistence on going to the library is contagious because youâre suddenly eager to rip out a piece of paper to spill just how much you appreciate phonk in your ears to your neighbour. Or maybe you really just want to tell your neighbour to die.
It starts off innocently enough, the last of your patience allowing kinder words and a light reminder that your neighbour isnât the only one living in this creaky, ancient building. But then it gets to you, the music, the thudding, the inability to remove laundry from the laundry machine appropriately, and you find youâre pressing the lead of your pencil deep into the paper until it almost leaves a mark on the table beneath.
You heave out a breath of pure catharsis and read it over, giving it an approving nod. This will certainly do.
Then, with your heart much lighter and a perk in your step, you sling your tote over your shoulder and head for the door. Instead of walking to the elevator after youâve locked up, you make a small detour to your neighbours door and bend down to slide the letter under their door.
There, problem fixed.
With a smile, you turn and walk to the library, oddly lighter for it.
Shoko and Utahime thankfully do not make out the entire time youâre at the library. Unfortunately, theyâre still Shoko and Utahime and the three of you waste time gossiping about the high school dead horse that just broke up again instead of doing anything productive. Your document for planning your films remains as empty as ever, only now itâs been shared to two email addresses so they can witness your writerâs block unfold in real time.
By the time you drag yourself back from the library, night has already settled in and you have to use your phoneâs flashlight to illuminate the path to your building. The hallway is hushed in that apartment building kind of way, distant television laughter, pipes clinking somewhere behind the walls, the hum of someoneâs microwave. Youâre fishing for your keys when you notice it, a torn corner of lined paper stuck to your door with blutack.
You blink, too tired to make the connection straight away, brain still slogging through the haze of a caffeine crash. But then you peel it free, turn it over, and squint at the scrawny handwriting on the back.
are you twelve? whatâs with the note passing come talk to me if you have an issue
also i told the landlord btw lol have fun with that â4b
You crumple the note in your hand.
That fucking asshole.
The landlord does, in fact, show up at your door the next morning wearing a stern expression and with even sterner words. You apologise with a tight smile, offering up the half-truth that youâve been under a lot of stress lately and didnât mean it. And then, because two can play at that game, you finally snitch on 4B too, feeling a sharp jolt of triumph when the landlord sighs and assures you thatâll be having a word with the resident next door.
You incorrectly assume thatâs the last of it. Because when you come home at the end of another long day of classes, thereâs a sticky note taped to your door.
snitch
A disbelieving huff slips out of you as you let yourself into your apartment, your tote sliding off your shoulder with a dull thump, hands too busy flattening the wrinkled paper to catch it. Five minutes ago, all you wanted was to collapse face-first into bed and sleep through the rest of the day. Now, irritation blazes through you so quickly it feels like caffeine, sharp and immediate, and before you can talk yourself out of it, youâre fishing a pen from your bag and scrawling a reply across the back.
you literally snitched first asshole. maybe if you werenât playing anime music at 7pm in the evening i wouldnât have to snitch on u at all
You stick it to his door on your way back from taking out the trash, pressing your palm against the paper just to make sure it stays there. When you leave the next morning for your usual nine a.m., another note is waiting.
you literally told me to die im not a masochist i wasnât gonna let that slide ps. ntm on the digimon opening theme thatâs something special to me
You write a reply during class, sticking it to his door when you come home.
and uâve been loud as fuck ever since u moved in here yk the apartment has thin walls right? also what the hell is digimon
It doesnât take long this time. Youâre still boiling water for a coffee when thereâs a faint tap at your door. When you open it, thereâs a new note stuck smack in the middle, scrawled in hurried letters. You glance up and down the hallway and see no one, and smile as you step back inside.
then just walk those five steps to my door and tell me next time? and ofc someone as unfun as u has never experienced the highs and lows of digimon in ur childhood it all makes sense now
You sip your coffee as you pen your reply.
i swear iâve knocked in the morning and u didnât open the door
so r u gonna keep edging me or r u gonna tell me what digimon is
Itâs only after youâve already closed your door that you realise you didnât respond to his second comment so you quickly take a pen and walk back to his door, pursing your lips in effort as you try to add another line against the door. Maybe youâre imagining it but you swear you hear footsteps pause on the other side of the door.
also i just searched it up and i canât believe my next door neighbour is 12 years old watching cartoons
You quickly scurry back to your apartment just in time, hearing their door open after yours just as you closed yours. A couple seconds later, thereâs a knock.
digimon is NOT just for kids
You stare at the note for a second, oddly thrown by the concession considering it had seemed too easy. Youâd expected another argument, maybe some smug reply, maybe an insult in even messier handwriting. But instead, he had simply folded.
For some reason, it feels less like a victory and more like a sudden end to something you hadnât realised you were enjoying. Your other neighbours probably didnât feel the same considering they had to listen to you and 4B open and close your doors consecutively for the past few minutes.
Still, you tell yourself as you peel the note off the door, a win is a win.
The next morning, you check your door out of habit and is immediately rewarded by a piece of a4 paper stuck to the front.
hey 4a,
first of all i want to say that iâve been very good and very quiet recently which i hope pleases you. please acknowledge my growth
â 4b
Because youâre lazy, you flip the paper over and write.
4b,
sure ur growth has been noted (?) i feel like thereâs more to this do u need something
â 4a
You slide it under his door before you can overthink it. By the time you come home that afternoon, there is another note waiting.
4a,
thank you for acknowledging my progress but i fear i have received your criticism and decided not to grow from it. maybe head out for the evening
also important question do u own a screwdriver ??
thanks, 4b
You frown then write back:
why?
Five minutes later, his reply slides under your door and you watch as the paper slips through completely before standing and reaching for it.
i give u a yes or no question and u still manage to dodge
do u own one or not? please.
â 4b
The next time you tape a note to his door, you also leave a screwdriver on the ground beneath.
u better give this back
Youâre halfway to backing your things for the library when his reply slides under your door. You pick it up while locking your apartment and read as you walk, catching the tail ends of some heavy thudding and hammering from the door beside yours.
people assume just because im a man i must have five screwdriver variants in my drawers or smth anyway im making furniture for my friend and its ikea :( wish me luckÂ
You snort despite yourself, tucking the note into your pocket as another dull bang sounds behind his door.Â
âGood luck,â you think as you walk by, and then, less generously, âand good luck to all the other people living in this building.âÂ
The library turns out to be the right choice. You spend three hours pretending to work, two hours ranting to the group chat about Naoyaâs latest monthly photo dump, and fifteen minutes with your fingers tapping away at your keyboard which is still fifteen minutes more of productivity that you wouldnât have achieved at your apartment so youâd call that a success.
When you come home, you brace yourself before reaching your floor.Â
Surprisingly, thereâs a lack of any noise at all. No thudding, no scrapping, no IKEA-related violence. Your screwdriver sits neatly outside your door, wrapped in a sticky note.Â
returned in one piece like i promised! im hoping u took my advice and left the building otherwise can u write your complaint in five words or less? im sleepy zzz
You look at his door, a reluctant smile on your face. For the first time since he moved in, you wonder if maybe the problem was never that he was impossible to live beside. Maybe the walls were thin, and he was loud, and you were miserable, and neither of you had known how to be people around each other yet.Â
Maybe, if you both communicated like normal neighbours, this could actually work.Â
If you assumed life would look up following this revelation, then youâre sorely underestimating the evil forces (read: Naoyaâs Etsy witch) conspiring against your happiness.Â
Because the next morning, it isnât some upbeat anime opening that wakes you up. Instead, itâs the mucus trapped in your airways and the pounding at your temples, dragging you from the dead only to make you feel worse for it.
You throw your duvet over your head and pray that when you resurface, your cold will have miraculously disappeared. It doesnât work, to no surprise, though that thought irritates you too. Then again, maybe thatâs just the built up annoyance from having your nose blocked. Miserable and stuffy, you close your eyes and remind yourself to take in a deep breath through your nose when youâve healed, just to not take it for granted.Â
Itâs times like this when you miss your good-for-nothing ex, times like this when you remember there used to be someone you could text without thinking, someone you could badger for some chicken noodle soup and maybe a hug and a kiss on your forehead.Â
Your own weakness pisses you off.
With great effort, you drag yourself upright and shuffle into your kitchen, pawing through empty pantries. Any plans of heading to that early morning tutorial this morning immediately leaves your mind at your pathetic show of strength.Â
Youâre halfway through grabbing cereal, any other breakfast option simply too tedious, when a loud voice cuts through the haze.Â
âYeah, she just didnât get it. And when you have to explain a joke, itâs already over. No dude, obviously itâs her fault for not being with it and not because Iâm unfunny, donât even kid.â
You frown slightly, munching on another chip, thumb scrolling past a video youâre not even sure you watched. Who the hell says âwith itâ?
âIf you donât fuck with with it, then youâre one of the people who arenât with it. Youâre without it.â He continues.
You make a small noise of consideration, vaguely thinking that you might get along with his friend as they seemingly voice your own thoughts.
Your neighbour continues, undeterred from his friendâs unenthusiastic responses. âThereâs no chance Iâm seeing her again. She did text me but Iâm just going to leave her on delivered. Is it cruel or is it saving myself from someone who called my Agumon keychain the deformed twin Charmander consumed in the womb?â
You laugh, sound muffled when your neighbourâs voice peaks.
âHe doesnât, Charmander is from a completely different franchise! And Iâll have you know that keychain was from an artist at Anime Con so when youâre picking on my little guy, youâre making fun of a small business.â
A pause. You scrunch your nose.
âYeah, I didnât mean to call it my little guy. If it helps, I gave my dick she/her pronouns like how a truck guy calls his truck a real beauty so sheâs not my little guy.â
You snort, crunching down on a chip. You wonder if that sweet salesman next door is as enthralled in 4Bâs love life as you were.
âDonât make such a disgusted sound, sheâll take offence.â
Thereâs shuffling from above as your neighbour supposedly shifts to a different position, now closer to you such that you could faintly make out the voice of his friend.
âIs liking Agumon such a big deal breaker for you?â his friend says, voice smoother than the whiny tilt in 4Bâs.
âHonestly, no. Agumon is my favourite character and Iâm not really comfortable sharing him with others because he means a lot to me. But then when I started talking about Digimon she asked me why I didnât just get a Pikachu keychain instead since everyone at least knew Pikachu and itâll save me from the questions. Pikachu. The mainstream corporate mouse.â
âOkay,â his friend sighs, âbut to be fair, most people know more about Pokemon than Digimon. At least she was trying?â
âThatâs the problem!â your neighbour fires back and the image of him in your head changes around his enthusiasm about digital monsters. âNo one gives Digimon the respect that it deserves. People act like itâs Pokemonâs weird cousin when really itâs more like Pokemonâs smarter, cooler, better-dressed older sibling who went overseas to continue pursuing their education.â
âAnd did you tell her that?â
âYeah, right there in the restaurant."
âYouâre never getting a second date.â
He snorts, apparently offended. âPlease, like I wanted one.â
Despite yourself you laugh though the silence that follows is enough to rid you of all your amusement. Awkwardly, you trail off by clearing your throat, feeling somewhat like a creep for letting your eavesdropping be known. All this talk about knowing to stay quiet and yet you catch yourself slipping.
You listen as 4B says a quick goodbye to his friend. Thereâs a rustle, a soft thud, and then his voice comes again, closer this time, like heâs leaned right up against the wall between your apartments.
âHello? Is someone there?â
For one fleeting second, you think that if this were a horror movie, he would absolutely be the first to die. Not that youâd fare much better, considering you answer him.
âHi.â
Thereâs a small pause, then, âNo way. 4A? What the hell, I thought you already left for class.â
Your heart skips, thudding against your ribs. For a second, you consider staying quiet and let the walls swallow the moment whole. Pretend it wasnât you, pretend like the two of you havenât been trading insults like you were passing notes in class.
There had been a fragile understanding between the two of you to never reach out. And yet, in this moment, you canât bring yourself to remember why.
You clear your throat, thick with the tail end of your cold. âWell it looks like you guessed wrong. Do I need to send you another death threat for you to keep it down?â
You hear him wince, a quiet sound muffled by the walls. âMaybe we should go back to writing notes to each other. I didnât know youâd sound like a 40 year old smoker.â
âIâm sick, jackass.â
He hums, unconvinced. Thereâs a beat of silence as he thinks of what to say. Then, âSo, youâre a girl?â
Your eyes roll to your ceiling as you sigh, whatever you were expecting immediately thrown away. âWhat exactly is that supposed to mean?â
He huffs out a small chuckle like he can hear the exasperation in your voice and finds it amusing. âIâm just surprised. I mean, youâre so mean to me. Girls usually love me, you know, Iâm kind of a ladiesâ man.â
That pulls a laugh out of you, rough on your sore throat but impossible to stop. âYou? With that personality? Consider me the one surprised.â
âIâm serious. Iâm kind of a campus celebrity. Girls flock to me.â
You hoist yourself up onto the kitchen counter, angling your back against the wall where his voice comes through clearest. âYou donât have to lie to impress me.â
Thereâs a pause and you wonder if your playful insults had gone a little too far in your sick state.
âOh, I might be into this.â
âWhat?â
âNothing.â Thereâs the faint sound of movement on the other side before your mysterious neighbour talks again. âI meant, what type of person do you think I am then?â
âConsidering you fumbled a first date because of a cartoon, I think you have your answer,â you coo with faux sympathy. âYou should be nicer to her since Iâm sure your cooldown for the next date might take a while.â
âFirst of all,â he says, apparently offended. âItâs not a cartoon. Second, she fumbled the date on her end. It was a necessary culling for me.â
You snort. âYou got dumped over Digimon, letâs settle down.â
âYou didnât even know what Digimon was until I put you on a few days ago.â
You shrug, despite the fact that he canât see the gesture. âAnd now that I know itâs even more pathetic. Agumon is the weird orange dinosaur thing, right?â
His whine comes through the wall, only cementing the fact that whoever is on the other side might be the biggest nerd you know. You wonder if he lied about not being a masochist considering heâs taking your insults pretty well. âHey, come on. Heâs just a cute little guy.â
âRight,â you draw out, unimpressed. âDonât glaze him when he might be the reason youâre a social shut in.â
âThatâs a new one. I am now, am I?â
âPlease,â you start, warming up to the idea as she speak it into existence. âIf women are all over you like you claim they are, why havenât I heard anyone come over? You and I both know just how thin the walls in this place is.â
âExactly,â he shoots back. âSo why would I bring them back here? Unless you want to be kept awake all night.â
That makes you laugh, the idea of this voice youâre hearing now having any experience at all extremely humourous, much less with the ability to go all night long. You can almost imagine the state of his room, littered with anime posters and plushies making sex feel like a group activity. If you looked up past his figure over you, youâd probably see neon light up stars on his ceilings.
âIf you can talk so much about my love life,â he trails off, voice deceptively casual and airy, âdo you have a boyfriend?â
That makes you freeze. Something hard and spiky settles in your stomach and you shift on the countertop, searching for a spot thatâs comfortable because for some reason, it feels like youâve lost it. âNo.â
The voice doesnât say anything for a while. âMy bad. Touchy subject?â
You shrug despite the fact that he canât see the gesture and pull your legs to your chest. âItâs fine. Itâs been, like, half a year. He was a douche anyway.â
âOkay, six months, not bad.â
Hearing the slight mumble from the other side of the wall but unable to understand it coherently, you frown and press your ear closer. âWhat was that?â
4B clears his throat. âIâm just saying maybe donât talk shit when I havenât heard you bring anyone over either.â
You roll your eyes, forcing your shoulders to relax and somewhat grateful at his deflection. âAt least I donât claim to be a microcelebrity. I keep my circle small and that works.â
âIs there room for one more?â
A laugh escapes you, genuine and surprised. âWhy? Asking for a friend or yourself?â
You can hear the smile in his voice when he says, âYou diagnosed me as a social shut in, remember? Iâm clearing asking for myself.â
âWeâll see, 4B,â you say, though youâre matching his tone with a smile. It doesnât, however, stop your voice from sounding croakier than intended and you have to painfully make an awkward gargling sound to clear your throat a number of times.
4B winces sympathetically, and he lets you get the worst of it out before speaking again. âSounds like you might need some water and then a nap.â
âTrust me, that was the plan.â
You start to wiggle down from your counter and grab something to drink, wrongly assuming the conversation ends here.
âAre we going to talk again?â he asks in a rush, and you huff as your feet touch the ground.
âWe live next to each other, genius. I donât think I could avoid you even if I tried.â
âAnd would you try?â
You sip from your glass, ignoring him.
âOkay, thatâs fine. Iâll win you over, just wait.â Thereâs no doubt in your mind that heâs grinning, you can hear it in the peaks of his voice. âIâll try to keep it down for you. And then maybe youâll be less grouchy when you wake up?â
âGo fuck yourself, 4B.â
You roll your eyes, glad that thereâs a wall between you to prevent him from seeing your smile. âGoodnight, 4A.â
Gojo Satoru isnât a man who lacks.Â
Heâs got the grades (barely, but theyâre there), the genes (obviously), the height (something even Suguru finds unfair), the charm (obnoxious), and a reputation on campus that both precedes and betrays him. He walks into a room and people notice. Professors sigh, girls nudge each other, guys scowl though itâll be his friends thatâll roll their eyes at his presence first.Â
He is used to winning. More importantly, he is used to having almost everything in a way that requires very little effort on his part.Â
So what the hell is he doing, lying on his bedroom floor where the voice of a stranger still lingers, staring at his wall like it might crack open and offer him answers? She hadnât even said much, not enough to leave this big of an impression.Â
Maybe it was the shock that the person leaving at ungodly hours in the morning beneath him was a girl. He doesnât know why heâd assumed otherwise. Maybe because the notes had always read so dry, so flat, so quick to snap back at him that somewhere along the way heâd started hearing them in Suguruâs voice.Â
Except the voice through the wall had been unmistakably feminine, and now Gojo was having the deeply inconvenient realisation that he might, in fact, be into that.Â
It wasnât even what she said more so how she said it, offhanded and easy as if talking to him was nothing, like he was nothing. and curse his enormous ego, he was Gojo Satoru, for godâs sake. Heâs got at least three people in his dms right now asking what heâs up to tonight and it would be as easy as typing back ânothingâ to have any one of them.Â
But none of them had left a note that told him to get his shit together. None of them made him laugh when ten seconds prior he was so ready to implode, none of them had him craning to his floor like some desperate victorian man listening to the ghostly whispers through the thin plaster.Â
Gojo drags a hand down his face, then turns his head again to look at it.
The wall. Plain, off-white, slightly cracked near the skirting board, absolutely identical to every other wall in this terrible building and yet suddenly the most compelling thing in his apartment because now, youâre behind it. Separated from him by a few layers of plaster and paint and bad insulation, close enough that he can hear your laugh if the room is quiet, close enough that he can picture you leaning back against the other side without ever having seen it happen.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair, frowning.Â
âThis is bad,â he mutters for the second time that day as he explores the foreign feeling in his chest.Â
The urge to hear from her again beats like a second heart in his chest, and the distinction between hear and see is important because now it feels less about appearances and more about something else, something he doesnât have a smug enough name for yet.
Gojo reaches for his laptop, then drops it back onto the floor a second later when even pretending to do work feels stupid when heâs one bad decision away from knocking on the wall just to see if you answer.
Because Gojo doesnât lack.Â
Yet tonight, as he sits on his cold carpet, phone face-down beside him and no urge to answer any of his unread messages, he realises he might be wanting.Â
The next time you wake, your fever has left you in an uncomfortable puddle of your own sweat, damp sheets sticking to your skin. A reluctant glance at your alarm clock confirms the worst: itâs 7 a.m. the next day, and you have a 9 a.m. lecture to attend. Somehow, youâd managed to sleep through a near-complete twenty-four-hour cycle, vaguely only remembering how you had stumbled out of bed for the bathroom or small bites of whatever you could find.Â
When you open your door to make a hasty exit, jammed toast between your teeth and the delirious hope that youâll run into a handsome guy around the corner of your block, you almost trip over something that ends your hopes (and almost your life). Thankfully, you catch yourself on your hands and glare down at the perpetrator.Â
A sports drink looks back up at you, adorned with a yellow sticky note stuck to its side. After looking left and right down the empty corridor, you pick up the bottle and read the note.Â
im not a fan of sick neighbour asmr â4b
You snort despite yourself, heading for the stairs. On the way, you flip the note around and pen a short reply, sticking it to 4Bâs door before heading out.Â
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Somehow, despite being sick, Shoko shows up to your tutorial later than you. You wave as she dumps her tote under the table and flops unceremoniously into the seat beside you.Â
âAre you still sick?â she asks in lieu of a greeting. âYou shouldnât come to class if youâre not feeling well.âÂ
âWhat makes you think Iâm still sick?â you ask in a voice that can only be attributed to years of smoking or recovering from sickness.Â
She gives you a look. âRight. So the eyebags are just your usual go to?â
âIt would be fucked up if i always looked like this and you just called me ugly.â You cover your face with your hands. âBut itâs not that bad, is it? I still have a reputation I care about.âÂ
âIâm genuinely afraid of telling you the truth because it might push you over the edge. So yes, girl you look gorgeous.âÂ
You roll your eyes, slumping to rest your cheek against your arms, looking at her from the side. Her phone vibrates and you hear it loud with your ear pressed against the desk, flinching slightly until she picks it up.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
Shoko lets out an unamused huff and shows you the screen.Â
gojo (DO NOT ANSWER): wanna hit me up with the pre lab questions?Â
It would be a mission to go through university without hearing the name âGojo Satoruâ whether in secretive whispers or muffled in laughter. For one, heâs sport captain for some sport youâve never paid enough attention to remember. Heâs stupidly charming in a way that makes people sigh even when theyâre rolling their eyes with an accompanying begrudged smile. Half the girls in your course claim heâs flirted with them whilst the other half say theyâd punch him given the chance, before pausing and muttering something like, âbut heâs kind of funny, I guess.âÂ
The only other piece of information you know about him is that heâs loud, annoyingly so which places you in that category of girls that would more likely punch him in the stomach than kiss him.Â
You wonder how on earth Shoko could be friends with someone her complete opposite.Â
You look up and raise an eyebrow at her. âWell? Are you going to?â
âDo you read with your eyes closed? I clearly saved his contact as âdo not answerâ. If Gojo wants pre-lab questions that badly, he can go flirt them out of one of his fifty fans.â
You snort.âGlad to know youâre a bad friend to everyone and not just me.â
She shrugs. âHe thinks I owe him a huge favour for something he did for me a while ago when that is not true at all. Iâm sure thereâs other people he can hit up for answers. You know how he is, thereâs always someone trailing after him like a lost puppy.âÂ
âConsidering I donât know the guy, no not really,â you say, nudging your cheek more firmly into your folded arms, locking in for a storytime. âTell me about him.â
Shoko narrows her eyes at you. âYou want to know about him?â
âGirl,â you huff, âlike gossip. I promise Iâm not a groupie. I donât think Iâve ever actually had a conversation with him so donât look at me like that.â
âThat makes sense. Heâs usually only on lower campus so thereâs little chance of him showing up randomly, anyway.âÂ
âSounds like you donât like him,â you say, intelligently.Â
âIâve been stuck with him and Geto since high school,â she starts and you actually feel bad for her. âGod forbid I donât want to see him in my formative years, too.âÂ
You laugh because misfortune is always better on others than yourself. âNow you have to tell me. What did he do to you?â
Shoko doesnât seem amused. She looks you up and down, eyes narrowing at the smile on your face. âYou know, Iâm actually an incredible friend and as a friend who cares about you deeply, let me tell you this. You do not want to hook up with him.â
You splutter, lifting your head. âWhat the fuck? I just wanted to know about the guy! Can we start with being friends first, damn?â
âLetâs just say I know him,â your best friend continues, unfazed. âHe wouldnât be able to stay as just friends with someone like you.â
âOkay, and what the fuck does that even mean?â
âLook,â she says, and you open your mouth to cut her off because the telltale signs that sheâs about to change the topic are there. âHeâs also in Sig Kap.â
The words hit like cold water. Whatever fragile lightness had been carrying you through the morning dims all at once. Shoko notices immediately, of course she does, and some of the bite leaves her expression.
âI just thought you should know.â
You slump back into your chair, crossing your arms and looking down at your table, contemplating if you should start banging your head against the hard surface and end your suffering. âWhat a mood killer. Did you really have to bring that up?â
âIâm just saying, if you start seeing Gojo around, the chances of also seeing your ex is very high. Sure, theyâre not in the same frat but theyâre both still in that same group of guys. You know, inter-fraternity relations.âÂ
âThereâs a lot of assuming going on right now, like the fact that I would even see Gojo in the first place, but Iâll let it slide because I suddenly feel the urge to shoot myself in the head.âÂ
âI thought you were over your ex?â
You donât say anything for a while, trying to muse out the complex ball of feelings in your gut.Â
You had been falling out of love with Naoya for months before the breakup. Maybe even longer, if youâre being honest. It wasnât like it happened all at once, and there wasnât one dramatic collapse, no one, big, awful fight, just a slow and steady erosion. A hundred small disappointments, a hundred moments of realising he was more interested in having a girlfriend than being a boyfriend. He forgets the things you tell him, interrupts you to tell your own stories better, talks all pretty to your girl friends and then simultaneously talks shit to you about them when you ask him to stop requesting them on Instagram.Â
So if you do miss him, then you might have a masochist streak in you.Â
What you miss, maybe, is who you were before all of that. The version of you that believed romance was something soft and mutual and worth fighting for, instead of something performative that slowly hollows itself out while you stand there insisting itâs still alive.
âY/N?â
You blink and realise Shoko is watching you. âOh, uh. I am over him. I just wish I could have the pre-Naoya me back, thatâs all.â
Shoko makes a disgusted sound on your behalf. âDo not say his name. I gagged.â
âRight?â You shake your head and dismiss whatever useless thoughts still linger, forcing yourself to relax back into something a little more light-hearted. âBut itâs whatever. Iâve learnt my lesson now, frat boys are not to be trusted and dating one is like draining all the whimsy out of your body. I honestly donât care about him anymore and I wouldnât even think about him at all if I didnât have that film to make.â
That makes your best friend giggle. âThe one about love.â
âIs this funny to you?â you ask with a huff, but youâre grateful that she doesn't force you to say any more than youâre ready for.
âExtremely.â She nods, then dodges when you reach over to try and playfully hit her. âLook, Iâm sure inspiration will hit you soon. Love always arrives when you least expect it, and all that.â
You give her a long look, face unmoving. âI donât want the girl with the girlfriend of three years to say that. Get out of my face.â
Shoko laughs loudly, and you both trail off as the lecture starts.Â
The rest of class passes in the usual blur of half-listening and half-heartedly playing minesweeper on the google chrome extension open on your laptop. By the time you make it back to the sketchy, wilted building you unfortunately call home, winter evening has settled in for real, the kind that turns everything blue-grey and has you squinting down the street every few minutes just to make sure the shape in the distance is a person and not a fire hydrant. You had to use your phoneâs flashlight for this, and in the last few steps up to your apartment, it betrays you by dying.Â
Thankfully, you still manage to make it to your place in one piece.Â
You peel the note off your door on your way in, flick on the lights, and let your tote bag drop to the floor with a tired thud.
feeling better?
A soft smile tugs at your mouth before it fades just as quickly, replaced by a small furrow in your brow. Weird.
Youâre halfway to the kitchen to find the stack of sticky notes you left on the island in a rush this morning when the world abruptly cuts out.
âThe fuckââ
âOw!â In the sudden darkness, you misjudge the turn around the counter and slam straight into the corner of it.
From the other side of the wall, 4Bâs voice comes a little louder. â4A? You okay?â
You suck in a sharp breath, one hand nursing your hip as you try to steady yourself. âYeah. Just walked straight into my counter corner. What the fuck happened?â
Thereâs the sound of faint footsteps, then the creak of something shifting as he leans against the wall in his kitchen. âI think this is what they call a power outage. Correct me if Iâm wrong.â
âI know that, smartass,â you mutter, though not so quietly where he canât hear. âBut how did that happen? Itâs not even storming or anything.â
âWhatâs wrong? Scared of the dark?â
You scoff, already dreading the upcoming conversation. Despite this, you fumble to where that familiar countertop sits against the connecting wall between your apartments and hoist yourself up easily, leaning back so his voice is clearer when he speaks. âNo. We pay rent for this place, of course I want to know whatâs happening when the lights all suddenly cut.â
âI can text the landlord. If it happened to both of us then itâs probably a building wide thing so itâll be their responsibility. But all we can do is wait.â
You sigh, long and full of suffering. âThis sucks. Couldnât the power go off at midnight or something?â
âIâll let the landlord know your availability.âÂ
You roll your eyes and make yourself comfortable, relenting to stay for however long itâll take for there to be light again. You mourn the death of your phone then, holding the power button for some kind of miracle and get reminded that, once again, your life sucks and is only full of betrayal and tragedy.Â
For a short moment, silence settles between you, and suddenly youâre struck by the irritating realisation that beyond his notes, his terrible taste in alarms, and his frankly irresponsible attachment to Digimon, you know almost nothing about the stranger on the other side of the wall.
âSo,â you start.
âYeah?â
âWhat were you up to? You know, before the power went out and everything.â
âCurious, hm?â your neighbour replies, that irritating teasing tilt in his tone. âI was just about to lock in for an assignment so I can focus on the midterms coming up in a week.âÂ
You hum. âWhat course are you doing?âÂ
âPhysics. And I know what youâre going to sayââ
You snort. âNerd.âÂ
âYou know, some people find intelligence attractive.â
âDo those people also happen to be the same imaginary campus-wide fanbase you keep bringing up?âÂ
He laughs and you immediately lock onto the pleasant sound, not because you particularly care, but when your vision is knocked out, everything you hear seems amplified. Including the pretty tilt in his tone, the richness in his laugh, and the fact that his voice sits somewhere deeper than you expected from his petulant notes.
âWell, what about you, then? If Iâm the resident physics nerd, what are you?âÂ
You glance out into your dark apartment, the outline of your living room barely there in what little evening light still makes it through the windows. Your camera sits somewhere on the table, your laptop buried inside your tote, your assignment still waiting to be done.Â
âFilm,â you say at last. âWell, not film-film. Iâm just doing one elective this semester to boost my grades but if I could go back in time I would have picked that social media class everyone else does as a GPA booster.â
Your neighbour makes a sound of recognition. âOh, that! Yeah, I took that in my first year. Our midterm was to write a report on the significance of âget ready with meâsâ. Iâm so serious.âÂ
You groan, dropping your head onto your knees. âI know, my friend was telling me how she did that class too.â
âWhoâs your friend? Wouldnât it be so funny if your friend was actually in my class that year?â
You roll your eyes. Shoko would have definitely told you about someone like him. âI doubt it. We do the same course and none of our classes are ever near the physics buildings.âÂ
He hums. âYou never know. I get around.âÂ
That makes you laugh. âSure, 4B. Letâs stick to hypothetical equations instead of your hypothetical maladaptive daydreams, okay?âÂ
âYou pick on me too much,â he whines. âGive me something to work with, Iâm starting to really feel this power imbalance. Whatâs your film assignment about?â
You let out a long breath through your nose, already hearing his voice in your head and every possible jab he can make. âItâs a film on love.â
He snorts. âRight, because when I talk to you Iâm just overwhelmed by the love seeping out of you.â
You sigh. âKill yourself.â
âSee, this is what I mean.â
âAll you know about me is my voice,â you shoot back, not necessarily offended so much as annoyed. âIâve been told that Iâm a very benevolent and kind person.â
He hums. âMaybe not when youâre so grouchy then.â
âIâm not being grouchy.â
âAt least try and make your point come across.â
âMy point is that Iâm a delight,â you say flatly. âA warm presence, a gentle soul. Campus-wide rumours actually say Iâm beloved by all who meet me.â
âNow who has the imaginary campus-wide fanbase?â he laughs, and even though you roll your eyes, itâs harder to hold onto your irritation when he sounds that pleased with himself.
The dark presses in around your apartment, turning everything into vague shapes and corners, but his voice keeps coming through the wall like a little light you cannot see.
âOkay, then,â he says after his laughing fit. âProve it.â
You frown, even though he canât see you. âProve what?â
âThat youâre not grouchy. That youâre a person full of fun and whimsy. If your film is about love, then tell me one thing you love.â
You make a face. âThat sounds like worldâs worst icebreaker.â
âSomeoneâs getting defensive,â he sings, sounding far too amused. âCome on, 4A. one thing. It doesnât have to be deep. Actually, please donât make it deep, Iâm not emotionally prepared for that. Just something stupid that makes you happy. Thatâs still love, you know?â
You open your mouth with another complaint ready, but nothing comes out. Which is annoying, because it should be easy. Before Naoya, before the breakup, before the awful assignment and the worse timing, you had liked plenty of things without needing to justify them. You liked when orange and pink bleeds across the sky on the walk back from a long day of classes, you liked smiling at dogs when they crossed your paths on the streets, you liked the warmth of a delicious heated drink in your hands on a cold, winter morning. You liked watching people reunite at train stations, you liked filming light moving across your bedroom wall because, at the time, it had seemed like something worth keeping.
Now, asked to name that something out loud, your mind offers you nothing but static.
âJesus, okay,â he says after a beat. âThe silence is very telling.â
There is a soft scrape on his side of the wall, like he is sliding down to sit more comfortably. âOkay, Iâll go first since clearly you need a role model. I love when vending machines actually drop the thing you paid for instead of holding it hostage behind the glass. I love when you think a package is coming next week and then it arrives today like a tiny miracle.â
Despite yourself, you huff. âSounds like you just love consumerism.â
âI also love when a dog on the street looks like it has somewhere important to be. Like, where are you going? Do you have a meeting? Are you late? Should I call ahead?â
Fuck, that was on your list too.Â
âFine,â you say, shifting on the counter until your socked foot bumps against one of the cabinet handles. âI love when youâre walking past a bakery and theyâre making bread, but youâre not hungry, so you just get to enjoy the smell without spending money.âÂ
âHow very financially responsible of you. Youâre like the opposite of me. Anti-consumerism.â You can hear the grin in his voice. âOkay, next. Weâre making a list now. Thatâs how brainstorming works, right?âÂ
You sigh like this is a burden, like you are not already turning the question over in your hands. âI love when the train comes right as you get to the platform.âÂ
âReally? That sounds stressful.âÂ
âI love when someone in front of you in line is ordering something complicated and you get annoyed, but then theyâre actually really nice to the worker, so you forgive them.âÂ
âBecause is it ever that serious?âÂ
You roll your eyes, but your mouth betrays you by pulling into a smile. It feels strange on your face, like trying on an old jacket you had forgotten in the back of your closet, something that had once been yours. Itâs not a terrible feeling, you decide, perhaps just a little unfamiliar.Â
âOkay, my turn again,â 4B says. âI love when you see someone running for the bus and the bus driver waits for them.âÂ
âThatâs rare, some people have that sadistic bone in their body that wants to only see others suffer.âÂ
âWhich is why it makes those off chance moments better. Rarity increases market value.âÂ
âThereâs that consumerism bleeding through again.âÂ
A thought arrives quietly, not quite the decision you were hoping for in the library, but itâs a small, familiar itch of wanting to keep something before it passes.
âI love when someone laughs so hard they make the other person start laughing even if they donât know whatâs funny,â he continues.
Your eyes have gone to the table again. There isnât a clean, decisive moment to it, certainly no sudden burst of artistic purpose that you might call inspiration. You simply slide off the counter while he keeps talking, careful not to knock your hip into the corner again and feel your way through the dim apartment toward your camera.
âAlso,â he continues, completely unaware. âI love finishing a book or movie and getting so into it that you look it up on Twitter for everyone elseâs take.â
âSounds like you just struggle to form an original thought on your own.â
âIâm superseding my opinion.â
âOh, what a big word! Good job, 4B.â
You finally find your dust camera hidden by more important things, and take it back to the kitchen.
The room is too dark for the lens to catch anything properly. For a second, you nearly give up, but then your gaze lands on the candle sitting untouched on your dining table, the one you bought months ago because it smelled like vanilla and cedarwood and you had convinced yourself buying one candle would somehow turn your apartment into a Pinterest boardâs dream. Youâve never lit it.
But for some reason, the desire to make a mark in the wax comes to front and you set it on the windowsill without any more thinking.
The lighter takes three tries to catch.
âWhatâs that clicking sound?â
âWhat clicking sound?â you mumble, brows burrowed as the fire dies again.
âAm I going crazy? Just warning you but I have crazy keen hearing. And now with my sight gone, Iâm even more locked in. Sounds like⊠are you lighting a birthday cake? Is it your birthday?â
âThatâs what you think of first when you hear a light?â You donât know whether to laugh or coo at his innocence in your dorky neighbour. âIâm just lighting a candle because itâs dark.â
The candle flame shivers to life, small and uneven. Throwing a weak gold light over the window ledge and the lower half of the glass. Itâs frankly a terrible light source, dim but somehow managing to catch the smudge of your fingerprints on the window and turns the kitchen sink into a dark, warped shape in the reflection. When you prop the camera up against your water jug, lifted by two stacked coasters, the frame tilts slightly to the left.
You hit record.
âOkay, your turn,â he says.
You blink at the red dot on the camera screen. âWhat?â
âItâs your turn again. Donât think I didnât notice you going quiet there. Just because I canât see you doesnât mean you can get away with not contributing your part to this list.â
âAs if youâre keeping track of everything.â You settle back against the counter, close enough to the camera that your voice will catch. âOkay, hereâs one. I love it when people apologise to furniture after walking into it. Oh, and, when someone saves you a seat.â
He hums, turning the thought over in his head. âThatâs a good one. Could even be your thesis statement for your film, honestly. Something pretentious. Like how love is making room.â
You giggle. âLove is setting aside a space for someone.âÂ
âLove as chair politics,â he says smartly.Â
âLove is an empty seat: an interdisciplinary exploration into effort-based decision-making.âÂ
âOkay, you made this not fun by actually sounding smart. What the hell is effort-based decision-making?âÂ
âGoogle is free.â
You hear the grin in his voice as he bounces off your words. âSo is a tree, hang from it.âÂ
The laugh leaves you before you can stop it. It is sharp and ugly, startled out of you in a way that makes you clap a hand over your mouth too late. The sound echoes faintly in your dark kitchen, caught by the camera, your shadow probably distorted by the terrible angle and the water jug propping it upright.Â
There is a beat of silence on the other side of the wall. Then, quietly, delightedly, âOh, you thought that was funny. You think Iâm funny?âÂ
âPlease, it was a fluke.âÂ
âThat was the healthiest youâve sounded all day.â
You make an offended noise and reach blindly toward the counter until your hand lands on a tea towel. You throw it at the wall and it hits with a soft, deeply unsatisfying slap before flopping onto the floor.Â
He gasps. âDid you just throw something at me?âÂ
âConsider it a formal complaint.âÂ
âIâm snitching to the landlord.âÂ
âTell them to fix the power while youâre there.âÂ
âFine. But Iâm adding attempted murder on top of that previous violent note.âÂ
You shake your head to yourself, still smiling. If you were sane, you might take the time to wonder what the fuck you were doing, sitting on your kitchen counter, arguing with a man youâve yet to seen, smiling like an idiot at your own wall. And yet, you hesitate to move.Â
For a moment, neither of you say anything and a silence that isnât quite awkward settles over you both.Â
Then, with a sudden electric hum, the fridge kicks back on and the ceiling light blinks once, twice, and then floods the kitchen in a harsh yellow that makes you squint, and makes your neighbour curse in surprise.Â
âOh!âÂ
From the other side of the wall, he lets out a sigh. âBoo.âÂ
You laugh again, leaning over to check your camera. âBoo?â
âI was having fun,â he says, almost accusingly. âThe dark was doing wonders for our dynamic. You were less mean when you couldnât see.â
âYou mean when I was visually impaired and vulnerable?â
âExactly. It was bringing out your softer side. Or maybe it was all me.â
Looking at the camera, you see that the little red dot is glowing steadily on the screen, and only then remember what you were meant to be doing in the first place. Most of the clip is probably just your kitchen window, your voice too close to the mic and his voice muffled through the plaster, the two of you listing stupid things that barely count as anything.Â
Still, your fingers hesitates over the stop button.Â
On the other side of the wall, he shifts and the wall groans. âYou alive over there? The light didnât evaporate you when they turned back on, did they?âÂ
You press stop. âNow how does that make any sense?âÂ
You pick up the camera, thumb hovering over the saved clip. The thumbnail is dark and grainy, almost useless at first glance, but when you play the first second back, your own laugh cracks through the tiny speaker before you panic and mute it.Â
Your face warms.Â
Stupid.Â
So, so stupid. But you donât delete it. Instead, you set the camera carefully on the counter and blow out your candle still burning against the window.Â
âAnyway, since the lights are back, Iâm going to pretend to do my assignment now. Keyword pretend because I like to keep my goals realistic,â 4B says and the strange mood lifts and dissipates with the candleâs smoke.Â
âGood luck with that.â
âGood luck with your love thing.â
You look down at the camera again.
âYeah,â you say, picking it up before you can change your mind. âThanks.â
âFor what?â
You pause. Then you tuck the camera against your chest and head out of the kitchen. âNothing.â
Behind the wall, 4B laughs like he does not believe you at all, and you leave before he can ask.
You donât remember when but sometime along the semester, you begin to enjoy waking up. You hadnât grown a newfound appreciation for your alarm, no that was still a work in progress, but something about opening your eyes to start a new day no longer evoked a groan. Your next door neighbour did that for you instead.
One morning you were waking up to a quiet early morning and the next, you hear an alarm ring parallel to yours.
You hear it again this morning as you rub the sleep from your eyes as some anime opening plays, muffled by the distance. When you step into your kitchen, itâs louder, and you hear the soft padding of feet against floorboards as 4B wakes.
âMorning,â heâll mumble, voice rough from sleep, just as he did now.
âGood morning,â youâll say back and hope he doesnât hear the smile in your voice.
Heâll grunt in acknowledgement, heading for his bathroom which youâve come to realise shares a wall with your bedroom. Youâll get started on packing a lunch to take to campus while he takes his sweet time getting ready. You wake far too early for him, after all.
Youâll pause on your way out, just as you did now, tilting your head slightly to listen. If he hears your door open, heâll call out, âGood luck with your classes!â and if he doesnât, water too loud or too immersed in something else, youâll say, âSee you later!â
Itâs a routine youâve come to love.
Sometimes when he hears you sigh coming back from campus, youâll hear him close his fridge and fall into his couch. âGrey's Anatomy?â heâll ask loudly and youâll laugh softly, hand already reaching to grab your remote despite your drowsiness.
You tell yourself it isnât a big deal. Plenty of people have neighbours and plenty of people talk to said neighbours. Plenty of people probably know the exact sound of their neighbourâs footsteps in the morning, the difference between their sleepy voice and their smug voice, the exact pause before they say something annoying just to get you to react.Â
Probably.Â
Still, the thought follows you out of your apartment and all the way to campus, sitting somewhere uncomfortable behind your ribs. Itâs there when you catch yourself slowing down near the front steps because someone ahead of you laughs a little too loud and, for one stupid second, you think it might be him. It is there when you buy coffee and almost order an extra pastry because 4B once mentioned he loves sugary things first thing in the morning and frankly any other time of the day.Â
It is there when you realise, with a kind of quiet horror, that you might actually like him.Â
Recognising the telltale signs that youâre about to spiral, you decide to at least try and prevent it by taking a walk and touching grass. Unfortunately, you forget that there are evil forces against you because when you step into the main courtyard on campus on your way out, you immediately find yourself in hell.Â
Like, actual hell. Like thereâs a frat car wash happening in the middle of the campus kind of hell.
A row of cars lines the curb beside the courtyard, soapy water running down the pavement in bright, bubbly streams. Someone has set up a folding table with a cardboard sign that reads SIG KAP CHARITY CAR WASH in marker thick enough to be seen from across the street. A group of people have already crowded around the main attraction snapping away and laughing, the men scattered around yelling over each other as they try and organise the mess. Thereâs a JBL speaker playing Cbat and other such EDM trap that has you wondering if youâve walked yourself into a rave.Â
And standing in the middle of it all, shirtless and holding a sponge as flexes for his groupies, is Gojo Satoru.Â
Heâs hot. Thereâs really no polite way around it. His hair is damp from the spray of the hose, white strands pushed messily off his forehead and curling slightly at the ends. Water runs in thin lines down his throat, over the sharp cut of his collarbones, then lower and lower, disappearing along the hard planes of his stomach and tapering down into droplets that catch the sun on his abs.Â
Your eyes follow a line of water that continues further down which is definitely a mistake.Â
A deeply human mistake, but still a mistake nonetheless because it means you get an unwillingly thorough look at the narrow dip of his waist, the low-slung band of his shorts, the way his abdomen tightens when he twists the sponge out over the hood of a car.Â
You shake your head, rattling any more indecent thoughts from your head. Sure, fine, heâs hot as fuck. But who is genuinely stupid enough to get seduced into donating money because some guy with abs and wet hair smiles at them whilst simultaneously wiping bird shit off a windscreen?
A group passes by the table and drops a note into the donation jar.Â
You stare. Okay, nevermind. Apparently some people really will. Still, it has absolutely nothing to do with you. You donât have a car, you donât carry cash on you, and you donât want to entertain a bunch of frat guys especially after all youâve learnt this year. So, you adjust the strap of your tote higher on your shoulder and keep walking.Â
âHey, you in the band shirt!âÂ
Your foot catches slightly on the uneven pavement, and you make an embarrassing gesture getting back on two feet. Blind panic and something warmer, something more traitorous, jolts through you like a beam of lightning.Â
No.Â
No, because that voiceâ
Youâve barely rationalised anything before your head is whipping so fast over your shoulder you think youâve given yourself a cramp. Itâs instinctive more than anything, a kind of desperate hope for something indescribable, heart leaping up to your throat at the thought that a voice behind a wall has suddenly become attached to a body.Â
And what a body.Â
Gojo jogs toward you, shirtless and damp and unfairly attractive under the sun, towel bouncing against his neck with each step. There is soap clinging to his hands, water sliding down the firm line of his chest, one hand running through his hair as he shakes it of loose droplets.Â
He comes to a stop in front of you, grin already loaded. You donât even flinch when he flicks water onto your face accidentally.Â
âBand shirt! Running away already?â he asks. âI didnât even pitch you yet.âÂ
Gojo Satoru just spoke with 4Bâs voice.
Your 4B. Except heâs no longer a faceless voice in the dark. He is Gojo Satoru. He is shirtless in front of you. He is looking at you like heâs waiting for an answer.Â
âYou cryinâ? he asks, head tilting slightly as he glances at the droplets on your cheek. âIs the sun getting to you? We have buckets of water back there if you want to dunk yourself. Or maybe you want to dunk me and live vicariously through that? I noticed you staring.â
You force your mouth to move. âI donât have a car.âÂ
Unfortunately, the voice that comes out is wrong. Itâs too high like youâve swallowed your own throat and replaced it with someone doing customer service over the phone.Â
Gojo blinks.Â
You clear your throat. âI mean, I donât have a car,â you repeat, lower this time.Â
Great, now you sound like youâre about to rob him.Â
His smile twitches, one eyebrow raising slowly as he regards you.Â
âRight,â he says, slowly. âNo car. I think I got it the first time. What about a bike? We can wipe down the seat or something.â
You shake your head.Â
âScooter? Skateboard?âÂ
âNo.â
âHow do you get around?âÂ
âFeet.â
He looks down and you suddenly feel self-conscious of your shoe choice.Â
âWe donât typically offer pedicures but I could make an exception for you,â Gojo says with a wide grin. âOr we could give your shoes a good scrub.â
âI donât have anything for you to wash.âÂ
âWhat? Donât tell me youâre attached to that layer of grime you have on them.âÂ
Youâre so offended you temporarily blink of your stupor to splutter. âTheyâre not that dirty! Theyâre just well-loved!âÂ
âTheyâre clearly crying out for some divine intervention. Lucky for you, I might as well be the second coming of Jesus.âÂ
You scoff. âNo way. Maybe I like them ugly, okay?âÂ
Gojoâs grin widens. âSo you admit theyâre ugly.â
You hate that he catches it so quickly. You hate even more that your heart picks up like a trapped hummingbird beneath your skin.Â
Behind him, someone whistles. âSatoru, stop flirting and actually help!âÂ
âIâm not flirting,â he calls back without looking away from you. âIâm recruiting customers!â
He lowers his voice so itâs just for you. âYou are planning on being a customer, arenât you?â
You scoff. âIs this what the whole pitch is? Bullying peopleâs shoes until they donate?â
âNo, that was just tailored marketing.â He leans slightly closer, lowering his voice like heâs about to reveal a conspiracy. âThe real pitch is much more moving.â
âOkay,â you say, because apparently youâve lost the will to survive. âGo on then.â
Gojo flashes you another smile, or maybe he hasnât stopped smiling not even once throughout this entire encounter, and steps back, pressing one wet hand dramatically to his bare chest. He adopts a pitiful expression as he gazes at you. âEvery year, hundreds of cars on this campus are forced to suffer through bird shit, pollen, and the mysterious sticky stuff that appears under trees for reasons science refuses to explain.â
You grimace.
He continues, undeterred. âFor just five dollars, you can help one of these poor vehicles experience dignity again.â
âI donât have five dollars.â
âFor just three dollarsââ
âNo cash.â
âFor one encouraging wordââ
âNot happening.â
ââyou can support a hardworking student athlete in his fight against grime,â he finishes calmly.Â
âI think you just want to be shirtless,â you say whatâs been on your mind the entire time, letting yourself steal another glimpse of his chest. Is it just your imagination but did he just flex his pecs at you?
He looks down at himself like he has only just remembered the state he is in. âThis? Itâs a uniform. Works wonders for pulling in interest.â He gestures vaguely over his shoulder where another person has just dropped money into the donation jar without taking her eyes off his back. âSee? The system works.âÂ
âHow are you so blatantly shameless?â
He shrugs. âShame only slows you down.âÂ
Gojo steps slightly to the side when someone passes behind him with a bucket, and the movement brings him just close enough for you to catch the clean, cozy smell of soap and sunscreen underneath the damp heat of him. The towel around his neck drips onto his chest and a bead of water slips from his collarbone, trailing lower.Â
Your eyes follow it again. Good lord. When you force your gaze back up, heâs watching you smugly.Â
âSo,â he says, voice dropping a little, âshould I put you down as morally opposed to charity, or just immune to my charm?âÂ
âThose are the only options?âÂ
âHey, Iâm open to feedback. If you have a complaint, Iâm all ears.âÂ
âAdd a financially unavailable option.âÂ
âOkay.â He nods gravely. âMorally opposed, charm-resistant, and broke.âÂ
âI didnât say broke.â You cut yourself off when you realise youâve spent too long arguing with him when you had been so determined to walk away moments before. âForget it, Iâm walking away.âÂ
Gojo laughs and steps directly into your path, head tilting as he studies you like heâs trying to place a song from the first few seconds.
âYou have quite the mouth on you,â he says, and something foreboding settles in your gut. âWhatâs your name, band shirt?â
Something about his voice tricks you into almost answering, perhaps because 4B has spent weeks training a response out of you. He says something stupid, you respond with something worse, and you fall into conversation that way. But while they sound the same you force yourself to remember this isnât 4B through the wall.Â
You have only one goal here: get out before he starts connecting âband shirtâ to âfamiliar voiceâ that becomes âgirl through the wallâ because then youâll have to move apartments and potentially countries. So, you straighten your shoulders, lift your chin, and speak in the blandest tone you can manage.Â
âNo,â you say. âShort for none of your business.â
âThatâs a terrible name,â Gojo says, nose scrunching up. âWhat did you do to your parents to deserve that? Itâs going to look quite hurtful on the donation receipt.âÂ
âIâm not donating,â you say, already looking for the cleanest route around him. âSo thankfully, your admin concerns are none of my concern. Now, if youâll excuse me.âÂ
âYou wonât donate, you wonât volunteer, and you wonât give me your name,â he says, still watching you too closely. âBut youâll stand here and argue with me.â
âThatâs because you seem like the type who needs things explained slowly,â you quip back. âAnd besides, youâre in my way.â
His gaze flicks briefly to the open space beside him. You both look at it.
Then he looks back at you, smile unbearably smug. âAm I?â
You hate him because he is right, and because the longer you stand here, the more his voice settles into place with his face, and the more impossible it becomes to separate Gojo Satoru from 4B. You can feel it happening in real time, the two versions of him overlapping until the faceless boy through the wall starts becoming this shirtless jerk with wet hair and water dripping down his chest.Â
âYouâre very intense about names,â you say, forcing your voice into that same bland, too-flat register. âMaybe work on that before the next person you corner.âÂ
âRelax,â he says, voice dipping into something smoother. âIâm just saying, if a girl insults me this much, I feel like I should at least know what to call her.âÂ
âBand shirt is working fine for you. And if itâs not going on a donation receipt then I donât see why you really need it.â
âCan I guess?â he asks instead, already leaning forward like the idea has thrilled him.Â
âAbsolutely not.â You take a step to the side, causing him to promptly mirror you. âDude, quit it.âÂ
âSorry, sorry,â he says, immediately stepping back with both hands raised to showcase his harmlessness though itâs ruined by his smile. âGot excited. Youâre so nonchalant and mysterious it just draws me in, you know? Come on, Iâll leave you alone if you just give me a name, your real name.â
âNo.âÂ
âOkay, not a real one,â he concedes far too quickly. âJust so I have something to call you in my head when youâre already running through it so much.âÂ
âIâm not giving you a fake name either.âÂ
âThatâs so much worse,â he says, sounding wounded. âNow youâre not even trusting me with a lie? Iâm shirtless for charity, band shirt, Iâm vulnerable.â
âVulnerably harassing a stranger for her name in the middle of campus?âÂ
âStranger feels harsh.â His smile shifts a little, still playful yes, but the focus underneath it becomes visible. âYou donât exactly feel like a stranger.âÂ
You need to get out here right now.Â
You tighten your hold on your tote bag and start walking, not caring where your dirty shoes led you, not caring if it even led you back to that God forsaken carwash. Gojo doesnât give up, trailing after you and eating up the distance you try to place with his long legs, body facing yours even as you speed walk.Â
âDo I know you?âÂ
âNo,â you say. âWe donât know each other.â
âBut it feels like we know each other.â
âWe? Thereâs no we. Maybe youâve seen me in passing but itâs not something to obsess over. Okay, bye.âÂ
âPossible,â he says, nodding solemnly. âI do have a wide reach. Iâm trying to expand it, actually, which is why I need your name.â
You pass the front of the carwash table once more and someone at the front turns, practically jumping on the spot upon seeing Gojo. He ignores them, still drilling holes into the side of your face.Â
âFirst initial?â
âN. For No.â
âLast initial?âÂ
âO.â
âDoes it have an A in it?âÂ
âDo you know when to quit?âÂ
âIs that a yes?â
âNo.â
âNo, it doesnât or no, you wonât tell me? Or secret third option, No as in No your name.â He clicks his tongue like youâre the one being difficult. âSee, this is getting really confusing. You could solve this entire problem by telling me your real name.â
You keep walking for a few more steps but itâs getting harder to pretend you donât have a golden retriever trailing after your every step, and word, especially when heâs shirtless and a microcelebrity on campus.Â
âLook,â you say, stopping and turning to give him a piece of your mind. âI donât know you, you donât know me, so this has been deeply unnecessary. Letâs just leave it at that okay?â
His smile softens as he also stops, looking at you. âThen tell me your name and we can fix that.â
For one stupid, horrifying second, you almost do. His voice dips around his words, warm and familiar, and your brain gives you 4B through the wall saying morning, 4A, soft with sleep, and suddenly your name feels like something dangerously close to being handed over.
His hand lifts, reaching for your wrist at your hesitation but hovers short of actually touching, eyes holding yours for permission.Â
Then someone calls, âSatoru!â
His face twists, mouth opening like he is ready to spit out another excuse, when a towel hits him square in the back of his head.
He jolts, hand leaving the space between you to grab at the towel before it falls. âWhat the fuck?âÂ
You both look over in the direction of the carwash.Â
Sukuna stands by the donation table with another towel hanging from one hand, looking like he would rather be dragged behind one of the cars than be there voluntarily. He is also shirtless, because can you even see a guy with his shirt on in a fifty metre radius around you? Water drips from the ends of his pink hair, sliding down the hard line of his neck and over his chest, his skin still shining from whatever girl had convinced him to stand under the hose for a photo.Â
âOi,â Sukuna calls, lifting the towel like he might throw it again. âAre you done begging, or should we put a bowl out for you too?âÂ
Gojoâs expression immediately collapses into offence. âIâm not begging. I told you I was networking! Youâre really cramping my style.âÂ
âWhatever you want to call it.â Sukuna jerks his chin toward the cars. âGet back here. Some girl paid ten dollars because you promised to write her name in soap on the windshield.âÂ
Gojo ruffles a hand through his hair and you catch a glimpse of his undercut before he groans, ducking his head. âShit! I forgot I said that. Canât you take one for the team, Sukuna?â
âShe asked for you.â
The imaginary campus-wide fanbase turns out to be true, you think mournfully.Â
A few people around the table laugh, and Gojo turns just enough to argue back, towel clutched in one hand, wet hair sticking messily to the back of his neck. You take the sight of his back muscles as a sign to leave. So before he can turn back around, you step away.Â
Then another step. Then several more, fast enough that your tote bumps against your hip and your grimy shoes slap loudly against the wet pavement. Itâs not running, because running would imply guilt, and you are innocent of everything except being cursed.Â
âBand shirt,â Gojo calls behind you and because itâs not your name, you donât turn around.Â
You especially donât turn around when Gojoâs half-groan, half-laugh follows you across the courtyard, short yet familiar enough to make your stomach twist.Â
4B is Gojo Satoru.
Gojo Satoru is 4B.
Someone needs to take down the Etsy website.
You never do wear that band shirt again.Â
Not that it mattered much because you also donât really go outside for a week, not if you could help it. You want to call it locking in because the midterms are coming up but in the brief moments when you allow yourself the truth, you admit itâs because youâre preventing any chance of running into Gojo again.Â
Itâs difficult to do that when heâs your neighbour. Or, well, when 4B is your neighbour.Â
That distinction becomes very important to you. Gojo Satoru is someone you saw shirtless in the middle of campus using charity as an excuse to flex obscenely at the general public moving through their day. Gojo Satoru has wet hair, a stupid grin, and is highly dangerous because he has a face and a body and a set of eyes that pins you down,Â
4B is a voice through the wall. 4B is his alarm going off too loudly in the morning, all groans and curses as he heaves himself from the warmth of his bed. 4B is ranting about the latest anime heâs watched, whispering through plaster when it gets late, knocking twice against the wall when he wants your attention but isnât sure if youâre in.
So you let yourself have it. You avoid Gojo, and you keep talking to 4B.
After a while, there arenât many problems with having Gojo as your next door neighbour. Sure, he can get loud during phone calls with his friends but you quickly forgive him when he gives sheepish apologies and dials down his volume. And sure, his alarm is loud but after that initial morning when you grilled him on the cheerful tune, he had changed it to something more appropriate.
The way he laughs is loud, the way he sings as he cooks is loud, the way he says your unit number is loud, all bright like heâs been waiting to catch you the moment you step into your apartment.
It seems Gojo canât help but be loud. In every aspect.
You wonder if you should bring it up.
It really was unfortunate that your bedroom and his bathroom shared a wall. Whoever constructed this building many, many years ago must not have planned it out too well and simply settled for fitting rooms of different apartments together like tetris. And because of this, his bathroom ends up right next to your head when you sleep.Â
You also gather that his shower is pressed against the said wall that you share with him, if his groans are any indication.Â
You should probably bring it up.Â
But how does one even bring up such a conversation? Hey neighbour! Not that Iâve been listening but I can hear you jerk off in the shower. Could you stop?Â
In his defence, you relent, rolling over and pressing your pillow against your ears, he was trying to be subtle about it. You appreciate that he wasnât doing it in his room since that would certainly turn you off from whatever youâre eating in your kitchen next to him. But if he believes the rush of water is enough to muffle his moans, heâs sorely mistaken.Â
You roll onto your other side, shuffling when even this position isnât comfortable. Your thin sheets are tangled around your legs and youâre desperately trying to focus on the book youâre reading on your phone. But who are you kidding, your thumb has been frozen on the same paragraph for the past five minutes, mind a million miles away.Â
Thereâs a thud of something being placed down on the tiled floor, a slight rustle. And then, a low, breathy groanâso faint you could almost convince yourself you imagined it.Â
But you definitely did not.Â
You breath catches as you place your phone down and stare at the ceiling as if that will make the sounds stop. It never works. You tell yourself to just roll over again, put in your airpods and drown it out. Youâve done it before, you can do it again.Â
But your hand is already drifting down, sliding over your stomach, fingers brushing the waistband of your shorts.Â
The first stroke is unintentional, a simple slow press through cotton just to feel something. But then you hear him again, a sharper exhale, a whispered word you canât quite make out, and your hips shift, pressing your palm harder against your cunt.Â
Fuck.Â
You close your eyes and instead of the dark of your room, you see steam. A shower, his shower, the one right on the other side of this wall.Â
You donât want to think about Gojo like this so you settle instead on your 4B. All you know is the sound of his footsteps in the hallway, the messy scrawl of his handwriting, the sound of his door opening and closing, the low rumble of his laugh when he teases you. Itâs deep and a little rough around the edges. Youâve built a version of him from the sound alone, and right now, thatâs more than enough.Â
Fingers tracing the outline of your clit through the fabric, circles so light theyâre barely there, you let your mind wander.Â
You imagine stepping into that shower. The air is thick and wet, fogging up the glass. Heâs already under the spray, back to you, water streaming down his shoulders. You don;t want to see his face, but you can see the way his muscles shift as he turns his head ever so slightly, giving you the slightest glimpse of his side profile before the steam whisks it away.Â
It would be foolish to hesitate. You slide your hands around his waist from behind, palms flat against his stomach, and he laughs, the vibrations meeting your chest.Â
âFuck,â he breathes, voice deeper, lower with him so close to you. âLook at you, giving me a helping hand, hm?â
âShut up,â youâd probably mumble against his shoulder blade, fingers already trailing lower, through the thatch of hair at the base of his cock. âYouâre always so loud.â
Heâd be hard already, and you can feel the heat of him, the slight twitch as your fingertips brush the underside of his shaft.Â
âNo, I donât think thatâs right,â he says. âBecause youâve been listening, havenât you? All those nights wrapped up all pretty in your blankets, thinking you can get away with using me to feel good, thinking youâre an angel for trying not to listen. But you know exactly what I sound like when Iâm close, donât you?â
Your breath hitches as you wrap your hand around him, and he groans, deep and guttural, exactly the sound thatâs coming through the wall right now. Your hand moves in time with the fantasy, slow strokes, thumb pressing into the slick tip, and he leans back into you, letting his head fall against your shoulder.Â
âThatâs it,â he murmurs, his voice a low rumble against your ear. âSuch a good girl. You have no idea how long Iâve wanted you to touch me. Wanted to feel your hand on my cock for so fucking long, angel.âÂ
âSince when?âÂ
You stroke him faster, twisting your wrist the way you imagine he does, and his breathing turns ragged.Â
âSince the moment you opened that pretty mouth and told me off. Fuckâfaster, angel. Just like that, donât stop. Your hand feels so perfect.â
Your own fingers press harder against your clit through your shorts, and you let out a tiny whimper you hope he canât hear through the wall. Maybe he can, maybe he really does know exactly what youâve been doing. That thought makes you even wetter, a choked gasp escaping.Â
In the fantasy, his body tenses. His hand comes up to cover yours, pressing your grip tighter around him.Â
âIâm gonna cum,â he says, voice strained. âIâm gonna paint the tiles with it, and youâre gonna watch. Youâre gonna listen to me fall apart because of you. And thenâfuckâthen Iâm gonna fuck you.âÂ
His hips jerk forward, and you feel the hot pulse of his release against your hand, the way he shudders and moans your name (which he doesnât know, but you give it to him anyway, a whispered invention). His cum slicks the inside of your fingers, and you keep stroking until he pushes your hand away with an overstimulated whimper that might be your own.Â
He turns around.Â
You still donât see his face, just the broad outline of his chest you saw during the carwash incident, the water catching in the hollow of his collarbone. He pushes you back against the cool tile with one hand braced beside your head, the other sliding down your stomach, between your legs.
âMy turn,â he purrs. âIâm gonna fuck you right here, in my shower, where you can hear every sound I make. And youâre gonna take it, arenât you? Gonna be an angel for me and let me use this pussy like Iâve been dreaming about.â
You nod, mouth open, and he sinks two fingers into you without warning.
The gasp that escapes your lips is real. âGojoâ!â
âNuh uh, pretty,â he coos in your ear. âCall me Satoru. Câmon, say my name, angel.âÂ
You shake your head against your pillow, back arching. âThatâsâthat would be weird.âÂ
He slows down, taking his time with you, dragging his fingers against your gummy walls before sliding over that spot that makes you see stars, chuckling when you gasp. âIâm making you feel this good and youâre still talking back? Gonna need to fuck that attitude out of you.âÂ
You bite your lip hard. âSatoruâŠâ
He stills, before he presses down hard. âHm? What was that?â
âSatoru!â
His voice is a rough, airy thing in your ear. âThatâs it, pretty, youâre doing so good for me.â
Your own fingers mimic the motion, pushing inside yourself while your thumb circles your clit. You can hear him through the wallâa wet, rhythmic sound, faster now, and a string of words you catch in fragments. âYeah⊠thatâs it⊠take itâŠâ
You imagine his cock,thick, already half-hard again from the feel of you, sliding between your thighs. He lifts your leg, hooks it over his arm, and presses the head against your entrance.
âLook at me,â he says, and you try, but his face is a blur of heat and water, just shadows and the gleam of wet skin. âLook at me while I fuck you. I want you to remember this.â
He pushes in slow, and you feel the stretch in your fantasy and in your own body as your fingers sink deeper. You bite your lip to keep from moaning out loud.
âShit, youâre so tight,â he groans, his forehead pressing against yours. âYou feel that? Thatâs my cock filling you up. Thatâs what you get for listening in, for touching yourself to the sound of me cumming.â
He sets a hard rhythm, the slapping of wet skin echoing off the shower walls. Your fantasy-self clings to him, nails digging into his back, and he keeps talking, his voice ragged and dirty, exactly what you need.
âThatâs it, it feels so fucking good, huh? Bet you love this, love that you didnât know what I looked like but you know the sound of my balls slapping against your ass. Youâre such a fucking slut for it. Is it hotter now that you know who I am? Open your mouth and tell me, Y/N.â
You whimper, hand curling into the sheets. âIâI canât. Youâll hear.â
âI know, I know, youâre trying so hard to be quiet for me,â he mumbles, so soft and understanding even as he drives into you. âBut Iâm going to need to hear you, okay? Need to hear how much you want this.âÂ
Your fingers move faster, matching the pace in your head. Your breathing is ragged now, little moans falling from your lips that you canât hold back. You donât care if he hears, and maybe if youâre slightly truthful, you hope he does. âOh god, Satoru, it feels so good!â
In the fantasy, heâs close again. You can feel it in the way his thrusts lose rhythm, in the way his grip tightens on your hip.
âIâm gonna cum inside you,â he growls, and itâs a question and a statement all at once. âYou want that? Want to feel my cum dripping down your thigh?â
âYes,â you whisper out loud, into your empty room.
He buries himself deep, and the fantasy explodes in a rush of heat and words: âFuckfuckfuckâtake itâtake my cum, you dirty little thingâgonna fill you up so fullââ
You climax with a gasp, your back arching off the mattress, your fingers pressing hard against your clit as waves of pleasure roll through you. You hear yourself moan, a high, broken sound, and you donât care.
The sounds from his side of the wall change.
Thereâs a final, shuddering groan and the squeak of a hand against tile. And then silence, broken only by the rush of water from a showerhead.
You lie there, panting, hand still between your legs, your skin flushed and damp. You can almost smell the steam, almost feel the ghost of his fantasy-body pressed against yours.
The shower turns off and you climb out of bed, running away to the living room.Â
Youâre not a freak. You canât be.Â
Youâre a kind, virtuous person who knows no sin, who is gracious and angelic and trustworthy and not someone who listens in on her neighbour jerking it in his shower. Thatâs simply not who you are and not something youâd ever do.Â
Despite this obvious fact, your brain tells you otherwise. And when you are at war with yourself, what else is there to do but consult your friends?
You find Shoko outside the campus cafe, sitting at one of the metal tables with an iced coffee and her laptop open, clacking away with a frown. The chair opposite her is empty though not welcomingly. Itâs buried under her tote bag, a packet of cigarettes jutting out that would have her girlfriend at her throat if she saw.Â
You walk over, tuck the box further into her bag and under her jumper, before putting her bag on the ground. âYouâre smoking again?âÂ
âHi,â Shoko says, looking up briefly before slumping down over her laptop. âJust to get the edge off. Midterms are coming around and Iâm already feeling the effects.â
You nod, stealing her drink and taking a long sip. She looks at you again, squinting.Â
âYou donât look as bad as I thought you would.âÂ
âWhat does that mean?âÂ
âIsnât that film of yours due next Friday? Whereâs the panic and stress? Also, thatâs my coffee you whore.âÂ
You take one last long sip and slide it back over. âI have bigger fish to fry. But shit, Shoko, you look completely under it already. We can call off girlsâ talk for another day, I promise itâs not that serious.â
âNot that serious?â Shoko scoffs, hitting enter before closing her laptop. âYou triple-texted last night at 3 a.m. not making any sense at all. What happened? Did Naoya text you again? You didnât unblock him, did you?âÂ
âWhat? No! ItâsâŠâ you groan, covering your face. âItâs worse. Itâs so much worse. I think Iâm at the edge of the abyss staring down. Like whatever I do here on out will either make or break me.â
âOkay,â she replies slowly, clearly not expecting your response. âAnd who is this about exactly?âÂ
You wonder if you can tell her the truth. Hey Shoko, you might decide to start with, Iâve been crushing on the voice of my neighbour for the last month who I just found out is Satoru, you know your friend? Also, Iâve been listening to him jerk it for a while now and I have an inkling that he knows.
Instead of any of this, you whisper, âSatoru.âÂ
She flinches as if youâve slapped her. âWhat?â
Your finger comes up to point before you stop yourself, realising it was impolite to point, but your gaze is far too telling. She hesitates, taking in your horrified expression before looking over her shoulder to find Gojo stepping into sight, head turning about as if searching for something.Â
You almost delude yourself into thinking that when his gaze stops at your table, his eyes light up because heâs looking at you. You almost delude yourself into thinking that heâs making his way to your table. You almost delude yourself into thinking the smile he wears is for you.Â
Only one of these things is true because the moment you see him, youâve pulled your hoodie up until itâs almost flopping back over your eyes, leaning back and tucking your chin in.
Gojo saunters up to your table and stops just beside Shoko. Your friend groans, dropping her head into her hands.Â
âHeâs right behind me, isnât he?âÂ
Not wanting to speak, you only shrug uselessly. Gojo doesnât even spare you a glance, whining as he tugs on her sleeve to grab her attention.Â
âCome on, Shoko, Iâve been trying to text you for hours now. Ignoring me isnât going to make me disappear, you know.âÂ
âI know now,â she mumbles before yanking her arm away from his touch. âOkay, out with it, Gojo. I refuse to be seen in public with you so letâs get this over with.âÂ
âI need your help with something.â When Shoko only stares, unimpressed and not surprised, he presses on. âItâll be quick, I swear! And it isnât about the pre lab questions this time, I promise. Iâm cashing in that one favour you owe me from last year.âÂ
âWhat favour?â
âMe hosting a party that got you and Utahime together.â
Shoko shoots him a withering look. âThat wasnât a favour, we just happened to meet at your party. You didnât even know her back then.â
Gojo grins, and for a moment, you get lost in it. It would be so easy to tell him now and have that smile directed at you with recognition instead of casual politeness. You donât think heâs doing it on purpose, but you feel yourself getting smaller as he keeps talking to Shoko and only Shoko, sitting there silently as if being quiet and sipping at Shokoâs coffee might excuse your lack of presence.Â
Shoko rolls her eyes, turning to look at you. âSorry, Y/N. Weâll talk after Iâm done dealing with this kid.â
You wave her off stiffly and she narrows her eyes at you, sensing something off when you donât say anything. Gojo seems to notice you then, looking over at you briefly. He tilts his head at you before Shokoâs voice pulls him back.Â
âSo? What do you want?â
âI need help finding someone.âÂ
You choke on your drink, hastily wiping at your chin when they both turn to look at you, a range of concern across both their faces. You wave them off dismissively, making small sounds to clear your throat as they continue.Â
âFor revenge orâŠ?â
He hums, seriously considering her quip. âMaybe the opposite?âÂ
She narrows her eyes at that. âI donât know everyone on campus. How are you so confident you can come to me for this?âÂ
âBecause youâre doing the same degree as her and youâre a girl and so is the person Iâm trying to find.â
There's still liquid in your throat and itâs getting harder for Gojo to pretend like his friendâs friend isnât slowly dying from across the table. He lifts his eyes to study you, taking in the way youâre clearing your throat, struggling to keep quiet, and he sighs.Â
âHey, breathe through your nose.âÂ
You finally look up at him, the hood obscuring most of your vision though you still try to shoot him a look as if to say, oh no, really? and he smirks at that.
âI'm serious, just breathe for a second. Through your nose, come on. Itâll get rid of that coughing fit.âÂ
You close your mouth with effort and take a deep, shaky breath in. It goes in smoothly though the urge to cough still persists and you have to concentrate to not relapse.Â
Gojo pushes your iced coffee closer to you, wiping his wet hand on Shokoâs sleeve after despite her protest. You take it gratefully, taking in a few sips before clearing your throat.Â
Realising you couldnât get out of this without speaking at least once, you lower your voice as much as you can and mumble, âThanks.â
Gojo hums, accepting it easily, but his eyes linger on you for half a second too long before he turns back to Shoko. âShe's someone in your course doing cardiovascular physiology. She has a lab on Tuesday and morning tutorials on Friday."Â
You donât miss the way Shoko has been staring bullets into you though her eyes flicker over to Gojo every once in a while. âA lab on Tuesday, you say.â And thereâs something in her tone that has you looking up frantically.Â
Gojo doesnât seem to notice, nodding instead. âShe usually comes back late, at around 5:20? Which means her classes end around 5 p.m.â
â5 p.m,â she repeats, her eyes never straying.Â
You try to shake your head as subtly as possible.Â
âShe has the prettiest voice youâve ever heard and the softest laugh when she finds something amusing. But then when she finds something funny, like really funny, her laugh is super loud and bright and itâs honestly cool the way she doesnât seem to care.â
You kick Shokoâs foot under the table and she barely winces, realisation or something similar dawning on her.Â
âI donât need to know any of that, that wonât help.â Her lips quirk upwards slightly. âAnd why are we looking for this girl, Gojo?âÂ
He pouts at her words. âIâm looking for my neighbour.â
Shoko makes a gesture as if to ask if heâs serious. âJust go knock on her door? You literally know where she lives. Thatâs probably more than I could ever tell you.âÂ
âYou donât get it,â he says, tutting, wagging his fingers even. âWe have this thing going on and I donât want to ruin her trust by camping outside her door, for example. So instead, Iâll just conveniently come across her on campus because somehow our timetables seem to line up.â
 Shoko stares at him blankly. âSo stalking.â
âDonât be so crude, Shoko. Itâs not stalking if Iâm being emotionally considerate about it.â He leans forward slightly, hands on the table, and for a moment his voice loses some of its usual shine. âI donât want to scare her off, okay? I know where she lives, but that feels like cheating. If you know her, ask her first. Ask if sheâs okay with me knowing, or if she wants me to stay clueless and suffer with dignity.âÂ
Shokoâs expression barely changes. âYou donât do anything with dignity.âÂ
âI could start for her,â he says, then seems to realise what heâs admitted because he looks away with a small, helpless laugh. âLook, I know it sounds stupid, but I like talking to her. I like not knowing too much. I like that she can hang up on me by walking away from the wall whenever she wants. If I just knock on her door, then Iâve taken that choice from her.âÂ
For once, Shoko doesnât interrupt.Â
Gojo rubs at the back of his neck, grin returning but weaker this time, more embarrassed than smug. âBut also, Iâm going a little crazy. Call me pathetic, but sometimes she says something and I forget what my own point was. Sheâs mean in this really specific way, and funny, and then every now and then sheâll be nice like she didnât mean to, and it fully ruins me. So yeah, I want to know who she is. I just donât want to find out in a way that makes her regret talking to me.âÂ
You kick her foot again.Â
âAnd what happens if you do find her?â she asks, rubbing the toe of her shoe against the floor like you have injured her beyond repair. âYouâre going to walk up and say, hi, Iâve been listening to you through the wall for weeks and I reverse-engineered your timetable?â
Gojo makes a face. âNo, obviously not. I have charm. Iâll make her fall for me first.â
You stand with a start, slamming your hands on the table, knocking your empty cup over. You hastily pick it up, shooting Shoko as many SOS signals as itâll take for her to follow your lead. She lets out a slight laugh, especially after seeing Gojoâs bewildered face, and stands, albeit slowly.Â
âI think I have an idea of who youâre looking for.â
âYou do?â Gojo says, eyes wide and smile hopeful.Â
âI have a feeling.â Her eyes leave yours after a pause, moving to shove her laptop into her bag. âBut Iâm going to need to confirm it before I tell you. Wouldnât want to drag an innocent into your life.âÂ
He nods quickly and you mournfully think that he looks like a puppy. You didnât need that imagery, especially not right now. You tune out the rest of their conversation though it mainly consisted of Gojo demanding more details and Shoko shooting him down firmly. When you have your tote over your shoulder, Shoko tilts her head towards the door.Â
You all but run out. Vaguely, you hear Gojo ask, âWhatâs up with her?â
âBoy problems,â Shoko says before she catches up to you and the two of you walk out.Â
âWhere are we going?âÂ
You look over your shoulder, heart only settling when you donât catch any glimpse of white hair. âAway.â
âOh, so now you feel like talking.â
âPlease, Shoko. Please.â
She laughs, loose and unrestrained. âWant to tell me what that was all about? Gojo looking for some Cinderella and you looking like youâre about to choke to death?â
You spin around, hands coming up to hold her still by the shoulders. âWhatever youâre thinking, itâs exactly that. Shoko, stop looking at me like that, Iâm going to freak out.âÂ
âOkay, okay.â Her hands come up to wrap loosely around your wrists, not pushing you off, just holding you there. âTake a breath. He doesnât know.âÂ
âHe almost knows.â
âIâm pretty sure he only suspects something,â she corrects. âThose are two very different things. And if you really donât want him to know then Iâll tell him that. He might seem a little clueless in areas such as personal space, but heâs not a complete jerk. Heâll respect that.â
You let go of her shoulders slowly, though your hands stay half-raised between you like you might need to grab her again if she starts looking too entertained. âHe was describing me.â
âHe was describing his neighbour,â Shoko says, softer now. âYou are only panicking because you know thatâs you.â
âThat does not make me feel better.â
âIt should a little.â She tilts her head, cigarette-less and serious in a way you rarely get from her before noon. âLook, if he wanted to corner you, he couldâve knocked on your door. He literally knows where you live. But he didnât. He came to me because, in his own stupid Gojo way, heâs trying not to scare you.â
âThatâs the complete issue,â you sigh, folding your arms tighter across your chest. âThe issue is that heâs Gojo, the exact kind of guy I said I was done with. I know what these kinds of guys are like, hell, I dated the textbook example of one.â
Shokoâs expression softens and in the silence, something bubbles up.Â
â4B wasnât that,â you say, voice smaller than you mean for it to be. â4B was just mine.âÂ
The second it leaves your mouth, your face warms. Mercifully, Shoko doesnât pounce on it and instead nods slowly, looking away from you.Â
âI get that,â she says and when you glance at her, she repeats herself. âI do, youâre not crazy. But Gojo being in a frat doesnât automatically make him Naoya variant 2.0.â
âI know that,â you grumble.Â
âDo you?â Shoko bumps her shoulder against yours. âYou donât have to trust him just because heâs 4B. You also donât have to punish him just because he looks like the kind of guy who would have ruined your life last semester.âÂ
âSo what am I supposed to do?â you ask.Â
âFor now? Nothing. You donât have to suddenly jump out and introduce yourself, but you also donât have to shut up and ghost him forever. See for yourself what kind of guy Gojo really is now that you know both sides to him.â
Sometimes, Shokoâs rationality surprises you and you find yourself nodding along to her words, a small, dawning hope struggling out of its shell inside your heart. Just as youâre about to thank her profusely for her wise words, she opens her mouth and says, âYou should come to Utahimeâs this weekend.âÂ
âUh.â You blink. âWhat?â
âItâs a small party, like actually small,â she says before you can look horrified. âNot a frat thing. Itâll just be a few of Utahimeâs close friends, some drinks and food, you know. I havenât seen you come out of your apartment for an entire week, Y/N, itâs setting off alarm bells. Youâre hot. Funny. Maybe youâll meet someone there that doesnât remind you of Gojo or Naoya.âÂ
âOh my God,â you say slowly, disgusted. âWhy are those two people my only options right now? Youâre right, I need to go out.âÂ
âIâm sure you didnât mean it,â Shoko says with sympathy before groaning. âCan I say âI told you soâ yet or are you still spiralling? Because I told you so, I told you to stay away from Gojo but lookie here, whoâs scouring the campus for even a whiff of you?âÂ
You glare at her. âNot helping, Shoko.âÂ
Shoko bumps her shoulder against yours. âYou can tell him when youâre ready. Or let him figure it out slowly if you want to be annoying about it.â
You shove her shoulder back in return, and she laughs, and for a few steps, it almost feels like a normal afternoon. Like you are just two girls walking across campus, talking about weekend plans, not one girl trying to outrun the consequences of accidentally falling for her neighbour through a wall.Â
Then Shoko tilts her head toward the bus stop. âSo. Do you want to go back to your apartment or not?âÂ
You think of the wall, of 4BâsâGojoâsâvoice slipping through it, probably asking why you were so quiet this morning, probably making some stupid comment about your sleep schedule, probably having no idea that your whole life has just rearranged itself around his face.Â
You sigh.Â
âUnfortuntely,â you say. âI live there.â
Gojo wonders if he has an addictive personality.Â
Or maybe itâs just you.Â
But when itâs just him alone in his mind, hands running through his hair to try and catch every last runaway thought about you, he allows himself the truth. Itâs probably just you.Â
And the kicker is that he was only 90% certain you even existed. Suguru was the one who planted the idea in his head, that the physics had finally fucked him over and he was hallucinating the voice of a sweet, snarky girl, If he hadnât collected your sticky notes over the last few months, that statistic might have even fallen to a good 38% and even then he wouldnât be too sure if it was the twisted humour of his friends or if he genuinely had his own Wattpad neighbours-to-lovers arc.Â
He sighs and leans back into his chair, feeling it give way under the motion with a creak. He wonders, as he so often does these days, if you heard it. His body stills and he waits for an indication that you might be home, a soft chuckle, an exasperated sigh, or his favourite, that soft way you say his name (read: unit number).Â
When it doesnât come, he slumps.Â
Fuck, he was so far gone.Â
Itâs not like this is new to him, the wanting. Gojo wants things all the time. He wants the last pudding cup from the convenience store, wants Suguru to stop pretending heâs above gossip when heâs the nosiest person alive, wants Shoko to stop stealing his lighters despite the fact that he doesnât smoke because he needs them to light up his birthday candles. He wants good grades with minimal effort and attention when he enters a room and for his hair to sit right without having to do anything about it.Â
He also wants you.Â
Gojoâs phone buzzes against his desk and he only looks at it because heâs desperate from his own thoughts. Though he immediately regrets this when Utahimeâs name lights up on his screen.Â
utahime: party this weekend
show up or dontÂ
idc
He snorts.Â
gojo: woww dont get too excited inviting me im basically suffocating in ur enthusiasmÂ
its chill though if u dont want me there
i wont go ive got plans anywayÂ
Another notification drops down after he hits send.Â
shoko: do NOT come to utahimeâs this weekendÂ
that was a mistakeÂ
DO NOT COMEÂ
Gojo freezes, eyes blinking at the message. He taps it, opening up his chat history with her that consists of many, many time stamps and read receipts, and very slowly, something that critical thinking sparks behind his blue eyes.Â
Do not come, said so blunt and immediate and so suspiciously timed right after Utahimeâs invitation as if Shoko had decided his presence would cause a problem.Â
A problem for who?Â
Gojoâs mouth parts. Then, slowly, his grin spreads. His thumb quickly swipes out to re enter the chat with Utahime and glides across the keyboard.Â
gojo: actually ykwÂ
wouldnât miss it for the world <3
utahime: wait im uninviting uÂ
gojo?Â
i said u cant come
dont leave me on read you dickÂ
Gojo laughs, turning off his phone.Â
He turns his head toward the wall, still grinning like an idiot, thriving off the single crumb heâs been graciously fed after days of searching for you.Â
âYou going to Utahimeâs this weekend, 4A?â he asks softly, knowing you are not there to answer.
The wall says nothing but Gojoâs grin doesnât fade.
âThatâs okay,â he murmurs, phone warm in his hand. âIâll find out.â
There are two possible explanations for your current situation. Either Shoko is a liar (completely and utterly plausible) or her girlfriend has around 50 close friends. You donât put it past Utahime either but at least Utahime did you a favour and made sure not to invite anyone from TDP so you settle for shooting Shoko a withering glare.
Music thrums through the floorboards, bass rattling the soles of your shoes as you tap your feet subconsciously against the beat. Itâs loud, too loud for talking unless you enjoy shouting directly into someoneâs ear, though no one seems to mind. Certainly not Shoko as she leans close to Utahime, mouth brushing against her ear, eyes half lidded as she practically has her on her lap.
You roll your eyes, feeling slightly sour.
Shoko notices your bitter look and acknowledges it with a slight chuckle, taking your cup of orange juice and switching it with hers. âLoosen up!â She yells over the music.
Without many other options, you take the drink and cup your hand around your ear as if you canât hear her, just to piss her off.
Utahime snickers when your friend swats you away, her hand comfortably wrapped around Shokoâs. The sight of a happy couple sickens you and when Shoko yells for you to âgo find someone to make out with!â you do decide to stand up and leave, though not because of her words, obviously.Â
Youâre just getting air, maybe a refill. And maybe putting at least one wall between yourself and Shokoâs terrible, smug, in-love face.Â
The rest of the apartment is no better. Utahimeâs place is bigger than yours, of course, because some people get exposed brick and large windows while others get mysterious ceiling stains and a neighbour loud enough to seep into your own personal life.Â
Bodies crowd every available inch of space. Someone is sitting on the arm of the couch with a drink in one hand and someone else sprawled across their lap, fingers pushed into their hair. A group by the kitchen is screaming the lyrics to the song currently playing and thereâs two girls taking photos in the hallway mirror, swaying together, cheek to cheek.Â
Youâre halfway through to the kitchen when you see him. For a second, your brain doesnât even attach a name to the sight. It only registers white hair, too tall, black shirt, one hand loose around a red cup as he leans against the wall near the hallway.Â
Then your stomach drops.Â
Gojo.Â
The thought arrives with immediate, unreasonable betrayal.Â
What the fuck? Didnât Utahime promise you she wouldnât invite any frat guys?Â
Not that you care. You absolutely do not. Gojo Satoru could attend every party in the city and you would remain unaffected, obviously. It is just the principle of the thing. You had been promised a Gojo-free environment, and there he is, laughing at something one of the girls around him says, head tilted down so he can hear her better over the music.
There are three that you see, maybe four. Itâs hard to count when they keep shifting, hair shining under the cheap coloured lights, shoulders angled toward him like flowers reaching for the sun.Â
It would be easier to be angry, to roll your eyes and hate him in the clean, uncomplicated way you usually do. Instead, something dull and familiar settles under your ribs.Â
You turn away before he can look your way.Â
The drink in your hand is half-empty and you make it fully empty in one long swallow, grimacing only after it burns the way down and cursing Shokoâs name in your head. Someone near the kitchen cheers for no reason and you suddenly decide that if the universe wants to be annoying, if that stupid Etsy witch wants to fuck with you that bad, you might as well ruin yourself first.Â
By the time Shoko finds you again, you have acquired another drink. And then another, and then even more. She squints at you with the vague concern of someone who knows your limits better than you do but youâre already being dragged toward the cleared space in the living room by one of Utahimeâs pretty friends, and the music there is cathartic.Â
So you stop thinking. For the first time all night, you let yourself move without checking who is watching. Your drink is gone, your cheeks are warm, and the room is soft and bright, all coloured light and laughing mouths and hands in the air. There is no assignment, no terrible apartment, no faceless neighbour slipping into your life through the poor insulation, no Gojo leaning against a wall with half the party orbiting him. The houseparty is bumping, the ladies look good, the alcohol is flowing. There is much pain in the world, but not in this room.Â
Then an arm slides around your waist. Itâs muscled, warm, steady in the way it wraps around you, the scent of something masculine and fresh entering your peripherals.Â
For one stupid, glittering second, you let yourself hope. Itâs only the alcohol, probably. The music, even, the heat of the room or the betrayal of coloured lights making everyone look better than they are.Â
But the arm is firm around you, and the body behind you is tall, and when he leans in, his breath skims close to your ear.Â
Maybe.Â
The thought is so sweet it makes you dizzy and you almost lean into the hope.Â
âHaving fun?âÂ
Your stomach drops so fast the whole room seems to go with it. You turn, and Naoyaâs ugly face is looking down at you. What the fuck is he doing here? Oh, you are so having a word with Utahime about this.Â
And okay, Naoya isnât actually ugly, not in a way that has anything to do with his features. Whatâs really ugly is his expression, the entitlement in his smile and the slow drag of his eyes over you like heâs appraising something he believes is his.Â
His mouth curls and all at once, the music goes thin and static-y.Â
You shove him away and stumble a few steps at your own strength. âDonât touch me.âÂ
Naoya lets his hand fall, but not before making a show of it, palms lifting like you are the unreasonable one. âRelax. I was just saying hi.âÂ
âOkay, well youâve said your hi. Now leave.âÂ
He laughs, eyes dropping to your mouth, then back up again. âYouâre still so dramatic. I forgot how much effort it takes to talk to you when youâre like this.âÂ
You step back, but the floor tilts slightly beneath you. Fuck, too much alcohol, too much heat. Thereâs too many bodies pressing around the living room, none of them paying enough attention as you try to place distance between you and your ex. Your shoulder knocks against someone behind you and you mumble a sorry without taking your eyes off Naoya.Â
He notices the stumble and his grin sharpens. âYouâre drunk. Havenât learnt how to control yourself in this kind of places yet, have you? Itâs cute.âÂ
He leans closer, voice lowering as if the two of you are sharing something intimate. âDid you dress up for someone tonight?âÂ
Your face twists. âAs if itâs any of your fucking business anymore, Zenin.âÂ
âNo, Iâm serious.â HIs eyes flick over you again, slower this time, and your skin crawls. âDonât tell me youâre still pissed about being blacklisted. Sometimes things happen to teach you a lesson, you know? Looks like youâve learnt to finally put more effort into what youâre wearing again. You should be thanking me.â
âI am not doing this with you.â You try to sound confident but you both hear the pathetic slur to your words.Â
âYouâre not doing much of anything,â he says. âYouâre just dancing around hoping some desperate fucker takes pity on you and notices.âÂ
âFuck off, Naoya.â
His expression hardens, that little thread of irritation pulling tight because you did not blush, did not smile, did not give him even a crumb of the reaction he came looking for. âYou know, this is exactly why people get so tired of you. You make everything so fucking difficult. Iâm trying to be nice, and youâre acting like I cornered you in a damn alleyway.âÂ
âYou put your hands on me!âÂ
âAn arm, Y/N. I put my arm around you,â he corrects, like youâre the one being embarrassing. âDonât make it sound so ugly.âÂ
âWell, it felt ugly.âÂ
For a moment, you think he might finally drop the act. But then his mouth curves again, albeit thinner and meaner at the edges.Â
âCome on,â he says, taking a step closer and the crowd seems to bunch in to prevent you from leaving. âDonât be like that. We know each other, donât we? You donât have to do the whole untouchable thing with me.âÂ
The alcohol is making everything lag a second behind. The music, the lights, the heat under your skin now sickening, the disgust rising sharp and sour in your throat. You know what heâs doing, you know it so clearly it almost sobers you. That glint in his eyes as he shamelessly trails his gaze down your face and between your tits, the way his hand is already lifting to grope you, how his voice has softened to be more convincing.Â
You take another step back.Â
âI said leave.âÂ
Naoya laughs. âYouâre seriously going to act like you werenât leaning back into me a second ago?â
âI thought you were someone else.â The words are out before you can catch them and shove them back down.Â
His expression drops in a way thatâs almost satisfying, if not for the fact that it twists into something worryingly familiar seconds later. You hate that your stomach sinks. You hate that, even now, some stupid trained part of you expects the punishment that comes after disappointing him.Â
Naoya leans in again, close enough that you can smell the alcohol on his breath under whatever expensive cologne he sprayed on himself. âSo what was the plan? Get drunk enough that you could pretend it was an accident when you went home with someone?âÂ
Your fingers curl into a fist by your sides. âYou donât get to talk to me like that.â
âLike what?â he asks, eyes wide with fake innocence. âIâm just saying, youâre the one dancing around like you want attention looking like that. You canât get mad when someone gives it to you.â
âMove,â you hiss.Â
He doesnât. Instead, he says, âYou always do shit like this. You act so above everything itâs a surprise you havenât been humbled yet. Is that going to have to be my job now too?âÂ
âYou donât know anything about me anymore.âÂ
âDonât get such a big head,â he sneers. âYouâre still so easy to read. Still so fucking pathetic. Still need to feel someoneâs attention on you, need to feel wanted, just so damn needy all the time.â
Your hand comes up so fast that you know the weight in which itâll strike across Naoyaâs face will give you the nicest, most satisfying crack.Â
But before you can bring it down against his stupid fucking face, someone grabs your wrist and gently redirects it. It takes you a moment to register what just happened. Someone had cut cleanly into the space Naoya had taken from you, still holding your wrist behind his back, and you blink at the grey shirt until you look up and see white hair.Â
âIs there a problem?â Gojoâs voice is light enough that, for a strange second, it almost sounds like heâs walked into the wrong conversation.Â
Something imperceptible flashes across Naoyaâs face, something easily missed if you didnât know his every tell.Â
âNot your business, Gojo.âÂ
âOh,â Gojo says, âdonât be like that. It looked fun over here. What were you guys talking about?âÂ
You donât care for this passive aggressive approach of his. You yank at your arm. âI was about to slap him.â
Gojo glances back at you.Â
Youâre too drunk and too angry and too humiliated to care that his face is suddenly closer than expected, all pale hair and blue eyes and a mouth pressed into a thin line. You tug again, uselessly.Â
âIâm serious,â you insist. âLet me slap him.âÂ
Naoya scoffs and takes a step back like he has other things on his agenda than to be publicly embarrassed. âThis is insane. Youâre both insane. Whatever, Iâm done here anyway, what a fucking turn off.â
He turns to walk away, one hand running through his piss-coloured hair.Â
Gojoâs other hand snaps out so fast you barely catch the motion. One second, Naoya is tilted to walk forward and the next, Gojo has his wrist caught in one hand, fingers locked around him with an ease that makes Naoyaâs whole body jerk to a stop.Â
Naoya suddenly hisses. Thereâs a thin red line where one of Gojoâs rings has bitten too hard into the skin. Despite this, Gojo does not give him the time of day. Instead, he looks at you.Â
âHm,â he says, tone casual, as if you have asked him whether he wants another drink. âI hear you, band shirt, but thereâs an issue. If you slap him, you might get into trouble.âÂ
âI donât care.âÂ
âHeâs the president ofââ
You squeeze his arm holding yours. âI donât care. Heâs never been slapped before in his life and itâs obvious. He needs to be slapped, Satoru, he deserves this.âÂ
Gojo pauses. Then, very seriously, he starts to nod slowly, âI suppose that does make a lot of sense.â
Naoya jerks against his grip. âAre you fucking kidding me?â
Gojoâs hand only tightens, short nails digging into the skin, though he still doesnât look away from you, not even when you whip your gaze over to your ex, wishing that looks could indeed kill.Â
How did you ever date a guy like him? You stare at Naoya, at his ugly, furious, blotchy-red face, at the way he keeps looking around like there should be someone here to save him from the consequences of his own mouth. He keeps tugging and pulling but Gojo effortlessly keeps him there.Â
âBut it looks like you just got your nails done,â Gojo ponders. âAnd you could hurt yourself.âÂ
âIt has to be me, Satoru.â
Gojoâs eyes soften at that and he finally smiles, voice going lower. âI know.âÂ
Then he shifts, letting go of your wrist. For a second, you think heâs going to tell you not to do it after all, that he is going to be sensible in ways that severely go against his reputation. Instead, he lifts his free hand between you, palm up.Â
âOkay,â he says. âThen donât hurt yourself doing it.âÂ
You blink. âWhat?âÂ
âIf youâre going to do it, then do it properly,â he says, still speaking to you like Naoya is not standing there trying to pull free. âNo weird wrist thing, And donât throw your whole body into it just to put more force behind it. Itâll just make you fall over because youâre a little drunk and unsteady. Youâve gotta plant your feet.âÂ
Naoya laughs, no humour behind it. âGojo, are you serious?âÂ
Gojo ignores him. âAlso,â he adds, glancing at his own hand, ânow that I think about it, rings might help.â
He holds your gaze for a little longer before offering you a kind smile and lowering his hand to you, fingers pointing towards you.Â
âAre you sure?â you ask, gaze flickering up to his face then to his rings. âThey might get bloody.â
âItâs okay, just take your pick. I can always clean them. This chance might not come again for you,â he tells you in a similarly soft tone.Â
You reach out and take the one from his pinky finger because any other ring might be a size too big, and slide it onto your middle finger.Â
Naoyaâs face pales.Â
âDonât be fucking stupid,â he snaps, trying again to wrench his wrist free. âYouâre going to let her hit me?âÂ
Gojo finally looks at him. The smile he gives Naoya is bright enough to be mistaken for friendly. âHey, man, itâs none of my business.âÂ
The ring is still a little too loose, the metal heavy and cold against your skin, and your hand trembles once before you curl it into a fist and open it again.Â
Gojo notices and his attention is back on you. His voice drops just enough for only you to catch it again. âYou sure?âÂ
You look at him, then past him, at Naoyaâs pale, furious face. âYes.âÂ
Gojo studies you for half a second longer, something soft passing through his expression before it disappears beneath a bright, almost cheerful smile.Â
âOkay!â he says. âThen first, plant those feet and let your shoulders relax a little. If you hit him like that, itâll go through your wrist, and then youâll be mad tomorrow because he got your hand and your mood.âÂ
You nod and adjust.Â
Naoya jerks in grip. âNo, waitââ
Gojo doesnât look at him. âYou donât need a big wind-up. Itâll be painful even if you donât hit hard so no pressure.âÂ
âHey,â Naoya snaps, voice pitching higher. âSomeone get him off me.âÂ
âBut I want to hurt him,â you say to Gojo.Â
âYou will,â Gojo says, very simply. âBut you donât have to hurt yourself to do it. Youâre doing this for you, remember? To get it off your chest.âÂ
Naoya tries to laugh. It comes out wrong. âCome on, man. I said Iâm sorry. Tell her to stop being dramatic.âÂ
Gojo tilts his head at you, as if listening to a distant appliance hum. âDo you hear something?â
You stare at him, cocking your head in a mirror of his own gesture. âThe music?â
âNo.â He waves his question away. âSomething annoying. Anyway. Hand open, shoulders down and feet on the ground. Youâve got this.âÂ
You do as he says and then turn to look at Naoya.Â
For months, he had made you feel like every reaction you had was too much, too loud or too needy, too embarrassing, too difficult to love. He had taught you how to swallow anger until it sat heavy in your stomach and called that maturity. He had always walked away with his shoulders up because you were always the one trying not to make a scene.Â
And now, youâre finally going to leave a mark on him.Â
You slap him.Â
The sound cracks across the room, sharp enough to split cleanly through the music. Naoyaâs head snaps to the side at the force of it, mouth open, but finally, finally, nothing leaves it.Â
Your palm burns immediately, a bright sting rushing up your arm and the ring presses back into your finger, cold against the heat of your skin. It hurts a little. But it hurts so good.Â
Gojo lets go of Naoya at once. Your ex stumbles back, one hand flying to his cheek, eyes wide with shock. âYou fuckingââ
âHoly shit!â Gojo says loudly. âIs that Naoya from TDP? Dude, what are you doing here, do you even know Utahime?â
Naoyaâs face drops slightly in confusion. âWhat?âÂ
Gojoâs voice carries easily over the music now. âNo, seriously. Arenât you the guy that one post was made about in the group chat? I wouldnât have come to a party when you havenât even said anything about the allegations.âÂ
The crowd surrounding you instantly starts murmuring amongst themselves, shooting Naoya dirty looks.Â
Naoya grits his teeth, anger flooding his face all over again. âI didnâtââ
âItâs weird, I really donât think Utahime would have invited you.â
âI was invited.â
âBy who?â
Naoya opens his mouth but nothing comes out fast enough.
A girl by the couch scoffs. âUtahime would never invite him.â
âYeah, didnât she literally say not to let him in?â
âHow did he get inside?â
Someone near you nods along to his words, and a girl wraps her arms around you, running her hand up and down your side. It could have so easily gone wrong, Naoya yelling something about being hurt and suddenly you became the problem. The drunk girl, the angry ex seeking vengeance. The one who slapped someone in the middle of the party.Â
But now everyone is looking at him. And Naoya seems to realise this too because his eyes dart around the room, searching for sympathy and finding none.Â
âCreep,â someone mutters.
âGet him out,â another voice says.
Naoya points toward Gojo, furious and scared in a way you have never seen before. âHeâs lying. Sheâs drunk and sheâs always beenââÂ
âUgh, spare me, I know you were creeping around me too!âÂ
Gojo doesnât stick around for the aftermath and you donât either, his hand closing around your other hand to gently tug you through the growing crowd, his broad back guiding the way.Â
Itâs nice, you realise, which is a stupid thing to immediately think of next after slapping your ex-boyfriend in the middle of a party. Still, it is.Â
The way he moves through the room without dragging you behind him, the way people part for him easily, but he keeps glancing back anyway, like heâs making sure youâre still there and not swallowed by the music and body and the roaring awareness of what youâve just done. His hand is warm around yours, loose enough that you could pull away if you wanted to, firm enough that you donât have to think too hard about where youâre going.Â
You let yourself follow. Past the kitchen, past the hallway mirror, past two girls whispering near the wall, both of them looking over your shoulder toward where Naoya had disappeared, their expression twisted with disgust.Â
The noise dulls a little near the back of the house. The music still reaches here, bass-heavy and insistent, but the air feels cooler, less packed with breath and perfume. Just before the back door, Gojo stops.Â
You nearly bump into him and he chuckles, turning around.
âCareful.â He looks you up and down not unpleasantly. âHowâs the hand?âÂ
âItâs fine,â you say automatically. Then you pause, looking down.Â
His ring is still sitting crooked on your middle finger, too loose and faintly warm now from your skin. Your palm is red and your fingers tingle but the slap keeps replaying in your head in satisfying flashes: the crack of it, Naoyaâs face turning, and any regret you might have felt dissipates.Â
âOkay, it might sting a little.âÂ
Gojoâs expression softens. âLet me see it.âÂ
You lift your other hand not in his, and he reaches out to take it, a sharp thrill running up your arm when he makes contact. He turns your hand over carefully, fingers light and ticklish against your palm as he inspects it. For a moment, you wonder about this gentleness that he shows you, how sharply it contrasts with the way he had held Naoya hard enough to draw blood.
His fingers move over your palm with careful attention, thumb brushing beneath the base of your fingers, moving down to the sensitive skin of your wrist and making you shiver. The hallway is too warm and too cold at once, music pulsing behind you in dull waves, but all you can really feel is the shape of his hand around yours and the ridiculous, traitorous flutter under your ribs.Â
âYouâll live,â he says eventually, fingers splaying over your wrist and forearm before dropping. âAnd youâre staring.âÂ
You blink when you process that heâs looking right into your eyes, his lips quirked into a small smile as he watches you.Â
âThanks for helping me slap my ex.âÂ
He shrugs. âItâs no problem, band shirt. I think my ring did the bulk of everything.âÂ
You look down at your hand and notice that heâs right. The silver sits crooked on your finger, too loose and too pretty, catching the hallway light like it has any right to look innocent after drawing blood across Naoyaâs cheek. Thank you, pretty silver ring, for your service. May your efforts haunt him for at least a few business days.
Gojo lowers his hand under yours again and for a second, you think that heâs going to ask for it back. Instead, he lifts your hand slowly such that you have the chance to pull away. His eyes stay on yours until the last moment, before he lowers his mouth and presses a soft kiss to the ring.Â
Technically, itâs his ring and not your hand he kissed. Still, the warmth of his breath brushes your skin, and something bright and winged breaks loose in your stomach. Your fingers twitch once in his hold as your breath catches. His lashes lower into the kiss, before he opens his eyes again and looks up at you through them.Â
He smiles at you cheekily. Â
âCanât run away from me now, can you?â he asks, lowering your hand just enough to comfortably interlace his own fingers with yours. âI never did give you my name that one time before but itâs Gojo Satoru, though it looks like you already know. Come sit with me.âÂ
âMeâ ends up being him, and also his friends. Which is not as awkward as you thought it would be, mostly because the second Gojo opens the back door, Utahime and Shoko both sit up from where theyâve been lounging together on an outdoor chair like two cats disturbed mid-nap. Their fingers point at you at the exact same time.Â
âYou!â
âWith him?âÂ
âHi guys.â You drop your hand from his under the piercing gaze of your friends. âHowâs the party?â
Gojo doesnât say anything, only stepping around you with that easy, unbothered smile of his, and joining a conversation with some guys standing around the bonfire.Â
Utahimeâs backyard has been transformed into something of a cozy hangout spot. Cheap fairylights hang crooked from the overhead roof, blinking out of sink, and a few mismatched outdoor chairs and beanbags sit in a loose circle around a low table cluttered with cups, jackets, and a neat stack of cards. Thereâs a small lit fire further out, but you drag your eyes away from its company to focus on the people you do know.Â
Shoko shuffles closer to her girlfriend, patting the space next to her which you gratefully take. âHold on, so did you find someone to make out with after all? And was itâŠ?âÂ
You quickly look back at Gojo who is now talking quietly with someone you donât know, the long-haired boy nodding in serious thought at whatever is leaving his mouth. His eyes slide to you and when they meet yours, you flinch, looking away.
âNo! Thatâs notâGod, my head is killing me. I didnât make out with anyone, okay? Iâm not here to find someone to hook up with.âÂ
âWhy are you here then?âÂ
âYou threatened me to come.â You point out.Â
âWell, you werenât going to not come, thatâs not in the cards.â Shoko presses you another cup into your hands and, because you have yet to learn your lesson from earlier, you take a trusting sip.Â
You almost choke out the battery acid when it hits your tongue, covering your mouth with your arm as you glare at your friends. âOh, ew, Shoko. Seriously? Canât you make something good for once? Your jungle juice is always so ass.âÂ
âThatâs how you know it works. Tongue loosened up yet? Why did you just walk out with Gojo? Whatâs going on between you two? Does he know now?âÂ
You lean back into the seat at Shokoâs interrogation, and take another deep chug of Shokoâs disgusting drink. âBefore you grill me, I have to grill you. Want to tell me what Naoya is doing at your party, Utahime?âÂ
Utahime blinks. âNaoya is at my party?âÂ
âWas,â you correct yourself. âI think he got the message after I slapped him that he shouldnât be here.âÂ
âYou slapped him?â Utahime sits up with a bright smile. âOh my God, tell me you got that on video! To clear my name though, I definitely did not invite him. He must have snuck in or something.âÂ
âWell, basically everyone saw so Iâm sure thereâs a video on someoneâs story by now.â You look back at Gojo now standing with just one other guy. âSatoru just happened to be there at the right place and time to help. Thatâs it.âÂ
When your friends donât immediately press for more questions, you turn back and find them whispering and giggling to each other. When they feel your suspicious gaze, Shoko looks up. âSorry, yes, right. Gojo saved you.â
Utahime clears her throat suddenly. âWait, shut up. Three oâclock.âÂ
You stiffen when a weight presses against you, someoneâs body dropping into the narrow gap between you and the armrest.Â
You instinctively shuffle closer to Shoko to make room, though there is not enough room to make. Your thigh presses ages his, shoulder brushing against yours, and his arm slides along the back of the chair, not quite touching your neck, but close enough that your skin tingles.Â
Shoko mutters, âThis chair is clearly only meant for three.âÂ
âIâd hate to think you donât want me here,â Gojo says cheerfully. âWhat are we talking about? Me?âÂ
âYour head is so far up your ass you only ever think of yourself,â Utahime grumbles.Â
You freeze, unsure where your limbs should go when youâre pressed up to the person behind the faceless voice in your walls. Admittedly, this realisation comes a little late. You should have armed your walled defenses the moment Gojo had grabbed your wrist and pulled you behind him, should have simply walked away after slapping Naoya (that was a non-negotiable, canon event) instead of letting him drag you back where youâre now trapped. Because he doesnât know youâre her. And right now when youâre drunk and unsteady on your feet and thoughts? This might be the worst possible time for him to find out.Â
âThat over there is Suguru,â Gojo suddenly leans in to say, breath ghosting the shell of your ear. His voice sends shivers down your neck and along your spine, every sensation suddenly all too much. The fabric that isnât your own grazing high on your thigh, his hair tickling your cheek, his feet nudging yours slightly so you can move over just a little bit more for him.Â
âThatâs Kento, with the frown and beside him is Yuu, without the frown. And those, on the table, are my Digimon cards. Who the fuck brought them out here?âÂ
Haibara laughs. âGeto did! We were playing truth or dare with them!â
âYouâre lucky thatâs my dupe deck or Iâd end this friendship right here and now,â Gojo says, an easy grin on his face as if he wasnât pressing up against you, his chest warm and hard against your side, your elbow awkwardly jutting into him.Â
Your hand flexes around the cup, and the ring shifts slightly on your finger. Gojoâs gaze drops to it for half a second, a private little smile cutting across his mouth before he looks back at the table.Â
âWe heard about what happened inside,â Geto says. âAre you okay?âÂ
Would it be too late to suddenly go mute? If youâre able to recognise Gojo by his voice, then the chances of him putting name to face with the girl next door and you is also very high. Though, considering the way he isnât immediately pulling you aside to ask if you are indeed the voice in his walls, you want to believe that he has yet to figure out your identity.Â
So no, it isnât too late to go mute.Â
You nod in response to Getoâs question and flash him a smile, hoping none of it comes off as rude.Â
Gojo hums beside you, the vibration travelling through your bodies. He leans down to speak into your ear, a conversation just for you. âNot much for words? What happened to all the snark earlier?â
You stall for time by taking a long sip of Shokoâs concoction, the sting temporarily skyrocketing to the top of your concerns. This may or may not be a bad idea because now that youâre seated, all the previous drinks sloshing around in your stomach and this adding sip burning down your throat, you feel the world tip a little. You probably canât deflect this question, not when he asks like this, so you settle for something else.Â
Clearing your throat, you try for a lower octave than usual. âI only talk to the people that deserve it,â you say, then let out a small huff at how ridiculous you sound.Â
The grin he shoots you is all confidence and self-assurance, leaning in a fraction closer. âHow would you know if youâve never given me a chance?âÂ
âItâs pointless, I already know what youâre like.â Maybe itâs the bonfire or the drink in your hand but you are getting really warm. You take another long sip.Â
âWe talked for ten minutes max the other day, I highly doubt that,â he cocks his head at you. âDo I know you from somewhere else?âÂ
You hum. âMaybe.âÂ
âI think I would remember someone like you.âÂ
That causes you to raise an eyebrow, letting his casual flirt roll off you.Â
âFlattery,â you start, poking his chest. You let him catch your hand in his, holding it there against his heart, âwonât get you anywhere especially when itâs empty.â
âWho said it was empty? Besides, I know I wouldnât forget such a pretty girl.â
âOh, you would. You are.â You laugh again, finding the inside joke hilarious. âTry a little harder to remember, hm Satoru?âÂ
The challenge makes his eyes glow just like you knew they would, always have known from the moment when a wall still separated the two of you and he had laughed at your provoking, all dark and not humourous at all.Â
âMaybe if you gave me a name.â
Youâre not quite ready to hear his name from your lips just yet so you only shake your head, wagging your finger at him playfully. âWhereâs the fun in that?â
âIâm usually a patient man and Iâm all for the chase,â he starts, fingers inching closer, brushing hair from the back of your neck as he leans in, âbut youâve left me high and dry for so long.â
His words go in one ear and out the other, your breath hitching at the slightest touch. Despite yourself, you gulp and taste the bitter alcohol in your mouth. You feel it too, warmth pooling in your gut and making your head spin.Â
âIâm not an easy person,â you whisper, eyes flickering down to his lips and you bite your own, the rush of all your fantasies suddenly overwhelming you. In all other them, youâve never once imagined his lips on yours, not until now. And you donât doubt that after this, you'll be thinking of them often.Â
âTrust me,â he chuckles. âYouâre not easy, youâre stubborn as hell and you always give me a hard time.â
As if sensing your temptation, Gojoâs eyes trace the way your teeth dig into your lip, watching the pull before you release it, red and slightly jutted out. It makes him want to sink his teeth into your bottom lip and lick the marks it leaves behind.Â
Your breath hitches. He leans in slightly, looking up to search your face and wait to see if youâll pull back. When you donât, when he accepts whatever look is in eyes, he leans forward more. The anticipation builds and morphs into budding frustration when he continues to play this game of chicken, giving you countless moments to pull away if needed even when youâve shown no sign of stopping.Â
Shoko clears her throat and you jump, accidentally crushing your solo cup. The liquid bursts up and flows down your wrist and into your lap.Â
âShit!â you curse, immediately jumping up and pulling the fabric away from your skin.Â
Gojo quickly follows, one hand hovering on your lower back in case you tip back.Â
âOh, fuck,â Shoko says. âYou okay?âÂ
âYeah, itâs just super sticky.â You wince, accepting the tissues Nanami hands you though they do little good. âEw, itâs, like, sticking to my skin.âÂ
Utahime speaks up, watching you from over the rim of her cup. âThereâs a bathroom down the corridor. Gojo knows where it is, he can show you.â
âAnd maybe the two of you can make out there instead of right in front of us,â Geto says offhandedly, though his cup canât completely hide his grin. The people around the table giggle at his words, Shoko probably the loudest.Â
You blush, immediately going to deny his accusations but Gojo beats you to it.
âShoko and Utahime are one second away from eating each otherâs faces off but no one says anything about that!â
âThatâs because this is my party, Gojo.âÂ
âYeah, well it was my party that got you two together,â Gojo shoots back childishly.Â
Everyone laughs again, chattering as they descend into the topic of other inside jokes, playing word association as they leap from memory to memory. Thereâs a sense of belonging that oozes from everyone as they lean into one another and talk and gossip. You might have appreciated this moment more, enjoyed the fact that theyâre allowing you into this intimate moment, if not for the sudden blossoming warmth inside you. Before you can really think about it, you tug on Gojoâs shirt.Â
He immediately leans down, angling his ear to you. âHm?âÂ
âTake me to the bathroom?âÂ
Gojo stiffens, eyes flickering to your face then down your body. He bites his lip hard to focus, ignoring the temptation to let his mind wander at your innocent words. They had to be innocent, right? You, who was now looking up at him through your lashes with a pout playing on your lips, one hand tugging on the hem of his shirt, thumb rolling over the fabric slowly. You who was fidgeting ever so slightly, thighs rubbing together due to the cold.
âYeah,â he says suddenly, all humour gone. âLetâs go.âÂ
Someone cheers behind you as Gojo helps you up and opens the back door for you, though neither of you seem to care. He doesnât bother with answering greetings, only smiling shortly as you pass familiar people, something more impatient when he guides you than before.Â
He leads you down a corridor and into a dark room, closing the door behind you. Your heart leaps to your throat until he turns on the light, and you wince at the brightness.Â
âSorry, pretty. Shouldâve warned you,â Gojo says, only looking vaguely apologetic as he leans against the closed door, one hand still on the knob like heâs giving you a chance to back out.Â
He watches you carefully, tracing the line of your jaw, the slightest twitch of your brow and then, his favourite part, the flush climbing your cheeks. âThe bathroom should be safer than a spare room. Who knows who is in there doing what.â
You hesitate. âYou didnât have to follow me in.âÂ
âNo?â He tilts his head, eyes roaming over you before settling smugly on your face. âYouâre still holding onto my shirt. Maybe let go if you want to sound convincing.âÂ
You shiver, letting go immediately and stepping back closer to the sink. You open your mouth to say something, a stupid excuse perhaps, but he beats you to it.Â
âYou cold?âÂ
âWhat?â
âEarlier.â His eyes fall to your legs. âYou were fidgeting. Thought maybe you were cold. Call me a desperate guy if you want, but donât ask a guy to take you somewhere private while looking at me like that.âÂ
âLike what?âÂ
Gojo pushes off the door and you take a step back instinctively. âLike you wanted me to misunderstand you.âÂ
You hesitate, looking around the bathroom. He seems to notice, and stops immediately, eyes softening. âHey, Iâm not going to do anything you donât want. Just shove me away and Iâll go, I promise.âÂ
âItâs not that,â you bite your lip.Â
âThen what is it, pretty?âÂ
âYou talk too much. Youâre too loud,â you manage to say, warm despite the chill of the drink on you. âAlways have been.â
The corner of his mouth lifts. âYeah?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âGood.â He takes one step closer. âThen make me shut up.âÂ
Your back meets the sink before you realise you have moved, the contrast of cold porcelain against your overheated skin making you gasp. Heâs on you in an instant, hands roaming down your side until theyâre gripping your hips hard enough to bruise.Â
âYouâre so tense,â he murmurs against your neck. âYou have no idea Iâve been watching you all night, do you? That little skirt? This tiny little top?âÂ
He slaps your tits and you jolt, looking up at him in surprise to which he only grins down at you. You canât seem to form a coherent thought, not when thereâs alcohol swimming in your veins and turning your limbs to jelly, mind to fog. Still, you manage to say, âDid you just slap my boob?â
âDonât act like you didnât like it. If I shove my hand down your skirt, am I going to find you wet, pretty?âÂ
His knee nudges between your thighs, spreading them open as he steps closer.Â
âYou are so grossââ you start, but he cuts you off with his mouth on yours.Â
The kiss is brutal and demanding all at once. His tongue slides against yours, tasting of expensive liquor and something sweet, or maybe thatâs just your taste and heâs shoving it back against your mouth. One hand leaves your hip to fist in your hair, tilting your head back.Â
He breaks the kiss only to trail his lips down your throat, sucking hard at the pulse point. âDonât lie to me. I know youâve wanted this since the first time I heard you. You have quite the perverted streak to you, donât you?â
Your breath hitches. His hand slides down, palm flat against your stomach, then lower. He doesn't bother with the fabric of your panties, just pushes them aside and drags his fingers through your slick folds.
âFuck,â he hisses. âYouâre soaked. And you're gonna tell me you weren't dreaming about this? Getting yourself off to the thought of me touching you like this?âÂ
His middle finger sinks into you without warning. You cry out, a sound that would be embarrassing if you had any sense left. But all you can feel is the stretch, the fullness, the way your body clenches around him desperately.
âThat's it,â he coos, tone shifting to something truly mocking. âYouâre really feeling it now, arenât you?âÂ
He adds a second finger, fucking them into you with a rhythm that has your knees buckling. His thumb circles your clit in lazy, torturous circles. You're already so close, the buildup of tension from hours of dancing, of drinking, of watching him across the room, it all crashes toward a peak.
âPlease,â you whimper.
âPlease what? Use your words, pretty.â
âPlease fuck me,â you manage to gasp, fantasy and reality crashing together in a dizzying mess.Â
He pulls his fingers out abruptly, and you groan at the loss. But then you hear the sound of his belt unbuckling, the zipper of his pants, and your mouth waters. He takes himself in hand, strokes once, twice, and then the blunt head of his cock presses against your entrance.
âLook at me,â he commands.
You force your eyes open. His are dark, pupils blown wide, a little furrow between his brows.Â
âAre you with me?â he asks, brushing your hair out of your eyes.Â
You nod, rutting forward pathetically.Â
âCome on, pretty, I need to hear you say it.â
âIâm here!â you choke out, gasping. âPlease, I want this, I promise IâI want you. Satoru, please.â
He groans, the tip of his cock pressing forward beyond that little ring of resistance, swearing at the involuntary thrust. âOkay, okay, Iâve got you.âÂ
He noses into your temple, inhaling deeply, one thumb holding you open as he presses in and groans, filthy and depraved.Â
âFuckâyouâre so tight,â he gasps, cock stuttering through until heâs buried deep.Â
The sensation of being stretched wide open on his cock makes you tense, before a ragged, grateful cry escapes your swollen lips. You can barely breathe through your nose, head spinning with pleasure.Â
âOh god, oh my god!â you cry out, head thrown back.Â
âShh,â he hisses against your ear, his breath hot and sweet. His cock rams into youâa thick, punishing rhythm he picks up easilyâand every thrust pushes your back against the sink. âYou gotta stay quiet, angel. We don't want anyone hearinâ how much of a slut you are, do we?â
But of course, all good things have to come to an end because through the hazy pleasure, you hear a grating voice.Â
âHey! Y/N! I know you're in there!â You can recognise Naoyaâs voice anywhere even, it seems, when youâre being fucked for every inch of your life.Â
Gojoâs hand closes around your mouth as he looks at you, grunting softly with every thrust. He pulls out briefly and you whine until he turns you around and presses you up against the cold tiles, driving up into you like he never left. His rhythm doesnât falter, if anything, he pounds harder.Â
âMm-mm,â you try to say, shaking your head, panic rising. He doesn't stop. He slams into you and your body jolts, your forehead knocking against the tile.
âI said I know you're in there!â Naoya's voice is slurred, angry. He kicks the door. âOpen the fuck up! We need to talk!â
Gojoâs hand slides off your mouth though not enough to leave completely. Itâs just his palm moving, his fingers hooking into the corner of your lips, prying your mouth open. Two of them slip inside, salty with your own slick, and he pushes them back until you're gagging.
âAnswer him,â Gojo whispers, his lips brushing your ear. âGo on. Tell him youâre busy.â
You canât. His fingers are deep in your throat. You gag, tears springing to your eyes, and he just laughs, low and dark.
âOh, right. You can't talk with my fingers in your mouth, can you?â He pulls them out, slick and wet, and wraps them around your jaw, tilting your face toward the door. âTry again. Use your words.â
âNaoya,â you choke out, your voice wrecked, breathless. âIâmâIâm fine. Justââ
âJust what?â Gojo thrusts, hard, and your sentence crumbles into a gasp. His cock sinks so deep you feel it in your stomach. âJust getting fucked stupid? Tell him the truth.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. You can picture Naoya on the other side of the door, his fists clenched, his jaw tight. When he speaks again, his voice is lower, certainly enraged.
âYouâre lying. I can hear you breathing. Open the fucking door.â
Gojoâs hips slow. He pulls almost all the way out, leaving just the tip, and then drives forward in one smooth, devastating motion. You cry out, quickly muffled by your own hand.
âDon't make me break this door down,â Naoya warns.
Gojo chuckles, right in your ear. âHe sounds mad. Poor guy. You really do know how to pick âem, donât you?â He leans closer, his chest pressing against your back, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. âBut youâre not his anymore, are you? You're mine. For tonight, anyway.â
He fucks you slow now, deep and deliberate, his cock dragging along every inch of your walls. You feel every ridge, every vein and your legs tremble in the delicious drag.
âTell him,â Gojo whispers, âthat youâre busy. That you donât have time for him anymore. âCause heâs nothing to you now, right? Tell me heâs nothing to you.âÂ
You swallow, wanting nothing more than to open your mouth and babble about how incredible it is to get railed in a bathroom, how brainless Gojoâs cock is making you but you have to be good, heâs waiting for you. So instead, you manage to say, âNaoya, leave meânghâalone!â
Naoya growls at the closed door before him, even going so far as to stomp his feet like a petulant kid. âFine! Fucking fine, Y/N! But I promise you, youâll regret this! Iâll make sure you do!â
Sure, you think, eyes rolling back, as if your Etsy witch can touch me anymore when Gojo is fucking me. You slump forward, relief flooding you when you hear his footsteps retreating, but Gojo doesnât let you rest. He grabs a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back, and resumes his brutal pace.
âGood girl,â he purrs. His voice is different now, softer, honeyed and almost affectionate. âSuch a good fucking girl. You did so well. You listened. You obeyed.â He kisses your shoulder, open-mouthed, wet. âSee? I knew you could be good for me.â
The whiplash is dizzying and it only makes you arch more, something inevitable and delicious approaching in the far distance.Â
âThat's right,â he murmurs, still fucking you deep and slow. âYou took that so well. Pretended you werenât getting your tight little cunt stuffed while your ex was right outside. That takes skill, pretty. Youâre so fucking perfect for me.â
His hand snakes around your front, fingers finding your clit. He rubs slow, tight circles, and your hips buck.
âBet you've been practicing, haven't you?â His voice is a low, knowing drawl. âAll those nights you thought nobody was listening. Thought nobody could hear you moaning. But werenât you the one to tell me? The walls are thin as shit, angel.â
Heâs ramming into you now, fast and rough again, his words spilling out between each thrust and all you can do is be a ragdoll in his hold.Â
âYou'd lie in bed, late at night, fingers in your pussy, listening to me stroke my cock. Iâd hear you. The wet sounds. The little âoh, yesâs. And Iâd think... fuck, I need to have that. I need to feel that cunt clench around me.â
You're dizzy, overwhelmed. His hand on your clit, his cock in your cunt, his words in your brain, itâs all too much.
âDid you think I didnât recognize you at the party tonight? The girl with the needy little moans?â He bites your earlobe, hard enough to sting. âIâve been waiting for an excuse to corner you. And then you showed up drunk and sad, with that asshole on your heels, and I knew tonight was the night.â
Heâs watching you in the mirror and you catch his reflection. His eyes are dark, lips parted, face flushed. Heâs absolutely beautiful.
âI'm gonna fill you up,â he growls. âGonna pump my cum so deep inside you it leaks out for days. And when you walk past my door tomorrow, you're gonna know. Youâre gonna remember this. Youâre gonna touch yourself to the memory, and Iâll be right there, on the other side of the wall, stroking myself to the sound of you coming undone.â
His hips slam into you. Once, twice, three times. You feel the pressure building, the coil in your belly tightening to the point of pain.
âSatoruââ you gasp, hands fumbling for purchase on the wall.Â
âI know, angel, I know. Cum for me,â he demands. âWanna finally feel you cum on my cockâfuck.â
You shatter. Your orgasm crashes through you like a wave, your cunt clenching around him, your body shaking. You cry out his nameâSatoruâand he follows a second later, buried to the hilt, his cum hot and thick inside you.
He holds you there, both of you breathing hard, sweat-slick and sticky. Then he pulls out slowly, watching his cum drip down your thigh.
âGood girl,â he says again, his voice a warm, approving caress. He turns you around, cups your face in his hands, and kisses you, soft, tender, unhurried. âYou did so well, pretty. So, so good for me.â
Your knees are weak and he notices, turning you and pressing you to his chest to keep you upright. He continues to whisper in your ear as your senses return to you, and when you finally lift a hand to gently push at his chest, he lets you, eyes immediately flickering down to your eyes.Â
âStill with me?âÂ
You nod, before you fall forward into his arms.Â
When your body breaks down alcohol, it converts the ethanol into acetate, a process that produces a lot of NADH from NADâș. The imbalance of the NADHâș ratio leads to the feelings of weakness and grogginess that come from a horrible night out.Â
You wake now, approximately ninety percent NADH and ten percent regret.Â
For a while, you refuse to move. You only stare at your ceiling, blinking slowly at the familiar crack in the paint above your head, the soft grey light pressing through the curtains, the horrible cotton-dry feeling your tongue against the top of your mouth.Â
How the fuck did you get home?
Your own bed, in most cases, the preferred place to wake up after all. Itâs safe, itâs familiar, and most importantly, itâs yours. But the last thing you remember is not collapsing into the warmth and security of your own bed. The last thing you recall comes in fragments: Utahimeâs party, Gojoâs hands on your body, the bathroom light flickering too bright overhead, the sink cold behind you and his voice low in your ear.Â
And then nothing. You suppose there are brief pieces after that, blurry and soft around the edges. Glimpses of a car window, someone cursing under their breath, the sound of your keys jingling and the vague sensation of being carried. That one must have been a drunken hallucination because itâs humiliating and therefore cannot be the truth.Â
You fumble for your phone which is not beside your pillow where you usually place it after your nightly doomscroll before bed, but placed neatly on your bedside table. Thereâs a few texts from friends on your lock screen, but thereâs only one person you want to text.Â
shoko: alive?
actually donât answer if youâre dead
if youâre alive though please drink some water and let me know that youâre okÂ
You laugh softly. Why did you jump to conclusions so quick? Of course it was Shoko that took you home! Who knew her upper body strength was so good that she managed to carry you into your own bed after a night of drinking.Â
you: im alive!!
thank u so much for taking me home btwÂ
i owe u :3
She quickly reacts to your message with a heart before the typing indicator appears.Â
shoko: i didnât take u home (?)Â
gojo did obv
he WHAT? is probably what youâre thinking but please remember to breathe and drink some water before you crash outÂ
You are, in fact, thinking he what?And because Shoko accurately called you out on that, you decide to follow through on the rest of her advice. You turn your head and stop a sticky note stuck to the glass of water beside your head, bright yellow and neat as a warning label.Â
water is important when youâre recovering from a hangover! â satoru
Then, a little to the left, attached to a packet of painkillers,Â
because i know your head probably feels like shit rn â still meÂ
âOh my god,â you whisper, unsure whether to laugh or to run away.Â
You do neither because your head really does hurt like a motherfucker, and take the painkillers along with a generous gulping or two of water. The cool liquid does little against the parched nature of your throat, but when you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand, you feel alive enough to venture out of your bed.Â
Thereâs a sticky note on the ground next to a pair of slippers you swore you had separated, one in the kitchen one somewhere in the living room.Â
the ground is cold! wear slippers! â forever urs :3
âForever yours?â you repeat aloud, voice wrecked with sleep and dehydration even as you shove your toes in.Â
Thereâs another note on the back of your bedroom door.Â
no matter what u see in the mirror remember youâre beautiful! â shrek to ur fiona?
You open your bedroom door and make your slow, regretful way to the bathroom where you lay your tired eyes on your puffy face. You have definitely seen better days. Thereâs another note stuck to your mirror.Â
face wash is on the left toothbrush is on the right if you use the face wash as toothpaste, thatâs between you and god â not your doctorÂ
Huffing out a sound that might be amusement, you pick up your toothbrush and ensure you squeeze toothpaste onto its bristles. The toothpaste is minty and makes your eyes water slightly, but by the time you rinse your mouth, you feel one step closer to not feeling like the undead.Â
Thereâs another note stuck to the towel rack.Â
if ur eyes are puffy, put a cold compress over them! â still not a doctor
From the bathroom back to your room for a change of clothes and even on your way to the kitchen, youâre guided by a series of sticky notes.Â
clean clothes! i didnât look through your drawers dw â feministÂ
welcome to the kitchen! huge milestone for you â ur biggest fanÂ
water already boiled in here so when you wake up to reboil it itâll take less time â the kettle knowerÂ
drink real water first before the coffee !! seriously donât put coffee in me just yet â mugÂ
soup inside on the second shelf :3 not homemade so donât get too excited iâm handsome, not magical i couldnât have it both ways â :(
in the microwave for two minutes with lid half on! take it out when itâs boiling â the soup sipperÂ
You finally feel alive enough to laugh, embarrassingly loud in the quiet of your kitchen. You stand there in your slippers, teeth brushed, face washed, and dressed in clothes when any other time you might have still been under the covers.Â
The apartment feels full of him. A note when you open your utensil drawer for a spoon, a note sitting on top of a coffee pod conveniently placed on your counter, a note against the body of a vase youâve placed on your dining table to feel more homey.Â
eat slowly, you get hiccups when you rush!Â
The notes take you away from your drying rack when youâve finished the store-bought soup and washed your spoon, taking you to your living room. Your camera sits on your coffee table, a sticky stuck on the surface that reads: âturn me on ><â
You roll your eyes but do so, lifting it up and framing the sorry state of your living room before hitting the record button. The first shot captures just how many sticky notes litter the surface of almost every object, the words telling you a funny joke or reminding you to put something back. You take your time walking through all of them, his handwriting everywhere, his name everywhere (except when he decides to write down a silly nickname).Â
Satoru.
Satoru.
Satoru.
Then, you find the last one on your front door.Â
if youâre overwhelmed, you donât have to open this today. if youâre angry at me, just yell at me through the wall :( if youâre okay, iâd like to see you â satoru
And then, before you can think it through, you reach forward and open your door.Â
Gojo stands in the hallway, a bouquet of flowers clutched in both hands like heâs praying. His eyes light up when you open your door and he moves forward instinctively. Heâs so close that the toe of one sock is nearly edging over the threshold of your apartment.Â
You let out a short scream.Â
He startles just as badly, eyes going wide as he reaches forward on instinct to steady you, and your camera slips from your hand.
âOhââÂ
It hits the floor before either of you can grab it, bouncing once, then sliding sideways across the carpet until it knocks gently against the leg of your couch. The camera keeps recording from there, tilted on its side. It catches the lower half of your open door, Gojoâs socked feet in the hallway, your bare feet on the carpet, and the hem of your sweater falling over your shorts.
âAre you okay?â he asks in a rush.Â
âWhat are you doing standing right in front of my door, you creep?â you shoot back, one hand pressed to your chest. âWere you standing there the entire time?âÂ
âI was trying to be romantic.â He shoves the bouquet toward you, panic making his voice crack at the edges. âI literally got you flowers!âÂ
You take them automatically, bewildered by the weight of roses in your hands. âThank you? Is that why youâve littered all over my apartment?âÂ
His face falls. âWas that not cute?âÂ
You blink. âCute?âÂ
âDid you not think it was cute?â he asks, suddenly horrified. âBecause I thought it was cute. I mean, not in a weird way. Well, maybe a little weird. But intentional weird. Charming weird.âÂ
âThe sticky notes?â
He groans, dragging a hand down his face. âLook, Iâve never done anything like this before, okay? This whole romance thing is seriously above me, I have no idea how Iâm meant to ask you this without scaring you away.âÂ
You stare at him for a long while before laughing. The sound pulls from your throat loud and bright that it almost hurts with an incoming headache, but itâs so funny you just canât stop. âI knew you had no experience with women. I called it all along, didnât I?â
âPlease, this and that are completely unrelated.â His shoulders seem to relax at your laugh, and he finally cracks a smile, running a hand through his hair. âYou never were going to make it easy for me, were you?âÂ
âEasy? When youâve just left forty sticky notes in my apartment and then lurked outside my door?â
His smile trembles, trying to stay bright, but the nerves are still there beneath it. You can see them now that you know to look. The way his fingers flex at his side, the way his eyes keep flickering from your face to the threshold like he is measuring the exact line he is not allowed to cross.Â
âI wasnât lurking,â he says, quieter. âI was waiting.âÂ
Your fingers tighten around the bouquet.Â
Gojo looks down at it, then back at you. âI wanted to knock earlier, but I thought if you woke up and saw me before you were ready, youâd panic.â
âPlease, I wouldnât have panicked.âÂ
âYou literally panicked ten seconds ago.â
âTouche.â You look at him for a short while before glancing down at your slippered-feet. âIâm still scared, honestly. I think Iâve been cursed in every possible aspect of love. Thatâs why when I heard your voice all the way back during that carwash event, I didnât want you to know it was me. It would break what we had going on through the wall and I liked that. It felt like something I could just keep to myself. And then I found out you were Satoru and it was obvious you werenât just mine anymore.âÂ
Gojo lets you talk, lets you call him Gojo again without saying a single word until you finish. Then he says, âWere you disappointed?âÂ
âNo,â you say immediately. âIt wasnât like that.âÂ
He smiles then, head tilting to the side. âThen I can be just Satoru. Just your Satoru, if that helps.âÂ
Itâs so stupidly cheesy that you have to scoff, even as your cheeks warm.Â
âIâm serious,â he chuckles along with you, stepping a little closer. âI liked being 4B. I liked that you knew me when I was just some guy through the wall that you liked talking to. I liked talking to you through blackouts and through shitty phone calls. I liked what we had too. Have, if youâll let me.â
âAre you asking me out?â
He huffs, a weary smirk on his face. âIsnât it obvious?âÂ
Instead of answering him, you shove the bouquet of flowers back into his chest, watching as his brows furrow in confusion, before youâre reaching forward to cup his face and kiss him.
In one suspended second, Gojo simply stands there doing absolutely nothing. He freezes so completely beneath your hands that, if you risked opening your eyes, you might find his bright blue ones staring back at you. His lips are still against yours, the rest of him gone rigid, roses crushed between his chest and yours, fingers locked around the stems not quite sure what else to do.Â
You almost pull back.Â
But then, in a rush of movement, the bouquet is gone.Â
He throws it blindly into your apartment with a kind of urgent, graceless force that makes several roses scatter across your carpet. Before you can laugh, his arms are around you.Â
One arm wraps around your waist, pulling you close enough you half tread on his feet, other hand coming up to cradle the side of your face, warm and shaking just slightly. Nothing in the world has ever felt so right.Â
Thereâs too much smiling in the kiss, and your noses are pressed awkwardly for the kiss to be smooth but then he tilts his head and gets it right.Â
You kiss him until your lungs begin to object and then slowly, you pull away. Gojo follows you for half a second before he catches himself, eyes opening slowly. His pupils are blown wide, hair a mess, and his mouth is parted without anything clever coming out of it.Â
âSo,â he licks his lips, eyes flickering down for a moment. âIs that a yes?âÂ
From the floor, your camera continues recording from its crooked angle. It captures none of it neatly, not your face and not his, not the way his thumb brushes your cheek. It catches the fall of the roses, the way your bodies draw the other in in a rush, the stumbling as he walks you back into your apartment and you both disappear from the frame in a fit of giggles and whispered words.Â
âYes, Satoru,â you laugh, letting him guide you further into your apartment. âItâs a yes.âÂ
Later, when you edit the film, you leave the shot in. It isnât as graceful as it could be nor will it win an Oscar in cinematography, but for your love assignment, you decide that this will do.Â
a/n: oh my GOD this is another draft that i started writing in 2023 (?) and is affectionately known by my friends and i as the jorkin' it fic <3 b99!au fic coming next !! not that i don't love the other fics i've written but it's definitely my favourite wip so i hope you all love that one too! thank you so much for reading until the very end and i hope u enjoyed :3
they were never yours - so what if you find someone who could be?
pairings: toxic!Satosugu x ex-roommate!reader, rebound!Sukuna x f!reader
content: MDNI, angst and smut, heavy pining and yearning, satosugu are dicks, oral (m! receiving), rough sex, consensual recording during sex, unprotected piv sex, arguments, men fighting over you, will the men learn their lesson??, PETTY reader, multiple povs, happy ending
art by @winterrbluess + dividers by @i-mmaculatus
It had been 143 days, eighteen hours and approximately twenty-seven minutes since the day Satoru found your key on the counter.
It might as well have been yesterday.
Your note was in his wallet. Folded up and slotted between his credit card and a Polaroid of you he'd taken a lifetime ago, the ink scribble on the paper seeping through his thoughts still. A blot that he suspected had permanently stained him.
He didn't need to pull it out anymore, by day sixteen he already had every curve and line memorized. Slotted neatly in the box in his brain right next to your smile, the shape of your body when it was folded underneath him, the sound of your laugh.
Seven words were all the past four years were worth to you.
Moved out! Sorry for the short notice :)
That was all.
Seven measly words and the memory of you picking your clothes off the floor, the pout on your lips and the purr of your voice, a bitter last goodbye he hadn't seen for what it was.
Walking away from them with a pretty smile on your face and your phone in your hand.
What killed him the most was how casual it was. Like you had just gone to grocery store. Not emptied out your whole fucking room and dropped off the face of the earth.
Did he not mean more?
Was that all years of friendship had dissolved into? Sharing snacks and sneaking kisses? Limbs tangled and longing stares? Just to be nothing now?
Suguru didn't like talking about you. Didn't want to listen to his never-ending concerns and complaints. Didn't want the reminder of what part he played in pushing you away.
But Satoru couldn't stop.
What were you doing? Where were you?
Were you happy now, at least? Without him? Without Suguru?
It didn't matter how badly he wanted to know, how many hours he spent sitting in your barren bedroom and counting the seconds in silence, how hollow his heart felt in you absence. Because none of it would bring you back.
None of his pining would piece him back together.
Or make you belong to him again.
"You're moping," Suguru dryly commented, reading the ingredients off the back of some cereal box.
Satoru huffed, looking around the empty aisle and leaning against the metal shelf.
Grocery shopping sucked.
It used to be fun. He used to wrap his arms around your waist and plant kisses across your collarbone when no one was looking. He used to throw candy after candy into the shopping cart while you scoffed and scolded him, putting half back up and hiding the smile that curled up on your face when he whined and tugged at your clothes.
They didn't need a cart anymore.
Not when they were only shopping for two now.
But now he kept catching himself absentmindedly tossing your favorite foods in, forcing himself to put it back on the shelf and wonder if you were eating enough without them to cook for you.
Maybe your boyfriend made you meals.
Satoru hoped he hadn't stuck around.
Sure, it was selfish, but wasn't that what Satoru was? Had always been?
If he couldn't have you, he certainly couldn't fucking stand the idea that someone else did.
That another man might be sleeping in your bed and tangled in your sheets. That while he was staring at the ceiling wondering what went wrong, you were staring up at someone new, getting split open and stretched out without even giving him a second thought.
"I'm fine," Satoru forced a strained smile, folding his arms across his chest.
Suguru glanced over at him once, but didn't say anything, just dropping the box in the shopping bag.
And that was the problem, wasn't it?
They knew it was wrong and waited for it to fix itself? For you to be fine?
"I'm gonna go look at the protein bars," Satoru murmured, walking away before he could get stuck spinning in the same circles he'd been in for months.
He was supposed to be moving on.
But if he was still thinking about you, surely, he had to be on your brain too. There was no way you'd just forget the fun times, the fucking, how freely you used to giggle at his dumb jokes.
Suguru just didn't understand.
He could say he loved you, and yeah, he did, but Satoru was the one who found you first, had forced fate to tie you together.
It was his idea to introduce you to each other, his idea for you to live together, his idea to share you after Suguru snuck his way into sleeping with you first.
What kind of world was it where you weren't his too?
Sometimes, on those shitty nights where he ended up counting the seconds on the clock, he sorta wished he'd knocked you up when he had the chance.
At least then you couldn't completely cut him out of your life, like he was some sickness you had to cull.
He glanced up at the signs hanging over the aisles, searching for the one he was looking for. It wasn't their usually grocery store. Suguru's suggestion - a silent way of saying he was sick of hiding from your shadow too. But even going somewhere that held no memories of you didn't help the creeping feeling that you should be here.
With them. Him.
Satoru found the aisle, turning the corner just to freeze at the familiar outline and pretty face waiting for him.
Maybe fate hadn't forgotten him after all.
ê°á â à»ê±
"The fuck are these so overpriced for?" Sukuna grumbled, dismissively picking through the selection of protein bars while you tried not to smile.
"I dunno," You hm-ed, sneaking peeks at him while you looked through the shelves. He wasn't your boyfriend. But you guessed grocery shopping together post-sex wasn't too bad. "We could probably order some online cheaper."
He spent half the week at your apartment anyway.
You might as well stock up on them.
He hmph-ed, but after the past few months of forming a genuine friendship (and sleeping together), you'd figured out that was his way of agreeing.
"Chocolate? Or vanilla?"
You glanced over your shoulder, holding up equally-overpriced protein shakes in each hand as you offered them out to him.
Sukuna huffed, but he shuffled closer anyway, snagging the heavy shopping basket from off your arm after tossing both bottles in. His scowl only softened when he noticed you watching him.
"No strawberry?" He muttered, scanning the shelf in front of you.
"Nope," You hummed, glancing down the aisle and slipping away to find the next item on your grocery list while he trudged after you.
He never let you stray too far though.
A hand squeezed your wrist right as you turned into the next aisle, nearly making you crash into the chip bags lined up on the end cap before you turned around to see someone who wasn't yours - not anymore.
"Hey gorgeous."
Charming smile. Pretty blue eyes. Wild white hair.
Your former roommate.
You didn't get the chance to breathe before Sukuna was shoving Gojo away. Hard. And he did crash into the next end cap over, a few gift cards falling off their hooks and hitting him in the head while Sukuna stepped between you.
"Try that again," Sukuna didn't have to snarl or shout, just three short words in his husky tone was threat enough.
Your second assessment of Satoru Gojo was more critical. The wrinkles in his shirt and the dark circles under his eyes, the once soft buzz of his undercut grown out.
Recognizing that awful ache in his eyes you'd once seen in your own reflection.
He looked like shit.
"Sukuna," You forced his name out, swallowing hard as you folded your arms across your chest, as if it'd do anything to shield you from how hollow you felt seeing Satoru Gojo again. "Let's just leave."
Wherever Satoru was, Suguru was probably close behind.
"Don't," Gojo sounded panicked, his plea cutting through as Sukuna only stepped back enough to wrap an arm around your waist, still glaring at him. "Can we please talk? Just us? You know, catch up?"
You didn't understand how he couldn't see there never had been an us.
There was only ever a them.
"No thanks," You shook your head, settling into Sukuna's side. His grip was tight on your hip, like you might actually slip free and take Gojo up on his offer.
You ended up telling him the entire convoluted history one night half-wasted on wine coolers while you were supposed to be watching some movie, the tv forgotten and the volume turned down so he could listen to every embarrassing detail. How pathetically in love you were. How long they left you out. How empty you felt after being used so easily.
Sukuna hadn't said much in the moment, but his face made it obvious he loathed them even more than you did.
And even though you both established you weren't really looking for a relationship, he fucked you that night like you were, slow and sure, his mouth on yours and his hands holding your wrists.
"They don't bother you still?" He had murmured in your ear afterwards, your fingers coming through his hair as you laid flat on his chest.
"I blocked them," You shrugged, sighing as he pulled you up so he could press a kiss to your forehead.
For a guy who claimed to be only be concerned about getting his cock wet, he was hellbent on aftercare anyway, making sure you were comfortable and carrying you to the bathroom and checking the temperature for the shower or bath before letting you step in.
But it wasn't like you could compare him to Satoru, or even Suguru.
He was just different.
"Sweetheart," The Satoru in front of you now protested, standing up straight and ignoring the gift cards now scattered by his feet. One had gotten caught on his jacket, but he hadn't realized it.
A petty part of you hoped he would try to leave with it and set off the sensors.
But mostly?
You didn't really feel anything for him anymore. The holes in your heart had been patched up. Caulked and painted over until it was brand new. Or as close as you could get.
Time was funny. The past four months had felt longer than the last four years.
You accepted what happened already. You could blame them and point fingers and cry about it, but you had to face the fact you let them. Love wasn't an excuse.
"I hope you're doing okay," You managed a polite smile, letting Sukuna start to pull you back towards the cash registers.
"I'd be better if you heard me out," Gojo called out, his voice still saccharinely sweet, a pretty purr that stopped working on you long before you'd left him. "Two minutes, please."
If you gave him an two minutes, he'd ask for an hour. And then what? Beg you to come back? Promise he missed you? That all he wanted was to try again?
"Your boyfriend really won't let you talk to me?" He just couldn't help himself, could he? Bitterness bleeding through, a big dramatic pout probably plastered on.
He only cared when you slipped through his fingers.
Gojo would never be your boyfriend.
And sometimes you wondered if he'd ever really been your friend.
You didn't reply, chewing on the inside of your cheek when he reached back out, his fingers grazing your arm, about to grab you before Sukuna caught his wrist.
"Touch her, and I'll break your fucking fingers," Sukuna scoffed. You suspected he would've done it already if this wasn't where you regularly shopped at. A few of the cashiers were glancing nervously at each other, one of them reaching for the phone to call the manager or maybe even the cops before you pulled Sukuna back.
"Come on," You murmured, tugging on his sleeve as he let go of Gojo with a disgusted sigh. "He's not worth it."
Satoru made a sound that was half a scoff, and half, well, you weren't sure what.
Something hurt? Wounded? Betrayed?
You decided it didn't matter.
The show was over. You bowed out. Whatever you were to each other now, it wasn't anything more than background extras.
Sukuna slipped his hand into yours, fingers holding on tight as he followed you to checkout, mumbling something about what a fucking idiot Gojo was under his breath and readjusting the shopping basket hooked over his other arm.
"Goddamn prick," Sukuna muttered, throwing a mean glare over his shoulder as he started taking items out of the basket and setting them on the conveyor belt.
"It's whatever," You replied, trying not to find the fact he was more bothered than you funny. You snagged the basket when it was empty, glancing around to where the others were stacked. "I'm gonna put this back."
"Fine," Sukuna grumbled, digging his wallet out from his jeans. "But I'm paying."
You cracked a smile, watching him out of the corner of your vision while he tried to answer semi-politely to the cashier's small talk while you walked over to add your basket to the stack.
But a flash of something dark caught your attention.
Suguru was watching you.
Maybe had been for the past few minutes. A basket of his own hooked over his elbow, filled with familiar foods and snacks you hadn't tasted since you'd lived with them.
He didn't make any move to walk over. His hair piled on top of his head in a messy bun, bangs swept away from his face so you could see how intently he was observing you. Dark brows knitted together, a phony smile he couldn't pretend reached his eyes.
His hand lifted up to wave, and you hesitantly returned it.
They missed you.
But you hadn't missed them.
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"Seriously," Sukuna huffed. "Who the fuck does he think he is?"
You giggled, getting up on the tip of your toes to put up a box of pancake mix. He grabbed it from your hand, neatly putting it up on the shelf for you while he sighed. His hand settled on your hip though, his chest to your back and broad frame blocking you from slipping away. You looked over your shoulder at him. "Kuna."
"Don't 'Kuna' me," He wryly said, face scrunched up. "I should've beat his ass for just talking to you."
You did laugh now, unable to stop yourself when his jaw clenched, lips tugged down in a serious frown.
"I'm not joking."
"I know," You grinned, shaking your head like you disapproved.
If you were somewhere else, a dingy bar or out on the street, he probably would've hit him. Grabbed him by the collar and given him a black eye or a broken nose.
You might've liked it a few months ago.
But you didn't need him to defend you now.
"You should go blow off some steam," You softly said, twisting so you could brush his hair back, running your fingers through the soft pink strands and craning your neck up to plant a kiss on the hard line of his jaw.
"Yeah," He reluctantly grumbled.
He leaned down to capture your lips against his, your back hitting the door frame as his greedy hands traced over the outline of your waist down to your ass, squeezing like it was some stress toy for him. His kiss was greedy, tongue lapping at your lower lip before hurrying to slip between them, to remind himself you were his to taste. You broke away first to catch your breath, lungs straining for air.
Sukuna groaned, his nose brushing against yours and sharp eyes searing through you.
"You're right."
"Usually am," You hummed back, offering one more peck to his cheek before slipping out of his grasp to finish unloading the groceries you'd managed to buy before you were interrupted.
"I guess I'll go the gym," He relented, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Yeah, you could ask Jin to go with you," You suggested before he could try to ask you.
All you wanted to do was nap. Catch an hour or two of sleep while you had a free afternoon since a certain someone would probably be cutting into how much you'd be getting tonight.
He helped you unload the rest, putting up the stuff that went on the higher shelves while you stocked the fridge. But when he went to pull out his phone, you snuck out to your bedroom, peeling off your shirt and jeans to change into something more comfortable, a thin tank-top and pajama pants. You tossed your phone on the nightstand before crawling in bed and pulling the blankets over you.
Sukuna popped in right as your eyes started to shut, squatting next to the bed to flick your forehead. You swatted at his hand before rolling over, hiding your head under a pillow.
"I'm heading out," He sighed, and you felt something in your hair, a small pull for your attention, or more likely, him fighting the temptation to tug on it.
"Okay." Your voice was muffled by the pillow, but you didn't bother peeking out.
"I'll come over after," He added, like he didn't really want to leave.
"You don't have to," You shrugged under the covers. Maybe you were friends with benefits, but it was on your terms this time. You enjoyed his company, but you didn't expect anything from him. If he wanted to go out afterwards and fuck another girl, it was fine by you. If you didn't see him again for weeks, oh well.
Being alone wasn't bad at all.
Sukuna huffed, his steps shuffling in place.
"I want to," He begrudgingly admitted.
"You can take my key then, I guess," You yawned, readjusting the blanket as you got more comfortable in bed. "Not going anywhere anyway. Just lock the door behind you."
Sukuna tch-ed, and you were glad the pillow hid how hard you rolled your eyes.
He'd been hinting at wanting a key to your place for the last few weeks. Well, hinting was an understatement.
The reality was he told you point-blank it'd be easier if he could just come and go as he pleases instead of texting and calling and feeling like he had to make an appointment to see you when he was over all the damn time anyway.
But he wasn't your boyfriend.
Shouldn't he have to make an appointment?
That's what this was? Or well, you wanted to think that's what this was.
Without a title, without something concrete and certain - which you weren't even sure you could handle - you didn't want to hand him a key into your heart home.
"Where's it at?" He grumbled, not pushing the issue though.
"On the counter," You hummed, trying not to yawn again, something about his warmth, his presence so close was lulling you closer to sleep, eyes getting heavy.
"I'll be back soon," He muttered, and there it was again. Fingers in your hair. But then he kissed your back. A handful of seconds where his lips brushed against the exposed skin of your shoulder.
You listened to him leave. Counted his footsteps and felt your heart stutter at the door shutting behind him.
And just maybe?
You might miss him.
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You woke up to the slam of the front door. It didn't startle you, probably because you'd just sort of adapted to the sound of him stomping around. The heavy footsteps and the thump of his gym bag hitting the ground. Making himself at home.
Settling back in and shutting your eyes again, face nuzzling into the pillow while you listened to the shower start in the spare bathroom down the hall.
It was almost cute, supposing he probably remembered you were sleeping and was trying to be quiet after he already woke you up.
You'd actually almost fallen back asleep before he walked in. It wasn't that he said something. But it was the silence that made you sit up, the fact he hadn't even grunted or offered some raspy hey.
Sukuna was just standing there, glaring at something on his phone, one of your towels slung low around his hips. Muscles defined and still damp, beads of water dripping down his sculpted chest to his happy trail peeking out. You had to drag your eyes up to his face, forcing yourself to focus despite the dreamy haze the world seemed to still have.
You were accustomed to attitude.
This was just different.
His eyes were too dark, his frown too tight, shoulders sagging with stress. It took him a few seconds to really look at you, and even then, his stare felt strange. Like you were some problem to solve.
"Wha' happened?" You yawned, rubbing the sleep from your eyes.
His head dropped down, combing through his still-damp strands of hair. "He was there."
"Oh," You breathed.
"Yeah," He grunted, all gravelly and rough.
His attempt to seek solace from Satoru had backfired. Your problems following him wherever he went.
"Well," You slowly spoke, and he met your eyes again. "You're the one here."
He didn't even smirk.
No smugness in any of the lines of edges of his face. Your stomach flipped, unsure what you could even say. Yeah, you had terrible taste? Yeah, Satoru was an idiot?
Sorry for sleeping with someone so stupid?
"You know what he said?" Sukuna slowly drawled, his scowl etched so deeply into his skin you wondered if it'd ever fade.
You didn't say anything, blinking at him with your lips still parted, waiting for everything to somehow get worse.
"To have fun fucking you while I could," Sukuna scoffed, disgusted at just repeating it. "That you'd be back in his bed once you got tired of this."
Like you were just having a tantrum.
"What?"
You had tolerated a lot from Satoru. Missed meetings and cold meals and more mistakes and broken promises than you could count. But to beg you to speak to him and turn around to what? Fucking slut-shame you? Treat you like a toddler acting out for his attention?
"I almost hit him," Sukuna begrudgingly admitted, frowning at the memory. "But they kicked me out first."
"What?" You repeated, still too stunned to form a full thought.
"Guess I'll have to find a new gym," He muttered, unclenching his jaw as he finally stepped closer to you, some of the tension starting to melt.
So what? Gojo had managed to get your not-boyfriend banned from his gym and cut your grocery shopping short all in one day.
What was left for him to fuck up?
"He's full of fucking shit," You grumbled, mulling over his words and wishing they didn't drag such a visceral reaction out of you. Hot, angry, coals stirring in your gut, searing through you and demanding you do something.
Being the bigger person didn't work when the person who pissed you off was a prick.
You wanted to hurt him, carve out a piece of his heart and crush it the way he'd do casually done to you, for him to be wounded and withering and for once in his fucking life, feel an ounce of regret.
And maybe it made you an even bigger idiot than Gojo, but you were grabbing your phone off the nightstand, unlocking it and pulling up the list of blocked numbers until you landed on a familiar one.
"What are you doing?" Sukuna deadpanned, watching you closely as your brows cinched together.
"Unblocking Gojo," You casually said, the seeds of the idea already planted.
"Why the fuck would you do that?"
You'd never actually heard him so upset. His molars grinding hard, reaching out to grab the phone from you. You held it behind your back, slyly smiling as he tried to snag it again.
"You wanna show him just how much fun you have fucking me?"
He paused, his jaw slack and his eyes widening for a brief second when it struck him just how serious you were.
"Give it to me," He grumbled, grabbing the phone. But instead of tossing it away or blocking Gojo again, he angled it carefully, reaching over to fix a strand of your hair.
"Whatever you wanna do, you know, just-" You offered, giving him free reign to fuck you and fold you and bend you until he felt better.
Oh, and whenever Gojo got the message.
"I'll take care of you," He huffed.
Sukuna kept his promises.
He flipped the phone around, the option to video call Satoru Gojo already pulled up, one click away. You knew he'd answer.
But you still hesitated, just for a second, before peeling your shirt off first, leaving you in a lacy little bra you'd only kept on for Sukuna to see tonight. Then, shuffling out of your pajama pants to reveal the matching underwear.
"You don't mind?" You asked, giving him an opportunity to back out, but he just scoffed, looking down to hit the button for you. The phone started ringing, and your face flushed, the idea suddenly seeming terrible but your fingers freezing around the phone, unable to move and hit the button.
He answered on the third ring.
"Angel," Satoru chirped, clearly fucking pleased-as-can-be, his smile bright and carefree as his face came into frame, too close to the camera. "I haven't stopped thinking about you, y'know, I was really hoping you'd-"
"Satoru," You hummed his name as sweetly as you could muster, lashes fluttering.
"Y-yeah, baby?"
"Are you with Suguru?" You asked, pitching your voice to sound breathy, tilting your head at the camera and chewing on your lip.
His face flushed. A few wispy strands of white hair were stuck to his forehead, and you recognized the wallpaper of his room behind him.
Fresh out of the shower too.
"Nah, not right now," He finally answered, taking in your appearance. The sleepy, seductive eyes. The sharp edge of your canine biting down on your bottom lip to to remind what it once felt like to kiss it. "Are y-"
"You wanna record this for him?" You casually suggested, slowly pulling down the strap of your bra, making a show of your fingertips grazing against your collarbone. "Or will this be our little secret?"
You knew what he would pick.
But it was cute he tried to act torn.
"Our little secret," He answered, and you were pretty damn sure he was already palming his bulge. A bet you'd be willing to take by the way the lump in his throat bobbed.
And sure, he said that, but there was no fucking way he wasn't screen recording already, thinking it'd be something to save and fuck his fist to again later.
"Oh yeah?" You glanced past the camera up to Sukuna, who was staring down at you like he was imagining all the different positions he was going to put you in after this.
The signature smugness returning as you winked at him.
How would Satoru feel to be the one left out of the secret this time?
You tapped the button to flip the camera around, letting Sukuna take the phone.
"Fuck."
Not great, you guessed.
You got down on your knees, tracing the edges of the towel and tugging it down to reveal Sukuna's cock, a shade of pink just as pretty as his hair, swollen and throbbing in your palm when you delicately wrapped your fingers around it. Slowly stroking upwards, collecting the pre-cum as you stared up at the camera. You sorta wished you could see Satoru's face, but Sukuna's surprisingly fast fingers snapped a screenshot.
To hide your giggle, you leaned in to drag your tongue over the thick vein bulging along the side of his cock, taking your time before wrapping your lips around the very tip of it.
Normally, Sukuna would scoff and scold you, grabbing your hair to guide you or flip you over and give you head instead. But he was indulging your dramatics, even groaning at the ginger way you lapped and licked every inch of him.
"S-sweetheart, you can't be fucking serious," Satoru flipped from needy to nervous, but he didn't hang up.
"Is there a problem?" You innocently asked, pausing from peppering kisses across Sukuna's shaft, before his free fingers found your hair, wrapping it around his knuckles and pushing you forward until your lips were brushing against his leaking tip again, parting them so he could press inside.
Satoru made some strangled sound when you started sucking on the thick cock shoved into your mouth. Watching you choke and gag on it, bumping into the back of your throat while your nails sunk into Sukuna's hips, grabbing onto him for purchase while he fucked your face.
When he didn't reply, you tapped on Sukuna's hip to get him to pull out, his cock still bumping against your lips while you directed your attention up. "You wish it was you?"
"Fuck, yes," Satoru groaned, and you didn't have to see him to know he was getting off on this.
Although, what he really wished for was probably that it was Suguru's cock you were sucking.
"Too fucking bad," Sukuna wryly mocked, using your hair to force himself back in, hips bucking forward to drive his cock deep enough your airway was closing around him.
"Who do you think taught her to do that?" Satoru snapped back, his voice hoarse and raspy, the sound of his fist furiously pumping his cock filling the background.
Sukuna took the bait.
One second his cock was bruising your throat, and the next you were being half-tossed onto your wrinkled blankets, bent over and your panties torn off.
Something wet and heavy hit your bare ass, glancing glossy-eyed over your shoulder as Sukuna's cock rested on your ass while his free hand traced over your spine.
He drew it out, his rough fingertips running over every ridge. You shivered at the touch, wiggling your ass back, but he didn't budge.
"You wanna watch me fuck her till she can't remember your name?" Sukuna casually asked, holding the camera up as his other hand slid back down, delivering a light smack to your ass, just enough to make it jiggle before he pried you apart.
Slotting two fingers in first, stretching you out in one single, rough thrust, down to the knuckle before pulling them back out to put on display.
Giving Gojo a front row seat to how soaked you were, skin damp and slick, spreading your thighs and teasing your entrance with his swollen tip. A mean grip on your hip, holding you in place no matter how much you squirmed around him.
"You asshole-"
"Sorry," Sukuna bluntly cut him off. "This is a private show."
He hung up on him, throwing the phone on the bed, but it barely took him two seconds to sheath himself inside you, the full length of him forcing past the first ring of resistance before you could stutter out his name.
"Shit," You gasped, clawing at the bedsheets as his hips smacked harshly into your skin, driving himself in to the base, having to lift your hips to fully sink himself in.
You tried to breathe, but each time you sucked in air, it seemed like there was nowhere for it to go, too full to do anything but pant when he bottomed out, grinding his tip in to get you to stop moving so much.
"He doesn't get this," Sukuna muttered, pressing your back into a pretty arch for him, your moans muffled into the blanket as he rutted into you. The fingers on your hip were bruising, nails scraping against your skin. He leaned over, most of his weight resting on you so he could angle himself impossibly deeper.
You didn't know what to make of that.
Or him right now.
Usually sex was the sort of drawn-out affair where you'd yank each other's hair or let him tie you up or fuck until you couldn't feel your limbs.
Switching positions just to try them out, to see how many different way he could drive you insane.
But this was undeniably intimate.
The possessive rhythm of him pounding into you, the weight of his chest on your back, the longing kisses he kept pressing into the crook of your collarbone and across your throat, how he would let his cock throb and stall when he was buried so deep the only sound you could make was weak whimpers.
"K-Kuna," You whined, sweat making his skin stick to yours, his teeth sinking into your shoulder blade while he groaned. You gasped at the pain, but then the hand on your hip forced itself around to find your clit, his thumb dancing over it before rolling it between his fingers just to tease you.
"You don't know what you're fucking doing to me," He grimaced, and you wished he'd just tell you instead of taking it out on your sore and swollen bud.
Massaging harsh circles around it while he readjust to slam into his favorite little spot in the back, the one that made you yelp every time he found it, squeezing around him as he rocked his hips against your ass. The pressure and tension pulling tighter with every brutal thrust, each drag of his thumb back over your clit sending stars across your vision.
You were seeing white when you came undone, eyes scrunched shut as you stammered out a second shattered cry of his name, trying to squirm forward to escape the intensity of it, but he dragged you back down to fuck you through your high. Dumb and pliant on his dick, letting him pull you how he wanted for him to shove himself in-and-out again and again.
He barely pulled out in time, fucking his hands until cum splattered across your back, thick drops of it dripping down the curve of your spine.
You opened your mouth, about to suggest him just grabbing the discarded towel to clean you off so you could go for a second round after a water break. But he was already wiping you clean, flipping you over into your back to trace over the scratch marks and broken skin he left on your hips, frowning at the sight.
"We match," You muttered, dazed and dreamy and still trying to catch your breath while you gestured to where you scratched his hips earlier.
Sukuna wasn't so amused.
"He's not going to leave you alone," He finally said.
"Does it matter?" You hummed.
"I hate him," Sukuna grumbled bitterly.
"You hate everyone," You reminded him. Sometimes, you wondered why he even tolerated you.
Or if he was just like them - what you said, what you did, it didn't matter much if you were sleeping in their sheets.
"Not you."
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It was stupid to show up somewhere they used to frequent. To order a drink at a bar you'd gotten wasted at too many times to count, retreating to one of the few places of solitude you'd found.
Every time you'd ever gone with them, you just ended up alone anyway. Drinking in a corner booth by yourself while they talked to other girls and try to make you jealous.
Still, it was better than staying home. You felt like you were suffocating inside the apartment. Sukuna hadn't shown up all week.
He left when things were still weird, looking at you like he saw you in some new light. Part of you wondered if he'd realized he didn't want to deal with your past.
You told yourself it was fine.
That you were okay with that.
But every day that passed with just a few awkward texts exchanged, the harder it was to breathe. Going to bed early just so you wouldn't have to think about him.
Wouldn't have to wish he was there.
And terrifyingly enough, you were just now struggling to face the fact you just wanted him.
Wanted him to come stomping through your door and over your heart, hear his grumble and feel his hands on your side.
You'd been shoving all those feelings down, scared to accept the risk that he might hurt you the same way Satoru and Suguru did.
He was giving you space, you guessed. Waiting for you to call him and tell him to come over. But you couldn't bring yourself to unlock your phone, to tap a few buttons and break the silence first.
You should.
You should suck it up and ask him to show up. See if he wanted to re-enact your first meeting and fuck in the backseat of his car.
Back when you thought you'd never see him again.
The thought of that happening now had started to curdle in your stomach. All sour and screwed up, the same way you used to be.
But you changed.
And he'd never been Satoru or Suguru to start with.
You sucked in a sharp breath, frowning to yourself when you shared your location with him. You couldn't think of a message to send him. But he would know what you wanted.
It was just up to him to take you up on it.
Although, after a handful of minutes passed without a reply, you were starting to get anxious. Readjusting the hem of your tiny dress and fixing the straps while you debated on getting another drink.
Had he seen it?
Was he just done?
So like an idiot, you called him. Just to feel like the biggest fool on the planet when he didn't pick up.
What did you expect?
Him to come running to your rescue? For him to promise to pick you up? Or maybe just a drinking partner since he wasn't your real one?
You couldn't take your eyes off your phone, polishing off the rest of your glass before you even noticed it was near empty.
But it didn't buzz or light up, even as the clock ticked by, getting later and later.
You were about to leave.
Call a cab or order an Uber.
"Hi, pretty." A soft purr. Velvet and honey and so smooth you sorta wanted to slap him for it.
Once again the wrong man.
This time though, you didn't entertain it. Didn't even look at him. Just got out of the booth and slipped past his broad frame, shoving your phone in your purse while you tried to squeeze between the sea of bodies.
You thought you blended in, or at least he'd have half a brain and know you didn't want to speak to him.
But he was right on your heels, following you outside the exit and into the warm air.
"What do you want from me?" You turned, exasperated and exhausted from bearing the brunt of their expectations for so long. Even after you left.
Suguru stared like a cat who caught his prey, looming over you like you were his favorite little mouse to play with. You'd forgotten how it felt - to be shrunk down to size when he was around. The guilt that gnawed at you.
Satoru made it easier.
He was all sweet talk and saccharine smiles and pretty sentences meant to make you melt until you were a puddle in his palm.
With Suguru?
He saw you. Could see through the lies you tried to sell and counter it until he had you cornered. But knowing you didn't mean he cared enough to change for you.
Suguru only wanted to piece you back together into a shape that suited him.
"Just to talk," He answered, and he sounded so sincere, you might've believed him if you were a little stupider.
Then again, you'd been dumb for deceiving yourself into thinking you were worth more than a few fucks and a fun game for them to share and see who could make you crack first.
"I heard that from your friend already," You bitterly muttered.
No matter what he said, or what they did, it was just a simple fucking fact of life. Satoru and Suguru were a pair. Friends, soulmates, whatever label you wanted to tack to it. You would just be a prize for them to share.
There wasn't space for you.
Not in the way you ever wanted.
And that was okay. You were over it. Didn't need any part of them. Didn't want it.
So why the hell did they have to just keep rubbing it in your face? Why couldn't they just go have sex with some girl that looked like you? That was all you'd ever been good for to them anyway.
"My friend?" Suguru echoed, a brow carefully arched up. "You know he misses you. I miss you."
"I don't care," You hissed, shaking your head. They needed to get that through their thick skulls.
"You don't mean that," He protested, not pushy, but subtly trying to convince correct you.
"I really do," You scoffed, stepping away and glancing around the street at all the people passing by, a few staring at the handsome man you were trying to get away from.
"I saw the video," He spoke up, and you threw a glare over your shoulder at him.
"Yeah? You enjoy the show?" You sarcastically asked.
He rolled his eyes, and you couldn't help but huff at him.
"I got the point." You sincerely doubted that when he was staring at you like he wanted to take you home and spank you. Like you were a pet he spoiled too much and had to reprimand. "Now come back home."
No waterworks. No begging. No getting on his knees and asking for forgiveness. Not even a fucking apology.
"You don't even care why I left," You spoke carefully, barely able to keep your voice even. It had never been your home. Only ever theirs.
"Of course I care," He murmured, again trying to bridge the distance, reaching out to grab your hand before you smacked it down.
"Don't fucking touch me."
"I'm sorry," Suguru apologized, but you could see the surprise registering in his eyes. It was faint, but uneasiness started to creep into his features, swallowing hard. "I know you're hurt and angry, but we never meant to-"
"I'm not," You interrupted, eyes hardening. "I don't feel anything for either of you anymore."
"Don't say that," Suguru said, and you just shook your head. "This is fixable. We-"
"There isn't a we. And I'm not something you can fix," You mumbled, biting down on the inside of your cheek. "I'm just done, okay?"
"Could I just take you out to dinner?" He hadn't changed. Maybe he'd try to coax you into thinking otherwise - but he still couldn't listen. "One chance?"
"You had a million," You sharply declined. Him and Satoru both. They wouldn't get another one.
His stare hardened, and he tried to step closer, but before he could, someone was moving in-between you, blocking your view.
You heard it though.
The sound of skin hitting skin. The distinct thud of a fist connecting with a face.
It took you a few seconds to process the picture being painted in front of you. The splashes of pink and red. The hint of black. The tan skin.
Then Sukuna brought his fist back and slammed it into Suguru's jaw.
You grabbed at his shirt, trying to pull him back, your lips parted in a protest that just wouldn't come out. Sukuna was seething though, probably seeing the same red that was splattering the concrete.
"You heard her," Sukuna snarled as Suguru spit out a thick glob of blood by his shoes.
"Kuna," You started, but you weren't even sure he heard you.
The door to the bar swung open, and a familiar head of white hair popped out, but Satoru froze before he stepped out, the heavy wood hitting him.
"You must be fucking brainless if you seriously thought she'd ever take your ass back," Sukuna scoffed, shoving Suguru back before turning to you. He grabbed your hand, knuckles still split and bleeding, but you didn't want to let go.
"Yeah?" Suguru dryly asked, wiping the blood away from his mouth, but it was already dripping all over his shirt. Satoru started to walk over, his brows furrowed and frowning at the scene, but you were already tugging Sukuna back.
You were sick of this.
Maybe years from now, when all of this had faded and none of it was fresh, you could stomach their presence. Could look back and find nostalgia in the good moments instead of drowning in the bad.
But not right now.
"Can we go home?" You got up on the top of your toes to whisper in Sukuna's ear, squeezing his hand soft enough you wouldn't hurt his bruised fist.
He nodded, but Satoru was trying to catch up.
"Hey, hey," He called out, once again desperate for attention you didn't want to give him.
"I swear-"
"Just let me," You murmured to Sukuna before he could potentially face a second set of assault charges.
Satoru sighed in relief when you glanced back at him.
"Thank you," He half-groaned, already holding his hand out like he really thought you'd let go of Sukuna's to take his instead. "I know you-"
You weren't really listening.
Studying his face, the softness of it, the pretty eyes you used to adore, the shape his lips made when he said sorry.
What happened to the man you met all those years ago?
The one who laughed and teased you? A sneaky hand under the table and a sloppy kiss to the cheek? Who looked at you like you were the sun instead of some burnt-out star?
Or had this always been him? Selfish and inconsiderate and shallow?
You supposed none of it really mattered.
"I'm not interested," You bluntly said, and Sukuna's palm tightened around yours, fingers pressing into your knuckles.
"What?" Gojo blinked, not comprehending even when you so clearly spelled it out for him.
"Whatever happened, happened, okay? It's over. I don't want to keep doing this," You replied, not caring how short and sharp it sounded.
And part of you felt a little bad, watching his face fall as it finally started to set in that nothing he said or did would change the words coming out of your mouth.
"I don't hate you, but I don't want to see you or talk to you or pretend to be friends when we never were to begin with," You rushed through your words, wincing at the word friends as Sukuna's arm brushed against you, an accidental anchor.
He was here for you.
Not to make you feel like shit or guilt trip you for standing up for yourself.
But you called and he came.
"You're my girl, you've always-" Gojo protested.
"That's bullshit and we both know it," You spoke softly, biting your lip hard enough to split it open, the metallic taste of blood on your tongue.
Suguru was just staring behind him, holding his sore jaw and watching you with those unreadable eyes.
"I meant it before, I hope you're okay," You forced yourself to finish. "Take care of yourself."
"I'm sorry," Gojo was half-begging, panic flaring up in his face at every step back you took.
"Yeah," You shrugged your shoulders slightly, the thin strap to your dress threatening to fall down as you swallowed hard. It felt like the last time. A proper farewell. "Bye, Gojo."
He opened his mouth to speak just to shut it, pausing just for his lips to fly open again for one final bargain. "Can't we just try again? Please?"
He sounded broken. Voice cracking and breathing stuttering.
But you repaired yourself before.
They would just have to do the same.
"Maybe in another life," You half-heartedly said, and then you turned away.
Let Sukuna lead you back to his car. Open the door and buckle you up. Turn the key in the ignition and pull out into the road.
One glance back in the rearview as you left them behind.
"My place or yours?" Sukuna grunted once you hit the first stop light, his intense stare carefully assessing you in the faint red glow. His hair looked darker, his face suddenly seemed so much more mature, knuckles strained and bone-white under the bruises and blood.
"Mine," You quietly answered.
He curtly nodded, reluctantly turning his attention back to the road as the light turned green again.
"I'm not letting it happen," He abruptly interrupted the quiet a minute or two later, and you almost laughed at your firmness of it, the way his face scrunched up and he didn't even know it.
"What?" You asked, lips struggling not to turn up in a smile despite the night you had. The past week of wishing you were with him.
"You being with them," He muttered, like he was a little embarrassed to say it. "Even in another life."
"Yeah?" You giggled. "You're gonna save me?"
"You make it sound so sappy," He grunted, as if he hadn't started it.
"Uh-huh," You covered your mouth to hide your smile.
"Shut up," He grumbled, and maybe it was the stoplight, but his cheeks looked almost pink.
"Let me clean your knuckles when we get home," You softly requested.
"Fine."
But once you got in, he ended up placing you on the cold marble of the counter, hoisting you up by your waist and digging out the first aid kit from underneath the sink.
He didn't wince or cringe while you wiped the blood away, letting your fingers tenderly examine the scrapes, but he held his breath when you gently brought his hand up to your lips to kiss those sturdy fingers.
"Isn't it s'pposed to be the other way around?" He asked, but he didn't pull his hand away either.
"What? Like you're a knight?" You laughed, trying to picture him in the whole getup - the shiny armor and heavy helmet.
"It fits."
You couldn't tell if he was being sarcastic or not.
"What does that make me?" You tilted your head to the side. "Your princess?"
"If you want to be," He shrugged.
"And if I do?" It slipped out before you could stop it.
And strangely, you found you didn't want to take it back.
Sukuna's lips smashed into yours. Hard and hungry and filled with something you'd both been desperately denying until now.
Moaning into his mouth as his cold, calloused hands slid under your short dress, one reaching around to hold your back and pull you close while the other tugged your breast free from your bra, rolling your nipple between his fingers. Dragging the pad of his thumb over the bud and toying with it until it hardened, his tongue slipping past your lips to trace your teeth.
"My dress," You complained between kisses, trying not to smile and giggle when he huffed and struggled not to tear it when he pulled it off of you, briefly breaking the kiss to lift it over your head.
"There," He murmured, immediately shutting you up with another kiss.
He wasn't rushing though, no, he seemed to try and make each second last. It wasn't a heat of the moment make out or hookup. You weren't just meeting each other's needs. It meant more.
The start of something serious.
Where you would be his and he would be yours and it really was just that simple.
"Hey," You breathed, planting a soft peck on the edge of his lips and cupping his cheeks to stop him from suffocating you with another starving kiss.
His nose brushed against yours, his dark eyes locking onto you. And for the first time in forever, you wanted the intimacy. Wanted to share and soak in the feeling of falling in love.
"Hey," He murmured back, rough and low, sucking in an uneven breath. His hands were harsh, heavy in each touch, but he tried to be soft. Tried to be tender.
You were worth the effort to him.
The risk of putting your faith, your future, into him didn't seem like anything to fear anymore.
"You still want that key?"
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Suguru stuck to his habits.
Tea instead of coffee. Keeping to a schedule - even when Satoru tried to bend it. Refusing to break even when he, they were fractured.
Filling in the empty spaces with meaningless drivel, anything to occupy his heart and mind enough to not thing about what or who was missing.
And it worked. Most of the time.
But some days?
He still thought about you.
In the park. Watching tv. Washing dishes. Wondering what could've been - and what should've been.
Hearing footsteps in another room and picturing you padding around barefoot, or Satoru chasing you down the hall, protectively wrapping an arm around you when you tried to hide behind him.
He saw you in the shirts you used to steal from him. Felt you in the empty bed. Heard you in your old favorite songs.
Years had passed and yet, you still haunted him. Hung over his head ready to rain whenever he forgot his umbrella.
Suguru supposed he was just a man made up by old mistakes. If moving on meant he'd never get those glimpses of your ghost, he didn't care for it.
He readjusted the shopping basket over his arm. Fingers tracing over a bag of your favorite chips, junk he used to tease you for liking, but he was tempted to buy them anyway, just for old times sake - give it a try himself.
Someone else grabbed it first.
"Oh, sorry." His stomach dropped. "Didn't see you - oh."
Yeah, oh.
He had to force himself to turn.
Body switching into manual, his head slowly swiveling as he swallowed hard. Shifting focus to face the phantom from his thoughts.
"Hi, Geto," You acknowledged him with a pretty smile, one that was genuine, painfully real, like he was an old friend.
He expected sharp words, a pointed glare, to repeat the same conversation he'd come to regret. But you looked at him so softly.
"Hey," He breathlessly replied, unable to drag his dark eyes away from your face. How could he when he had no idea if he'd ever see it again? "Been a long time."
"It has," You laughed a little, and there were only a few signs of the years that passed in your face. A few extra lines, all the smiles and frowns and laughter he missed out on now faintly etched into your skin. Your hair was styled differently, and he suspected the lip gloss you were wearing no longer tasted like candy.
"How have you been?" Suguru heard his own voice asking, sounding far more collected than he felt. His throat was closing up, his chest too tight, heart and lungs straining to hold the rest of him together while he subtly picked at his cuticles.
"I'm great, how are you and uh-" You paused, like you were trying to decide if Satoru was still around or if it'd be rude to ask without knowing. You changed your mind, restarting the question entirely. "Anything new with you?"
Satoru was actually with him. Off raiding the candy aisle, probably. All it'd take was a text or a shout, and he'd show up.
But Suguru had never been good at sharing you.
"Nah, not too much," He started to answer, but then his gaze shifted down and he froze.
You were pregnant.
A soft hand resting on the swell of your stomach, probably what? Six months along? Seven? A cute little sundress clinging to your body, the bag of chips in your other hand and a gleam of gold and diamond glittering on the fourth finger.
You belonged to someone else.
"Never thought I'd see Suguru Geto speechless," You teased, seemingly unbothered by his stunned expression. He hated the way you said his name now.
Like he really was just a stranger.
"Baby, huh?" He slowly said, struggling to find the words that wouldn't make him sound like a jealous asshole when he was so desperately trying to be happy for you.
"He's due in a couple months," You smiled again, and Suguru's composure threatened to crack. You were having a boy, one that would have some stranger's eyes or nose, that wouldn't have his last name or even Satoru's.
He watched the way your hand settled on your baby bump, the affection in the simple gesture. His stare returned to the engagement ring on your finger, the wedding band below it.
And of all the times he imagined you'd get married, he always pictured himself playing the groom, or at the very least, the best man you'd be sleeping with after the ceremony. He never considered he wouldn't even get an invite.
"How long have you been married?" He asked, nodding towards the rings.
Your cute cheeks flushed pink, tilting your head to the side to do the math. "Almost five years now."
Half a decade.
It was longer than you ever lived with them.
"Your husband's a lucky man," Suguru managed to say, soft and low. He meant it. He'd probably trade anything to be in his shoes.
"That's what I tell him," You casually giggled, so carefree compared to the last time he'd seen you. Softer now. Happier.
There was the squeak of a shopping cart, a toddler laughing just a little too loud, and you were both glancing back to look.
Suguru recognized him immediately.
Sure, he had a few more tattoos, his hair grown out a little longer, but what grabbed his attention was what he already knew he'd find - a matching wedding band. The jealousy simmering in his blood had barely started to boil before he noticed the little girl swinging her legs in the cart. One with your hair and his eyes.
"Dah-dee," She whined, glaring at him. "Wan' candy."
"Yeah? You want cavities too?" Sukuna half-scolded, a relaxed quality to him Suguru had never seen before. Content somehow.
"I brush my teeth," She pouted, although it sounded more like teef. Sukuna was about to roll his eyes, looking up just to spot Suguru standing with his pretty, pregnant wife.
His scowl was immediate, his jaw clenching before you were already walking towards him, dropping the bag of chips in the cart and getting up on your toes to kiss his cheek.
"Look who I bumped into," You smiled, as if the last time the three of you had been in the same room, Sukuna hadn't given him a black eye.
Sukuna didn't say anything, just giving him a cold once-over before his stare returned to you. The warmth returned to his face almost immediately, the hard edges softening, his muscles relaxing, like he couldn't control the effect you had on him.
"Who're you?" The toddler in the shopping cart turned to him, a scowl she probably learned from her father plastered on her face.
"He was my friend before I met daddy," You hummed softly, poking her cheek and fixing a lopsided hair clip while your daughter continued to huff and stare at Suguru displeased.
Friend.
He guessed he had never asked for more.
Watching you wrap your arms around another man, his hand on your stomach and your kid begging for snacks in the shopping cart. A heavy ring on your finger and a baby in your belly.
And after this, you'd offer him a little wave and walk out of the aisle and away from him for good, oblivious to the part of him still pining for you, for the family you could've built together. That wished he was the one who'd be kissing your forehead and glaring at any asshole that approached you.
Maybe in another life.
Wasn't that what you said?
a/n: ten bucks says him or Satoru crash out and get another girl pregnant after this and sixteen years later reader and sukuna's son brings home a daughter that looks a little too much like someone they used to know lol - for my girls that love pain and suffering I would be willing to do an alternate ending (I was thinking like a time-travel fix-it but yknow just if y'all are interest lemme know)
they were never yours - so what if you find someone who could be?
pairings: toxic!Satosugu x roommate!reader, rebound!Sukuna x f!reader
content: MDNI, angst and smut, roommate AU, heavy yearning and pining, satosugu are dicks, toxic relationship dynamics, reader getting revenge, jealousy, pettiness, unprotected piv sex, creampie, spanking, slight exhibitionism, threesome, oral (f! + m! receiving), backshots, cum play (sort of), fingering
a/n: this was very much inspired by beat your heart to death by the immensely incredibly talented @specialgradefckr !! divider by @animatedglittergraphics-n-more !!
Was Sukuna the right person for you?
Probably not. Okay, definitely not.
But still staring at the photo of him at the gym he'd sent you an hour later, moving boxes stacked around you on the floor of your bedroom while you listened to the quiet voices of Satoru and Suguru through the wall, you were more than a little tempted to act on it anyway. The veins bulging against his muscled arms, his compression shirt stretching across his chest.
Your roommates hadn't left Satoru's room in hours. Although, they'd barely been in it for the past two weeks. Constantly taking up space in the common areas, spread out on the couch or cooking in the kitchen every time you stepped out.
Whispering sometimes when you walked by, trying to smooth things over with fresh flowers on the kitchen counter and your favorite takeout when you got home from work. Sending you text messages like you weren't one room over, inviting you for late night movies and going out together like you used to. Declining only seemed to feed their desperation.
Still - there weren't any confessions of devotion. No 'I need you's or grovelling on their knees. The closest they came was Satoru slipping into the bathroom with you one night when you were washing your face, murmuring how much he missed you lately, turning you around and trying to place you up on the counter, his hands on your hips when he got down on his knees to try to eat you out. But you just mumbled an excuse about being too tired, hopping down and away before he could argue about it and returning to your room.
It was your last night before your new lease started tomorrow.
A more, uh, mature person would've had the whole moving out conversation, but you guessed a note and your empty room would suffice. Your trunk was already stuffed full of what you could fit, and you'd already paid movers to come pick up the rest of it when the guys would both be at work tomorrow.
Snipping carefully along the lines to cut them out of your life as neatly as possible, accepting the empty space that'd be left in your heart in their absence. But you couldn't help but think they'd cut themselves out first, intentionally or not, by never giving you the space you needed in theirs.
Suguru laughed at something - a low rumble bleeding through the wall, something you used to find soothing when you were snuggled next to his chest sitting down between him and Satoru. You weren't over him. Pretty sure you'd never be as long as he was always a few steps away. The same went for Satoru, a feeling that festered too long under the surface. But hurt and anger and frustration and bitterness all fought for the forefront of your attention while you existed around them, and your thumbs were typing before you could second guess the invitation you were sending.
They never considered you unless you were the one sharing their sheets - why should they get to have any sway in who was spending time in yours?
Why not go out with a bang?
Let Sukuna break your bed (or you) and let those stupid assholes be the ones overhearing you cry out someone else's name for once.
Pushing all the boxes against one wall as quietly as you could to make a clear path to the bed after he sent a short reply he'd be over soon, trading your pajamas in for a skimpy set of bra and panties before tugging up the smallest shorts you owned that could still pass as not trying too hard. Wiping away the slightly-smeared mascara under your eyes and remaking your bed as you tried to run through a mental checklist of what you were supposed to do when a guy came over despite the fact you never invited one here before.
All those times you'd try to be the perfect friend or roommate or fuck buddy, fill whatever role they wanted from you, just for it to be pointless in the end.
You could wallow and whine about it, but you just wanted to be fucking free.
Just now coming to terms with the fact it wasn't even all on them, but yourself too for letting them toy and twist you until you were the shape they wanted. The worst part was knowing how long you'd waited and wasted for something to be different when you knew you'd just end up disappointed.
Now you were stuck picking up the mangled up remains and trying to piece them into someone new.
Although, you weren't sure yet what a you without them would look like.
Knock.
The sound of knuckles pounded against the door a single time, but it was loud, ringing through the apartment.
Shit shit shit.
You were rummaging through one of the boxes on the top of the stack, shirts scribbled on the front in permanent marker to find a tank top to tug over your head and shove your arms through.
You almost tripped when you rammed your toe into corner of a different box, cursing under your breath as your fingers found the doorknob to roughly tear it open.
But someone else had already beat you to the front door, a broad body blocking your sight out of who was at the door.
"I'd appreciate it if you left," Suguru's curt voice cut through the silence. Calm. Collected. Cold.
"Don't think I will," Sukuna grunted back.
You padded down the hall, your hand pausing on Suguru's bicep long enough for you to pull him away enough to catch a peek of the man waiting for you on the other side.
"You done being a dick?" You huffed at your roommate, your hip bumping into his side as your attention settled back on Sukuna.
His hair was damp - a few strands glued down to his forehead like he showered before heading over, casually clad in jeans and a t-shirt, his dark eyes sweeping over you the same. His lips curled up in a smug smile while his gaze flickered between you and an irritated Suguru.
"Ignore him," You returned his smile, gesturing inside the apartment before you forced the door open wide enough for him to enter. "Come on in."
Sukuna hadn't made it a step in before Suguru's hand was touching your back, his voice murmuring in your ear. "Can we please talk about this?"
You took your own advice and pretended you didn't hear him.
Sukuna slung his arm loosely over your waist once he was close enough, a possessive hand planted on your ass as you turned to show him the way back to your bedroom. You could feel the eyes burning a hole in your back when his huge palm squeezed, your shorts riding up higher on your thighs, the fabric thin enough he could probably see the lace pattern of your panties through it.
"You usually walk around like this?" He had to lean down to your level, but even then he was still too tall for it to really be in your ear, his grunt was loud enough Suguru had to hear.
He wanted to know if you were wearing it for him or for them.
"Sometimes," You hm-ed, finding yourself naturally gravitating towards him until your arm was bumping into his, your nerves fluttering in your chest at him being so close again. "You like it?"
"Was gonna rip whatever you wore off you anyway," He answered, all gruff and unaffected, but there was something serious in his stare, like he actually meant it.
"Yeah?" You giggled, a small grin spreading across your lips automatically at how blunt he was.
You reached your door, pushing it open enough for him to fit inside first before quickly stepping in after him so you could shut and lock it before either of your roommates could try do something as stupid enough as following you in. Especially considering the current state of it.
"What's this?"
He looked handsome with his brows furrowed like that - his eyes narrowed as they scanned the room and roamed over the boxes and your scrawl on the side of them when he walked in.
You hesitantly cast a glance through the wall, not particularly wanting this bit to be overheard.
"I'm, um, moving. Got my own place," You quietly explained, nervously crossing your arms over your chest while you took a small step closer to him. "Tomorrow, actually."
His mouth quirked back up into the same smirk as before, a hand reaching out to grab your waist and pull you in until you were flush with his chest.
"Guess they don't know that?"
A dark glint flashed in his eyes, clearly amused at the mess of a situation you just roped him into, picking up the undertones in every pause and glance.
"Not exactly," You reluctantly admitted, biting your lip.
He chuckled, his almost shrewd stare sizing you up this time, reassessing whatever he thought of you.
He must have liked it, since it only took him three seconds before his hand slipped around to your back and his mouth landed back on your lips for a rough kiss. Walking forward until your back was hitting your mattress, the springs creaking underneath you while he climbed on top of you. Effortlessly caging you in with his much larger frame, the smell of his shampoo and the fain scent of soap replacing the cologne he'd worn before, but fuck, something about it was even better. You tossed your arms over his shoulders, one tracing the muscles of his back while the other played with his surprisingly soft hair. He huffed a little at the touch, the tenderness of it, but his body relaxed into it, his other hand cupping your face.
It felt massive like that, his calloused palm and searing touch only adding to the heat pooling hotter and burning brighter between your thighs as you wrapped your legs around his waist.
The friction of the bulge barely contained in his jeans pressing down against your clit through your too-thin shorts was dizzying, gasping into his mouth right as his tongue forced its way in. Grinding against him naturally, rolling your hips up along his thick length and groaning when his lips moved down, messy kisses trailing across your jaw, sharp teeth skimming over the skin of your throat like they remembered what it felt like to sink in there, teasing you with the memory of it.
The hand on your face somehow ended up caught in your hair, roughly tugging at it to tilt your head to the side enough to give him better access to hungrily suck harsh spots down to your collarbone. His other hand was slipping in between the small space between your bodies, taking a breast in his firm grip and squeezing hard right as his canines scraped back against your sensitive skin, your moan unmuffled this time.
"S-shit," You stammered, blinking a few times as he readjusted his grip to pull you up to sit until you were straddling his lap again, supporting your weight with a warm hand on your back.
He was tearing your shirt over your head and tossing it away to hit one of the boxes with a soft rustle, making quick work of discarding your bra next, the cold air hitting your nipples making them harden before his tongue licked a clean stripe over one, his mouth latching on and sucking hard enough that you were gasping his name.
Tugging on his hair, fingers tangled in-between the fluffy strands and lost in the feeling of his tongue swirling around the bud while his cock throbbed against your clit, trying desperately to hold yourself together enough not to beg for it immediately.
"Pretty," He murmured into your skin, pulling off with a lewd pop! just to pinch your nipple between his sturdy fingers.
A compliment coming from him felt like it was worth a hundred.
Or maybe you were just so starved for affection and connection you needed it to mean something more.
He wasn't the type to accommodate your contemplation.
Flipping you into your back and getting off the bed to drag you to the end of it, sliding a finger underneath the band of your shorts to tug them down your thighs, pausing just long enough for his eyes to flick over you spread out on display for him before he made good on his word and tore your flimsy underwear off with one hand and no effort.
"Needy girl," He tch-ed, rough palms pulling your thighs apart and pinning them to the bed so he had full view of just how needy you really were.
"Just gonna stare?" You teased back, batting your lashes at him just for Sukuna to huff and roll his eyes back at you.
"Careful," He practically growled, his thumb tracing half a circle as it dug into the inside of your thigh, like he was testing how pliant you were for him. "Unless you really want me to shut you up."
"Go ahead and try," You hummed, an electric sort of excitement racing through your veins, all the little neurons in your brain firing as you tried to etch each scorching touch into your memory.
The sound of skin hitting skin reached your ears before you processed the sting against your cunt, the pleasure tinged with pain, all the air forced out of your lungs, the you sucked in not giving your lungs any oxygen.
The realization you actually sorta wanted him to do it again caught you off guard, staring up at him with wide eyes. His fingers started rubbing circles back over the sore bud, soothing the ache, your body responding to him before your mind fully caught up.
The familiar corner of his lip twitching up to replace his stern frown at your flustered silence.
"Anything else to say?" He dryly mocked.
"Again?" You requested, pushing your bottom lip out in a pout that made him scoff.
The next one was harsher, the pressure of the palm of his hand pressing down on your sensitive bundle of nerves making you yelp, but it was two of his thick fingers shoved inside and stretching you out that had his name falling from your mouth in a strangled gasp. The friction as he rubbed his hand down harder, dipping his fingers deeper had your head sinking back into the mattress, the old springs inside creaking with each pump.
"Fuck, th-that's, oh," You groaned, back molars grinding against each other as his fingers curled, crooking in just the right spot, an equally crooked smile on his face like he loved watching you fall into pieces with just a few strokes of his fingers.
"Still talking?" He cocked his head to the side, smug in an annoyingly attractive way, picking up the pace until you started to stutter his name again.
"K-Kuna," You whined, scrambling to claw at the sheets, hips pushing off the bed to meet his hand just for him to slip his fingers out.
Your weak whimper at his absence was embarrassing - lips pressed together in a tight frown as you tried to hold it back. But he hummed, clicking his tongue and shaking his head, the hand that had been holding your thigh down tracing a long line up your body until he ran his thumb over your lips, tugging it down so it was frozen in a surprised 'o' at how much softer his touch was than you anticipated.
It struck you that despite what he was saying, he wanted to hear you.
Or maybe what he really wanted was for the men next-door to hear you.
You nodded, a silent mutual understanding taking shape.
He chuckled, and his grip readjusted again, pulling you to the very edge of the bed and getting on his knees, his tongue diving in while your thighs tried to clamp down on his head. You freely moaned this time, delivering a pornstar worthy performance, pretty gasps of his name stammered out while he pressed his tongue flat, dragging his tastebuds over what felt like every piece of you.
The best part?
You didn't even have to pretend.
Not when every whimper and whine he ripped out of your throat was real. His mouth working wonders, rough licks and hungry sucks that only poured gasoline on the blinding need burning in the pit of your stomach, one you couldn't help but hope he'd throw a lit match on.
You knew it'd fizzle out once he was gone, but you wanted his warmth for a while. You knew you'd get burned, but it was better than the bitter cold you'd been living in for so long.
Sukuna pinned your thighs back to the bed, giving you a small hum of approval at how pliant you were for him, letting him move you how he wanted so he could angle his tongue deeper before dragging it up to your clit, planting a rough kiss there, wrapping his lips around the sensitive bud to suck.
And fuck, it was hard not to immediately snap, to not drop the act along with all your restraint and fall apart for him.
"C'mon, I know you wanna cum," He wryly commented, pulling back just enough so you could feel his warm breath over your slick skin. Your muscles tensed under his hands, your body giving him the answer your mouth couldn't form when you shivered at his deep voice and his calloused palms running over your soft thighs.
"G-god, fuck," You practically spit it out, biting down hard enough on your bottom lip to draw blood while his mouth returned to delivering open-mouthed kisses to your sensitive bundle of nerves, well-aware each one threatened to push you over the edge.
"Stop holding out on me, brat," He barked, but there was a hint of softness to how he spoke, not as abrasive or harsh as before, just enough to let you know he wasn't being an absolute asshole.
Then, the sharp edge of his canines just barely grazed over your clit before he rolled his tongue back over it and you were unraveling under the pressure, a white-hot wave of pleasure searing through to your core, a strangled moan escaping as his tongue worked you through it.
"K-kuna, please, fuck," You whined, your fingers tangling in his hair trying to pull him back up to you. "N-need you to fuck me."
Which, really, you did, but you also wanted them to hear you begging for him.
You felt his lips curve up first, still pressed against your skin before he readjusted, climbing over you to snag a pillow from the top of your bed before flipping you over and sliding it under your stomach to prop you up more comfortably.
His hand traced over your ass, lingering for a moment before he pulled back to spank you. It was deceptively loud, despite him not even smacking that hard, only a slight sting that was immediately soothed by a small kiss.
Clearly, he was trying to get a rise out of your roommates just as much as you were.
"You want me to wear a condom?" He offered as he stood, discarding his clothes piece by piece, tossing them next to yours on the floor.
And okay, yeah, you should've said yes.
But knowing who was listening one room over with their ears probably pressed against the wall, you couldn't help yourself.
"No," You murmured, just loud enough that they'd probably be able to hear. "Wanna feel you."
Sukuna chuckled, and then one hand was pressed against your neck while the other was splayed across the small of your back, holding it down into a pretty arch for him.
You glanced back over your shoulder at him, chewing on the inside of your cheek, wondering if you'd be overselling it if you said what you wanted to.
"I-I dunno if it'll fit," You stammered, pushing out your bottom lip in a pout you both knew was pretend, a laugh he could hardly hold in threatening to spill out.
"I'll make it."
Your own giggle was suppressed by his swollen tip nudged at your entrance, slowly splitting you open on his thick length, watching you stretch easily around him after his mouth prepared you so well for him.
Your breaths were broken, forced out in stutters, gasping and struggling not to groan with each inch he pushed in, the weight of his chest pressing down on your back as his fingers held you in place.
Burying himself inside you until he'd bottomed out, grunting as you instinctively jolted, whining his name as he kept you there, face down in the mattress as his cock twitched.
"C'mere," He huffed, his warm chest and carved muscles sinking into you, his breath dancing over your neck as he scattered lovebites, threatening to break the thin skin.
"I don't think I can get any closer," You sarcastically muttered, your voice muffled into the mattress.
He laughed again, dark and low, and it sent a sharp pang through your chest, something torn between unease and excitement.
"Oh?" Sukuna challenged, his hands readjusting so they were grabbing your wrists, pulling your hands free from where they were clawing at the sheets, pinning them over your head and settling his entire weight on your body. The new angle had you seeing stars, scrunching your eyes shut as his cock was shoved all the way in.
You waited for him to move, but he refused.
Grinding his tip against the spongy spot in the back, watching you wiggle and squirm underneath him, your lips sealed shut so you didn't have to admit you were wrong.
"How's this?" He taunted, and you couldn't even hate him because it was good.
Fucking fantastic, actually, but he'd have to fuck that information out of you.
"Fine." It was a whisper, a barely-audible squeak into the mattress.
"Gonna have to be louder than that if you want our audience to hear," He leaned down to mutter, his lips brushing over your ear.
"God, fuck, right there," You whimpered, moving so your voice wouldn't be obscured by the blankets or the bed, panting as he pulled out just to plunge back in.
"Good girl," He murmured, and a fluttering you weren't familiar with stirred up in your stomach, the pressure starting to return and build beneath it.
"Y-you're so fucking hot," You groaned, genuine this time, a little overwhelmed by your growing attraction to him, the way you were starting to realize you liked every little detail you picked up on, how he talked to you and how much fun you were having.
He didn't say anything to that - but from the small glimpse you could catch of him over your shoulder, you could see the flicker of surprise on his face.
"Mm' so close." You were. Startlingly so.
Every drag of his tip inside your cervix, the way his thumb was absentmindedly rubbing half-circled over your wrist and the heat of his body, it was all too much. Already sensitive from the first orgasm he pulled from you, the second one seemed like it was going to wash over you whether you tried to hold it back or not.
"Hold on a little longer for me?" He grunted, like he didn't want to pull out, like he wanted to draw this out for as long as possible.
"I'll try," You whimpered, but you were squeezing too tight around him, all the tension pulling tighter and tighter and tighter until- "Fuck."
You finished first, drowning in the feeling of him fucking you through it before you even realized he was filling you up, warm cum painting your insides the same white that you were seeing. Unwrapped and raw, your nerves burning and brain rewired by this new feeling, this new high, how readily he seemed to claim you.
"Shit," He spoke first. "Sorry."
How that somehow sounded more genuine than a single apology you'd ever received from the men next door struck you.
"Don't be," You murmured, flipping over to your front with a yawn. "I'm on birth control anyway."
"Yeah?" You felt his attention flicker, felt his eyes linger from where his cum was starting to drip down up to your fucked-out face.
"Yeah," You nodded.
You should stand up, get some clothes on and offer to let him stay the night. Or maybe suggest ordering some food. You didn't think he'd decline either. Not when he was studying you like he wanted to do it all again.
But then he picked up his jeans and checked his phone, and whatever he saw there made him frown.
"Fuckin' idiot," He grunted, glancing down at his phone before sighing and pulling up his boxers and jeans so he could shove it in his pocket. He hurried through getting dressed while you watched. "I gotta go get my brother."
"Oh," You mumbled, still dazed as you tried to stand and wobbled on your feet. He steadied your arm, his hand gripping too hard before abruptly relaxing, like maybe he wasn't used to holding someone like that, struggling to mind his strength.
"I'll call you."
You weren't sure why, but you sorta believed him.
"Okay," You nodded, blinking a few times as you started to pull a t-shirt over your head, forgoing a bra as you snagged a fresh pair of underwear from a box, cum still leaking on your thighs.
You didn't expect it when Sukuna got down on his knees and took the underwear from your hands, guiding your palm to rest on his shoulder for support so he could help you step into them, sliding them up your thighs and readjusting them on your hips.
"Word of advice?" He grunted, and all you could do was nod, speechless at the sight of him beneath you like that, how big he still seemed, his wide frame and muscles bulging under his shirt, the hard setting of his chiseled jaw. "Whatever they did to you, do it back to them."
You were still thinking about it and him after he left.
Pacing back and forth across your bedroom, wondering if he'd keep the ripped panties in his pocket, debating how dangerous it'd be for your heart to answer if he called. Glancing at the wall while you deliberated on how risky it'd be to step out of your room to get a drink and take a shower, if your roommates would be waiting, all the talking and laughing they'd been doing before replaced with silence now.
You rubbed the side of your neck, all your previously relaxed muscles starting to tense up again already, your attempts at massaging it doing shit to help while you walked into the kitchen. Yawning as you reached up to grab a glass from the cupboards while you did the awkward post-sex stumble over to the sink to fill it.
Scrunching your eyes shut for a moment, replaying the teasing and the teeth, the ghost of his touch on your skin before someone else's hand was on your shoulder, thumb digging into the muscle to massage it for you.
"Knock it off, Toru," You mumbled, rolling your shoulder back like it'd get him to quit, but the weight of his chest pressed into your back, his free hand landing on the other side of the counter to cage you in.
You were even sure what gave it away that it was him, maybe his cologne or just his presence alone.
"What, sweetheart? Don't tell me that guy actually satisfied you," He teased, an edge to his light voice you'd rarely heard.
"He did," You huffed back, his fingers freezing in place. "But that's not your business, is it?"
"It sorta is when it's under my roof," He sarcastically shot back.
Asshole.
"Yeah? So you guys can bring over whoever you wanna fuck and I can't?" You twisted around to face him, scrunching your face up in a scowl.
His signature smirk was still in place, like if it faltered for even a second, this whole stupid affair would splinter, and everything would come out.
"You've already got the best, why would you want anything else?" He pouted dramatically, the hand next to your waist inching closer.
"And you had me, but you always wanted someone else so," You shrugged, your voice coming out colder than you expected, a hint of hurt betraying you.
He flinched.
A barely there twitch of his brow, a blink you almost missed, his pupils too-wide, only a thin sliver of blue showing as he stared.
"Don't worry," You clenched your jaw, sarcasm dripping from every word. "I won't invite him here anymore."
You'd invite him to your new place.
"I mean, c'mon, baby, don't we do our best to take care you?"
You were pretty sure your heart stopped. Stomach sinking at the not-subtle way he emphasized the we. The faint footsteps that had paused on the opposite end of the counter, Satoru refusing to step away even in Suguru's company.
He knew. They both knew. Maybe always had.
You were just the oblivious one.
Caught between the two of them while they played pretend and acted like this was normal, natural.
"Sounds like she's feeling a little left out, huh?" Suguru's honeyed hum wasn't so soothing, no, it sliced through you, cutting through the hurt until there was just anger left.
Sukuna's sly suggestion was still ringing in your ears as Satoru stepped forward and his hand skimmed from your waist down to your hip to hold you where he wanted you before you could slip out of his grasp again.
Do it back to them.
It wasn't a terrible idea.
Moving out wasn't enough - not when they still hadn't gotten a proper taste of precisely what they were losing.
No, it would probably be even easier than you imagined with the desperation underscoring each exchange.
"Yeah? You two gonna make it up to me?" You made your voice sound more breathless than it really was, poking Satoru's firm chest while a real grin was quick to form on his face.
Pretty and perfectly unaware of the cum leaking down your leg, a fun discovery for him to find later.
Suguru moved quietly, a second hand drifting up your arm until he was brushing his thumb over your jaw, tilting your head to the side so you could face him for the first time. His dark stare was just as piercing as Satoru's bright one. Eyes narrowed and brows pulled together, traces of disappointment or disapproval still lingering in the lines of his face.
"What?" You huffed at him, folding your arms over your chest just for him to pry them back off and pull you to him.
"Did I say anything?" Suguru murmured, but his features hadn't shifted, still stuck in the same borderline pissy expression.
"You're staring like you wanna spank me," You taunted, right as Satoru actually did squeeze your ass from behind.
"Think your friend already did that," He cooly replied, his nose scrunching up for a second as he spit the word out a bit differently than the rest.
"Jealous?" You cocked your head to the side, rubbing it in a little more with your fake pout.
They were.
They could deny it or try to distract you, but the proof was in their possessiveness, the clenched jaws and their greedy grip on you.
"He doesn't deserve you," Satoru leaned down to whisper in your ear, pressing soft kisses into the still sensitive spots up your throat.
"As if you do?" You murmured, the dull thrum of desire starting to flare up despite your better judgement, leaning back just for Suguru to yank you forward, ending up sandwiched between their much bigger bodies.
"I'd do anything for you," Satoru whined, sinking his teeth in over one of the hickies Sukuna had left, kissing and sucking at it hard enough you couldn't help but shiver.
He must have a pretty narrow definition of anything. After all, he wouldn't be your boyfriend. Wouldn't take you on dates or kiss you in front of his friends.
He could only do anything if you were alone.
And apparently, you must've been the problem if they both knew the other was sleeping with you and still treated you like a dirty secret they had to share.
"Go fuck each other," You grumbled, giving them one last chance to back out but you knew they wouldn't when you were tilting your head back against Satoru's chest, your fingers slipping up underneath Suguru's shirt. "Leave me out of it."
"Can't," Suguru murmured, gently grabbing your chin to force you to face him. "Always been about you, baby."
You could almost believe that when they led you back to Satoru's room with more sweet whispers and greedy hands. Pulling your shirt off, their stares sticking to the kiss-covered canvas of your chest.
Suguru was pushing you on the bed while Satoru climbed on behind you, pale hands covering your breasts, your back flush with his chest as he continued to pepper your neck with desperate sucks, teeth nipping at you like it'd erase the hickies someone else left there.
You hoped every one reminded him of what they screwed up.
Suguru forced your hips up in the air, his fingers toying with the band of your pajama pants before he slipped them down your thighs and discarded them along with your underwear on the floor. The phone in your pocket made a small thud as it hit the floor.
Sliding his hands over your calves, past your knees, up, up, up until they were holding your thighs, parting them and-
Suguru stopped, sucking in a sharp breath and shaking his head.
"Something wrong?" You innocently asked, tilting your head to the side so Satoru could kiss your collarbone, his soft hair tickling you.
"No." Yes.
Was it not exhausting to never say what was really on his mind? You were exhausted. Weighed down by the shackles you let them attach to you, the affection you once showered them with.
"Well?" You waited, daring him to snap, to break, to do something other than keep up this stupid charade.
But he just slipped two sturdy fingers inside, his sly smile refusing to leave his lips while your mouth fell back open as you shuddered.
You wondered if he'd ever scooped another man's cum out of a girl before.
Or if you'd have the honor of being his first.
You imagined it was usually the other way around - that he probably finished inside their guest star and Satoru was the one who cleaned up the mess.
Being the second act, the understudy, fucking sucked. You wanted to be someone's main attraction.
His fingers crooked up, curling deeper and deeper, the force of his thrusts coating your thighs and Satoru's sheets with you and him.
The wet sound of it reverberating through the room, his dark eyes never leaving yours while Satoru held you in place, pushing the cum out with every rough pump of his fingers. Intense was an understatement.
His stare was searing - but in an icy way, frosted over. Irritated that you were slipping further and further out of his grasp, irritated that he was sharing you in a way he hadn't approved of prior.
"Suguru," You purred softly, watching the way his jaw unclenched, his shoulders relaxed.
Satoru's cock jumped against the small of your back at the sound of your voice, throbbing against your spine.
"Yeah?" Suguru's voice was deep, raspy, right as he slotted a third finger inside, your breath torn from your throat.
Hips arching up into his hand, Satoru's hand slipping down from your breast to press down on your stomach, the pressure on top of his best friend's fingers stretching you out already painting pretty white stars across your vision when you scrunched your eyes closed.
"F-fuck, I'm gonna-" You cut yourself off, panting as you tried to squirm, but Satoru refused to let you, his free hand wrapping around your throat, long fingers splayed out and squeezing softly, just enough that your head was spinning.
"C'mon, pretty, wanna see you cum," Suguru murmured, and you were, but you were still thinking about the other person whose cum was on his hand. The piece of you that wished it was him calling you pretty again.
But this time? You decided you'd be okay either way.
You'd either see him again or you wouldn't. You weren't going to let another man keep you waiting and wondering, stuck under his spell and spending every night thinking about him before you fell asleep.
"That's it, baby, let go," Satoru goaded in your ear, misunderstanding you once more - maybe for the last time too. "You're so gorgeous, you know that?"
Suguru was still shoving his fingers in-and-out, coaxing you through your climax, ignoring all the little praises his partner-in-fucking-you was whispering into your skin. Satoru pushed the hand on your stomach down harder, as if he'd actually be able to feel where Suguru was inside there, his grip on your throat tightening at the same time.
You couldn't let go with them anymore, but you did let yourself enjoy your high a little longer.
Lost in a fantasy from another life.
Wrapped around one man's fingers while the other's were wrapped around your throat.
Suguru slipped out with a wet sound that still made you blush, a hint of self-consciousness persisting even now. He dragged his slick fingers up to where Satoru's hand was resting below your belly button, prying them off of you.
"She was mine first," Suguru muttered, releasing the fingers from your throat next. Satoru scoffed, trying to grab your waist, but Suguru picked you up with ease, his hand damp when it landed on your back, bringing you in until your breasts were pushed against his chest.
"Only because you cheated," Satoru argued back, grabbing a handful of your hair and pulling it just hard enough to twist your face around so you were looking at him.
Despite how, uh, handsy, he'd been, he looked almost devastated. His pupils were too-wide, the blue still hardly visible. Brows scrunched together, his bottom lip a little farther out than the top.
"You loved me first, right, angel?" He tugged your hair harder, enough that he was able to lean over you and kiss your cheek.
Love was not a word you ever allowed yourself to accept when it came to them.
It stung more that all the feelings you tried to hard to bury had already been unearthed by them. Acting like they were entitled to you when they were just grave robbers.
"You're both insufferable," You mumbled, and Satoru laughed. Flicking Suguru's forehead with his free hand before sneakily wrapping a sturdy arm around you in order to twist you around to face him.
"But I'm right?" Satoru hummed, pulling you one way while Suguru readjusted your body for you until your hands and knees were sinking into the mattress. A pretty puppet for them to play with.
"Does it matter?" You frowned, chewing on the inside of your cheek while you heard the rustle of Suguru disrobing behind you, his clothes hitting the ground while Satoru peeled his shirt over his head, discarded his boxers next, a damp spot from where his swollen and leaky cock had dripped pre-cum over his thick, pink tip.
"Come on," Suguru joined in on Satoru's childish games, something hard pressing into your ass as the bed dipped behind you where he climbed back on. "You have to have a favorite."
And so what? You'd never be either of theirs.
One set of hand held your hips, and you weren't sure if it was you or him (or him) that was making your skin so wet when he positioned his thick length to rub along your entrance. Satoru pretended, at least, to be more sentimental about it, leaning over and cupping your face to draw your attention back up to him, this thumbs tracing over your cheekbones until they were almost squishing your face.
"Well?" He quizzed.
"I hate you both equally," You grumbled, but he didn't seem to believe you'd bite considering he just smiled so sincerely at you, letting go of your cheek to guide his cock towards your lips, the slightly salty taste of his pre-cum coating them a glossy white.
"You love us."
Satoru was probably just saying it because he needed to believe it. Needed it to be true more than he ever actually needed you.
If this was happening to you a a year ago? You'd probably tell them whatever they wanted to hear, making promises between kisses just for the hope they'd return a fraction of your adoration.
"Satoru," Suguru scolded him, the fingers dimpling around your waist digging deeper while he dragged his cock back across your heat, the pressure on your clit making you shudder on instinct, your mouth parting just enough for Satoru to slip the first few inches of his cock in your mouth. You had barely started to swirl your tongue around him, gradually allowing him to edge his way in before Suguru's tip caught on your entrance.
You couldn't decide which to focus on - Suguru's slow approach, taking his time to push in each searing inch, or Satoru's cock throbbing in your mouth, bumping into the back of your throat with every too-fast thrust.
"It's alright, baby, you don't have to answer him," Suguru leaned down, his mouth brushing against the bare expanse of your back as he spoke. Each kiss lingered. Soft, tender, his breath warm on your skin as he lodged himself deep enough you could practically feel him in your lungs. "I love you."
Time stopped. Your spine went stiff, all your muscles too-tense, frozen in place. A pit tearing open in your stomach, anxiety curdling and coiling and tying itself in knots you wished you could just rip out of you.
You were actually thankful for Satoru scoffing and shoving his cock back in your throat so you didn't have to reply to that.
"Seriously?" Satoru groaned, and it was half-annoyance, half-pleasure. "You were supposed to let me say it first."
"You took too long." You didn't need to see his face to know Suguru was probably shrugging and smirking while he slowly picked up the pace. Sliding his cock in-and-out, leaving the impression he was trying to make sure you memorized every vein and ridge of his cock while it seared inside you.
"I love you more, sweetheart," Satoru pitched his voice down to a low purr, caressing your cheek and stroking your hair like he might actually mean it. "You know that, right, baby?"
What you knew was they both had a pretty fucked idea of where the line was drawn between friendship and love and lust. They didn't love you.
They loved your attention. Your eyes glued to them, peering up at them on your knees, worshipping them with your mouth. They never paid attention to any of the words coming out of it.
Your own scoff was snuffed out by Suguru thrusting in hard enough it forced Satoru's cock to hit the back of your throat again, his vein pulsing fast over your tongue. He groaned, his grip on your hair pulling tight suddenly like it was all he had to hold himself back.
"See how good we can take care you?" Suguru murmured, his lips ghosting over your skin while his own hold on your hips dug deeper, like he wished he could leave fingerprints so you'd be left with the reminder you were still theirs.
"Mm, fuck, baby, m'so sorry, promise we'll never leave you out again, okay? Take you out somewhere nice tomorrow night and-"
You had to tune out Satoru's lovesick rambling, the sweet sincerity in his voice rolling through you as he said stuff you used to dream of.
Stuff he was probably only saying because you were sucking his dick.
You wondered what he'd say when you didn't let him finish.
If he knew half the hurt he'd put you through, would he really feel bad? Or would he only regret it if you weren't around?
Suguru's cock stretching you out around him, his subtle groans breathed into your back as he fucked you from behind, feeling like an animal on a leash they were trying to tame with how tightly they were both clinging onto you.
The low buzzing on the wood floor was a wake-up call.
A phone call that felt more like an alarm, dragging you out of bed and away from the dream you couldn't keep closing your eyes and pretending you still wanted any part of anymore.
Pulling away from Satoru with a filthy pop! while you pushed off by his hips, smacking at Suguru's hand on your own to squirm free. Sore legs trembling when you wobbled on bare feet over to your crumpled pajamas, picking it up and digging your phone free from the pocket.
It didn't matter who it was, even if wasn't him. Because the excuse had already taken shape in your mind, a cruel pin for you to shove in their straw hearts.
"Sorry, it's my boyfriend," You shrugged, offering a semi-apologetic pout.
"Your boyfriend?" Satoru scoffed, condescension off the second word like it was curse.
"Mm, yeah," You yawned, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear while you let your gaze lazily drift from one of your still-nude roommates the other. Naked and bare, muscles pulled taut, sweat glistening on their skin, dreamy. It was just that you'd woken up. "Gotta take this. You guys can take care of each other though."
You were bending over to grab your shirt and scurrying out after throwing a short wave over your shoulder, both of them too stunned to properly react.
"Sweetheart," Suguru called out before you'd even shut the door all the way, speaking softer than he had all night.
Stay.
Another item on the long list of things you'd never say to each other.
The last box was in your car. All the big furniture loaded up in the truck, on the way to your new home, the pen you used for your newly-signed lease sitting heavy in your purse when you threw one last look around your empty old room. A silent exit out of their life, no goodbyes necessary.
The quiet was weird.
How long would it take to get used to that after living alone?
A week? A month?
Footsteps echoing through the apartment as you paused by the kitchen, setting your purse down on the counter while you pulled out your keyring, struggling the old key off, scratched and worn from years of use before it softly clinked as you dropped it onto the marble.
Maybe you'd catch them in the street some day, wave and exchange an awkward hello or how are you that you would scrub from your memory once they left your rear view. For now, though, they'd just be a couple of blocked numbers, a list of places you'd avoid until their ghosts stopped haunting them.
Withdrawal would be a bitch.
But sticking around to just be a third party in this fucked-up little threesome was an addiction you couldn't afford anymore.
they were never yours - so what if you find someone who could be?
pairings: toxic!Satosugu x roommate!reader, rebound!Sukuna x f!reader
content: MDNI, angst and smut, roommate AU, heavy yearning and pining, satosugu are dicks not gonna lie, reader isn't taking it though, extremely messy relationship dynamics, emotional hurt, reader standing up for herself, semi-public car sex, protected piv sex
a/n: this was very much inspired by beat your heart to death by the immensely incredibly talented @specialgradefckr !! divider by @animatedglittergraphics-n-more !!
You'd seen the ending from the beginning.
They might've sucked you in, but you never fought back. Just stood still and let the quicksand take you until you landed here, sharing the middle bedroom in what some (yourself, included) would consider an unconventional living arrangement. Unstable would probably work too.
You were fucking Satoru, who was probably fucking Suguru, who was also fucking you.
If you didn't move out soon, the single thread holding the tightrope you were barely balancing on was going to snap, and you didn't think any of you would be able to pick up the pieces of whatever was left - as roommates, friends, lovers, or just strangers.
It'd been over from the first day you moved in. Really, the moment you'd met.
Satoru had been all smiles, so eager it was almost ridiculous how funny and charming you found him, his hand sliding over yours and squeezing like he'd known you forever instead of five minutes. He tutored you in your second to last year of college, forged a flirty friendship of sorts, waiting until you were clearly choking on your huge crush on him to introduce you to Suguru. You'd never been able to tell if he was his friend or boyfriend, but it didn't really matter, did it? Because even now, after the past four years, all the time you'd spent trying to carve yourself a place in their lives and living with them, it never made a difference.
There was them, and then there was you.
Their shared laughter and secret smiles, the tender touches and the way their eyes landed on each other from across the room - the subtle looks they exchanged like they were the only people who actually understood each other, you'd have to be stupid to miss any of it. Which, you guessed they thought you were considering the fact they both always waited until the other one was busy or had plans to bend you over the counter or pull your panties off on top of the washing machine and fuck you like you were the roommate they wanted.
"Suguru's gonna be home soon," You tried to warn him, but everything came out muffled, breathless, your face pressed against the soft mattress in Satoru's room, his hips smacking loudly against your ass. He hadn't even waited for you to finish brushing your teeth this morning to burst into the bathroom to whisk you away, throwing you on his bed and splaying you out like he'd been waiting all week for this.
And yeah, you did feel stupid for the faint flicker of hope that maybe he wanted this half as much as you did.
"Can't hear you," He teased, a lazy drawl to his voice, but you could hear the hint of a whine to it, the part of him that was close to climaxing he couldn't hide. His fingers digging into your hip to hold your ass in the air for him, his tip grinding against your womb like he was trying to fill it up too.
Would you let him?
You wanted to say no, that sure, while you might be idiotic enough to play their game of tug-of-war and let them fuck you dumb in the ensuing push-and-pull, you still wouldn't let either of them do that, even if you were on birth control. But they both had a way of convincing you to go along with whatever they wanted, coaxing you into the palm of their hands with pretty promises. A dog on a leash who only needed a few treats to obey their command.
"T-Toru," You whined, clawing at his sheets while his nails cut in your hips, grasping at the last straws of your sanity while you tried to crane your head up enough to look at his phone that had slid out from under his pillow. A message from Suguru was on-screen when you fumbled to check it, sent almost twenty minutes ago saying he was on his way back. "He's-"
His other hand pressed down on the back of your neck right as he bottomed back out in you, your warning turned into another pathetic whimper of his name instead, gasping for air you couldn't seem to keep in your lungs.
As if on cue, you both heard the creak of the front door opening, the warm rumble of Suguru's voice calling from the entryway and Satoru was pulling out, tucking his throbbing erection back into his underwear and poorly hiding it in his sweatpants before yanking your panties back up over your thighs and fixing your flimsy excuse of a nightdress before you flipped over. Your legs were still trembling and the sore bundle of nerves between them was aching from the first orgasm he pulled from you, damp spots of slick and saliva making your panties stick uncomfortably to your skin.
"Meet you in the bathroom in fifteen to finish?" Satoru gave you a crooked grin, swiping a thumb under your eye to wipe away where your mascara had smeared.
"Sure," You nodded, knowing he wouldn't hold up his end of the offer anyway.
It all played out before. Where you'd both greet Suguru, who'd throw you a little smirk, a dark sort of glint in his eyes like he knew, like he'd always known, but he'd never say a word. Just smile at Satoru and ask how your morning was, before the two of them would eventually disappear back into one of their rooms or crash on the couch, an arm slung around the other's shoulder while they invited you to join.
But it mostly just felt like a courtesy invite.
That's what everything felt like with them. An afterthought, a distraction, just something to fill the empty space when the person they actually wanted was gone, someone who they weren't sure what to do with once their missing half returned.
A replaceable part.
Some nights when you declined going out with them, or tried to hole yourself up in your room, they'd invite another girl over, the sound of her laughter always cutting through the walls first before her moans mixing with theirs, the creak of the bedframe squeaking under their weight of the groan of the couch springs. The last one was the thousandth cut, unable to drown out the panting and slam of the headboard hitting the shared wall no matter how loud you turned up the music in your earbuds.
The one time you left, they'd actually had the audacity to complain about being worried about where you'd gone, baiting you with questions about if something was wrong when this whole affair? Relationship? Fucked-up friendship? Well, them or this, whatever it was, that's what was wrong.
If they had no problem sharing - why not you?
Why was it never you?
You guessed you'd just have to live with not knowing and they could just live without you.
They'd have no trouble filling your vacancy in a couple weeks once your new lease started, a small one-bedroom you found on the other side of the city, something closer to your job at least. You didn't pay rent here, Satoru refused to let you considering he owned the three-bedroom apartment you all lived in. It would be shitty to start, you know, actually paying bills and buying groceries, but the cost of your sanity was too fucking high to hand over in order to keep living with them.
You just uh, hadn't exactly told them that yet.
A little voice in the back of your mind wondered if it'd all be over when you did. The friendship, the yearning, the hunger for something unattainable that had been gnawing away at all your muscle and bones and organs until you just felt hollow, a shell of whoever you used to be living in the shadows.
So you settled for hanging in the background, following Satoru quietly out of his room and into the hall, rubbing the back of your neck when he was practically five steps ahead of you to bound into the kitchen, falling so naturally into conversation with Suguru he seemed to have forgotten you were even behind him. Both of them were putting up the groceries, protein bars and eggs and Satoru's favorite brand of chocolate bars, laughing at a joke you weren't privy to.
Neither of them noticed when you slipped back out into the hall, finding a shrinking sanctuary in your bedroom, crawling back under the sheets to sleep until the afternoon, so you wouldn't have to think about either of them for a few hours.
Or the rest of the day, apparently, when you woke up later than you intended and found a note one of them must've crept in your room to leave on the nightstand, Suguru's neat handwriting letting you know they were going to visit an old friend from high school and wouldn't be back until tomorrow.
You couldn't decide if you were relieved or disappointed, the strange fluttering in your stomach as you crumpled the note and tossed it in the trash refusing to go away even after a shower. It was beyond irritating. The hold they had over you even when they were probably hours away. Like the whole world (including yours) just had to revolve around them. The last little piece of your shriveled up heart turning to dust, whatever had kept you tethered to them dissolving with it.
All you wanted was something for yourself for once.
And simply going out for a few drinks to find that something somehow landed you here.
"What's your name again?" You giggled, a little drunk and distinctly dizzy with desire for someone new for the first time in God knows how long, sturdy hands on your waist as you straddled him in the backseat of his car in the parking lot of some sleazy nightclub, hickies probably littering your neck by now.
"Fucked stupid already?" He tch-ed, grunting as his hips rolled up, driving his cock deeper until you really couldn't remember his name. Or yours. Or your stupid roommates you were trying so hard to get away from.
"Oh, f-fuck," You stammered, blinking hard, passing headlights casting shadows on all the sharp features of his face, your fingers tangled in his surprisingly fluffy pink hair. His eyes narrowed, making a clicking sound with his tongue as he studied your face again.
"Sukuna," He finally spat out, taking out his annoyance in repeating himself on the sore bud of your clit, moving one hand to massage rough circles on it as he thrusted up hard.
His mouth returned to your throat, teeth scraping at the skin, no soft or tender kisses, no sweet whispers to cast the illusion this was anything other than what it was. A sloppy hookup, a one-night-stand if you ever actually made it back to his place.
It was refreshing.
The first breeze on one of those summer days where the oppressive heat of the sun felt inescapable, cool on your skin and rustling your hair and reminding you that nothing was forever, even if it felt like it.
You grinded back down on him, tugging on his hair and moaning freely, hoping no one would bother looking too close to the way the windows had started to fog, the slight bounce of the vehicle from the way his hands aggressively guided you up-and-down his thick shaft.
It wasn't awkward, but you didn't know quite what to do with your hands or exactly what to say when you'd only been having sex with the same two people for years. Would it be weird for you to kiss him? Would he like it if you murmured praises between each bruising thrust?
"Stop thinkin' so much," He gruffly mumbled, his mouth smashing against yours, tongue pushing past your lips, drowning you out with the next wave of pleasure.
He was warm. You were warm. A fuzzy feeling settling in your chest, while he stoked a different heat between your thighs, the taste of bourbon on his lips as they seared yours.
Filled to the brim with lust instead of unrequited love for once, split open with it actually, with how fast and hard his hips were thrusting up while his hands held you down. Probably making a huge mess in his backseat but he didn't seem to notice the damp skin slick on his own when his tongue was busy being shoved down your throat, his cock practically bumping into your cervix and aiming to angle deeper, deeper, deeper.
"T-there, oh, oh-" Your own filthy moan cut you off, and you were pretty positive you had just lost your ability to form words at all considering it felt like he'd lodged himself in your lungs, straining for every breath you gasped for. You buried your face in his neck, feeling the heat radiating off his skin as you started leaving hot, hungry little sucks across the muscles and tendons and the sharp edge of his collarbone, staining his skin the same way he'd done to yours.
"God," He murmured, gritting his teeth and shutting his eyes, teetering right there next to you on the edge. One hand slipped from your hip so two thick fingers could toy with your clit.
Even that was rough, all messy circles and rolling the swollen bud back-and-forth, but the pressure alone was enough to push you over. You bit down on his shoulder to muffle the cry of his name he ripped out of you, splotches of white dancing across your eyes even when they fluttered shut. He kept fucking up into you through your orgasm, pinching at your clit to get you to stop your teeth from sinking into his skin but then he groaned, the reverberations of it settling in your core as his hips bucked up hard one last time and you could tell he was finishing in the condom.
His forehead falling forward, nose bumping against your neck when he suddenly bit you back, sharp canines pressed against your collarbone, your stomach doing somersaults at the new sensation.
"F-fuck," You gasped, moaning as his teeth sank deeper into your skin, marking it with his mouth as he grunted again, squirming against his tight hold when he didn't move a muscle.
Maybe it was the buzz of the alcohol or the fact that his cock throbbing inside you was making your brain feel incredibly fuzzy, but all you could think about was wanting more.
"You have another condom?" You muttered against his skin, whining when he readjusted and he lightly pinched at your oversensitive clit again with a chuckle.
"Greedy brat," He murmured, trailing a few rough kisses up your neck.
"Is that a no?" You teased, barely breathing when one of those massive hands of his tethered itself in your hair and tilted your head back to lick a clean stripe along the spot he'd just bitten.
"You think you can handle another round?"
Silence greeted them when Suguru turned the key in the lock and Satoru shoved his way inside first. They left Shoko's early, neither particularly wanting to stay the night when you were waiting at home. The lights were off, curtains drawn, no hum of a tv or phone playing somewhere to fill the empty air.
"Got your favorite, sweetheart," Satoru playfully called out, tossing a plastic bag stuffed full of to-go boxes onto the kitchen counter after flicking on the light switch, Suguru's ears straining to make out any small sound of you while he shut and locked the door back.
The quiet wasn't new, but it felt louder somehow over the past few months. You'd been keeping to yourself more, still laughing and smiling when you were around them, but it all felt dimmed, almost. Rehearsed.
Reciting your lines and practicing your expressions.
Satoru didn't see it.
But Suguru couldn't stop noticing all the little changes. What looked a lot like distance you were trying to wedge between yourself and them.
"She's probably in her room," He frowned, narrowing his eyes at his roommate, the bag crinkling as he started pulling out the boxes.
"Guess so," Satoru nodded, peeking inside one to confirm it was yours before leading the way down the hall. "Think she's asleep?"
"It's midnight," Suguru shrugged, but something uneasy had settled in his stomach. You were probably just passed out already in bed. Why wouldn't you be?
Satoru didn't knock. He steamrolled his way in just to freeze in the doorway, his lips twisting down in a distinct frown when there wasn't a you to be found.
Makeup scattered on the floor in front of your mirror, a few short dresses thrown over your bed like you couldn't decide what to wear.
You were out. The thought crossed his mind before he could stop it, the slim possibility you could be in someone else's bed by now.
"I'm calling her," Satoru mumbled. He dropped your food on your nightstand, plopping down on your bed as he dug his phone out of his pocket.
Suguru knew you weren't going to answer.
Your phone was probably off or on do not disturb, deliberately set so you didn't have to hear from them. The sense of something being wrong had hung in the air all day, like a rotten stench he wouldn't be able to find even if he tore apart every piece of furniture and cleaned every corner.
It wasn't until he got sent to voicemail the third time that Satoru paused, grinding his molars as he looked around your room again.
"She'll call back," He finally said, not making any moves to stand.
Honestly? Suguru wasn't so sure.
Satoru clung to the comfort of what he knew, but Suguru could feel the change in every smile, the way you watched him through tired eyes most days, sitting at the end of the couch or slipping away like you thought you went unnoticed.
It didn't used to be like this.
You used to laugh with them, wiggle your way in-between them on the couch, planning movie nights and cooking together, blushing every time one of them offered a wink or casually flirted with you.
Your attention was intoxicating. And your roommates were greedy.
Other girls they could share. They'd be gone the next morning. But when it came to you?
Everything was different.
Suguru slept with you first. Waited until Satoru left on some business trips six months after you moved in with them to treat you to dinner and by the time you both made it into the taxi back home, his hands were in your hair and his tongue in your mouth before you made it through the threshold. Tearing off both your clothes before he made it back to his bedroom, his shirt in the kitchen and your dress in the living room and your bra in the hallway. How successfully he'd managed to snag your attention under Satoru's nose only heightened the hunger while he watched you climb on top of him, your mouth trailing hungry kisses down his body until your pretty lips wrapped around his cock.
You were his to hold and ruin. To love too, just in his own way.
It wasn't like him and Satoru, sure, but that didn't mean it was worth less. He knew Satoru would agree, too. Because you belonged to him as much as you belonged to Suguru.
So what if it went unsaid?
You had to feel it. Did they not take care of you? Could you not tell in every careful caress or longing look?
You were theirs.
They'd been getting pettier about it, fine, putting on a show to get a rise out of you, waiting for you to do something. Stake some claim on them or ask them to stop. Suguru never wanted to make you cry, but the thought of you tear-streaked and chewing on your lip, confessing he was all you wanted had been playing in the back of his mind from the moment he met you and subsequently decided to steal you from Satoru.
They were both sick, along with the stupid game they dragged you into playing too, competing for you like you were a trophy to be won, but even if the rules were unfair, he couldn't help but think you found every ounce as intoxicating as they did.
It all revolved around you, after all.
You were the referee, the audience, the scorekeeper, the prize at the end of the finish line.
If you wanted both of them, or even just one, they'd make it work. They might strangle or sleep with each other somewhere along the way, but still, they'd figure it out for you. He hated sharing what was his. But he could learn if he had too.
What happened if you didn't want either of them anymore?
"Here."
Something cold was pressed against your forehead, and you were blinking through bleary eyes at the strange surroundings. Bed, tv, dresser, none of them yours, but clearly uh, someone's room. You tried to sit up just, your thighs and hips sore and aching as you reached for whatever was currently trying to give you a brain freeze.
It was some energy drink you were pretty sure they only sold at shady gas stations (probably pending recalls too) electric coloring and exclamation marks on the label. You glanced up, the memories of last night filtering through, albeit a little blurry, as you cracked open the tab and took a sip.
Drunk you had good taste.
In men that was. Sober you thought whatever the fuck you were drinking was terrible.
What's-his-name (Steven?) was hot in that smoldering sorta way, all rough and jagged, the kind of jaw line and frown that insisted he might bite if you looked too long, which only made you want to stare even harder.
"What time is it?" You yawned, stretching as you took another needed sip of caffeine, hoping it'd give you the energy to face the rest of the day and your roommates whenever they returned this afternoon.
"It's almost noon," He grumbled, serious eyes narrowing at you while you shuffled out of his bed still-naked, having to scrounge up your dress and underwear from where it'd been scattered across the room last night.
"Shit," You gritted your teeth, tugging and pulling on your clothing until it was in place, shoving your purse's contents back inside from where they spilled out on his floor. They probably wouldn't be home yet, right?
"Need a ride?"
You'd already rode him - he could return the favor.
Him walking you up to your door instead of just dropping you off was a (not entirely unwelcome) surprise though. Leaning against the wall while you rummaged through your stuff for your keys, his sharp gaze slicing through all of the mess and straight to you.
By the time you fished your key out, his face was just set in hard lines, holding his hand out with an open palm. You just blinked, wondering if the hangover made your brain stop working too.
"Let me see your phone," He gruffly muttered, and even while you frowned back at him, you still complied, unlocking it and passing it over so he could type something.
"What?" You peeked over to see him sending a text to what you guessed was his own number. "Didn't think you're the kind of guy that comes back for seconds."
"Shut up," He grunted, glancing down the hall as he shoved your phone back towards you. You glanced down, making note of the name he added himself as. Sukuna.
"Make me," You mocked, the cheap caffeine or maybe the cologne clinging to his skin making your heart race a little when his hand skimmed over your hip.
"Call me sometime and I will," He threatened. Or maybe it was a promise. Something stuck in between, like he didn't even know.
"I'll think about it," You grinned, turning the key in the lock, pausing as you eyed him one more time.
He was really hot.
And after so long of soaking up being second choice, being someone's first, even if it was only for sex, was nice. Soothed the burn on your skin, filled the hole in your heart even though you knew it was just a patch job, a temporary fix.
You liked the way he checked you out, how openly his eyes trailed over you, the fire behind them. Liked feeling liked.
So when his hand grabbed your waist and his mouth pressed against yours, you let him. It was the first time you received a goodbye kiss with tongue involved, but you were not complaining.
Your hand awkwardly dropping from the door, key still in the lock as his palm pressed flat against your back to pull you in, his teeth nipping at your bottom lip like he didn't have his fill of biting and sucking last night, as if your throat wasn't still bearing the proof of that. A little moan you hadn't meant to make escaped when the hand on your waist slipped low enough to cup your ass and squeezed.
The door opened while his hand was underneath your wrinkled dress, his tongue in your mouth, head tilted back to accommodate him. You just didn't notice until you heard the grunt, the awkward clearing of someone's throat that made you snap out of it, twisting to see Satoru standing there.
His pretty crystalline blue eyes frozen in surprise, his own lips parted like the protest on his tongue just wouldn't come out. Suguru was a few steps behind him, arms folded across his chest, dark stare narrowed to glare at your company.
You expected embarrassment.
But really, a flare of smug satisfaction stoked up in your chest, and you trailed a slow finger up the muscled arm, not pulling away even after the kiss was broken.
"Sorry," You hummed a soft apology, fluttering your lashes as you smiled at him. "My roommates are just a little protective."
"Roommates, huh?" He chuckled, and you could see it in the curl of his lips that he was amused more than anything else.
"Don't worry, they're more interested in each other than me," You shrugged, making a point to not even look over at them.
He laughed.
And god, it felt so fucking good.
Why hadn't you done this months ago?
"I'll call you later," You winked, reluctantly pulling away with a wave, and he smirked, throwing a smug look over at Satoru while you slipped past him. Glancing back to watch the not-subtle way he sized him up, the look in his eyes that dared him to do something before he turned down the hall to leave.
The door slammed shut once you were inside.
You didn't think he even meant to shut it so hard.
But you didn't say anything, brushing past Suguru and ignoring both of them while you headed for your room. Sukuna's assessment was accurate. Neither of them would do anything. Not while the other was there.
When you slammed your bedroom door behind you, it was on purpose. Flipped the lock even though you knew it wouldn't actually hold up if either really wanted in, but wasn't that the point? They couldn't admit that they wanted in, wanted you, if it meant admitting it to each other.
Because once they said it out loud, they couldn't take it back. You weren't fun if you weren't something they could hide. A toy that they'd broken trying to take turns playing with.
At some point, the friendship that had once been there faded, dissolved until all that was left was this stupid tryst. Had it ever even existed? Or was it just a means to this end?
If you weren't warming their beds, a secret kept between their sheets, you had no purpose, no other reason to occupy their time or take up space in their life.
Your point only felt proven when the silence seemed to seep into every crevice the rest of the afternoon, barely stepping foot outside of your room outside of bathroom breaks and grabbing food from the kitchen, empty spaces where memories and laughter used to be.
The first knock came after the sun started to dip below the horizon outside your window, curtains drawn back to let the fading daylight in, scrolling through your phone on your bed, wondering if you'd regret answering.
"Open up? Please?" Satoru called out from the other side, the door creaking as he rested his weight against it, the doorknob twisting when he tried it again.
You sighed getting up, tossing your phone back down on your bed and frowning when you unlocked the door to yank it open, Satoru stumbling inside, his body nearly toppling you over before you pushed him off.
"Yeah?" You blinked, stepping back, putting enough space between you that his stare felt a little less suffocating, pretending the pout on his lips didn't send a sharp pang to your heart.
He wasn't sad he was losing you. He was just jealous you were moving on.
Satoru tried not to show it, wearing another mask like you wouldn't be able to tell what he was feeling when he stepped forward and shut the door behind him.
"Sweetheart," He sighed, talking slow and soft while he reached out to touch you. You took another step back before he could. "I'm sorry about yesterday."
"For what?" You shrugged. It wasn't like it was the only time he'd forgotten about you. He just wasn't going to get the opportunity to do it again.
His cool exterior faltered, a flicker of nervousness in his stare at the roles being reversed.
"We didn't get to finish," He hesitated over the words, and you glanced over to the wall you shared with Suguru's bedroom.
"It's fine," You shrugged again.
You'd finished plenty without him later.
"It's not," Satoru murmured, and a few weeks ago, you might've melted at the tender way he was starting at you, the adoration you'd always hoped was there glittering in his bright eyes. But it all felt plastic now.
You could water it and hope it'd grow, but it'd never breathe or change or wilt because it was never real to begin with.
"Gojo," You quietly cut him off before he could say anything else, and he flinched at your use of his last name. "I said it's fine."
You walked around him to slip out of your room, keeping your eyes forward on your way to the kitchen, opening the door to the pantry and rummaging through the shelves for a snack. Acting like you didn't see Suguru sitting at the counter, or feel his eyes on your back when your other roommate followed you.
"You have fun last night?" Suguru broke the silence, his polite question pierced by something you couldn't even place coming from him.
"Yeah," You nodded, not turning around. "You guys?"
"Not really."
"Yep."
They both started talking at the same time, but you were a little more inclined to believe Suguru's plain answer, how dry his no was.
"You really going to go out with that guy again?" He asked, his voice low, and you wondered which one of you was going to scoff first.
"Why not?" You hummed, glancing over your shoulder at them.
Suguru was watching you, his jaw set in a hard line, but he didn't let anything else show past his furrowed brows, but Satoru was silently seething in the stool next to him, elbows on the counter as he chewed on the inside of his cheek.
"When's the last time you even had a boyfriend?" He tried to tease, but it came out bitter.
Whose fault was it that the last one had been before you met them?
đđđ. you quickly befriend your university's cute librarian by going there so often and bothering him when bored. he returns the favour by helping you with study and making you wet for him in public. . .
The university library is a familiar place for you, itâs quiet and a little underutilised, especially in the wintertime. It keeps you focused, not able to lounge on your couch and watch tv shows when youâre trapped at the public desks. Itâs comfortable and quiet and has that smell of old books that brings a little joy. All this and it has the benefit of being here so often that youâre usually the first to check out the books for required readings.
Frequent visiting of the library has also granted you a close relationship with the librarian. Which means that when you want to slack off and procrastinate, you sit by his desk and bother him. Using the free rolling chair beside his to flit around his space and ask meaningless questions, questions he usually entertains.
âGojoâŠâ you sigh, growing bored that heâs not entertaining you, âwhatâs your favourite word?â
Like a true librarian, he shushes you, âShh.â A hand waving you off a little, dismissive because heâs focusing.
Being snarky back at him as a small punishment, âI believe thatâs an onomatopoeia.â
He looks up from what heâs doing, âWhat?â
ââShhâ, itâs an onomatopoeia, not a word.â
âI wasnât answering your question,â he frowns, âalso⊠yes it is.â
âNuh uh,â you refute, âitâs the sound a word makes.â
âOnomatopoeiaâs are also considered to be types of words themselves,â he looks over the top of his glasses at you, head tilted down, âitâd be like saying âbangâ isnât a word because itâs also an onomatopoeia.â
Grumbling at him, âYouâre wrong because I said so.â
âOh! Of course, now I see that your argument is valid and correct,â he smiles at you.
Gojo Satoruâs smile pisses you off, not because heâs being a smartassâthough that factors in sometimesâbut because you find him so attractive that itâs unfair. You pout at him in response, âNo one likes a know-it-all.â
âSays the one who started this by being a know-it-all.â
Wheeling the chair to the other side of him, âItâs cuter when I do it.â
âI hate to disagree but I think Iâm cuter,â he smirks a little but ducks his head back into his work.
You flop onto his desk beside him, head on your arms as you watch his face, âYou hate to do it and yet you do it anyways.â
âWhat are you looking for over here, sweetheart?â he looks down at you, knowing exactly why youâre bothering him, âWhatâd you get stuck on?â
Taking offence and muttering, âIâm not stuck on anythingâŠâ
He prompts, ââŠBut.â
âBut⊠Iâve reread the rubric so many times that my eyes hurt and Iâve decided itâs a tomorrow me problem.â
Gojo hums, âI feel like Iâve heard this before.â
âMingling with the other students I see.â
âYes, itâs certainly not that I heard that exact phrasing from you barely a couple weeks ago,â again his eyes leave yours, âmaybe my age is messing with my memory but I also couldâve sworn that was right around when you put that same work off for another few days until it was the night of.â
âOkay butââ
ââYou know⊠I think I also recall you getting so stressed about it that you cried to me about it and cursed out past you.â Flicking a page over, âThat was you right? Or am I going crazy?â
You deadpan back, âYouâre going crazy.â
He pinches your cheek and tugs, âDo your work and leave me to mine, this is my actual job⊠you know that right?â
âWho cares about you, this is about me right now,â you bat his hand away, âand right now I want to procrastinate by bothering you.â
âLucky me.â
âYou should feel lucky,â you poke his arm.
His brow quirks at you, âThatâs what I said, isnât it?â
A few beats of silence go by and then youâre rolling yourself over to the other side of him, proposing with a coy, âYou know⊠maybe if a certain librarian helped me with my work⊠I wouldnât end up crying about it in a few days.â
âTrying to get me to do your schoolwork now?â
âIâm very nicely asking for your help.â
âHmmâŠâ he thinks on it for entirely too long, clearly just trying to put you on edge. He spins to face you, âWhatâs in it for me?â
You sit up and lean in towards him, incredibly serious when stating, âThe feel-good feeling youâll get from helping me.â
He stares you down, waiting for you to better your terms but all it does is make you self-conscious over how close he is and think about how pretty his lashes are. You refuse to back down though, now locked in an intense staring competition with him.
Good news for you, he cracks first, âAlright, fine. Show me what you need help with.â
A huge smile breaks out on your face, âYay!â
âBe quiet,â he chastises, âyouâre still in a library.â
Glaring at him a little, âI was gonna give you a hug but now I donât wanna.â
âNo, go ahead,â he opens his arms for you and even though you genuinely consider it, you choose to flick his forehead instead. âOuch,â he rubs where you flicked him.
âNo hug for you,â once again rolling to the other side of him and pulling out your laptop, âmaybe if you help meâŠâ
Gojo only laughs at you, smiling as he scoots closer to see your screen. âCan you guarantee that hug?â
You retort, âCan you guarantee your help?â
âDonât have such little faith in me, especially when youâre begging for my help.â
âI donât remember begging,â mouth pulling sideways at his comment.
He pulls your laptop closer to him, âLetâs agree to disagree.â
Despite his attitude, itâs thanks to him that youâre able to start your work and stop pulling your hair out.
ââââââ .âŠ
Required readings⊠your enemy. Not only is this library a messâsorry Gojoâbut everything you need is too high up to reach. So, you have to spend nearly twenty minutes looking for one book, only to struggle to obtain it when itâs found. Fingers just barely tapping the shelf itâs sat atop. Youâre glaring at your enemy of a book from below when someone is right behind you, warm body pressed to yours.
Your immediate thought is that some stranger is simultaneously, far too close to you and stealing the book you need. Before you can act on your first thoughts, the familiar smell of Gojo graces your senses and your face heats up. Feeling warm at his body pressed to yours, conscious of just how much taller than you he is.
His free hand is on your head as he reaches up above you, hand on your book, âThis is the one, right?â
You nod back at him sheepishly, feeling far too shy to turn to look at him when heâs this close. Always knowing that Gojo is tall is completely different from feeling it when heâs pressed up against you, the height difference put into blaring perspective.
His body against yours prompts your brain into spewing out all kinds of images of him and how he might use his size to his benefit. If he were to touch you⊠would he be gentle? Your pussy drips into your panties at the idea, growing needier the longer he stays behind you. Itâs an active effort for you to not rub your thighs together and beg for him to touch you.
Gojo finally takes a half-step back and taps the top of your head with the book, bringing you back to the now, âYou all there?â
You turn and take it from him bashfully, âYeah, sorry and thanks.â
âFeeling okay?â He tilts his head at you and blinks, his glasses slipping down his nose a little.
Heâs sweet and now youâre feeling bad about having perverted thoughts about your very nice and helpful librarian. Stumbling over yourself a bit in your embarrassment, âIâm fine, I⊠Iâm good, justâ your library is hard to navigate.â
âIf youâre getting lost, you could always ask for help,â he seems so close.
Your gaze averts his, feeling exposed under it, guilty about the material of your wet panties clinging to you, âI didnât wanna bother you.â
âThatâs never stopped you before,â he grins because itâs true.
âMaybe I felt like being benevolent,â you grumble. âI need another book, so if you could take another step back.â
âDo you know where youâre going?â
âOf course,â walking past him, and saying with a playful tone, âI know this place like the back of my hand.â
He follows along beside you, waiting to see if you mess up, âSo⊠howâre your classes?â
âTheyâre fine,â you pause and scan the aisles, thinking for a moment and ignoring the amusement radiating off of Gojo. Deciding to indulge the conversation with something thatâs been bugging you, âwell actually, lately some guy keeps sitting next to me during lectures and talking my ear off.â
âOh?â suddenly sounding interested, âwhatâs he talking about?â
Finally in the area of the library you were looking for, all the way in the far back corner. Eyes ready for the tiring chore of looking at the spine of all the books.
âStupid shit I donât care about,â you recall his babbling and how you tried your very best to filter it out, âhimself mostly, I think he just likes the sound of his own voice.â
You can hear the way Gojo clicks his tongue, like heâs growing frustrated, âHave you told him to leave you alone?
âIâve tried,â you bend down to look at the lower shelves, âheâs annoyingly persistent, I donât even know why he talks to me when I donât engage him.â
His voice grows closer, âHave you always been oblivious?â
âExcuse me?â you stand up again and face him, âI am not oblivious.â
âHeâs been flirting with you and you havenât even noticed.â
âYou donât know that,â brows pulling together, âplus, youâre way more oblivious.â
He scoffs a little, âName one time.â
Face hot and voice a little shaky, blurting out, âJust before!â
âWhat are you talking about?â
Youâre annoyed and feel like sticking it to him, answering pointedly, âI got all wet because you just had to be all pressed up against me before and you had no idea.â
Heart hammering in your chest as he steps closer to you, his voice low, âProve it.â
Your mouth drops for a second, âAnd how am I meant to do that?â
He points at your lower half shamelessly, âLift up your skirt.â
âIââ
ââShould I do it for you?â
âNo,â you drop your book and bag, âIâll do it.â
Nerves running wild as you hold the hem of your skirt and lift it, exposing your underwear to your surprisingly perverted librarian. He stares at you for entirely too long before dropping to his knees in front of you, eyes glancing up.
âCan I touch you?â he asks a little breathlessly, pupils dilated.
Itâs probably not a great ideaâany of thisâbut youâre needy and heâs showing interest in you. Plus, itâs a little hard to have a rational state of mind when heâs on his knees and patiently waiting for you to answer his very simple but loaded question.
Youâre eventually nodding your head slowly, âPleaseââ
His finger presses into the damp spot on your panties and your knees buckle, the grip on your skirt loosens making him grumble up at you, âKeep your skirt up.â
Huffing a little at him but gripping the material tighter and pulling it back up, he seems content with that if his hum is anything to go off of. His finger is delicate as he traces between your folds, digit sliding with how wet youâve gotten. All heâs doing is making you needier, whatever slight pleasure youâre getting not enough.
âWell, you werenât lying,â he states, amused. âYou always get this wet when someone stands a little too close?â
Making a point not to answer him, âSo, you know you were too close.â
âLooking at your crying pussy right now, I have no regrets.â
A soft sigh pulls from your lungs at his finger flicking your clit, âAhâ and here I was feeling guilty about my perverted thoughts about the sweet librarian.â
Gojo scoffs a little at that and looks into your eyes, âYou mean, the grown man who indulges you despite being on the clock?â He grins wide, and focuses back on your cunt, âIâm sure he wouldnât mind.â
Your reply is kept to a soft moan as his finger presses into your weeping hole, heâd be able to penetrate you with it if your panties werenât in the way.
Distracted by the sight before his head snaps back upwards as if realising something, smiling like heâs charmed by you, âYou think Iâm sweet?â
âNo,â you deny, breaths coming a little faster.
âMm, you think Iâm sweet,â he sing-songs back at you, leaning in while he gloats.
âI do notâ ah!â
A short cry coming from you before your teeth dig into your lower lip to stifle it, heâd leant in and stuffed his face to your covered pussy while you were talking. Crudely inhaling deep and sighing happily. Eyes heated and barely focused on yours as he sucks on your wet panties, making the damp spot grow larger. He whines at the taste of you, a pathetic and needy sound that sends sparks through you.
You huff out at him, âI donât know what you are but itâs not sweet.â
He lets go of your underwear and answers, âI may not be sweet but you sure fucking are,â always finding himself to be hilarious, eyes full of mirth as his tongue lolls from his mouth lewdly. Pulling your panties to the side quickly as he leans in, tongue warm and wet on your exposed cunt.
Butterflies erupt inside your tummy, the direct contact making you wobbly. Unable to even really recognise this as real life but the way his tongue slithers inside your hot cunt feels far too real for it to not be reality. Little mewls spill from your lips, beyond turned on by the sight below you. This big man on his knees for you and desperately slurping at your leaking pussy.
Groans rumbling in his chest as he greedily laps at you, messy in his pursuit. Almost feral, like itâs not about you but about how much he enjoys this instead. Nuzzling even closer, as close as he can possibly hope to get and still you know that if he could, heâd be getting closer to you. His tongue pulls from your hole and is replaced by two of his large fingers, stretching you open obscenely.
Deliriously happy as he watches your legs shake from under you, your hands unsteady as they faithfully hold onto your skirt and keep you exposed for his viewing pleasure. âYouâre already such a mess,â he comments, âitâs real cute.â
âShutâ hnnâ up,â embarrassment prickling at your skin and somehow adding to your arousal, walls trembling around his fingers in a telltale way.
Gojoâs a lot of things but heâs not oblivious, especially not to the way your body reacts at such a small hit of degradation. It has his cock twitching in his pants, humming knowingly at you and wondering how far he could push it. You have a lot of pride but you also seem weak to pleasure.
âI meant it as a compliment, pretty,â he coos, again catching your reaction. Now heâs confused, either you just like when he talks or you like both praise and degradation. Itâs certainly piqued his curiosity, and for you? he can definitely do both. Hell, he wants to do both.
âDonâtââ
ââDonât?â he crooks his fingers into your g-spot and chuckles at how you falter, âbut, sweetie, youâre drooling everywhere.â You whine out to him and he feels the need to add, âYour pussy, I mean your pussy is dripping wet, twitching around my fingers like crazy.â
âAh!â are you evil or something?â You pout at him, eyes sparkling with unshed tears.
âAw, donât look at me like that,â he mutters, âjust makes me want to bully you some more.â
And then heâs tipping forward and latching onto your swollen clit, so sensitive and needy as he licks and sucks at you. Youâre completely wrapped around his fingers at this point, literally. All whiney and desperate, head feeling light as he fingers you to insanity. Squeaking suddenly when heâs stuffing his tongue in with his fingers, full to his knuckles as he grinds against your inner walls.
It's too much, the feeling of being so full and having all your sweet spots attended to at once. Youâre weak to it and cumming pathetically quick, walls quivering as your cunt floods with fresh slick. Leaking around his fingers, even with his mouth drinking at you obscenely. Jolting through it, every slight touch has your nerve endings on fire and heâs not stopping.
Heâs apparently got his own ideas on how this is going down because instead of rushing thisâlike he should because youâre in publicâheâs taking his sweet time. Withdrawing his tongue from your cunt and opening you up with another digit, grinding the pads against your g-spot. The grin on his face pisses you off and youâd do something about it but youâre so close to being forced into another orgasm.
Legs shaking violently under you, your hands are finally giving way and your skirt is dropping back down. Immediately, youâre reaching behind and gripping the shelf. âGojoâ hnnâ you gotta stopâ hahâ itâs too much.â
His free hand pulls your skirt back up, eyes hungry as he watches how youâre swallowing down his fingers, âJust gimmie one more and Iâll stop,â his voice has an excited lilt to it.
You whimper back at him, âI canât.â
âSure, you can,â answer coming a little dismissive, âyou wanna be good for me, right?â
Thereâs a sting in your lower lip from how youâre biting down into it, cutting off the sounds youâre making. Your pussy outs your reaction though, trembling as you cream around him. Cumming hard for a second time, it has your eyes rolling, so much more sensitive and feeling it so much more.
Gojo lets you ride it out until youâre twitching away from his touch, then he pulls his fingers out and watches how your cum coats them. No self-control in how he sucks them into his mouth and licks them clean. Even less self-control when he leans in and licks your drippy cunt, groaning into your plush skin as he gently laps at you.
A hand in his hair has him pulled back forcefully and he whines at you, his eyes sulking at your cruelty. âI was just cleaning you up,â he tries to reason with you.
âToo sensitive, youâre making me crazy,â a small aftershock runs through you and you try to ignore how hot heâs made you all over, âIâll end up screaming in your quiet library.â
He stands to his full height and crowds you in, his mouth right over yours, âI donât mind getting caught.â
âI do!â mmph,â his lips on yours shut you up quick.
The kiss is messy and wet and impatient, his thumb pulls on your chin just so he can open your mouth more and slip his tongue against yours. Itâs mind boggling how a kiss can feel this good, your head is spinning and youâre so far out of it you canât tell if heâs just that good or if youâre delirious from your orgasms.
Youâre looping your arms around his neck lazily and holding on, his hands move to your hips and grip you tight. You need it, you need his hold because your legs were already so weak and now theyâre feeling much weaker with how hotly heâs kissing you. And it is, so hot, his tongue against yours is practiced and frustratingly enticing.
His kiss goes straight to your core, pussy tingling with arousal. Itâs been all of a few seconds and youâre already feeling neglected and painfully empty. You must be greedier than you thought because youâre aching to have your cunt stuffed by him again and this time you want more than his fingers.
âGojoâ hffâ Iâ mmhââ itâs hard to get his attention when heâs hellbent on kissing you, threading your fingers through his hair before pulling him away. His eyes are all glassy and he lets slip a little whimper, you ignore the way it makes you feel. âGojo, I wantâŠâ your thighs rub against each other, suddenly feeling embarrassed about saying out loud that you want him to fuck you.
âYou wantâŠ?â He coaxes, knowing exactly what you want but playing dumb. His lips kiss along your jaw and down your neck while waiting for you to be upfront.
Itâs completely distracting and has you fumbling over your words, âIâ uhâ humâ well I⊠I want,â you huff out a small moan when he sucks on your neck, âstop that!â you push him back again.
He giggles at you a little, enjoying your reaction, âSorry, what are you trying to ask me for, sweetheart?â
âWell, now I donât wanna say,â you grumble.
âDonât be like that,â he bites your cheek before leaving a chaste peck on it, âIâll give you what you want, you just gotta ask for it.â His smile is crooked and a little evil because he knows youâre embarrassed and shy.
Youâre glaring back at him, âLike you donât know.â
âOh, I know,â he whispers against your ear, licking it just to make you shiver, âI really wanna hear you say it though.â
âFine,â you look through your lashes up at him, âI want your dick inside me.â
âThatâs all you had to say, sweetie,â both his hands grab your head and he moves down to plant a full kiss on your lips.
Mumbling, âOh, is that all?â
âStop pouting so much,â he moves his hands to his pants, beginning to undo them, âmy dick can only get so hard.â
âYouâre such a freak,â you say that but your eyes are trained on where heâs unbuttoning his jeans, waiting for him to pull his cock out.
âI thought I was your sweet librarian,â his smile reaches his eyes, a mischievous sort of look. âNow, turn around because Iâm like ninety percent positive that if I fuck you like this your legs are gonna give out.â
âNo please?â
âPretty pleaseâŠâ his hands grip your waist and encourage you to spin, âturn around so I can stuff my dick inside you, like how you asked for.â
Heâs so annoying, so annoying in how heâs already understood exactly what has you tripping over yourself for him. Not like it was hard to begin with, youâve been crushing on him for a while now. Why else would you bug him to high hell when heâs meant to be working?
You turn around for him and he places his lips beside your ear, purring, âSo good at listening.â
âDonât patronise me,â you grip the shelf in front of you, arching a little at his touch pressing into your lower back.
His laugh is airy, âI was being genuine.â
âWhy donât I believe youâ ah!â
Heâd waited until you were talking to slip the head of his cock inside you, âYou should have a little more faith in me.â
You can feel his lips pressing a gentle kiss to your temple, his breath shuddering slightly, like heâs struggling to hold back. Itâs agony, how slow heâs entering you. Heâs torturing the both of you in one fell swoop, youâre whining back at him, âHurry up.â
âFuckâ thank god,â he sighs at your plea and slams his hips the rest of the way. Â
His dick is bigger than you expected and youâre about to let out a loud moan when his hand clamps over your mouth to stifle the sound. Mewls and whimpers tumble from your lips freely as he sits deep inside you, pulsing hot and heavy in your gooey walls. You can feel the way youâre bulging around the length of him, the emptiness you were experiencing not moments before completely gone.
Gojoâs almost gleeful when he huffs out, âIâ hffâ I thought you didnât wanna get caught.â
You canât even say anything back, still moaning about his cock inside you and heâs not even moving yet. And even then, his hand is over your mouth, any words you try to speak right now would be a garbled mess.
Frustrated, you wiggle your hips back, hoping you can entice him into moving. You somewhat succeed, he twitches forward and his head drops to your shoulder, a pitiful sound leaving him. âHahâ so impatient.â
An angry mumble vibrates through his hand from you and he laughs at it, mocking you when he asks, âWhatâs wrong? You need something?â
Opening your mouth, you nip at his palm and he groans breathlessly.
âStop moaning so much and Iâll pull my hand away.â You force your mouth shut and swallow down your sounds, Gojo waits a moment and then pulls his hand back. Sliding it down to your throat where he grips you gently, just holding you, âWhat have you been trying to say, pretty?â
Gritting out at him, âIâve been tryingâ hnnâ trying to tell you to move!â
âGreedy,â he hums out.
Itâs the only word you get before youâre wrecked by the thick drag of his hard cock pulling out and slamming back in. It has your world spinning, his tip knocking against your womb and making your head all dizzy. Youâre almost screaming out about it but heâs quicker than you, hand on your mouth again.
Delirious giggles bubbling from him, âOoh, that was a close one, huh?â He doesnât stop, hips setting a devastating pace now as he fucks into you repetitively, âI think your pussy might give us away though.â
And now your brain is registering the filthy sounds of him pounding into your sloppy cunt, completely debauched and loud. Heâs right, if anyone gets even remotely close to you theyâre going to hear the telltale sounds of your insatiable hole being filled by the hot librarian.
Gojo wraps his other arm around you, pulling you back closer to him and nuzzling his face into your neck. Heâs letting slip little moans and whines and before he lets out a louder sound, he latches onto your skin. Biting down into you and making you mewl, cunt drooling around his cock and leaving a creamy white ring at the base of it.
Itâs messy and desperate, the way heâs fucking you. All rushed and sharp thrusts, messy moans and hushed whines. Youâre both supposed to be quiet but are completely failing, this corner of the library filled with nothing but the sounds of the two of you losing it.
âFuckâ youâre so fuckingâ godâ youâre so fucking tight and warm andââ heâs licking over the spot he bit into, âyouâre such a fucking mess.â
He genuinely means it as a compliment even if it is degrading, and even though itâs degrading it has your stomach fluttering and voice cracking with a whimper. Cumming ridiculously easy around him, spurred on by his ruined voice.
âYouâre cumming? Already?â heâs excited, hugging you tighter, âyouâre gonna make meâ fuck youâre gonna make me cum.â The way your walls tighten around his dick and try to milk his own orgasm out of him drives him insane. Through his foggy brain, he manages out, âCanâ hnnâ can I cum inside you?â
You limply nod your head back at him, heart hammering at the idea of it. Turned on by the thought. Gojo doesnât let that go, commenting on it, âSeriously? I can feel how you got wetter and youâre already drowning my dick in your own cum.â
The urge to tell him to shut the fuck up doesnât escape you, muttering it out against his palm even though it canât be deciphered.
He absolutely catches it though, chuckling. âDonât be so mad, youâre about to be stuffed full of all my cum so it hardly matters.â
A sound half-way between grumpy and fucked out passes your lips and he finds it so fucking cute that heâs finishing. Slamming his hips close to yours and grinding his tip against your uterus, biting into the same spot on your shoulder again to keep his pathetic noises to a minimum.
The two of you stand there panting for a moment, youâre completely boneless in his hold and barely hanging onto consciousness. So deep in the pleasure that all you want is to lay down and sleep, held up only by Gojoâs arms.
He pulls his hand off your mouth and itâs coated in your saliva from how you were drooling into his palm, briefly wondering if he should lick it but deciding not to in case you get mad at him. He settles for turning your head to the side and sticking his tongue into your mouth, kissing you urgently.
You can feel that heâs still hard inside you and it has you weak, confused on how heâs still so ready to go when youâre sensitive and lost.
Gojo pulls his mouth off yours, âCould we?â He asks, pulling out the tiniest but before thrusting back in.
The sound you let out has his balls pulling tight and his brain melting, not muffled and completely clear to him. Itâs like music to his ears and he desperately wants to hear it again, going to rut into you for a second time but you stop him, weak hand pushing back on him.
âWe are still in public,â you huff out, âweâre in public and I think you just killed me.â
He lets out a controlled breath, holding back, âIf I take you home, can we do it again?â
âIf youâre lucky,â you purr before adding more humorously, âand if Iâm alive.â
âSo dramatic,â he leans away, ânow, get ready?â
âFor?â
He doesnât answer, you find out really quick what for. Heâs pulling himself out of your fucked hole and just before all of his seed leaks down your inner thighs, he tugs your panties back into place but that just means youâve got a limited amount of time before itâs seeping through the material.
âWe better move quick,â he pats your ass.
You finally turn around and face him, giggling lightly because his glasses are all crooked. Reaching up, you straighten them and say, âIâm not going anywhere quick, my legs feel like jelly.â
âWe are gonna have to move quick because I cannot be sane while knowing youâve got my full load held inside you by nothing but your panties,â his eyes glint deviously at you.
Worried he might take you in the library again, you concede, âAlright, weâll move quick.â
đïŸđ. thanks for reading! this was completely self indulgent of me but i hope you guys liked it too àŹ( áŽÍ áŽÍ)àŽ
You're a normal girl in college, a broke little barista and trying your best to keep your scholarships up - Satoru Gojo is not normal, not at all - he's the six eyes, the clan leader, and about to have to marry and take over. The two of you wish for something different when a rare comet shoots across the sky. And that's when you wake up in his body - Satoru Gojo, a powerful sorcerer a world away, and he wakes up in your tiny little dorm bed, with a pair of tits. The two of you stare in the mirror at unfamiliar faces and wonder if any of this is real, and just who the two of you were - could you get back to your bodies, and was a different life really any better?
pairings - Sorcerer! Satoru x fem! reader
warnings Based on the movie your name obviously - it will be very angsty, but also kinda cute - you will keep body swapping throughout, there will be a time difference - fix it fic. Toru is 22, you're 21. size difference to make it more dramatic and funny, canon adjacent (yes, I'm writing him as a sorcerer hehe) Geto never defected, eventual smut, lots of character and plot, emotional - planning on four parts to this. taglist open <3
art by @3-aem of courssee <333
part one
Life was normal before that comet shot across the sky.
You were just a normal college student â struggling in physics, but doing great in everything else. You had a part time job at a coffee shop in your little town, you had a boy you had a crush on and a few friends, but mostly â you studied. You studied till your eyes burned, till they hurt so badly you fell asleep right on your desk, drooling on whatever text book you had.
You didnât come from money â your family in fact was too broke to put you through college, but they loved you, they helped you get financial aid and scholarships so hopefully you could do better than they did. You loved them very much, too, there were video chats every day since you lived in the dorm outside of your city.
Days were just that â normal, as you worked on your degree, a wicked hangover on your twenty first birthday, where you finally got your first kiss. Yeah â you could say you were that much of an introvert, you hadnât even done that yet. You wish you remembered it more, it was something quick and hasty as fireworks went off, it was that time of year when you were born.
Something special, something beautiful, but something wasâŠ
Off.
It was off even that day. Maybe your period was coming or something, but everything on the day of your twenty-first felt off â especially when you got that damn letter saying if you didnât raise your physics grade youâd lose that funding.
Tears blurred your vision as you collapsed onto your bed with that letter, knowing if your parents knew how horribly you were doing they would be so disappointed. You couldnât help but wish for an escape from the crushing weight of all these expectations â many of which you placed on yourself, rushing to take that invite and get positively drunk at a party.
You didnât tell the guy it was your first kiss, you just did that â let him slide his tongue in your mouth and press you against a wall, then it was all a bit of a blur â you heading back to the dorm, sneaking away. Crying yourself to sleep even though you technically âhad funâ.
Why did you feel so lonely, though?
Yet when you woke up, everything changed.
Your body changed.
Your fucking room changed.
You were no longer in your little dorm â youâre in some fancy ass, rich ass room with an enormous bed and black silk sheets. You gasp and worry â did you end up with that dude last night? Did you think you got home but got too fucked up!? Your heart hammers in your chest as you peek down â and then you see it.
You see it and fucking scream so loud, seeing youâre wearing boxers rather than panties â and instead of your pussy, there was a dick. Oh, not a small dick, either â and not a soft one, a fully hard, massive fucking cock was on your body.
âWhat the fuck!? What!?â You jump up and fall, unused to the lanky ass legs that are currently under you, ones that cannot be yours â pale and muscular and so goddamn long. Youâre way too tall, so tall youâd hit your head in your fucking dorm, looking down at everything in shock, stumbling into a dresser.
Even your voice is deep and â sexy!? You rush over to this fancy dresser, gasping as you see a perfect face in a mirror â a manâs face, with beautiful blue eyes and cheekbones to fucking die for. You smack at that face as if reality will hit â seeing chest muscles where your titties should be, blushing in his pale skin as you see that bulge in the mirror.
You're inside the body of the hottest man youâve ever seen in some fancy ass home you could never afford!
âIt has to be some dream,â you curse and rush out, running down spiral stairs â how big is this manâs house?! Itâs a whole fucking confusing mansion, youâre rushing through everything, trying to find some hint of who he could be â of what weird ass fever dream youâre having, when the door knocks. âOne minute!â
Youâre rushing over now, opening it and seeing a dark haired man look at your body, rolling his eyes. âPut on some clothes, Satoru. We have training.â
âTraining?â He raises a brow at you, and you struggle to act normal, searching your brain for anything. âTrainingâŠâ
âYeah, Satoru â training. Just because youâre perfect at everything doesnât mean me and Shoko donât need more practice. We have to set a good example if we wanna teach some day.â
âTeach. ExamplesâŠâ
The man blinks his amethyst eyes, looking right at you now, too close, so close you fucking blush again. âWhatâs wrong with you, Satoru?â
Satoru â who was Satoru?
*****
Satoru was exhausted as he trained his fucking ass off, entirely exhausted â he wanted a break, he wanted a vacation, he didnât want to fight anymore curses, or see anymore of his old classmates die. He didnât want to take over the Gojo family name, and he sure the fuck didnât look forward to the inevitable arranged marriage the elders were about to place on him.
Standing in his shower since he was covered in grime from fucking curses exploding, he couldnât help but wonder what it would be like if he was not born a Gojo at all â what would it be like if instead, he had been someone normal? If he was just a normal guy at college, and not training to teach the newbies at Jujutsu high?
If he were a normal twenty two year old man who wasnât about to have to become the clan leader, and take on all this goddamn responsibility he didnât ask for? Sure, Satoru loved to be the strongest â but that didnât mean he enjoyed the constant effort, the secrets, the lies they told â the way everything fell on him and his friends, all the expectations making him drown.
He was a Gojo â they were the strongest, and thatâs all there was to it. Day in, day out, everything was simple. KIll everything bad, save everyone he could, but goddamit if he wasnât exhausted, if he didnât just want to go be a normal guy â maybe go study physics, study theories of the universe he wishes even he could know more about.
Go look at the stars with a pretty girl and laugh, a girl he chose.
Yet that doesnât appear to be anything he will get â no, he was born a Gojo, and that was that. Even falling asleep in his silk sheets that night, he could not stop his mind from racing, frowning as thoughts raced through his mind at a rampant pace.
How could Satoru Gojo ever live a normal life?
Well, he wondered what normal meant that next morning when he felt hungover â something he never, ever was. Satoru did not drink, it dulled his senses too much, but every now and then he had gone out with Suguru and Shoko, Nanami throwing back whiskey like it was nothing, but he could barely hold one without getting sick.
And does he feel sick â and he feels sad, more sad than before, like emotional in a way he canât remember being. He reached out as he felt tears burning his eyes â that doesnât happen, either. Satoru trained himself not to cry from a young age, but now heâs doing just that, his fingers touching unfamiliar cheeks that were wet with tears he hadn't shed in years.
Unfamiliar.
He looks at this shitty little bed then and screams, plopping out of it â his arms fucking flailing. He canât even take looking at these thighs â not his lanky ass legs, no, theyâre cute thighs, ones he himself would grab and spread if it belonged to a pretty girl underneath him. Cute lil socks on his ankles covered in kittens.
Kittens!?
Satoru stumbles again, bashing his head and feeling hair fall against his shoulders, shocked with that alone, but especially not being white. He stands and rushes to the little dresser â too small for him, everything is too small for him, but he is not six foot four, not one goddamn bit he realizes, looking at his reflection, at the pretty tits half falling out of a tank top spun.
Tits on his body!? He grabs them and squishes them in his hands, confused as fuck now, but he canât help but keep squishing these pretty tits, as if they could rid him of the fucking stress, looking at the unfamiliar face. Softer features than his, completely different in every way â though sheâŠ
He!?
This body was beautiful, this face was lovely, the type of girl heâd flirt with or throw on his charm, but be just a little nervous, a little shy. Her lips are swollen as if sheâd been kissed all night, he knows that look from women heâs been with, that hung over, fucked out look â thoughâŠ
He doesnât feel fucked â well how would he know!?!? He pulls aside those shorts, blushing and then covering back up, the panties were just a little wet, soaking the matching kittens. And thatâs when it hits him, that clenching feeling in his tummy â heâs got a pussy.
And TITS.
Satoru Gojo is aâŠ
Knock knock knock.
Maybe itâs Suguru and this is a joke, maybe this is a curse fucking with him â itâs one of those terrible fucking villains who make his life hell, and heâs cast under something. Or itâs a test â Yaga is fucking with him, making sure he can tell whatâs real or not. Some Gojo initiation.
Anything but what this is â when a girl knocks at the door and smiles at Satoru, leaning against the door and crossing her arms.
âHow was the first kiss, birthday girl?â She teases, Satoru blinks.
âUm⊠kissâŠâ
She says your name then.
Your name, is that your name?
Just who are you?
âAre you skipping physics? Arenât you failing bad?â She asks now, clearly concerned as Satoru sputters.
HIM failing physics? There was no fucking way â well, that and Satoru IS NOT A WOMAN. âFailing? Nah, I donât fail any subject.â
âGirl last night you were a mess about it, whatâs wrong?â She asks again, he shakes his head, well â your head â and your phone is ringing. âGonna get that?â
âYeah.â
Whatâs your pattern!? Whatâs your phone pattern!? He tries so many times he gets completely locked out, cursing. âMaybe youâre still drunk?â
âUm yeah, Iâm gonna take a shower and⊠get it together!â Satoru says, trying to get used to the girlie voice rather than his own, laughing as he awkwardly rubs the back of his neck â much softer than his own. When she finally leaves he leans against the door, picking up that phone again â a glittery pink one.
What the fuck?
*****
You were wearing this unfamiliar dark clothing â youâll give Satoru this, the man has taste â it was as fancy as clothing could get. Youâre absolutely sure that it costs more money than anything in your dorm put together, even these shades you have to wear must be expensive.
One moment youâre another girl, the next â youâre seeing curses.
"Focus, Gojo,â Suguru is his name â apparently, the man with the long dark hair, smiling tiredly as he smokes a cigarette. âYouâre off today.â
âRight, focusâŠâ You trail off and sigh, holding up your hand and gasping when blinding light erupts from your palms, obliterating the practice dummies right in front of you. You stare at your shaking hands â huge ones, by the way, all of this goddamn man was huge. âI did that!?â
âRub it in,â Shoko teases, laughing as she leans against Suguru, smoking a cigarette and laughing at you a bit. âWe know youâre the best, Gojo. Stop acting as if youâre like us.â
âIâm notâŠâ You trail off then, focusing on this insane fucking energy again, feeling it course through your veins.
You donât even get tired, like something is regenerating you constantly.
What the fuck was this? What was this power, these creatures, any of it they were talking about? You can only hope when you go to bed tonight, everything is fucking normal â that youâre failing physics, and that youâre not a six foot four rich man who seemingly never gets a break.
And you thought you worked hard.
Every moment of Satoru Gojoâs day was taken up â from training, to this driver named Ijichi who takes him all over, to the next meeting where you have to fucking hope you can keep up this act, a room full of doors, interrogating Satoru about his upcoming wedding.
This man is getting married?
There are photos of prospective brides, and all you can do is shuffle through them, curious when the fuck you were going to wake up and not have a dick.
****
âYou cheated on this test!â The professor of physics comes and yells at Satoru after he aces the test, he raises a brow at her. âNo way you didnât.â
âWhy would I cheat?â
âYou are the worst student in my class,â she slams the paper on Satoruâs desk, a blank test with different questions. âDo this, and Iâll watch you the whole time.â
His classmates â well theyâre your classmates â look at him, all worried, but he aces the goddamn test again, until sheâs sputtering. Satoru can see why you suck at physics, considering how mean she is â but luckily he just knows everything, and she canât argue a second time.
âWell, I guess you pass.â She mumbles, handing him his paper with a hundred percent. âBarely!â
Satoru is tired when his phone goes off â work at six.
WORK.
He has to go work!?
He re-set your pattern to a fingerprint, so he got your phone open â and found just where you work, a little coffee shop. Satoru was a goddamn barista. He was getting bitched out by customers when heâs used to fighting curses â and thatâs the craziest thing of all, besides having tits and a pussy.
He couldnât see well â in fact, your vision was shitty. You had to wear glasses and these weird contact things, and he certainly couldnât see curses â they could be all around, and he wouldnât sense them.
He had to get back to his damn body.
*****
Youâre so tired when you come back to the Gojo mansion you plop in the living room chair, yawning and kicking off his dress shoes, eyes shutting with your head leaned back. Your body is sore, and you still canât sleep â this aching, gnawing feeling of being inside this huge body taking over, wondering just what sort of hallucination you were having.
You fall asleep on that couch, as Satoru crashes face first in your tiny little dorm room, and the two of you wonderâŠ
Will you wake up from this weird fucking dream, of bodies you two can't recognize? Was any of this real?
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đđđ. you've been working at the same company for the last five years and you'd continue to do so if your circumstances hadn't suddenly changed. after you put in your resignation, your boss is doing everything he can to make you stay. . .
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For the past handful of years, youâve been working at a large marketing company for the CEO as a personal assistant. The job is what it is and the pay makes up for any sort of⊠eccentricities from your boss. Despite this, it canât change the fact that youâre struggling to pay rent and need to move back in with your parents.
You were coping before but your roommate⊠the guy you were⊠itâs complicated. Anyways he moved out and now things are just too expensive for you at the moment. It doesnât help that anywhere else close to work is in the same range for rent, stupid fancy company in a stupid nice area. Itâs frustrating because youâre attached to this job but itâs not feasible anymore.
So, as much as youâre unwilling to part from your current position, something has to give and youâve chosen to resign. Steeling your resolve, you walk into Gojoâs empty office and gently place your two weeksâ notice on his desk. Lingering for a short moment, remembering your first day here and how intimidated you were by him.
It was never your plan to stay here so long in the first place but itâs nearly been five years now, maybe it is time to move on to something different. Think positive, you just have to think positive and things will be good. Youâll get a new job and youâll make new friends and your boss will be kind and maybe not as weird.
Exiting the room, you sit back at your desk thatâs located outside Gojoâs office. Itâs hard to focus when youâve got so much on your mind but sometimes you think that he wouldnât get anything done if you werenât around.
Youâd gotten a text earlier about how he had an early meeting but you know he doesnât, heâs probably just left the office to go get himself some sweets. He wonât be back for a while either because heâs going to sit in a park or somewhere quiet and eat the evidence before he gets back to the office.
Why he even bothers to lie to you at this point is beyond you but youâll ignore it because sometimes you want to be alone for an hour too. Unlike him though, you simply donât have the luxury of doing that on company time.
When he does get back to the office he stops by your desk and smiles at you like he wasnât just shirking his responsibilities for the better half of the day. He waits very impatiently for you to acknowledge him, and you continue typing at your computer like heâs not there.
Gojo eventually speaks up, âSaying good morning to your boss is the polite thing to do, by the way.â
You hold up a hand while you finish up your email and send it off, only then do you look up and raise a brow at him, âMorning? Gojo⊠itâs nearly midday and youâre only just now coming into the office.â
âI told you I had a meeting,â he pouts because he knows heâs caught. âAnd how many times have I told you to call me Satoru?â
âIf you had a meeting itâd go through me because no one trusts you to show up to the ones you agree to.â You look back down at your computer and continue working, ignoring the second thing he said.
Sighing dramatically at you, âYouâre so mean to me.â
Not even looking up at him when you retort, âIf I were nicer to you would your job get done?â He doesnât answer and you add, âThatâs what I thought.â
âIâll get all my work done so quick youâll be embarrassed about doubting me.â
âUh huh,â as he walks off you call after him, âyouâve got chocolate on your tie.â
Gojo pauses, looks down to his tie and then uses his finger to try and swipe it off, âNo, I donât.â He scuttles away into his office.
Itâs then that youâre remembering the letter youâd put on his desk and you decide itâs time for your break. Sneaking away, you hide a few floors down in the employee break room. Your hands cradling a cup of tea that was hot but has now gone cold in the time youâve been holding onto it. Youâre staring blankly at it, not knowing how youâre going to face Gojo when heâs read your resignation.
Heâs a bit of a drama queen and youâre not sure⊠you donât even want to leave so having him fuss over it might make you feel worse. Oh, but what if he doesnât care. What if he doesnât say anything and he doesnât feel like youâre all that important to him. That might be worse. Youâre in a hell of your own making.
Youâre brought from your spiralling thoughts by a hand on your shoulder, jumping at the touch and looking up to see Nanami. His face is as stoic as ever but his eyes are laced with a mild concern for you.
You talk before he can ask, âIâm fine, just daydreaming.â
A sound of acknowledgement comes from him, not believing you but pacified enough to move on and make himself a cup of coffee. Not facing you when he says, âGojoâs looking for you.â
Frowning, âWhat? How do you know?â
He sits down across from you and plainly states, âBecause I walked past him and he asked where you were.â
A small grumble leaves you, itâs just not possible to avoid him for the whole day and even if you could, you couldnât do it for two full weeks.
âWhatâs going on?â
Your tea is too cold to drink now and you push it away, âDo you really want to know or are you just being polite?â
He takes a sip of his coffee like heâs giving himself time to think about his answer, ââŠI want to know.â
âI have to resign,â is all you say.
Nanami nods, âWell, that explains the frantic look on his face.â
Scoffing at him because that sounds ridiculous, âI left the letter on his desk and then hid.â
âYou canât hide forever.â
âI can try,â you smile, âheâs always showing up late and sneaking out anyways, Iâll probably be able to avoid him.â
The look on his face conveys severe doubt but he doesnât comment on your words, âWhy are you leaving?â
âNone of your business.â
âYouâre the only reason why communicating with Gojo is bearable, you leaving is going to be a nightmare for so many people.â
Your eyes roll at the sentiment, âWell, gee, Iâll miss you too.â A silence falls over the two of you and you explain, âI gotta move home for financial reasons.â Itâs not everything but you donât feel like spilling your guts to him right now.
âAsk for a raise,â he shrugs, âyou deserve it.â
âItâd have to be one hell of a raise,â you fold your arms on the table and lay your head on them.
His tone comes out monotonous, âThere there.â
Mumbling against your arms in reply, âYouâre such a comfort, Nanami.â
âI know.â
The clicking of heels alerts you to someone else in the room but you donât bother lifting your head to look. Not that you need to, the voice letting you know itâs Shoko, âGojoâs looking for you.â
âIâm aware,â you sigh.
She sits down next to you, âIf youâre hiding from him, this was a poor choice because Iâm pretty sure heâs on his way here.â
âHave I got time to run?â
Thereâs a hand on your head, a tight lipped, âNo,â coming from above you.
Ah, youâre caught. Sitting up, you smile at Gojo like youâve not been hiding from him, âGojo, is there something you need me for?â
He doesnât bother trying to get you somewhere private, âWhy are you resigning?â
Shoko asks, âYouâre resigning?â
Sighing out a tired, âYes,â before getting to your feet and walking out the room.
Immediately, Gojo is hot on your tail, âWhy? Why are you resigning?â He keeps pestering you despite the fact youâre not answering, âIs it something I did? Have I been a bad boss? Do you want me to show up on time more?â A pause, âIs it because I never bring you back any sweets? Iâm sorry! I just get so excited to eat themâŠâ
Your foot taps impatiently as you wait for the elevator, arms folded and feeling frustrated by him. âItâs nothing to do with youâŠâ heâs generally a good boss, a bit odd but heâs a good person and youâre quite attached to him, âthough, you should be showing up on time.â
âAre you really not going to tell me why youâre leaving me?â
âI think my letter covered it.â The elevator dings and his presence is felt looming over you as he follows you in.
âYour letter didnât cover shit,â he grumbles, âit was all that polite corporate speak.â
âItâs not a big deal, Gojo.â Your eyes meet his properly for the first time and he looks so genuinely hurt, itâs making this harder for you. âItâs nothing you did, nothing the company did. No one did anything, itâs just time to move on.â
âI literally cannot survive without you.â He blinks, âMy company is going to go bankrupt without you and then Suguruâs will be number one, is that what you want?â
âIf Getoâs company is ever number one itâs because he shows up on time and doesnât ignore calls from clients.â
He scowls. âThey should be calling you anyways, the old bastards only call me because they enjoy pissing me off.â
âPoor, poor, rich boy,â you say, looking away from him.
Gojoâs brows pinch up. âThereâs nothing I can do to make you stay?â
âNope.â
The pair of you walk off the elevator together and heâs still closer than necessary, like youâre going to disappear at any minute. âIâve got two weeks to change your mind,â he singsongs.
Itâs been a few days since that awkward conversation with Gojo and heâs been in the office every day⊠on time. You thought maybe the first day was just a fluke but then he kept showing up and staying. His behaviour is unpredictable at the best of times but this is the first time in the five years that youâve been here that heâs shown up on time for multiple consecutive days. Â
Whatever, youâve just been ignoring him and continuing your work. At least you would be but heâs not giving you anything to do. Suddenly, heâs interested in doing everything himself and actually staying on top of things. If this is his way of getting you to stay⊠itâs not working. Not only do you have nothing to do but youâre worried that heâs fucking things up.
A few hours since youâve been in office and youâre officially bored, staring blankly at your quiet inbox. This isnât going to work for you, you get up and walk into Gojoâs office. Heâs tapping away at his keyboard and youâre a little surprised by the focus on his face.
Pursing your lips as you stand in front of his desk, feeling conflicted on whether or not you should disturb him when heâs like this. Thereâs papers spread out on the surface beside him, his usually clean desk now messy.
âGojo, Iâm still your assistant until the end of next week,â your voice is gentler than how you feel, taking pity on him.
He doesnât look to you, eyes firmly on the screen. âNot if I can convince you to stay.â
âI donât know how many times I have to say this,â you take a step closer, âbut my resignation has nothing to do with you, so there is nothing you can do to change my mind.â
His eyes meet yours then, he looks tired.
Continuing to add, âAll youâve done is make me redundant, stop stealing my work and do your own.â
âI wonât hire anyone else.â
âThe board will make you.â Tilting your head at him, trying to add some levity, âAnd thereâs no way youâre not messing things up.â
He points at you, âHey! Iâve been very diligent.â
âWhich you wonât be able to keep doing long-term.â Reaching up, you tap the tip of his finger with your own.
That has him deflating, falling back into his chair and humming at you, âOkay, have all your stupid and tedious work back.â
âI will.â You glare at him as you lean over to pick up the papers off his desk.
Shuffling through them, you can see theyâre a bunch of companies reaching out and trying to set up meetings or sending through complaints. Things you usually handle before he sees because itâs not worth his time.
âSo much of that stuff shouldnât be coming to me.â Heâs leaned in closer, annoyance clear on his expression. âIt shouldnât even be going to you; they should be communicating through the team theyâre dealing with.â
âYes, well, a lot of companies overestimate their importance to you.â Picking through the stack quickly, you pull out the papers that are solely for him and put them down on his desk.
His brow raises to you, âNow, where did they get that idea?â
âWho knows?â You smile politely.
His people person skills are severely lacking, especially when it comes to dealing with formalities. You may or may not be making up for it.
âIâll get back to you about these.â Hand shaking the papers, âDo not even try sneaking off, Iâll need you here while I sort through this mess youâve no doubt made.â
âI told you Iâve been diligent.â
âAnd I have absolutely no reason to doubt that.â Turning to leave before stopping. âYou should keep coming in on time and staying the whole day, itâs nice.â
Gojoâs groan is heard as you walk back out his office.
After you took back your workload, Gojo decided to try and make you stay through other means. Itâs almost as flattering as it is distracting. The very next day and heâs taken to pulling a chair in front of your desk and sitting with you. His arm holding up his head, chin resting in his palm. Itâs got you on edge, heâs just watching you. Eyes tracking your every movement, silent like heâs maybe trying to think of something to say.
âIs there something you need, sir?â Phrasing it in a certain way in hopes of reminding him heâs your boss with his own work to worry about.
âNope.â The singular word popped back at you.
Looking to your screen, you pull up his calendar, âSo⊠youâre all prepped for the meeting later today at three?â
Itâs silent and it prompts you to look at him again. The reply youâd been expecting comes only when your eyes meet. âIâm so prepared,â his smile is easy-going and you donât feel the same.
âAre you sure? Because youâve just been sitting here doing nothing.â
âDonât worry about what Iâm up to.â
âAll I do is worry,â you glare at him, âitâs like my whole job.â
Obviously able to tell youâre growing a bit exasperated now and switching to flattery, âAnd youâre very good at it.â
âI could be better at it if youâd be a more willing participant in your own company.â
âBleh,â he pulls his head back and waves his hand at you, the expression on his face disgusted.
You ignore the fact that you donât find him as annoying as you probably should and change the topic, âWell, while youâre here doing anything but your job, I have some applications you can look through.â
âApplications?â He looks at you curiously and takes the papers youâre handing him.
There isnât an answer from you as he reads them, his face scrunching up more and becoming annoyed as he realises what it is heâs looking at.
âResumes?â Gojoâs voice has lost its chirpiness, coming a bit strained, âI didnât know we were hiring.â
âI know you wonât do it yourself, so I put up an advert yesterday,â you point at the resumes heâs holding, âthose are the best applicants.â
âI donât want anyone else.â
âI canât stay, Gojo. Itâs out of my control.â
Itâs his turn to glare, itâs the first time heâs been this angry with you. You still wonât tell him why youâre leaving because youâre embarrassed and also, youâre becoming a little concerned that heâd actually give you an insane raise. You can do without that guilt.
âFine.â He eventually says.
A breath you didnât realise youâd been holding leaves you, âThank you.â
He starts going through the pile, âThis isnât an entry level job,â he flicks away that applicant. âNo references,â another chucked. âWouldnât be able to put up with me,â that one is crumpled. âThis oneâs messy,â gone. âThis person has put under hobbies âorganisingâ,â he squints like heâs weirded out before deciding, âtrying too hard,â ultimately itâs chucked too. The rest of the pile discarded in much of the same manner.
Youâve watched him in disbelief, blinking at him, âThey all had better resumes than I did.â
âI didnât want an assistant before you and I wonât want one after,â he shrugs.
Fingers rubbing into your temples, âHow did I even get hired when youâre this picky.â
âYouâve raised my standards,â he praises you, âand your resume was so ugly looking that I wanted to see who sent it in.â
You gape at him, shocked, âThatâs why I got the interview!?â
âAnd you got the job because you put up with me during,â his tone has softened again, âyou adjust to your surroundings well and it impressed me, even if your resume didnât.â He thinks for a moment, âWell, your resume actually did impress me but only because it was awfulââ
ââStop,â holding a hand up, âI canât believe you hired me because you hated my application that much.â
âDonât leave me,â leaning in on your desk, âI donât think Iâll ever see a resume that ugly ever again.â
Grumbling and falling back into your chair, you cross your arms. âI knew I shouldnât have worked here.â
He grins and stands to his feet. âDonât show me anymore applicants, theyâll immediately get thrown away.â
âGojoââ You call after him.
ââBye bye now.â Heâd cut you off, done with this conversation and the direction it was headed.
Itâs Monday again and youâre concerned about what Gojoâs going to pull this week. Last week heâd obviously stolen all your work rendering you redundant and stared at you disconcertingly for nearly an hour before revealing heâd hired you because of your shit application. He also brought you back various treats every time he left the office, not to mention the insane amounts of praise he kept sneaking into conversation.
It's not something entirely new from him but heâs taken to doing it far more often lately and you hate how much you donât hate it. His compliments making you a little flustered every time, you werenât aware how much you liked being reaffirmed until he started doing it so obviously and frequently.
Apparently, he mustâve caught on to you not hating it because heâs not stopped. The grin on his face self-satisfied every time he does it, pleased by your reactions. You donât know if your heart is going to make it through this week but itâs your last, so you donât have much of a choice either way.
In the lobby, you run into Shoko. Greeting her with a small smile, âGood morning.â
âMorning, quitter,â she smiles back.
âOuch,â you hiss jokingly.
Her head tilts at you, âAh, you lasted five years, itâs impressive really.â
âIâm not resigning because of him,â you roll your eyes.
The rumours in the office have been abundant to say the least, everyone blaming your leaving on Gojo. You correct people every time but they either donât believe you or are too excited about gossip to let themselves really hear you.
âYouâd be the first,â sucking on her teeth as she recounts, âI think there was⊠five? six? Before you. They all quit because they couldnât put up with him.â She pauses. âThough, he didnât hire them personally.â
âDidnât you hear? He only hired me because he hated my resume.â
âGood luck finding another job with it then.â
You chuckle at that. âIâll miss you, Shoko.â
âYeah, whatever,â she brushes you off, âif you really were gonna miss me, you wouldnât be quitting.â
âFor someone whoâs so unamused by Gojo, you sure sound like him sometimes.â
She side eyes you, âTake that back.â
âNope!â You laugh as you walk away.
At your desk, the first thing you do is pull up Gojoâs calendar. Double checking that youâre remembering the itinerary for today properly. Heâs got a meeting just before midday with a large company, youâve been trying to secure a meet with them for months and they finally caved. Taking them on as a client would be a huge win for the company and itâd bring Gojo joy because he knows Geto has been trying to secure a deal with them too.
Competition isnât something you invest a whole lot of your time in personally but you canât help but feel happy when Gojo âwinsâ. This week is going to be gruelling; itâs getting harder to ignore how much you enjoy your job. You thought it wasnât going to be such a big deal. Itâs a job, you do it and if you need to, you find another.
Everyone here will be part of what you miss though, you wonât get to work alongside Gojo anymore⊠Pushing down those feelings of affection, you start your day how you often do and check your inbox. Seeing the first emails coming through as soon as business hours are official always amuses you as much as it pisses you off.
The sound of a soft tap on your desk startles you, itâs just Gojo but youâre still not quite used to his early (on time) arrivals. Heâd set a coffee down for you, expression bright as he smiles at you.
You reach for the drink, âThank you.â
âYouâre welcome,â he singsongs. âFeel like staying?â
âBecause you bought me a cup of coffee?â
âAmong other things.â
Youâre thinking of how to answer him when he yawns and stretches his shoulders back. He seems tireder than usual, âYou been sleeping okay?â
He takes the opportunity to whine, âNo, my favourite employee is leaving me.â
âThat must be agony for you.â
âIt is,â eyes sparkling, âitâs awful, I wish she would just see reason.â
Instead of replying to that, you remind, âDonât forget your meeting at eleven.â
Dropping the pleading look, he replies, âHow could I forget? Stingy bastards took forever just to agree to meet.â
âTry to have a better attitude when you talk with them.â
âYou know what would make my attitude better?â Grin on his face showing that heâs clearly plotting something.
âDare I ask?â
âYou basically did.â He points at you and then himself, âYou come with me.â
A range of emotions go through you at that but itâs mostly reluctance, âDo I have to?â
âIâm your boss⊠so, yes?â Not waiting for your reply. âBe ready by ten-thirty.â
Itâs going to be a long week indeed.
By the time ten-thirty rolls around, youâre in the garage of the building with Gojo. Heâs guiding you towards his car and youâre confused, âWhereâs Ijichi?â
âI donât know,â his answer is dismissive.
âShould we wait?â you frown and look at your phone, ââŠI donât want you to be late.â
Clicking on the keys, the car beeps as it unlocks, âWeâre not gonna be late.â He moves around to the driverâs side and opens it, stopping before getting in when he sees youâre not moving. âGet in.â
Incredulous look on you face, âCan you even drive?â
âThatâs so insulting, Iâm a fantastic driver.â
Youâre sceptical but get in the car anyways, not willing to be late because you were squabbling with your boss.
âWhy am I coming with you?â
He hums, âBecause I have a surprise for after.â
âCouldnât you have just picked me up after the meeting?â
âNo. If I have to go then you do too.â
Grumbling back at him, âYouâve never made me come before.â
âIf I leave you in the office you might run away before Friday,â his tone carries a playful lilt.
âYouâre so dramatic.â
By the way, he is decidedly not a fantastic driver.
The surprise he was talking about was lunch, heâs taken you out for lunch. Youâre overwhelmed and feel underdressed, itâs a nice place that you definitely cannot afford.
Just as heâs about to walk inside, you grab his sleeve and pull him back, âGojo, I canât afford lunch here.â
He snickers at you, âYou thought Iâd force you to a meeting with me and then take you out to lunch and make you pay?â
You say nothing.
âSeriously? What do you take me for?â A hand rests over his heart like youâve wounded him.
Frowning at him, âIâm⊠Iâm also a little underdressed.â Wearing business casual doesnât feel appropriate for here.
âYou look great,â he compliments, âyou always look great.â
It feels like your skin grows hotter just from that simple compliment. You canât linger on it for too long though. From just off to the side of Gojo, you spot Geto and you know this lunch is going to be on the rocks. âPlease remain calm and remember that you just got new clients and how nice that feels.â
About to ask what the hell youâre going on about when Geto makes himself known, hand on Gojoâs shoulder. âWhat a coincidence, Satoru.â He smiles politely, nodding his head at you in acknowledgement.
Youâve always been neutral towards Geto, if you had to describe him in a word, youâd say heâs gracious. But youâre not stupid, you can tell he enjoys pressing peoples buttons. If you didnât know any better youâd think it was merely an accident but you do know better and you can tell he does it because he gets a kick out of it. Heâs similar to Gojo in that way.
âSuguru,â Gojo gives a tight smile. âWhat are you doing on this side of town?â
Oh, heâs already annoyed by his presence.
âThis and that,â answer kept vague deliberately. âYou guys about to have lunch?â
âYes.â You answer respectfully, not forgetting your manners.
From what you know, Gojo and Geto used to be close friends working at the same company before Gojo moved up. Geto left after that and started his own company. Usually, Gojo isnât so annoyed by him but heâs been a little extra touchy about things ever since you put in your resignation.
âThat sounds great,â you reply before Gojo can. Geto walks in ahead of you both and you tug on Gojo to get him to lean down. âItâs just lunch, weâll both survive.â
âIâm not so sure,â he mumbles back.
Itâs awkward, incredibly so. Geto knows that Gojo got the client theyâve both been angling at and itâs all grins with hidden meanings and sly jabs. Itâs hard to enjoy the food when youâre stuck observing this disaster of clashing egos.
After a lull in the conversation, Geto suddenly says, âI heard youâre quitting.â
Youâre taken aback, you didnât realise that company gossip would travel so far, âYes⊠I am resigning.â Putting emphasis on the last word because you donât appreciate the attachments to quitting.
Gojoâs tense, you can tell.
Geto pushes past your slight attitude. âMay I ask why?â
âYou may ask,â you smile politely, taking a page out of his book.
He doesnât even blink, âWell, if youâre looking for a new job Iâd be happy to take you off Satoruâs hands.â
Gojo scoffs at that, âSheâs still my employee, you know?â
âFrom what I hear, not for much longer.â
You hate that you even semi consider Getoâs offer, heâs unfortunately closer to your parentsâ home so you could live there and travel to his company. Itâd upset Gojo though and you donât know if you have it in you, even if it is just business.
Stopping their bickering with a simple refusal. âIâm fine, thank you for the offer.â
âIt doesnât expire,â Geto pushes, âif you change your mind, youâve got a job with me.â
âI want to remind you Iâm a personal assistant, Geto, not some highly sought-after marketing whizz.â You canât understand the push for you, other than he knows itâll piss off Gojo and you donât play those games.
Clearly, not one to be shaken so easily, âOh, I wouldnât sell yourself so short.â
âAlright, Iâm done being all civil now,â Gojo stands up abruptly, âWeâre leaving and you can pay the bill for pissing me off, Suguru.â
âGojo,â you scold him lightly but heâs not budging, âIâm very sorry, Geto,â standing up as well, âlunch was nice.â
Gojo grumbles, âDonât apologise for me, Iâm not sorry.â
Geto ignores Gojo and replies to your last statement, âWeâll have to do it again sometime.â
âOver my dead body,â Gojo points at him.
And then youâre being tugged out of the restaurant, following after an uncharacteristically angry Gojo. Itâs not like heâs especially polite and heâs always had little jabs with Geto but it always seemed more like a friendly rivalry to you. To have this kind of reaction isnât usual and you donât really know how to approach talking to him now.
Itâs not until youâre back in the car that heâs huffing, âCan you believe that? He tried stealing you out from behind my back⊠in front of me!â
âItâs just business, donât let it get to you.â You mean it as a comfort but his eyebrow twitches.
He starts the car and mutters, âNot to me.â
Today is your last day. Itâs been a busy week so Gojo didnât bother you as much, anytime you spoke it concerned work. Well, thatâs not completely true, he was still trying to get you to stay and begged a little but otherwise.
You donât feel ready to leave, you know all youâd have to do is say you want to stay and Gojo would welcome you with open arms but you canât make it work⊠not right now. Itâs already been hard on you physically with all the moving preparations and now itâs hard on you emotionally. You donât think people usually feel this much regret about resigning, shouldnât you be all relieved or something.
After work, you and your empty apartment have a date with lots of alcohol. Drinking before you move may not be a great idea but you thought living with a guy would be a good idea and look how that turned out. Fuck him. This situation is so draining and unfair and you wish you could go back and change things but youâre stuck with the cards youâre dealt.
Itâs quitting time soon, the hour hand on the wall across from you slowly inching towards six. Your riveting clock watching is interrupted by Gojo standing in front of it, âCould you go down to the employee floor and give this to Nanami?â
He hands you over a file and you take it without complaint, whatâs another few extra minutes on your last day. âOkay, Iâll be right back.â
Youâre restless, caught between wanting to get out of here and not wanting your last day to end. The elevator dings and opens to the employee floor, when you step out youâre confused by how dark it is. Itâs borderline scary, youâve seen enough scary movies to know that you donât stay on an empty and ominous dark floor.
About to turn around and head back for the elevator when the lights flick on and people jump out at you. You donât have a physical reaction aside from a slight jump, only staring blankly and screaming on the inside. Taking in your surroundings you realise itâs a bunch of familiar faces standing underneath a shoddily painted banner that reads âweâll miss youâ with a very small âquitterâ written under that. Itâs like it was added last minute in pen and you have a feeling Shoko did it.
Gojo runs up from behind you, âHoly fuck, we have so many stairs,â he looks to your face and then at everyone else, âdid she scream?â
Nanami answers him, âNo, sheâs just been staring like that the whole time.â
Gojo moves to stand in front of you, asking, âYou okay? Did we get you too good?â
Everyone starts murmuring and youâre very suddenly overwhelmed by all the emotions youâve been stuffing down all week. Tears slipping from your waterline and trailing down your cheeks before you can stop them.
âWoah, whatâs wrong?â heâs fussing over you, âHey, Iâm sorry, we just wanted to send you off properly.â
You use the back of your hands to wipe at your face, âSorry, I need a moment.â Pushing the file Gojo had given you towards him before running off to hide in the bathroom.
Taking deep breaths, you try to calm down but itâs hard when youâre also dying of embarrassment. It was really nice of them; you werenât expecting anything so to have so many people set up a going away party was really sweet but itâs just another reminder of your shitty situation and your reluctance to leave.
A soft tap on the door alerts you to someoneâs presence, âCan I come in?â Gojo calls.
âNo,â you call back.
Itâs quiet and then he says, âIâm gonna come in anyways.â True to his word, he enters the bathroom but he doesnât say anything more.
Unprompted you apologise, âIâm sorry.â
âFor what?â
âI didnât mean to cry,â sniffling, âIâm embarrassed.â
âDonât worry about that,â he walks in closer to you, placing a hand on top of your head. âIf youâre so upset you could always stay.â
You laugh a little bitterly at that. âIâm fine now, Iâll come out and we can celebrate.â
âI can send everyone home if youâre not feeling up to it.â
âNo, I want to say goodbye to everyone,â you look up to him, âthank you for doing this.â
âOf course,â he tucks his hands into his pockets, expression a little shy, âI couldnât not give my favourite employee a send-off.â His upper body moves in a little like heâs going to share a secret, âI wanted to do something bigger but Shoko told me not to.â
A smile is on your lips at that, itâs so like him to want to go big. You owe Shoko for that advice, if heâd done something grand youâd be even more embarrassed than you already are. âLetâs go back.â
Itâs not rowdy, itâs an office party so itâs mostly mingling and eating some snacks but itâs nice and it beats the hell out of getting drunk alone in an empty apartment. Nanami is the only one youâd given a reason as to why youâre leaving and heâd kept it to himself so you get a bunch of questions but you field them all pretty easily.
Your eyes keep finding their way back to Gojo before you feel a pang of guilt or sadness and you look away. Things slowly die down as more and more people head home and before it becomes too obvious, you slip away back upstairs to your desk.
Gojoâs office is left slightly open and you walk inside; itâs dark. The only light entering the room is coming from the surrounding building lights. You move to stand in front of the large window and look out to appreciate the view. Youâre going to miss this part of the city.
âYouâre not planning on robbing me on your last day are you?â Gojo asks from the door.
Getting over the shock of him suddenly appearing, you joke, âAre you kidding? Iâve been robbing you blind since my first day here.â
He crosses the room to stand beside you, âOnly cause I let you.â
âWhat a gentleman.â
âIâm gonna say it one more time,â he looks to you, âstay.â
You donât know how to answer him so you just lean in and hug him.
His arms wrap around you, âThis isnât very professional of you.â
âCause youâre so professional,â you murmur back, âalso youâre not my boss anymore.â
The both of you donât say anything, just holding each other. Probably far too intimate for a working relationship but⊠you really needed this. Itâs nice, heâs big and warm and he holds you gently. Itâs giving you a lot of comfort and at the same time itâs making you want to cry again.
âIâll miss you, Gojo.â
âI think youâll be the first to.â
âNot true.â As much grief as everyone gives him, theyâd still miss him.
He laughs a little and lowers himself so his lips are by your ear, âIâll miss you, too.â
A shiver goes down your spine at his voice and you pull back to look at him. His face is close to yours and your eyes linger on his lips. Doing your very best to look into his eyes, you say, âDonât ruin the company just because Iâm gone.â
âI wouldnât want to ruin all your hard work,â he grins.
You roll your eyes and move to untangle from him. He doesnât let you. âWhat are youââ
Gojoâs closed the gap between the two of you with a kiss, a large hand cradling the side of your face. His thumb strokes high on your cheekbone as his lips implore yours. It doesnât take you long at all to react, hands grabbing onto his jacket and kissing him back.
Itâs overwhelming, his kiss all consuming. Almost like heâs been waiting for the perfect opportunity to kiss you like this. Lips insistent on yours, his body coming closer with a single step forward. His hand on your face tilts you up, thumb trailing to the hinge in your jaw and pressing.
Youâre opening your mouth to him more and he sighs happily, licking to deepen the kiss as much as he can. Itâs dizzying, mind slowly slipping of focus the longer he holds you. Your body shudders against your will because itâs never felt this good to be kissed before.
Pushing back on him, afraid youâre about to lose your mind and all heâs done is kiss you. Gojo pulls back with a suck of your tongue and your legs nearly falter, small whine leaving you. Heâs stopped but heâs not moving back, hand still on the side of your face, the other having moved down to rest on your hip.
âYou want me to stop here?â He asks, thumb pulling on your lower lip teasingly.
âThis isnât reallyââ
âAppropriate?â He asks, closer than he was before, lips almost touching yours, âLike you said⊠Iâm not your boss anymore.â
Fuck it.
Youâre the one to close the gap this time, kissing him again. Itâs messier than before, an even more heated exchange and youâre realising he was being gentle with you a moment ago. Mood suddenly changed as it feels like heâs aiming to devour you whole.
He spins you so your back is against the cold glass of the window, his lower body pressing close to you. Able to feel his erection, itâs scandalous and making you tingle. You wrap your arms around his neck and he moves his hands down lower, sliding to your lower back. His fingers twitch against you like heâs holding back from touching you more.
Lips parting again so he can trail his kisses lower, burying his face into the side of your neck. Teeth nip at your flesh and you gasp, âGojo!â
His smile reaches his eyes, âSomething to remember me by,â he laves over the mark with his tongue.
Your heart twinges when you realise that your close relationship with him is ending and suddenly youâre asking, âLeave another?â
Gojo laughs a little breathlessly at that, âHah, donât have to tell me twice.â
He leaves another mark at your request, and then another lower down before trailing back up, his nose brushing against your neck until his lips meet yours. Words coming mumbled as he keeps kissing you, âYou smell so fucking good.â
âJust shut upâŠâ you grumble back, âand kiss me more.â
You know he wants to make another smartass comment but your shoving your tongue in his mouth to keep him quiet, he seems to be right where he wants to be though. Hands growing bolder as he grabs your ass and tugs you closer, grinding his erection against you.
Breaths coming heavy as you comment, âPervert.â
âIf I were a pervertâŠâ he hums happily, âIâd do something more like this.â One of his hands is off your ass and slipping into the front of your pants, fingers swiping through your folds over your underwear.
A gasp leaves you, fingers digging into his shoulders as your knees grow weak. Heâs prodding at your hole through your panties, almost penetrating if it werenât for the material of them. Itâs cruel, your arousal seeping into your underwear providing a slick glide for him to slide up to your clit.
âMy,â he comments as if heâs shocked, âarenât you a little too wet over a few kisses?â
âYou canât talk,â you pout, skin warming.
His eyes are bright with mischief. âDonât be embarrassed,â finger carefully circling your clit and keeping you on edge, âitâs cute.â Sliding back to your dripping hole, âThoughâŠâ teasing you there too and then trailing back to your clit again, âyou being embarrassed is cute too.â
âAre youâ hffâ gonna tease me the whole time?â You blink up at him.
âProbably.â
Hips rocking slightly, needy for him to touch you more, âArenât you being unreasonable?â
âI donât think so.â Heâs purposefully avoiding giving you what youâre seeking.
Your head falls to rest against him, hands gripping his shirt. Pleasure that feels just a little too distant running through you, making you weak and frustrated. Legs shaky to stand on with how antsy youâre getting. You shouldâve guessed that heâd be a tease by how he acts regularly.
On the brink of asking him to touch you properly when he slips his hand under your panties, fingers immediately sliding inside your weeping cunt. Youâre left gasping out a pathetic moan as he borderline whines. Clinging to him desperately as he angles his digits to hit the sweetest spots inside you. Slow in his pursuit, like heâs learning what gets the best reactions from you.
Gojoâs control is slipping, the tight grip you have on his fingers making it hard to think. Not to mention just how hot and wet you are, heâs not sure how heâs going to last fucking you when you feel this divine around his fingers alone.
Moans tumble from your lips and you struggle to stifle them back down, trying to rock your hips against his hand for anything more heâll give you. Itâs messy, dripping down into the palm of his hand, no doubt ruining your panties in the process. The sound of him finger fucking you obscene and too loud. Your skin is hot and youâre embarrassed from just how horny youâve gotten, whimpering as he crooks his digits up and hits something sweet.
âFuckâ come over here,â Gojo pulls his fingers from you and tugs you over to his desk. He lifts you to sit on top of it effortlessly, hands tugging your pants and underwear off in one go. Movements rushed, impatience clear.
Heâs sitting back into his desk chair and rolling forward a bit, hands resting atop your thighs. You ask him, âWhat are you doing?â
The answer comes incredibly blunt, âIâm gonna make out with your pretty pussy while you sit on my desk.â All smiles as he pushes your thighs apart, âIâm gonna think about this view every time I sit here from now on.â
Tongue boldly licking through your folds and making you squeal, your hand threads through his hair for something to hold onto. Quickly discovering just how good at this he really is, sliding his tongue inside your cunt and slurping at you lewdly.
Gojo eats you like a man starved, fingers digging into your plush skin as he holds you open. Your juices drip down his chin and onto his desk and all he can think about is how good you taste and how cute you are when you twitch around his tongue and how heâs probably going to get hard just thinking about this later.
Of course, heâs also going to be playing the whines and moans youâre letting out on repeat in his head later too. Finding everything about you completely endearing, even more so in your dishevelled and aroused state. To have you melting under his touch is almost too much for his poor heart to take.
Your lungs seize in your chest at how good it feels, his nose grinding into your clit with how close heâs pressed his face into you. If you had any higher brain function in this current moment, youâd be concerned if he could even breathe.
Itâs getting harder and harder to sit still, desperate to move your hips in response to his stimulation. Youâre falling back onto your elbows, hoping to leverage yourself better to rut against his face but heâs stronger than you anticipated. As if in punishment for your impatience, he pulls his tongue from you and trails it up to your clit. Licking it gently before wrapping his lips around it and sucking.
The feelings that run through you are immense and head spinning, feet kicking at the shock of it. Your elbows shake and give out, back bowing up in response. Hand reaching back for his head, tugging on his hair which only has him moaning against you. The vibrations have your hole twitching. Ever observant, Gojo stuffs two of his fingers inside you. Hitting all those perfect little spots heâd found earlier. Apparently having learnt a lot about your body in a short time.
âGojoâ hngâ you gotta stopâ hffâ Iâm gonnaââ
His eyes look up to you, glinting mischievously. He knows exactly what heâs doing. Mouth off you long enough to say, âIâm not gonna stop.â
Almost as soon as his lips are back around your clit are you cumming; twitching and writhing through the high flooding your senses. All sensitive and whingey as he keeps fucking you with his digits. You canât hear anything but the blood rushing in your head, feeling as though youâre floating.
That is, until Gojo pushes you dangerously close to overstimulation. His mouth off your clit, only to stuff his tongue back inside your cunt along with his fingers. Stretching you open as he eats you in a completely debauched manner.
âToo muchâ hnnâ Gojo.â You push back on his forehead and he relents. âPerv.â
âSorry sorry.â He grins, looking a little less than sorry about it.
He keeps your thighs open, admiring the way fresh slick drips from you entrance. He really wants to lean in and tongue your hole some more but heâll refrain, diverting his focus to kiss your inner thighs. Sucking hickeys into your skin as much as he can, starting on the left before moving to the right. Getting a little too into it and biting your thigh a couple times, you twitch and whine at it and he doesnât miss the way your pussy clenches around nothing in response.
Gojo gets to his feet and leans over top of you, pecking your cheek before kissing you deep and slow. Itâs not hurried, taking his time to explore your mouth carefully. You donât even realise heâd been unbuttoning your shirt at the same time until heâs moving away and opening it.Â
Hands quick to grope your tits over your bra, âHmm⊠this is pretty,â he comments, fingers slipping under the strap and pulling back just to let it snap! back against your skin.
âGojo!â you chastise, voice coming a little breathless.
He doesnât even bother to take your bra off properly, just pushing it up and over your tits so he can gain direct access to your nipples. Head ducking back down to leave more marks on your soft skin, licking over your nipple to see what kind of reaction youâll have. Heâs not disappointed when you moan and tug at his hair.
Moving to rest his forehead against the valley between your breasts, he hums out, âYouâre so perfect, from head to toe.â
âDonât think flattery will get me to stay,â you joke, feeling bashful and trying to change his focus.
âHow about a really good dick down?â
âArenât you a little too self-assured?â
Gojo stands up, shucking off his jacket and then beginning to unbutton his own shirt, âAsk me that again after we fuck.â He shrugs it off his shoulders and lets it fall to the ground.
You knew he was well built but seeing him shirtless is making you realise just how well built he is. All broad shoulders and toned abs, itâs a little hard to stay focused when youâre this horny and heâs that hot shirtless. Happy trail leading out of his pants to his belly button making your mouth water and youâre suddenly remembering that itâs rude to stare when you look back into his eyes.
Though obviously, Gojo takes it as a compliment. Large grin on his face at your blatant ogling. âLike what you see?â He asks.
âI didnât say anything,â you turn away from him.
âYou didnât have to,â he laughs, âthe hearts in your eyes said enough.â
âOh, shut up.â
He starts unbuckling his belt, âYour pouting will only turn me on more.â
Sitting up as you tease, âYouâve got some weird kinks, huh?â
âNot at all, itâs just that I could get off to anything about you,â he replies smoothly.
You really shouldnât find that as flattering as you do. âNot appropriate for the workplace, Gojo.â
âGetting tongue fucked on the CEOâs desk isnât exactly appropriate either but here you are.â He reaches into his pants and pulls his cock out, hissing, âPlus, as you pointed out earlier, Iâm not your boss anymore.â
There would definitely be some remark youâd make to that but your focus is kind of caught up on how big his dick is. You knew from it digging into you earlier that he was⊠well-endowed but to see it now is a little scary.
You point at it accusatorily, âThereâs no way Iâm taking that.â
âIâll take that as a compliment,â he laughs. âDonât stress so much, itâll fit.â
You quirk an eyebrow at him as if to ask, âyou sure?â
âThe foreplay wasnât just for fun,â Gojo purrs, âthough I definitely did have fun playing with your pussyâ.â
Your hand slaps over his mouth, âDo you need to be so vulgar?â
He nods wordlessly from behind your hand, eyes bright with his enjoyment of this interaction.
You take too long to remove your palm and heâs licking it, your reaction immediate as you pull back with a grimace. âEw, what the hell?â
âEw? My tongue was literally in your mouth not five minutes ago,â his eyes roll at you.
âThis and that are different things.â
âUh huh,â brushing you off, âOpen your legs more, Iâm gonna blow my load before I even get inside you at this rate.â
Your legs cross at that, âSay pretty please.â
Gojo leans down and rests his hands on the desk either side of you, eyes level with yours, âPretty please open your legs for me, sweetheart?â
Thereâs a bit of a begged tinge to his voice that makes you cave immediately, parting your legs again. He grabs your hips and pulls you closer to the edge of the desk, humming happily, Â âThank you.â
The head of his cock is dragged from your clit to your opening and back again, sliding himself through your folds a few times just to make you desperate. Ignoring the fact that youâre already desperate, needy for him to fill you to the brim.
âStop being a tease.â
âI thought you were worried about it fitting?â He asks.
Your retort is fast, âI thought you were going to give me a good dick down?â
âI believe I said a really good dick down,â notching the head at your pussy hole, âbut Iâll forgive you this time.â He doesnât push in immediately, instead leaving a chaste peck on your lips before he murmurs against them, âDeep breath.â
About to tell him heâs ridiculous and something about his ego being heavy to carry around when your lungs are struggling, the initial slide of his cock entering you making all air knock from you. Nails clawing at his forearms either side of you, not even able to make a noise as he splits you open.
Stopping not even half-way to give you a second to breathe, âI told you to take a deep breath.â
âHnnâ Iâ hngââ You canât even reply yet, stopping your attempts to fill your lungs with air.
Gojoâs head dips as he looks at where youâre both connected, âFuuuckââ he tilts his head back to look up at the ceiling, âIâm gonna cum too early if you donât relax.â
Heâd already held off on cumming just from touching you a couple times, finally being inside you is driving him crazy. Not even at the half-way point and his dick is twitching like crazy, your cunt sucking him in greedily and clenched so tight around him. Youâre still panting and struggling to wrap your head around the stretch of him and as cute as it is, itâs also a massive fucking turn on thatâs making his life harder.
Youâre falling forward into him, head resting on his chest, hands clinging to him desperately. Managing out through moans, âWhyâ hffâ why is your dick so huge?â
Breathless laugh leaving him, âYouâre being really cute.â
âShut up.â
âGetting cuter.â
He wraps his arms around you, lips pressed to your ear. With the movement his cock slides just that bit more inside you. The sound of his soft, needy whine is ringing in your head and making you twitch. Practically creaming around him already, itâs embarrassingly early to be this much of a mess but heâs worked you up so much and you canât help but fall deeper into the pleasure.
Desire is overflowing from you and you have no idea what to do with it, holding onto him tighter as a result. Turning to the side, you kiss him wherever you can, it doesnât take long at all for him to dip and kiss you back hard. Getting lost in his lips, wishing you could somehow pull him even closer.
While distracted, Gojo takes the opportunity to fuck the rest of the way into your tight pussy. Your mouth is dropping open with a whine, feeling the tip of his dick against your cervix has you trembling. You canât tell if youâre imagining it but youâd swear you can feel the thump thump! of the veins on his cock throbbing against your walls.
He lowers you down onto the desk but the movement has him shifting inside you and youâre whining again, back arching against the wooden surface. You wrap your legs around his waist, feeling the need to cling to him even more.
Gojoâs head tucks into the crook of your neck, his words coming out mumbled, âOoh, youâre gonna have me dreaming about this.â
âYouâ hngâ you have to move.â You canât take any more of this slow pace, your pussy begging youâand himâto be fucked.
His face comes into view, expression struggling to stay cool, âYou need to keep your legs open nice and wide for me then.â
Pout making its way onto your face immediately because you really want to keep him this close but you also really want to do what he says. âThis better be worth the embarrassment.â
âIt will be.â
Heâs pulling away from you at the same time that youâre parting your legs, hoping youâll get away with resting your inner thighs against his hips. Clearly, thatâs not satisfactory enough for Gojo because heâs grabbing behind your knees and pulling your legs further apart. Manhandling you lewdly into a position that exposes you to his greedy eyes.
Sighed moan leaving him, âYouâve got such a pretty cunt.â
âYouâveâ ahâ got such a dirty mouth.â A laugh moves through his chest at your retort and you donât understand why youâre feeling butterflies over it.
âIâm gonna move now, sweetheart.â
âPlease.â
The heavy drag of his cock pulling back gives you a visceral reaction, fingers digging into his desk, looking for something to hold onto. Every inch of him rubbing up against something delicious with each one of his movements, no matter how small. Tuned into every sensation youâre experiencing and feeling so sensitive with it. Youâre feeling everything, pussy creaming around him at it, clearly in love with his dick.
On the other hand, Gojoâs losing his fucking mind about as much as you areâif not more. His cock throbbing, pulsing inside your hot cunt. Even though heâs going insane over how sweet your pussy is, heâs still pausing when heâs pulled out. Watching how your hole twitches and convulses around the head of his dick. Fresh slick dribbling from you and sliding down his shaft, heâs not sure heâs ever going to be normal again.
Slamming his hips to yours in one movement and as soon as he starts, he canât stop. Repeatedly fucking into you over and over, his eyes glazing over as whimpers spill from him. Youâre not doing any better, whining and grabbing onto whateverâs closest, obviously needing something to keep you grounded.
Heâs bullying your womb with his tip and youâre so close to cumming, only a few more thrusts and youâre finishing around him. Surprised by your own high, hips meeting his to ride it out. Teeth digging into your lower lip as your eyes roll, too involved in yourself and the pleasure to be embarrassed.
âGodâ hahâ youâre already?â fuck!â Gojo canât believe it, his heart hammering in his chest at how you cum. Your pussy sucking him in divinely, begging him to keep stuffing you full.
In your fucked out bliss, you slip up, âSatoruâ hmfââ
Itâs the first time youâve used his given name and his brain short circuits, everything inside him excited and he canât help himself. Whining pathetically as he cums, not a hint of shame from him. Caught up in how pretty his name sounded coming from your lips, a little slurred in your messy state.
Not able to stop his thrusts either, your mixed cum drooling down the sides of his cock as he keeps fucking you. Keeping you both on cloud nine to the point of overstimulation. The pair of you buzzing and lost in each other. Everything is hot and messy and feels so fucking good.
His brain is stuck in a loop of your pitiful voice calling for him. âYouâre unbelievableâ hnnâ you should stayâ hahâ donât leave.â
âI canâtâ nghââ
âBreaking my heart,â he sulks, hips slowing to a steady rut.
You can feel tingling all the way down to your toes. âThatâdâ hffâ be more believable if you werenât balls deep inside me.â
He finally stops, pelvis flush to you. Looking down his nose as he replies, Â âIâm multidimensional.â Sliding his hands from your legs to your waist, âAnd still horny.â
His dick slips from you and then heâs using his hold on you to flip you over so youâre face down on the desk. Taking a second to admire the way his seed drips from you before plugging it with his fat dick again. Shiver going down his spine, gaze trailing up your body. Disappointed by the lack of skin showing, youâre still wearing the unbuttoned shirt he neglected to properly remove in his impatience.
Touch gentle as he slides the sleeves down your arms, initially going to take it off but changing his mind at the last second. Instead, wrapping your wrists in it haphazardly and turning it into a makeshift restraint.
When you realise what heâs done, you struggle a little against it and then huff. Forehead resting against the wood, cunt overstuffed, and now restrained in your arm movements. You feel a little helpless and it makes your insides flutter.
Gojo checks in, âYou good, sweetie?â
âPervert,â you mutter in response.
âWhat was that?â Fingers unclasping your bra, sliding his hand over where itâd been fastened.
âIâm good,â you reply.
He pats your ass, smiling to himself, âThen this pervertâs gonna fuck you again.â
Pace instantly brutal, angling his hips so his dick drills into your weakest point. Already having figured out your body far better than you ever have, driving you to the brink of crying from how overwhelmingly good it feels.
You have nothing to hold onto, hands trapped behind you and forced to stay there. Itâs got you squirmy, unable to ground yourself with anything and itâs manifesting as you wriggling and your toes curling. Panting and writhing below Gojo, digging your nails into the cotton of your shirt as a pitiful replacement for something sturdy.
Gojo groans, hands holding you still, his fingers digging into your plush skin. âStay still, pretty.â
âCanâtâ nghâ canât help it.â Your eyes wet from unshed tears.
He moves one of his hands up to the back of your neck, putting just enough pressure there to stop your wriggling. Immobile under him now, taking what heâs giving you. Your pussy shaking around him, consumed by him and his presence. Trusting him wholly in this moment to do what will bring you both the most pleasure, a kind of trust youâve not given to anyone before.
Thereâs a creamy ring around the base of his cock from your mixed cum, a sight that makes him even more aroused. Everything you do, everything about fucking you, is only working him up even more. Thinking heâs gotten as horny as he can possibly get only for you to whine, or call his name, or twitch, or pulse around him. Causing him to fall deeper and deeper into his own insanity, borderline unhinged from how youâre making him feel.
Everything feels so much more heightened now that you canât take it out on the furniture, brain zeroing in on exactly where his tip is hitting or the sounds heâs making for you. The soft whines and moans from him are causing your brain to fry, tingling all over and smiling a little dumbly at how he sighs your name.
It feels so good, too good, itâs almost a little scary just how good it feels. Like youâre going to fall apart at any second and you have no idea of knowing when, kept on edge and waiting for the final thrust that will do you in.
Gojo canât believe whatâs in front of him, able to feel you so vividly but still feeling like heâs dreaming because itâs just too good to be true. But you are here below him, your pussy is crying around him and begging for more. Itâs real and itâs heavenly and heâs greedy for more.
âYouâre so pretty,â he sighs, âso prettyâ hffâ and smart and your cunt sucks me in so fucking nicely.â
Managing to pant back at him, âDonât talk.â Your pussy betrays you though, jumping at his praise.
âWhy not?â Soft laugh leaving him, âFeels like you like it.â He hums softly, hand tickling down your spine, âItâsâ hahâ like how you got flustered by me complimenting your work.â
Youâd almost forgotten that, all his words of affirmation and the kindness heâd spilled in an attempt to get you to not resign. It didnât work but it definitely did make you feel all fuzzy inside. âI donât know what youâreâ ah!â talking about.â
âI think someone has a thing for praise,â he giggles. âThatâs okay, I can give you all the praise in the world.â
âI donât,â you deny poorly. Itâs hard to sound convincing when youâre full of his cock.
âItâs okay, sweetie,â you can hear the smile on his face, âyouâre doingâ haaâ such a good job, pussy taking me so well. Being real nice to me too, all wet and needy.â
Itâs fucked up how easily he reads you, it shouldnât be allowed. âStopâ hmâ Iâm gonna cum if you keepââ
ââGonna cum because you like being told what a hot cunt you have and how great it is to fuck.â
Heâs so annoying, so persistent, so stubborn, and so good at getting you off. Youâre cumming around him as he gives you his nasty version of a compliment, moans loud and embarrassing. Itâs the hardest youâve ever cum and itâs knocked the wind from your lungs. A mess of shivers and whines as you ride it out. His cock prolonging your high because heâs not stopped fucking you.
Gojoâs head tips back, eyes watching how youâre squeezing around him, âFuckâ fuckâ oh my godâ hahâ thatâs it, cum around me juuust like that.â
It feels fantastic, your bliss washing over you. It wonât stop feeling good, brain all mushy and thoughtless as you barely register his words. You can feel his cock throbbing inside you, holding his own orgasm off through sheer willpower alone. âSatoru⊠youâ hngâ you gotta cum, please?â
âThatâs not fair,â he whines.
Youâre not playing fair. Heâs trying his absolute hardest to prolong this moment, wanting it to never end and here you are asking him so very nicely to cum. He couldnât possibly deny you, not when youâre so placid and sucking him in so lovingly. Pussy practically begging him for another one of his heavy loads.
Voice calling to him again, âPlease, I want it.â And you do, you want to hear how his moans get even more pathetic as he finally lets himself go.
Not even all the way through your sentence does he fold for you, hands slamming down onto the desk as his hips jut forward, filling you to the brim with his achy dick. His pelvis keeps you so close to the edge of the desk, the wood digging into you.
Your hole flutters around him at his pretty moans and he feels every second of it, his sensitive cock reacting to it. âYou feel sooo fucking goodâ nghâ I canât take it, youâre killing me, sweetheart.â
Heâs panting from above you, trying to catch his breath as his body shakes from aftershocks. The both of you twitchy messes, all heavy breaths and soft jerks. Your body is all limp on the desk, brain fuzzy and not thinking much of anything aside from how delightful everything feels.
In his hazy state, he manages to remember that youâre still restrained. Struggling a little to untangle the mess he made of your shirt and freeing your hands. Your arms fall to your sides, all lazy and fucked out.
Gojo slips from you and sits back onto his desk chair, taking you with him. Your head flops back onto his chest as you whine in protest but youâre too weak to stand. âYour cum is gonna get all over this chair.â
The laugh that he lets out vibrates against you, âItâs fine, Iâm sure the owner wonât mind.â His big hands come around to your front, pulling your bra off properly before cupping your tits in them.
âThe owner is a weird pervert.â
Heâs playing with you, groping your tits how he pleases, âOh, youâve met him? Should I be jealous?â
You continue going along with his bit, âNo, heâs some lazy guy who never shows up on time and always sneaks out to blow off work, Iâd never have sex with him.â
âWow, lucky Iâm not him,â he tilts your head to the side and kisses you deep. Humming softly against you as he licks at your tongue. When he pulls back he asks, âSo, was it a really good dick down or what?â
Your eyes grow wide and your skin heats up, âI refuse to answer that.â
âBecause then youâd have to stay,â he grins back, arms moving to wrap around you.
Thereâs a quiet that goes over the both of you, âI canât.â
He tucks his head into your neck, asking, âAre you finally going to tell me why?â
âIf I told you why youâd want to help and Iâm handling it on my own.â Thereâs a lot you canât manage to tell him and needing to move is only the tip of the iceberg.
As much as he wants to argue back or push more information from you, he accepts your words, âThere will always be a place here for you, I was serious about not hiring anyone else.â
These are your last moments with him, him being kind to you after giving you the best sex of your life and you canât even be completely honest with him. Instead of mourning the moment before itâs over though, you let yourself be here. Held by him and warm.
đïŸđ. thank you sm for reading !!! i'm sorry it took me so long to finish it đ„Č my writing speed fluctuates rapidly, i am who i ammmm. ngl i got most of this done ages ago and got stuck on the smut. ANYWAYS,, i have ideas for a second part with a little bit of angst and dramaaa but only if people want it smile âĄÌ
also if it seems unrealistic to what working in marketing is like #sorry i've never worked corporate. i'm studying psych and worked as a lifeguard so i've got NO CLUE đ
You love being Satoru Gojo's girlfriend, he dotes on you, takes you on dates, spoils you - just one little problem, you are perpetually ovulating around him! Is wanting your nerdy boyfriend's cock in your mouth really such a bad thing? Satoru wants to wait for the perfect moment for your first time, though! He'll totally wait even when you're wearing that slutty lil dress and grinding on him, right?
pairings - nerd! gojo x girlfriend! reader
warnings - cute and silly, oral over panties/boxers, Satoru edging tf outta us -- reader is horny, Shoko/Hime, Sukuna being a fratboy dick, jealous Toru, rough blow jobs, p in v sex, first time, squirting, teasing, fingering, creampie, consent, breed kink, making your nerdy boyfriend feral and spit in your mouth <3
art creds here!!
this was a comm for my angel @cantarcantar!! ty for understanding that my life was like INSANE - ilysm for being patient <3 wc - 10.1k
It took you almost two years of crushing on Satoru Gojo to actually become his girlfriend, and youâre loving every minute of it. From being too damn shy to admit you like him, to very awkwardly trying to confess and every chance just utterly failing â to then instead becoming the very best of friends.
You two were finally âofficially togetherâ as a couple.
Oh, and it was everything, being in his arms, swallowed up by those huge biceps he had hidden underneath his starch white dress shirts. Hearing that little laugh from his lips, all of those sweet little kisses he bestowed upon you â truly, all the feelings blossoming between the two of you in the most beautiful way, especially over the months of truly being his girlfriend.
Heâd take you out for all day movie marathons, going to play bumper cars, mini golf, you name it â Satoru was down for it. Every date was a meticulously planned out one too, with little to no down time aside from the drive to and from. Perhaps thatâs where you would sneak just the littlest pecks on his neck, hear his sighs as he gripped the gear shift of that fancy sports car.
Satoru adored you â and you adored him.
You were all his. There was no one else in the entire world than the boy who could never quite tie that tie on correctly, always just a little crooked for you to straighten out.
Yet with that came you being unreasonably horny all the fucking time, who wouldnât be with Satoru though? Those long fingers pressing into your waist, the way that bulge pressed between your thighs, plump lips slipping up your throat. Every time it even got just a little close, maybe you were grinding so good that you were about to cum from that â he paused it.
Wearing a cute, bashful little smile on his face, fogged up, thick rimmed glasses â murmuring sweetheart in a voice thatâs designed to make your pussy drip, and you feel like a complete pervert for wanting to beg for more. God, imagining his cock in your throat alone had you desperate and needy, let alone having him filling you, pumping you full, taking you first.
Maybe you are a pervert, truly.
Youâve tried so hard to be patient, you want him to want it as badly as you do, but every time youâre making out with your boyfriend â the top of the deanâs list and ultimate dungeon master for DnD â Satoru Gojo?
Every time his big ass hands grip your waist and he drags you down against his length, before he puts a pause on it?
You canât even think about it.
Youâre pumping your fingers in your needy cunt just thinking about it after every damn date with this boy. Whining out in your bed with your hips bucking up, gasps escaping your lips desperately in your empty room. Pumping faster and faster until youâve got that sticky release all over your hand.
Itâs almost as if you have this sort of ritual now, before you see your boyfriend and right after/.
Your rose toy is probably fucking tired of you.
As if you donât you ache so damn bad around him itâs painful, hard not to shamelessly hump his thigh till you cum. No, the toy? This takes the edge off just a bit, but even the way you moan his name in your sleep is endlessly hilarious to your poor roommates that have to hear you between the walls of your off campus apartment.
âStill a virgin?â Utahime asked with a laugh when you had woken up this morning, getting ready to see Satoru.
âNot by choice,â you grumble, shaking your head and grabbing a coffee pod from the little rack, popping your favorite inside and pressing the on button. The aroma hits immediately, waking your tired brain.
Youâd had the filthiest damn dream of him fucking your tits, cock sliding up and down in messy strokes that had you needing a damn shower right now.
Youâre just perpetually ovulating.
Satoru is the perfect boyfriend, truly he is. Heâs sweet, heâs a gentleman despite his blue eyes and where they glance too long. Mostly, he cares. Youâve fallen so in love with him so quickly over these past few months, but every time you think that things might progress, Satoru stops it. Gently lifting you up off his lap and sighing, kissing his way up your jaw, his snowy lashes tickling your cheek.
âSweetheart, letâs pause this,â he would murmur those words all sweet and sultry against your skin after almost sucking on those nipples that just stay hard around this man, instead hovering a breath away so it ghosts your tits. Those huge hands brushing just underneath them.
Itâs torture, really.
âOh, okay Toru,â youâd whisper back, heâd moan and kiss up your neck, breaths tickling your skin. âMnhâŠâ
âYouâre so beautiful, god look at you.â
It was just wrong to talk to you like that!
âYou poor baby. At least you have your toy collection,â Shoko teases, sneaking in and brushing your hair back. âExtensive, too.â
You flip her off, peeking at the phone then and seeing Satoru's name pop up.
Study session?
âDick session?â She asks, you gasp, as if affronted at such a suggestion.
âI would never assume such a thing!â
You hope so.
*****
Itâs not.
No, itâs not a dick session at all.
It really is an actual goddamn study session â both of you were sitting there in Satoruâs living room, his place was far fancier than anywhere, but that came from him being the Deanâs very son. It intimidated you a little at first, but now youâve grown comfortable, as he made you feel so special.
Today though?
Well, you canât focus on anything but how badly youâd love to kneel and suck your nerdy boyfriend, his thighs spread wide all slutty.
God his legs are long.
You bet his cock is-
âAnd this equation?â Satoru teasingly asks you, distracting you from your slutty freaking brain.
You're not even sure what stumbles out of your mouth for an answer, without saying how thick you think the circumference of his cock must be.
That is something youâve done with your past experiences, and you know youâre good at it. You could easily deep throat a man and you wanted to see his cock so damn bad â could he be a challenge, though?
Your eyes drift down his chest, he peeks at you curiously.
âWhatâs wrong, sweetheart?â He asks casually, spinning his pen between his fingers and studying you. âHard question?â
âUm⊠yeah, a very hard timeâŠâ
Stop that! Stop looking at his dick print!
âThe question is hard?â
âUh⊠the question⊠yes.â You feel like a damn pervert every time youâre around him, canât you chill and let things happen when they happen?
He sighs and stands up, stretching his arms up over his head, his abdomen revealed when his dress shirt rides up, showing those little v cuts that make your ovulating brain just a million times worse. Itâs like youâre in heat. It's so pathetic right now â maybe you should avoid him till it stops.
âLetâs take a break then.â
âYeah?â
He chuckles at how eager you are at the thought and comes up to you, leaning down with a hand on each arm of your chair, tilting his head so some of that soft white hair falls over his forehead. You brush a bit of it back and he kisses your palm, lips warm and sweet.
âYouâve been such a good girl, how can I not treat you a bit?â Your heart hammers in your chest, until those next words spill from his lips. âBoba?â
âWhat? Huh?â You blink as he eases back, pulling up his phone and leaning against the desk. âBoba??â
âYeah, Boba, Iâll buy you some, I know you love it,â he smiles curiously as you bury your face in your hands. âNo Boba? Matcha then?â
âIâm umâŠâ About to cum if he touches you once even. âNo, I guess Boba is fine. Thanks Toru.â you manage to say, thighs pressing together, Satoru frowns, kneeling now and gently taking your hands off your face, seeing your blush.
âAre you sick!? Youâre all flushed!â
âIâm not-â
âYouâre burning,â he touches your cheek in concern, and you almost fucking feel bad â youâre not sick, youâre ovulating. âBaby girl, letâs get you to a doctor right now!"
âNo, no I feel fine, Iâm not warm because of that,â you shift in your seat and whine out at just that friction. âPromise.â
He frowns and watches you carefully. âYouâre hurting, it could be the start of something!â
âWell yeah I hurt,â you sigh as he spreads your thighs and kneels between them, shoving at him. âYouâll make it even worse down there.â
âIâll make what worse, exactly? YourâŠâ He trails off then, seeing your panties and blushing himself, pink dancing across his high cheekbones and dusting them in that rose. âY-your⊠your panties are so⊠uh⊠s-soaked andâŠâ
You should freak out at this proximity, at just how much he can finally see of you, but all you can do is whine again, as his eyes shoot back up to yours. âIâm okay, promise.â
âAm I neglecting my pretty girlfriend?â He asks softly, just a little nervous. Satoru has never touched anyone but you, but heâs extensively studied the female anatomy, and how to make you cum.
He just wanted your first time to be perfect.
Thatâs why he was waiting â the last thing he needed was for you to not enjoy your first time, though he knows youâre a little more experienced than he is â Satoruâs hardly kissed anyone before you. Not because he couldnât â he just had no interest in that sort of thing until he met you â and even then, he really couldnât find the damn courage to ask you out forever.
âNo Iâm being a damn pervert,â you cover your face and he chuckles at that.
âYouâre being a what, now?â
You sink into the seat, mumbling. âYou heard me.â
Heâd been your best friend for so long, thinking there was no chance in the world â always jerking his cock with any article of clothing youâd leave in his room, like a filthy depraved pervert â and you think you were one perverted here?
Does him wanting the timing to be just right making you think that?
Satoru exhales softly, just a hint of what he wants to say slipping from his plump lips.
âWhat, do you touch your little pussy thinking of me?â
His voice has you lowering your hands, he spreads those thighs and slides up your skirt, making you moan out, head falling back, your hands gripping the arms of the chair even tighter.
âWha-?â You canât even finish your damn word.
âAsked you a question, baby.â
âGod,â heâs diabolical without knowing â or maybe he does know. Youâre trembling as you lean back, letting his thumb brush on your clit and gasping at the touch, already getting slick from a brush on your skin. âWhat question?â
âNot paying attention, tsk,â he clicks his tongue and his teeth nip your inner thigh, sinking in and making you whine out. âDo you touch her?â
âY-yes,â he hums a bit, tugging your panties up until your lips are visible, that dark spot growing as slick starts pouring. âPleaseâŠâ
âBe patient, baby,â he leans back now, smirking at you. âShow me?â
âAre you sure youâŠâ
âPlease? I wanna see so bad,â you blush now, you masturbate sure â but not in front of people! âIâll show you?â
âShow me you um⊠jerking off?â
âYeah, I mean⊠yeah?â You sigh a bit.
âToruâŠâ
âMmm?â
âWhy donât I um⊠suck you?â He is bright red now, heâs almost busting just thinking of your mouth â that wonât do. His first blow job and he busts in one go!? No, Satoru has to jerk it three times before he gets the privilege of fucking your pretty little mouth, of feeling your pink tongue on him.
âNot yet.â
âNot yet? But youâre so hard,â you giggle and tease him with your foot nudging his thigh, he glares and catches it, shoving it wide. âNot yet, then. So you just wanna see me touch myself?â
âGod yes, dreamed of that sinceâŠâ He trails off then, he doesnât want to admit just how long heâs jerked off to you, because it was before you even knew who Satoru Gojo was. âLemme see.â
âOkayâŠâ you lean back, running your fingertips over your panties, slipping underneath and leaning your head back, eyes fluttering shut, hearing Satoruâs soft little whine. âToruâŠâ
âFuck,â he thought he could handle this, but heâs utterly failing, he canât even see your pretty pussy and heâs already throbbing, leaking so much pre it hurts, sticking to his brand new digimon boxers. âYouâre sâpretty, sweetheart.â
You blush as you look at him with dazed eyes, running little circles right around your puffy clit, coated in hot slick as it dribbles out of your panties. He swipes some of it on his fingers, studying it carefully, his tongue going to lap at it, moaning as the sweetness coats his tongue.
âOh youâre t-tasting me,â it makes you needier, until you have to plunge two fingers inside your messy, quivering hole, that loud squelch echoing in your ears. Heâs gripping your thigh with one hand bruising until you cry out.
âFuck, so s-sorry⊠baby I hurt⊠y-youâŠâ
âNo, no, like it,â he moans and puts his hand back on your thigh, squeezing again so hard it aches. He's jerking his cock faster, whining out when he sees your slick fingers pull out of your panties. You press your cum soaked fingers to his lips and he eagerly wraps them around, sucking them off. âToruâŠâ
âSo sweet, my pretty girlfriend,â his glasses fog up when he leans down, licking your inner thigh that is trembling, sliding higher until his tongue is on you â but it's not on your skin, it's on the soaked cotton of your panties.
âFuckâŠâ he moans as he gets those juices that are spilling through the fabric, his and squeezing his own cock as your thighs sit over his shoulders.Â
âMore, please,â you're tugging at his hair so hard it hurts, bucking up your hips for more. âI need you, please.â
âSuch a needy girlfriend,â he murmurs, thumb circling his drooling tip, looking up at you with desperation in his pretty blue eyes. âYou want me to lick it more for you?â
Your answer is a little nod, even having him lick you over your panties is more than you've ever had done, and fuck it feels good. Sinful as he trails a long, slow stripe over the fabric, the tip stopping right over your twitchy clit, his moan is muffled against the damp cotton.
âToru!â He's lost in your scent, in that taste, the little hints of lace decorating your panties rough against his tongue, the sound is fucking filthy.
Satoru tugs those panties up more firmly, strings of gossamer saliva dripping and dissolving, peering up at you with flushed cheeks. âLike that, baby? Is this what you were thinking about instead of studying?â
Your only answer is to nod quickly, a jerky little motion as he sees those puffy lips just swallowing the damp material. He swipes his tongue over and over, the heat and wetness of his mouth making your entire body tremble. You feel it heating up, hearing the messy sounds of his own cock fucking his fist, wishing it were your throat instead.
"Oh god, Toru," you whimper out it so pathetically, your hands tangling in his soft white hair, fluffy and silky underneath your touch, trying to pull him closer, to shove his face where you need it. âNot enough, mnh!â
He chuckles against your puffy cunt, the vibration and the quick lave of his tongue have you on edge. Pulse racing as he had the audacity to tease you, landing a wet smack on your cunt that had you pathetic.
"Ah - ah," he clicks his tongue, catching your wrists in one of his stupidly large hands and pinning them against your waist, smirking at you in a way that's utterly not dirty at all. "No touching yet, sweetheart. I'm taking my time with you."
âMeanie,â he chuckles again, but you love it â feeling that strength as he grips you so tight. âMy panties are ruined, Toru.â
âMmm. Yes they are,â he tugs them again, looking at how wet the material is, just a pathetic little scrap of fabric with your juices pouring.
Instead of showing you mercy and moving them, he just presses them further against you again, tongue shoving that fabric until it's flush with your needy clit, you swear you can feel his tastebuds as that tongue drags through the fabric, pausing everywhere that has you jerking and honing in.
Like this nerdy boy is studying you.
Oh. He is.
He's methodical, almost clinical with his research of your needy, clothed cunt just separated by this pathetic little piece of fabric, his tongue pressing more firmly against your soppy lil hole. She is pulsing around nothing, torturous strokes, pressing his fingers up and down, you're hot and sticky underneath his touch.
âToru!â Your wrists are still pinned, his cock forgotten even though it's dripping down onto the soft, plush rug below his knees. Satoru finds your clit again and looks up under snowy lashes, you watch the drips of slick connect with that wickedly long tongue.
âMmm. I bet I could see myself inside you,â he whispers, you suck in a breath at that, as if he is measuring the distance of your entrance to your belly button, easing your wrists to tug up your top, nipping your puffy lips over the fabric. âScientifically.â
âThen experiment, scientifically.â He chuckles like the little shit he is, finding your clit once more, a hand pressing where he imagines his cock would bulge out.
âYou are so needy f'me, s'pretty like this,â his words slur as he wraps his plump lips around your twitchy clit, barely concealed and swollen underneath the cotton material that is dripping wet. He pulls it in his mouth and sucks it hard through your panties, humming against you.
You're aching, cunt filling his hungry mouth as your hands land back on his hair, his movements making you cry out and buck your hips against his mouth for more.
âSo sweet right now, god, look at thatâŠâ
Satoru is so close to cumming when he grabs his cock at the base again, squeezing so goddamn hard â he could almost bet that if he felt your cunt without the fabric, he'd spurt his white ropes everywhere.
Make a mess of you.
âMnh. You close, sweetheart?â
Your answer is a jerky little nod, as he keeps torturing you with this fucking barrier, his teeth grazing that tiny clit ever so lightly through the fabric, making you scream out, your head falling back. Your panties are absolutely ruined now, utterly transparent with your slick and his spit coating them, your sweet little cries rushing through his ears.
Satoru? Well, he laps at the mess he's making happily, his tongue coating the entire area in circles that deliberately avoid that spot until you're twitching, tears falling down your cheeks.
"Such a messy girl," he moans out those words, eyes black when they peek up at you, his voice husky as your slick clings to his lips. "Soaking these pretty little panties fâme.â
âPlease, Toru⊠move âem please,â he smirks and decides to have mercy on you, tugging them to the side of one of your lips and exhaling, watching the slick drool and spill down. You gasp as the air hits your cunt, already aching and needy, the dampness making it a cool shock.
âFuck, you're so pretty,â he murmurs, his cock just about to bust without his touch, he glides his tongue from your ass all the way to your clit, looking right up at you. âIs this what you were thinking of, hmm? My tongue inside you?â
âYour cock, too,â he chuckles against you, but just a couple more flicks has you close, as he spreads your cunt wide, studying your every expression.
âLook at that. My slutty little girlfriend.â
Satoru is trying his best to hold it together, but when his tongue glides into your gummy walls and they grip him, he's too far gone, slurping up every bit of the cum that just pours out. You shatter so damn pretty, squirting all over his face, dripping down his chin until it's glossy, his cock starts pulsing right with your hole, imagining her milking him.
âF-fuckkâŠ.â
âToru, mnh! S'good I⊠pleaseâŠâ Youâre overheated, body sensitive, itâs just not enough, even with his tongue lavishing every bit of your pussy.
Not enough.
âPlease what, baby? Mnh,â he grips his veiny cock as he cums with his tongue on your clit, more of your mess drenching his throat, his face, his shirt. His white ropes coat his hand, lashes fluttering shut as he savors your jumping clit in his mouth, whining against you.
âWant your cock in my mouth, Toru pleaseâŠâ he exhales, breath making you jolt, looking up at you with a blush.
âI umâŠâ he leans back on his knees and you see the mess, blushing at it.Â
âI didn't touch you thoughâŠâ
âDidn't need to,â he's clearly a little embarrassed, you take his cum soaked hand then â dripping white â and wrap your mouth around one of his thick fingers. âOh fuckâŠâ
You suck him right off, tasting that salty white substance and moaning as it hits your taste buds. Satoru pulls back and laps it off his own fingers, before kissing you right with it, the mess spilling between your mouths and dripping down.
Satoru Gojo â your nerdy boyfriend with an insane Digimon collection was a fucking freak, greedily drinking his own cum off your mouth.
Youâre trembling when the door knocks, and you faintly remember that he has ordered you boba. Heâs the epitome of a perfect boyfriend after that, considerate, caring, cleaning the little rivulets of your own release from your inner thighs â youâre stuck back on the opposite side of the bed, cuddling him and watching a movie.
Satoru even has the audacity to snore after, heavy body wrapping as you ache to get filled by him â at least the movie was so damn boring you drift off right next to him.
****
âIâm gonna die a virgin,â you mumble to Shoko and Utahime the next weekend, aside from more heated kisses and grinding on Satoruâs thigh after your well planned out dates â nothing.
Youâre aching.
How much use could your rose toy really see!? And now you even have two more toys going along with it, though you doubt any of them are getting close to Satoru and how good he must feel. No âclit suckerâ could come close to what that nerdy little mouth could do.
âYou look like youâre dying, girl, damnâŠâ Utahime earns your glare. âIs it that bad?â
âHe finally got me off andâŠâ You blush now, unable to finish your sentence, remembering his tongue drinking up your juices.
âDoes he know what a clit is?â
âVery much so, it was so good.â
They look surprised.
âYou all have no clue, he really was,â Shoko laughs at that, leaning back and hitting the vape, handing it over to you. âNo, no.â
âYou need a smoke, sweets,â you grimace, brushing your hair back, pacing back and forth as the two girls watch you, snuggling with each other. âYouâre pacing holes in the carpet.â
âI canât handle this, I just⊠god I wanna suck his dick, is it so terrible? He hasnât even let me touch it. I sound like a horny ass man, I hate it. I wanna respect him, I really do.â
âYou wanna respect him with his cock in your throat?â Shoko finishes.
âYes. I mean!? I will respect him without the cock in my mouth! You two are menaces.â
Theyâre laughing like the brats they are, blowing smoke in each otherâs mouths, you damn near moan in frustration. Satoruâs gotten you off that one time, then since then he has gone right back to worshipping you in the sweet way he always did, as if youâll what â forget about his tongue?
His stupidly long fingersâŠ
The cum on your tongue that you lapped right off!?
The taste.
âUgh -â you lean back and sink further into the couch. âI really am gonna die.â
âCanât die, weâve got that party tonight,â Utahime teases, kissing Shokoâs lips and giggling just a bit, you pout at the two of them.
In public Satoru would kiss your hand at best.
Where on earth even had that freak come from that spit his cum in your mouth last week!? Heâs all gone again â the pocket protector wearing Nerd Gojo in his place, like some twin fucking took over for a minute.
âI canât go to a party and get drunk, Iâll make a fool of myself around him, one drink and my pussy has a mind of its ownâŠâ You finally sit down, plopping back into the seat. âI feel like a pervert.â
âYou are! Letâs just call you fucking pervy Sage.â
âHey!â You glare at Utahime, Shoko is inhaling another puff of smoke, you cough just a bit.Â
âHah â Sanji from One-â
âDonât even!? Iâm not that bad,â you huff at her, frowning now. âI swear I'm not trying to be pervy. God, what is in this weed?â
âHmm,â Shoko tugs Utahime on her lap. âI wonder if he's scared you'll like ⊠bite his dick.â
âYou're so fucking mean,â you cough a little more, eyes watering as you scowl at the two of them.
âLook slutty, like really slutty,â Shoko walks up now, tilting your chin up and crooking her lips up at the corner. âSomething that screams â fuck me.â
âHe licked my panties and didnât evenâŠâ
âReally slutty,â Utahime agrees, tapping her chin. âOoh! I know, I have the perfect outfit in mind, that little black dress of yours.â
âBut itâs too small for me now! Itâs from like high school, and thanks to you two cooking all the time, my hips-â
âExactly.â
âExactly what? OhâŠâ
You trail off now, realizing what everyone knew â that Satoru loves your hips, he grabbed on to them every chance he got, even when he was just a little bit shy.
âOkayâŠâ
They kiss again in front of you, laughing a bit, making you lovesick for your man â your nerdy man who you wish would kiss you in that way, tongues all dripping. Itâs not even fair.
âAll lovey dovey, fuck you both.â
Theyâre so hot and rude laughing at you â you decide to just disappear, you donât need your hot ass best friends making out in front of you when youâre already in pain from the constant edging from Satoru. You are rushing to your room and trying on outfit after outfit, before finally deciding on the exact fucking one they brought up.
You would look as sexy as you could and hopefully get your boyfriend to not be able to resist you.
But also youâll respect his decision, dammit! You can wait as long as he wants to, even if you were absolutely gonna put your tits and ass out there for him. Looking in the mirror and touching up your lipstick, swiping a finger across your lower lip to smudge it just a tad.
âOh damn you look hot, Sanji,â Utahime says when you come out.
âI am not Sanji.â
âYou are.â
âFuck you both!â
*****
Satoru canât keep his damn eyes off you.
Fuck youâre pretty tonight.
That damn little black dress clinging to your skin is fucking ruining Satoruâs mind, brain short circuiting as the two of you navigate the insanely packed frat house, one of his hands on the small of your back protectively. People are all bumping into everyone, stumbling around, absolutely no chance he lets someone hurt you by accident.
Moreso, Satoru Gojo canât get his fucking hands off you, no, he can feel your warmth right through the thin layer of cotton material, fingers splaying across it. He reminds himself in his head over and over just what a horrible thing it would be to fucking take your first time at a frat party, even as he has to adjust his cock, turning from you to face the wall for a moment.
âEverything okay, Toru?â You ask softly, hand on his back, he laughs, a fake and terrible attempt at being normal, turning right back around to you.
âMe!? Yes, yes. Do you need a drink, babydoll?â He asks.
The music kicks on as he speaks, and all you can see are his plump lips forming words, ringing from how damn loud theyâre blaring the worst dance music known to man. âWhat!!â
âA drink!!â
âHuh?â
âA DRINK-â
The music pauses for just a minute, switching to something else but leaving multiple people to stare at Nerdy Gojo shouting.
You blink a bit at his shouting, he swears heâll kill Suguru and Nanami for having the audacity to fucking laugh at him and his pain. Them smoking weed earlier and trying to give him every tip known to man on how to bury said tip right against that surely cute little cervix.
As if Satoru hadnât studied extensively.
âYes, please,â you smile all pretty, letting him guide you through, he just about loses it from the sheer amount of eyes locked onto you, gripping you just a little too tight, feeling the curve of those breedable hips underneath his fingertips.
Imagine having them bent over, his hands fit so perfect-
No, he can make it another night, a dumb frat party was not the time or place for something so precious as your first time. Even if you smell that good, and youâre dancing all over him, giggling, your ass brushing right against where his cock has tented his dark jeans.
Your drink in one hand, the other in his as he pulls you against him, for a nerdy boy, Gojo can absolutely move his body. You feel so goddamn good against him, with your waist in his grip now, his lips pressed against your ear â he can inhale that sweet scent you just naturally fucking have.
Thatâs when he realizes heâs about to cum if your ass rubs up on his cock one more damn time with those heels making you tall enough, he could bend you over and slide it right in. God he bets youâre so wet too.
Satoru has to pull back, making you blink just a bit in confusion, he downs the rest of his drink, smiling apologetically.
âBathroom, sweetheart.â
âOh, um⊠okay, want me to-â
Satoru runs the fuck off.
Maybe youâre doing too much, shit⊠you were absolutely grinding all up on Satoru because you were craving him so bad. You needed to give him more time! If the roles were reversed, you know he would, even if he may want to as badly as you do. Going to pour yourself a shot, you throw it back and let your eyes shut, sighing just a bit as it burns your throat.
You need to ease up and let Satoru take his time, even if you have to press your thighs together to resist the needy urge of rubbing your cunt on anything right now.
Maybe you are fucking Sanji.
*****
Satoruâs leaned back on the door, unzipping his pants and seeing his reddened cockhead, and just how fucking swollen it is. Heâs jerking his cock desperately, whimpering out as the door gets knocked on, banged on in fact by fucking Sukuna of all people.
âGotta take a piss man, stop jerking it.â
âIâm not!? Iâm pissing right now â w-wait,â Satoru is jerking it of course, but how dare Sukuna call him out on it. Dickhead fratboy that he is, heâs chuckling outside of the door, but none of it is getting rid of Satoruâs throbbing erection.
Heâs just way too needy, too sensitive, he can see his reflection in the mirror â those flushed pink cheeks. Sukuna thankfully fucks off, but Satoru can't even cum with just his hand, not when he knows your little fist would feel so much better, when your mouth and pussy would grip him.
No, Satoru is left tortured.
*****
You are alone for some time, concerned if he was somehow drunk or sick when the leader of the frat â the slutty ass, pink haired jock named Sukuna comes up to you, sipping his cup and flickering his red eyes up and down your face.
âHmm, Gojo left you all alone?â
âAnd?â You scoff, rolling your eyes at him now, he smirks just a bit, leaning close. âHeâs busy. Okay?â
âMmm⊠yeah,â he peeks over his shoulder now, then looks right back down at you. âSo.â
âSo, what?â
He grins all big. âWanna play beer pong?â
âBeer pong?â
âMhm,â he tugs at a little lock of your hair. âBet I stomp your ass at it. Look like such a good girl.â
âHah you think I've never been to a party!?â
âNever seen you before aside from with your nerdy lover boy,â he pours you a drink now and inclines his head.
âI've partied, just⊠usually me and Toru are busy.â
He snorts at that.
So busy your boyfriend is jerking his cock in the bathroom.
âI see, so busy, huh?â
âYes butâŠâ you curse now, shaking your head. Satoru has been gone fifteen minutes and won't answer a text, a game of beer pong wouldn't hurt. âFine then.â
It doesnât take long until there is an entire gathering of people to watch you absolutely annihilate Ryomen Sukuna in beer pong, to the point he is fucking furious. You're landing the pong ball in every cup, decimating the entire frat at a certain point, giggling as you study them, down to the last shot, against Sukuna again.
âBeginners luck or some shit,â heâs fucking furious â you swear you see his vein ticking underneath his jaw.
Satoru is still not here.
Youâre worried but youâre also enjoying the cheers, especially when you land that last one, giggling as the frat brothers who were talking all that shit about the nerdy girlfriend of Satoru moments before are now staring in disbelief. With one final, perfect arc, the ball splashes into the last cup.Â
It really is beginner's luck.
But.
Also, fuck Sukuna.
"Damn, girl!" someone yells, and you take a little bow, rubbing it right in Sukunaâs face now, who is slamming down the rest of his beer.
Surely he drank enough to get annihilated â but somehow still standing just normal, big ass man has some insane tolerance because those eyes look completely aware.
"Guess I'm not such a good girl after all, huh?" you tease Sukuna, who's standing there looking down at you, setting the cup down and crushing it.
âHmmm,â his red eyes dilate just a bit as he steps closer to you, suddenly making you feel just a bit nervous.
Satoru hates Sukuna.
Itâs well known, since high school the two of them have been overcompetitive and absolutely insane against each other. Heâd be fucking furious if he saw you anywhere near him at all. You peek and see him across the crowd then, getting a text from Shoko blinging on your phone.
Heâs really mad.
He is.
You get another text now from Utahime, biting down on your lower lip.
Make him jealous and maybe youâll get dicked down, Sanji.
âIâm not Sanji,â Sukuna raises a brow, lips twitching. âIâm not.â
âSanji? Who the fuck is that?â
âOne piece?â
âNerd â hey, wait,â youâre turning and he grabs your wrist for just a moment. âShit, I mean⊠youâre right, youâre not a good girl, huh?â
âI sure beat your ass,â you say, pausing when he reaches out, his fingers surprisingly gentle as they brush a stray piece of hair back from your face, rough knuckles brushing against your cheek for a second too long.
"You did, you're full of surprises, brat.â
âBrat? WhateverâŠâ
You can feel Satoruâs eyes on you â youâd pull back, but part of you wonders if making him jealous would bring that freak out that spit cum in your mouth â maybe you are a brat. You sip your drink, remaining normal.
âIâm dating Satoru, youâre too close.â
âWould nerdy ass Satoru know what to do, how to handle your ass?â He taunts, your eyes narrow, his laugh echoing despite the music as your boyfriend starts shoving his way through. âShow you that digimon collection?â
âIâm very pleased, thank you.â
âYou look like you need to get your attitude fucked right out of you,â your fingers itch to slap him now. âIf he fucks up, you know where to find me.â
âNo thank you, I- Toru!â
Satoru is between you and Sukuna, shoving him off and glaring right at him â perhaps the two tallest men at the party right face to face, Sukunaâs smirk making Satoru want to punch him.
âWhy are you so close to my future wife?â
âWife?â You blush and he glares at you.
âYes, and baby momma â but youâre being a brat,â he whispers, Sukuna snorts at that.
âShe is a brat.â
âYou canât call her that,â he shoves the big ass man and takes your hand now. âShe has better shit to do than talk to you.â
âAw, but we were having fun,â Satoru is dragging you away, you blink just a bit, almost scowling at Sukuna who blows you a kiss.
What a dick.
BUT.
Satoru is fuming, and heâs hot.
Youâre so toxic!
âWhatâs wrong, Toru? I was just playing some beer pong,â you say all innocently, as he drags you past everyone, youâre struggling to keep up with his long strides. âUm⊠whatâs wrong?â
âWhatâs wrong!? Hah,â heâs laughing, psychotic and feral like you turned on a switch in his brain, when he finally starts getting some privacy. âEverything.â
âI donât get itâŠâ
âHe was hitting on you,â Satoru yanks you away in the center of the party, you barely bite back your giggle at how excited you are to see him this way, looking ever so serious when he glares down at you.
Maybe you are evil, loving how mad he is, how jealous he is when he presses you against the hallway wall on the other side of the party, you can feel the music humming through the walls, but not as fast as your heart is racing looking up at your blue eyed boyfriend. Blue eyed angry boyfriend.
This isn't sweet Satoru at all, no â he's completely fucking unhinged, his chest rising and falling with his quickened breaths, cupping your face and jerking your chin to look up at him.
âYou think he was?â You ask softly, making him raise a brow. âI thought he was just⊠being nice?â
You make him laugh without humor now, thumb brushing across your lip. âAre you being bratty, sweetheart? Teasing me, making me jealous?â
âWhat? No,â you straight up fucking lie to his face, batting your lashes all innocent and cute, but you can tell my that little smirk he doesnât buy any of it for shit right now.
âNo?â
âNo, I was just talking, Toru. Isn't that fine?â You trail your hands up his chest, wrapping your fingers around to hook behind his neck, tugging him down to face you. âItâs fine for me to make friends, isnât it?â
âNot when he's looking at these pretty tits,â he cups one, making you suck in a breath â your needy boyfriend is never this bold. âThey're not his to look at.â
âOh?â You lean forward now, tip toeing as he leans low, thumb brushing over a nipple, making it perk up for his touch. âAre they yours? Yours to look at?â
Heâs losing it, his pulse hammering behind his ears, in his wrists, everywhere was hammering, his mouth practically salivating as he cups that tit right where anyone can see, big hand squishing it. You gasp out at the sensation, your lashes fluttering closed, little whines mingling against his lips.
âYes, mine, every inch of you is mine,â Satoru shakes his head now with a soft laugh. âHe thought he could dance with you. Kiss your lips? Lips that are mine.â
âAll yours,â you open your eyes and giggle again, earning his scowl. âSorry you're just so cute like this.â
Satoru blinks.
âOh, Iâm cute?â
You go to press a kiss when he snatches you up in one swoop, you gasp and wrap your arms around his neck now. Thighs trembling as he carries you to some room he finds, stumbling you in and shoving you right against the door.
âYou think I'm cute,â he presses his cock against your slick heat, slutty little panties practically ruined for him, grinding his cock until you're gasping out. âWell I think that you're a brat.â
You gasp. âMe?â
Two people calling you that.
Well⊠maybe you are.
âYou are bratty, with those pretty fucking lips,â he's kissing you filthy, tongues dancing, saliva dripping between you both, easing you down so that you slide against his body achingly slow. âMaybe I should shut your bratty mouth up.â
Oh fuck.
âYes please?â He glares at your big fucking grin.Â
âOn your knees then, sweetheart,â you so eagerly obey, he laughs softly, his heart hammering in his chest, a mix of being utterly furious, nervous about his first time, and dumbstruck by the sight of your heart eyes. âLook at you, beinâ such a good girl â but are you really that desperate to suck me?â
âPlease yes,â you have no shame â all you want is Satoruâs cock deep and buried in the back of your throat. âIf you want though! C-consent.â
âAs if I havenât wanted this for years,â he shakes his head and tilts your chin up, sighing. âI wanted to do it all perfect, to lick and kiss every inch, worship your body until you were writhing, so fucking needy for it.â
Satoru unclicks his belt, the metallic click hitting your ears. âMnh⊠years?â
"Years," he repeats softly, unbuttoning his jeans entirely too slow for you, you go to move your hands and he halts them with a little smack, you bite down on your lip, aching. âHands on your thighs, youâll listen to me for once, since youâve been driving me so fucking crazy.â
âMe, making you crazy, really,â you do as he says though â eagerly â palms on your thighs, he laughs a bit, the sound of his zipper lowering echoing in the room even with the reverberating walls.
âYou know every time you drag that messy cunt on me it ruins me, right?â He draws out that word, sighing now. "Every time you wore those little skirts and bent over, every time you'd bite your lip while concentratingâŠâ
Satoru drags a thumb down your lip now, achingly slow against the plumpness that moves underneath it, your teeth nip on his thumb teasingly, and then you let him push your mouth open.
âOpen real wide, sweetheart,â you do just that, and he canât help but whimper as he presses down on your tongue, as if heâs studying the recesses of your open, eager mouth. âWider, canât you? For me?â
You listen eagerly, opening wide and fucking obscene, your tongue out for any bit of him he wants to give you, core just aching.
âFuck, I've imagined this exact moment."
Satoru wonât tell you just how long he has, either, he swallows â just a bit nervous now.
âSuck,â you suck his digits, slurping them and moaning around them, imagining his cock instead, loving how dominant heâs being. âStop.â
You obey, making him raise a brow.
âYou like me tellinâ you what to do? Is that why you got me so fucking mad, so jealous, to have you listen?â
âYeah,â you whisper, as he shoves his jeans down, and the hard, thick length of his bugle strains against the thin fabric of his boxers. âPokemon? You traitor!â
âI canât wait to shut your mouth up tonight,â you giggle at that, Satoru sighs and frowns at them, brushing your hair back a bit. âThey were a gift, okay?â
âIâll buy you digimon ones.â
âGod, youâre so perfect,â youâre still giggling, when he gently smacks your face â the lightest little touch that has you almost moaning. âOpen up again, yeah? Be a good girl, baby.â
âMmm, yes,â you nod your head, doing just as he says â the side of freaky Satoru you only saw hints of last week when heâd lavished your panties with his long tongue.
âYou got me jealous on purpose, yeah? Wore that slutty outfit to fucking ruin me, wanted cock in your throat that bad? Got me fucking leaking so much⊠fuckâŠâ
Your answer is to keep that mouth open, leaning forward as you lap your tongue along the damp spot where his pre cum has already soaked through, right over a traitorous yellow pikachu. Youâll make more fun of that later, right now heâs jerking his hips, hissing at the drag of your cute lil tongue on him.
âFuckâŠâ Youâre teasing him just like he did you â licking and sucking his tip over the damp cotton of his boxers. âAct so sweet and youâre evil, shouldnât feel that good through that⊠mmmâŠâ
Satoruâs letting you suck around his fat cockhead, slurping every bit of his white cum from it, tongue lolling right along that slit over and over.
âTorturing me back?â
âYep,â you lick your lips, making him sigh, shaking his head now.
âGo on then, take whatâs all yoursâŠ" his voice is low, hoarse damn near as he for the very first time pulls his cock out, letting it spring free, slapping against his lower abdomen with a loud, wet smack. âCan you fit all of it?â
You knew heâd be big.
You didnât know heâd be that big, with his jeans undone all slutty, his pokemon boxers shoved down â his cock is perfect, just the right amount of thick and entirely too fucking long, with a prominent pale blue vein running along the underside. Youâre literally drooling as he strokes it right in front of you, the head flushed a deep, pretty pink as it leaks white.
Youâre soaked, fucking ruined.
âI can.â
You cannot.
Maybe?
You will try!
âGo on then, sweetheart, lemme see how good you can take all of me,â he chuckles as you lean forward without hesitation, pressing a soft, open-mouthed kiss to the tip. âTeasinâ me more?â
You lap your tongue up, keeping your hands right where he asked you too, sliding underneath so you hit that frenum. His sharp inhale is met with his huge hand tugging in your hair so hard it hurts, pulling at the hairs on the nape of your neck.
âFuck⊠greedy lil mouth,â heâs damn near slurring his words when you swirl your little tongue around the head, lapping up the salty taste of his cock underneath, brushing along that vein. He whimpers out when you wrap your lips around it and suck. âOh my⊠f-fuckâŠâ
Satoru loses it the first time you really suck his cock, his hand coming to rest on the back of your head, pushing you down further as his other hand rests on the doorway, beginning to move so that heâs choking you. Youâre whining out, aching to touch your cunt so bad you slide your fingers down.
âSo desperate,â he tuts his tongue, fucking your throat now, his cock slamming the back of it as tears spill. âB-baby, is this sâokay?â
You pull back as he does, with a wet, filthy pop, grinning. âI want it, all the way deep in my throat, Toru, I can take it.â
âYou can take all of it in that tiny lilâ throat? When sheâs this tight?â He whispers, your nod makes him glare now. âHave you done this?â
You blink a bit. âYes?â
âThen Iâll fuck your throat so hard youâll forget anything but me,â he takes you over now, slamming deep inside, youâre whimpering as one of his feet spread your thighs, and youâre soaking his black boot. âThatâs it, rutting on my boot and taking cock like a little slut, hmm?â
âMnhghâŠâ youâre done for, this is exactly what you needed, him railing your throat until you canât think, until youâre gagging and tears are spilling.
âLook at me,â he orders softly, you do just that as he presses deep, sniffling as you try to take all of him, he hisses as he feels his tip stretching that tight throat, his Adam's apple bobbing. âYou know I fucking love you? And respect you?â
You giggle around him and he glares.
âYou have to know if Iâm gonna say all this,â you pull back again, fingers all coated in your slick, gliding it along his sticky tip.
âI know you love me, Toru. I love youâŠâ He sighs, touching your cheek. âI love you talking to me this way, you could be meaner.â
âOh? Fuck my frustration on your throat?â
âPlease?â
âYouâre ruining me,â he mumbles, slamming right back inside, now that he knows youâre okay, he can lose control, see how much you can take, as you grind on that shoe, nails now pressing in the muscles of his thighs, jeans slipping down. âWant our first time to really be right against this door? Shove your slutty skirt up and ruin your cunt for fuckinâ anyone?â
God, Satoruâs sexy like this, fogged glasses and all.
Your answer is to take him all the way, your nose brushing against the white hair, the tufts of it tickling your nose, heâs stuttering now, unable to stop himself from fucking faster, harder, the wet sounds mixing with his whines. He doesnât hold them back, either, every time he does he feels a fresh gush of wetness even over that leather, he can see it shimmering as he pulls back and slaps his cock on your mouth.
âSlutty girl, this all fâme, huh? Not that fucking loser downstairs?â
âAll you.â
âHold that tongue out,â you do just that, and Satoru slaps his tip on your tongue over and over, as you keep grinding on him. âCanât believe youâre this much of a pretty little whore, god I thought you were a good girl?â
âToru⊠pleaseâŠâ
âPlease what?â You just keep rubbing. âDesperate, fuck⊠stand up.â
You can hardly do that when he helps you by tugging you up, spitting directly in your mouth, you swallow it greedily, earning his pathetic moan as he turns you, shoving you against that door. âMnh!â
âStop me before I fill all your fucking holes with cum,â heâs kissing down your neck, his glasses cool against your neck, whines escaping his lips as he shoves that slutty lil dress up the gentle curve of your hip. âAll of them, Iâll have your cunt drippinâ, your throat full, fuck that ass while Iâm at it.â
âMngh, please, please,â itâs all you can do but to arch.
âThat needy?â Heâs tugging your panties to the side, dragging his tip up and down over and over, moans escaping his lips when he bends down, turning your face to him. âFirst time in a frat house against a door? Youâre so wet do I even need to finger you right now?â
âAlready did,â you answered, he laughs, shaking his head and kissing you, rubbing even more, teasing your slit with the fat head of his cock until youâre weak, your thighs shaking. âPlease, pleaseâŠ.â
âPlease what, fuck your cunt for the first time? Thatâs what youâve been wanting, me to lose it, huh?â
âYeah,â he scoffs, teasing even more, mouth messy and mean as he bumps your clit, until you squirt right down his length, dripping all down the carpet.
Sukunaâs carpet â itâs his room you faintly notice, as you see the little pictures on the walls.
You wonder if Satoru meant that.
âSquirting already, havenât even fucked you yet,â he pulls back and bends down, slamming his cock so deep you scream out, head falling back as he tugs your hair, making your ass arch out as he fills you. âOh my g-god⊠babyâŠâ
âToru,â he lets you adjust to his thickness, the very first time your cunt has ever been filled â and this wasnât how he wanted to do it.
He wanted to stretch you out â one finger, two, then three â but youâre so soaked you suck him right in. Such a tight, perfect fit he can hardly take it, bending down to press sweet kisses on your bare shoulders, easing back and shoving in again, taking your hand and placing it on your tummy, pressing so you feel it all.
âFeel me here?â He asks softly, desperately â worried for a moment with how tight you are that heâs hurt you, but your answer is to look back at him with those slutty, parted lips and dilated eyes, nodding. âWhoâs inside you?â
âYou, Toru.â you answer, cunt spasming as sheâs already close, his body overtaking you, wrapping and tugging, shoving even deeper.
âWhoâs first?â
âYou.â
âWhoâs gonna make this cunt stretch out?â
âY-you and⊠ah!â
âMine, mine⊠fuck youâre all mine,â Satoru gave you that minute to adjust, a last mercy before your nerdy boyfriend fucking loses his mind. âMine, this pretty body, this perfect pussy⊠you⊠mineâŠâ
âYours,â you whisper it over and over as Satoru fucks your messy cunt, even though itâs hard to take, youâre so full it feels perfect, letting his hand wrap your throat, fingers pressing on either side of your windpipe. âAh!â
âHah â such a perfect fit, made fâme,â heâs fucking you so deep you feel him everywhere, cock gliding in and out of your sticky, gummy walls, fucking you so goddamn messy it's dripping down between your thighs. âB-babyyyâŠâ
You arch for more when he pulls out of your cunt with a filthy squelch and you whine from the loss. âBack in, pleaseâŠâ
He lifts and carries you to the bed, thighs shoved wide, feral now as he shoves back inside and sees himself moving inside you. Every slick glide smoothing your puffy cervix, until she is bruised and aching, that dress shoved higher, panties tugged firmly to the side. He uses both to move in you, laughing as you gasp out, as your thighs tremble.
âAw, is it too much, sweetheart? Too deep?â
Feral Satoru is here, mixed with sweet Toru, but his cock is anything but sweet â the way it stretches you out, fucking ruins you, pummels your cunt so deep youâre about to cum all over his length, already sensitive.
âMhm!â
âFull of me?â
âNghhhhâŠâ
You don't know how the fuck else to answer, it all is entirely too much, the way he can see his cock print, his insane laugh, those blue eyes glittering with the frames fallen off. So blue it hurts to look at, eyes almost threatening to close.
âNuh-uh, eyes on me, that's it,â Satoru keeps pumping into your cunt, leaning up to shove your thighs against your tits, smushing them as he fucks you dumb.
He knows it too.
âCan't think?â
âmmm, nnnhhh,â your answer is pathetic and just a babble really, as your nerdy, once virgin boyfriend pummels your messy, needy cunt until she's stuffed so full it hurts. Your nails pressing into biceps, digging in as he stretches your puffy lips on it.
âCanât even fucking talk â already?â Your eyes roll back in your skull as his cock ruins your pussy, so deep you do feel him all over.
âGonna pump you so full, hah will you finish college without me breeding your cunt?â Satoru Gojo is batshit insane, as he leans over you, bending you so that you're folded in half under his heavy weight. âWhat would you do then, hmm? If I breed your slutty cunt? Make you mine.â
âWant it, mmm,â youâre utterly fucking shameless about it, feeling his bruising grip, his cock getting creamy at the base as his heavy balls slap.
âJerked it in the bathroom, had me so hard,â you bite down on your lip, gasps escaping your throat, eyes locked. âYou love that, huh? Driving me insane, slutty dress, pretty body⊠godâŠâ
He presses your thighs down enough to tug your tits out, gripping them and exhaling, thumbs brushing your nipples until theyâre peaks.
"Look at you," he pants, "taking my cock so well, pretty girl. Youâre just such a good little slut for me, aren't you?"
You can only moan in response, your body trembling as he hits that spot inside you that makes your vision go white, your answer is to grip his hips with your thighs, letting him cup your face, pumping you so full that you can feel it all over. Warm and hot when he whines out so pathetically in your ringing ears, slutty little moans falling from your lips.
âTakinâ all of it, godâŠâ He kisses you even as you shatter, your cunt spasming all around his veiny length, milking him for every drop. âSo fucking greedy. So needy.â
He leans down and captures your lips, spurts of cum still pouring, you can feel him twitching, nails pressing into the strong muscles of his back. âToru⊠l-love⊠toru y-youâŠâ
âCock drunk, sweetheart?â He teases, like the menace he really is â but he also lovingly caresses your cheek. âYou took me like you were made for me.â
âI did?â Youâre so damn drunk off him youâre slurring your words, pussy achingly empty, feeling his cum slipping out.
âYou did a very good job. Such a good girl.â
âYay!â
Satoru snorts at you, shaking his head and peppering kisses, leaned up on an arm, his shirt half open, revealing the hard planes of his chest. âYouâre sâcute⊠I wanted to take it easy your first time.â
âI loved it,â you admit, yawning now, peeking around the room. âMmm, can we go home though?â
âOf course we will,â he kisses down your body though, breath ghosting your thighs, spreading them to watch the filthy mess of his cum pour out, groaning. âYouâre wasting it all, baby.â
âHmm? Ah!â Satoru scoops some of that mess up against his fingertips, shoving it right back inside your quivering hole. Youâre gripping him tight, thighs clamping down on his hand, as he smirks. âToru youâre⊠crazyâŠâ
âMmm, you really have no idea what I have wanted to do,â he clicks his tongue, pushing that cum deep again, watching your every expression. âGonna keep you so full of cum itâll drip everywhere.â
Satoru does not just fuck you once, no â he makes sure to bend you over in the backseat of his car, fucking cum back inside. Once you're at his house he is pumping ropes of cum on your tits, laughing at how messy you get coated in white, before spreading it all over your body.
Satoru fingers and fucks all that cum inside until you're a trembling mess in his arms, passing out and snoring.
âSo funny you started all this but then couldn't keep up, hmm?â He teases softly, cleaning you up, cock sore from how you gripped him, how much he came. But even the sight of milky drops escaping your hole had him damn near twitching back to life, groaning against your skin.
*****
âGood morning,â your nerdy boyfriend is littered in pretty kiss marks, indentions of your teeth all down his neck, a loopy smile on his face as he stands there shirtless, glasses firmly back on.
âOh! Good morningâŠâ you thought you'd be the one to ruin Satoru Gojo, ride his cock till he whimpered and cried from overstimulation.
You had no clue he'd fuck you so good you couldn't sit up right without his help, cupping your face and leaning down to kiss your lips, tilting your chin up and smirking. You're a mess.
A pretty mess.
Hair fucked up, covered in fingerprints and hickies, taking the coffee he brings and sipping it, sighing as it hits your tongue. âMmm⊠good morning.â
âDon't you look pretty in my bed?â He muses, smirking on his features. âI wonder what Sukuna thought of his bed covered in your squirt.â
A blush heats up your cheeks. âI didn't squirt that much!?!?!â
âYou really did,â you shove him playfully, giggling then. âMy cum too though.â
âYou did it on purpose, his room!â
âMe? Never.â
Satoru absolutely did.
That's what Sukuna gets for hitting on his girlfriend, dried up cum all on his blankets â as if he could handle you â€ïž
heheh i hope ya'll liked horny reader for a change!!!
CW â. đ NSFW, 18+ MDNIâexplicit sexual content, explicit language (Satoru says some absolute FILTH, be warned), established relationship, dacryphilia, degradation, praise kink, manhandling, choking, spanking & slapping, spitting, edging, orgasm denial, fingering, oral sex (f rec.), cum eating, piv sex, rough sex, overstim, bondage (its mild dw), BDSM, use of âslutâ and âsirâ, p0rn with plot but plot is more p0rn, canon timeline (like it matters), FERAL Gojo has come out to play for kinktober
Summary â. đ a day of working with Satoru? sounds great! but maybe you could make it just a little more fun by poking the beast and sticking around (or not) for the consequences.
a/n â. đ Your honor! It was a full moon and I was ovulating! That is all I'll say for myself on this. Art is by @/int_dizn on X, dividers are by @/cafekitsune â w/c â. đ 15.5k
Being a jujutsu sorcerer is surprisingly a lot more bureaucratic work than one would think. But every so often, when active working sorcerers are in short supply, you get out in the field and get hands on.Â
Today is one of those days.
You've just finished off the last curse at this abandoned orphanage and thereâs sweat gathered on your forehead. Your breathing is hard but measured after running around with your cursed tool, hacking and slashing your way through the two story building.
Tucking the tsuka of your favorite katana under your arm, you run a hand through your hair, pushing damp pieces off your sweaty forehead.
With the big, mottled grey babbling curse gone, itâs quiet in the room now. Thereâs no sound to signify anyoneâs presence but your own, but you know youâre not alone. There's no way you could ever mistake that presence.
âNicely done! I forgot how good you are with that thing, how many does that make?â Satoru asks, taking a few audible steps into the room.
You turn to face him and pull the tsuka out from under your arm. âThree here, there were some little wimpy ones too but I donât really count those.â you respond with a chuckle, walking to meet him in the middle of the room. âWhat about you?â
âJust oneâit was really big though, ugly as hell too. I tried to see if there were any more but I guess you beat me to it.â Satoru reaches and places his glasses up on his head to look at you, jutting his lip out in a pout.
âWeâve been here for twenty minutes, are you sure you werenât just being lazy?â you lift a brow and tilt your head.
He shrugs a shoulder and steps closer. âMm, maybe. But you have so much fun beating the shit out of curses, and you never get to anymore, who am I to take that away? And itâs nice watching my work get handled for me, especially by someone so pretty. Kind of a win-win, donât you think?â His mouth curls into a coy smirk, head tilted to look down on you.
Your chin lifts, âIs that so?â your hand shoots out, grabbing onto the collar of his jacket as you close the miniscule distance with a single step and pull his face down to your level. Your lips press together hard and fast and he barely gets a chance to put his hands on your hips as they meet his before you pull away again and turn on a heel. âLetâs not waste time and get to the next site then, since youâre gonna slack off and let me do all the work today.â You call back over a shoulder with a smirk.
âShit, someoneâs feisty today!â He calls out, amused as you walk through the doorframe and into the hall. âYou wanna blow this off and head home early?â
You scoff and almost immediately feel his breath against your ear as he says low and smooth as silk and sin, âShould I remind you what happens when you give me attitude?â
Your eyes widen and a jolt of lightning rips through as his hand glides gently up the back of your bare thigh just under the hem of the uniform skirt.Â
You know exactly what happens, thatâs kind of the point.
Things with Satoru are great, he's sweet, he's considerateâsometimesâhe's attentive, and your relationship is anything but stagnant. In fact, today is the first time youâve seen each other after he got back late last night from handling a few annoyingly persistent curses up north. Heâs been gone for a few days, so when the opportunity came up to handle a few sites together today, you jumped. For reasons not⊠completely wholesome. Thereâs ulterior motives that he may be catching onto slowly, but he has no idea of the full extent of this devious game plan.Â
The katana slips through your fingers and it clatters to the ground. âShit, so clumsy.â you bend at the waist to pick it up and arch your back to push your ass against Satoru and he inhales sharply, his whole body stiffening at the sudden contact.
Immediately, you seize the moment. Your fingers curl around the tsuka and you break into a sprint down the hall. Your sneakers squeak as you skid around the corner to dash through another corridor, hearing an indignant scoff from where you had left him as you run off into the building.
Satoru is faster than youâno shit, fastest sorcerer aliveâbut youâre pretty good at suppressing your cursed energy, and you can be very sneaky when you want to be. And besides, if he wants you to do all the work today, you deserve to have some fun while youâre at it. And what could be more fun than fucking with the strongest man alive?
Stupid grin plastered on your face, you leap down the stairs to the main floor of the building, gripping the corner to keep yourself from slamming into the opposite wall. You zip through the hall, scanning a few of the rooms before finding one with another door leading elsewhere and darting in.
Itâs a cafeteria, and the second door connects to the kitchen of the orphanage. Perfect.
You pause for a moment after slipping through the door and shutting it quietly behind you, looking around at the cluttered and dusty kitchen.
Where is it? These kinds of places always have one.
Spotting exactly what youâre looking for, you step quickly over the mess on the floor to the other side of the kitchen and pull the cover of the laundry chute open as quietly as possible. With a breath, you hop in to slide down into the basement of the building.
You land on your feet on a pile of old rags and towels. The smell down here is foul. Mildew from the stagnant wet material and old rotted food mix together and make your start to regret the decision. But heavy footsteps thud above and it snaps you from the disgust and back into action.
Your steps are light and quiet as you sneak up the stairs on the other side of the laundry room back to the main floor. This time, you re-emerge outside of the kitchen.
Waiting at the top of the stairs pressed against the wall, you listen for any sounds from the kitchen. But itâs quiet, ominously silent. You swallow and wet your lips, taking a small breath and reining cursed energy in, before taking off in a sprint again down the hall.
Almost immediately, Satoru pops up at the end of the corridor. Hands in his jacket pockets, head tilted back to look down his nose a little and and a gentle curve to his lips.
âOh, hey.â He says casually, like he didnât just corner you. Your shoes squeak as you slam on the brakes, scrambling to halt before you run right into him with eyes widened in slight surprise.Â
But youâre still smiling wide. A little noise of excitementâalmost a giggle but more breathlessâslips out as you find purchase and tear off in the other direction.
He definitely couldâve just caught you right then and there, but that would have put an end to this. So you guess heâs playing along.Â
For now at least.Â
Stifling another laugh, you skid around the corner again and push off the wall to rush into the first open door you see. A classroom with a wall of windows.
Sliding the glass up, you throw a leg over and hop down to the ground outside to run around the building towards the main entrance.
You peek around the corner to check the area, and immediately turn to run the other way with a gasp. Finding Satoru on the steps up to the entrance staring right back with a smile that looked anything but nice.
Heading for the back entrance of the building, you peek out again before running out from behind the corner. Thereâs no sign of him this time so you rush for the door and slip through. Your back presses to the solid wood for a moment as you scan the hallway. Itâs empty and quiet again so you peel off and walk through. Keeping your energy low and steps light and silent to not tip off the predator currently hunting you through the site.
Not yet at least.
You make it to the stairwell again and head up to the next floor, stopping at the first door you see to open, and immediately slam it shut, sending a loud bang echoing through the floor. Before the first echo sounds out youâre already sprinting off down the hall to the window at the end. You just make it before familiar energy swells and fills the hall.
Throw a look over your shoulder as you slide the window up, turn to sit on the sill, prop one foot up on it and let your legs fall just open enough. Gotcha.Â
Satoruâs eyes widen and his lips part as his jaw drops a bit with a startled noise like a scoff. Staring for a moment before meeting your eyes again and shutting his mouth. You lift a brow with a satisfied smirk playing on your lips and stand on the sill, wiggling your fingers at him before turning around and dropping down to the ground outside again. See ya, sucker!
Not bothering to stifle your cackle this time, you sprint around the outside of the building and make it to the front entrance again and skid to a stop in front of Ijichi.
He looks up from his phone at you, and then just over your shoulder. âYouâre both ready to go?â
Youâre practically vibrating in place, your lips twitch and fail to stifle a smile and you nod at him before taking your spot in the carâs front passenger seat, not looking back over your shoulder.
The rear door opens and Satoru takes his seat behind Ijichi. His uniform shifts as he pulls his phone out. A moment of pause, then your phone vibrates. Still not looking back at him, you pull it out and open the message.Â
[2:23PM] Satoru: kinda risky going commando like that donât u think?
[2:23PM] Satoru: whered they go?
Pursing your lips, you adjust the hem of your skirt, pulling it down a bit before sending a response.Â
[2:24PM] Me: I like the air flow and why should I tell you? Figure it out.
[2:24PM] Satoru: Ohhh really? Well u should run faster than that next time.
You bite your lip but the next message that comes makes you gasp a small sharp breath.Â
[2:24PM] Satoru: Cuz whatever this is is SO over when I catch u.
Swallowing down the feeling of your stomach jumping up into your throat, you send two messages back.Â
[2:25PM] Me: hmmmm don't you mean IF you catch me? (ïœĄâąÌáŽ-)
[2:25PM] Me: Check your pocket.
His uniform shifts a few times before he finally reaches into the left pocket of his pants and lets out a quiet breathy chuckle.
Youâd started this at the last site, playing the mouse to his cat before putting the game on pause and letting him catch up and thatâs when youâd done it. Pressed up close and distracting him with another fast, hard kiss, you slipped your hand into his pocket and left the lacy little undergarment to be used as part of the next step.
[2:26PM] Satoru: Cmoooonnn just make this easy and admit defeat already. We both know im gonna win (ââżâ)
You send two final messages before slipping your phone back in your pocket.Â
[2:27PM] Me: Only if you can catch me Satoruuuuuuu (êáŽê)
[2:27PM] Me: [IMG.]
A photo. Not obscenely graphic, but when you passed by the bathroom mirror at the last site after removing the lacy scrap of material, you snapped a racy picture quickly to use as ammunition later.
You turn to Ijichi, making idle conversation and hear a long, strained exhale and a quiet âOh, fuck me.â from the back seat. Your lips twitch again as you nod and listen to Ijichi talking about the details of the next site.
Your phone buzzes and you glance quickly to Satoru, sunglasses back on with his head down and phone in hand. His head lifts slightly and you can feel his eyes on you but you ignore it and keep the conversation with Ijichi going.
When you arrive at the next site, you get out of the car quickly. Katana in hand, you both head into the four story office building. An unhinged grin on your face as you practically speed-walk. Satoru is right behind you, you can literally feel the heat coming off him.
You stop abruptly and he bumps into you. Your back arches to push your ass against him. It makes that idiotic grin even wider when you feel just how hard he is right now, knowing he was probably uncomfortable as fuck the entire drive here. Itâs been days, you know heâs just as pent up as you are, but heâs not quite where you want him yet. He hisses a breath through his teeth, but you push off with your back foot and sprint away just as his hand grazes your hip.
âWhat are you up to with all this?â Satoru calls as you dash ahead through the hall. âYouâre being kinda mean, yâknow!â The words are playful, but thereâs an edge in his voice that hints at frustration. So close.
âGet to work, Sa-to-ru!â you call back, skidding around the corner and laughing like a mad man.
As you get deeper into the building exorcising curses, you run into him a few times. He doesnât take advantage or interrupt though, not while youâre both working. The curses have to be dealt with and despite your goading and teasing, his priorities still lie straight. The exorcisms come first.Â
But heâs worked up, it gets more and more obvious with each passing glance, every sweet smile and brush of your hand on his arm, over his chest and down his abs as you both work your way through the site. Itâs just constant build-up with absolutely no relief, and the tightness of his jaw, the look in his eyes that burns brighter and brighter every time you see him is fuel on this fire that keeps you running from him.
Exorcising curses is fun on its own, and this is just a cherry on top.
Slashing through the last curse, you flick purple ooze from the blade and twirl around to Satoru, standing arms crossed in the doorway with his chin up to look down his nose at you. Shoulders tense, sleeves strained tight over his biceps. He looks like a coil that's been wound just about as tight as it can be, about to burst free with a single touch.
âWhat, not gonna try to run this time?â He asks, voice deep, the words clipped and tinged with irritation.Â
You donât answer. Instead, you close the distance and stop once youâre close enough to feel heat pouring in waves from his body. Your chest barely grazes his sternum before you halt.
Staying silent, your hand glides lightly up his thigh, just grazing the outline of his erection and he sucks in a sharp breath with a shiver. You keep your eyes on his with aânot soâsweet smile.
Satoruâs hand shoots out to grab your waist and pull you flush to him. He leans to bring his face down to yours and says level and low, tone totally in control and contradicting the words coming from his mouth. âYouâre really testing my patience here so whatever little game it is youâre playing, you should wrap it up or Iâll do it for you.â
You tip your head side to side before meeting his bright eyes again with a smirk. âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â You wriggle out of his grip and dash off through the door to zip through a string of random rooms, hearing a long and very unimpressed sigh as you leave Satoru behind.
Every step is another shovel of dirt youâre digging in your own grave right now but you just canât help it. If he doesnât want you fucking with him he should stop being so much fun to fuck with.
There's a heart pounding adrenaline in being hunted. Knowing you won't wind up deadâprobablyâif you get caught doesn't dull the feeling. There's something wild and untamed in Satoru. It's something deep and stifled in his everyday life, only surfacing when he allows it to. But you've seen it in brief moments, and you know that if you keep urging and provoking, it'll surface. The idea is nerve-wracking in a way that surges like electricity.Â
Seeing a side of him that most don't even live to tell the tale of.
Poking a beast and sticking around for the consequences is certainly one way to get a thrill.Â
You make it out to the car again and slow to a quick walk as you approach Ijichi. He looks up from his phone, âOh, finished already? That one was quite fast.â
Nodding with a bright smile at Ijichi and completely ignoring the looming presence behind you, âYup! I think I got most of them again, I know he just got back but Satoru is really slacking off today.â
He scoffs behind you, âExcuse me?â
You whirl around and cover your smile with a hand, âOh! I didnât see you there. Sorry, but itâs kind of true, slacker.â You wink.
He drags his tongue over his teeth and narrows his eyes, glaring at you silently. Well, that was probably the final nail in your coffin.
Satoru looks at Ijichi, pushing his glasses back up to sit high on his face. âAnything else for today?â
Ijichi checks his phone again before looking back to you both, âThat was the last site set up for today. Itâs still pretty early though, I can see if thereâs anythingââ
âNo,â Satoru cuts him off and opens the rear driver door to take his seat. âLetâs go.â
Ijichi looks at you and lifts his brows, you shrug and walk around to the passenger side.
Oh yeah, that was the last straw. You are fuckedâliterally and figuratively.
You pull out your phone again when you all start driving back and check the last message heâd sent. Another jolt of lightning surges through and you shiver a little.
[2:29PM] Satoru: alright then. hope ur ready for this
Are you playing with fire right now? Abso-fucking-lutely. Are you going to stop? Hell fucking no. Not when this is going exactly how youâd hoped.
Scrolling through your phone, you find what youâre looking for and hit send.Â
[3:36PM] Me: [IMG.]
Another photo, not from today, but itâs downright lewd and has just the effect you want.
His phone dings and he lets out a frustrated sigh, then the shift of his uniform as he pulls his phone out.Â
You glance back at him in the mirror and watch as he opens the message, eyes going round for a moment before he groans and lets his head fall back, muttering something you can't quite hear. He takes a deep, contemplating the choices of his life that led him here breath, then looks back down at his phone.Â
Lips pursed, his jaw works as he stares down for a few seconds before looking back up over his glasses and meeting your eyes in the mirror.
Your gaze averts quickly and you start chatting with Ijichi again, keeping the conversation going the entire way back to the school and not once looking back at Satoru. He doesn't respond to the message. The total and uncharacteristic silence from him makes a twinge of dread work though you. You can taste how thick the tension in the air is and it almost makes you feel guilt too.
But heâll get revenge, once he can catch you, that is.Â
Back at the school, you wait for Satoru to get out first this time and leave your katana in the car as you step out, then turn and bend at the waist to grab your blade, and shut the door with a flip of your hair, strutting off. Katana in hand and not looking back once.
âIâm done, weâre going home the second this report is finished, so donât bother trying to run again.â He mutters behind you. It's a warning, a command. You stifle a laugh and keep walking towards the main building.
Like thatâs gonna happen, he should know you better at this point.
Walking through the courtyard, youâre in a âtime outâ zone of sorts. Even though he jokes around and acts flippant about it, he takes his job seriously enoughâboth teaching and as a working sorcererâto be somewhat professional on campus.
The perfect opportunity presents itself.Â
Yaga, I fucking owe you one.
He stops Satoru in the hall of the main building to ask something about the upcoming exchange event and you pick up your pace. Not running, but walking as fast as humanly possible. You glance back over your shoulder to see Satoru, jaw clenched and mouth pulled in a tight, hard line, and whip your head back around.
He looks like youâre about to get murdered.Â
Ohhh shit! How long do you dare keep it up? Should you let him catch you?
Naaah.
You make it to the end of the hall and round the corner before breaking into another sprint, running into a classroom and hopping out the window to make a mad dash across the courtyard towards the student dorms.
Bursting through the front door, you shut it behind you and hurry to the empty third year section, passing Nobara and Megumi with a wave that they return with confusion on their faces.
You make it to the first empty room and slide down to sit on the floor on the opposite side of the bed to the door. Steadying your breathing, you lie in wait. The window just ahead is the only escape, but itâs within reach ifâwhenâyou need it.
Heavy footsteps in the dorm send a surge of electricity through and you laugh quietly.
Not quietly enough though because a moment later the door bangs open.
You startle a little at the loud noise and jump to your feet with a look over your shoulder, about to dive through the window. But Satoru is right there and very unimpressed. A squeal escapes as you grip the ledge and haul yourself through the window.
âAh, got you." Before you can somersault over, your ankle is caught in a strong grip and the escape is halted. "Hope you had your fun, because I am beyond done now.â
You flail and brace with one palm out to keep from hitting your face on the outer wall.
Dangling out the window, one hand over your skirt to pull it down and keep from flashing the woods the dorms back onto, you keep your charade going.Â
âOh, hey, whatâs up? I was just-agh!â He yanks you up and through the window again. A breath whooshes out as he tosses you over his shoulder, and turns back to march out of the room. âSatoru! What are you doââ
âI must be going crazy because I told you not to run, didnât I? Quit fucking squirming, youâre not gonna like what happens if I have to chase you down again.â He growls and his grip on your leg tightens, arm wrapped over the other to pin you in place.
You pass by Nobara and Megumi again and gape at them. Feeling a furious flush on your face as they stare back in shock, blinking a few times like whatever theyâre seeing might be a hallucination. If the poor kids werenât traumatized already, they certainly are now.
Youâve clearly shattered whatever sense of decency Satoru had been holding onto by taking off again after explicitly telling you not to, and he has now lost the will to give a shit in front of the first years.Â
âThis is so inappropriate!â you hiss at him as he pushes the door open with his foot.
He scoffs, âIâm being inappropriate?â His hand slides up your thigh and his thumb swipes up your bare slit. âJust what the hell is this if not inappropriate?â
You gasp and grip the back of his jacket. Your thighs squeeze together, trapping his hand in place and he laughs.Â
He makes it back out to the courtyard and halts right in the middle. You feel it, energy surges, space distorts, and in a blink, youâre at home. Well, youâre on the street just outside the building and luckily it seems that nobody is around to notice you both appearing from thin air.
Youâd usually say something about the risk involved when warping into public spaces, but you get the feeling that chiding Satoru right now might result in you actually getting murdered. So you stay silent as he takes you up to your apartment, still carrying you over his shoulder like a towel or a dead animal and ignoring the looks from a few of your neighbors in the lobby.Â
The man has negative shame.
How the hell are you ever going to face these people again?
He kicks the door shut behind him, marches right to the bedroom and throws you down on the bed. Coming down fast on top of you with hands on either side of your head. Your lips purse, eyes wide as you search your own reflection in his glasses.Â
Slowly, you reach to lift them off his face. He licks his teeth, brilliant blue eyes narrowed and glaring silently.
âGot anything you want to say to me?â He says finally and pulls back to sit up, kneeling between your legs. Your lips stay shut tight, keeping silent as his eyes flicker down to where the skirt has ridden up and he huffs a single short laugh. âReally? No comments about anything else inappropriate?â
The words get stuck in your throat with bright blue eyes roving up and down. Hunger, irritation, and something wild that you don't know if you've ever seen.Â
Did I go too far?Â
Your mouth opens, and promptly shuts when he meets your eyes again.
âDonât try to act all innocent now, this is what you wanted, right?â He sneers, âCalling me a fucking slacker, in front of Ijichi too? You really wanted to piss me off, huh?â His hand drifts dangerously high on your thigh, fingers dragging along skin, the touch not gentle as it usually is from him.
You swallow and smile. âTo be fair, you were slacking off a little.â The glare intensifies, he clicks his tongue and you feel like you might just disintegrate under the weight of it all.Â
He pulls back again and stands up, running a hand through his hair and eyeing you. âI knew something was up when you said we were going out together, but I thought you just missed me, wanted to spend some time with me. Not fuck around and get me riled up at work. Tch, what do I do with you now.â It isnât a question as he shakes his head like youâre a disobedient student in need of reprimanding. Or punishment.
Oh god, why is it⊠kind of hot?Â
Noâabsolutely hot.
A shiver works through as you sit up, pulling your legs under to kneel on the bed, hands folded in your lap and staring silently with wide eyes up at him. Feigning innocence you definitely have no room for.
Satoru laughs, throwing his head back to stare at the ceiling. âYou are unbelievable,â He looks back at you, eyes bright and wild and lips curved in a filthy grin. He motions with two fingers. âStand up, come here, now.â
You obey and move to stand in front of him, he pops the buttons on your uniform jacket and practically tears it off, tossing it onto the dresser. He yanks your shirt off to throw on top of the jacket and presses closer, stepping forward and using his body to force you back down on the bed. He grabs your legs and throws you farther up. The skirt stays on, for now.
Your legs draw together as you lift up on your elbows to watch him unzip his own jacket and shrug it off. The usual black compression shirt hugs him but it only stays on for a moment before he tugs it off too. Both are discarded onto the growing laundry pile on the dresser.Â
His whole body is tense, coiled tight like a spring. Shoulders hiked, biceps flexed, veins pressed up under pale skin, big hands in loose fists at his sides, toned chest rising and falling in short breaths. Like a predator ready to pounce.
He absolutely catches you staring and clicks his tongue at your smile before crawling back over, settling his hips between your thighs and holding himself up with a hand beside your head, the other gliding firmly up your bare side. His face drops to yours. Lips pressing hard, your mouth opens for him as his tongue forces inside in a dominating, suffocating kiss.
The buckle on his belt digs into the soft skin low on your stomach and you whimper into his mouth at the cold bite of the metal, pushing at his hips to lift him. But he groans deep in his throatâalmost a growl againâand pushes harder against you.
Finally Satoru pulls back and sits up again, lifting your leg to rest on his shoulder and dragging his mouth down your calf, grazing with his teeth and nipping harshly at the skin, eyes drifting down between your legs.
His hand follows his gaze and he glides a finger up your slit, just light enough to wet it with the slick leaking out and he hisses through his teeth. âLook at that, absolutely soaked. It turns you on, huh? Making me chase you around like a fucking animal?â He grits against your leg, biting down hard.
You bite down on your lip to stifle the noise threatening to tear out of your throat and Satoru leans down close to your face, pressing your leg to your chestÂ
âNo, donât bother trying to act shy now. I know what you want and I know youâre just gonna do it all over again to get it if I donât break you right here and now.â He says, low and in control, but it sounds like a threat, his usually bright eyes dark and locked on yours.
âI know you, so donât pretend like you didnât have a little fun too.â You roll your eyes, still holding your ground. Why? You love sweet, kind and caring Satoru, but maybe you enjoy watching this barely tethered part of him snap free a little bit more every time you push him.
âSee?â He hisses in your face, teeth bared and jaw clenched hard. âRight back at it. Never thought I'd say this, but you need a hard lesson on respect.â
You choose your next words carefully, knowing youâre walking a very thin line right now.
âSo youâre gonna break me, huh? Teach me a lesson? How exactly do you plan on doing that? Hey⊠sensei?âÂ
He chuckles, the sound is condescending and wicked and he sits up again, âWell, youâre obviously dying for me to play with you, so lets fucking play, baby.â Those words send something akin to fear tingling up your spine, but itâs hotter and settles deep. Itâs anticipation. Excitement.Â
He stands up and you lean up on your elbows again, biting your lip and staring shamelessly as his hands move to undo his belt. Your breath catches as he tugs the black leather free from his waistband and runs the length of it through his hand.Â
His dress pants drop the slightest bit without the belt, the black waistband of his boxers visible now. Even more of the hard, curved lines at his hips visible now too. Same with the soft trail of white hair that descends from his navel to disappear into his waistband.Â
You drag your eyes up slowly to meet his gaze, lingering over every inch of his infuriatingly perfect body and taking your time knowing the second you look him in the eye and speak, itâs so fucking over.
Your knees draw up and press together, smirking as you finally meet his darkened eyes and sealing your fate, you open your mouth to say, âWhat are we playing? I know you like Go but that's kind of an old person game.â
A smile curves his lips and it drips with wicked intent. âKeep talking if itâll make you feel better about this, but you know Iâm right.â He steps forward, belt in hand and grabs your ankle to yank you down the bed to him. A yelp escapes and he laughs at that, towering over with the cruel smirk still teasing the corner of his mouth.
âArms up.â He demands and youâre a little embarrassed by how quickly you oblige.
He grips both wrists in one hand and fastens the belt around them, tugging the loop tight and secure before sliding an arm around your waist to lift you higher up on the bed again.
You watch his face as he works, brow furrowed while he ties the long end of the belt onto the headboard. He gives it a quick tug and grunts in approval.
Your skin buzzes as he trails his hand down your arm, fingers lightly gliding down to trace the swell of your breast, dragging down the curve of your waist, his eyes following the smooth trail of his hand.
He meets your eyes and you bite back a smile, his gaze narrows and he gets up off the bed to walk back to the dresser and grab his jacket. Keeping his back to you as he digs in the pocket and pulls something out.
Your heart races and you lift your head to peer at what heâs holding. But it starts hammering when Satoru turns around, blindfold hooked over a finger.
You blink and stare at each other for a few seconds before he cocks his head. Realization settles in and you lick your lips and nod slowly.
âI donât believe for a single second that youâre speechless already, use your words.â He commands and again, youâre almost embarrassed by how quickly you react.
You nod again, quickly this time and kick yourself at how frantically the words come out. âMhm! Yes, th-thatâs okayâtotally okay!â
âYes, what?â
Ohh, so it's like that.
The tone immediately changes. Control here changes hands real fucking fast.
âY-yes, sir.â It comes out quiet and breathless. âPlease, put it on me.â
âGood girl.â He murmurs and approaches again. Your walls flutter around absolutely nothing at the praise and your breath catches again.
He tucks your hair behind your ears, the caress almost lovingly gentle. But his eyes are still dark and you catch that filthy devious smile curve his mouth before the blindfold slips over your eyes and youâre enveloped by darkness.
Satoru stays by your side for a moment, fixing your hair around the blindfold and pulling a few pieces free from the fabric before he retreats.
Heâs tied you up before, but youâve never worn his blindfold. It feels so much more intimate. The accessory is such a personal thing. The material is soft and lighter than it looks while still blocking any light from infiltrating. It sits firmly in place but it isnât tight, just comfortable. Makes sense that it would be since he has to wear it so much.
His hand lands on your thigh and you jump a little at the sudden contact, tugging against the restraint.
âHowâs that? Everything feel okay?â He murmurs and his lips graze the shell of your ear. You startle again and inhale sharply, but you nod. âWhat did I just say?â He whispers harshly against your ear again and his fingers dig hard into your leg.
You stutter as you scramble to answer. âY-yes! Yes, sir! Itâs goodâit all feels⊠good.â Swallowing hard and breathing just as hard, your head rests back against the pillow.
Satoru hums his approval and retracts his hand. Thereâs a shuffling near the dresser and then itâs silent for a few moments before a match strikes. You swallow hard at the faint scent of smoke that blooms in the air.Â
When Satoru approaches again, his hands trail over your entire body. Grazing down your arms, your legs, over your stomach, across your mouth, catching your lower lip to pull your mouth open. Chuckling lightly when you tense or jolt or gasp at the sudden contact. Your skin feels like it's on fire, every touch works to set you alight.
The anticipation of where heâll be next, touch you next, itâs absolutely exhilarating.
He's in total and complete control right now, you can do nothing but brace for anything and everything he feels you deserve, and that he deigns to give.
Goosebumps prickle across your chest as he traces a nipple, giving the peak a flick. âYou remember the word, right?â
âYes, sir.â
âSay it then.â
âYoake.â Dawn, daybreak.
He hums in approval. âGood. Use it if you need to, because I'm not going to be gentle. But thatâs exactly what you want, right?â Itâs not a question. One finger drags up your stomach, so lightly itâs barely a touch and you shiver. Over your sternum, up your throat. âOpen.â you do, dropping your jaw and his thumb hooks into your mouth, pressing your tongue down. He grips your chin and shakes your head once. âWhat do you think you deserve right now?âÂ
All you can do is fight the tremble trying to shake your whole body. You canât answer, not with the sting of his nail pressing into your tongue. A strangled noise like a hum pulls from the back of your throat as he shakes your head again and presses harder.Â
âNo? Got nothing to say now?â His breath hits your face, hot and harsh and you flinch, a whimper escaping. âWell, I guess itâs up to me then.â
His thumb leaves your mouth and you gasp a breath, swallowing the saliva pooled under your tongue. But his hand grips your face again, squishing your cheeks and forcing your lips into a pout. âYou want me to play rough, right? Give you a punishment deserving of a slut who walks around flashing her cunt?â
The cruel words hit with shame and burning heat and go straight to your core. Another whimper escapes from your throat, barely making it past your lips forced open. Your legs shake on the bed, knees pressed together to keep from knocking.Â
âOf course youâd like that too, so fucking dirty.â He chuckles, the sound dark and close to your face. He shakes your head again. âAnswer me, slut.â
âYesh⊠shir.â you barely make the words out through pouted lips.
âYesh shir what? Use your fucking manners.â He mocks with another shake, squeezing your face harder, knowing heâs making it more difficult to speak. But he doesnât care.
âYesh⊠plâs, shir.â He laughs again and your face burns with embarrassment. The shame is hot and mixes with arousal stirring deep as you tremble on the bed.
âThere we go, that wasnât so hard, was it?â He croons, loosening his grip on your face but not letting go. âWrithing around, so slutty, so desperate for me, huh? You mustâve really missed me. Tell me how much.â
âI-Iâyes, I missed you. So much, I-I missed you so much, Satoââ
âAh, no, not that.â He cuts you off, gripping your face hard again. âTry again.â
He loosens his hand on your face and you swallow before speaking again. âI missed you so much, sir. Hate it when you leave.âÂ
âOhh, I know you do, baby. Now, tell me what you want.â you donât answer right away, not sure what exactly to say. What exactly do you want? But holding your silence when Satoru has asked a question is a mistake you donât catch fast enough. âDonât make me force it out of you. Say it, slut.â
âI-I want you, need you, sir. Please.âÂ
âNeed me to what? Touch you? Fuck you? Make you come? Youâre being a bit vague.â He clicks his tongue in disapproval.Â
âAll of it⊠anything, please, sir.â It comes out more pitched, whinier than you mean and he laughs again, enjoying watching you squirm under the weight of embarrassment at being rendered to a state like this.
âMmm, anything I want, huh? Be careful saying things like that, especially when I donât feel like being nice.â
Lips press to yours, hard and forceful and just for a moment before pulling away and taking all contact with him. Itâs worse, so, so much worse, the total absence of him. The shake is uncontrollable now and you start to feel cold with his hand gone.Â
But it doesnât last long.
A sharp and startled yelp sounds out as youâre flipped onto your stomach. Your hands twist in the belt and it tightens around your wrists, digging in harder. Satoru laughs as you lift your face out of the pillow and gasp a breath. But he forces you back down, burying your face back into the soft pillowcase. A hard hand grips your hip and hauls you up into a kneel, sliding the other from the back of your head to the small of your back, pushing you into an arch.
âI think I know what you need,â Satoru starts, sliding his hand from your hip over your ass, down the back of your thigh. âGetting me worked up like that, I think that calls for a spanking, no?âÂ
He halts, and you realize he's waiting for an answer, he wouldn't do it without your okay. He's waiting for permission.
How very... sweet, and so Satoru.
Your face turns to inhale a long breath and you nod once. "Yes, sir. You're so right."
"Ohh, I know I am." He laughs. His hand glides back up, barely skimming the heat between your thighs. âTch, fucking skirt,â He flips it up and out of the way, leaving your backside bare and exposed and you wiggle a little, but the hand on your spine presses down hard and holds fast. âDonât move. Unless you want to make this harder than it has to be?â
âNo. Iâm sorry, sir.â you whisper, settling into the arch and giving into the command in his voice, in his hands as they travel.Â
âHow many times did you kiss and touch me on the job today?â Satoruâs hand glides up your spine to wind into your hair, pulling to lift your head. âGive me a number, Iâll decide if I agree with what you think.â
Your brain wracks. You know itâs not random, he wants a number for this. Fuck, how many times? More than you can probably handle.
âI-Iâum, I-I donâtââ
âWrong answer,â Fuck. âSo slutty, canât even remember how many times you pushed your ass up on me, touched my dick, fucked with me.â He grits out, the frustration in his jaw audible.
He releases your hair and shoves your face back down. âKeep count and youâll find out. If you can last, that is.â The hand replaces on your spine, pressing firmly. âReady for your punishment, slut?âÂ
You take a few breaths with your face turned again. Being spoken to like this, put in a position so exposed with sight and all control taken away, itâs humiliation. It burns hot, the lack of any option but to submit completely and take whatâs given. It all goes straight to your core, making your hips cant back into Satoruâs hand as it glides over your ass in whatâs probably the final soft touch thatâll land there.Â
You knew he could be a little wild, a little freaky, but this is all new. Youâve never seen a side like this, but you went poking around for something different and certainly found it. You had no idea just how harsh he could get, and just how much you'd like it.
âYes, sir. Iâm ready.â Itâs not a lie, you are ready, but the blow that comes nearly knocks the wind from you. You gasp a few breaths as the sting blooms hot on your left cheek. âHoly fu-fuck⊠one, s-sir.â
The next lands on the right this time and you choke on your own breath. He hits hard and you can barely get the words out with a stutter making your teeth clack. âT-t-two, s-sâah!â The third lands before you even finish, on the left again and the sting there is brutal. Your teeth clench and you grit out the words heâs waiting for. âF-fuckâohh myâfuck⊠th-three, sir.â
The heat, the sting, the silent command and the submission. It all seeps low and pools, molten arousal making your hips lift up and arch further. Fuck. You like it. And Satoru can tell.
A low laugh slips out with the fourth smack, on your right again and you hiss through your clenched teeth and push into his hand, unable to stop the motion before your body makes it. âF-f-fâmnh! Ohh god...â A single finger glides up your slit, wet and dripping slick with every blow.
âKeep count,â He reminds, gliding back down with almost no pressure.
âS-sorry, godâfuck⊠four, s-sir.â
âLook at you, this wet just from a few spankings. Is it even a punishment if you like it this much? Should I go harder?â He asks playfully and the words send a jolt through that makes you scramble. Harder?!Â
âN-no! No, sirâI-I swear Iâmnh!â your eyes flutter behind his blindfold as the pad of his finger presses to your clit, the dull ache in your center lifts slowly as he circles. Â
âDonât lie to me, your slutty little cunt is leaking.â
âN-no, I s-swâagh! F-fi-five, s-sir.â He caresses your angry, probably red as fuck already left cheek. Even just that soft touch makes you hiss, the skin is so overheated and raw already.
âSo you're telling me I'm wrong?âÂ
âNo, I-I justââ
âSo Iâm right? You do like it?â
âN-no, I-Iâmotherf-ugh!â
âI donât want to hear another ânoâ from you again, understand? How many?â His hand traces lightly over your right cheek. You canât help it. Your hips rock back.
âYes, I-I understand. Six⊠sir.â
âGood girl.â He purrs the praise and itâs like he's pouring sweet soothing honey onto your overheated skin. A moan falls from your lips, jaw dropped and eyes rolling back as three fingers press to your cunt. The ring and index spread your lips wide and the middle teases your entrance, barely pushing in. your wrists strain against the leather of the restraint as you push back into his hand. But his other still on your spine presses down and holds fast.Â
âAh, I said not to move, didnât I? Do you want me to stop?â
âNââ You cut yourself off and rethink the words. His hand stills, waiting for your response. âIâm sorry, sir. Pl-please donât stop.âÂ
He hums a laugh, sounding pleased at the decision to rework your words. Pleased at your compliance, your eagerness. Finally, his finger pushes in. your jaw drops again and a pitched moan bubbles from your throat. Your legs shake as you fight the urge to rock back again, letting him set pace and depth.
The hand on your spine slides up, pressing and rubbing into your shoulders as he fucks you on the other hand. Your lip catches in your teeth as his lips touch your spine, trailing up with light kisses.Â
âGood girl. Doing so good, baby. So tight, so wet, so greedy.â Satoru grips your hair again, pulling your head back up to murmur into your ear. âTell me, baby, who does this slutty pussy belong to?â
It takes every ounce of control in you not to push into each thrust of his hand as he starts to twist that finger with every drag in and out.
âYou, sir.â
âSay it.â
Your face burns, but when his hand stills and his grip tightens in your hair, shame is tossed aside and you blurt the words out. âFuck, my-my slutty pussy belongs to you, sir! Mnnhâhahh!â A second finger slides in and forces another moan out, the sound strangled with your head pulled back.
The dull ache quickly fades. The pain still stinging your ass mixes with the belt on your wrists and the fullness of two thick digits fucking into you steady. Quickly drawing you close to the edge of release as a reward for the compliance.Â
âYou want me to make you come, yeah?âÂ
So fucking close. Heat curls and tightens low in your stomach, you nod. âMmmâyes⊠please, sir.â Closer, pressure builds and builds. Your thighs shake with each drag in and out as it crests andâ
Satoru quickly pulls his hand away just as you start to clench and you choke on a sob, your eyes prick and you squeeze them shut to force wet streams out that dampen the material of his blindfold. The screeching halt replaces pleasure and pressure with a hot, pulsing ache that borders pain. You barely get two full seconds before another blow lands on your right cheek. A cry rips from your throat with the fresh sting and more tears slip out as you pull on the belt, trying to curl in.
Satoru laughs, low and dark and amused. âToo bad, you get to come when I say so. Keep count, donât make me remind you again.â
Your chest heaves as you take a ragged breath. âS-seven⊠sir.âÂ
âOhh, you crying?â Satoru croons, close to your face again and you bite your lip to stop the tremble. âGo ahead, you can cry if you need to. Youâre doing so good, baby, taking your punishment like such a good girl.âÂ
The eighth blow lands hard and all you can do is whimper. The sting, the aching loss of climax, the praise, it all whites your brain out. âEight⊠sir.â you pant out, breaths coming short and fast.
Nine lands with more pleasure than pain and you push your ass into his hand. âNine⊠sâah! Mmâfuck⊠te-tenâŠsi-sir.â The back to back blows are rewarded. Two fingers slide back into your heat and you moan, spine bowing to lift your hips. The switch, the back and forth from stinging pain to singing pleasure. From cruel, humiliating words, to sweet, soft praises. Itâs all dizzying, fucking with your head in a way that feels psychological.Â
Your legs shake as you try your damn best not to move too much, to let control be taken and the pace set for you as Satoru fucks you on his hand however he sees fit.
âI can feel it,â Satoru sucks a sharp breath through his teeth, slowing to catch every flutter as he drags out, just to add a third finger and push back in. Agonizingly slow, but the stretch to accommodate three thick digits is eyerolling. He flexes deep and at this point, anything he does will push you back up to the edge. âYou want to come so bad, right? Such a desperate fucking slut.â
A whine slips out as pressure curls, the crude name melting into the heat coiling deep. He speeds up again and your breaths come in faster, shorter. Will he let me this time? Your hips jerk, walls tightening as you suck a stuttering breath in. So close. So, so close. Just one moreâ
You donât even try to hold in the wet sob that heaves through as he yanks his hand away again. âFu-fuck!â your shoulders shake with a fresh stream of tears that surge and spill. The ache is unbearable this time, like a punch to the gut. The eleventh smack lands and it doesnât even compare. âEle-even⊠sir.âÂ
Twelve, thirteen, fourteen and fifteen all combine with the sharp ache, like grating a wet stone against a dull blade to hone it into something deadly. Slick drips down your trembling thighs, smearing and spreading as they slide together uncomfortably, the minute friction providing no relief. Between each blow, he caresses. Everywhere but your needy, desperate cunt, and it just builds on the frustration that simmers. A sheen of sweat clings to your overheated skin, catching cool air uncomfortably. Itâs no relief, it just stings.
âYou look fucked out, baby,â Satoru says softly as a wide palm slides up your spine, fingers splaying between your shoulder blades. âBut I havent even fucked you yet. You can keep going though, right?â
You swallow against something thick and sticky in your throat and nod. âY-yes, sir.â You donât dare let it slip.Â
âWhat a perfect little slut, youâd let me do anything I want to you. Youâd do anything for me, right?â The words purred right in your ear send a jolt through that makes your cunt pulse around nothing because heâs right. Youâd do anything for him. The thought is terrifying, exhilarating, liberating in a way. Knowing heâs in complete control and all you have to do is obey. Your head can spin and white out because you donât have to decide.Â
âIâm going to ruin you, and youâre such a fucking slut that youâre going to love it when I do.â It sounds just like another fact when he says it, indisputable. Like saying the sky is blue, or that Gojo Satoru is the strongest sorcerer.Â
He retreats again and a shake wracks through your whole body at the absence of his hand, his body heat as he stands near. You sag into the bed, letting the weight of your arms hang from the restraint. An already exhausted whimper slips out, it sounds so pathetic when it hits your ears. You feel pathetic, whining, crying, trembling, all of it for more, more of him.
âShh, itâs okay. Iâm right here, baby.â A hand on your head, petting, giving quiet reassurance. âTell me, my little slut, how many of those spankings did you deserve?âÂ
âA-all of them⊠sir.âÂ
âThatâs right, good girl. How many more do you think you deserve?â
Your lip trembles and you swallow with a shaky inhale. More? Fuck. The sting of the raw skin on your ass is a constant buzz now, but it pales in comparison to the sharp twisting ache in your core at two orgasms being ripped away right at their peak. What does he want me to say? How many, what number is he looking for? How many more can I even take?Â
âI-I⊠IâmââÂ
âShh, itâs alright,â His thumb brushes over your flushed cheek, wiping at the wet edge of his blindfold. âI know, you canât even think right now. Fucked stupid and you havenât even taken my cock.â
A sharp, quick cry rips from your throat and your whole body twists away as something like liquid fire drizzles down your back. Every movement makes the liquid split into new molten trails. Wax. it pools in the depression of your spine and hardens as it starts to cool despite the burning heat of your skin.
âToo much? Use your word if you need to, I won't be disappointed.â He caresses your head again, clearing a few strands of hair sticking to your face. The touch is so sweet, his words are so kind. You lean into his hand, breathing deep and hard as the wax cools and hot pain subsides.
âIâm-Iâm okay⊠itâs not too much, sir.â
Your compliance is rewarded and your cunt twitches the moment two fingers glide up. Youâre on the verge of exploding with aching need. Knowing he wants noise, you donât hold back your moan.Â
âTell me, baby girl, how good does it feel?â Heâs close to your face again and his hot breath mixes with yours as you pant. He slides in deep and flexes. Ache starts to subside, pressure replacing it and you babble without thinking.
âSo good. Feel-feels so, so good, sir. Fu-fuck, the best! Please, please, please, I-Iââ
âThe best? Better than my cock?â He teases, the tone playfully mocking. Asshole. Satoruâs hand speeds up, two fingersâmiddle and ringâfucking into your twitching cunt and you struggle to think, stuttering a response out quickly just to say something.
âI-I didnât meanâI donâtâI-I justâf-fuck I love your cock! N-nothing is better, I-I justâplease fuck, please I-I need toââ
âOhh, you love my cock, huh?â He asks on a laugh. âNot more than you love me though, right?â His hand pulls back just enough to slide a third finger in again. A few curses choke out as he pushes in so fucking deep and spreads them. It draws you back up, aching tension twisting with the pressure, curling in your core and tightening. âYou sound so pretty begging like that. Do it again, slut.â
Your mind is in five hundred places, and nowhere all at once and words spill out without thought or hesitation as the first pulsing wave hits. So close.Â
âP-please, please, please, I-I need it. Please, please let me come, Satoââ
âWrong again,â He rips his hand away so fast the shock of loss hurts. Unable to do anything but writhe and shake and choke on sobbed curses as stabbing pain worse than ever twists and spreads. It radiates from your coreâstill pulsing around nothing, but its useless, release is goneâup your spine and down your legs. Your head is fuzzy, dizzy from the darkness and being pushed and pulled from pain and degradation, to pleasure and praise.
You could stop it all right now, but you donât want to. You want everything that this twisted side of Satoru has to give, even if it hurts.Â
His hand smooths your hair, petting softly again. âI know it hurts, baby girl. Tell me what you need.â
âI-I need to co-come⊠sir.â you get it right this time and he hums above you, sounding pleased and amused.
âAsk meânicely, and maybe Iâll let you.â His other hand drags up your thigh, over your abused ass, and back down. Itâs soft, but it lights up the hot sting again and you wince.
âPlease, sir, please let meâm-make me come. Please Iâll do anything just please, please, please fuck⊠le-letâlet meââ
âYeah, I bet youâd do anything. I told you to be careful saying things like that, Iâm still not feeling very nice.â He brushes your hair back, exposing your neck. His lips press to the flushed skin of your throat and his hair tickles your cheek.Â
âYou look so perfect like this, baby. Maybe Iâll just leave you tied up here. You can be my perfect little toy to fuck whenever I want.â Those words send a fresh jolt of lightning through and you gasp, but he just keeps going, nipping hard between words. âWho knows⊠maybe Iâll finally fuck a baby into you, too. Bet youâd like that, wouldnât you, slutty girl?âÂ
The heat that gathers is so confusing. The idea of being locked up and bred is heart pounding, but your head isnât together enough to tell your body not to react. Your back arches a little more, your cunt clenches and a sigh escapes that pitches like a moan.Â
Well⊠thatâs new. This psychological mind fuck is doing some weird shit⊠would you like it?
âOhh my fucking god,â Satoru laughs, throwing his head back. âYou totally would, wouldnât you? Well, I canât lie, I like the sound of that too. Keeping you here, putting my baby in youâmaybe a few actually. But Iâm just fucking with you, itâs only fair, right?â
Without warning, youâre flipped over onto your back again. Your ass hits the bed and your teeth clench, lifting up to take the pressure off. The buttons on your skirt pop and Satoru pulls it off, you hear it land somewhere across the room. Still completely deprived of sight, the flip was disorienting. The only thing grounding you right now is Satoru, and you have no idea where he is now.
âS-Satoââ
âShh, I'm right here. Just relax, spread your legs for me.â
Your lip catches in your teeth and you hesitate, knees still drawn together and thighs clenched. Your whole body is on fire, face burning with embarrassment at the command. But you've done the wrong thing, again.
Your cheeks squish in his grip and he shakes your head. âDonât make me ask twice. Do it, slut.â you swallow down pride and shame and slide your feet apart on the sheets, opening your legs. âMore.â you comply, widening further. The grip on your face eases, his thumb traces over your mouth. âJust like that, pretty girl.â
A firm slap lands right on your cunt, sending a jolt of white hot lightning through and it steals the air right from your lungs. No sound comes from your open mouth as you fight your legs from closing around his hand stilled between them. The slap itself isnât really painful, but it sharpens the ache that had started to dull back into something that stabs in your gut and you tremble again.
âIs this everything you were hoping for?â Heâs close again, breath hitting your face. âAm I being rough enough to satisfy your sick little game of getting me fucking feral in hopes that I fuck your slutty lights out?â
Your mouth opens but before you can say a word, his lips press to yours in a deep, hard kiss. His tongue is hot as it pushes in, sliding against yours.Â
âI'm sorry, sir⊠Iâm-I'm sorry.â When he pulls back it's all you can do, just apologize, because you can't deny that he's right.Â
âNo, no, donât lie to me,â He straightens and takes the hand between your legs with him. âYouâre not sorry at all.â
There's movement just above your head and you feel his hands work as he undoes the knot tying his belt to the headboard. He loops the tail around your wrists and tucks it in, leaving it to hang between your hands.
âThink you can stand up?â He asks, pulling you to sit up by the tail. You nod and feel around for the edge of the bed. Satoru helps you find it and your feet plant on the floor. The second your weight shifts to stand, your legs wobble and give out and you fall flat back on your sore ass.Â
âYeah, I didn't think so.â He chuckles, âIt's alright, come here, put your arms up.â You do as he says and your arms rest over his bare shoulders, wrists bound behind his head. He lifts you up, hands under your thighs as he moves. You can't tell what he's doing, where he's going, but he took his pants off at some point because his cock is free and pressed between you both. Your knees hit the bed again and hands move to your hips.
âArms up,â He shifts under you and pulls you forward. Your hands shoot out for balance and find his chest as your pussy drags over almost the full length of his cock. The friction against your clit pulls a guttural noise from your throat.Â
âAlright, here's what's gonna happen, baby girl, if you want to come so badly, you're going to work for it. You understand what I'm saying, right?â
Oh fucking finally.
âYes, I-I understand, sir.â
âGo ahead then,â your hips lift, but with your hands still bound and the blindfold still on, youâre struggling to even get started. A frustrated noise slips out as you shift around and try to do this hands free like itâs bluetooth. âAww, need a hand?âÂ
With your legs shaking like jello, unable to even see what the fuck youâre doing even if you could line up properly, he knows you do. Asshole. You bite your tongue though, knowing it wonât do you any good to snap.Â
âMhm. Please help, I-I canâtââ
âLift up. Higher.â you lean forward, putting your weight on his chest to do as he says. One hand on your hip adjusts the position and the other must be holding the base of his cock because the tip glides through your folds, rubbing against your clit. The friction sparks white hot and your jaw drops, a whine crawling up from the back of your throat. âAll set, baby girl, go ahead, take what you want.â
Finally, your hips lower and your cunt stretches around the blunt head of his cock.
âOhh my fuckingâhah⊠shit you are sooo fucking tight now.â He hisses, hand gripping your hip hard and just holding as you work him deeper. âHey baby, liked that spanking, huh? Me too. Maybe I'll let you get me worked up like this againâmnnh⊠fuuuck.â He moans as he bottoms out, your walls fluttering around the full length of his cock. Your sore ass meets his thighs and you still for a moment to adjust, panting hard at the fullness.
âThought you wanted to come so bad?â Satoru mocks, âBut maybe you donât want it bad enough.â He smacks your assânot hard, but the sting makes you hiss and rock back into his hand as it grips there.Â
Lifting back up on shaky legs, hands splayed out over Satoruâs flat chest, you slide halfway up and sink back down. Gasping as you roll your hips and rock back, grinding your clit on his pelvis as his cock hits deep and sweet. Your thighs are fucking burning, but you donât dare stop.
âOh shit, ohh thatâs so fucking hot,â He groans, you arch into his hand as he cups your breast. âBaby girl, you should see yourself right now, you look so fucking desperate. Fucking yourself stupid on my cock like a good slut.â He rolls your nipple between his thumb and forefinger hard enough to elicit a little cry. But you don't stop. It goes straight to your cunt, squeezing tight and his cock twitches inside when you grind down. The ache finally starts to lift, and you ignore the protest in your legs to work faster.Â
âYou want it, right? Want me to let you come?âÂ
âYes, pleaseâfuck iâmâmnnhâso-so close⊠please, s-sirâahh.â He squeezes the abused cheek in his hand and you hiss. The sting curls with the heat coiling low, tightening down your abs, pressure blooms in your core and builds higher and tighter. So close.Â
âI know, I can feel it, I can fucking see it. I got a great view here, I can just sit back and watch you fucking wreck your slutty cunt on my cock.â He bucks up as you sink down and hits so fucking deep that with a cry, your whole body seizes, and you finally come.
It hits violently, like a punch. Knocking the wind right from your lungs as your cunt clenches, pulsing around his cock with every wave that tears through. âOhh myâfucking shitâI should get a fucking medal for not just taking you right there in that office.â He moans, both hands tight on your hips. âOhh mnnh⊠but I waited, played your game and caught you fair,â
Your arms lock to keep from falling forward, as you gasp and shudder, twitching and grinding to ride the orgasm out. Satoru shifts under you, rolling his hips up and pressing hard into a spot deep and sensitive. It sends a sharp jolt through and you choke on the noise in the back of your throat, lifting up. But he pulls you back down and bucks up again.Â
âNo, no, itâs my turn, baby girl. I let you take what you needed, and now, I'm going to use your cunt like a fleshlight until I come.â His voice is sweet, dripping saccharine honey. But the words are fucking vile and again, so confusing as your pussy flutters.
What the fuck, Satoru?!
You start to stutter something out but Satoru grips your waist with both hands, lifts, and slams you back down.Â
Your nails scratch and dig into his chest, more tears slipping out, and you grit your teeth as he pulls you down to meet each brutal thrust of his hips. He inhales with a hiss, and lets out a low moan, fucking hard up into you as deep as possible.Â
The sting, the pain, he's getting off on it.
This feels like a punishment and your armsâalready weak and tremblingâgive out. You fall forward with a sob and your chest heaves as your forehead smacks Satoru's shoulder. He doesnât stop or slow, holding you up by the waist and splitting you open with every punishing buck of his hips.
âLook at me, I wanna see your pretty face while I ruin you.â
He's not stopping. He's not slowing. He's getting faster. Your core spasms, oversimulated, with every drag of his cock. You canât do it, you canât answer, you can barely breathe, itâs like heâs punching the air from your lungs.Â
In a flash, up becomes down, down becomes up and you can't tell which of the two you are. Your back hits the bed again. Down then. He rips the blindfold off and you squeeze your eyes shut as blinding light hits your retinas. Fingers wrap around your throat, not squeezing, just holding firmly.Â
âLook at me. Donât make me repeat myself.â He commands low, almost a growl again, grip tightening slightly on your neck to shove you down harder and you blink an eye open.Â
A blurry Satoru looks down at you, angelic for only a moment with an aura of light cast from behind. Your eyes adjust slowly and take in the sight of teeth bared in a manic smile. Usually bright and soft blue eyes dark with blown pupils, wild and wide. A flush tinges his face, pieces of platinum hair stuck to his temples and forehead with sweat.
He looks fucking crazy.
The sight sends lightning up your spine and you shiver. He laughs. Your leg is over his shoulder and you have no idea when that happened.
âTell me, my little slut, am I playing rough enough? You wanted me to chase you like an animal, am I fucking feral enough for you?â He grits out through clenched teeth.
Your head spins and fresh tears spill as Satoru picks up the pace again. Gravity on his side, he fucks into you harder and deeper than before. Another orgasm looms and your core tightens almost painfully.Â
âGonna come again? Mnnhâyeah you are,â He moans, biting his lip. âSuch a good slut, take my cock so fucking perfect. Gonna take my cum too? Yeah you willâohh fu-fuckâta-take my fuckingâahh!â Jaw dropped, his eyes roll, pale lashes fluttering as he slams in balls deep and his cock kicks. His hips stutter, grinding against your cervix and you convulse with his hand tightening around your throat.Â
The second orgasm hits like a fucking truck and a guttural cry tears from your throat. Satoru spills inside as your cunt spasms and milks every drop of hot cum that spurts. He doesnât stop, riding out every last shuddering wave.
When you come back down to earth, Satoru is panting above, finally stilled. His eyes half lidded and softened a little bit, the crazed look faded a little with his orgasm.
Fresh wetness wells in your eyes and streams down to tickle your ears as you blink. The tremble returns and Satoruâs hand moves from your throat, to your cheek, brushing through the salty tracks. âI know, I know, baby girl. Are you okay?â He asks softly, taking your leg off his shoulder. you nod once and he smiles, the one that reaches his eyes to crinkle the edges.
You sniffle and stare up at him, your heart doesnât stop pounding and you know it isnât totally from the thorough workout he just put you through.
âWhat?â He asks softly, laying down flat on top of you and propping himself up on his elbows to not crush you. His body heat leeches into you and his weight eases the tremble.
You shake your head weakly with a small smile. âNothing. Youâre pretty.â
âYeah? Youâre pretty too, but donât think Iâm letting you off the hook if you sweet talk me.â The smile on his face is still sweet, but the little quirk in the corner of his mouth hints at something else. âFeel free to keep it up with the compliments though.â
You bite your lip and let your head roll to the side a little and he seizes the opportunity, kissing down your neck to your collarbone and tracing it back up with his tongue. It makes you shiver and your walls pulse around the cock thatâs still inside and rapidly getting hard again.
Jesus fucking christ. Already?Â
Satoru lifts his head just enough to look at you, his lips against your jaw as he says in that sultry âI know I just came, but Iâm horny againâ voice, âYouâre talking just fine, ready for another one? Sure feels like it.â Just to prove his point he moves to push deeper into you.
You take a shaky breath and nod once. You wince a little as he pulls out, shoving your legs up against your chest. âLook at that,â Satoru exhales, âyouâre making such a mess, baby.â He clicks his tongue at you like heâs not the one that made said mess. Like itâs not his cum dribbling out.
You donât get a moments reprieve. Two fingers push everything back inside, sliding in deep with a steady rhythm and you inhale with a shudder. He pulls them out and your hands are unbound but only for a brief moment. In one smooth motion he flips you over onto your stomach and pulls your arms around behind your back.Â
He loops the belt around, cinching it right around your wrists again. He lifts your hips up and you turn your head to the side to breathe. He tugs the belt, pulling your shoulders back to lean over you. âIâm going to make you come until youâre nothing but a drooling mess. And I see no drool yet, but since youâre a filthy fuckinâ mess, Iâll be nice and clean you up before I ruin you again.â
He shifts back behind you and your jaw drops, a strangled moan catching in the back of your throat as he licks a long stripe up your slit, tongue flat. He groans and grips the back of your thigh, high and pulling to spread you open.Â
âOhh, mnnhâfuck fuck fuck! Sa-Sato-ruuu! I-Iâohh god!â You cry out as Satoruâs tongue slides inside, mouth pressed to your cunt and slurping. Your thighs tremble, his grip tightening around your right to hold you in place and keep you open to him. Tongue flexing and curling to catch the mix of his and your cum. Your hands ball into fists behind your back, toes curling and keening with the way he pushes deeper, grazing with teeth to make you jolt.Â
He glides back down, taking your clit into his mouth to suck and flick and grind his tongue. His face pressed hard against you, nose pushing into your fluttering core with every movement. Already working you quickly back up to the edge, your stomach tightens.Â
Your face buried in the sheets to muffle cries as pressure crests. Your hips buck, pushing back into him and with a groan vibrating against your clit, another orgasm wracks through. He doesnât stop, just keeps sucking and grazing with teeth. Not until you start kicking out, tears streaming again and almost screaming from overstimulation does he pop off.
He pulls you up with one hand on the restraint, snaking around with the other to grip your face and tilt your head back to him. Pressed up to Satoru, his chest and abs warm against your back, his mouth comes down on yours and his tongue pushes in. You taste it immediately. His cum and your slick, his spit, a filthy, creamy mixture that invades your mouth with his tongue.Â
âOpen,â He murmurs as he pulls back. You do, of course, and whine out when he spits a drip of the mix right into your mouth. âFuck, youâre so filthy.â He breathes against your mouth when you swallow it down, your eyes on his as he holds you up with a large hand over your throat.
Satoru shoves you back down, forcing your spine into a mean arch with a palm between your shoulderblades and a firm grip on your hip. âYâknow, I've learned a few things as a teacher,â
âOne of them being that repetition is key to getting a lesson to stick.â He nudges your legs apart with his knee, settling behind you and sliding the head of his cock through your folds before lining himself up again and pressing inside with a groan. âMnnh⊠yeah, I think I need to drill this one into you a few more times.â
One hand grips your hip again, thumb pressing hard into the dimple on your back, the other wrapped in the tail of the belt, using it as leverage to pull you back and meet his hips on every thrust.
You twist and bury your face into the sheets as he slams into you, muffling the moan Satoru forces out. He yanks the belt, pulling your shoulders back. âNo, no, donât hide, baby girl. Look at me, I wanna see your face when I fuck you, wanna hear what you sound like when I break you.â
Hair messy and caught around your face, your cheek presses into the bed as he eases on the belt. âGood girl,â Satoru croons, curling over your back to get in close to your face as he ruts into you. Hips angled just so to drag along the spot that has your mouth hanging open as you gasp for breath. âSo pretty like this, how many more before you canât talk anymore, hmm?â He hums against your neck, lips brushing the pulse point as he clears the strands of hair from your face.
The juxtaposition of the gentle caress of his hand against the punishing pace he sets is dizzying. Fucking into you hard and fast, hitting the perfect angle with each drag through your walls. You want to bury your face again, turn away from the sight of Satoru, the smirk on his parted lips as he breathes hard, sending hot air over your already overheated skin. His eyes lidded and painfully blue with something still wild in them.
But you donât dare look away, not even as pressure coils like a white hot wire in your core and makes your eyes flutter and threaten to close. âF-fuck IâmnhâI-I,â You stutter, not even really sure what youâre trying to say as the pressure builds, your mind going fuzzier with every thrust.Â
What was the question again?Â
âAh! Nghâf-fu-fuck!â Satoruâs arm wraps around, hand dipping between your legs to work dizzying circles on your sensitive clit.
âGo on, say it, say what you want to.â He taunts. Something amused and cruel in his breathy voice as you buck wildly, tears blurring your vision as you choke on gasping breaths. You want to glare and snap something, but youâre coming apart. âNo? Canât talk? That didnât take long.â
Your body shudders, mouth dropped wide open. Your abs tense, hands pulling at the restraint that Satoru holds tight on, unrelenting. He fucks into you as your walls pulse and grip his cock, never slowing. It certainly feels like a punishment as pressure crests and you clench hard, every part of your body going rigid and tense and you freeze.
âOhh yes, fuckinâ come for me baby, god you feel so fucking goodâmnnhâso good, squeeze my cock so, so fucking good! Ohh fuck, fuckâright there, huh? Love it just like this, yeah? Ooh me too, baby, me too, fuuuck!â He moans, blabbing away utter nonsense with a snap of his hips on every desperate word and it just fucking breaks you.
Your eyes roll, body locked up and shuddering with every aching wave that crashes on each brutal thrust. Jolting with every ministration of the middle finger pressed to your clit, jaw dropped and slack in a silent cry.
He doesnât stop, doesnât slow, just keeps fucking you into overstimulation. âAnother one, you can give me another one, right, my perfect little slut?â He asks, greedy and breathy and right in your face again.
A whine that sounds pathetic to your own ears slips out, broken and ragged as you manage a weak nod. You canât see even with your eyes barely open. Tears flow and blur his face, your vision already unfocused.
Your whole body convulses as he fucks you right into another orgasm. It wracks through with pain this time. You can barely feel your hands with the belt cutting off blood flow, the buckle biting into your skin in a way you canât feel now but will be painfully aware of later.
Heâs blabbing again, but you canât hear it. Only the sound of blood pumping in your ears rings out. Satoru slows a little, grabbing your face and turning you to him. You canât focus, canât think, feeling nothing but aching fullness.
Is this what fucked out feels like?
Satoru pulls out and you choke on a sob as he drags through your sore cunt. He flips you over onto your back, hands still restrained under you. You work hard to focus on his face as he leans over, cupping your cheek and brushing his thumb over the trail of tears spilling.
âHey, hey, look at me,â He says so softly, so gentle as he caresses your face that your lip trembles. âAlmost done, okay? One more, okay baby girl?â your stomach twists and drops at those words. But youâre not about to stop now, not when youâve made it this far. Managing another weak nod, your whole body trembles with the anticipation that looms dreadfully.
âGod, youâre such a good girl,â He murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your puffy lips, the wobble in them stabilizing under his kiss. He pulls back and lifts your shaky legs, holding both ankles up in one hand as he guides himself back to your entrance.
With your thighs pressed together, it takes a moment for him to work the head of his cock back in. Satoru inhales sharply with a wince as he pushes inside and you whimper, eyes squeezed tight and streaming fresh tears.
âOoh shit⊠tightâhahhâooh fuck thats a tight fit,â He exhales slow as he works back in deeper, hitting the spot inside so overworked and abused that your entire body twitches as his cock drags against it again and again. âOne more, one moreâll break you real good.â Satoru brushes the wetness away again as he croons, his voice so soft and at complete odds with the words that spill. âYou can do it baby, I know you can. Youâll take everything I give you, right?â
You whimper and nod again and he groans like this is killing him. The pace of his thrusts pick up but he holds back from slamming in. âTake my cock so well, so perfect, like you were made just for me.â
He hooks your legs over his shoulders and lowers to press your thighs to your chest and bring his face close again. âSo, so perfect that it drives me fucking crazy, I think you were made to drive me crazy.â
The angle now gets him so fucking deep that stars burst behind your eyelids. He kisses you again, chest pressed hard and all around in the way that would be too much, suffocating if it were anyone but Satoru.
Heâs the only person that youâd feel safe doing this with. The only person youâd ever even want to do this with. If you said the word right now, he would stop. No questions asked, the game would screech to a halt the moment you needed it to and youâd be released from the restraint.
But the drive to reciprocate, to please. To give Satoru everything just the same as he does, feeling safe enough to do so, you wonât stop him from taking anything and everything he wants.
Your already spent body responds to him, to his touch as he lights up your skin so sensitive itâs like his fingertips are dripping a trail of liquid flame. It feels so good to be completely devoid of anything that isnât his mouth pressed to yours, his cock as he splits you open with every snap of his hips.
Your pussy clenches in aching pulses, the pain that radiates from your core is sweet. Youâve never shied away from extremes being a jujutsu sorcerer, but the feeling of being fucked well past your breaking point is unreal.
âGonna come, yeah?â His breath hits your face, so hot. âOhh, yeah you are, I can feel it riiight there.â He's buried to the hilt, grinding against your cervix and a choked cry rips from your throat, spine bowing in an agonizing arch.
Itâs the last straw and your final orgasm tears through in tortuous wave after tortuous wave. Itâs agony in the best way possible and as your pussy clamps around his cock, it sends Satoru over the edge too.
âMnnhâfuck yeah, thatâs it babyâjust like that, come on my cockâhah, ooh fuckâtake it all out of me,â He pants, pace growing more and more erratic. Giving you no chance to respond to anything he asks or says, knowing damn well you can barely fucking nod right now. âYou want it? Gonna take all my cum like a good slut? MnnhâIâm gonna fill you the fuck up, pump you so full youâre still gonna be dripping with me on the next mission. Maybe youâllâhahâthink twice before fucking with me like that again.â The clench to his jaw is audible, frustration still pent up and lingering.
âOhh myâfucking take it s-slâahhh!â Satoru gasps, breath catching in his throat. His cock buried impossibly deep and kicking as his hips stutter and he spills inside your spasming cunt. He doesnât stop, slowing a little but he keeps going, moaning while he fucks his cum deeper into you. Spilling more with each thrust.
Your legs shake over his shoulders, mouth open in a silent cry, hiccuping wetly. You canât even feel your hands anymore, theyâve gone numb beneath you. Your vision swims, blurred and crossed and barely registering Satoru as he finally stills and huffs to catch his breath above you.
Itâs exactly as he said. Head spinning and devoid of anything but Satoru.
Definitely fucked out.
âHey, hey, look at me,â Satoru brushes fresh tears away and leans in close, studying your face. âI know, it was a lot, huh? You okay, baby girl?" you manage another weak nod, letting your eyes slide shut. âYeah, I bet youâre fuckinâ tired. You did so good, baby, took it all like total champ.â He chuckles and you would too, but all you can do is whimper as he pulls out.
âIâll be right back, okay? Donât go anywhereâif you can even move.â He teases with a laugh, sliding off the bed to his feet. Youâd roll your eyes and scoff, but you donât have the energy.
All you can do is roll onto your side to take the weight off your hands, pulling your knees up to your chest. Itâs cold without his body heat and you clench your teeth to keep them from chattering. Time stretches, distorting seconds into minutes, minutes into hours.Â
How long has he been gone? Why did he even leave? Is he mad? Should you have done something differently? Was it not good for him?Â
Were⊠you not good enough?Â
The tension in your gut aches as you turn your face into the sheets to muffle a sob. Body shuddering with each heaving breath.Â
Itâs irrational and you know it, but you canât help it. The chill, the exhaustion, the solitude, the absence of Satoruâs presence, it all settles into your aching body to weigh you down further.
âOh my god, I donât think my dick has been this sore since I wasââ Satoru cuts himself off and he climbs back onto the bed. He rubs your arm and leans into view as your eyes flutter open, lashes wet. âHey, hey! Iâm here, no, no, donât cry, baby girl, please.â Concern etched across his features. His brow furrowed, eyes softened and bright once more. The wildness gone from them.
âSa-Satoru⊠I-Iââ A wet hiccup chokes the rest of the words and he works to undo the belt, releasing your wrists. Your shoulders sag and he rolls you onto your back again, cupping your face with both hands.
âShh, itâs okay. You did so so good baby, fucking amazing. Iâm gonna take care of you now, okay?â He takes both wrists, pressing a soft kiss to the inside of each. âDo they hurt?â you shake your head. You can barely even feel them, but youâre sure you will soon with the blood rushing back.
He scoops you up, murmuring soft words that you can't make out, but reassure nonetheless. Your head turns and you bury your face into his chest, letting the warmth of his body comfort as he holds you tight and carries you to the bathroom. Steam wafts through the room. The bathtub is full, you didn't even hear the water run.
âIâll be right outside, okay?â He sets you down, âLet me know when youâre done cause Iâm gonna join you, my back is fuuucking killing me.â He laughs, pressing a gentle kiss to your cheek and you nod with a small smile.Â
He leaves you to use the washroom in peace and you sit with your arms hugging around your body. A slight tremble still in your legs but the warm steam keeps the chill at bay.
Uncertain and invasive thoughts curl and dance like smoke at the edges of your fuzzy mind. They twist words, pick apart reassurance and thrust horrid sentences to the forefront.Â
You take a few deep breaths. Letting all of it pass through without holding onto anything too tightly. Knowing itâs all just exhaustion after the excess adrenaline and endorphins, just chemistry fizzling back to normalâwell, as normal as your brain can get.
Even though it feels like every muscle is on fire, like your guts might actually be rearranged now and you could maybe pass out right here on the toilet. It feels so good.Â
The pure bliss of having oneâs back blown out.
When youâre finished, Satoru throws the door open, striding in quickly. A quiet laugh escapes. Heâs still butt naked. âSomeoneâs looking a little more alive,â He takes your face in one hand, lifting your chin. âWhats so funny, hmm?â
You shake your head once. âNothingâŠâ you trail off, pausing for a moment before deciding fuck it. Shame vacated the building long ago, especially after all that. âJust, your dick smacks around when you walk.â His lips purse with a frown.Â
âDo you make a point of staring at my dick when I walk?â He smirks knowingly, fucker is way too handsome for his own good. âOr do your eyes just gravitate there naturally?âÂ
He helps you into the bathtub, and you practically melt in the hot water. The sting on your ass reignites when you sit with a hiss, but it subsides quickly. Satoru slides into the big porcelain tub behind you and pulls you close with an arm around your middle. He has to bend his knees a little but all six foot⊠three? Four? Six foot something of him fits well. You lay back and let your head rest on his shoulder.Â
You barely stay conscious as Satoru rubs your body down, working tension out of your legs and arms. He washes your hair and you nearly drool as long, talented fingers scrub your scalp. Finished, he helps you out, wrapping you up in a soft towel and carrying you back out to curl up in bed. Satoru murmurs sweet praises and soft reassurances through it all.
Youâre sipping the water he got for you when he says something with a cheeky smirk that makes you choke.Â
âSo⊠when are you coming out with me again?â
a/n â. đ This is a reworked chapter from my long fic (Hate to Break it to You) on ao3, the smut is too good (and kinky) not to post here so here you go sluts! was there a point? not really, but merry kinktober!
other people never get it right, in his opinion. thereâs always a vowel thatâs too drawn out, or a consonant thatâs pronounced too sharply. he only ever smiles and nods when people say his name like that â itâs fine, sure. but itâs not right.
itâs become something very particular for him.
itâs not sah-toe-roo.
heâs also heard sahh-to-roo.
and some people will extend those vowels past their welcome.
but you? it glides off your tongue like honey.
sa-to-ru.
he likes the way it gets all sharp on your lips when youâre mad at him. satoru would never admit it to you, but sometimes heâll piss you off on purpose whenever heâs in the mood to hear how you sharpen the consonants like knives when you're telling him off.
âwhat?â the sorcerer sits back in your office chair, the faintest traces of a completely intentional grin on his face.
heâd come in early for once in his life for this exact purpose; satoru knew you always came in devastatingly punctual, so heâd make sure to greet you the best way he knew how to make your morning: by sitting in your office and kicking his feet up on your paperwork.
you loved things clean. itâs cute. he wants you fucking messy, though!
and youâre seething so adorably, with your face all scrunched up and your shiny eyes narrowed. âdoes this look like your office, gojo?â
nope. not what he wants to hear.
satoru sits up abruptly, making a show out of glancing around the room, before letting out an exhale of a laugh. âyou know, all the offices look suspiciously similar. might wanna bring it up with the higher-ups.â
âget out.â
âdid you get enough sleep last night?â he tilts his head, feigning concern. âyouâre being awfully rude about this.â
the way you narrow your eyes makes satoru wish he could see them glitter with crystallized tears, with his weight on top of you as he slides his tongue between your thighsâ
you suck in a breath past pretty lips. âiâm not in the mood. yaga has me on the clock. please just give me this, gojo.â
please, you say, and it makes him smile smugly. satoru loves hearing it (although heâd love hearing it beneath the dark of a particularly low-lit bedroom), but he needs more. needs your voice to wrap around his name like you own it.
âplead nicer. unfortunately for you, iâm in the mood.â
âfuck, no.â
he leans further back into your chair. âdidnât hear you. sorry?â
âsatoru.â
there it is. sa-to-ru; just the way he likes.
on other days, even when youâre rendered all sheepish and embarrassed at one of his jokes, satoru just canât get enough of the way you say his name.
this time, your tone dulls around the edges, always muttered under your breath in front of important people when heâs threatened to embarrass you with something heâs said â itâs soft and small and stern all at the same time, dancing through the air like warm fucking breeze in the winter. he just wishes you wouldnât be so quiet about it; if the sorcerer had a choice, heâd have your voice on repeat.
he already does, in a way.
itâs why satoruâs taken to teasing you specifically whenever you have faculty meetings in front of the higher-ups, or whenever youâre particularly engrossed in a lesson with your students, just to see you when youâre caught off your game and a tiny bit upset.
satoru loves you when youâre pouting, loves when your lips press flat into a thin line or when the inside of your cheek catches between your teeth, like youâve got a retort on the tip of your sweet tongue but wonât let it slip for your own sake. so fucking considerate all the time.
youâre unbelievably gorgeous when youâre so composed.
and you let that sweet little breath of his name slip from your mouth when heâd push you a little too far during your class with your first years on reverse cursed technique. your eyes fixate on the ground, lips downturned, as satoruâd just gotten all of your students to laugh at a little jab towards your explaining methods.
âsatoru.â you chastised in a small mumble, âletâs talk after my class, please.â
sa-to-ru.
god, that little whisper will be in his dreams tonight.
heâll hear it over and over again and wish youâd mumbled it right against his earlobe, because no one else ever deserved to hear your voice like that.
âthatâs awfully secretive, sensei. whatâs so important that our beloved students canât listen in on it, hm?â he knows what youâre getting at, of course.
but truthfully, he just wants to see your face contort with that fiery little expression, the same one he wanted to mouth at every inch of until nothing was left but pure bliss.
and satoruâs not shy about the way his heartbeat picks up when you nudge yourself a tiny bit closer, just to make sure heâs the only one who can hear what you say next. just so that your voice is only for him.
as it fucking should be.
the sorcererâs hand just about brushes your hip, and save him if it isnât taking everything in him to make sure he doesnât grab you and pull you into his side like he has the right to do so.
âi donât want my beloved students to hear me threaten to kill their sensei right here,â oh. satoruâs mind goes deliciously numb.
he grins, the edge of his mouth upturning slowly. âiâd love to see you try.â
you frown a tiny bit more.
âwhat exactly do you get out of pissing me off all the time?â
well.
â.á
satoru knows well enough that he adores your voice when itâs wrapped around his name.
but heâs decided that he loves it best when itâs completely breaking, paired with the gorgeously suffocating feeling of the skin of your thighs pressed into his fingertips and wrapped around his lips.
he loves when his name is exhaled, high-pitched and whiny like sugar, while his tongue paints a stripe across the wetness coating your lips, swirling circles around your pretty clit.
maybe he liked it the most because itâs how heâs always wanted to hear you say his name â itâs just that youâd always been too fucking stubborn, so insistent on hating him that youâd never stop to think how good youâd taste coating his mouth with your slick.
âsa-ah-toru,â you keen as satoruâs tongue dips past the edge of your soaked hole, curling inwards deliciously, moving slow like heâs savoring every fucking drop.
god, heâs hungry â but heâll die if he goes too quick and canât taste you ever again.
and if he grips the back of your thighs just a little bit harder when you sing his name like that? he simply canât help it. he waited too long for this.
sa-to-ru.
you taste just as sweet as you sound.
youâd burst into his office this morning, bemoaning the fact that satoru hadnât showed up to the previous briefing with principal yaga, of which ended with yaga blaming it on you. youâre bursting with rage, all up in his face, and itâs all a blur from there until your panties are hooked over your ankle, heâs getting on his knees in front of your office chair, wrapping your thighs over his shoulders, and lapping at your pretty cunt.
he hasn't gasped for air; heâs been too enveloped in your scent to care about breathing. heâll devour you until no one else can. until all that pretty voice of yours knows how to sound out is sa-to-ru.
satoru narrows his tongue, bullying the muscle deep and slow, down to where you couldnât have thought possible to reach. his eyes are hazy, half-lidded as you tug at his winter locks, shoving him further into your weeping pussy.
âmmphâ fuck,â you pant out, eyes screwed shut as he thrusts his tongue in and out of you at a torturous pace. âfuckâ gojo, âre going too slowââ
âhmm?â he hums into your clit, sending shockwaves straight up from your core. the sorcererâs gaze meets yours from under the glimpse of your tits beneath your unbuttoned polo.
he loves you composed, he really does â but you look perfect when youâre all messy, just for him.
his lips glisten with your wetness as he grins. âi'll go faster if you say my name properly, beautiful.â
âhâhuh?â your words trail off into a candied whine as he pads his finger just against your entrance, smearing the wetness that covers your folds and popping it into his mouth.
youâre so sweet. fuck, why are you so sweet?
âsay my name.â he repeats, his voice cheerful yet rough, the tiniest bit of grit around the edge. âremind me how much you love me, gorgeous.â
your eyes still manage to narrow, even as they glitter with needy frustration. âfuck youâ mmh!â
satoru simply frowns against the inside of your thigh as he abruptly bullies the first inch of his finger past your entrance, hissing at how tightly your walls were clamping down on him. his mind goes blurry, swirling with thoughts of how delectable youâd look with your thighs around his hips, bullied open and clamping like a vice down on his cockâ
he pulls his finger out with a shudder, cooing at the little pout that forms on your lips. âpoor baby. if you canât handle it, you know, we can stop here. if you want.â
âwâ what?â you breathe out, eyes wide and glossy like the thought was insulting. âno, please â please, need you, satoruâŠâ
sa-to-ru.
and youâve drawn out that last syllable like you want him dead.
âagain, sorry?â
âsatoru!â you squeal impatiently, and he obliged, simply because heâd never say no to you when you sound like that.
the white-haired man groans, biting down on the inside of your thigh and relishing in the way it makes you whine, all high-pitched and finally sweet on him.
his fingers thrust roughly into your aching pussy, stretching you out and moulding you to shape around his skin. youâre dripping down his palm, and satoruâs mesmerized by the sheen of slick that coats his hand as he pounds his fingers in and out of you steadily.
âshitâ so pretty here for me, huh?â satoru whispers reverently, as if speaking directly to your pussy and not to you. âjust as sweet as that mouth of yours. just as tight too.â
your hands are making a home for themselves in his hair, hips chasing his thick fingers, grinding yourself further into them like he wasnât deep enough already. your perfect fucking voice isnât helping the sorcererâs case either â he swears he loses every semblance of control he has, bit by bit, at each breath of his name leaving your lips, garbled and slurred and destroyed.
âsâtoru, satoru,â your mouth drops open, eyes screwing shut as he curls his fingers right into that spongy spot, office chair creaking as your body slumps back into it. âitâs soâ fuck, âts soââ
he laughs breathlessly. âyes, gorgeous?â
âitâs soâ oh!â
satoru cherishes everything you have to say, he swears he does.
but he also cherishes the way your lips look, all glossed with drool pooling at the corners, when he leans forward and circles his tongue over your clit in mean little motions, lapping at the sensitive skin in tandem with the rhythm of his fingers. youâre a whining, squirming mess â struggling to stay upright, thoroughly desecrated on the office chair youâd chewed him out just weeks ago for stealing.
satoru hisses as your fingertips tug at his locks, so fucking drunk on the taste of your soaked cunt amidst the lewd sound of his fingers slapping against your sex.
âlisten to that,â he rasps out, pausing to let the squelch of your pussy speak for itself before laughing dazedly against your clit. âsheâs screaming my name too, isnât she? so fuckinâ good for me, arenât you?â
your bleary gaze peeks down at him, eyes questioning amidst the pleasure. âsâsatoru, you asshole, stop talking to myâ mmh!â
before you can protest, his mouth is diving back in. soft lips latch around your clit, and satoruâs painfully hard at the sound of your voice cracking around the syllables of his name, your throat thick with pleasure at the overstimulation. he doesnât let up; the white-haired man sucks harder at the sensitive bud, all while scissoring his fingers deep inside of you as if mapping you out.
for when his dick goes inside you, of course.
âitâs tâtoo much,â you complain in a mewl, eyes blurry with forming tears, âsatoru, please, please, âm soââ
âfuck, take it, gorgeous,â satoru gasps out against your pussy, lips drenched in your taste. âkeep talking to me â shit, youâre tight â let it all out for me, okay?â
satoruâs mind had blanked out a long time ago. between the way your lips form his name in one strung out moan, and the way you taste sweeter than any candy he couldâve ever asked for, heâs starting to wonder if heâd died and gone to heaven.
your voice tangles with the filthy squelches that resound through the cramped space of your office, and he swears nothing could ever be better than this.
except for the way you sound saying his name while you cum.
âiâmâ iâmââ you gasp, and satoru takes that as a sign to clamp his lips around your clit and suck, curling his fingers up against your g-spot until â âsatoru!â
heâs never heard anything so perfect before. his gaze flicks upwards as you orgasm, watching the way your face scrunches up as your cunt tightens unbearably around every inch of his fingers. satoruâs transfixed by your stupid voice, something out of a porno curated by an angel, and if heâs hoping heâs ruined you with his fingers alone, youâve ruined him with just the sound of your voice breaking.
your breaths are heavy as you come down from the high; soft and warm, sound waves radiating off of you like sunlight. satoru presses a soft kiss to your inner thigh, and you finally peer down at him.
âstill mad at me?â the sorcerer grins.
your eyes narrow as soon as youâre back to life. âyes. yaga chewed me out for something that wasnât even my fault, satoru.â
sa-to-ru. the white-haired man pauses against your inner thigh, raising an eyebrow up at you with something hungry in his eyes. because as soon as you say his name, he decides heâs not fucking done with you yet.
âiâm sorry, gorgeous,â satoru mumbles, giving you a faux-apologetic glance before mischievously pressing a kiss to your clit, watching how your eyes widen. âi guess Iâll just keep going until you forgive me.â
âwâwait!â
satoru gojo really likes the way you say his name.
and heâll keep making you say it until you know it too.
Synopsis: You and Maki were from two completely opposite words. But hey, worlds always collide to make galaxies don't they?
Pairing: bodyguard Maki x rich!fem!reader
Warnings: SMUT MINORS DNI, p in v, unprotected sex (not for you dumbass), oral (f receving), fingering, edging, mean dom maki (he goes soft too issokay), rough sex, manhandling, ceiling mirror ehehe, brat taming, degradation, forced proximity, reader is spoilt af but our boy's gonna put us in place, mention of alcohol and blood, violence, a LOT and I mean a LOT of plot gomenesai
A/N: Part 2 to @wichujunseo's bday fic!!!! fuck you tumblr for the block restriction but yeah this one is the smut part guys. First time writing ceiling mirror jebal tell me its good. Enjoy, my darlings!
Word Count: 12k (first part had 17k, and smut is 4k)
PART ONE
All your life, everybody around you had convinced you that you were untouchable, a goddess at the top of a mountain no mortal could reach. Untouchable, in both senses, physically as well as pertaining to your status.Â
Lies, lies, lies.Â
Riki Mauss was certainly touching you particularly roughly, his body engulfing yoursâoh those broad shouldersâas he pinned you against the wall of his locker room.
âWhat the actual fuckââ He panted, voice coming in a growl, ââare you doing here?â
The noise had disappeared in a minute. As Yudai announced the next match and people scattered away, the noise went whoosh out your ears as a strong hand gripped your wrist and dragged you deeper into the rooms before you, Harua or Yuma could protest. To be fair, you did see two other men take them too, and if it wasn't for the beautiful blonde hair shining in the faint light, you would have screamed and kicked the man dragging you.
Now it was just the low hum of fluorescent lights and the sound of his breathingârough and far too close. The air in the locker room was thick with the smell of sweat, leather and victory, a primal scent that clung to the concrete walls and the cold metal benches.
Maki had you pinned in a second, one hand braced beside your head, the other firm at your waist like he hadnât quite decided whether he was holding you in place or making sure you didnât disappear.
Up close, he looked even more different. Not just the sweat, or the faint flush still lingering across his skin from the fight but the energy of him. It was so alive and without any barriers, so unlike what you knew.Â
His hair was damp and disheveled, dark eyes a blazing storm of angerâŠ.and maybe worry? Your gaze dropped for a second.
His blue shirt, clinging slightly where it caught against the broad expanse of his chest, the stark white of boxing bandages wrapped tight around his knuckles. The fabric pulled when he moved, outlining the strength beneath in a way that was very distracting.Â
You were supposed to be scared. You were supposed to be apologetic. But all you could think was, god, heâs so fucking handsome. A face sculpted by the fucking gods themseleves, made of the finest gold they could find. Your breath came a little slower, your legs and the bottom of your stomach feeling weirdly tingly.Â
You tilted your head back against the wall, meeting his fiery gaze with one of your own, completely ignoring the question heâd just demanded an answer to.
âYou never told me you smiled.â You said instead, voice smooth and calm as if you hadn't just destroyed every living cell in Makiâs brain.
His brows drew together immediately, grip at your waist tightening just slightlyânot enough to hurt, but enough to remind you he was still holding you there.
âDonâtââ he started, then cut himself off, exhaling sharply. âDonât do that.â
âDo what?â you asked lightly. Your fingers lifted, slow, to brush against the edge of his bandaged hand where it rested at your side. âThese,â you added, almost idly, eyes flicking down for a moment. âThey suit you.â
His jaw tightened. âYouâre avoiding the question.â
âAnd youâre deflecting,â you returned just as easily, your lips curving faintly. âI heard there was a good show tonight. Canât a girl want to watch something nowadays?â You let your eyes trail appreciatively down his body, lingering on the way the fabric strained across his chest.
âYou shouldnât be here,â he said, quieter now. You never did notice the stars in his eyes properly.Â
âAnd yet,â you replied softly, glancing up at him through your lashes, âhere I am.â
Silence stretched between you two. You could feel itâthe tension, sharp and coiled, sitting just beneath the surface of everything. His gaze searched your face, like he was trying to figure out if this was a joke, a mistake or something worse.
âThis isnât a game.â Maki said finally. His eyes flickered down to your lips once and he mentally slapped himself. Not now, idiot.
âEverythingâs a game,â you purred, shifting under his grip, the movement causing the material of your jacket to whisper against his bandaged knuckles. âAnd youâre playing it very well. I especially liked that final uppercut.â You reached up, not to push him away, but to trace a feather-light finger along the line of his jaw, near a fresh, faint redness from a glancing blow. âDoes it hurt?â
Maki didn't flinch, he didn't even move. But his eyes darkened, the storm in them swirling closer. His gaze which had been locked on your defiant eyes, broke its own rigid discipline.Â
It dipped, tracing the elegant curve of your neck, the vulnerable line of your throat where your pulse fluttered. It lingered on the way your hair, slightly mussed from the crowd, was tucked behind one ear, revealing the delicate shell and the simple stud you wore.Â
In the harsh fluorescent light of the locker room, with sweat cooling on his own skin and the adrenaline of the fight still singing in his veins, you looked utterly breathtaking, a stark, beautiful contrast to the sterile glamour of your usual world.Â
Not now, you idiot.
âYou shouldnât be here.â He said, finally, âThis place isnât for princesses.â
âPrincesses go where the entertainment is,â you countered, the proximity and the sheer presence of him was overwhelming, âAnd I think I prefer this version of you.â
A muscle in his jaw twitched. The hands on your waist felt like they could either crush you or pull you closer. âThis version could get you hurt.â
âYou wouldnât let that happen,â you said, the words slipping out with more confidence than you felt. âYour job is to protect me. Even from yourself.â
For a long, suspended moment, he just stared at you, his breath mixing with yours in the cramped, charged space. The distant echoes of the crowd, Yudaiâs loud voice, all faded away. Here, it was just the two of you, pinned between cold concrete and unbearable heat.
ââŠdid anyone follow you?â he asked suddenly.
You blinked once, mildly surprised by the shift. âNo.â
âDid anyone see you come in with me?â
âNo.â You said, âWhat are youââ
âDo you have any ideaââ he stopped, exhaling through his nose, visibly reining himself in. ââwhat kind of place this is?â
Your lips curved just slightly. âI do now." That didnât help, at all. His hand at your waist flexed again, like he was grounding himself just as much as he was holding you there.
Your gaze dropped again, slower this time, tracing the line of his arm, the tension in his shoulders, the way his chest rose and fell just a little faster than it should have been by now.
âI like your smile.â It slipped out before you could stop yourself, like you were utterly drunk on the gin of him.
âThat smileâs not for you,â he said, not too harsh but god did it get your blood rushing. You held his gaze for a second longer, then let out a quiet breath, your fingers lightly brushing against his wrist again.
âThen what is for me?â you asked, voice softer now but no less steady.
Maki considered himself to be as constant as that northern star in the far sky which had no other equal. But for this moment, an equal had arisen. And god was he smitten.Â
Maybe it was the way you never fucking listened. Or maybe it was the way you had so many different personasâone for every person, a shapeshifter changing form so often she forgets her own face. Except when you were with him, when you were filled to the brim with alcohol and heâd have to listen to you yap about everything ranging from what wood would suit a centre table the best to the stupidest conspiracy theories ever.Â
Maki was the northern star, unmoving, untouchable, something people could rely on without ever truly reaching him. And then there was you.
Always asking him about his bruises, casually sliding forward a glass of wine the days you worked later, at one point even poking his cheek for no damn reasonâit was probably to annoy him but he found himself not really minding.
Heâd seen those moments, the way youâd lean too close without realizing, eyes brighter, voice softer, like youâd finally stepped out of whatever role you were playing that day. The real you. He hadnât been able to look away since.Â
Now you stood in front of him, doing it again. Pushing him, testing him, looking at him like he was something to figure out instead of something to fear.
Then what is for me?
How on earth was he supposed to answer that question?
His hand on your waist slid up, his thumb brushing just beneath the hem of your jacket, so warm to the touch almost like he needed to remind himself you were real. That this wasnât just another moment heâd replay later on his bed and try to make sense of.
âWhat do you want to be yours?â Maki said finally, melodic voice not so rough now, âEverything is yours, isn't it princess?â
He let that stay there, letting you feel the weight of his words in the space between your bodies, in the heat of his skin against yours, in the unyielding grip of his hands that now held you not as a prisoner, but as a point of focus in his suddenly complicated universe. His question hung in the humid air, a challenge wrapped in velvet.Â
Everything is yours, isnât it, princess?
For once you didnât answer immediately. Your gaze didnât waver from his, but something in it shifted, the first time someone had rendered you speechless. Your hand, still resting against his wrist, stilled completely and you exhaled slowly.
âI want what I canât have.â You tilted your chin up, meeting the storm in his eyes with a certainty that surprised even you.Â
A flicker in his gazeâunderstanding and a dark, thrilling kind of anticipation. Makiâs forehead dipped, resting against yours for a suspended heartbeat. The world narrowed to the feel of his skin against yours, the scent of himâsweat, leather and something clean and sharp beneath.
âAnd whatâs that?â he murmured, his lips so close they brushed yours with the ghost of the words.
The answer was there, in the space between your shared breaths, in the grip of his hands that felt like both an anchor and a trap. You could feel your heartbeat now, louder than it shouldâve been. Your lips parted, your gaze dropping for the briefest second before lifting back to his.
âProbably you.â
Youâd been trained your entire life to remain picture perfect. Sure, the usual scandals here and there, but your words were trained and whipped to perfection, and you used them like they were your weapons.Â
But no words could ever defend against the way his lips felt like ambrosia against yours.
The moment was like a spark meeting the tinderbox. For a second, he was utterly still, a statue of controlled shock. And then he surrendered, like a lamb falling for the holy knife.Â
The kiss deepened instantly, turning fierce and hungry. His hands left your waist, one tangling in the hair at the nape of your neck, the other splaying against the small of your back to crush you against him.Â
The taste of him was adrenaline and something uniquely him.Â
This was nothing like the polished, performative kisses of your world. This was raw, a fight, a dance of life. His lips moved against yours with a firmness, like something he had already decided on long before this moment.Â
Everything else fell away. The ring, the noise, the consequences, the performancesâpoof, gone. All that existed was the press of him against you, the heat of his skin through the thin barrier of fabric, the way his controlâso carefully held together everywhere elseâfelt different here.
His breath brushed against your lips as he pulled backâjust slightly, not far enough to break it completely, close enough that you could still feel him. That he could still feel you.
And oh, he looked so stunning like this.
Completely and utterly undone.Â
âOhâŠâ You said, unable to move at all. Makiâs hand was still at the nape of your neck, yours still hovered near his chest.
The world rushed back in with the force of a tidal wave, the cold air hitting the skin his hands had just been warming. Maki pulled away, releasing you so suddenly that the absence of his support left you unmoored.Â
His own breath was ragged, his usually impeccable hair now truly disheveled. He looked shattered.Â
Space, there was space again, too much of it. You could only stare, your body still caught somewhere between where you had been and where you were supposed to be now.
Maki stepped back half a pace. It wasn't far, but it felt like a mile. His chest rose and fell a little too quickly. There was something in his gaze, something that hadnât made it back behind whatever walls he usually kept in place.
Your fingers lifted slowly, almost hesitantly, brushing against your lips, like you needed to make sure that what had happened actually happened. Your touch lingered there for a second too long, so warm.
Your stomach dropped as the panic hit. It was a cold, sharp spike that shot from your stomach to your throat. What did you just do?Â
The experiment, the game, the carefully constructed plan to annoy him into quittingâit had just detonated in your hands, and you were standing in the crater. The logical part of you screamed at you. Idiot! Your breath hitched sharply, your hand dropping from your lips as your eyes widened.
âNoââ It came out under your breath, more to yourself than to him.
You took a step back, then another, your body obeying before your mind could fully catch up. Makiâs expression shifted immediately.
âHeyââ
You shook your head quickly, like if you didnât, everything would catch up to you all at once.
âIâ I need toââ You didnât even finish the sentence. You turned, your hands finding the door, fingers fumbling just slightly before yanking it open. The noise from outside slammed you back into reality.Â
Your heelsâstupid, impractical shoes for a place like thisâclicked a frantic, uneven rhythm on the concrete floor. You didnât stop, didnât look back.Â
You ran, weaving through shadowy figures, your heart hammering against your ribs like a trapped bird. You could still feel the imprint of his hands on your waist, the scrape of his teeth against your lower lip, the terrifying, glorious moment when his control had not just slipped, but had been willingly set ablaze.
They always told you not to play with fire.
But how could you not, when he was so warm?
___________________
Radio silence was the perfect word to describe the next few days.Â
You two, according to one very observant Wang Nicholas, were performers of your worlds. Because on the surface, nothing had changed.
You still descended the staircase each morning like you owned the worldâcomposed, immaculate and untouchable. Your voice carried the same effortless authority, your expressions measured, your laughter placed exactly where it needed to be. Meetings were attended, calls were answered, appearances were made, perfect and flawless.Â
Maki stood where he always did. A step behind, slightly to the side, eyes forward, posture precise, every movement controlled to the point of invisibility. He opened doors, intercepted conversations, remained the silent constant in a world that revolved around you.
If anyone had looked at the two of youâreally lookedâthey would have seen nothing. No lingering glances, no tension, no cracks. Just an heiress and her bodyguard, exactly as they were meant to be.
But behind closed doorsâyou broke. The first night, it had surprised you. You had sat at the edge of your bed, staring at nothing in particular until your vision blurred without warning. The tears came without permission, sliding down your face in silent lines. You hadnât even known why at first.
After that it became routine. You would go through the day like nothing had happened, like you hadnât felt his hands on you, like you hadnât tasted him, like you hadnât wanted something you had no business wanting. And at night it would all come back.
The heat of him, the taste, the way he had looked at you like you werenât untouchable at all. Your fingers would press against your lips again, like they had that night, as if confirming it had been real would somehow make it easier.
It didnât. The tears came anyway.
Maki noticed. Of course he did, he noticed everything.
The slight redness in your eyes in the mornings, no matter how well you hid it. The way your voice sometimes came out just a fraction too controlled, like you were holding something back, the way you avoided looking at him for more than a second at a time. He noticed and never said anything. Because he didnât trust himself to.
It was worse for him in different ways. Control had always been his strength, his anchor. But nowâit slipped. Small things at first, a delayed response, a moment too long spent watching you when you werenât looking, a missed detail in a room he would normally read in seconds.
His focus fractured. Split between what was in front of himâand you. Always you. The way you moved. The way you spoke. The way you looked.
God the way you looked. Like nothing had happened, like you hadnât unraveled him in a matter of seconds, like he hadnât crossed a line he had spent months never even approaching.
Like a living angel.Â
It got under his skin and stayed there. The worst of it came when your father called him in.Â
âGood work lately,â your father said, glancing up from his papers. âSheâs been better.â A pause. âMore manageable.â Maki didnât respond immediatelyâthe words sat so wrong. âShe hasnât caused any incidents.â your father continued. âKeep it that way.â
Maki inclined his head. âUnderstood.â
But his mind betrayed him. Instead of your composed expression at dinner, or your carefully measured tone in meetings, he saw you pressed against that locker room wall.
Breathless, unraveled, looking at him like you were the wolf and he was your deer. He remembered the way your lips had felt against his. The way you had said probably you like it had cost you something to admit. His jaw tightened almost imperceptibly.
The fact that pretending nothing had happened was becoming impossible.
âMaki.â
Your voice cut through his thoughts cleanly. He blinked once, the image of you from that night dissolving just enough for reality to snap back into placeâ the early morning light filtering through the windshield, the steady road beneath the tires.
ââŠyes, miss,â he replied automatically, like nothing had just happened inside his head.
But something was already off. He had noticed it the second you stepped into the car. You hadnât taken the passenger seat. You were in the back.
He had simply adjusted the rearview mirror onceâjust enough to see you without making it obvious. You sat there now, composed as ever, gaze directed out the window, one arm resting lightly against the door. The city passed by in blurred streaks of glass and steel, reflecting faintly across your face.
His grip on the steering wheel tightened. âWhat is it?â he asked.Â
âI have a meeting with Jihoon today,â you said, voice neutral. âYouâre aware, I assume.â
âYes.â He knew your schedule down to the minute. He knew where you were going, who you were meeting, how long youâd be there. He just hadnât expected you to sound like that, like you were talking to just your driver.
âThen make sure weâre not late,â you added, almost absentmindedly. Maki held your gaze in the mirror for a fraction longer than he should have, then looked back at the road.
Seated across from Jihoon, posture elegant and expression bright, you looked like you had never known a moment of unrest in your life.Â
Maki stood a few steps away. Not too close, not too far, exactly where he was supposed to be. Jihoon was saying somethingâanimated, a little too pleased with himselfâand you laughed again, this time leaning forward slightly, your hand brushing the rim of your glass.
âAre you serious?â you said, amusement laced through your voice. âThatâs actually how you handled it?â
âIt worked, didnât it?â Jihoon grinned.
âBarely,â you teased, tilting your head. âI wouldâve done it differently.â
âOh?â he leaned in, clearly intrigued. âAnd how would you have done it?â
You smiled and Maki couldnât look away. His gaze lingered, tracking the way your expression shifted, the way your eyes lit up as you spoke, the way your fingers moved absentmindedly as you explained something with quiet confidence.
You looked beautiful, effortlessly so, like this world was built for you, like Jihoon had every right to sit there across from you, to hear that laugh, to hold your attention so easily.
Something in Makiâs chest tightened. He shifted his weight slightly, hands clasped loosely in front of him, posture unchanged to anyone watching.
But his jaw had set, because he knew this version of you, everyone did. This was the version you showed the world, untouchable in a way that made people want to get closer anyway.
He had seen the other side, the one that leaned too close without thinking, the one that had looked at him and said probably you like it was your spell of entrancement.Â
Jihoon laughed at something you said, shaking his head. âYouâre dangerous, you know that?â
You smiled again, softer this time. âIâve been told.â
Makiâs fingers curled slightly. He wondered if Jihoon even knew what he was saying. If he had any idea what kind of danger you actually were.
You reached for your glass, taking a slow sip, completely at ease, completely unaware of the way you held the room, of the way you held him.
Oh how you held him in your beautiful orbit.
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âDo you flirt with all of your friends or just him?â
âExcuse me?âÂ
âDo you flirt with all your friendsââ Maki leaned back against the door to your home office, hands in his pockets and a cocked brow, ââor just Jihoon?â
You let out a soft, incredulous laugh, setting your bag down on the desk with more force than necessary.
âThatâs what this is about?â you asked, turning to face him fully. âYouâve been standing there, brooding in the corner, and this is what you came up with?â
âAnswer the question.â
âI didnât realize I owed you one.â Your lips curved, slow and dangerous.
âYou donât,â he said quickly. âBut youâre avoiding it.â
âAnd youâre overstepping,â you returned just as smoothly, stepping closer. The air shifted, familiar tension slipping in.Â
âYou were laughing,â he said, like he was replaying it in his head. âLeaning in, smiling likeââ
âLike what?â you cut in. âLike I wasnât being interrogated by my bodyguard the moment I got home?â
âThatâs notââ
âThen what is it, Maki?â your voice sharpened, not loud, but cutting. âWhat exactly is bothering you?â
He pushed off the door then, standing straight, closing the distance between you without thinking.
âYou donât do that with everyone,â he said. Your breath hitched, but you didnât let it show.
âI do what I want,â you replied, lifting your chin. âWith whoever I want.â
ââŠright,â he said.
And suddenly you knew. This wasnât about Jihoon. It never had been. Your expression shifted, just slightly.
âIs this about the other night?â you asked, softer but no less direct.
That did it. The tension snapped tighter.
âYou ran,â he said. You blinked once.
âI didnâtââ
âYou ran,â he repeated, stepping closer, voice low now. âLike it was a mistake.â
âI didnât know what to do,â you said, the words slipping out before you could dress them up. âand it doesnât matter anyway,â you added quickly. âIt didnât mean anything.â
The moment the words left your mouth you felt the air change again, his eyes darkening just like theyâd done that night.Â
âDidnât it?â he asked quietly. You held his gaze.
âIt was just a kiss.â
There. You said it. Clean and simple, as easy as closing a door.Â
Maki went still. For a second, it looked like he might just accept that, step back, let it go. Considering this was the man who had carried you out of a bar, you should have known better.Â
He took one more step forward, close enough that the space between you disappeared again.
âThen prove it,â he said. Your breath caught.
âWhat?â
âIf it didnât mean anything,â he continued, voice low, âthen it wonât now either.â
Your pulse picked up. Because you knew exactly what he meant. And you shouldâve said no. You shouldâve stepped back, laughed it off, ended it there. But instead, your chin lifted slightly.
âFine.â
The word came out softer than you intended. But it was enough. He didnât hesitate, not giving you time to reconsider. His hand came up sliding lightly along your jaw.
And then he kissed you again. This time it wasnât a surprise. It was so very controlled like you two were testing something. Proving something.
Your lips met his with equal intent, no hesitation this time. For a second, it stayed like that, controlled and contained.
Then it shifted again. Because no matter how much you told yourself it meant nothing your body just didnât fucking listen.
His grip tightened just slightly, your fingers finding the front of his shirt without thinking, the space between you collapsing into something far too familiar. It wasnât supposed to feel like this. Not again, not when you knew better.Â
But it did. God, it did. And wasn't that a problem?
He pulled back first this time, just before it went too far. Your breath was uneven again. So was his. Silence filled the space and the answer hung there, unspoken.
It hadnât meant nothing. It never had.
Makiâs expression softened almost painfully. His hand lifted again but instead of pulling you back in, instead of holding you there, he let it rest briefly against your cheek.
He pressed a quiet kiss to your forehead, completely different from everything else. Softness never felt so good.Â
âWellâŠâ He chuckled, âarenât we both absolutely fucked, princess?â He stepped back, looking down at the ground and chuckling under his breath again, âIâll see you tomorrow.â He turned back just before he stepped out the door, âYou really know how to ruin a man, donât you?â
With that he was out the door, shutting it behind him with a soft click, leaving you alone in your office, the air still electric to the touch.Â
Warm, his hands were warm.
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Boring.
Utterly, painfully boring.
That was the only way to describe the gala. Soft classical music drifted through the hall, polite and forgettable. People spoke in low, curated tones, eyes scanning the room not for art but for status. Glasses clinked, heels tapped, compliments were exchanged like currency.
You stood among them like you always did, perfectly placed and poised. Your fingers curled loosely around the stem of your glass as you stared at a painting you hadnât really been looking at for the past five minutes. Something abstract and expensive. Meaningful, probably.Â
You couldnât care less, your mind was on someone else. Your tongue pressed lightly against your lower lip. You could still feel it, the faintest memory of pressure. Your breath came slower as your gaze dropped, lashes lowering briefly before you forced yourself to take a sip of your drink.
Get it together.
You shifted your weight, the slit of your dress parting just enough with the movement to reveal the long line of your leg. The cherry red fabric clung in all the right places, off-shoulder neckline framing your collarbones, your skin glowing softly under the golden lights.
You looked stunning and you knew it. Everyone else knew it too. You could feel the attention and the admiration that followed you wherever you stood. Normally, you wouldâve thrived on it.
Tonight it barely registered. Because there was only one gaze you were aware of. Your eyes lifted and there he was.
Maki stood across the room, exactly where he was meant to beâunobtrusive, dressed in a perfectly tailored black suit that fit him too well.Â
Handsome fucking asshole.Â
His posture was flawless, his expression composed, his attention scanning the room like it always did. Except it kept coming back to you. And every time it did it lingered scandalously long. Maki exhaled slowly, shifting his stance.Â
You were a problem tonight, more than usual.
The way your dress fell off your shoulders, exposing just enough skin to make his jaw tighten. The slit that moved every time you took a step, every subtle shift drawing attention in ways he didnât want anyone else noticing.
But they did and when he saw it he wanted to punch every man in the room and run off with you in his arms. His fingers curled at his sides.
None of them had ever touched you like he did.Â
Your gaze met his again. This time, neither of you looked away immediately. The room faded, the music dulled, the conversation around you blurred into nothing.
There was that thread between you two again, that pulled tight.
âMissââ A voice cut in from your left, followed by another, and anotherâfamiliar faces, polished smiles, people who knew your name and wanted a piece of your attention. You turned smoothly, slipping back into yourself like it was second nature.
âGood evening,â you greeted, smile effortless, voice warm in that way that made people feel chosen.
Compliments followed, your dress, your presence, your father. You responded just as gracefullyâlight laughter, a tilt of your head, the perfect amount of engagement.
From across the room, Maki watched, his attention never leaving you, not for a second.
Another man joined the circle, late and way too confident. You noticed him immediately not because of who he was, but because of how he looked at you, too openly and too long. You shifted your weight slightly, subtle, creating space without making it obvious. He didnât take the hint.
âMiss,â he said, stepping closer than necessary, his gaze dragging slowly over you in a way that made your smile stiffen. âI must sayâŠ.youâre even more stunning up close.â
You inclined your head politely. âThank you.â
âI was just telling them,â he continued, gesturing vaguely to the others, âthat a dress like that should be illegal.â A few awkward laughs. You didnât laugh. Your fingers tightened around your glass.
âIâm sure you were,â you replied, voice still composedâbut thinner now.
He stepped closer again. Your body reacted before your mind didâshoulders tensing, posture shifting just enough to signal discomfort. Still you didnât make a scene. These many months of good behavior, you couldn't do anything wrong now.Â
âTell me,â he went on, lowering his voice like he was sharing something intimate, âdo you always dress like this for attention, or is tonight a special occasion?â
Your smile faded. And across the room Maki moved, closing the distance with quiet precision, slipping into the circle like he belonged thereâbecause he did.Â
His hand came to rest lightly at your elbow, like a silent questionâare you okay? You didnât look at him, but your body answered anywayâleaning, just a fraction, toward that touch.
âI believe the next exhibit is starting,â Maki said calmly, voice even, professional. âWe shouldââ
âOh, come on,â the man cut in, a laugh slipping from his lips. âYouâre not seriously letting your bodyguard decide when you leave?â
Maki didnât respond. Not yet. You turned slightly, ready to step away and then,Â
âOr is that part of the act?â the man added, smirking. âYou and your guard dog? Seriously sweetheart, we canât handle all that teasing. â
And that was the straw that broke the camelâs back.
It was instant. Makiâs hand left your arm. His body turned and before anyone could process it, a sharp, brutal crack echoed through the space as the man staggered back, completely unprepared, his glass shattering as it hit the floor.
Gasps rippled through the crowd, voices rose, but Maki didnât move. He stood there, shoulders squared, breath steady, eyes cold in a way you hadnât seen since the ring.
The man groaned, clutching his face, shock written all over him. Maki looked down at him once. Disgusting.
Then turned back to you. And just like that his expression shifted, into something softer. Warmer. Just for you.Â
âWeâre leaving,â he said quietly, not a suggestion.
And for once, you didnât argue.
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The door shut behind you harder than it needed to, the quiet of the house swallowing the chaos of the gala whole.
You stepped out of your heels first, letting them fall carelessly by the door, the relief immediate but short-lived. Your fingers came up to your temples for a second, pressing lightly like you could push away the tension still buzzing under your skin.
Behind you, Maki stepped in. The door clicked shut and just like that it was the two of you again.
âYou didnât have to do that.â You turned to him, trying hard to keep your voice steady.Â
Maki didnât respond immediately, shrugging off his jacket, movements sharp like there was still too much energy sitting under his skin.
âHe crossed a line.â
âThat happens,â you shot back, stepping closer, your brows drawing together. âYou donât punch people every time someone says something you donât like.â
His jaw tightened. âIt wasnât just something I didnât like.â
âAnd what was it then?â you pressed, your voice rising. âPart of your job?â You exhaled sharply, running a hand through your hair. âYouâre my bodyguard, Maki. Thatâs it. You donât need toââ
âWhat if I want to be more?â
The words cut through yours, clean as a gooseâs call in the high blue air.Â
More? That wasn't part of the script. Slowly, you looked at him, really looked at him. He wasnât angry, not anymore. He looked vaguely sad.
âWhat?â you asked, softer now. Maki took a step toward you, then another.
âWhat if I donât want this to be just a job?â he said, voice low, something gentle threading through it. âWhat if I donât want to stand in the corner and pretend I donât see you?â
Your heart stuttered, you knew what he meant. And god you wanted to reach out and grab it by the neck and press it to your skin to keep it all to yourself. But you couldn't.Â
âI donât get to,â he continued, quieter now, stopping just in front of you. âI donât get to look at you like that. I donât get to wantââ He cut himself off. Your breath came slower now.
âWant what?â you asked, barely above a whisper. His gaze droppedâjust for a secondâto your lips.
âYou.â
The word settled into you like it had been waiting there all along. This was the truthâno more performance, no more pretending like he didn't drive you insane. Just the ordinary truth. And it scared you. Because wanting him had been one thing. Hearing him say it changed everything.
âYou donât get to say that,â you said, but your voice lacked its usual sharpness. âYou donât get to justââ
âWhy not?â Maki cut in, stepping closer again, the space between you disappearing. âYou said it first.â
âThat was different.â
âWas it?â His hand lifted slowly and brushed lightly against your arm, sliding down until his fingers wrapped around your wrist. âYou said you wanted something you couldnât have,â he murmured. âAnd then you said me.â
Your pulse picked up under his touch.
âI didnât think youâdââ
âWhat?â he asked quietly. âFeel the same?â His thumb shifted slightly against your wrist.
âI tried to ignore it,â he admitted, voice lower now. âFuck, I tried so fucking hard, I swear.â
Your gaze softened, just slightly. âAnd howâs that working out for you?â you asked, almost breathless. A faint, humorless huff left him.
âNot great.â
A small, involuntary smile that didnât quite reach your eyes, because you understood all too well. You stepped closer, closing the last inch of space between you. Your free hand lifted, resting lightly against his chest, feeling the steady rise and fall beneath your palm.
Oh, so this wasn't a dream.
âThis is a bad idea,â you murmured.
âYeah,â Maki said quietly.
A beat. Neither of you moved. Neither of you stepped back. Your fingers tightened against his shirt. His grip on your wrist loosened, sliding up instead, settling at your waist.
A galactic interaction, they called it when two galaxies collided with one another. Your art class had studied them once to appreciate the beauty of the colours around you. A galactic interaction must have been the most beautiful thing anyone could ever seeâhues scattered everywhere, a union of angels and demons and everything in between.Â
A galactic interaction you'd call it as your bodies collided, lips naturally gravitating towards each other. The most beautiful thing ever.
Your lips met Makiâs with a quiet certainty that made his breath hitch for a second before he responded, his hand tightening at your waist, pulling you closer like heâd been waiting for this. Like heâd been holding back too long. It deepened quickly, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, his other hand coming up to your face.
No space left to pretend, anymore, he seemed to say.Â
Your heart pounded against your ribs, your breath catching as the world narrowed down to just thisâjust him. And this time neither of you pulled away immediately.
The world around you no longer existed. There was only this: the taste of him, the warmth of his body against yours, the faint scent of his cologne. His hands were anchors, holding you steady in the storm youâd both created. This was everything both of you had been holding back, finally given space to exist.
Time stretched. Or maybe it disappeared entirely. How could you ever know anything other than Maki?Â
When you finally broke apart, it was only because breathing became necessary. It was slow and reluctant, your lips lingering just a fraction longer.
Your hand remained against his chest, his still at your waist. Neither of you stepped back, neither of you even tried to.
âWhat now?â you whispered into the space between you, the question soft and vulnerable.
âNo idea,â he admitted quietly. A faint, almost disbelieving huff of breath followed. âThis wasnât exactly part of the plan.â
âYou had plans?â you murmured with a small smile
âUsually,â he said, âNot when it comes to you.â
Your gaze softened, your fingers shifting against his chest, tracing the fabric there like you needed to remind yourself he was still right in front of you.
âMakiâŠ..â
He hummed quietly in response, not looking away. Your throat felt tight for a second. Your voice felt so unfamiliar now, you had no idea which version of you was acting at the moment. The real one? Was she not dead?
Maybe he brought her back to life.
âWould you like to love me?â
Perhaps the most honest thing youâd ever asked, born from the ashes of a game youâd given up the moment your back had hit the back of his locker room.
The question hung in the airâan invitation to a future, to a possibility far more perilous than any annoyance or emotional sabotage. It was like asking him to step into the chaos with you, and you rarely ever asked for anything. Demanding was always a better path. He studied your face, his gaze tracing the earnestness there, the hope you werenât even trying to hide anymore.
For a moment he didnât answer. It wasn't like he didn't have one, but because he understood exactly what you were asking. The impossibility of it allâhowâŠ..seductive.
His forehead dipped, resting lightly against yours this time, his voice quieter when he finally spoke.
âIâd love to.â
The words were simple and devastatingly sure, words that made you move forward again for another kiss. Your lips lingered on Maki's, the kiss starting soft and exploratory, a gentle press that tasted of cherry wine and the faint bitterness of not giving a damn about what tomorrow might bring.Â
You stood there against the edge of your desk, the solid wood pressing into your lower back, while his body crowded yours in the dim light of the room. His hand at your waist held you steady, fingers splaying wide over the curve of your hip, the fabric of your dress bunching under his touch.Â
The slit rode up your thigh as you shifted closer, your leg brushing against his black pants, feeling the heat of him through the material.
You tilted your head, deepening the contact just a fraction, your tongue slipping out to trace the seam of his lips. He opened for you with a low hum, his mouth warm and inviting. It was loving and unhurriedâyour free hand sliding up his chest to curl around the back of his neck, fingers threading into the soft strands of his hair at the nape.
His dark eyes fluttered shut, and he responded in kind, his tongue meeting yours in slow, languid strokes that sent warmth pooling low in your belly. You sighed into him, the sound muffled, your body relaxing against the desk as if it could hold you both up.
âMakiâŠâ You gasped into his mouth, the slow, exploratory dance of your tongues shifting the moment his fingers brushed the sensitive skin of your inner thigh.Â
He pulled back just enough to speak, his breath hot and uneven against your lips. His eyes were dark, the pupils blown wide, but a sliver of that infuriating control remainedâa last check-in before the final border fell.
âCan I?â he murmured, his voice a gravelly whisper, âCan I touch you?âÂ
âWhat are you doing now?â You laughed, tilting your head at him, âArenât you touching me?â
A low chuckle rumbled in his chest at your playful retort, the sound vibrating against your body. His thumb traced small, teasing circles on your thigh, inching higher with each pass.Â
âYou know thatâs not what I meant.â He leaned in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as he spoke, his voice a sinful purr. "I want to touch you here."Â
His free hand slid up your body, grazing the side of your breast before continuing its ascent to cup your jaw, tilting your face towards his. "And here," he breathed, his lips ghosting over yours in a barely-there caress.
Your breath hitched at his words, at the promise in his touch. You felt a shiver race down your spine, anticipation coiling in your belly.Â
"MakiâŠ.." you breathed, his name a plea on your lips.
He hesitated for a heartbeat and you saw the exact moment the rocket landed. His jaw tightened, a muscle feathered in his cheek, the last vestige of control shattered. A low, almost feral sound escaped him, and he bit his own lower lip hard. Then his hand slid higher, his fingers skimming along the edge of your panties.
You felt a rush of heat flood your cheeks, your chest, your core. Your hips shifted involuntarily, seeking more of his touch. "MakiâŠ." you whimpered, your nails digging into the hard planes of his chest. "I need..."
"What do you need, baby?" he asked, his voice a low, sensual growl. "Tell me what you want."
You could feel the heat of his gaze on you, could sense the hunger in his eyes as he waited for your response. Your mind raced, your heart pounding in your chest as you tried to form the words.
âNeed youâŠâ You whispered, the confession falling from your lips like a secret, âNeed you to touch meâŠâ
âSo demanding.â Maki chuckled, running his thumb over your bottom lip, his eyes darkening as you softly licked the tip, âWhatâs the magic word, princess?â
Oh this bastard.
This handsome fucking bastard.Â
Fine then. If he wanted you to beg, youâll beg.Â
Your lips came to his again, a spark igniting as your teeth grazed his lower lip, nipping just hard enough to draw a sharp inhale from him. His grip tightened, pulling you flush against his chest, the hard planes of his body pressing into your softer curves.Â
The kiss turned aggressive in an instant, hungry and demanding, his mouth claiming yours with a fervor that made your pulse race. You pushed back, matching his intensity, your tongue battling his for dominance as your fingers tugged at his shirt, popping a button in your haste. He growled low in his throat, the vibration rumbling through you.
âPlease, Maki?â You panted, pulling away, putting on those eyes again, the ones that got the entire world on their knees for you, âPlease, will you fuck me?â
Spoilt, spoilt princessâwho was he to refuse you?
"FuckâŠ." he muttered against your lips as he dove back in, sucking on your bottom lip until it stung. You arched into him, grinding your hips against his, feeling the growing bulge in his pants.
âAlways need to get what you want, hm?â Maki rasped, his voice rough, dark eyes locking onto yours when he pulled back just enough to speak, âYouâre so spoilt, baby.â His hair was beautifully disheveled, falling over his forehead, making him look wilder, more undone.
âDonât I deserve it?â You smirked, breathless, your hand sliding down to palm him through his pants. "Maybe I want to see how long you last before you beg."Â
The words were defiant, laced with that playful edge that always got under his skin. He was bigger than you in every wayâtaller, broader, his shoulders filling out the shirtâand you loved pushing against that size, knowing it only made him want to pin you down more.
Maki's eyes narrowed, a dangerous glint in those dark depths.Â
"Brat," he said, the word a low warning as his hands gripped your hips hard enough to bruise.
In one fluid motion, he lifted you, his thick arms flexing under the sleeves of his shirt as he hoisted you onto the desk. Papers scattered, a pen rolling off the edge, but neither of you cared.Â
Your ass hit the cool wood, the thigh slit in your dress parting to expose more skin, and he stepped between your legs, forcing them wider with his body.
Maki didn't waste timeâhe never did, one of the things you admired about him. And one of the things that was turning you on so hard right now. He was like a wolf, pouncing at the deer heâd waited to hunt down for so long.
His mouth was back on yours, aggressive now, teeth clashing as he devoured you like a greedy man, one hand shoving the off-shoulder neckline down to expose your breast. His palm cupped it roughly, thumb flicking over your nipple until it hardened into a peak.Â
You gasped into the kiss, your hands fisting his shirt, pulling him closer. But he broke away, trailing hot, open-mouthed kisses down your jaw, your neck, nipping at the sensitive skin there until you squirmed.
"Look at you," he murmured, voice husky as he pulled back to take you in.Â
His dark eyes raked over your body, lingering on the way the red dress clung to your curves, the slit revealing the smooth expanse of your thigh.Â
He was still fully dressedâshirt half-unbuttoned, pants tented obscenelyâbut you felt exposed, vulnerable under his gaze. And he knew it.Â
âYou want to be in control aaall the time, donât you baby?â His hand slid up your thigh, fingers digging into the soft flesh, pushing the fabric higher until the dress pooled at your waist.
âMaybe I do.â You arched a brow, even as heat flooded your cheeks. "What are you gonna do about it, Mr Mauss?"Â
Looks like the princess did have some actual bite to her venom, Maki thought, as your legs wrapped around his waist to pull him in, grinding against the hard line of his cock.
âNow now, sweetheart.â He chuckled darkly, the sound sending shivers down your spine, âLetâs keep that pretty little mouth quiet, yeah?â
His hands were everywhere then, worshipping your body with a reverence that bordered on obsession. He pushed the other shoulder of your dress down, baring both breasts to the cool air, and his mouth descended.Â
Maki sucked one nipple into his wet heat, tongue swirling around the tight bud while his hand kneaded the other, pinching just hard enough to make you whine.Â
"So fucking perfect." He breathed against your skin, switching sides, lavishing attention on every inch, âYou always have to be so fucking perfect, donât you?âÂ
His free hand roamed lower, tracing the dip of your waist, the flare of your hips, thumbs pressing into the soft spots that made you gasp.
You tried to rock against him, seeking friction, but he held you still with ease, his larger frame pinning you to the desk. He manhandled you so effortlessly, his thick (oh so thick) fingers spanning almost your entire thigh as he spread you wider.Â
"Maki," you panted, fingers in his hair, tugging.
âTch.â Maki clicked his tongue, âTold you we have to keep that pretty mouth quiet, didn't I?â He lifted his head, lips shiny, eyes dark with lust.
Before you could retort, he dropped to his knees between your legs, the pants stretching over his thighs as he settled. His hands pushed the dress up completely, and he hooked his fingers into your panties, yanking them down and off in one swift motion. The cool air hit your exposed pussy, already slick and aching, and he groaned at the sight.
"God, look at this pretty little cunt," he said, voice rough with awe, âHmmm, so wet for me already?âÂ
His thumbs parted your folds, exposing you fully, and he leaned in, breath hot against your clit. He worshipped you slowly at first, pressing soft kisses to your inner thighs, nipping the sensitive skin until you trembled.Â
Then his mouth was on you, tongue flat and broad (as every part of him was) as he licked a loooong stripe from your entrance to your clit, savoring every drop. You moaned, head falling back, but he didn't let upâcircling your clit with the tip of his tongue, sucking gently, then harder, building the pressure until your hips bucked.
"Thaaaat's it," he murmured against you, the vibrations making you clench. "Let me eat this pussy like she deserves it."Â
His hands gripped your thighs, holding them open as he dove in deeper, tongue thrusting into your hole, fucking you with it while his nose bumped your clit. He was relentless, alternating between broad licks and focused sucks, his blonde hair brushing your skin as he worked. You felt so small under him, his broad shoulders forcing your legs apart, his mouth devouring you like he just couldn't get enough.
The pleasure built fast, coiling tight in your core, but just as you teetered on the edgeâyour breaths coming in gasps, fingers scrabbling at the deskâhe pulled back. His lips glistened with your arousal, dark eyes meeting yours with a wicked gleam.Â
âOh no, baby.â He said, running a tongue across his lower lip, âOnly good girls get to cum.â
You whined, frustrated, trying to close your legs, but he held firm. "Maki, pleaseâ"
"Please what?" He taunted, standing to tower over you, his shirt rumpled, pants straining, âOr is our princess finally learning to ask nicely for what she wants?â
He unbuttoned it fully now, shrugging it off to reveal the defined muscles of his chest. But he didn't touch his pants yet. Instead, he reached down, two thick fingers circling your entrance, teasing. "You gonna be good for me? Or do I have to make you?"
The size of his fingers alone made your mouth waterâthey were long and girthy, bigger than most of the cock you'd had, and you knew they'd stretch you perfectly.Â
"Fuck you." You shot back, venomous even as you arched toward him. He smirked, sliding one finger in slowly, the thickness making you gasp as it filled you.Â
"Oh, I will. But first, you're gonna take this." He pumped it in and out, curling to hit that spot inside you, his thumb pressing your clit in firm circles, âSo damn tight baby.â The second finger joined quickly, stretching your walls, the burn delicious as he scissored them, âOh she doesn't want to let them go, does she?â
You moaned, rocking into his hand, the desk creaking under you. He finger-fucked you steadily, his free hand roaming your body againâsqueezing your breast, pinching your nipple, tracing the curve of your waist.
Worshipping every part of you while his thick digits plunged deep, knuckles brushing your clit on each thrust. The pressure built again, faster this time, your walls fluttering around him. But he edged you once more, withdrawing his fingers right as your orgasm crested, leaving you empty and throbbing.Â
"Maki! You assholeâ" you started, but he cut you off with a kiss, aggressive and claiming, his slick fingers trailing up to your lips.
"Taste yourself," he ordered, pushing them into your mouth. You sucked obediently, the tang of your arousal on your tongue, and he groaned. "You can be such a good girl when you want to, hm?â
âMakiiiiâŠâ You whined his name, the ache in you getting unbearable to cope up with, âWant you, please please pleaseeeeâŠâ
His eyes darkened with satisfaction. "That's better."Â
He dropped back down, combining his glorious mouth and fingers nowâtongue lashing your clit while his two thick fingers thrust inside, curling relentlessly. He added a third, the stretch intense, making you cry out as he worked you open, his free hand holding your hip down to prevent you from chasing it too fast.Â
âTaste like honey, baby.â He talked to youâor rather herâin between licks, âThis sweet only for me, yeah?â
The worship continuedâhis mouth praising your folds with sucks and nibbles, fingers pumping faster, hitting that spot over and over. He was like a wolf baying at the moon for his deer, a sacrificial ritual of love and bloodlust.
Your body tensed, the coil snapping as the orgasm crashed through you, waves of pleasure making you shake. You came hard, gushing around his fingers, his tongue lapping it all up as you rode it out, moaning his name.
He didn't stop until you were spent, fingers slowing to gentle strokes, mouth pressing soft kisses to your thigh. When he finally pulled away, his chin shiny, dark eyes locked on yours, he licked his lips.
"Atta girl.â Maki said, rising up. His hands went to your waist, steadying your dazed figure. God damn his tongue had just sent you to heaven, purgatory and back.
But of course, he wasn't done yet.
Maki's hands slid under your thighs, lifting you effortlessly from the desk as if you weighed nothing. Your legs wrapped around his waist instinctively, the remnants of your dress still bunched at your hips, the thigh slit exposing your skin to the friction of his pants.Â
His thick arms supported you completely, one hand cupping your ass while the other pressed against your back, holding you close. You buried your face in the crook of his neck, inhaling the clean scent of his skin mixed with the faint musk of arousal, your lips brushing his pulse point as he carried you out of the study and down the short hallway to your bedroom.
The door clicked shut behind you, and he didn't bother with the lightsâthe soft glow from the full moon filtering through the curtains was enough. As he lowered you toward the bed, your eyes went up to the ceiling.Â
Mirrors, according to you, were the highest form of embellishment a house could get. Why look at plaster when you can look at art? And therefore, your ceiling was not a ceiling at all.
It was a vast, flawless expanse of polished, silver-backed glass stretching from wall to wall. It was your most decadent indulgenceâa statement piece youâd insisted on during the penthouseâs renovation.
Now, in the moon-washed darkness, it captured the room in a soft, dreamlike negative. The pale sheets, the dark silhouette of Maki leaning over you, the spill of your own hairâall of it was duplicated in that cool, silent plane above.Â
It framed the scene with a breathtaking, almost surreal intimacy. You weren't just in the moment; you were watching it unfold from a divine, stolen vantage point.
You could see the powerful line of his shoulders, the way his muscles corded with the effort of holding himself above you. Your reflection was a study in surrender and want, eyes wide and dark, lips parted. Maki followed your gaze, a slow smirk curling his lips as he caught the hunger in your eyes.
"Like what you see, princess?" he murmured, his dark eyes locking onto yours before flicking up to the mirror.Â
Every touch, every shift, every unguarded expression was witnessed by the silent glass sky. It turned the private act into a performance for an audience of twoâyourselvesâforcing a brutal, beautiful honesty.
You reached for him, impatient, fingers fumbling at his belt, but he caught your wrists in one large hand, pinning them above your head with ease. His frame loomed over you, broad and imposing, making you feel caged in the best way.
"Ah-ah," he chided, voice low and teasing. "Nobody taught about patience, did they?â
He released your wrists but kept his body close, preventing you from moving as he hooked his fingers under the fallen neckline of your dress. Slowly, he peeled the fabric down your arms, the cool air pebbling your skin, and he paused to trace the curve of your collarbone with his thumb, his touch feather-light, reverent.
âSo prettyâŠ.â
You squirmed, a whine escaping your lips as you tried to tug at his shirt again. "Maki, come onâ"
"Patience, princess," he interrupted, his tone laced with that dominant edge that sent heat pooling between your legs.
He leaned down to press a soft kiss to the valley of your breasts, his blonde hair tickling your skin. You lifted your hips to help him yank the dress off, but he tsked, making you do it yourself while he watched, his hands now tracing the newly bared skin of your stomach, your ribs, worshipping the lines of your body with slow, possessive strokes.
Finally, the dress slipped off your ankles, leaving you completely naked on the bed, vulnerable under his gaze and the mirror's reflection. You felt exposed, your body arching slightly as his eyes roamedâover the swell of your breasts, the dip of your waist, the slickness still glistening between your thighs from earlier.
"BeautifulâŠ.." he breathed, but there was a teasing glint in his dark eyes. "But look at you, fidgeting like a spoiled princess who can't wait her turn."
You reached for his pants again, fingers brushing the zipper, but he went back just out of reach, chuckling darkly.Â
âOh no.â He said, âNo, you are going to watch.â
Maki unbuttoned his shirt the rest of the way, shrugging it off his shoulders to reveal the sculpted planes of his chest and the ridges of his abs.
His muscles flexed as he tossed the shirt aside, and in the mirror, you saw how fucking massive he wasâtall, broad, dwarfing you on the bed. He hooked his thumbs into his belt, unbuckling it with agonizing slowness. The leather slid through the loops, and he let it drop to the floor with a thud.
"Maki," you groaned, your hands fisting the sheets, thighs pressing together for some relief. The impatience burned, your body still humming from the orgasm he'd wrung out of you at the desk.
"What's the matter, princess? Can't handle a little wait?" He popped the button on his pants, drawing the zipper down inch by inch, the sound loud in the quiet room. His cock went free as he shoved the pants and boxers down his legs, kicking them away.Â
Oh.
Oh how beautiful.Â
It stood thick and heavy, veined and flushed, long and girthyâintimidating in its size, the head already leaking pre-cum. He wrapped a hand around it, stroking once, twice, his dark eyes never leaving yours.Â
âThis what you want so bad?â He asked, with that infuriatingly cocky tone to his voice, âMaybe I should make you earn it.â
âJust fuck me already.â You bit your lip, defiance sparking even as arousal throbbed through you, âOr donât tell me thatâs all you know how to do? Zip your pants down and stare?â
His eyes narrowed at your taunt, cocky smirk twisting into something darker and more dangerous, like how youâd seen him in the ring. The air in the bedroom thickened with tension, the moonlight casting shadows over his bare torso, highlighting the way his muscles coiled like a predator ready to pounce.Â
You lay there on the bed, your skin prickling under his gaze, the mirror above capturing every defiant inch of youâthighs clenched, chest heaving, that fire in your eyes reflected back at you.
Maki climbed onto the bed, the mattress dipping under his weight, and grabbed your ankles, yanking you down toward him until your ass was at the edge. His hands spread your thighs wiiiiide, exposing you fully, and he positioned himself between them, the blunt head of his cock nudging your entrance.Â
âWhat did I say baby?â Maki drawled, his voice a low rumble that vibrated through the room, laced with that infuriating amusement edged with steel. "We are going to keep that pretty little mouth shut.â
In the mirror, you saw it allâyour form splayed out, while he towered above, broad shoulders and chiseled chest making you look like a doll about to be claimed.
"Look at you," he growled, one hand trailing up your inner thigh, spreading you even wider with ease. His thumb brushed your slick folds, parting them roughly to expose your clit, still swollen from earlier, âYou act like youâre sooo brave and youâre already so wet for me. So letâs stay quiet for today, yeah?â
Defiance flared hotterâyou wouldn't beg, not yet. Instead, you rocked your hips up, grinding against his teasing touch, your voice coming out breathy but sharp. "Make me. If you're so big and bad, prove it."
A dark chuckle escaped him, but there was no humor in it, only raw hunger. He didn't move yet, rubbing the tip along your folds, coating himself in your wetness.Â
âWell, we can't have that now, can we?â
Then, with a firm thrust, Maki pushed inâthe stretch immediate and brutal, his thickness forcing your walls to yield. You almost screamed, hands flying to his shoulders, nails digging in as your body resisted the intrusion. He was fucking huge, filling you to the brim, the burn intense as he sank deeper, forcing inch by unrelenting inch.
âFuckâhah youâre so tight.â His voice was rough, âTight little cuntâs so pretty for me huh?â
Maki was enormous, the veins dragging along your inner walls, the head bullying past resistance until he seated himself fully, his hips grinding against yours, balls heavy against your ass.
He bottomed out, hips flush against yours and he held there, kindly letting you adjust. The fullness was overwhelming, every ridge and vein pulsing inside you, and in the mirror, you saw it allâhis frame engulfing yours, your legs splayed wide around his waist, his blonde hair falling over his forehead as he loomed.
You whimpered, rocking your hips experimentally, but he pinned you down down down, with his weight, one hand on your hip, the other bracing beside your head.Â
âSlow down baby, weâre gonna go slow first.â
He pulled back almost all the way, the drag exquisite, then slid back in with a loving, measured paceâlong, deep strokes that let you savor the way he filled you completely. His body covered yours like a blanket, his chest pressing against your breasts, his arms caging you in.
You could barely move beneath him, his size swallowing you whole, and the mirror amplified it: the way his back muscles flexed with each deep push, your smaller frame rocking gently, completely dominated yet cradled. He kissed you then, soft and deep, tongue mirroring the slow rhythm of his hips, his breath mingling with yours.
âAhhh fuckâŠ..youâre taking me so well baby.â He murmured against your lips, his pace unhurried, grinding deep on each inward push to hit that spot inside you, âSo perfect for myâhah fucking hellâŠ.â His words drowned out as he felt you squeeze the ever living life out his dick.Â
The words wove through the pleasure building in your core, his girth stroking that sensitive spot inside with each grind, his pubic bone rubbing your clit in lazy circles. His hands roamed, one cupping your breast, thumb flicking the nipple, the other tangling in your hair to tilt your head back, exposing your throat for his teeth to graze, like a primal hunter.Â
The pace stayed unhurried, building the tension like a simmer, his body heat enveloping you, sweat-slick skin sliding together. You melted into it, softening under the intimacy, your hands exploring his back, tracing the powerful lines of muscle. But even in the haze, that spark lingeredâyou nipped his shoulder, urging him with a muffled "Faster" against his neck.
Maki stilled inside you, lifting his head to meet your eyes, the shift in his making you moan again.
"Faster?â He cocked a brow, âYou don't get to decide that, do you princess?â Without warning, he slammed forward, the thrust jolting you up the bed, his cock driving deep and hard, âAlways so fucking demanding.â
The gentleness shattered, replaced by raw power as he set a punishing rhythmâhips snapping with brutal force, the bed creaking under the assault. Each plunge stretched you anew, the wet slap of skin echoing, his thickness pounding your walls without mercy.
"This what you need?â He snarled, grabbing your thighs and hooking them over his elbows, folding you in half to hit deeper. âMe pounding this sloppy pussy until you can't talk back?"
The angle was devastating, his cock spearing straight to your cervix, the pressure coiling tight in your belly. You cried out, the roughness making stars burst behind your eyelids, but you pushed back, meeting his thrusts, your nails raking down his back in retaliation.Â
The skin broke under your scratches, thin lines of blood welling up, and he hissed, the pain only spurring him on.
âAww, is she marking me up? You want everyone to know Iâm yours?â
Maki grabbed your wrists, pinning them above your head with one hand, his other gripping your thigh to hook it over his elbow, opening you wider. The angle let him hit even deeper, his balls slapping against your ass with every brutal drive.
In the mirror, the scene was chaotic and intoxicating: your body bouncing with each violent thrust, legs pinned wide, his massive form pounding into you relentlessly, blood-streaked back glistening with sweat. The size of him overwhelmed, your hands lost in the expanse of his muscles, utterly lost to the frenzy. Euphoria built like a storm, your walls fluttering around him, and he sensed it, one hand dropping to circle your clit roughly.
"Look at that," Maki panted. "Cum for me, princess, milk me fucking dry."
The command and the relentless pounding shattered you. Your orgasm crashed through you, pussy spasming wildly, gushing around his length as you arched off the bed, nails gouging deeper, more blood smearing between you. You screamed his name, body convulsing, and he didn't stop, fucking you through it, drawing out every tremor until you were sobbing with overstimulation.
Maki didn't stop, chasing his own release with erratic thrusts, and then he shatteredâwhining your name as he buried deep, cock pulsing, flooding you with thick ropes of cum. The warmth of it pushed you over again, a second climax crashing unexpectedly, your body seizing, walls clamping down to wring him dry.Â
You both rode it out, his hips grinding through the aftershocks. Maki collapsed over you, still buried inside, both of you panting, slick with sweat and his cum leaking out around where you joined. He pressed a kiss to your forehead, the roughness ebbing into sated warmth.
The room was filled with the sound of ragged breathing, the air thick and heavy. Slowly, carefully, he withdrew from you, a soft, wet sound in the quiet. You winced slightly at the sensitivity, a full-body shiver running through you.
Maki didn't go far. He shifted his weight, lying down on his back beside you, and before the cool air could fully settle on your skin, his arm slid beneath your shoulders.
He guided you gently, firmly, until you were curled into his side, your head pillowed on his chest. His other arm came around you, holding you close. The gesture was so instinctively protective, so tender after the ferocity of what had just passed.
You listened to the frantic hammer of his heart gradually slowing under your ear, syncing with your own. His skin was damp, his chest rising and falling in deep, steadying breaths. You traced a lazy, idle pattern over his ribs with your fingertips, feeling the solid reality of him.
This was real, and you hadn't even put up your performance. And neither had he.Â
You exhaled softly, your hand pausing for a second before continuing its lazy path, a small smile tugging faintly at your lips.
âAre you usually that rough with everybody?â you murmured, voice laced with quiet mischief, âOr am I special?â
There was a pause. Then a soft huff of laughter from above you, his chest shifting beneath your cheek.
âOnly the ones that break into fight rings and then run away from me,â he replied dryly.
Your fingers stilled for a second before you let out a quiet laugh, the sound softer than usual, less curated. âThatâs a very specific demographic.â
âYeah,â he murmured, his arm tightening just slightly around you, âhard to come by.â
You tilted your head just enough to glance up at him, your chin brushing his chest.
âAnd here I thought I was special.â
âYou are,â he said.
Your gaze lingered on him for a second longer than necessary before you settled back down, your hand resuming its idle movements. The warmth of the moment deepened, settling into something quiet and profound. You nuzzled closer, and his hold tightened infinitesimally.
âDo you think weâre supposed to say it now?â
He didnât need to ask what you meant. The words hovered in the space between you.
I love you.Â
They felt too big and too small all at onceâtoo monumental for this peaceful aftermath, yet too simple to contain the cataclysm of feeling. You felt the faint shift of his chest as he let out a quiet breath, his hand moving gently against your arm, thumb brushing absent patterns there.
âI donât know,â he admitted.
You tilted your head again, just slightly, considering. ââŠseems a bit soon.â
âA bit?â he echoed, faint amusement threading through his voice. You smiled against his skin.
âOkay, very.â That pulled a quiet chuckle from him, his hold on you tightening like he didnât quite want to let go of this moment.
It would be like trying to capture lightning in a bottle. The sentiment was real, you could feel it in the way he held you, in the devastating surrender youâd both just enacted, but the moment for that particular declaration was both too raw and not quite right, a half baked muffin.Â
âThereâs always tomorrow,â he said after a second.
For someone whose entire life was built around the now, the fast rushing air of the present, of knowing when and where to say a particular thing, tomorrow felt like a sweet word.Â
Tomorrow, it implied a future, a morning after and a continuation. Maki pressed a kiss to your head and you thought about tomorrow.Â
What a beautiful word.Â
âTomorrow sounds good.â
Maki let out a slow breath, one that felt steadier than the ones before, like something inside him had finally found a place to rest. Your fingers curled against his chest, your body already softening into sleep. Your breath evened out, your body settling completely into him now, the last of your thoughts slipping away as sleep pulled you under.
But not before one final, fleeting thing crossed your mind. Tomorrow meant you would wake up to this, to him, to whatever this had become.Â
Well it really was no fair that you had to wait that long. No fair, no fair, no fair! One thing was for sure though. The Maki Project had officially borne its fruit. Sure you didn't get him to quit. But at least you got him crazy over you. And boy were you crazy over him too.
Pretty boy, with the pretty eyes and the pretty hair.
fin.
A/N: guys this is officially my longest fic. It was initially a very short fic but then one idea collided with another and here we are. Again, a very happy birthday to Kayzie baby, yes 90% of this was catered towards herâthe benefits of knowing her kinks from years of conversation ehehehe I'm sure she's gonna scream in the gc about this. One thing to say though, I am still not gonna write for the maknae line, again i lowkey just can't, but I hope you guys enjoyed this fic!!!
Synopsis: You and Maki were from two completely opposite words. But hey, worlds always collide to make galaxies don't they?
Pairing: bodyguard Maki x rich!fem!reader
Warnings: SMUT MINORS DNI, p in v, oral (f receving), fingering, edging, mean dom maki (he goes soft too issokay), rough sex, ceiling mirror ehehe, brat taming, manhandling, degradation, forced proximity, reader is spoilt af but our boy's gonna put us in place, mention of alcohol and blood, violence, a LOT and I mean a LOT of plot gomenesai
A/N: Happy birthday to my beloved, my kuchumuchupuchu, the haechan to my mark, the taki to my yudai @wichujunseo Kayz my baby my daughter i birthed her guys and i love her so much. breaking my no maknae line fic rule because Kayz is high on the maki pill and as her mother its my responsibility to feed her everything on her birthday. As always, enjoy, my darlings! (had to divide it into two parts because of the 1000 block restriction smut in next part!)
Word Count: 17k in this one, 30k overall (i dont play about bday fics yall)
PART TWO
No fair.Â
Those were the words that had been going on in your brain since the morning. No fair, no fair, no fair!Â
Everybody knew you were the most obedient girl to ever exist, an angel who could do no wrong, practically godâs own daughterâŠ.
with a charge for assault.
âDad, I was defending myself!â You whined, slamming your hands down on your fatherâs desk, staring him straight in the eyes with the gaze of a daughter whoâd never been refused, âAnd Iâm a grown adult, I can protect myself just fine.âÂ
âProtect yourself?â Your father set his file down, leaning back in his chair. Behind him, the cityâs skyline stretched infinitely, the bright lights making you ache for a night out. âThis is not because you canât protect yourself my dear. Iâm doing this to supervise you.âÂ
âExactly!â You threw your hands in the air like youâd just heard the most ridiculous thing in the world, âIâm not a little girl anymore to require your supervision, dad, Iâm fine on my own.â
âTell that to the man you punched.â Your father laughed, not too cruel, but to your rage-filled mind it seemed to be so, âYou are a grown adult.â He conceded, his voice a calm, deep river flowing against your torrent of emotion. "And that is precisely why this is necessary. An adult who makes public choices."Â
He let the word 'choices' linger, his gaze drifting to the framed newspaper article on the wallâa feature on his latest philanthropic venture, a stark contrast to the gossip column snippet currently folded in his drawer about a 'certain socialite's late-night altercation.'
Your father's mahogany desk was a fortress of polished perfection, reflecting the frustration etched on your face. The scent of aged leather and faint cigar smoke hung in the air, a smell you associated with power and, at this moment, oppressive control. Your manicured nails, painted a shade of midnight pearl, pressed into the smooth wood as you leaned forward, refusing to break eye contact.
âDad please.â You said, doing that look with your eyes that had gotten you your first pony at age nine, âI swear I wonât do it ever again.â You tilted your head just slightly, eyes wide, lashes lowering in that practiced way that had once melted him instantly.
For a secondâjust a secondâyou thought you had him. Your fatherâs gaze lingered on you, the tension in his shoulders shifting, subtle but noticeable if you knew him as well as you did. His fingers tapped once against the armrest of his chair, a habit he had when considering something.
Hope flickered between your eyes. Perhaps youâd be free as a bird again, free as a butterfly to roam this beautiful world and flutter your wingâ
âNo.â
And there went all your dreams and aspirations.Â
The word landed cleanly, firm and final. It didnât matter how soft your voice had been or how convincing your eyes were. It didnât matter that you were his daughter, that you had always gotten your way before. This time, he wasnât bending.
âI believe that you believe that,â he said, his tone measured, almost gentleâbut that only made it worse. âBut I cannot bet my cards on mere belief.âÂ
Your jaw tightened as you stood up straighter. âI can control myself.â
âAnd yet,â he replied calmly, âyou didnât.â Your father sighed, shaking his head and leaning forward, his gaze now that of an actual father and not just a guardian, âMy dear, just meet with him first before you jump to conclusions. He will only be there to protect you wherever you go and you wonât even notice heâs there. Iâve acquired only the best for my daughter.âÂ
The best. You scoffed internally. You must have heard that sentence a billion times ever since you were a kid. The best school, the best nanny, the best type of companions, oh the best was always there to groom you into the perfect woman.
And now you were going to meet the best bodyguard ever. No, the best supervisor.Â
âFine.â You said, crossing your arms, accepting defeat for the meantime, âBut Iâm not promising to be nice.â Youâd cook up some escape plan later. For now, youâd just have to meet whoever this ax wielding assassin was.
âI donât expect anything more.â Your father said, pressing a button under his desk for his assistant, âSend him in.âÂ
The door to his office, a slab of dark oak with a platinum handle opened without a sound and somebody entered with a stillness that seemed to absorb the room's noise. You did not turn to look, because looking meant acknowledging this was real, that he was actually going through with it.Â
âMy dear.â Your father said, standing up, âMeet Maki.â
You rolled your eyes with an annoyed sigh; that sounded like such a stupid name. Maki, who even names their kid that? You spun on your heel to face the to-be bane of your existence, the dumb face youâd have to see everyday now, the person whoâd follow you everywhere andâ
Oh.
Oh my.Â
MakiâŠ..now what a beautiful name that was.
And what a beautiful man.
It was an insult to your outrage, this traitorous observation. He wasn't handsome in the conventional, polished way of the men in your circles.
His blonde hair was not the sun-kissed, effortless gold of a yacht holiday, but a sharper, paler hue, like winter wheat, a single, rebellious strand falling across his forehead.
His features were indeed sharpâa blade of a nose, a jawline that could cut glass, and eyes that weren't soft but a cool, assessing dark colour like the leather of a watch you'd never bother to wear.
The suitâGod the fucking suitâfit him like it had been tailored to the millimeter, sharp lines accentuating an already sharp frame, broad shoulders, narrow waist, everything clean and precise.
He was a tool, and your father had just acquired him. And you were screaming at yourself that your first coherent thought was heâs kind of cute.
Immediately followed by absolutely not, you horny dumbfuck.
"Maki is one of the most qualified people I could find." your father said, his tone now one of formal introduction. "He will be ensuring your safety and... discretion, from today onward."
And that was the trigger. Ensuring your discretionâthat phrase snapped whatever thin thread of composure you had left. This wasn't about safety, it was about image, about controlling the narrative, about making sure the angry daughter of the empire didn't tarnish the gleaming facade.
Your expression hardened instantly, the softness from moments ago vanishing like it had never existed.
âNo.â The word was a flat, cold stone.Â
Your father didnât react to you. You let out a short, incredulous laugh, stepping back as if the very idea was offensive on a physical level. âOh, youâre serious.â
âMaki,â your father continued, completely ignoring your tone, âthis is my daughter.â
Maki inclined his head slightly, his gaze meeting yours for the briefest moment. âMiss.â
That was it. He was calm, respectful and controlled and it was pissing you off more than if heâd been rude.
You folded your arms, shifting your weight onto one leg, eyes narrowing as you looked him overâreally looked this time. The clean lines of his suit, the way he held himself, the sharpness in his features that made him look almost untouchable. And stillâannoyinglyâattractive. You scoffed, dragging your gaze back to your father.
âI donât need him.â You snatched a crystal paperweight from the deskâa miniature sculpture of your family's corporate logo, and for a wild second, considered throwing it. Instead, you slammed it back down, the clack ringing like a gunshot. "I am not a child to be babysat by someâŠâŠ.some suit!" You gestured wildly at Maki, who hadn't moved a muscle, his expression unreadable.
âHeâs not optional.â your father responded, cold as ever. He was used to this, your tantrums were not the chaotic flailing of a toddler, but a performance of entitled despair. The silk of your designer blouse whispered with your movement; the diamond studs in your ears caught the light from the panoramic windows, scattering tiny, angry rainbows.
Your temper flared instantly. âYou donât get to decide that!â
âI already have.â
That was it, that finality in his voice. Your chest rose sharply as you exhaled, anger bubbling back up, hotter this time because youâd almostâalmostâthought you could avoid this.You grabbed your bag off the chair with more force than necessary, the strap sliding over your shoulder as you turned toward the door.
âUnbelievable,â you muttered, stomping on the ground, but your heels were Italian leather, and the sound on the Persian rug was a muted thud of defiance. Then you paused, just for a second. Your eyes flicked back to Maki, almost involuntarily.
âDonât get comfortable,â you said, your voice cool, edged with warning. âThis isnât happening.â
Maki didnât argue, didnât smirk, didnât react at all, really. âUnderstood,â he said simply, which somehow made it worse.
Your exit was a cascade of motionâthe swish of your tailored skirt, the furious click of your heels now on the marble hallway floor, the toss of your hair as you refused to look back. You left behind the sanctuary of power, the scent of leather and cigar, and the two men: one your weary king, the other his newly appointed, oddly cute, and silently observant knight.
Behind you, the door shut with a solid click as Maki sighed softly. Your father walked to the grand windows, standing in front of the glass looking out at the skyline with his hands tucked behind his back.Â
âDo you see what you're dealing with, Mr. Mauss?â Your father said, voice calm as ever, âI understand if you want to opt out.âÂ
Maki didnât answer immediately. The soft click of the door still lingered in the air, as if your presence hadnât fully left the room yetâlike a storm that had passed but left its pressure behind. He stood where youâd left him, posture straight, hands loosely at his sides, exhaling calmly.Â
He turned to face your father, whose silhouette was framed against the sprawling city beyond the glassâan empire stretched out beneath his feet, every light a reminder of what he controlled, and what he was trying, unsuccessfully, to control now.
Maki adjusted the cuff of his sleeve, a small, precise motion. âWith respect, sir,â he said evenly, âI was briefed.â A beat.
âAnd?â your father prompted.
âSheâs not the problem,â he said, his voice even, devoid of any irritation or amusement. It was a clear, factual tone, âAnd I do not wish to opt out.â
âNot the problem?â Your father turned then, one brow lifting slightly. âNo?â
âNo, sir.â Makiâs tone remained steady, âSheâs just a bitâŠ.reactive.â Your father studied him for a moment, weighing that.
âVolatile.â Your father turned fully to him, a faint weary smile touching his lips, âThatâs one word for her, has been ever since she could talk. Thinks the world is a gala held in her honour.â He sighed, walking back to his desk and resting his hands on the polished surface. âThis incident at the club⊠it wasnât entirely unprovoked. The man wasâŠ..handsy. But her response was a front-page fist and not a discreet word to security.â He sighed heavily again, âHer problem is the spectacle.â
Maki gave a single, slight nod. âSo the problem will come with the discretion and not the protection I presume.â
âPrecisely.â Your father picked up the paperweight youâd almost broken, turning it over in his fingers. âSheâs clever, resourceful and used to getting her way. She will try to lose you, embarrass you or bribe you. She has a black card and the moral compass of a spoiled hawk.â
âI expect her to.â Maki said, with the faintest smile.Â
Your father studied him for a long moment, looking for a crack or a hint of doubt. A flicker of something, approval perhaps, crossed his expression when he saw none.
A genuine, relieved smile broke through your fatherâs stern demeanor. âGood. Iâm entrusting you with my greatest treasure and my biggest headache. Keep her safe, Mr. Mauss, and for godâs sake, try to keep her out of the gossip columns.â
âYes sir.â Maki gave another concise nod, as if the word was a contract.Â
âSheâll likely be heading to her usual damage-control locations,â your father said, glancing at a sleek tablet on his desk. âThe spa at The Laurent, perhaps the boutique on Rodeo, or the club Chaconne, which is most likelyââ He gave a short laugh, ââconsidering itâs owned by her best friends. Her access codes and vehicle trackers are already linked to your system.â Your father took a deep breath and smiled again like a challenge, âShe knows how to lose people, I am warning you.â
At that, the faintest hint of something shifted in Makiâs postureânot arrogance, not quite confidence but something close.
âShe can try.â
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âHeâs not optional.â You threw your hands in the air dramatically, your body deflating like a balloon on the bar table,âCan you believe the actual fucking audacity?âÂ
âI can.â Euijoo said coolly, sipping on his gin, âHe is your dad, you know.âÂ
âWhose side are you on here?â The words came out sharper than you intended, but you didnât bother softening them. Not when your entire evening had been hijacked by the concept of Maki.
Across from you, Euijoo didnât even flinch. He leaned lazily against the bar, glass of gin balanced between elegant fingers, the ice clinking softly as he took another unbothered sip.
âRealityâs side.â He said smoothly. You scoffed, dragging your fingers through your hair in frustration before letting yourself slump forward against the bar.
The air inside Club Chaconne was a languid sigh after the storm of your exit. It was the quiet hour, the space between the frantic preparation for the night and the chaos of its peak. A few patrons, silhouettes of early arrivals or dedicated regulars, were scattered like elegant shadows in the low-slung velvet booths.
The lighting was muted, a soft, golden glow emanating from artfully hidden sources, casting long shadows across the polished black marble floors. The only real illumination came from the bar itselfâa sweeping arc of backlit onyx where bottles of every conceivable spirit glimmered like a liquid jewel collection.
The music was a low, thrumming bassline, felt more in the chest than heard in the ears. The scent was clean, expensiveâpolished wood, top-shelf alcohol and a hint of the jasmine flowers artfully arranged in crystal vases.
Behind the counter, Nicholas was polishing a glass with a towel so white it looked surreal, his movements a slow, rhythmic dance. He watched you over the rim of it like he was enjoying this far too much.
âIâm absolutely on your side,â Nicholas said, setting the glass down. âI just also think this is the most entertaining thing thatâs happened all week.â
You shot him a glare. âGlad my suffering is keeping you stimulated.â
âIt really is,â he replied easily, as Euijoo rolled his eyes.
âLook sweetie, weâll always support your decisions no matter how fucked up they are.â He said, placing a hand up to stop you from responding before continuing, "It's just thatâŠ.heâs your dad. You know, the man who signs the checks for everything.â He gestured vaguely around the club, a kingdom funded, in part, by your familyâs corporate empire.
You groaned, dropping your forehead briefly against the bar before lifting it again, grabbing your drink and taking a longer sip than you probably should have.
âHe assigned me a bodyguard,â you muttered, like saying it again might somehow make it less real. âA bodyguard. Like Iâm some kind of liability.â
âYou did punch someone,â Nicholas pointed out, with a shit eating grin.
âI was defending myself!â
âMhm.â
You narrowed your eyes at him, but the alcohol was already starting to take the edge off your angerâjust enough to make everything feel a little looser, a little less controlled.
âHeâs going to follow me everywhere,â you continued, waving your hand vaguely. âEverywhere, Euijoo. Do you understand how insane that is?â
Nicholas leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on the bar, interest sharpening.
âEverywhere?â he repeated, a hint of amusement slipping through.
âYes, everywhere!â you snapped, though it came out a little less fierce this time.
Nicholas tilted his head, studying you for a second. And then with the slyest grin everâ
âIs he cute?â
You froze. Euijoo choked on his drinkâactually chokedâcoughing lightly as he turned away, clearly trying (and failing) not to laugh. It was the kind of question only a close friend could ask, one that cut through the drama to the petty, human core of it.
Your eyes snapped to Nicholas. âAre you serious right now?â
âItâs a valid question,â he said, completely unfazed. âIf youâre being forced to have a personal shadow, he might as well be aesthetically pleasing.â
You stared at him. Then looked away. Then took another sip of your drink. An image of that sharp fucking jawline came into your head and you downed your drink, looking at Nicholas with a defeated sort of despair in your eyes. The sort of despair only a priest who'd been disappointed by his deity could have.Â
ââŠyes.â
The word slipped out before you could stop it. You immediately scowled, glaring into your glass like it had betrayed you, feeling the tipsy warmth from your drink mixing with your lingering rage. The truth, that traitorous observation, bubbled up.Â
âBut thatâs not the point,â you added quickly, pointing at him with unnecessary intensity. âThat is not the point.â
Euijoo let out a quiet laugh beside you. âOf course not.â
âHeâs justâŠâ You sighed, your voice heavy now, âheâs just stupidly, annoyingly cute! Stupid fucking blonde hair and that sharpâŠeverything and he just stands there looking all composed and itâsâitâsâŠ.fuck itâs infuriating!âÂ
Your father may have been right about one thing. The world indeed was a gala held in your honour. Euijoo smiled apologetically at the few patrons who had been startled by your sudden outburst, while Nicholas tried to hide his face.
âItâs everything about him.â you lamented, taking another long drink from a glass Nicholas for some unwitty reason slid you. The alcohol was beginning to blur the sharp edges of your anger, softening it into a hazy, self-pitying fog. âHeâs likeâŠ.a symbol of my dadâs control! And heâs just gonna be there now. Watching with those stupid pretty eyes and that stupid pretty face.â
You were tipping into proper tipsiness now, the world taking on a slightly softer, more forgiving focus. The clubâs ambient light seemed warmer. Your grievances started to loop, becoming less coherent. âAnd he said âunderstood.â Just âunderstood.â Like I was giving him a weather reportâŠ.âŠâ
âAlright sweetheart, that's enough alcohol for one day.â Euijoo said, taking your glass from you. Or more precisely, trying to take your glass from you.Â
âNoooooâŠâ You whined, though your voice had lost its bite, âYouâre not listening Euijoooo. Makiâs just sooo annoying and heâs soo prettyâŠI want to smooch that pretty face but heâs justââ
The door to the club opened, which you failed to notice. Euijoo, however, ever so sharp, did. The subtle shift in his expression was the only warning, his gaze flicking toward the entrance, something curious settling there. Nicholas followed a second later, eyes glancing over your shoulder, as you were slurring into a renewed rant about the single rebellious strand of hair that fell across Makiâs forehead.
So this was the pretty bodyguard huh, Nicholas thought, pursing his lips to stop himself from laughing.
Maki stood just inside the doorway, his sharp silhouette framed against the darker hallway beyond. His eyes simply found you at the bar instantly, as if you were the only point of interest on a map. The low golden lights of the club caught in his blonde hair, softening it just enough to contrast the sharpness of everything else about him. The suit was still immaculate like he hadnât so much as creased it since youâd stormed out hours ago, looking neither out of place nor entirely comfortable in the curated luxury of Chaconne.Â
Nicholas, the traitor that he was, leaned slightly closer to you and murmured, âHe found you faster than I expected.â
Euijoo lifted his glass again, watching with open interest now. âWell,â he said lightly, âthis just got more interesting.â
âWhatâŠâ You slurred, slamming your now empty glass down on the bar with a defiant clack, blissfully and tipsily unaware of the approaching storm.
He moved with that same unnerving silence, his footsteps making no sound on the polished marble. He wasn't rushing, but his progress was inexorable. Your friends' reactions were a silent chorus. Euijooâs smirk had vanished, replaced by a look of pure, analytical interest. Nicholasâs amusement had morphed into a quiet, appreciative assessment. So this is the pretty bodyguard, his expression seemed to say.
âWhat are you two lookin atâŠâ You said, lifting your head up with much strain, letting out a dramatic gasp as you saw the cause of the shadow that fell across the bar top, âGuys this is him!â You gasped again, eyes wide open cartoonishly, âoh my god I summoned him.â You gasped again, grabbing weakly at Euijooâs sleeve like youâd just witnessed something supernatural, âI am powerful.â
Nicholas turned away instantly, shoulders shaking. Euijoo pressed his lips together, failing to remain neutral and Maki, of course, did not react.
He stopped right in front of you, close enough now that the delicious details were unavoidableâthe crisp collar of his shirt, the faint crease where his sleeve bent at the wrist, the way that one rebellious strand of blonde hair still refused to stay in place.
âMiss,â he said, calmly. You squinted at him, leaning forward slightly like you were trying to confirm he was real.
ââŠyouâre not supposed to be here,â you informed him, very seriously.
âI am.â
You frowned at that, deeply dissatisfied.
âNo,â you insisted, shaking your head with surprising conviction. âNo, I left. That means youâreâŠdismissed.â You made a vague flicking motion with your hand, like you were shooing him away. âGo. Shoo.â
âI canât do that.â
You stared at him. Then leaned back slightly, blinking slowly as if trying to process the sheer audacity.
âSee?â you said, turning to your friends like this proved everything. âHe doesnât listen. I donât like that.â
âWe noticed,â Euijoo murmured as Maki stepped a fraction closer.
âMiss, itâs time to leave.â You immediately shook your head, too fast and way too dramatic.
âNo.â
âMissââ
âNo.â You repeated, louder this time, folding your arms like that settled it, which made you almost topple sideways off the stool. Euijooâs hand flew up to your elbow to steady you.âIâm not going. I live here now.â
âYou do not.âÂ
âI do,â you argued stubbornly, gesturing vaguely around you. âThis is my emotional support bar.â
Nicholas made a strangled noise. Euijoo pinched the bridge of his nose. Maki exhaled, his shoulders moving with him.
He didnât argue nor did he repeat himself. He simply watched you for another three heartbeats, his gaze taking in your glazed eyes, your slightly slack posture, the way you were clinging to the bar for balance.Â
âVery well,â he said, his tone utterly neutral.
Before you could process what âvery wellâ meant in this context, he moved.
And then you fully understood that you were shorter and a whole lot weaker than him and his gigantic self.Â
One arm slid behind your back, the other beneath your knees, his grip firm but careful as he lifted you clean off the barstool in one smooth motion, cradling you to his chest. You let out a startled, breathy sound, hands instinctively grabbing onto him.
âHey! Put me down! You canâtâIâm a grownâput me down!â You flailed weakly, but your limbs felt heavy, disconnected. The warmth of his body, the solid strength of his arms, the faint, clean scent of his soapâit was all strangely anchoring amidst the dizzy spin of the room.
Your words slurred together as your head tipped forward, landing against his shoulder, your earlier fire extinguished into soft, even breaths. For the first time all evening, you looked more human, and not a spoiled untouchable daughter.
ââŠyouâre⊠annoyingly comfortable,â you mumbled, voice fading. Maki didnât respond, instead turning to Nicholas and Euijoo, who were watching the scene play out like it was their evening soap opera.
âMy apologies for the disruption,â Maki said. His tone was polite, professional, as if he were excusing himself from a mildly tedious meeting.
Nicholas, recovering his composure, gave a slow, impressed nod. Euijoo just raised his glass in a silent salute, a smile playing on his lips again.
âHer carâs out front.â Euijoo said sweetly, âWeâll get someone to drop it by her house.â
âThank you.â Maki adjusted his hold slightly, ensuring you were secure, his movements careful like he was handling something far more fragile than youâd ever allow yourself to be seen as.
Your grip on his suit tightened slightly, fingers curling into the fabric as your earlier resistance dissolved into something softer, quieter.
âStill donât like youâŠâ you added faintly. A pause, then, barely audibleâ
ââŠbut youâre pretty.â
Euijoo choked again. Nicholas gave up entirely, turning his back to the scene with a silent laugh. Maki, of course, said nothing, turning and walking toward the exit, carrying you as if you weighed no more than your own designer coat.
Your protests grew fainter, muffled against the fine material of his suit jacket. The fight drained out of you, replaced by an overwhelming exhaustion. The gentle rhythm of his walk was hypnotic, the clubâs lights blurring into a golden streak.
ââm not⊠listeningâŠâ you mumbled into his chest, your eyelids unbearably heavy.
By the time he reached the door you were already asleep, your breathing even, your weight settled fully against him, no tension left in your body at all. He adjusted his hold just slightly, making sure you were secure. And then he stepped out into the night, carrying you with the same quiet certainty he seemed to carry everything else like letting go had never been an option.
The city was still alive outsideâlights glowing, distant sounds hummingâbut here, in this moment, everything felt oddly still.
Maki reached the car, opening the back door with one hand before carefully lowering you inside, making sure your head didnât hit anything, adjusting you just enough that you were comfortable. He secured the seatbelt across your slumbering form, his movements precise and gentle.
Your grip on his suit loosened, but didnât fully let go. He paused for a fraction of a second, looking down at you. Then, gently he freed the fabric from your hand and closed the door, moving to the driverâs seat. He glanced back once at the illuminated sign of Club Chaconne, sliding into the driverâs seat, the engine purring to life.Â
In the rearview mirror, you were peacefully asleep, a stark contrast to the tempest of the last hour.Â
Spoilt little pretty princess.
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It was, by all accounts, a perfect morning for Nakakita Yuma. His car had just been washed, heâd gotten his dry cleaning done on time, the sun was out, the birds were singing and hey was that a butterfly that just flew past him?
Yuma paused mid-step, one hand adjusting the cuff of his sleeve as he watched it drift lazily past, its wings catching the light in fleeting flashes of color. He took in a deep breath and exhaled, crisp air filling his lungs to the brim. Life, for the moment, was in harmonious order.Â
Keyword: for the moment.
Because absolutely nothing would ever be in order on the days after youâve had three drinks over at Chaconne. Yuma had found it suspicious that you hadn't called him screaming about whatever stupid shit you did while being drunk off your ass last night, but he swallowed his curiosity, opting instead to take a nice little ride up to your house before work.
The morning sun streamed through the floor-to-ceiling windows of your penthouse, painting the minimalist white furniture in stripes of gold, a scene of impossible serenity. He raised a hand and knocked a firm, polite triplet on the heavy oak door.
The door opened. Your maid, Val, stood there, composed as always, though there was the faintest flicker of somethingâapology? embarrassment?âin her expression, a masterpiece of professional composure stretched thin over profound exhaustion.Â
âGood morning, sir,â she greeted.
Before Yuma could respond however, as if on cue, a sound echoed down the sprawling hallwayâa long, guttural, utterly undignified scream, followed by the distinct thump of a pillow being assaulted. His lips twitched with a deep, familiar fondness as he sighed, smiling sympathetically at your poor maid.
ââŠis she being murdered?â he asked, tone dry.
Val sighed, stepping aside to let him in. âNo, sir.â Another scream followedâthis one more drawn out, buried deep into fabric.
Yuma stepped inside. The penthouse was immaculateâsunlight spilling across marble floors, reflecting off glass and polished surfaces.
He didnât need to be shown the way. He knew this place almost as well as his own. He walked past the abstract art worth more than most houses, past the silent, gleaming kitchen, his shoes silent on the polished floors. He followed the sound of the tantrum to your bedroom door, which was slightly ajar.
Pushing it open, he leaned against the frame, crossing his arms. The scene was one of glorious, opulent devastation. Silk sheets were tangled, a throw pillow lay defeated on the floor and in the center of the king-sized bed, you were face-down, buried in a mountain of pillows, your voice muffled but vehement.
âWhyââ your voice came, distorted and furious, ââdoes my head feel like itâs been HIT BY A TRUCKââÂ
A pillow muffled the rest. Yuma listened as you groaned dramatically into your pillow like the world itself had personally wronged you. A faint, almost amused breath left him.
âYou know,â Yuma said, his voice calm and clear, cutting through your pillow-muffled tirade, âfor a moment outside, I thought Iâd stepped into a different universe. The sun was shining, my life was in orderâŠ..and then I remembered I was coming to see you and it was like a slap to the face..â
You froze. Then, slowly, you peeled your face from the pillow. Your hair was a magnificent disaster, your eyes were slightly puffy, and your expression was one of pure, betrayed outrage. âYuma? What are you doing here? Who let you in?â
âVal.â he said, strolling into the room. âThe woman who deserves sainthood and a massive raise.â He picked up the fallen pillow, dusting it off with a fastidious flick of his wrist before placing it neatly at the head of the bed. âI heard about your newâŠ..accessory.â
You groaned, rolling onto your back to stare at the ceiling. âDonât remind me. Thatâs why Iâm here. In prison.â
âThis is the nicest prison on earth,â Yuma observed, glancing at the panoramic view of the skyline, âSoâŠâ He sat gracefully on the edge of a chaise lounge near the window, relaxing his entire body like he wasn't about to say the words that were about to make you go insane in the next five minutes, âMaki huh?â
At the name, you let out another wordless sound of frustration, grabbing a smaller pillow and hugging it to your chest and for a moment, his mind drifted to memories he still couldn't forget.
Back to the ugliest uniforms which you somehow managed to make look designer, back to classrooms where you sat two rows ahead, spinning your pen instead of paying attention, back to detentions you absolutely deservedâand somehow talked your way out of anyway. You had always been like this, loud, reckless and unapologetically alive.
And completely incapable of dealing with the consequences the next morning.
âHeâs just soâŠâ You inhaled deeply, looking up for a second resisting the urge to scream again and then flopping back down onto your pillow, âHe carried me,â you said finally, âLast night. I was at Chaconne, and I wasâŠâŠupset.â Yuma barked a laugh at that and you continued on, knowing your signature glare wouldnât work on him, âAnd he just fucking walked in andâŠâŠpicked me up like I was some child. Carried me right out of there while I was screaming.â
âAnd?âÂ
âAnd then I fell asleep in the car.â
âAnd?ââFor fuckâs sake Yuma.â You groaned, flopping onto your side to face his utterly relaxed figure, âWhy are you here anyways? Thought you had that weird student thing in France.âÂ
âWeird student thing,â he repeated, with a small huff of amusement. âYou mean my fellowship program?â
âYes, that,â you waved vaguely. âThe one where you disappear and become pretentious and European.â
âI was already pretentious,â he pointed out mildly. You squinted at him as a faint smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, gone almost as quickly as it appeared, âIâm back early,â he said simply.
You narrowed your eyes again, studying him now despite your headache. âThatâs not an answer.â
âYes it is.â He stretched his legs out, crossing them at the ankles, the picture of casual elegance against the stark white of the chaise.
âItâs a bad one.â
He shrugged slightly, unfazed. âI had reasons.â
âSuspicious,â you muttered. Yuma didnât elaborate. Instead, his gaze drifted back to you, taking in the state of your room, the way you were half-buried in blankets, the faint crease between your brows from lingering frustration.
âHe carried you,â he said again, that cat-like smirk back on his face.
You immediately groaned. âDonât start.â
âIâm not,â he replied. âIâm observing.â
âWell, stop observing!â
âYou knowâŠ.â He bit the inside of his cheek, âYouâre reacting very strongly for someone who claims it didnât matter.â
ââŠIâm not reacting strongly.â You deadpanned.
âYou are.â
âIâm not!â
âOk, miss defensive.â You threw the pillow at him. He caught it easily, barely shifting from his relaxed position.
âSee?â he said.
âI hate you.â
âNo, you donât.âÂ
You groaned dramatically like a bullet had just hit you, staring up at the ceiling like it had personally betrayed you.
âIt was justââ you started, then stopped, frowning slightly. âIt was annoying.â
âMm.â
âAnd invasive.â
âOf course.â
âAndââ you hesitated, then scowled, ââunnecessary.â
Yuma didnât respond immediately. You turned your head slightly, just enough to see him watching you nowânot amused this time, not teasing. Just watching like a cheshire cat.
âAnd?â he prompted again, softer. You clicked your tongue, rolling your eyes like the question itself was offensive.
âAnd nothing,â you snapped. A pause, then almost begrudgingly, âI don't know, he just felt soâŠ.warm.â
Nakakita Yuma had known you ever since youâd been old enough to say the words âI want thisâ. Never in all his years of life had he heard the word âwarmâ coming out from you to describe anything other than a warmed rum.Â
âWarm?â He started, gaze sharpening. You huffed, pulling the blanket up like you could hide inside it.
âDonât even start.â You scowled, âYou know how easily manipulated I am by pretty faces.â Yuma snorted at that and you sighed, âAll these years of training against that and this asshole just strolls in with that stupid hair and that stupid jaw and breaks me.â You clicked your tongue, biting your lower lip as images of the man in question came into your mind. That gorgeously neat hair, those deep eyes, that waist that looked like it needed a few kisses, maybe the universe really was against you.Â
Yuma stared at you for a long moment, not even blinking. He was merely absorbing the absolute nonsense you had just poured out like it was a perfectly reasonable crisis.
He exhaled sharply through his nose, a laugh threatening, barely contained. His shoulders shook once before he composed himself again, pressing his lips together like he was doing you a favor by not openly losing it.
ââŠmanipulated,â he repeated.
âYes,â you snapped, already irritated that he wasnât taking this with the seriousness it deserved. âItâs a real problem.â
âClearly.â
âIâm being serious, Yuma.â
âSo am I.â
You narrowed your eyes at him. He didnât even try to look sympathetic. You flopped back again with a groan, dragging a hand down your face.Â
âManipulated by pretty faces is one thing,â he said finally, his voice thoughtful. âAcknowledging theyâreâŠ.warm is another. For you, thatâs a five-alarm fire.â
âAnd in the fire I shall burn.â You said dramatically, âIâm considering this a tactical oversight for now.â You grumbled, but the words are weak. You were too busy mentally cataloguing the offense: the solid feel of his chest, the secure cradle of his arms, the way your own furious screaming had justâŠ..muffled itself against him, smothered by a baffling sense of safety. And that stupid, stupid hair.Â
âSo tell me if Iâm getting this right.â Yuma said, tone relaxed as ever, âYouâre mad and going out of your wits because someone broke that algorithm and those walls you'd built up over the years right?âÂ
Even if youâd had a twin sister, nobody in the world could read you as easily as Nakakita Yuma could.Â
âHe just walked in and broke the damn algorithm!â You sighed, flopping an arm over your eyes âYears of training! Nicholas with his whole tall dark handsome thing, Euijoo with the brooding poet thing, that one Austrian count with the jawline who turned out to just really love taxidermyâI had the perfect system, Yuma.â You were speaking about the matter as if it were the worldâs number one problem. âAnd thisâŠâŠthis bodyguard just strolls in with his perfect hair and his perfect arms and bypasses the whole system. Itâs disrespectful!â You made a frustrated noise, biting your lower lip. âI have to deal with him constantly now and it is eating away at me Yuma.âÂ
Yuma tilted his head slightly, his lips twitching. Ahh the horrors of a beautiful man.Â
ââŠconstantly.â He echoed.
âYes! Heâs going to be there, here, everywhere. Watching, existing, breathing in my general vicinity.â
âHow tragic.â
âIt is tragic!â you shot back, sitting up again. âDo you understand the psychological damage this is going to cause me?â
âI think youâll survive.â You glared at him.
âDonât patronize me!â you shot back, the sheer absurdity of it was honestly starting to pierce the cloud of self-pity. âI want him gone, Yuma. Today. A woman needs her privacy for fuckâs sake.â
âGone,â he mused. âIt hasnât even been twenty-four hours.Â
âIâve suffered enough.â
âYou met him yesterday.â
âAnd Iâve already had to be carried out of a club like a misbehaving child!â
âYou were misbehaving.â
âThatâs not the point!â
Yuma stood up and walked to your vanity, picking up a ridiculously expensive crystal perfume bottle and examining it as if it held the answers.Â
âYouâre overreacting, bae.â
âI am notââ
âYou are.â
You opened your mouth and then closed it. Then crossed your arms stubbornly. âFine. Even if I am, I still want him gone.â
Yuma studies you for a secondâhis friend of almost 23 years now. He set the bottle down with a soft clink and slipped his hands into his pockets.Â
âThe point isââ He started, his intellectual voice on, âyouâre just approaching this wrong. Youâve been handed a situation you donât like and your first instinct is to get rid of it.â He continued even as your face dropped in offence, âCome on sweetheart, be the strategist you are, the artist of annoyance you used to be back in the day.â His eyes were gleaming with mischief, âMake it a game.â
You stared at him, god, you hated when he did this. But at the same time, his advice was the thing that had gotten you out of sticky situations 99% of the time.Â
âA game?â You sat up slowly, the blanket pooling round your waist, the idea taking vivid root.Â
âA game.â Yuma said coolly, âPlay with him a bit. The objective isnât to get him firedâyour father would just hire someone else, probably meaner and uglier. The objective is to get him to quitâto voluntarily walk away from the impossible task that is you.â
âI am not an impossibleââÂ
âPoint isââ Yuma interrupted you, a small, dangerous smile on his face, âyou gotta find his breaking point and press down. Just annoy the fuck out of him and eventually heâll be gone and weâll be sipping champagne in Paris.â Yuma folded his arms, clearly enjoying this now. âYouâre stuck with him,â he said. âSo why not make it a bit interesting?â
You stared at him, long and hard, like you were personally weighing the morality of what he had just suggested. But since when had you cared about morals?
ââŠyou want me to psychologically dismantle my bodyguard,â you said slowly.
Yuma didnât even blink.
âI want you to entertain yourself,â he corrected smoothly. âThe dismantling is just a byproduct.â
âThat sounds illegal.â You narrowed your eyes.
âItâs not.â
âIt feels illegal.â
âItâs not,â he repeated, the patience of a saint, the tone of a menace.
You sat there for another second, the blanket pooled around your waist, sunlight catching in your hair, your expression shifting as the idea spread like pollen in your hungover mind.
âI meanâŠ. this could be fun.â Yumaâs smile deepened.
âYes,â he said quietly. âYes, it could.â You swung your legs off the bed properly now, ignoring the faint protest of your headache.
âOkay,â you started, holding up a finger as if presenting a thesis, âwe need boundaries first.â
âOf course we do.â
âNo actual crimes,â you added.
âIâm disappointed, but alright.â
âNo getting me killed.â
âAlso reasonable.â You paused.
ââŠminor emotional damage is allowed.â
Yuma nodded approvingly. âEncouraged.â You grinned. God, you hadnât felt this alive sinceâwell, last night, but that didnât count because that had ended with you unconscious.
âExcellent,â Yuma said, clapping his hands together once, a soft, decisive sound, âYou just have to observe him today and find his breaking point.â
âHis breaking point huhâŠâ You mused, âHe looks like a picture of meditation, Iâm not sure I even can.â
âYou can.â Yuma hummed, leaning against your dresser, âConsider it one of your design projects with an endless deadline.â He chuckled, âThe Maki Project.â
âThe Maki project.â You snorted, âYouâre a terrible person, you know.âÂ
âAnd yet you take my advice.â Yuma laughed, pushing himself off the dresser and heading towards the door, âNow if youâll excuse me, I have early plans today. And you have a man to torment.â Yuma was almost gone out the door when you called out.
âYuma!â He paused, a silhouette in the doorway. âThis is a good idea, right?â The question was quieter, less sure.Â
For all your bravado, this was new territory. Manipulating socialites and boardrooms was one thing, systematically targeting one seemingly unmovable man was another. Yuma looked back at you, the morning light haloing his figure.Â
âItâs the only idea youâve had in years that doesnât end with a lawsuit or a tabloid headline. So yes, for once in your gloriously chaotic life, itâs a very good idea.â And with that, he was gone, leaving you in a room suddenly buzzing with more excitement than youâd ever felt in the past five years. You stood there for a full minute, the silence of the penthouse now feeling charged.
You unearthed a pristine, butter-soft leather journal from your deskâa gift from god knows who, youâd never used because your life was never thisâŠ..villanous. On the first page, in your looping, dramatic script, you wrote: The Maki ExperimentâObservations & Objectives.
Objective 1: Establish Baseline Annoyance
Hypothesis: Subjectâs composure is tied to routine and control, so disrupt both.
A plan began to crystallize, beautiful in its petty complexity. You marched over to the door, sticking your head out at your maid who was massaging her temples.Â
âVal?â you said, your voice now crisp, all your pretty neon brain cells activated, despite the hangover still pounding some hidden crevice.
âYes, maâam?â
âPlease inform Maki that Iâll be ready to leave in thirty minutes. We have errands to run.â
âErrands, miss?â Her confusion was audible. You never had âerrandsâ, having usually worked from home in the mornings and going to clubs and art exhibitions in the evenings.
âYes. Vital ones. And Val? Tell him to bring the car around. The pink Ferrari.â
Your beloved Ferrari with the low suspension and the roaring engine that was utterly impractical for city traffic. Letâs see how he handled parallel parking a beast like that.
Walking to your wardrobe, you selected an outfit with the care of a general choosing her steel armor: a stunning, deceptively simple ivory silk slip dress that would wrinkle if you so much as looked at a chair, paired with towering, needle-thin heels that were a declaration of war on both gravity and practicality. You needed to be a vision of high-maintenance elegance, a moving obstacle course.
As you applied a final, perfect swipe of lipstick in the mirror, you met your own gaze and somewhere, buried under the annoyance and this game, the memory of last night propped up. Of steady arms, of quite literally the broadest chest youâd ever rested against, of warmth.Â
You shoved that thought away immediately. Irrelevant, it was completely irrelevant. This was a game now. And boy did you hate to lose.Â
Letâs see how warm he feels after a day in your world.
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Maki considered himself to be a constant man, as unshakable as that northern star who had no equal in the sky. It was probably one of the reasons he got this job in the first place.Â
He stood beside the car, exactly where he was supposed to be, waiting for you to emerge. The morning sun spilled across the driveway in clean, golden lines, catching on polished metal and glass, turning everything just a shade too bright. The kind of morning that demanded composure. Good thing he had plenty of that.
The pink Ferrari gleamed beside him.It wasâŠa choice, an atrocity in his private opinion.Â
A screaming, glossy, rose-quartz atrocity. It sat low to the ground like a predatory insect, its lines utterly at odds with its pink hue. He had received the instruction from Val with no change in expression. The pink Ferrari. Heâd simply nodded, collected the keys from the secure garage, and now waited.Â
Maki regarded it once more, briefly, as if confirming it hadnât somehow changed in the last thirty seconds. It hadnât. Heâd driven it anyway, without complaint or comment.
Parallel parking it had beenâŠ.a taxing task. Calculated down to the inch, the engine still faintly ticked as it cooled now, the scent of heated metal and expensive fuel lingering subtly in the air.
He was, as ever, a study in contained readiness. His suit today was charcoal grey, impeccably tailored, a stark and serious contrast to the frivolous machine beside him. The only deviation from perfection was his left hand. The knuckles were neatly bandaged with white medical tape, a stark interruption to the smooth line of his cuff. It didnât look fresh enough to be from this morning, but not old enough to be ignored either.
He didnât seem bothered by it, looking like he belonged in this stillness, like movement was a choice and not a necessity. His gaze drifted to the surroundings, the faint rhythm of the morning, the ridiculously large building just for one woman to live in.Â
The thought brought with it another, a conversation from last night. Makiâs jaw shifted almost imperceptibly at the memory, his gaze lowering slightly as it replayed.
âA bodyguard? For who? Some ancient diplomat?â Fumaâs voice had been tiny through the speaker, laced with curiosity.
âThe CEOâs daughter.â Maki had watched the city lights from his apartment, his own reflection ghosted over the view.
A low whistle. âThat girl who punched a man in a club? I saw a video; she packs a mean right hook for a socialite. Whatâs she like?â
Maki had considered it. The file photos showed a woman of dazzling, almost aggressive beauty. The reality, last night at Chaconne, had been louder, a whirlwind of expensive perfume, defiant anger and poor decisions.Â
âSheâs spoiled,â heâd said finally, his voice devoid of judgment. It was a factual assessment, like noting the weather. âImpulsive and used to getting her way.âÂ
Pretty? Objectively, yes. Stunning, even. But in Makiâs world, beauty was a common currency, and often a liability. It had never factored into his evaluations.
You were just a princess throwing a tantrum, used to getting your way, used to control. Used to pushing boundaries because there had never been anything solid enough to push back. Reckless, but not unintelligent, difficult, but kiddishly predictable in your defiance. Maki thought he understood the assignmentâprevent front page headlines and keep you contained. Simple enough for a man like him.Â
His gaze lifted toward the building now, toward the entrance. Simple had been before last night, before the way youâd gone from fury to unconsciousness in the span of minutes, your grip tightening in his suit like it had meant something. Beforeâ
He stopped that thought. Irrelevant, it was completely irrelevant. His posture didnât change, but something in his stillness sharpened just slightly, like a blade settling into its edge. You were a task, a responsibility, nothing more, nothing less.
And whatever game you thought you were about to play with him today, he was all the more ready to play along.
The soft click of the penthouseâs private elevator arriving in the lobby drew his attention back to the present. His gaze shifted, cool and dark as a winter sea, to the polished doors, watching them slide open.
And for the first time that morningâperhaps the first time since heâd taken this assignmentâMaki experienced a sensation so foreign it took him a half-second to identify it. It wasnât surpriseâhe was never surprised. It was just a minute ofâŠ.recalibration.
A vision in ivory silk, the dress whispering against your skin like a secret, cutting a line of devastating simplicity. Your heels were ridiculously high and your hair was a cascade of perfection, lips a slash of bold color.Â
You emerged not as the disheveled, screaming hellion from last night, nor as the glossy but two-dimensional image from your file, moving with a languid grace that seemed to mock the very earth beneath your feet.
Like a declaration of the words âtry meâ.
You paused on the sidewalk, eyes sharp and calculating, and completely clear of last nightâs intoxicationâfinding him instantly.Â
âMiss,â he said, calm as if nothing had shifted at all.
You stopped just a step away from him, letting the silence stretch. Your gaze flicked over him, from his polished shoes, up the line of his suit, pausing for a microsecond on the bandage across his knuckles, before meeting his own steady gaze. Suit perfect, posture annoyingly perfect, expression, worse.
âWhatâs wrong with your hand?â you asked, tone light. Maki didnât even look down at it.
âIâm afraid that's private, miss.âÂ
Oh ok. So he just told you it was none of your business. Asshole.Â
âGod,â you muttered, shifting your weight onto one heel, âyouâre so boring.â
Still no reaction. You tried again, stepping just a fraction closer, peering at his hand like you were personally offended by his refusal to elaborate.
âLet me guess,â you continued, tapping your chin thoughtfully, âbar fight? Or did you punch a wall because you were overwhelmed by my bright personality?â
Nothing, not even a flicker. Your lips twitched. Oh, this was going to be fun.
âOr,â you added, leaning in just slightly, voice dropping into something conspiratorial, âyou got into a fight defending my honor?â
Still nothing, not even a breath out of place. You straightened again, exhaling through your nose, just a hint of a smile tugging at your lips despite yourself.
âDisappointing.â You declared. âI was hoping for something dramatic.â Makiâs gaze remained steady, unmoved and unbothered. Asshole.Â
âIf it were relevant,â he said calmly, âyou would know, miss.â You stared at him for a second, then huffed a quiet laugh.
âOf course I would.â You mused, âSince youâre clearly amazing at conversation.â You rolled your eyes, brushing past him with the faintest whisper of silk, the scent of your perfume trailing behind you like an afterthought.
âTry not to bleed on the upholstery,â you tossed over your shoulder. âOh wait,â you added sweetly, glancing back at him, âthat would require you to actually tell me something.â
Nothing.Â
God, he was infuriating.
You glided toward the passenger side of the screaming pink car, as if expecting him to already be holding the door open. Maki remained still for one more heartbeat, his constant northern-star composure encountering its first, tiny atmospheric tremor. Â
He moved then, opening the door for you. The scent of your perfumeâsomething expensive and floralâwrapped around him as you slid inside.
Spoiled, he reaffirmed to himself as he closed the door with a soft, solid thunk, but certainly not stupid.
The leather was cool against your skin, the low frame of the car forcing a certain kind of elegance in your movement. You settled in, crossing your legs just so, adjusting your dress with precise, deliberate care.
Outside, Maki moved around the car, opening the driverâs side door and getting in.
Silence filled the space for a momentâthick, contained and humming faintly withâŠ.anticipation?
You turned your head slightly, watching him from the corner of your eye. Still calm, still composed, still completely unaffected. Your lips curved just a fraction.
Alright then.
Game on.
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Han Jihoon lounged against his comfortable arm chair, staring out the window at the buildings and the roads thick with traffic down below. His cup of coffee remained untouched on the table, the steam disappearing into the air, the hotel notepadâs margins filled with idle doodles.Â
Why on earth would you have called him back after five months today?
Five months ago, he had called youâonce, maybe twiceâabout the wood heâd sourced, a shipment of rare, sustainably harvested Burmese teakwood, perfect for one of your interior projects. You had sounded interested and heâd gotten your usual breezy âSounds great, send me the specs!â
And then radio silence. It was typical youâbrilliant, impulsive and notoriously distracted by the next shiny thing.
Jihoon was not a man who waited, not because he lacked patienceâhe had plenty of it when it came to his work, but because his time was usually the thing others adjusted to, not the other way around.
And yet here he was. Waiting.
Jihoon never chased anything. If someone couldnât recognize value when it was presented to them, that was their loss. And yet, this morning, out of nowhere, âAre you free today?â
He had paused for exactly one second before answering. âYes.â
Which brought him here. Waiting, again.
His gaze drifted lazily across the cityscape, following the slow crawl of traffic far below, the movement almost hypnotic in its consistency.
Then a sudden unapologetic flash of color, out of place in the sea of muted tones and neutral vehicles. Jihoonâs eyes narrowed slightly, his attention sharpening as he leaned forward just a fraction.
Pink.
A pink Ferrari.
It was a distinct, violent pink smudge against the grey asphalt, easily spotted from the thirty-story height of the hotel's lounge. Of course, a quiet huff of amusement left him, something almost fond flickering beneath it, you were never one to be boring.Â
He stood then, moving toward the window, one hand slipping into the pocket of his trousers, the other adjusting the cuff of his sleeve absentmindedly. From this height, everything looked smaller, controllable and manageable. But even from here you were unmistakable.
The car came to a smooth stop, the sunlight catching against its polished surface like it was part of the performance. The passenger door opened and you stepped out.Â
The ivory silk caught the light with every movement, your heels clicking against the pavement below, posture straight, chin lifted just enough to suggest you owned the ground you walked on.
Jihoonâs lips curved slightly. Just have to always make an entrance, don't you?
Then the driverâs side door opened and Jihoonâs expression stilled. Your orbit was usually populated by beautifully useless people. This man was something else entirely.
He was tall, his suit severe and impeccably cut, a uniform in a world full of statement pieces. And his faceâsharp and angular, with eyes that scanned the hotel entrance with a cold, assessing sweep before settling on you as you waited for him.
A bodyguard? Jihoon thought. But you never used bodyguards. An investor? He looked more like a forensic accountant. A newâŠ. interest? The man's demeanor was so opposed to your chaotic glamour that the idea seemed ludicrous.
Jihoon adjusted his glasses slightly, the frameless edges catching the light for just a moment as he leaned a fraction closer to the glass.
ââŠinteresting,â he murmured under his breath.
You didnât usually bring company, especially not this kind. His eyes flicked between the two of youâthe contrast was striking. You, all silk and statement and carefully curated chaos. Him, all restraint and control and quiet observation. Jihoonâs brow lifted just slightly.
Well.
This was new. He straightened, smoothing a hand over the front of his shirt, the faintest trace of curiosity settling into his expression now.
Five months of silence and now you arrive in a pink Ferrari with a man he doesnât recognize. Jihoon glanced once more at the untouched coffee, then back at the window. A slow, thoughtful breath left him.
Whatever this was, it certainly wasnât going to be boring.
Jihoon raised his hand to call the waiter, asking for three glasses of champagne to be set up. Threeâs a crowd, right?
Soft light filtered through tall windows, catching on glass and polished surfaces, the low murmur of distant conversations blending seamlessly with the faint clink of cutlery and crystal. The lounge was soft and quiet.Â
And then you walked in, silk catching the light exactly as it had downstairs, whispering against your skin with every step. Heads didnât turn obviouslyâthis wasnât that kind of placeâbut attention shifted all the same, subtle and inevitable, like gravity adjusting around you.
Jihoon was already standing before you even reached the table, posture straightening, one hand smoothing over his sleeve out of habit.
Your eyes met his and instead of slowing, instead of offering the expected polite smile and the measured greeting, you closed the distance entirely. Your arms slipped around his neck in one fluid motion.
Jihoon froze. Not visiblyânot in any way most people would catchâbut there was a fraction of a second where his body simplyâŠâŠdidnât respond.
What the actual fuck was happening?Â
You would have rather died than hugged anybody like this in public. And yet here you were, the scent of your perfume filling his nostrils as you hugged him. His hands came up, settling lightly at your back, returning the embrace.
ââŠfive months and this is how Iâm greeted?â he murmured, voice low, just at your ear. You pulled back just as easily, like nothing about that had been unusual at all.
âMissed me?â you shot back lightly, lips curving. Jihoon studied you for a second, something curious flickering behind his glasses.
âEvidently,â he said.
And then his gaze shifted past you to Maki. Up close, the contrast between you two was even more pronounced.
Maki stood just behind you, like he was exactly where he needed to be. His posture was unchanged, his gaze steady, already assessing Jihoon in the same way he assessed everything else. Jihoonâs brow lifted slightly.
âAre you going to introduce me,â he asked, tone smooth, âor should I guess?â
You turned, almost like youâd momentarily forgotten Maki was thereâwhich, of course, you hadnât.
âRight,â you said, gesturing lazily. âJihoon, this is Maki.â A beat. âMy bodyguard,â you added, with just enough emphasis to make it sound like a nuisance.
Jihoonâs expression didnât change much, but something in his gaze sharpenedâinterest settling deeper now. His eyes flicked briefly to Makiâs bandaged hand. Then back to you.
âA new addition?â
âTemporary,â you corrected immediately. Maki didnât comment. You waved a hand dismissively, already turning back toward the table. âAnyway, we have actual things to discuss.â
You took a step then paused, turning your head just enough to look at Maki over your shoulder.
âYou can wait somewhere,â you said, tone casual but edged with instruction. âOver there.â
 You pointed vaguely toward a corner of the loungeâfar enough to be out of immediate conversation, close enough to still technically be present. Maki didnât move. His gaze shifted briefly around the roomâentrances and exitsâbefore returning to you.
âMissââ
âItâs business,â you cut in smoothly. âYouâll be bored.â
âI need to remain withinââ
âYouâll be within sight,â you said, already losing patience. âRelax.â
He didnât. Of course he didnât. So you stepped closer lowering your voice slightly, enough that it didnât carry.
âWhat?â you murmured, lips curving faintly. âAfraid Iâll cause trouble?â
His gaze didnât waver. âYes.â
That almost made you laugh. You leaned back slightly, eyes glinting.
âThen consider this exposure therapy,â you said sweetly. âGo. Stand there. Try not to look so intimidating.â A beat. Then, sharperâjust for himââOr are you going to hover all day?â
Maki inclined his head once, a minimal motion, an expression ofâŠsomething painted across his gorgeous face. Even at this moment, the bastard looked so good. You internally slapped yourself. And then he stepped away, not too far enough.
Jihoon watched the entire exchange with quiet fascination, one hand slipping into his pocket as he leaned back slightly against the table.
âAre you perhaps testing him?â He asked with a cocky smirk. You slid into your seat like nothing had happened, crossing your legs with practiced ease.
âAm I?â you said lightly.
Jihoonâs lips curved. âYou always are.âÂ
You didnât deny it.Internally you were mapping your plan out like a Bond girl. Phase one in motion, you thought, find his breaking point. And press.
You leaned back slightly in your chair, reaching for the champagne Jihoon had so thoughtfully arranged, lifting the glass with effortless elegance. Across the room Maki stood, watching and waiting. Your eyes flicked to him for just a moment as if to say âletâs see how long you last.â
Jihoon picked up his glass but didnât drink. His attentionâ despite the long-delayed meeting, despite the reason you were hereâkept drifting back to Maki, to the corner where he stood, still as architecture, eyes moving just enough to register everything. He leaned forward slightly, resting his forearms on the table, gaze returning to you with a softness that looked like focus.
âSo,â he said, smooth as ever, âfive months laterâŠ..should I assume youâre finally interested in the wood, or was that just a dramatic way to get my attention?â You smiled faintly, unfazed, lifting your glass and taking a sip before setting it down.
âDonât flatter yourself,â you replied lightly. âI was busy.â
âMm,â he hummed. âOf course you were.âÂ
âShow me what youâve sourced,â you continued, leaning in slightly, enough to signal interestâenough to play the part. âYou said rare grain patterns. Iâm assuming you didnât exaggerate.â
âI never exaggerate about materials,â he said, reaching for his tablet and sliding it toward you. âOnly about people.â You rolled your eyes but took it, your fingers brushing his for a fraction of a second.
You scrolled, your expression shifting as interest settled in. Yes, you were here to fulfill phase one of your brilliant Maki Project but you had to admit your old friend had pulled up some gorgeous pieces you could work with.
âBrilliant, Jihoon.â You said, tapping lightly on the screen. âThe grain hereâthis could work for a statement piece. A centre table, maybe.â
Jihoon watched you as you spokeânot just listened, watched. This was you in your personal kingdom of colours and measurements and juries now.
His gaze flicked past your shoulder to Maki, who was still watching closely. Jihoon exhaled quietly, leaning back again.
âYou brought protection for a wood meeting?â he asked casually, one brow lifting.
âOf course,â you said, setting the tablet down and leaning back into your chair, crossing your legs again with deliberate ease. âYou never know. Timber negotiations can get violent.â
Jihoon let out a soft laugh. âClearly.â You tilted your head, a faint, playful smile settling on your lips.
âI just thought Iâd be safe,â you added, voice dipping to sound almost conspiratorial. âYou have a reputation, Jihoon.â
âDo I?â he murmured.
âMm,â you hummed, eyes holding his. âYouâre dangerous. Might run off with my designs.â
âThatâs a risk Iâm willing to take.â Your smile sharpened.Â
Across the room Maki didnât move, not reacting to anything you were doing. Your eyes flicked to him, disappointed as you saw his blank expression. You leaned even closer to Jihoon. Just a little more. Enough that it could be read as flirtation, enough that it looked like something else.
âI suppose I needed insurance,â you said lightly. Jihoon held your gaze for a second longer than necessary. Then he leaned back and smiled. You were not fooling him.
âIs that what this is?â he asked, voice laced with quiet amusement.
You blinked once. âWhat?â
âThis,â he gestured loosely between you, then subtly toward Maki without turning his head. âThis performance.â
You scoffed softly. âYou think Iâm performing?â
âI think youâre very good at it.â You narrowed your eyes slightly, but there was no real bite behind it.
âAnd what exactly am I performing?â
âTrying to make him react.â Jihoonâs smile widened, just enough to be annoying.
You laughed. âPlease,â you said. âYou think everything is about you.â
âI donât,â he said calmly. âAnd this isnât about me.â Your lips twitched. He leaned in again, lowering his voice.
âItâs about him, isn't it?â
Your eyes flickered for a traitorous second. Warm, warm arms.
âYouâre imagining things.â
âAm I?â
âYes.â
Jihoon studied you. Then chuckled softly, shaking his head.
ââŠyouâre terrible at hiding when youâre interested.â
âIâm not interested,â you said immediately.
âThat wasnât what I said.â
Jihoon laughed properly this time, the sound warm and easy, cutting through the quiet tension you hadnât even realized had settled.
âYou havenât changed,â he said.
âNeither have you,â you shot back.
âShould I have?â You both smiled genuinely then, âI suppose that calls for a toast.âÂ
As you raised your glass, you tilted your head slightly, glancing at him again. And he had that infuriatingly attractive, calm expression on his face, like the world had reached its stable point. Your fingers tightened around your champagne glass.
Nothing? Not even a flicker?
You turned back to Jihoon, this time with a touch more intention, letting your smile linger just a second longer.
âAnyway,â you said smoothly, âshow me the rest.â Jihoon did, his eyes still holding a glint. And yours kept drifting back to him.Â
Phase one was in motion. But your opponent wasnât playing the way you expected.
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Three months and a half.
A hundred and five days of calculated chaos, carefully curated inconvenience and a level of theatrical irritation that would have driven any reasonable human being to resignation, breakdown, or at the very leastâreaction.
And yet Maki had done none of those things. Not once.
Not when you made him wait outside boutiques for hours while you tried on dresses you had no intention of buying. Not when you changed plans mid-drive, three times in a row, just to watch him reroute without complaint.Â
Not when you dragged him into loud, suffocating spaces and then vanished into quiet corners without warning. Not even when you tested proximity, patience and boundaries in ways that had worked on everyone else your entire life.
Nothing. No irritation, no visible frustration, no crack in that infuriatingly composed exterior. At first, it had only made you more determined, more creative and relentless. Then it became a challenge. And now it had transformed into something else entirely.
Suspicion.
Because the truth was, somewhere along the way, the game had shifted without your permission. You had stopped trying to make him leave and started trying to figure him out, which was objectively worse. Because for all his constant presenceâeverywhere, always just within reachâyou knew nothing about him.
Nothing real. No history, no habits, no patterns beyond the ones tied directly to you. He didnât speak unless necessary, didnât volunteer information, didnât react to personal questions beyond the same calm deflections that had once irritated you and now lingered. Even curiosity had rules with him and he enforced them without ever seeming to try.
You had looked, of course, out of boredom and something else that was better left nameless. Social media, public records, anything remotely traceableâthere was nothing. No casual footprint, no digital presence, no fragments of a life lived outside of the role he occupied beside you.
It was like he existed only in the spaces you were in and nowhere else. That should have made him easier to dismiss. But it only made him impossible to ignore.Â
Because then there were the injuries.
Small, at first, easy to overlook. A scrape across his knuckles one day. A faint bruise along his wrist the next. Bandages that appeared and disappeared without explanation, always clean and never acknowledged.
You had asked, once, then twice, then once almost screamed when you saw a bruise across his stomach the day his shirt lifted up (you had told him to wear something casual to the beach, not anticipating the way youâd drool when you saw his washboard abs).
The answers had always been the same, or rather the lack of them.
And then came that bruise. About two weeks ago, dark against the sharp line of his cheekbone, just visible enough to notice but subtle enough that anyone else might have ignored it. You hadnât, gasping when you saw him that day waiting for you by the car. You didn't bother to ask, knowing he wouldn't answer but you did watch him that entire day, waiting for some signâdiscomfort, irritation, anything.
There had been none. He had moved the same way, spoken the same way, stood the same way. Like pain didnât belong to him, like it was nothing more than pollen in the air.
And that had unsettled you more than anything else. Because somewhere between your irritation and your curiosity, concern had slipped in. Quiet, uninvited, unwelcome concern.Â
Euijoo almost fainted when you told him about it. His friend? His friend who was perpetually wrapped up in her own bubblegum world? His friend who couldn't give two shits about anybody who didn't benefit her? It was like pigs had started flying.Â
The worst part about it was the fact that you were so aware about it. So aware now of the fact that Maki exited outside of you. Outside of this strange, contained orbit he occupied in your life. It meant there were parts of him you werenât seeing, things you werenât meant to see. And you didnât like that. You didn't like that one bitâthat your handsome bodyguard was keeping his intoxicating secrets.Â
Handsome. You had given up getting over it now.Â
It had been easier, in the beginning, to reduce him to something manageableâannoying, stoic, infuriatingly unresponsive. Anything that kept him within the neat boundaries of your irritation. But the longer he stayed, the more that illusion frayed, until what remained was simply truth.
Maki was distractingly beautiful.
His beauty existed like the gods themselves had wanted it to. Those sharp lines carved from polished stone, dark eyes that never seemed to end, you swore youâd seen stars in them once. And those pretty pink, kissable lips. The first time you thought of them as kissable youâd let out a scream so loud your friend Harua almost called the asylum.
You remembered the time you went for a gala. It had been one of those suffocatingly extravagant eveningsâcrystal chandeliers dripping from the ceiling, conversations layered in politeness and pretense, the air thick with expensive perfume and even more expensive egos.Â
And then there was him. Not in a suit that night but a black silk shirt. The fabric caught the low, golden light with every movement, soft and fluid in a way that contrasted violently with the rest of him, the top buttons left undone just enough to reveal the line of his collarbone.
The entire night, your attention had betrayed you. You had been in conversationsâimportant ones, interesting onesâand still, your gaze had drifted.
He had stood where he always did, close but not obstructing your peace as heâd learnt not to over the months. And you had looked over to him more times than you were willing to admit to yourself.Â
The way the silk moved when he shifted his weight, the way the light caught against his hair, the way his sleeves were rolled just enough to reveal his forearms, those veiny forearms. And the way his biceps strained against the silk, oh you were about to faint like a damsel in distress.Â
At one point, someone had been speaking directly to youâsomething about a collaboration, something you should have cared about. And you had nodded, smiled and responded perfectly, all while your eyes had flicked to him. He caught you once and you immediately looked away, annoyed at both him and at yourself, at the fact that even this, even something as simple, as ridiculous as finding someone attractive felt like it was slipping out of your control.
Beauty, in your world, was something you understood, something you wielded and controlled as a weaver controls her loom. But his beauty wasn't yours to define. And it made you want to claw your skin out.  Â
Maki.Â
What a beautiful name that was.
Your bedroom was dim in the early evening light, the city beyond your windows beginning to glow in soft, scattered gold. The skyline stretched endlessly, familiar and distant all at once, its quiet hum filtering through the glass.
You sat curled into the corner of your bed, silk sheets shifting softly beneath you, a glass of wine resting lightly in your hand. The deep red caught the low light as you tilted it absently, your attention split between the screen of your laptop and the thoughts you couldnât quite organize.
Your hair fell loose around your shoulders, the sharp edges of your usual composure softened by the privacy of your space. The laptop glowed against the dim room, tabs openâsearches that had led nowhere, profiles that didnât exist, names that didnât circle back to anything.Â
You scrolled anyway, the wine smooth against your tongue, the only familiar thing youâd had all to yourself all week. You took another sip, barely noticing it, your eyes flicking back to the screen and then away again.
Your eyes scanned the website, but your mind wasn't really on it, instead going to the memory of this afternoon.Â
Back to him.
To the way heâd kept his broad hand at the small of your back while you two shifted through a crowd of reporters who were all screaming their questions at you. It had been so many days since âthe incidentâ and even your father admitted that you were on better behaviour but the press never stopped digging.Â
There was no air in your lungs in that crowd, all pity choked by loud voices that made you want to cry. Youâd been used to attention your whole life, to scrutiny and to people wanting something from you. But this was different. This wasnât admiration or curiosity, this felt like being hunted.
The crowd had pressed too close, bodies closing in from all sides, the air thinning with every step. Someone had shouted your name and something in your chest had tightened painfully. For a second, you couldnât tell where to look, where to move, how to breathe without choking on it all.
And then his arm slipped around your waist. Makiâs grip had been firm enough to ground you, his hand resting securely at your side as he guided you through the chaos, moving with you, subtly shifting his body to shield yours, creating a small pocket of space in a crowd that wanted to swallow you whole.Â
âStay close,â heâd murmuredâlow, near your ear, barely audible over the noise.
Your fingers had curled instinctively into the fabric of his sleeve, your steps syncing with his without thought. The pressure of his arm around your waist kept you anchored, each step forward easier than the last, your breathing slowly evening out despite the chaos still raging around you.
The shouting hadnât stopped, the flashes hadnât dimmed, but you hadnât felt alone in it anymore. By the time heâd gotten you into the car, the door shutting out the noise with a heavy, blessed finality, the silence had rung in your ears. You hadnât realized how hard youâd been breathing until then.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The world outside was reduced to muffled chaos, distant and unimportant. Inside, it was just the quiet hum of the engine, the scent of leather and him.
Maki had turned toward you almost immediately, his hand already pulling away from your waist, though the absence of it felt noticeable.
âAre you alright?â
Your fingers stilled against the trackpad. The room felt quieter than usual or maybe you were just listening more. You exhaled softly, leaning back against the headboard, eyes drifting from the screen to the ceiling for a moment before closing briefly.
Are you alright?
When was the last time somebody had asked you with genuine concern in their eyes? Oh right. Just this afternoon.Â
You opened your eyes again, staring at nothing in particular as you took another slow sip of wine. Somewhere along the way you had stopped trying to break him. And started wondering what, exactly, had already tried to do so.Â
âMiss.â Val cracked open your door slowly, peeking her head in, âMr. Nakakita is here to see you. And heâs brought another man with him.â
You let the silence stretch for a second longer, the stem of your glass turning slowly between your fingers.
âLet them in, Val.â
The door clicked shut again with a quiet yes, miss, leaving you alone for just a moment more before you pushed yourself off the bed. You didnât bother fixing your hair beyond a quick sweep of your fingers through it, didnât changeâjust smoothed the fabric of your robe and made your way downstairs, the soft echo of your steps filling the otherwise still house. By the time you reached the kitchen, they were already there.
Yuma leaned casually against the island like he belonged in spaces like thisâlike heâd always belonged in your spacesâone hand tucked into his pocket, the other tapping idly against the marble. He looked up the second you entered, an easy grin pulling at his lips.
Beside him stood someone new, a tall young man with a strikingly beautiful face, dark hair falling over his forehead, dark eyes that flicked up to meet yours for only a second before darting away again. He stood straight, almost too straight, hands clasped loosely behind his back like he wasnât entirely sure what to do with them.
You didnât greet them right away, instead moving past them to the counter with practiced ease, reaching for the wine rack like this was just another evening, like you hadnât been sitting upstairs moments ago thinking about a completely different man.
âRed?â you asked lightly, already pulling a bottle free.
Yuma snorted. âYou were always a gracious host.â
âDonât flatter yourself.â You hummed, grabbing three glasses and setting them down with soft, precise clinks. âI like my wine. You just happen to be conveniently present.âÂ
A quiet soundâalmost like a stifled breathâcame from the other man. You glanced up briefly as you poured, catching the way his shoulders stiffened slightly when your gaze landed on him.
âRight.â He said, straightening a little as he gestured toward his companion. âThis is Jo, a friend of mine I met in Belgium.â
Jo gave a small nod, his voice low when he spoke. âGood evening.â
You slid a glass across the counter toward him, your fingers lingering just a fraction longer than necessary before letting go.
âAnd what exactly do you do, Jo?â you asked, tilting your head slightly, studying him in open curiosity. Yuma answered before he could.
âPrivate detective.â
Your brows lifted slightly as you turned your gaze back to Yuma, one corner of your lips curving faintly.
âA private detective,â you repeated, picking up your own glass. âOf course he is.â Your eyes flicked back to Jo, slower this time, then back to Yuma. âHow do you even come across such characters my dearest Yuma?â you asked, voice smooth, almost amused. âOr do they just appear when the situation gets complicated enough?â
Jo shifted slightly at that, clearly unsure whether he was being insulted or included in some kind of joke. Yuma, on the other hand, just grinned wider. And you standing there in your dimly lit kitchen, wine in hand, watching the two of them, you couldnât help the quiet voice that told you Yuma rarely ever did anything that had bad consequences.Â
âA mixture of both.â Yuma hummed, taking a sip of his wine, âAnd this time, this is helping your situation.â He wiggled his brows at you comically, âYou know, the Maki Project.â
You groaned at that, massaging the bridge of your nose with your fingers. Of course, you forgot to tell him this project was close to failing.Â
âYuma I appreciate the help but I really donât want to talk about it right nââ
âDid you know your beloved bodyguard is an underground boxer?â
The words didnât register at first. They landedâyou heard them, you understood each one individually, but together, they didnât quite fit.
An underground boxer?
Your Maki?
Your hand stilled mid-motion, fingers still lightly pressed against the bridge of your nose. For a second, you didnât move at all. Then slowly, you lowered your hand.
ââŠIâm sorry?â you said, voice quieter now.
Yuma watched you carefully over the rim of his glass, that infuriatingly knowing look still playing at the edges of his expression. âYou heard me.â
A beat of silence. You let out a soft, disbelieving breath, turning your gaze away from him and back to your wine, as if the answer might be sitting somewhere in the reflection.
âUnderground boxer.â You repeated under your breath, almost like you were testing how it sounded out loud.
It didnât sound right. Not with the man who stood behind you in perfect pressed suits and quiet vigilance. Not with the man who spoke in low, even tones, who guided you through crowds like you were something fragile but never treated you like you were weak.
Not with the man who had looked at you in the car today and asked âare you alright?â in the gentlest tone anyone had ever used with you. Your grip on the glass tightened.
âThatâsâŠâ you started, then stopped. A lie? A misunderstanding? A joke? But Yuma didnât deal in useless information. Not like this.
Your eyes flicked to Jo. He straightened almost immediately under your attention, like heâd been expecting it this time. Private detective, huh.
ââŠis that true?â you asked him instead, voice controlled in a way that came naturally to you. Jo hesitated, glancing briefly at Yuma before looking back at you.
âItâs not⊠public,â he said carefully. âBut yes.â
The kitchen felt a little quieter after that. You let the silence sit, your thoughts rearranging themselves, trying to place this new piece into something that made sense.
Underground boxer.
Fights. Violence. Blood.
Your mind flickered to his knuckles and his bruises, dark smudges against a perfect porcelain portrait that somehow made him look ever the more handsome. He always seemed so controlled, like something held tightly beneath the surface. You huffed a quiet breath through your nose, shaking your head once as if to clear it.
ââŠand youâre telling me this now,â you said, looking back at Yuma, your tone shiftingânot quite annoyed, not quite amused but something in between. âWhy?â
Yuma set his glass down with a soft clink, leaning forward slightly against the counter.
âBecause,â he said lightly, âyouâre trying to figure him out, arenât you?â Your expression didnât change, but your silence did enough talking on its own. Yumaâs grin softened. âAnd because,â he added, nodding slightly toward Jo, âif thereâs anything worth digging into, itâs this.â
Jo gave a small, almost apologetic nod, like he wasnât entirely comfortable being the center of this conversation. You looked between the two of them, then down at your wine again. For a moment, you said nothing.
ââŠhe doesnât seem like the type,â you murmured. But even as you said it, your mind betrayed you. The steadiness of his grip on your waist, the ease with which heâd moved through that crowd, the way he carried himself like he was always ready for something. Your fingers tightened slightly around the glass again.
âA boxerâŠ.â You bit your lower lip, lifting your gaze back to Jo, âWould you like to share your findings with the rest of the class, Mr. Jo?â
Jo blinked at that, clearly not expecting to be addressed so directly. For a second, he just stood there, glass in hand, shoulders a little too stiff, before giving a small nod, like he was bracing himself.
âOf course.â He set his wine down carefully before reaching into the leather satchel slung at his side. He pulled out a thin stack of files, edges slightly worn, corners softened from handling, and placed them on the marble countertop between you.
The sound, paper against stone, felt louder than it should have. You leaned forward, curiosity now fully awakened, eyes flicking over the top page without touching it yet. Jo hesitated for half a second, then began.
âIâllâŠ..preface this by saying,â he said, voice low but steady, âthere isnât much on him. Not officially.â
That made your brows knit faintly. âMeaning?â you prompted.
âMeaning,â Jo continued, âthereâs no clear record of his past. No consistent employment history before your fatherâs security detail, no confirmed place of originâeven the basic identifiers are fragmented.â
Yuma let out a soft whistle under his breath, clearly entertained. You didnât look at him, your attention staying on Jo.
âSo he just spawned out of nowhere?â you asked.Â
Jo shook his head quickly. âNo. Not exactly.â He slid the top file open, turning it so it faced you, revealing a series of photographsâgrainy, dimly lit, taken from a distance, different locations, different nights.
âI couldnât trace him directly,â Jo explained, tapping lightly near one of the images, âbut I started noticing recurring faces around him. Individuals he interacted with consistently.â
Your gaze dropped to the photos. Three men, appearing again and again in different combinations.
âMurata Fuma,â Jo said, pointing to one. âTaki.â His finger shifted. âAnd Koga Yudai.â
You tilted your head faintly, eyes narrowing in thought. âAnd they lead toâŠ?â Jo glanced up at you once, then back down at the file.
ââŠYudai,â he said. âSpecificallyâwhat he runs.â There was a small pause. âAn underground fight ring.â
The words settled into the space between you, quiet and heavy. Your lips parted slightly, then curved.
ââŠof course he does,â you murmured, almost amused. Jo, encouragedâor maybe just committed nowâflipped to the next page. A location, more photos, a name scrawled across the top in bold, almost theatrical lettering.
Lunatic.
You stared at it for a second. Then you let out a soft, incredulous laugh, leaning back slightly as you picked up your glass again.
âLunatic?â you echoed, brows lifting. âThatâs what they went with?â
Yuma snorted into his drink. Jo looked mildly alarmedâlike he wasnât sure if he should defend it or agree with you.
âItâs not that random,â he said quickly.
âOh, please. Enlighten me.â He swallowed once, then nodded, slipping into explanation like it was safer ground than your gaze.
âItâs derived from the historical association between violence and madness,â he said. âThe idea that under extreme conditionsâlike unregulated combatâpeople lose rational control and become unpredictable.â He gestured toward the page. ââLunaticâ was originally tied to the belief that phases of the moon influenced human behavior.â A small pause. âSo the name is meant to imply that the fighters there arenât bound by normal limits. That once they step into the ring, theyâre operating outside the âconventionsâ.â Silence followed that. You took a slow sip of your wine.
âDramatic,â you decided. Yuma laughed outright. Jo looked like he wasnât sure whether to be relieved or embarrassed. âGo on.âÂ
Jo nodded, flipping another page. âThis is where he comes in.â More photos, this timeâclearer. Maki.
Your Maki?Â
Not in a suit, not the clean robot you knew that stared across rooms without a word. Oh no. This version was such a stark contrast you almost gasped. Your fingers stilled on the edge of the file.Â
âHe doesnât fight under his real name,â Jo said. âBut heâs well known.â A beat. âNotorious, actually.â
Your eyes flicked up to him. âFor what?â
âFor always winning.â
The words landed cleanly like a scientific fact. Winning was one of your specialties.Â
Yuma let out a low whistle. âSee? Thatâs the part I thought youâd like.â You didnât respond, your attention locked on the image in front of you.
Makiâstanding in a dimly lit ring, jaw set, eyes sharp in a way you had never seen before. There was something colder there, something stripped down, raw as raw could be.Â
âAlways?â you repeated quietly. Jo nodded.
âFrom what I could gather,â he said, âheâs never lost a recorded match in that ring.â
Silence filled the kitchen again. Your mind flickered back to the way his hand had felt at your waist. Your gaze lingered on the photo for a moment longer before you leaned back slowly, exhaling through your nose.
âMy,â you murmured, almost to yourself, lifting your glass. Your lips curved faintly, ââŠisnât that interesting.â
Yuma watched you carefully as you leaned back, that unreadable smile settling onto your lips. He knew that look. Heâd seen it beforeâright before you did something you absolutely shouldnât.
âIt's very interesting.â he agreed, pushing himself off the counter and stepping closer, eyes flicking to the photo in front of you. âWhich is whyââ You didnât look up, but you could hear the shift in his tone.âAnd hear me out before you say no,â he added quickly, grinning like he knew exactly how this would go, ââwe go see it.â
Slowly, you lifted your gaze to him. âWe what?â
Yuma spread his hands, as if the answer was obvious. âWe go in person. Just to check it out.â A beat. âTwo days from now. Yudaiâs hosting a set that nightâJo confirmed it.â Jo nodded quietly in the background, reluctant evidence being submitted.
You stared at Yuma. Then you laughedâsoft, disbelieving and incredulous. âYou cannot be serious.â
âIâm always serious,â he shot back immediately. âYou just donât take me seriously.â
âBecause you suggest things like this,â you returned smoothly, setting your glass down with a quiet clink. âAn underground fight ring? Really, Yuma?â
He shrugged, entirely unbothered. âYouâve been to worse places.â
ââŠnot in the last three months,â you countered, voice sharpening. For three months, you had been better, controlled in a way that wasnât just for show. Your father had noticed, the press had noticed, even you had noticed in quiet moments. Fewer scandals, impulsive decisions and nights that ended in headlines you didnât bother reading anymore.
Youâd been good.
And this was exactly the kind of shit that unraveled that. Your gaze drifted back down to the file, to the sharp and violent version of your Maki. Your fingers brushed over the edge of the photograph again.
ââŠthis is a bad idea,â you said quietly.Â
You were weighing the decisionâyour reputation, your progress, the careful image youâd rebuilt piece by piece over the past few months versus your curiosity. Your jaw tightened because the truth was you wanted to see it. You wanted to see him like that. The real him.
Your lips pressed together for a moment. Then you exhaled slowly as you reached for your glass again.
ââŠtwo days?â you asked. Yumaâs grin was immediate.
âTwo days.â
You took a slow sip of your wine, eyes lowering briefly before lifting back to meet his. There was a flicker of hesitation still there, a quiet awareness of exactly what this could lead to, of how easily things could slip.
âWeâre not getting caught,â you said, more a statement than a question.
âHave I ever let you get caught?â Yuma placed a hand over his chest in mock offense. You didnât answer that, your silence saying enough. After a brief pause, you gave a nod.
ââŠfine.â Yumaâs grin widened, victorious and entirely unsurprised. âBut,â you added smoothly, setting your glass down again, your gaze sharpening just slightly, âif this blows back on me, Iâm blaming you.â
âOf course you are,â he said.
Jo, meanwhile, looked like he had just realized exactly what heâd gotten himself involved in. You, however, turned your attention back to the file one last time to the image of Maki.
Your Maki.
And since when had you started calling him yours?
________
âIs this what the commoners wear?âÂ
âHarua, it's literally a leather jacket.â
âIt feels so aggressive,â he muttered, tugging at the rough collar like it had personally offended him, his short hair bouncing as the car did.Â
From across the car, Yuma snorted. âThatâs the point.â
The three of you sat in the back of a sleek, unmarked carâfar removed from the usual polished fleet you were associated with, something entirely forgettable, even your driver looked the part.
You glanced at your reflection faintly in the darkened window. Muted tones, dark jacket, minimal jewelry, nothing that screamed diamonds and gold. A carefully constructed anonymity, it was strange and unfamiliar and yet it sent a thrill through you.
The car slowed. The city outside had shifted gradually, the polished skyline giving way to narrower streets and dimmer lights. You felt it before you saw it, a low hum and then noise as the car came to a stop.
Yuma leaned forward, glancing out the windshield. âWeâre here.â
Harua exhaled softly. âI already hate this.â
You opened the door before either of them could say anything else. Cool air hit your face immediatelyâlaced with smoke, sweat and something heavy.
The entrance to Lunatic wasnât grand. It wasnât even obviousâa nondescript building, tucked between others like it didnât want to be found unless you already knew where to look. A small cluster of people lingered outside, some talking, some smoking, all carrying an air of quiet expectation. No one looked at you twice. Good.
You adjusted your jacket and stepped forward, Yuma falling into place beside you, Harua trailing behind still visibly uncomfortable. At the door, you were stopped by a man, who looked over the three of you slowly. You let him look; Yuma, on the other hand, leaned in just slightly, like this was all part of a routine he knew well.
âHunt Down.â He said.Â
The words clicked instantly in your mindâJoâs voice echoing faintly as heâd explained it. A phrase tied to the ringâs philosophy, to the idea of pursuit, of predator and prey, of stepping into something where the goal was simple: Find your opponent and donât stop until they fall.
The man at the door held Yumaâs gaze for a second longer. Then he stepped aside with no questions.Â
âEnjoy,â he muttered. And just like that, you were in.
The first thing that hit you was the sound. A roarâlow and constant, pulsing through the space like a living thing. Voices layered over each other, rising and falling in waves, punctuated by sharp bursts of shouting, laughter, something close to frenzy.
Then came the smell. Iron and sweat, something electric in the air that made your skin feel awake. The space itself was larger than you expectedâwide but enclosed enough to trap everything inside. Dim lighting cast everything in shadows and gold, the center illuminated just enough to draw every eye toward it.
The ring.
People crowded around it, pressed close, bodies angled forward like they couldnât afford to miss a second. Some leaned over the rails, others stood back with drinks in hand, but all of them were watching and waiting.
You stepped further in, your movements slower now, taking it all in. This wasnât your world, not even close. There was no polish here, no curated appearances, no pretense of civility. Everything felt raw and unfiltered, real in a way that was almost jarring.
And for a brief moment you felt itâthat flicker of being out of place, like you had stepped into something that didnât belong to you. Your fingers curled slightly at your sides, grounding yourself.
Out of place didnât mean unwelcome, not if no one noticed. And they didnât, no eyes lingered on you, no whispers followed. You blended in perfectly, just another face in the crowd, another spectator to a bull fight.
Yuma leaned in beside you. âTold you,â he murmured, voice barely audible over the noise. âNo one cares who you are here.â Harua stayed close on your other side, quieter than usual now, his earlier complaints replaced with cautious observation.
You didnât respond. Your gaze was already drifting, searching for the fighters. For him. Your heart picked up, somewhere amongst this chaos, Maki was here. And you were about to see a side of him that had never been meant for you. Your lips pressed together, something sharp flickering behind your otherwise composed expression.
âLadies and Gentlemen! May I have your kindest fucking attention?âÂ
The voice cut clean through the noise. The crowd responded almost instantly, bodies shifted closer to the ring, conversations dropping off mid-sentence as attention snapped toward the center.
He stood there like he owned the space. Tall, strikingly so, with long, athletic limbs that seemed exaggerated under the harsh ring lights. Every movement he made was theatrical, as he lifted the microphone slightly, a slow grin stretching across his face like he was savoring the moment.
Koga Yudai.
Even without Joâs file, you wouldâve known. There was something about himâsomething too aware of the attention, too comfortable with it.
âTonight,â he drawled, voice smooth and laced with amusement, âwe have something special for you.â A ripple went through the crowdâcheers and whistles.
Yuma shifted beside you, just slightly. Harua stilled on your other side. You didnât move, your focus locked. Yudai paced slowly across the ring, dragging the moment out, feeding off the energy.
âOur opening match,â he continued, tilting his head as if considering it, âfeatures a personal favorite.â A pause. âThe darling of the ring.â
There were chuckles at that, some louder than others. You barely registered them, something in your chest already tightening.Â
âRiki Mauss!â
The name settled strangely in your mindâforeign, detached, almost absurd. What a peculiar name.Â
ââversus,â Yudai added, almost as an afterthought, gesturing lazily toward the opposite side where another fighter was already stepping into the light, âour stupidly brave contender for the evening.âÂ
A few scattered cheers. You didnât look. On the other side of the ring, your breath caught. And then he stepped out and your orbit shattered, fragments of the world falling away from you.
Oh.
Oh how beautiful.Â
The crowd, the lights, the space around you all blurred.
Your Maki? Oh how beautiful your Maki was.
He moved differently. There was no stillness here, no quiet restraint wrapped around him like armor. His posture was loose,every line of his body coiled with something controlled and dangerous. His sleeves were gone, muscular arms out in the open, his hands wrapped. His shoulders rolled once, casualâtoo casualâlike this was routine. Like this was nothing. The light caught his face just enough for you to see it clearly and you froze.
Those eyes. Oh those eyes. Gone was that calm, unreadable steadiness you had grown used to. Gone was the quiet attentiveness, the careful control.
In its place was something so cold it made you gasp. He didnât look like someone protecting. He looked like someone prepared to break.
Your fingers tightened unconsciously at your sides. Your body had gone completely still.
ââyou okay?â Harua murmured quietly beside you, barely audible. You didnât answer, couldnât, your gaze locked on Maki.
On Riki Mauss.
âThe darling of the ring.â Yudai repeated with a smirk, clearly entertained by the title as the crowd reacted againâsome laughing, cheering louder now.
But you didnât hear it. Maki stepped into the ring fully now, ducking under the ropes with practiced ease, straightening slowly. He smiled. Not a smirk, not the faint, polite curve you had once wondered if he was even capable of.
A real smile.
It happened as the crowd roared his name, as Yudaiâs voice carried through the space, as the energy around him swelledâand for the first time since you had known him, Maki responded to it.
His lips curved upward, slow at first, like the expression didnât come easilyâbut once it did, it transformed him entirely.
How devastating it was.
It was like watching poetry come to life. He was so very warm. Dimples pressed deep into his cheeksâlong, defined, cutting softly into his skin as his smile widened just slightly under the lights.Â
The sharpness of his features softened without losing their edge, the intensity in his eyes shiftingânot gone, but lit now with something brighter, something that made the crowd lean in, made them love him in a way you could suddenly understand.
He was so beautiful, your breath caught before you could stop it. That damn smile.
It softened as his gaze swept the crowd, assessing it as always. And for one brief, impossible second you wondered (hoped) if he would see you. If those sharp, unfamiliar eyes would catch on yours and recognize you beneath the disguise.
The fates played their games when they were bored of their looms. And today seemed to be a game with you as the golden sheep.
His eyes caught yours and they stopped.Â
It was so brief that anyone else wouldâve missed it entirely, just another flicker in a room full of movement, another face in a sea of strangers.Â
But you felt it. In that single, suspended moment, something in him broke, the straw that shattered this image that he wore so perfectly. Just a fracture, and it had your heart running a marathon. The cold precision in his eyes dulled like a blade catching unexpectedly on something it hadnât accounted for.
Recognitionâit slipped through before he could stop it. A tightening at the edge of his eyes, the faintest hitch in his focus, something almost human pushing through the brutal calm he had wrapped himself in.
It lasted less than a second, a microsecond even. But it was enough for you to see it and to know.Â
He saw you.
You, with the spoilt, sweet smile, you with the face heâd spent the past months memorising every detail of. You, in all your heavenly glory.Â
What the fuck were you doing here?Â
His expression reset with almost unsettling precision, every trace of that flicker buried so deep it mightâve been imagined. The cold returned like he had forced it back into place rather than simply letting it exist.
If you hadnât been watching him so closely, you wouldâve missed it. If you hadnât known him you wouldâve sworn nothing had happened. But something had and your pulse stuttered.Â
Maki rolled his shoulders again like he was settling back into himselfâor into the version of himself he needed to be. Then, without hesitation, he lifted his fist into the air. The crowd erupted, louder than beforeâcheers crashing into each other, energy spiking instantly at the simple gesture. They loved him. You could hear it, feel it in the way the space seemed to tighten around his presence.
âThe darling of the ring!â someone shouted near you, laughing.
How ironic. Because there was nothing soft about him.
He lowered his hand, gaze already shifting away from the crowdâaway from youâas if that moment had never existed. As if he hadnât just looked straight through you and known. Your fingers curled tighter at your sides, your breath coming slower now. This had not been part of the damn plan. Beside you, Yuma leaned in, voice low and laced with quiet amusement.
ââŠwell,â he murmured, âthat looked personal.â
Before you could respond, a heavy gong sounded in the corner. And thus began the fight.
The man across from Maki lunged first, fast and aggressive, throwing a punch that wouldâve caught most off guard. Maki didnât even flinch, moving around instead.
It was subtle, almost lazy at first glance, but precise in a way that made your breath catch. His body turned, his weight shifting effortlessly as the blow missed him by inches.Â
The crowd roared. You barely heard it, so entranced by him. Another strike cameâharder and faster. Maki ducked this time, the motion elegant, his shoulder dipping just enough before he straightened again, already repositioning. His footwork was light, grounded yet effortless, like he knew exactly where he needed to be before the moment even arrived.
And then he struck back. The sound of impact cracked through the space, sharp enough to make something in your chest tighten. His opponent staggered, clearly not expecting the speed, the force behind it.
It was a dance, a dangerous one. And your bodyguard was the prima ballerina.
Every movement was graceful in its execution. The way he pivoted, the way he stepped in and out of range, the way his body seemed to flow in a way that made everything else feel clumsy in comparison. Even the violence, there was no frenzy in him.
The man across from him grew more desperate with each passing secondâhis strikes sloppier, his breathing heavier, frustration bleeding into every movement.
And then it ended. Just one opening, one misstep. Maki moved in. A sharp hit followed by another that sent his opponent stumbling back, balance gone, body unable to recover fast enough. He hit the ground hard. The sound echoed and there was silence for a split second. Then the crowd exploded, louder and wilder than before.Â
âAnd we have our winner!â Yudaiâs voice cut through the chaos, amplified and triumphant as he stepped forward again, arm sweeping toward Maki. âRiki Mauss!â The crowd roared his name, his titleâvoices crashing together in a frenzy of admiration and thrill.
âThe darling of the ring!â
Maki stood there, chest rising and falling steadily, not even winded. Yudai grabbed his wrist, lifting it high into the air, presenting him like something to be admiredâsomething owned by the spectacle.
But Maki didnât bask in it, not even smiling. His gaze shifted and found you again. This time, there was no mistaking it. Your breath hitched as his eyes locked onto yours across the distance and noise, across everything that shouldâve made it impossible.Â
You had no idea what was going to happen and uncertainty was a dangerous thing for a woman like you.
Since when had you cared about danger?
A/N: crashed the fuck out because of the 1000 block restriction BUT PART TWO IS ALSO OUT GUYS YAYYYYY ALL THE SMUT IS IN THAT PART SO GO GOON OVER THERE. Plus big shoutout to my beloved nika @kwnnies for proofreading this for me I love you my baby I'm gonna write you so much yuma romance you shall die
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YUDAI
You didnât make a scene, didnât scream or argue â just changed out of your clothes, wiped your make up and took your things from the shared bedroom. With a blanket in hand you made a beeline to the couch, setting it up for you to sleep in. Yudai was nowhere to be seen and a small pang ached in your chest, he didnât even bother to convince you to sleep with him.Â
Right when you settled in, phone in hand scrolling mindlessly, you felt a shadow loom over you. You looked up to see Yudai standing before you, pillow and blanket in his hand as well. A questioning look flashed your expressions, tilting your head in confusion, âWhat are you doing?â He sighed, âCould you make some space, baby..?â your brow raised instinctively, âThe couch wonât fit the both of us, Yudai.âÂ
He winced at his name coming out your lips, used to you calling him by sweet nicknames. âIâm not gonna sleep alone so you either come to bed or I don't know weâll work something out on the couch,â you scoffed, this is ridiculous! âWhat if I want to sleep alone, hmm? In case you havenât noticed I'm upset with you.âÂ
âI know, my love and Iâm truly sorry but thatâs absolutely not happening,â he crouched, face to face, his eyes glimmering under the light. âYudai ââ âDonât⊠thatâs not what you call meâ looking up to you with puppy eyes, rosy lips in full pout. âplease?â and your resolve fell, delicately like the cherry blossoms you loved to watch with him.Â
You sighed and nodded, âOkay, iâll go back to bed,â and he beamed, steady hands under your body as he lifted you up and carried you bridal style â a smile tugging on his lips, one that leaned to give you a sweet kiss on your cheeks. âThank you, baby.â
FUMA
You silently took your things and laid on the couch, lacking the energy for everything, mood soured after your argument.Â
Just as you were about to fall asleep, you heard Fumaâs steps echoing in the silent place as they headed from your shared bedroom towards the living room. You tried steadying your breathing, playing off your act of sleeping, feeling Fuma approach the couch.
His gentle hand comes up to rest on your cheek, thumb caressing the skin softly. âHmm, why are you sleeping here?â softly whispered, a gentle smile playing at his lips.Â
You didnât move, just secretly relishing in his warm touch. âMy sweet girl⊠wonât you answer me?â Of course he knew you were awake, it was silly to trick Fuma who knows you like the back of his hands â always so attentive and observant when it comes to you. âI'm so sorry for upsetting you, my darlingâ you laid there unmoved.
His warm lips placed a soft kiss on your forehead, âPlease talk to me, sweet girl i canât sleep with you,â you squinted your eyes, looking at him with a pout on your lips. âThen try!â you huffed, bringing the blanket up to your face.Â
His warm hands moved to move the blanket down, your face coming to his view. âThere you are,â a warm smile adorned his features. âPlease don't deprive me of your warmth, sweet girlâ You felt your heart melt at his words, nodding silently. âOkay⊠fine.â he places another kiss, this time on your cheek, âThatâs my girl.â
NICHOLAS
âWhatever! goodnight Yixiang,â you snapped, grabbing your stuff and leaving the bedroom, blanket in one hand and your pillow in the other. âWhere are you going?â you heard Nicholas call from your shared bedroom but you didnât bother replying, still angry from your earlier argument.Â
You grumbled in annoyance, putting your pillow and blanket on the sofa, complains falling from your lips softly as you tried to get comfortable but you were restless. The foam was too stiff, the ac too cold and it was so cramped, already missing your bed and Nicholasâ warmth. âBabyâŠâ you heard his voice before you could see him, âStop torturing the both of us and come back to bed,â he whispered, kneeling right by your laying figure. You huffed, putting on a front, âyou know iâm upset, right?âÂ
âI know and youâre gonna be even more upset when you wake up with a strained back soâŠâ he trailed off, his hand reaching out for you to hold. You hesitated, looking at him with a cocked brow. âYouâre missing something, I said I'm upset,â you muttered, awaiting his apology.
âIâm sorry I upset you, baby. Forgive me?â you huffed, pouting your lips as you reached to hold his hand. âOkay, only because the bed is comfortable,â you got up, barely standing before Nicholas grabbed you and carried you over his shoulder making you yelp in surprise. âYixiang!â he smirked, a light smack to your ass while he walked you both back to the bedroom. âLove you, princess.â you grumbled, âLove you tooâŠâ
EUIJOO
You and Euijoo rarely argue, heâs such a gentleman â always kind and understanding but you werenât sure whatâs gotten in him tonight and you werenât in the mood to find out. Everything was manageable until it was time to sleep and you did not want to share the bed Euijoo, not tonight at least so you opted to sleep on the couch since you had no other beds.
With a heavy sigh, you laid down wrapping yourself in the blanket hoping it can ease some of your nerves. Just as you were about to close your eyes, a flash of orange crossed your vision then, you felt it. Euijooâs scent engulfed your senses but you kept your eyes shut, nuzzling into the blanket more. âIâm so sorry my angel,â
His hands moving to caress your hair softly, his warmth comforting you. âplease look at me⊠I canât bear sleeping alone without you in my arms.â Prompted by words, you opened one eye, squinting at him. âYou upset me, Euijoo,â you mumbled, âI know! And I'm so sorry angel, I really didnât mean it. Please forgive me,âÂ
Something about him being on his knees to be on eye level with you, begging for your forgiveness with the sweetest tone and glassy eyes that made you agree. âOkay, iâll come to bed.â he beamed, a bright smile as he got up and helped you up as well â hands coming up to your waist and pulling you in for a sweet kiss. âThank you, my angel.â
YUMA
You and Yuma got into an argument over something silly earlier, so silly you couldnât even recall what it was but you were so heated and ready to prove a point that you just took your pillow and blanket and headed straight to the couch.Â
Chest huffing and puffing as you passed by Yuma in your bedroom, an angry frown on your lips as you set up the couch for the night, closing the lights before laying down. You scrolled on your phone a bit before putting it away and going to sleep.Â
Just as you were about to fall asleep, you can feel your body getting lifted â at first, you thought you were dreaming, then you felt your hand being moved draped against Yumaâs shoulder as he carried you bridal style to the bedroom. Your eyes shot wide open, Yumaâs visage was the first thing you saw. âWhat the fuck are you doing?âÂ
âIâm not sleeping in this bed alone. Be angry all you want but youâre not cramming yourself on that couch,â he mumbled, placing down on your shared bed gently. âYuma, I'm still upset,â he huffed, laying down next to you and pulling you right into his arms.Â
You can feel his chest against your back, his beating heart, his warm hands on your waist and your edges soften a bit. âI'm sorry⊠I overreacted,â yuma grumbled into your hair. âWhat was that?â you asked, tone slightly teasing, âI said I'm sorry,â he whined, teeth nipping at your earlobe gently. âThank you, yuyu,â his chest purring with delight, hugging you tighter as you both fell asleep basking in each otherâs warmth.
JO
It was silly, your argument with Jo but at the heat of the moment you made the rash decision to take your things and camp the living room and you werenât one to go back on your word â thatâs how you found yourself on the couch, barely seeing anything from the darkness.Â
You sighed and pulled the blanket over your shoulder, mind racing with many thoughts you were sure sleep was not an option tonight. You were, however, pulled out of your thoughts when you felt a cold hand on your cheek, letting out a yelp of surprise! âAh, sorry darling. Itâs just me.â Joâs warm voice soothing your frayed nerves.
âJo! You scared me.â you whined, âIâm sorry, i thought you could hear me coming to you.â he softly mumbled before adding, âThe bed is cold without you, please come back.â his hand caressing your cheek softly.Â
âJoââ you were about to start on why you were upset but he cut you off, âI'm so sorry for being harsh earlier, itâs very wrong of me and unfair to you, my love. Would you forgive me?â he says in one breath, clearly nervous and all your anger dissipates. Your hands moving to rest atop his on your cheek, âLetâs go to bed, babyâ you whispered, a small smile on your lips as you let him lead you back to your shared bed and he knew all is forgiven.
HARUA
Harua stood frozen in the doorway after youâd taken the pillow and blanket to the couch without a word. the snap heâd given you earlier still burned in his throatâpractice had been a disaster, yumaâs teasing, the missed counts, the forgotten snacks. He'd taken it out on you and you didnât have to take it anymore.
Your body ached, the couch was small, your body crowded but you werenât going to back. Ten minutes later, Harua couldnât take it anymore, padding over and crouching beside the couch where you lay facing away from him. âIâm sorry, angel âŠâ his voice was barely a whisper. You didnât answer.Â
Harua reached out, fingers brushing your hair back with the gentlest touch, âI was an idiot. You didnât deserve any of that,â he got up, disappearing for a second, then returning with his favorite hoodieâthe oversized one that smelled like him. He drapes it over you like a blanket, tucking it around your shoulders. Then, he moved to grab the spare pillow, laying down on the floor right in front of the couch, and curling up on his side.Â
His hand stretched up, fingertips resting lightly against the edge of the cushion near yours. âIâm not sleeping in our bed without you,â he murmured into the dark. âSo I'll be right here⊠whenever youâre ready.â unbeknownst to him that youâve heard everything, heart aching to get up and do something but opting to talk about it in the morning.
TAKI
"Oh my god, Taki I keep telling you to tidy up but I always come back to find a mess!" you complained, a frown on your lips as you looked at him with annoyance and disappointment. âBut, baby iâll do it in a bitââ Taki started but you cut him off, âno. you always say that and you donât do it and leave it to me and iâm tired,â heavy sigh, moving to get your blanket and pillow and leaving the room to sleep on the couch.Â
You laid down, trying to settle in for the night when you heard banging and other noises coming from the kitchen, grumbling as you pulled the blanket over your face. A while passes by with this continuous noise going on before it halts and your tense muscles finally relax. Just as you were about to fall asleep, the blanket was moved from your face gently and you came face to face with a panting Taki. âTaki, what are youââ he smiled, getting on his knees to face you properly, "I cleaned up! Itâs good as new, so please come back to bed.âÂ
âTakiââ he whined, shaking his head, âplease please, iâve been good i did what you asked, please baby,â his eyes turning glassy, rosy lips forming a cute pout as he sat on his knees begging for your forgiveness and who were you to deny him when he was so sweet like this. âHmm, okay baby. Letâs go to bed.â his body buzzing with excitement as he leads you back to your shared bedroom, placing kisses all over your cheeks.Â
MAKI
âMove, youâre on my side of the couch,â Maki grumbled, wrapped in the blanket like a burrito, a pillow in hand, towering over you with a frown on his face. You looked up and cocked your brows, head tilted in confusion, âGo sleep in the bed?â he shook his head furiously, pillow falling from his grip. âYeaaah, not happening. Iâm not sleeping alone so if youâre gonna camp out here so am I,â
You huffed, âso you steal my clothes, gaslight me into thinking I lost them and now you wonât give me space?â your tone sharp, seeping anger and annoyance moving away from him. âBaby, if I give you space I will shrivel up and die! Do you want me dead? Do you hate me?â he sighed dramatically, sinking to his knees on the floor, his head resting on your stomach.
âMaki â oh my god! one night to myself I'm upset with you right now,â he whines, rubbing his head onto your belly. No! tell me what to do and iâll do it, baby please i need you,â he looks up to you, cheeks squished against you â flashing his best puppy eyes, silently pleading you to come join him in bed and you sighed, âFine, but youâre replacing everything you took!âÂ
He brightens up, moving to pepper your entire face with fleeting kisses eliciting quiet giggles out of you, your annoyance dissipated completely like it was never truly there. âThank you, baby! love you baby!â your hands moving up to cup his cheeks and squish them tightly, âlove you too silly boy.â
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(a/n: special thanks and credits to my baby moka for helping with harua's part ( ËÍ á” ËÍâĄ) )