THE FIRST EXPLORER

what is more unfair than having to choose between being a MONSTER or being a HERO? (when you have to be b o t h ) when you learn that the road to hell is paved with more than just good intentions. (you are not heads or tails. you are the COIN) SUPER SELECTIVE, MUTUALS ONLY, FANDOMLESS OC FROM THE WORLDS TRILOGY. KIERAN COOPER, the first explorer. LOVED BY NERHYS

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nicest of them all so far (scngless‌)

                “They don’t care about your apologies. As awful as it might sound, you are not going anywhere until they generously decide you are free to go.” Something Finn himself has little say in, not that he very much cares about the man in front of him. He just hopes they will not kill him – or drink from him. That would be a disturbing image. “They need to make sure you will not return; Elijah is too important to have someone looking just like him running around.”

               Does Finn sound sarcastic? Perhaps a bit. Truthfully, he doesn’t even know why Kieran is still there.

                “Whoever she is, you should hope she will not come for you.” Finn finally looks at him and takes in HOW TIRED the man seems – there is something about his exhaustion, the sadness with which he says the word HER, that feels familiar. For whatever reason, it makes Finn think about Sage. “They would use her against you.” Not that they need to go that far, not when they are holding all the cards; but his brothers have always loved their games. “You will be there for a while, Kieran. Perhaps you should consider getting some sleep.” The human surely seems to be in need of it.

           THAT brought a humourless chuckle from Kieran. “Reminds me of someone.” While he was sure - actually not at all - that these people didn’t have a secret torture laboroty hidden somewhere, the IDEA that he wasn’t allowed to leave until someone else gave him permission, holding him here with FORCE, well, it wasn’t hard for Kieran’s mind to jump to another man in a suit. He wondered if Zavier and this Elijah would get along - then he decided, no. They would not. They would not like the other being in charge. “Then why not tell me to leave and never return? I assure you, even without this compulsion, I would be glad to do so.” 

            But the answer was simple. “The reason your brother has not let me go yet is clear to me. I’m an ODDITY. He’s curious. I cannot blame that, though I can blame the way he handles that curiosity. At least it is better than how my former employer handles his.” another bitter chuckle, but then Kieran frowned and looked up at the man; “He is not planning to experiment on me, right?”

             But he drops his head again, and shook his head. “At least that is one concern I don’t have.” Leslie would not be coming for him. Before - perhaps, yes, if he had taken too long to check in. She would have searched for him, but now - she would have no idea if he was in danger. A ghost of a smile appears on his face, as the thought passes through of Leslie kicking all their asses. While he’s not certain she actually could - in his mind? There was NOTHING that could stop her. “What better time to sleep than when one is held prisoner?” He was utterly exhausted, and on some level he knew he needed sleep - but he did not want to NOW, not in unfamiliar territory. Though at some point, he would no longer have any say in the matter, and his body would make him sleep. “I don’t think I got your name.”

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“You always know how to make me smile.” ( leslie )

@scngless

              “this is good news.” he can’t help his own smile at leslie’s confession, and it swells a feeling of pride in him. making leslie smile is one of the best things he could do. “because i will make use of this knowledge for as long as i live - and that will be a very long time.”

[belladoesrpmeme]

𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ♡

For the fluff and soft hearted, here is another lists of sentence starters that has the highest potentiality to turn into a soft scenarios. Feel free to change any pronouns / sentence structure according to your muse’s preference!     TRIGGER WARNING:   N/A.

“I never noticed your eyes were this [colour].”

“Your heartbeat’s really loud.”

“You asleep?”

“I like this, being so close to you.”

“Your hair keeps falling into your eyes, do you know that? Here, lemme just—”

“You’re so, so, so pretty.”

“I just — I’m breathless, okay? Whenever I’m with you, it happens.”

“You make my heart beat so quick.”

“You always know how to make me smile.”

“You’ll always be safe with me.”

[Kisses the other on the cheek]

“Always.”

“I can’t imagine being anywhere but here with you.”

“All my choices lead me to you.”

“I’ll never give you up.”

“I sleep better if you’re around.”

“You snore in your sleep. But… it’s adorable, okay?”

“I like this. A quiet breakfast with you.”

“There’re billions of people on this planet, and I love you. How incredible is that?”

“I trust you.”

[Holds the other’s hand when they think the other won’t notice]

“You keep staring at me instead of watching the film. What’s up?”

“Let’s push all of these stuff away. I wanna dance here right now with you.”

“Are we really doing this? Are we really slow-dancing?”

“When you laugh like that, it just — you’re so beautiful, you know that?”

“No, sorry, you laughed. I … I never saw it before. It’s — pretty.”

“You haven’t laughed in a long time, and I guess I was staring ‘cause I forgot how that looked like.”

[Puts head on the other’s shoulder]

“I will never let you go.”

“You’re the best thing to have ever happened to me.”

“You wrote me a song?”

“You’ve got a fever. Of course I’m not going anywhere.”

[Suddenly feels around the bed to search for the other’s hand / body when they’re sleeping]

[Extends a hand when they see the other was searching for it while they’re sleeping]

“I just feel calmer. When I’m with you.”

“You’re not in bed. I came looking for you.”

“What are you doing up? Come to bed.”

“It’s weird. I never thought I could feel like this, but you showed up. Now, it’s like I don’t wanna go on knowing I might lose the feeling.”

“I don’t mind sharing the blankets with you.”

“You’re cold. Come here.”

“You always do that. You always warm me up.”

“Stay.”

“It’s getting crowded. Here, hold my hand.”

[Hugs for a very long time]

[Puts feet on the other’s lap]

“I’m so proud of you, you know that?”

“I love you.”

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"i didn't get myself shot for attention and people are being mean :/" kieran tattling on us to leslie <3

not a meme@worldexplorcr ( leslie & kieran!! )

              “That’sdumb, why in hell would you ever get yourself shot for attention?” Leslie isirritated by the very idea; mostly because she spent so long by his side, freakedout of her mind and – oh. OH. Well, Kieran didn’t do it just so she’d fuss overhim, she saw how much he was angsting about being useless ( untrue. kieran ismany many things but USELESS is not one of them. ) “You want me to beat the livingshit out of them, honey?”

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🐺- A memory about being alone

@scngless (meme.) 

     the safe house was empty. kieran dumped his bag containing the small amount supplies he'd taken (not enough, some would say, the food would not last a week. too much, he'd say. the organisation needed their supplies more than he did) and just stared.he stared at nothing in particular, and also everything at once. 

     "you fucked up, cooper.” kieran said, his voice soft. oh, how badly he did. he should be angry, he should he RAGING - zavier is the reason all this happened, he should be angry at his former friend, his current enemy (oh he was, he was angry at him but ---) 

     sadness prevailed. kieran sometimes wondered if he burned away all the anger he was capable of when he was a teenager, and left only a hollow cave that sadness sat in. He kept staring.he knew this was a part of zaviers plan. isolate kieran, cause him pain, make him come running back to him. oh kieran has spent too much time around him, he knows exactly what his plan was.

     but that did not matter. kieran would not run back to him.

     he would rather be ALONE, as he was now, than face that fate.

[persephonememes]

𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄𝟖 /  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠.

❛ I thought about it a lot. ❜

❛ I won’t lie. It hurt. ❜

❛ Hey, make sure you cover the exit, okay? ❜

❛ Distract the big one, go over that car for a clean shot. ❜

❛ That was hot. ❜

❛ I need you to do something for me. ❜

❛ You will pay. ❜

❛ You have a heart as soft as a baby bird. ❜

❛ Is this our life now? Is this our new normal? ❜

❛ Are you okay with it? ❜

❛ Choice is less about what happens than it is about how we deal with it. ❜

❛ I’ve been thinking a lot about all the things  that have happened to us over this past year. ❜

❛ I don’t think there’s been a single day  when I didn’t hear that same voice in my head telling me  "Whatever you do  do not let her go.” ❜

❛ You cannot change the world on an empty stomach. ❜

❛ I need a drink first. ❜

❛ Labels are the opposite of understanding. ❜

❛ It takes courage to remember that this is a world where our dreams do come true. ❜

❛ But our heart always knows the truth. ❜

❛ People who bear the full weight of truth sometimes break. ❜

❛ Courage. It is contagious. ❜

❛ Your life is either defined by the system, or by the way you defy the system. ❜

❛ Luck is something that reminds you how beautiful the world can be. ❜

❛ Life is not just full of surprises. It’s also full of gifts. ❜

❛ When I’m with you, all the rules and the logic of everyday life, things that were so important to me all go away. ❜

❛ Trying to change the world only leads to suffering. All we can change is ourselves. ❜

❛  Part of being a best friend is  caring more about them than you care about a damn job. ❜

❛ Feelings and emotions can overwhelm our logic, and at the same time, logic can ruin the emotions that make life worth living. ❜

❛ I have no room in my heart for hate. ❜

❛ That which does not kill you makes you stronger. ❜

❛ If your dream isn’t worth the risk, what is? ❜

❛ Nothing good ever happens when people care more about our differences than the things we share in common. ❜

❛ Hope is undiscovered disappointment. ❜

❛ You think you’re hunting us? We’re coming for you. ❜

❛ It is not a game. This is a war. ❜

❛ The real violence, the violence I realized was unforgivable, is the violence that we do to ourselves, when we’re too afraid to be who we really are. ❜

❛ Some things in our lives are inevitable. ❜

❛ Look, love is not something we wind up, something we set or control. ❜

❛ Love is just like art: a force that comes into our lives without any rules, expectations or limitations. Love like art, must always be free. ❜

❛ Impossibility is a kiss away from reality. ❜

❛ Without the past,  there would be nothing to think about, let alone  someone  to think it. ❜

❛ I’m one of those people who’s comfortable with the idea that there’s more going on in this world that we don’t understand than all the things that we do. ❜

❛ He’s my brother. And not by something as accidental as blood… by something much stronger. By choice. ❜

❛ This is what life is: fear, rage, desire… love. To stop feeling emotions, to stop wanting to feel them, is to feel… death. ❜

❛ Our existence depends on sheer implausibility. ❜

❛ I take everything I am feeling, everything that matters to me… I push all of it into my fist, and I fight for it. ❜

❛ Sometimes you make a mistake. You’ve got two choices: you live with it, or you fix it. ❜

❛ That day, I learned life and death are always so mixed up together, in the same way some beginnings are endings, and some endings become beginnings. ❜

❛ We, like these books, or these diamonds, have the secrets of our past hidden inside us. ❜

❛ It’s obedience, not resistance. That’s the glue of every country, every army, every religion in the world. ❜

❛ In the end, we will all be judged by the courage of our hearts. ❜

❛ We all know when people are lying to us, we just don’t want to listen. ❜

❛ Death doesn’t let you say goodbye. It just carves holes in your life, in your future, in your heart. ❜

❛ There’s a huge difference between what we work for and what we live for. ❜

❛ I love you. That’s why you can’t give up. I love you. ❜

❛ Killing is easy when you can feel nothing. ❜

❛ The past is done with us the moment we are done with it. ❜

❛ Who can say if it is we who make the choice, or the choice that makes us. ❜

[melamemea]

fighting sentences .

“ you have to get out of here — now! ”

“ leave it to me, i got this ! ”

“ you can’t do this on your own! ”

“ stay behind me! ”

“ we have to keep pushing on! ”

“ it’s too late to turn back now. ”

“ where are we supposed to hit!? ”

“ it’s too strong! ”

“ i can’t do this alone! ”

“ i’m going to lure it away, attack when you have a chance! ”

“ we can’t give up now. ”

“ fucking help me! ”

“ are you going to cry or fight!? ”

“ you’re so weak. ”

“ is this all you can do!? ”

“ i see you’ve come out to play ~ ”

“ come out, come out ~ wherever you are! ”

“ it’s just you and me now. ”

“ you’re coughing blood! ”

“ you have to stop — at this rate you’ll — ”

“ i’m not gonna die! i can’t die. not now. ”

“ i was made to do this. ”

“ my weaponry is down! i can’t do anything! ”

“ i … i need help — ”

“ take my hand! ”

“ out of ammo! i need backup ! ”

“ we can’t just go in blind! ”

“ this is how i lead. ”

“ if you can’t walk the distance, then get the fuck out of here. ”

“ we are required to do sacrifices. it’s what we do. ”

“ you won’t be the same when you come home. ”

“ people are dying out there — and you are planning to do nothing? ”

“ i can’t fight alongside you. not when you’re like this. ”

“ you are going too far. ”

“ i’ll give it my best. ”

“ i’ll distract them. run — run and don’t look back. ”

“ trust me, ( name ). ”

“ why can’t you just stay down!? ”

“ learn your fucking place! ”

“ we need a leader, ( name )! ”

“ nobody WANTS to die, ( name ). but what choice do we have!? ”

“ if you can’t do it — then i’ll do it. ”

“ leave it to me. ”

“ don’t follow me! ”

“ war changed me. ”

“ if i don’t make it back… ”

“ … you have to make it back. you just have to. ”

[worldexplorcr-blog]

❛ aren’t you presumptuous? ❜ ( -throws lucia at you bc why the fook not- )

@dcmncticivs

            “i apologise if my advice was not wanted.” kieran says, his eyebrows furrowing slightly. “i was simply trying to help, but i did mean no insult.”

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🎈- A memory about a time they were safe and relaxed

@scngless

              it was rare that they had some time to themselves, but in this time, this place, they did. it was just the two of them, kieran and leslie, and for the first time in a very long time, kieran felt relaxed. safe. like the outside world(s) wasn’t trying to hurt them. they could just... be in the moment. be THEM. he took leslie’s hand into his, and pressed a kiss to it. “I-” love you, were the words he wanted to say, but even in this moment it was not the right time for them. he opted for another, equally true, statement. “-think you are perfect.”

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here’s kieran’s playlist btw in case anyone is interested!

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⚔️

a memory about WAR. ( @lessereviltm. meme. accepting. )

     kieran should not hold any concerns when he was called to zavier’s office. after all, he was zavier’s right hand man, his confidant, someone zavier trusted. he’d been called to zavier’s offices many times before, and he’d never been concerned before. of course - those times he’d never been actively working against the man. those times he’d put a FILTER on what was RIGHT and what was wrong. he no longer could do that. 

     so yes. concern. if zavier had found out about kieran’s gambit against him - well, he knew of a certain lab that contained special DRUGS that could play with a persons mind, mush their freewill away, turn their mind into a putty for zavier to reshape the way he wished. the thought terrified kieran (what would the monster he had called a friend turn him into?) and he knew that he would choose death over that.

      he scanned his security card, and the door to his boss’s office opened up, and he was greeted with the view overlooking nox city from large windows on the far wall. He tilted his head and the thought of ‘i wonder how the people would react if they knew the great and wonderful zavier tasker was torturing people in his labs’ passed through his mind, but he banished that quickly. he couldn’t let any hint of him being anything BUT loyal be shown (not even in his thoughts) as he turned to face zavier, sitting in his desk, with a greeting smile.

      “zavier. i was not expecting you to call me up here. how can i help you?” kieran asked, tilting his head a fraction.

      “kieran, i’m afraid i have troubling news. please, take a seat.”  zavier gestured at the seat opposite his desk, so kieran sat with no fuss. he was hyper aware of his WED, in his jacket. it was his only escape option should this turn south (he’d left his gun in his apartment).

       “what’s wrong?”

      instead of answering with words, zavier turned the monitor of his computer to show some security footage. it was grainy, like the world that this had been taken from did not have decent recording technology yet. the contents of the security footage - well, grainy or not, kieran would recognise leslie anywhere. he squinted. “is that the dead visitor?” he asked, glancing up at zavier.

     “it would appears so - except she’s less dead than i recall.” zavier turned his monitor back. “leslie searle, alive and well, apparently.”

     “that’s not possible.” he’s frowning, as if confused. oh it was entirely possible as HE’D been the one to get her out of the labs before the SICK experiments had actually ended her. “i checked her body myself.”

      “yes, you did. forgive me kieran, but i MUST ask this. did you set her free?”

      kieran scoffed. “of course not.” 

      zavier nodded his head. “which has me wondering if there is someone in the visitor labs working against us. i want you too look into this kieran. we cannot have this happen again.”

      kieran nodded his head as he stood from his head. then he paused. “what did the visitor do?”

      zavier turned the monitor around again, showing footage of leslie leaving what appeared to be a warehouse. a warehouse kieran knew to hold a shipment of special materials that was only on that world, and was going to be collected by explorers the next day. it went up in flames. adstrum’s materials burned.

      “it’s an act of war.” zavier said, with a shake of his head. “that foolish woman believes that we will be intimidated so easily? that she can go to battle against us? if she wishes to PLAY a game she knows nothing about, then so be it. if it is war the visitors want, it is WAR they will GET.”

       kieran frowned. “and one they will lose.” sadly, the truth unless they could get outside help. help like kieran. “i’ll get started on this investigation, zavier. i’ll let you know what i find.”

      “thank you kieran.” zavier smiled warmly at him. “i know you will do your job to it’s full effect. you always have.”

        kieran smiled, despite the twisting in his stomach, and then left.

[melodyoflights]

   KIERAN COOPER AESTHETIC

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               starter call!

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More Memories

🌈- A memory about when they first fell in love

🌋- A memory about their first heartbreak

🏠- A memory about their childhood home/where they used to live

📷- A memory that comes with a picture they have

💡- A memory that comes with an object or keepsake they have

🔪- A memory about a dangerous situation

🎈- A memory about a time they were safe and relaxed

📔- A memory from a journal/diary entry

📝- A memory of them getting to know/meeting my muse

🔗- A memory about their proposal/wedding

🐥- A memory about their children (past, present, or future)

👘- A memory associated with an article of clothing they have

⚔️- A memory about war

🌅- A memory associated with a certain location

🏚- A memory about exploration

🛤- A memory about traveling

🌠- A time they wished upon a falling star

🐕-A memory of teamwork

🐺- A memory about being alone

🌟- WILDCARD

❄️Feel Free to add more memory prompts to this!❄️

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i’m so sorry (scngless‌)

              It was supposed to be a regular resource run she’s sent him on, nothing out of ordinary. Something that could still go deadly wrong but normally DIDN’T. And so she didn’t expect she would be getting such news instead. It’s a good thing he takes so long to get back; otherwise, she might have punched him at hello ( she doesn’t want that. she hates HOW ANGRY she is all the time; kieran used to take some of that anger away, bring out the softer version of her she didn’t know still existed. )

              I CAN EXPLAIN are the last words Leslie wants to her. Up until now, she hoped it wasn’t true – Tasker is a fucking liar and would do anything to screw them over – but Kieran admits it. He’s not just some Explorer, he is the first. He’s the reason Tasker even knows about them ( he’s the reason she is still alive. that they have gotten as far as they have, saved as many as they have. but has any of it been real? )

              Leslie turns towards him but doesn’t look at him. Her whole posture is guarded, deep into fight or flight mode; out of phase, too.

              “Talk, then.” Her voice is stone cold, none of the fondness she’s grown to feel towards him. “But no more lies –  ONE lie, Kieran, and you’re out.”

        she’s angry, and he cannot fault her. he forces himself not to look away (look away from mistakes of his own making.) kieran sighed and nodded his head. the TRUTH, it is what leslie deserves and she’s deserved it long before now. no lies. never a lie (never again). it was... difficult to explain, without going back to the beginning. “my father was arrested when i was fourteen.” after all, that’s where this story began, isn’t it? “i was scared and angry, going to be lost in the foster system. no one wanted the son of a murderer. my salvation came in the form of zavier tasker. he made me a deal - he needed someone for a job, and it’d get me out of there.” in his 14 year old mind, had there been any other choice?

        “sixteen when i first went to another world. the first person from world beta to make it out into the multiverse.” this is the part he looks away from her, he isn’t able to see her reaction. he can’t. “nineteen when i found the visitor. she’d trespassed on one of the adstrum hubs on another world - she... attacked me. i killed her.” self defense, but he still killed her (killed one of leslie’s kind) “it was because of that the existence of visitors were discovered. because of me.”

         that’s not even touching on the list. oh, the LIST. what a fool he’d been! complete and utter trust his boss, in his FRIEND, that he would do the right thing, only capable of the right thing! “i made a list.” a quiet admission (one that he’s sure zavier made sure she’d hear.) “i went to world alpha. found some visitors. i did not - i didn’t do anything other than write their names down. but zavier -” he’d USED his list. for deeds that leslie knows only too well.

        “i - i should have told you -” but SHOULD HAVES and could haves are long gone. only the now remains and he feels he knows what’s about to come (and he does not blame her one bit) “i know that apologies will never be enough - but everything i have done, i’ve been trying to make up for the death i am responsible for.”

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i know i've only reblogged 2 but, anyone like to send me memes for when i get on later? c:

[melodyoflights]

“I knew I would not get away with it forever, but I am pleased to know it has taken you this long to find out.”

how to call your evil boss ‘slow’ to his face and get away with it, a 1 step guide by kieran cooper