This was my tumblr profile from 5 years ago I am almost 25 years old now. This is The first time seeing it since I closed the account back in 2016 and it’s surreal to see myself from and outward perspective. I no longer listen to those bands. They are all now vinyls collecting dust on a shelf in my home. I will probably listen to them again when I am feeling nostalgic but other than that my music take has shifted to RnB and soul. Never thought that would be what I reacted to most but I think with an emotional shift, music taste is so related. I no longer want to listen to bands that talk about being alone and unloved because I am neither of those things. I want to listen to music that discusses love in a more musical way instead of screaming about not being loved at all. I want to listen to artist that discuss the nitty gritty parts of love. That sing about sex and passion and emotions. Artists like Ama Lou, Jhene Aiko, Teyana Taylor. Artists, black artists in fact. With voices like butter, that when I listen to them, all the stress and anguish from the day vanishes. Making my day better, making me sing, making be smile. I sing their songs to my girlfriend and she just listens. I don’t think she fully understands what I hear when I listen to these songs. They aren’t always songs proclaiming love but they are songs about hardships and songs about grief but the use of language and rhythm are astounding and mesmerising. I am at peace when I listen to Ama Lou, Jhene Aiko and Teyana Taylor. I am happier.
