extremely off topic. this isn't about any show or anything, this is just a rant.
i think we're all familiar with the age old excuse, "but i don't have the right tools." coming from people who want to be artists. It's a pretty common complaint that i see all the time, especially under other artists tiktoks or social media posts.
but it's not a reason for being unable to draw. it's an admission of laziness. i'm not being mean here, i'm simply saying that if you don't at least try with the materials you already have, you don't want to do art. if you can't draw with an old mechanical pencil you've had since high school, when the quiet kid in the back of the class had already been doing that since the start of the year. you simply don't want to draw.
if you really do like something and want to do something, you will find a way to do it with what little you have now.
but it's not just laziness or lack of any real ambition or desire that keeps people from drawing or creating art, it's shame. it's fear of failure, of not being good enough.
we as a society have a nasty habit of praising the perfectionists and putting down anyone who can't meet an impossible standard. but what is perfectionism if it's not shame? i used to call myself a perfectionist. it was something kid me used, to brag to my friends. but it's not something to brag about. i was a perfectionist—i still am a perfectionist, because i don't like to fail. because i feel silly for liking art when i draw something subpar. i feel stupid for liking things that i'm not good at, because i was groomed by the american public education system to be ashamed when i can't do something.
if my last anecdote seemed a little far fetched, try to remember your childhood. i went to a lackluster public school that couldn't teach me in a way that i needed and i was punished for it. i didn't know how to divide up until i was 20 years old, because every school i went to would sooner shame me for not being able to do math, than actually try a different way of teaching it.
how many of you had to write you names on the board for misbehaving or not doing homework? How many of you had to go to detention for it? Who got letters sent home to your parents? who didn't get to go on field trips because of it? how many of you were a little too young to be responsible for library books and when you eventually lost them you were never able to read a book in the library?
all of these things are methods of public humiliation and shaming. and i don't want to see anyone saying 'it's not that deep' because what if they made you, at your place of work, walk up in front of all your coworkers and write your name on the board for not getting something done fast enough, or not doing it right?
when you were a kid, how many teachers asked you if you were alright, or why you were acting out or not doing your homework? how many teachers believed you? how many teachers offered help? how many times did it take for them to stop asking and just punish you?
you see, all of us were brought up to fear failure, to be ashamed of not knowing something.
artists. let me ask you to think of the drawing or painting you absolutely hate, or are embarrassed of. would you post that online? i think most of you wouldn't. i wouldn't. when you watch videos of people's progress—the ones like pwediepie's drawing progress for a hundred days or so. or just social media posts of people's progress. do you think they're showing you everything? i mean absolutely everything? even the drawings they despise?
it's because we're all just a tiny bit shameful, or afraid of shame, or afraid of failure, or of not being good enough. Why do you think ai art is so popular? because those people are just ashamed. they're too ashamed to pick up a pencil or a brush. or they're too ashamed of what their art already looks like.