Apology and Announcement
Hey. I know it’s been a long time since I’ve been on this blog. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t running away, in a way, by avoiding this for so long.
I said a lot of horrible things on this blog, and I’m really, truly sorry. I know I can never properly apologize for the things I said. I was immature and stupid, and it turns out I was pretty deep in denial about a lot of personal things. The nature of fandom in general clashed really badly with my mental state. (If you want to know more details, shoot me a message over at brunetteairhead.tumblr.com.)
But that’s an explanation, not an excuse.
I’ve learned a lot while I was away from RPing. I figured out a lot about myself, my identity, and my writing. I like to imagine that I’ve matured some, but I know I still have improvements to make.
That being said, I’d like to return to RPing as Merlin sometime this summer. I’ll probably turn this blog into an archive and make a new blog for this as a side blog off of my current blog-cluster. I’ll keep the same url to prevent confusion. I also don’t want to seem like I’m running away from what I did anymore. If someone has a grudge against me, they should be able to avoid me.
I’ll probably be selective this time around. I get easily overwhelmed when I have too much to respond to, and I think this is the easiest solution for that. I’ll RP with friends I’ve stayed in touch with first and then see how many people I can handle from there. In all honesty, I don’t think it’s fair to others to try RPing with people I’m not comfortable communicating with until I get myself fully sorted out. This won’t be immediate since I need time to reconfigure how I’ll handle Merlin, but I’m hoping to do it soon-ish.
If you have any questions, it’s easiest to reach me at @brunetteairhead. Again, I’m sorry for everything that I said before. Regardless of what was going on with me, it was inappropriate and hurtful.
